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Lois McMaster Bujold
KOMARR
CHAPTER ONE
The last gleaming sliver of Komarr's true-sun
melted out of sight beyond the low hills on the western horizon.
Lagging behind it in the vault of the heavens, the reflected fire of
the solar mirror sprang out in brilliant contrast to the darkening,
purple-tinged blue. When Ekaterin had first viewed the hexagonal
soletta-array from downside on Komarr's surface, she'd immediately
imagined it as a grand Winterfair ornament, hung in the sky like a
snowflake made of stars, benign and consoling. She leaned now on her
balcony overlooking Serifosa Dome's central city park, and gravely
studied the lopsided spray of light through the glassy arc overhead. It
sparkled deceptively in contrast to the too-dark sky. Three of the six
disks of the star-flake shone not at all, and the central seventh was
occluded and dull.
Ancient Earthmen, she had read,
had taken alterations in the clockwork procession of their
heavens—comets, novae, shooting stars—for disturbing omens,
premonitions of disasters natural or political; the very word, disaster,
embedded the astrological source of the concept. The collision two
weeks ago of an out-of-control inner-system ore freighter with the
insolation mirror that supplemented Komarr's solar energy was surely
most literally a disaster, instantly so for the half-dozen Komarran
members of the soletta's station-keeping crew who had been killed. But
it seemed to be playing out in slow motion thereafter; it had so far
barely affected the sealed arcologies that housed the planet's
population. Below her, in the park, a crew of workers was arranging
supplemental lighting on high girders. Similar stopgap measures in the
city's food-producing greenhouses must be nearly complete, to spare
them and this equipment to such an ornamental task. No, she reminded
herself; no vegetation in the dome was merely ornamental. Each added
its bit to the biological reservoir that ultimately supported life
here. The gardens in the domes would live, cared for by their human
symbiotes.
Outside the arcologies, in the fragile
plantations that labored to bio-transform a world, it was another
question altogether. She knew the math, discussed nightly at her dinner
table for two weeks, of the percentage loss of insolation at the
equator. Days gone winter-cloudy—except that they were planetwide, and
going on and on, until when? When would repairs be complete? When would
they start, for that matter? As sabotage, if it had been
sabotage, the destruction was inexplicable; as half-sabotage, doubly
inexplicable. Will they try again? If it was a they at all, ghastly malice and not mere ghastly accident.
She
sighed, and turned away from the view, and switched on the spotlights
she'd put up to supplement her own tiny balcony garden. Some of the
Barrayaran plants she'd started were particularly touchy about their
illumination. She checked the light with a meter, and shifted two boxes
of deerslayer vine closer to the source, and set the timers. She moved
about, checking soil temperature and moisture with sensitive and
practiced fingers, watering sparingly where needed. Briefly, she
considered moving her old bonsai'd skellytumi indoors, to provide it
with more controlled conditions, but it was all indoors here on Komarr,
really. She hadn't felt wind in her hair for nearly a year. She felt an
odd twinge of identification with the transplanted ecology outside,
slowly starving for light and heat, suffocating in a toxic atmosphere .
. . Stupid. Stop it. We're lucky to be here.
"Ekaterin!" Her husband's inquiring bellow echoed, muffled, inside the residence tower.
She poked her head through the door to the kitchen. "I'm on the balcony."
"Well, come down here!"
She
set her gardening tools in the box seat, closed the lid, sealed the
transparent doors behind her, and hurried across the room into the hall
and down the circular staircase. Tien was standing impatiently beside
the double doors from their apartment to the building's corridor, a
comm link in his hand.
"Your uncle just called. He's landed at the shuttleport. I'll get him."
"I'll get Nikolai, and go with you."
"Don't
bother, I'm just going to meet him at the West Station locks. He said
to tell you, he's bringing a guest. Another Auditor, some sort of
assistant to him, it sounded like. But he said not to worry, they'll
both take pot luck. He seemed to imagine we'd feed them in the kitchen
or something. Eh! Two Imperial Auditors. Why ever did you have to invite him, anyway?"
She
stared at him in dismay. "How can my Uncle Vorthys come to Komarr and
not see us? Besides, you can't say your department isn't affected by
what he's investigating. Naturally he wants to see it. I thought you
liked him."
He slapped his hand arrhythmically on
his thigh. "Back when he was just the old weird Professor, sure.
Eccentric Uncle Vorthys, the Vor tech. This Imperial appointment of his
took the whole family by surprise. I can't imagine what favors he
called in to get it."
Is that your only idea of how men advance?
But she did not speak the weary thought aloud. "Of all political
appointments, surely Imperial Auditor is the least likely to be gained
that way," she murmured.
"Naive Kat." He smiled
shortly, and hugged her around the shoulders. "No one gets something
for nothing in Vorbarr Sultana. Except, perhaps, your uncle's
assistant, whom I gather is closely related to the Vorkosigan.
He apparently got his appointment for breathing. Incredibly young for
the job, if he's the one I heard about who was sworn in at Winterfair.
A lightweight, I presume, although all your Uncle Vorthys said was that
he was sensitive about his height and not to mention it. At least some
part of this mess promises to be a show."
He
tucked his comm link away in his tunic pocket. His hand was shaking
slightly. Ekaterin grasped his wrist and turned it over. The tremula
increased. She raised her eyes, dark with worry, in silent question to
his.
"No, dammit!" He jerked his arm away. "It's
not starting. I'm just a little tense. And tired. And hungry, so see if
you can't pull together a decent meal by the time we're back. Your
uncle may have prole tastes, but I can't imagine they're shared by a
Vorbarr Sultana lordling." He thrust his hands into his trouser pockets
and looked away from her unhappy frown.
"You're older now than your brother was then."
"Variable onset, remember? We'll go soon. I promise."
"Tien
… I wish you'd give up this galactic treatment plan. They have medical
facilities here on Komarr that are almost as good as, as Beta Colony or
anywhere. I thought, when you won this post here, that you would.
Forget the secrecy, just go openly for help. Or go discreetly, if you
insist. But don't wait any longer!"
"They're not
discreet enough. My career is finally on course, finally paying off. I
have no desire to be publicly branded a mutant now."
If I don't care, what does it matter what anyone else thinks?
She hesitated. "Is that why you don't want to see Uncle Vorthys? Tien,
he's the least likely of my relatives—or yours, for that matter—to care
if your disease is genetic or not. He will care about you, and about
Nikolai."
"I have it under control," he insisted.
"Don't you dare betray me to your uncle, this close to the real payoff.
I have it under control. You'll see."
"Just don't
. . . take your brother's way out. Promise me!" The lightflyer accident
that hadn't been quite an accident: that had ushered in these years of
chronic, subclinical nightmare waiting and watching. . . .
"I
have no intention of doing anything like that. It's all planned. I'll
finish out this year's appointment, then we'll take a long overdue
galactic vacation, you and me and Nikolai. And it will all be fixed,
and no one will ever know. If you don't lose your head and
panic at the last minute!" He grasped her hand, and grimaced an unfelt
smile, and strode out the doors.
Wait and I'll
fix it. Trust me. That's what you said the last time. And the time
before that, and the time before that. . . . Who is betrayed? Tien,
you're running out of time, can't you see it?
She
turned for her kitchen, mentally revising her planned family dinner to
include a Vor lord from the Imperial capital. White wine? Her limited
experience of the breed suggested that if you could get them
sufficiently sloshed, it wouldn't matter what you fed them. She put
another of her precious imported-from-home bottles in to chill. No …
make that two more bottles.
She added another
place to the table on the balcony off the kitchen that they routinely
used for a dining room, sorry now she'd not engaged a servitor for the
evening. But human servants on Komarr were so expensive. And she'd
wanted this bubble of domestic privacy with Uncle Vorthys. Even the
staid official newsvid reps were badgering everyone involved in the
investigation; the arrival of not one but two Imperial Auditors on-site
in Komarr orbit had not calmed the fever of speculation, but only
redirected it. When she'd first spoken with him shortly after his
arrival on-site, on a distance-delayed channel that defeated any
attempt at long conversation, normally-patient Uncle Vorthys's
description of the public briefings into which he'd been roped had been
notably irritated. He'd hinted he would be glad to escape them. Since
his years of teaching must have inured him to stupid questions,
Ekaterin wondered if the true source of his irritation was that he
couldn't answer them.
But mostly, she had to
admit, she just wanted to recapture the flavor of a happier past,
greedily for herself. She'd lived with Aunt and Uncle Vorthys for two
years after her mother had died, attending the Imperial University
under their casual supervision. Life with the Professor and the
Professora had somehow been less constrained, and constraining, than in
her father's conservative Vor household in the South Continent frontier
town of her birth; perhaps because they'd treated her as the adult she
aspired to be, rather than the child she had been. She'd felt, a bit
guiltily, closer to them than to her real parent. For a while, any
future had seemed possible.
Then she'd chosen Etienne Vorsoisson, or he had chosen her . . . You were pleased enough at the time. She'd said Yes to the marriage arrangements her father's Baba had offered, with all good will. You didn't know. Tien didn't know. Vorzohn's Dystrophy. Nobody's fault.
Nine-year-old Nikolai bounded into the kitchen. "I'm hungry, Mama. Can I have a piece of that cake?"
She intercepted fast-moving fingers attempting to sample frosting. "You can have a glass of fruit juice."
"Aw
…" But he accepted the proffered substitute, cannily offered in one of
the good wineglasses lined up waiting. He gulped it down, bobbing about
as he drank. Excited, or was he picking up parental nerves? Stop projecting,
she told herself. The boy had spent the last two hours in his room,
tinkering intently with his models; he was due to shake out the knots.
"Do you remember Uncle Vorthys?" she asked him. "It's been three years since we visited him."
"Sure."
He finished swallowing his snack. "He took me to his laboratory. I
thought it would be beakers and bubbly things, but it was all big
machines and concrete. Smelled funny, kind of dusty and sharp."
"From
the welders and the ozone, that's right," she said, impressed with his
recall. She rescued the glass. "Hold out your hand. I want to see how
much you have left to grow. Puppies with big paws are supposed to grow
up to be big dogs, you know." He held up his hand to hers, and they
met, palm to palm. His fingers were within two centimeters of being as
long as her own. "Oh, my."
He flashed her a
self-conscious, satisfied grin, and stared briefly down at his feet,
wriggling them in speculation. His right big toe poked through a new
hole in his new sock.
His child-light hair was
darkening; it might yet become as brown as hers. He was chest-high to
her, though she could have sworn he had been only hip-high about
fifteen minutes ago. His eyes were brown like his Da's. His grubby
hand-where did he find so much dirt in this dome?—was as steady as his
eyes were clear and guileless. No tremula.
The
early symptoms of Vorzohn's Dystrophy were deceptive, mimicking half a
dozen other diseases, and could strike any time from puberty to middle
age. But not today, not Nikolai.
Not yet.
Sounds
from the apartment's entryway, and low-pitched masculine voices, drew
them out of her kitchen. Nikolai shot ahead of her. When she arrived
behind him, he was already being half picked up by the stout,
white-haired man who seemed to fill the space. "Oof!" He stopped short
of swinging Nikolai around. "You've grown, Nikki!"
Uncle
Vorthys hadn't changed, despite his awe-inspiring new title: same grand
nose and big ears, same rumpled, oversized tunic and trousers that
always looked slept-in, same deep laugh. He deposited his great-nephew
on the flagstones, spared a hug for his niece, which was firmly
returned, and bent and felt in his valise. "Something here for you,
Nikki, I do believe …" Nikolai bounced around him; Ekaterin retreated
temporarily to wait her turn.
Tien was shouldering
through the door with baggage. Only then did she notice the man
standing apart, smiling distantly, watching this homey scene.
She
swallowed startlement. He was barely taller than nine-year-old Nikolai,
but unmistakably not a child. He had a large head set on a short neck,
and a faintly hunched stance; the rest of him looked lean but solid. He
wore tunic and trousers in a subtle gray, the tunic open on a fine
white shirt, and polished half-boots. His clothing was entirely without
the pseudo-military ornamentation usually affected by the high Vor, but
the perfection of the fit—it had to be hand-tailored, to fit that odd
body—hinted a price Ekaterin didn't dare to estimate.
She
was uncertain of his age; not much older than herself, perhaps? There
was no gray in the dark hair, but laugh-lines around his eyes, and
pain-lines around his mouth, scored his winter-pale skin. He
moved stiffly, setting down his valise, wheeling to watch Nikolai
monopolize his great-uncle, but did not otherwise appear very crippled.
He was not a figure who blended in, but his air was notably
unobtrusive. Socially uncomfortable? Ekaterin was recalled abruptly to
her duties as a daughter of the Vor.
She advanced to him. "Welcome to my household …" ack, Tien hadn't mentioned his name "… my Lord Auditor."
He
held out his hand and captured hers in a perfectly ordinary,
businesslike grasp. "Miles Vorkosigan." His hand was dry and warm,
smaller than her own, but bluntly masculine; clean nails. "And you,
Madame?"
"Oh! Ekaterin Vorsoisson."
He
released her hand without kissing it, to her relief. She stared briefly
at the top of his head, level with her collarbone, realized he would be
speaking to her cleavage, and stepped back a little. He looked up at
her, still smiling slightly.
Nikolai was already
dragging Uncle Vorthys's larger bag toward the guest room, proudly
showing off his strength. Tien properly followed his senior guest.
Ekaterin made a rapid recalculation. She couldn't possibly put this
Vorkosigan fellow up in Nikolai's room; the child's bed would be such
an embarrassingly good fit. Invite an Imperial Auditor to sleep on her
living room couch? Hardly. She gestured him to follow her down the
opposite hallway, into her planting-room-cum-office. One whole side was
given over to a workbench and shelving, crammed with supplies;
cascading lighting arrays climbing the corners nourished tender new
plantings, in a riotous variety of Earth greens and Barrayaran
red-browns. A large open area on the floor fronted a fine wide window.
"We
haven't much space," she apologized. "I'm afraid even Barrayaran
administrators here must accept what's assigned to them. I'll order in
a grav-bed for you, I'm sure they'll have it delivered before dinner's
over. But at least the room's private. My uncle snores so
magnificently. . . . The bath's just down the hall to the right."
"It's
fine," he assured her. He stepped to the window and stared out over the
domed park. The lights in the encircling buildings gleamed warmly in
the luminous twilight of the half-eclipsed mirror.
"I know it's not what you're used to."
One
corner of his mouth twitched up. "I once slept for six weeks on bare
dirt. With ten thousand extremely grubby Marilacans, many of whom
snored. I assure you, it's just fine."
She smiled
in return, not at all certain what to make of this joke, if it was a
joke. She left him to arrange his things as he saw fit, and scurried to
call the rental company and finish setting up dinner.
They
all rendezvoused, despite her best intentions for a more formal
service, in her kitchen, where the little Auditor foiled her
expectations again by only allowing her to pour him half a glass of
wine. "I started today with seven hours in a pressure suit. I'd be
asleep with my face in my plate before dessert." His gray eyes glinted.
She
herded them all out to the table on the balcony and presented the
mildly spicy stew based oh vat-protein that she'd correctly guessed her
uncle would like. By the time she handed round the bread and wine,
she'd at last caught up enough to finally have a word with her uncle
herself.
"What's happening now with your investigation? How long can you stay?"
"Not
much more than what you've heard on the news, I'm afraid," he replied.
"We can only take this downside break while the probable-cause crews
finish collecting the pieces. We're still missing some fairly important
ones. The freighter's tow was fully loaded, and had a tremendous mass.
When the engines blew, bits of all sizes vectored off in every possible
direction and speed. We desperately want any parts of its control
systems we can find. They should have most of it retrieved in three
more days, if we're lucky." "So was it deliberate sabotage?" Tien asked.
Uncle
Vorthys shrugged. "With the pilot dead, it's going to be very hard to
prove. It might have been a suicide mission. The crews have found no
sign yet of military or chemical explosives."
"Explosives would have been redundant," murmured Vorkosigan.
"The
spinning freighter hit the mirror array at the worst possible angle,
edge-on," Uncle Vorthys continued. "Half the damage was done by parts
of the mirror itself. With that much momentum imparted to it by the
assorted collisions, it just ripped itself apart."
"If
all that result was planned, it had to have been a truly amazing
calculation," Vorkosigan said dryly. "It's the one thing which inclines
me to the belief it might have been a true accident."
Ekaterin watched her husband, watching the little Auditor covertly, and read the silent disturbed judgment, Mutant!
in his eyes. What was Tien going to make of the man, who openly bore,
without apparent apology or even self-consciousness, such stigmata of
abnormality?
Tien turned to Vorkosigan, his gaze
curious. "I can see why Emperor Gregor dispatched the Professor, the
Empire's foremost authority on failure analysis and all that. What's,
um, your part in this, Lord Auditor Vorkosigan?"
Vorkosigan's
smile twisted. "I have some experience with space installations." He
leaned back, and jerked up his chin, and smoothed the odd flash of
irony from his face. "In fact, as far as the probable-cause
investigation goes, I'm merely along for the ride. This is the first
really interesting problem to come along since I took oath as an
Auditor three months ago. I wanted to watch how it was done. With his
Komarran marriage coming up, Gregor is vitally interested in any
possible political repercussions from this accident. Now would be a
very awkward time for a serious downturn in Barrayar-Komarr relations.
But whether accident or sabotage, the damage to the mirror impinges
quite directly on the Terraforming Project. I understand your Serifosa
Sector is fairly representative?"
"Indeed. I'll
take you both on a tour tomorrow," Tien promised. "I'm having a full
technical report prepared for you by my Komarran assistants, with all
the numbers. But the most important number is still pure speculation.
How fast is the mirror going to be repaired?"
Vorkosigan
grimaced and held out a small hand, palm-up. "How fast depends in part
on how much money the Imperium is willing to spend. And that's where
things become very political indeed. With parts of Barrayar itself
still undergoing active terraforming, and with the planet of Sergyar
drawing off immigrants from both the worlds damned near as fast as they
can board ship, some members of the government are wondering openly why
we are spending so much Imperial treasure dinking with such a marginal
world as Komarr."
Ekaterin could not tell from his
measured tone whether he agreed with those members or not. Startled,
she said, "The terraforming of Komarr was going on for three centuries
before we conquered it. We can hardly stop now."
"So
are we throwing good money after bad?" Vorkosigan shrugged, declining
to answer his own question. "There's a second layer of thinking, a
purely military one. Restricting the population to the domes makes
Komarr more militarily vulnerable. Why give the citizenry of a
conquered world extra territory in which to fall back and regroup? This
line of thought makes the interesting assumption that three hundred or
so years from now, when the terraforming is at last complete,
the populations of Komarr and Barrayar will still not have assimilated
each other. If they did, then they would be our domes, and we certainly wouldn't want them to be vulnerable, eh?"
He
paused for a bite of bread and stew, washed down by wine, then went on,
"Since assimilation is Gregor's avowed policy, and he's putting his
Imperial person where his policy is … the question of motivation for
sabotage becomes, er, complex. Could the saboteurs have been
isolationist Barrayarans? Komarran extremists? Either, hoping to
publicly throw the blame on the other? How emotionally attached is the
average Komarran-in-the-dome to a goal whom none now living will ever
survive to see realized, or would they rather save the money today?
Sabotage versus accident makes no engineering difference, but does make
a profound political one." He and Uncle Vorthys exchanged a wry look.
"So
I watch, and listen, and wait," Vorkosigan concluded. He turned to
Tien. "And how do you like Komarr, Administrator Vorsoisson?"
Tien grinned, and shrugged. "It's all right except for the Komarrans. I've found them a damned touchy bunch."
Vorkosigan's brows twitched up. "Have they no sense of humor?"
Ekaterin
glanced up warily, wincing at that dry edge in his drawling voice, but
apparently it slipped past Tien, who only snorted. "They're divided
about equally between the greedy and the surly. Cheating Barrayarans is
considered a patriotic duty."
Vorkosigan raised his empty wineglass to Ekaterin. "And you, Madame Vorsoisson?"
She
refilled it to the top before he could stop her, cautious of her reply.
If her uncle was the technical expert in this Auditorial duo, did that
leave Vorkosigan as the … political one? Who was really the senior
member of the team? Had Tien caught any of the subtle flashing
implications in the little lord's speech? "It hasn't been easy to make
Komarran friends. Nikolai goes to a Barrayaran school. And I have no
work as such."
"A Vor lady hardly needs to work." Tien smiled.
"Nor a Vor lord," added Vorkosigan, almost under his breath, "yet here we are …"
"That
depends on your ability to choose the right parents," said Tien, a
touch sourly. He glanced across at Vorkosigan.
"Relieve my curiosity. Are you related to the former Lord Regent?"
"My father," Vorkosigan replied, with quelling brevity. He did not smile.
"Then you are the Lord Vorkosigan, the Count's heir."
"That follows, yes."
Vorkosigan
was getting unnervingly dry, now. Ekaterin blurted, "Your upbringing
must have been terribly difficult."
"He managed," Vorkosigan murmured.
"I meant for you!"
"Ah." His brief smile returned, and flicked out again.
The
conversation was going dreadfully awry, Ekaterin could feel it; she
hardly dared open her mouth on an attempt to redirect it. Tien stepped
in, or stepped in it: "Was your father the great Admiral reconciled
that you couldn't have a military career?"
"My grandfather the great General was more set on it."
"I
was a ten-years man myself, the usual. In Administration, very dull.
Trust me, you didn't miss much." Tien waved a kindly, dismissive hand.
"But not every Vor has to be a soldier these days, eh, Professor
Vorthys? You're living proof."
"I believe Captain
Vorkosigan served, um, thirteen years, was it, Miles? In Imperial
Security. Galactic operations. Did you find it dull?"
Vorkosigan's
smile upon the Professor grew genuine, for an instant of time. "Not
nearly dull enough." He jerked up his chin, evidently a habitual
nervous tic. For the first time Ekaterin noticed the fine white scars
on either side of his short neck.
Ekaterin fled to
the kitchen, to serve the dessert and give the blighted conversation
time to recover. When she came out again, things had eased, or at
least, Nikolai had stopped being so supernaturally good, i.e., quiet,
and had struck up a negotiation with his great-uncle for after-dinner
attention in the form of a round of his current favorite game. This
carried them through till the rental company arrived at the front door
with the grav-bed, and the great engineer went off with the whole male
mob to oversee its installation. Ekaterin turned gratefully to the
soothing routine of cleaning up.
Tien returned to report success and the Vor lord suitably settled.
"Tien, were you watching that fellow closely?" asked Ekaterin. "A mutie, a mutie Vor, yet he carried on as if nothing were the least out of the ordinary. If he can …" she trailed off hopefully, leaving the surely you can for Tien to conclude.
Tien
frowned. "Don't start that again. It's obvious he doesn't think the
rules apply to him. He's Aral Vorkosigan's son, for God's sake.
Practically the Emperor's foster brother. No wonder he got this cushy
Imperial appointment."
"I don't think so, Tien. Were you listening to him at all?" All those undercurrents
… "I think … I think he's the Emperor's hatchet man, sent to judge the
whole Terraforming Project. Powerful . . . maybe dangerous."
Tien
shook his head. "His father was powerful and dangerous. He's just
privileged. Damned high Vor twit. Don't worry about him. Your uncle
will take him away soon enough."
"I'm not worried about him."
Tien's
face darkened. "I'm getting so tired of this! You argue with everything
I say, you practically insult my intelligence in front of your so-noble
relative—"
"I didn't!" Did I? She began a confused mental review of her evening's remarks. What in the world had she said, to set him on edge like this—
"Just because you're the great Auditor's niece doesn't make you anybody, girl! This is disloyalty, that's what it is."
"No—no, I'm sorry—"
But
he was already stalking out. There would be a cold silence between them
tonight. She almost ran after him, to beg his forgiveness. He was under
a lot of pressure at work, it was very ill-timed of her to push for a
resolution to his medical dilemma now. . . . But she was abruptly too
weary to try anymore. She finished putting away the last of the food,
and took the leftover half bottle of wine and a glass out onto the
balcony. She turned off the cheery colored plant lights and just sat in
the dim reflected illumination from the sealed Komarran city. The
crippled star-flake of the insolation mirror had almost reached the
western horizon, following the true-sun into night as the planet turned.
A
white shape moved silently in the kitchen, briefly startling her. But
it was only the mutie lord, who had shed his elegant gray tunic and,
apparently, his boots. He stuck his head through the unsealed doors.
"Hello?"
"Hello, Lord Vorkosigan. I'm just out
here watching the mirror set. Would you, um, care for some more wine .
. . ? Here, I'll get you a glass—"
"No, don't get
up, Madame Vorsoisson. I'll fetch it." His pale smile winked out of the
shadows at her. A few muted clinks came from within, then he trod
silently onto the balcony. She poured, good hostess, generously into
the glass he set beside her own, then he took it up again and went to
the railing to study what could be seen of the sky past the girders of
the dome.
"It's the best aspect of this location,"
she said. "This bit of western view." The mirror-array was magnified by
the atmosphere close to the horizon, but its normal evening
color-effects in the wispy clouds were dimmed by its damage.
"Mirror-set's usually much prettier than this." She sipped her wine,
cool and sweet on her tongue, and felt herself finally starting to
become a little furry in the brain. Furry was good. Soothing.
"I
can see that it must be," he agreed, still staring out. He drank
deeply. Had he switched, then, from resisting sleep through alcohol to
pursuing it?
"This horizon is so crowded and
cluttered, compared to home. I'm afraid I find these sealed arcologies
a touch claustrophobic."
"And where is home, for you?" He turned to watch her.
"South Continent. Vandeville."
"So you grew up around terraforming."
"The Komarrans would say, that wasn't terraforming, that was just soil conditioning."
He chuckled along with her, at her deadpan rendition of Komarran
techno-snobbery. She continued, "They're right, of course. It wasn't as
though we had to start by spending half a millennium altering an entire
planet's atmosphere. The only thing that made it hard for us, back in
the Time of Isolation, was trying to do it with practically no
technology. Still … I loved the open spaces at home. I miss that wide
sky, horizon to horizon."
"That's true in any city, domed or not. So you're a country girl?"
"In part. Though I liked Vorbarr Sultana when I was at university. It had other kinds of horizons."
"Did you study botany? I noticed the library rack on the wall of your plant room. Impressive."
"No. It's just a hobby."
"Oh? I could have mistaken it for a passion. Or a profession."
"No. I didn't know what I wanted, then."
"Do you know now?"
She
laughed a little, uneasily. When she didn't answer, he merely smiled,
and strolled along the balcony examining her plantings. He stopped
before the skellytum, squatting in its pot like some bright red alien
Buddha, tendrils raised in a pose of placid supplication. "I have to
ask," he said plaintively, "what is this thing?"
"It's a bonsai'd skellytum."
"Really! That's a—I didn't know you could do that to a skellytum. They're usually five meters tall. And a really ugly brown."
"I
had a great aunt, on my father's side, who loved gardening. I used to
help her when I was a girl. She was very much a crusty old frontier
woman, very Vor—she'd come to the South Continent right after
the Cetagandan War. Survived a succession of husbands, survived . . .
well, everything. I inherited the skellytum from her. It's the only
plant I brought to Komarr from Barrayar. It's over seventy years old."
"Good God."
"It's the complete tree, fully functional."
"And—ha!—short."
She
was afraid for a moment that she'd inadvertently offended him, but
apparently not. He finished his inspection, and returned to the
railing, and his wine. He stared out again at the western horizon, and
the sinking mirror, his brows lowering.
He had a
presence which, by ignoring his elusive physical peculiarities himself,
defied the observer to dare comment. But the little lord had had all
his life to adjust to his condition. Not like the hideous surprise Tien
had found among his late brother's papers, and subsequently confirmed
for himself and Nikolai through carefully secret testing. You can get tested anonymously, she had argued. But I can't get treated anonymously, he had countered.
Since
coming to Komarr, she'd been so close to defying custom, law, and her
lord-and-husband's orders, and unilaterally taking his son and heir for
treatment. Would the Komarran doctors know a Vor mother was not her
son's legal guardian? Maybe she could pretend the genetic defect had
come from her, not from Tien? But the geneticists, if they were any
good, would surely figure out the truth.
After a
while, she said elliptically, "A Vor man's first loyalty is supposed to
be to his Emperor, but a Vor woman's first loyalty is supposed to be to
her husband."
"Historically and legally, that's
so." His voice was amused, or bemused, as he turned again to watch her.
"This was not always to her disadvantage. When he was executed for
treason, she was presumed to be only following orders, and got off.
Actually, I wonder if the underlying practical reason was that an
underpopulated world just couldn't spare her labor."
"Haven't you ever found that oddly asymmetrical?"
"But
simpler for her. Most women usually only had one husband at a time, but
the Vor were all too frequently presented with a choice of emperors,
and where was your loyalty then? Bad guesses could be lethal. Though
when my grandfather General Piotr—and his army—abandoned Mad Emperor
Yuri for Emperor Ezar, it was lethal for Yuri. Good for Barrayar,
though."
She sipped again. From where she sat, he
was silhouetted against the darkening dome, shadowed, enigmatic.
"Indeed. Is your passion politics, then?"
"God, no! I don't think so."
"History?"
"Only in passing." He hesitated. "It used to be the military."
"Used to be?"
"Used to be," he repeated firmly.
"And now?"
It
was his turn to not answer. He stared down at his glass, tilting it to
make the last of the wine swirl about. He finally said, "In Barrayaran
political theory, it all connects. The ordinary subjects are loyal to
their Counts, the Counts are loyal to the Emperor, and the Emperor,
presumably, is loyal to the whole Imperium, the body of the Empire in
the form of all its, er, bodies. Here I find it grows a trifle abstract
for my taste; how can he be answerable to all, yet not answerable to
each? And so we arrive back at square one." He drained his glass. "How
do we be true to one another?"
I don't know anymore. . . .
Silence
fell, as they both watched the last glint of mirror slip behind the
hills. A pale glow in the sky still haloed its passing for a minute or
two longer.
"Well. I'm afraid I'm getting rather
drunk." He did not seem that drunk to her, but he rolled his glass
between his hands and pushed off from the balcony rail against which
he'd been leaning. "Goodnight, Madame Vorsoisson."
"Goodnight, Lord Vorkosigan. Sleep well."
He carried his glass in with him and vanished into the darkened apartment.
CHAPTER TWO
Miles floundered from a dream of his hostess's
hair which, if not exactly erotic, was embarrassingly sensual. Unbound
from the severe style she'd favored yesterday, it had revealed itself a
rich dark brown with amber highlights, a mass of silk flowing coolly
through his stubby hands—he presumed they were his hands, it had been
his dream, after all. I woke up too soon. Rats. At least the
vision had not been tinged with any of the gory grotesqueries of his
occasional nightmares, from which he came awake cold and damp, with
heart racing. He was warm and comfortable, in the silly elaborate
grav-bed she had insisted on producing for him.
It
wasn't Madame Vorsoisson's fault that she happened to belong to a
certain physical type that set off old resonances in Miles's memory.
Some men harbored obsessions about much stranger things … his own
fixation, he had long ago ruefully recognized, was on long cool
brunettes with expressions of quiet reserve and warm alto voices. True,
on a world where people altered their faces and bodies almost as
casually as they altered their wardrobes, there was nothing in the
least unusual about her beauty. Till one remembered she wasn't from
here, and realized her ivory-skinned features were almost certainly
untouched by modification. . . . Had she recognized his idiot-babble,
last night on her balcony, as suppressed sexual panic? Had that odd
remark about a Vor woman's duties been an oblique warning to him to
back off? But he hadn't been on, he didn't think. Was he that
transparent?
Miles had realized within five
minutes of his arrival that he should probably not have let the genial
and expansive Vorthys bully him into accompanying him downside, but the
man seemed constitutionally incapable of not sharing a treat. That the
pleasures of this family reunion might not be equally enjoyed by an
awkward outsider—or the family into which he'd been thrust—had clearly
never occurred to the Professor.
Miles sighed envy
of his host. Administrator Vorsoisson seemed to have achieved a perfect
little Vor clan. Of course, he'd had the wit to start a decade ago. The
arrival of galactic sex-selection technologies had resulted in a
shortage of female births on Barrayar. This dearth of women had reached
its lowest ebb in Miles's generation, though parents seemed to be
coming back to their senses now. Still, every Vor woman Miles knew
close to his own age was already married, and had been for years. Was
he going to have to wait another twenty years for his own bride?
If necessary. No lusting after married women, boy. You're an Imperial Auditor now.
The nine Imperial Auditors were expected to be models of rectitude and
respectability. He could not recall ever hearing of any kind of sex
scandal touching one of Emperor Gregor's handpicked agent-observers. Of course not. All the rest of the Auditors are eighty years old and have been married for fifty of 'em. He snorted. Besides, she probably thought he was a mutant, though thankfully she'd been too polite to say so. To his face.
So find out if she has a sister, eh?
He
wallowed out of the grav-bed's indolence-inducing clutches and sat up,
forcing his mind to switch gears. At a conservative guess, a couple
hundred thousand words of new data on the soletta accident and its
consequences would be incoming this shift. He would, he decided, start
with a cold shower.
No comfortable ship-knits
today. After selecting among the three new formal civilian suits he'd
packed along from Barrayar—in shades of gray, gray, and gray—Miles
combed his damp hair neatly and sauntered out to Madame Vorsoisson's
kitchen, from which voices and the perfume of coffee wafted. There he
found Nikolai munching Barrayaran-style groats and milk, Administrator
Vorsoisson fully dressed and apparently on the verge of leaving, and
Professor Vorthys, still in pajamas, sorting through a new array of
data disks and frowning. A glass of pink fruit juice sat untasted at
his elbow. He looked up and said, "Ah, good morning, Miles. Glad you're
up," seconded by Vorsoisson's polite, "Good morning, Lord Vorkosigan. I
trust you slept well?"
"Fine, thanks. What's up, Professor?"
"Your
comm link arrived from ImpSec's local office." Vorthys pointed to the
device beside his plate. "I notice they didn't send me one."
Miles grimaced. "Your father was not so famous in the Komarran conquest."
"True,"
agreed Vorthys. "The old gentleman fell in that odd generation between
the wars, too young to fight the Cetagandans, too old to aggress on the
poor Komarrans. This lack of military opportunity was a source of great
personal regret to him, we children were given to understand."
Miles
strapped the comm link onto his left wrist. It represented a compromise
between himself and ImpSec Serifosa, which would otherwise be
responsible for his health here. ImpSec had wanted to err on the side
of caution and surround him with an inconvenient mob of bodyguards.
Miles had ventured to test his Imperial Auditor's authority by ordering
them to stay out of his hair; to his delight, it had worked. But the
link gave him a straight line to ImpSec, and tracked his location—he
tried not to feel like an experimental animal released into the wild.
"And what are those?" He nodded to the data disks.
Vorthys
spread the disks like a bad hand of cards. "The morning courier also
brought us recordings of last night's haul of new bits. And something
especially for you, since you kindly volunteered to take over the
review of the medical end of things. A new preliminary autopsy."
"They finally found the pilot?" Miles relieved him of the disks.
Vorthys grimaced. "Parts of her."
Madame
Vorsoisson entered from the balcony in time to hear this. "Oh, dear."
She was dressed as yesterday in Komarran-style street wear in dull
earthy tones: loose trousers, blouse, and long vest, muffling whatever
figure she possessed. She would have been brilliant in red, or
breathtaking in pale blue, with those blue eyes . . . her hair this
morning was soberly tied back again, rather to Miles's relief. It would
have been unnerving to think he was developing some form of
precognition as a result of his late injuries, along with his damned
seizures.
Miles nodded good morning to her and
carefully returned his attention to Vorthys. "I must have been sleeping
well. I didn't hear the courier come in. You've reviewed them already?"
"Just a glance."
"What parts of the pilot did they find?" asked Nikolai, interested.
"Never you mind, young man," said his great-uncle firmly.
"Thank you," murmured Madame Vorsoisson to him.
"That
makes the last body, though. Good," said Miles. "It's so distressing
for the relatives when they lose one altogether. When I was—" He cut
off the rest, When I was a covert ops fleet commander, we'd move the heavens to try and get the bodies of our casualties back to their people. That chapter of his life was closed, now.
Madame
Vorsoisson, splendid woman, handed him black coffee. She then inquired
what her guests would like for breakfast; Miles maneuvered Vorthys into
answering first, and volunteered for groats along with him. As she
bustled around serving, and mopping up after Nikolai, Administrator
Vorsoisson said, "My department's presentation will be ready for you
this afternoon, Auditor Vorthys. This morning Ekaterin wondered if you
would like to see Nikolai's school. And after the presentation, perhaps
there will be time for a flyover of some of our projects."
"Sounds
like a fine itinerary." Professor Vorthys smiled at Nikolai. In all the
hustle of their hurried departure from Barrayar, he—or perhaps the
Professora—had not forgotten a gift for his great-nephew. I should have brought something for the kid, Miles decided belatedly. Surest way to please a mother. "Ah, Miles . . .?"
Miles
tapped the stack of data disks beside his bowl. "I suspect I'll have
enough to occupy myself here this morning. Madame Vorsoisson, I noticed
a comconsole in your workroom; may I use it?"
"Certainly, Lord Vorkosigan."
With
a polite murmur about getting things in order for them at his
department, Vorsoisson took his leave, and the breakfast party broke up
shortly thereafter, each to their assorted destinations. Miles, new
disks in hand, returned to Madame Vorsoisson's workroom/guest room.
He
paused before seating himself at her comconsole, to stare out the
sealed window at the park, and the transparent dome arcing over it to
let in the free solar energy. Komarr's wan sun was not directly
visible, risen to the east behind this apartment block, but the line of
its morning light crept across the far edge of the park. The damaged
insolation mirror, following it, had not yet risen over the horizon to
double the shadows it cast.
So does this mean seven thousand years bad luck?
He
sighed, darkened the window's polarization—scarcely necessary—seated
himself at the comconsole, and began feeding it data disks. A couple of
dozen good-sized new pieces of wreckage had been retrieved overnight;
he ran the vids of them turning in space as the salvage ships
approached. Theory was, if you could find every fragment, take precise
recordings of all their spins and trajectories, and then run them
backward, you could end up with a computer-generated picture of the
very moment of the disaster, and so diagnose its cause. Real life never
worked out quite that neatly, alas, but every little bit helped. ImpSec
Komarr was still canvassing the orbital transfer stations for any
casual vid-carrying tourists who might have been panning that section
of space at the time of the whatever-and-collision. Futilely by now,
Miles feared; usually, such people came forward immediately, excited
and wanting to be helpful.
Vorthys and the
probable-cause crew were now of the opinion that the ore tow had
already been in more than one piece at the moment it had struck the
mirror, a speculation which had not yet been released to the general
public. So had the evidence-destroying explosion of the engines been
cause or consequence of that catastrophe? And at what point had those
tortured fragments of metal and plastic acquired some of their more
interesting distortions?
Miles reran, for the
twentieth time that week, the computer's track of the freighter's
course prior to the collision, and contemplated its anomalies. The ship
had carried only its pilot, on a routine—indeed, dead boring—slow run
in from the asteroid mining belt to an orbital refinery. The engines
had not been supposed to be thrusting at the time of the accident;
acceleration had been completed and deceleration was not yet due to
begin. The tow ship had been running about five hours ahead of
schedule, but only because it had departed early, not because it had
boosted hotter than usual. It had been coasting off-course by about six
percent, within normal parameters and not yet ready for course
correction, though the pilot might have been amusing herself trying to
achieve more precision with some unscheduled microboosting. Even with
the minor course correction due, the tow ship's route had been several
hundred comfortable kilometers from the soletta array, in fact farther
away than if it had been precisely on course.
What the course variation had
done was take the freighter's track almost directly across one of
Komarr's unused worm-hole jump points. Komarr local space was unusually
rich in active jump points, a fact of strategic and historic
consequence; one of the jumps was Barrayar's only gateway to the
wormhole nexus. It was for control of the jump points, not for
possession of the chilly planet, that Barrayar's invasion fleet had
poured through here thirty-five years ago. As long as the Imperium's
military held that high ground, its interest in Komarr's downside
population and their problems was, at best, mild.
This
jump point, however, supported neither traffic nor trade nor strategic
threat. Explorations through it had dead-ended either in deep
interstellar space, or close to stars that did not support either
habitable planets or economically recoverable system resources. Nobody
jumped out through there; nobody should have jumped in through
there. The immediate vision of some unmotivated pirate-villain popping
out of the worm-hole, potting the innocent ore freighter—by some weapon
that left no traces, mind you—and popping back in again was currently
unsupported by any evidence whatsoever, though the area had been
scoured for it. It was the news media's current favorite scenario. But
none of the five-space trails generated by ships taking wormhole jumps
had been detected, either.
The five-space anomaly
of the jump point was not even observable by ordinary means from
three-space; it should not, just sitting there, have affected the
freighter in any way even if the ship had passed directly across its
central vortex. The freighter was a dedicated inner-system ship, and
lacked Necklin rods and jump capacity. Still … the jump point was
there. Nothing else was.
Miles rubbed his neck and
turned to the new autopsy report. Gruesome, as always. The pilot had
been a Komarran woman in her mid-fifties. Call it Barrayaran sexism,
but female corpses always bothered Miles more. Death was such a
malicious destroyer of dignity. Had he looked that disordered and
exposed when he'd gone down to the sniper's fire? The pilot's body
showed the usual progression: smashed, decompressed, irradiated, and
frozen, all quite typical of deep-space impact accidents. One arm torn
off, somewhere in the initial crunch rather than later, judging from
the close-up vids of the freezing-effects of liquids lost at the stump.
It had been a quick death, anyway. Miles knew better than to add, Almost painless. No traces of illicit drugs or alcohol had been found in her frozen tissues.
The
Komarran medical examiner, along with his six final reports, included a
message wanting to know if he had Miles's permission to release the
bodies of the six members of the mirror's station-keeping crew back to
their waiting families.
Good God, hadn't that been
done yet? As an Imperial Auditor, he wasn't supposed to be running this
investigation, just observing and reporting on it. He did not desire
his mere presence to freeze anyone's initiative. He fired off the
permission immediately, right from Madame Vorsoisson's comconsole.
He
started working his way through the six reports. They were more
detailed than the prelims he'd already seen, but contained no
surprises. By this time, he wanted a surprise, something, anything
beyond Spaceship blows up for no reason, kills seven. Not to
mention the astronomical property damage bill. With three reports
assimilated, and his bland breakfast becoming a regret in his stomach,
he backed out for a short period of mental recovery.
Idly,
while waiting for the queasiness to pass, he sorted through Madame
Vorsoisson's data files. The one titled Virtual Gardens sounded pleasant. Perhaps she wouldn't mind if he took a virtual stroll through them. The Water Garden enticed him. He called it up on the holovid plate before him.
It
was, as he had guessed, a landscape design program. One could view it
from any distance or angle, from a miniature-looking total overview to
a blown-up detailed inspection of a particular planting; one could
program a stroll through its paths at any given eye level. He chose his
own, at ahem-mumble-something under five feet. The individual plants
grew according to realistic programs taking into account light, water,
gravitation, trace nutrients, and even attacks by programmed pests.
This garden was about a third filled, with tentative arrangements of
grasses, violets, sedges, water lilies, and horsetails; it was
currently suffering an outbreak of algae. The colors and shapes stopped
abruptly at the unfinished edges, as if an invasion from some alien
gray geometric universe were gobbling it all up.
His
curiosity piqued, in best approved ImpSec style he dropped to the
program's underlayer and checked for activity levels. The busiest
recently, he discovered, was one labeled The Barrayaran Garden. He popped back up to the display level, selected his own eye-height again, and entered it.
It
was not a garden of pretty Earth-plants set on some suitably famous
site on Barrayar; it was a garden made up entirely and exclusively of
native species, something he would not have guessed possible, let alone
lovely. He'd always considered their uniform red-brown hues and stubby
forms boring at best. The only Barrayaran vegetation he could identify
and name offhand was that to which he was violently allergic. But
Madame Vorsoisson had somehow used shape and texture to create a
sepia-toned serenity. Rocks and running water framed the various
plants—there was a low carmine mass of love-lies-itching, forming a
border for a billowing blond stand of razor-grass, which, he had once
been assured, botanically was not a grass. Nobody argued about the
razor part, he'd noticed. Judging from the common names, the lost
Barrayaran colonists had not loved their new xenobotany: damnweed,
henbloat, goatbane . . . It's beautiful. How did she make it beautiful?
He'd never seen anything like it. Maybe that kind of artist's eye was
something you just had to be born with, like perfect pitch, which he
also lacked.
In the Imperial capital of Vorbarr
Sultana, there was a small and dull green park at the end of the block
beside Vorkosigan House, on a site where another old mansion had been
torn down. The little park had been leveled with more of an eye to
security concerns for the neighboring Lord Regent than any aesthetic
plan. Would it not be splendid, to replace it with a larger version of
this glorious subtlety, and give the city-dwellers a taste of their own
planetary heritage? Even if it would—he checked– take fifteen years to
grow to this mature climax. . . .
The virtual
garden program was supposed to help prevent time-consuming and costly
design mistakes. But when all the garden you could have was what you
could pack in your luggage, he supposed it could be a hobby in its own
right. It was certainly neater, tidier, and easier than the real thing.
So … why did he guess she found it approximately as satisfying as
looking at a holovid of dinner instead of eating it?
Or maybe she's just homesick. Regretfully, he closed down the display.
In
pure trained habit, he next called up her financial program, for a
little quick analysis. It turned out to be her household account. She
ran her home on a quite tight budget, given what Administrator
Vorsoisson's salary ought to be, Miles thought; her biweekly allowance
was rather stingy. She didn't spend nearly as much on her botanical
hobbies as the results suggested she must. Other hobbies, other vices?
The money trail was always the most revealing of people's true
pursuits; ImpSec hired the Imperium's best accountants to find
ingenious ways to hide their own activities, for that very reason. She
spent damn little on clothes, except for Nikolai's. He'd heard parents
of his acquaintance complain about the cost of dressing their children,
but surely this was extraordinary . . . wait, that wasn't a clothing
expenditure. Funds squeezed here, here, and there were all being
funneled into a dedicated little private account labeled "Nikolai's
Medical."
Why? As dependents of a Barrayaran
bureaucrat on Komarr, weren't the Vorsoissons' medical expenses covered
by the Imperium?
He called up the account. A
year's worth of savings from her household budget did not make a very
impressive pile, but the pattern of contributions was steady to the
point of being compulsive. Puzzled, he backed out again and called up
the whole program list. Clues?
One file, down at
the end of the list, had no name. He called it up immediately. It
turned out to be the only thing on her comconsole which required a
password for entry. Interesting.
Her comconsole
program was the simplest and cheapest commercial type. ImpSec cadets
dissected files like this as a class warmup exercise. A touch of
homesickness of his own twinged through him. He dropped to the
underlayer and had its password choked out in about five minutes. Vorzohn's Dystrophy? Well, that
wasn't a mnemonic he would have guessed offhand. His reflexes overtook
his growing unease. He had the file open simultaneously with belated
second thoughts, You're not in ImpSec anymore, you know. Should you be doing this?
The
file proved to contain a medical course's worth of articles, culled
from every imaginable Barrayaran and galactic source, on the topic of
one of Barrayar's rarer and more obscure home-grown genetic disorders.
Vorzohn's Dystrophy had arisen during the Time of Isolation,
principally, as its name suggested, among the Vor caste, but had not
been medically identified as a mutation until the return of galactic
medicine. For one thing, it lacked the sort of exterior markers that
would have caused, well, him for example, to have had his
throat cut at birth. It was an adult-onset disease, beginning with a
bewildering variety of physical debilitations and ending with mental
collapse and death. In the harsher world of Barrayar's past, carriers
frequently met their deaths from other causes after bearing or
engendering children, but before the syndrome manifested itself. Enough
madness ran in enough families– including some of my dear Vorrutyer ancestors— from other causes that late onset was frequently identified as something else anyway. Thoroughly nasty.
But it's treatable now, isn't it?
Yes,
albeit expensively; that went with the rare part, no economies of
scale. Miles scanned rapidly down the articles. Symptoms were
manageable with a variety of costly biochemical concoctions to flush
out and replace the distorted molecules; retrogenetic true cures were
available at a higher price. Well, almost true cures: any progeny would
still have to be screened for it, preferably at the time of
fertilization and before being popped into the uterine replicator for
gestation.
Hadn't young Nikolai been gestated in a
uterine replicator? Good God, Vorsoisson surely hadn't insisted his
wife—and child—go through the dangers of old-fashioned body-gestation,
had he? Only a few of the most conservative Old Vor families still held
out for the old ways, a custom upon which Miles's own mother had vented
the most violently acerbic criticism he'd ever heard from her lips. And she should know.
So what the hell is going on here?
He sat back, mouth tight. If, as the files suggested, Nikolai was known
or suspected to carry Vorzohn's Dystrophy, one or both of his parents
must also. How long had they known?
He suddenly
realized what he should have noticed before, in the initial illusion of
smug marital bliss which Vorsoisson managed to project. That was always
the hardest part, seeing the absent pieces. About three more children
were missing, that was what. Some little sisters for Nikolai, please,
folks? But no. So they've known at least since shortly after their son was born. What a personal nightmare. But is he the carrier, or is she?
He hoped it wasn't Madame Vorsoisson; horrible to think of that serene
beauty crumbling under the onslaught of such internal disruption. . . .
I don't want to know all this.
His
idle curiosity was justly punished. This idiot snooping was surely not
proper behavior for an Imperial Auditor, however much it had been
inculcated in an ImpSec covert ops agent. Former agent. Where was all
that shiny new Auditor's probity now? He might as well have been
sniffing in her underwear drawer. I can't leave you alone for a damn minute, can I, boy?
He'd
chafed for years under military regulations, till he'd come to a job
with no written regs at all. His sense of having died and gone to
heaven had lasted about five minutes. An Imperial Auditor was the
Emperor's Voice, his eyes and ears and sometimes hands, a lovely job
description till you stopped to wonder just what the hell that poetic
metaphor was supposed to mean.
So was it a useful test to ask himself, Can I imagine Gregor doing this or that thing?
Gregor's apparent Imperial sternness hid an almost painful personal
shyness. The mind boggled. All right, should the question instead be, Could I imagine Gregor in his office as Emperor doing this?
Just what acts, wrong for a private individual, were yet lawful for an
Imperial Auditor carrying out his duties? Lots, according to the
precedents he'd been reading. So was the real rule, "Ad lib till you
make a mistake, and then we'll destroy you"? Miles wasn't sure he liked
that one at all.
And even in his ImpSec days,
slicing through someone's private files had been a treatment reserved
for enemies, or at least suspects. Well, and prospective recruits. And
neutrals in whose territory you expected to be operating. And . . . and
… he snorted self-derision. Gregor at least had better manners than
ImpSec.
Thoroughly embarrassed, he closed the
files, erased all tracks of his entry, and called up the next autopsy
report. He studied what telltales he could glean from the bodily
fragmentation. Death had a temperature, and it was damned cold. He
paused to turn up the workroom's thermostat a few degrees before
continuing.
CHAPTER THREE
Ekaterin hadn't realized how much a visit from
an Imperial Auditor would fluster the staff of Nikolai's school. But
the Professor, a long-time educator himself, quickly made them
understand this wasn't an official inspection, and produced all the
right phrases to put them at their ease. Still, she and Uncle Vorthys
didn't linger as long as Tien had suggested to her.
To
burn a bit more time, she took him on a short tour of Serifosa Dome's
best spots: the prettiest gardens, the highest observation platforms,
looking out across the sere Komarran landscape beyond the sealed urban
sprawl. Serifosa was the capital of this planetary Sector—she still had
to make an effort not to think of it as a Barrayaran-style District.
Barrayaran District boundaries were more organic, higgly-piggly
territories following rivers, mountain ranges, and ragged lines where
Counts' armies had lost historic battles. Komarran Sectors were neat
geometric slices equitably dividing the globe. Though the so-called
domes, really thousands of interconnected structures of all shapes, had
lost their early geometries centuries ago, as they were built outward
in random and unmatching spurts of architectural improvement.
Somewhat
belatedly, she realized she ought to be dragging the engineer emeritus
through the deepest utility tunnels, and the power and atmosphere
cycling plants. But by then it was time for lunch. Her guided tour
fetched up near her favorite restaurant, pseudo-outdoors with tables
spilling out into a landscaped park under the glassed-in sky. The
damaged soletta-array was now visible, creeping along the ecliptic,
veiled today by thin high clouds as if ashamedly hiding its
deformations.
The enormous power of the Emperor's
Voice conferred upon an Auditor hadn't changed her uncle much, Ekaterin
was pleased to note; he still retained his enthusiasm for splendid
desserts, and, under her guidance, constructed his menu choices from
the sweets course backwards. She couldn't quite say "hadn't changed him
at all"; he seemed to have acquired more social caution, pausing for
more than just technical calculations before he spoke. But it wasn't as
if he could entirely ignore other people's new and exaggerated
reactions to him.
They put in their orders, and
she followed her uncle's gaze upward as he briefly studied the soletta
from this angle. She said, "There's not really a danger of the Imperium
abandoning the soletta project, is there? We'll have to at least repair
it. I mean … it looks so unbalanced like that."
"In
fact, it is unbalanced at present. Solar wind. They'll have to do
something about that shortly," he replied. "I should certainly not like
to see it abandoned. It was the greatest engineering achievement of the
Komarrans' colonial ancestors, apart from the domes themselves. People
at their best. If it was sabotage . . . well, that was certainly people
at their worst. Vandalism, just senseless vandalism."
An
artist describing the defacement of some great historic painting could
hardly have been more vehement. Ekaterin said, "I've heard older
Komarrans talk about how they felt when Admiral Vorkosigan's invasion
forces took over the mirror, practically the first thing. I can't think
that it had much tactical value, at the high speed at which the space
battles went, but it certainly had a huge psychological impact. It was
almost as if we had captured their sun itself. I think returning it to
Komarran civilian control in the last few years was a very good
political move. I hope this doesn't mess that up."
"It's hard to say." That new caution, again.
"There
was talk of opening its observation platform to tourism again. Though
now I imagine they're relieved they hadn't yet."
"They
still have plenty of VIP tours. I took one myself, when I was here
several years ago teaching a short course at Solstice University.
Fortunately, there were no visitors aboard on the day of the collision.
But it should be open to the public, to be seen and to educate. Do it
up right, with maybe a museum on-site explaining how it was first
built. It's a great work. Odd to think that its principal practical use
is to make swamps."
"Swamps make breathable air.
Eventually." She smiled. In her uncle's mind the pure engineering
aesthetic clearly overshadowed the messy biological end view.
"Next you'll be defending the rats. There really are rats here, I understand?"
"Oh,
yes, the dome tunnels have rats. And hamsters, and gerbils. All the
children capture them for pets, which is likely where they came from in
the first place, come to think of it. I do think the black-and-white
rats are cute. The animal-control exterminators have to work in dead
secret from their younger relatives. And we have roaches, of course,
who doesn't? And—over in Equinox—wild cockatoos. A couple of pairs of
them escaped, or were let loose, several decades ago. They now have
these big rainbow-colored birds all over the place, and people will feed them. The sanitation crews wanted to get rid of them, but the Dome shareholders voted them down."
The
waitress delivered their salads and iced tea, and there was a short
break in the conversation while her uncle appreciated the fresh
spinach, mangoes and onions, and candied pecans. She'd guessed the
candied pecans would please him. The market-garden hydroponics
production in Serifosa was among Komarr's best.
She
used the break to redirect the conversation toward her greatest current
curiosity. "Your colleague Lord Vorkosigan– did he really have a
thirteen-year career in Imperial Security?" Or were you just irritated by Tien?
"Three years in the Imperial Military Academy, a decade in ImpSec, to be precise."
"How did he ever get in, past the physicals?"
"Nepotism,
I believe. Of a sort. To give him credit, it seems to have been an
advantage he used sparingly thereafter. I had the fascinating
experience of reading his entire classified military record, when
Gregor asked me and my fellow Auditors to review Vorkosigan's
candidacy, before he made the appointment."
She
subsided in slight disappointment. "Classified. In that case, I suppose
you can't tell me anything about it."
"Well," he
grinned around a mouthful of salad, "there was the Dagoola IV episode.
You must have heard of it, that giant breakout from the Cetagandan
prisoner-of-war camp that the Marilacans made a few years ago?"
She
recalled it only dimly. She'd been heads-down in motherhood, about that
time, and scarcely paid attention to news, especially any so remote as
galactic news. But she nodded encouragement for him to go on.
"It's
all old history now. I understand from Vorkosigan that the Marilacans
are engaged in producing a holovid drama on the subject. The Greatest Escape,
or something like that, they're calling it. They tried to hire him—or
actually, his cover identity—to be a technical consultant on the
script, an opportunity he has regretfully declined. But for ImpSec to
retain security classification upon a series of events that the
Marilacans are simultaneously dramatizing planetwide strikes me as a
bit rigid, even for ImpSec. In any case, Vorkosigan was the Barrayaran
agent behind that breakout."
"I didn't even know we had an agent behind that."
"He was our man on-site."
So that odd joke about snoring Marilacans . . . hadn't been. Quite. "If he was so good, why did he quit?"
"Hm."
Her uncle applied himself to mopping up the last of his salad dressing
with his multigrain roll, before replying. "I can only give you an
edited version of that. He didn't quit voluntarily. He was very badly
injured—to the point of requiring cryo-freezing—a couple of years ago.
Both the original injury and the cryo-freeze did him a lot of damage,
some of it permanent. He was forced to take a medical discharge, which
he—hm!—did not handle well. It's not my place to discuss those details."
"If he was injured badly enough to need cryo-freeze, he was dead!" she said, startled.
"Technically,
I suppose so. 'Alive' and 'dead' are not such neat categories as they
used to be in the Time of Isolation."
So, her
uncle was in possession of just the sort of medical information about
Vorkosigan's mutations she most wanted to know, if he had paid any
attention to it. Military physicals were thorough.
"So
rather than let all that training and experience go to waste," Uncle
Vorthys went on, "Gregor found a job for Vorkosigan on the civilian
side. Most Auditorial duties are not too physically onerous . . .
though I confess, it's been useful to have someone younger and thinner
than myself to send out-station for those long inspections in a
pressure suit. I'm afraid I've abused his endurance a bit, but he's
proved very observant."
"So he really is your assistant?"
"By
no means. What fool said that? All Auditors are coequal. Seniority is
only good for getting one stuck with certain administrative chores, on
the rare occasions when we act as a group. Vorkosigan, being a
well-brought-up young man, is polite to my white hairs, but he's an
independent Auditor in his own right, and goes just where he pleases.
At present it pleases him to study my methods. I shall certainly take
the opportunity to study his.
"Our Imperial charge
doesn't come with a manual, you see. It was once proposed the Auditors
create one for themselves, but they—wisely, I think—concluded it would
do more harm than good. Instead, we just have our archives of Imperial
reports; precedents, without rules. Lately, several of us more recent
appointees have been trying to read a few old reports each week, and
then meet for dinner to discuss the cases and analyze how they were
handled. Fascinating. And delicious. Vorkosigan has the most
extraordinary cook."
"But this is his first assignment, isn't it? And … he was designated just like that, on the Emperor's whim."
"He
had a temporary appointment as a Ninth Auditor first. A very difficult
assignment, inside ImpSec itself. Not my kind of thing at all."
She was not totally oblivious to the news. "Oh, dear. Did he have anything to do with why ImpSec changed chiefs twice last winter?"
"I so much prefer engineering investigations," her uncle observed mildly.
Their
vat-chicken salad sandwiches arrived, while Ekaterin absorbed this
deflection. What kind of reassurance was she seeking, after all?
Vorkosigan disturbed her, she had to admit, with his cool smile and
warm eyes, and she couldn't say why. He did tend to the sardonic.
Surely she was not subconsciously prejudiced against mutants, when
Nikolai himself . . . In the Time of Isolation, if such a one as
Vorkosigan had been born to me, it would have been my maternal duty to
the genome to cut his infant throat.
Nikki, happily, would have escaped my cleansing. For a while.
The Time of Isolation is over forever. Thank God.
"I gather you like Vorkosigan," she began once again to angle for the kind of information she sought.
"So
does your aunt. The Professora and I had him to dinner a few times,
last winter, which is where Vorkosigan came up with the notion of the
discussion meetings, come to think of it. I know he's rather quiet at
first—cautious, I think—but he can be very witty, once you get him
going."
"Does he amuse you?" Amusing had certainly not been her first impression.
He
swallowed another bite of sandwich, and glanced up again at the white
irregular blur in the clouds now marking the position of the soletta.
"I taught engineering for thirty years. It had its drudgeries. But each
year, I had the pleasure of finding in my classes a few of the best and
brightest, who made it all worthwhile." He sipped spiced tea and spoke
more slowly. "But much less often—every five or ten years at most—a
true genius would turn up among my students, and the pleasure became a
privilege, to be treasured for life."
"You think he's a genius?" she said, raising her eyebrows. The high Vor twit?
"I don't know him quite well enough, yet. But I suspect so, a part of the time."
"Can you be a genius part of the time?"
"All
the geniuses I ever met were so just part of the time. To qualify, you
only have to be great once, you know. Once when it matters. Ah,
dessert. My, this is splendid!" He applied himself happily to a large
chocolate confection with whipped cream and more pecans.
She
wanted personal data, but she kept getting career synopses. She would
have to take a more embarrassingly direct path. While arranging her
first spoonful of her spiced apple tart and ice cream, she finally
worked up her nerve to ask, "Is he married?"
"No."
"That
surprises me." Or did it? "He's high Vor, heavens, the highest—he'll be
a District Count someday, won't he? He's wealthy, or so I would assume,
he has an important position …" She trailed off. What did she want to
say? What's wrong with him that he hasn't acquired his own lady by
now? What kind of genetic damage made him like that, and was it from
his mother or his father? Is he impotent, is he sterile, what does he
really look like under those expensive clothes? Is he hiding more
serious deformities? Is he homosexual? Would it be safe to leave
Nikolai alone with him? She couldn't say any of that, and
her oblique hints weren't eliciting anything even close to the answers
she sought. Drat it, she wouldn't have had this kind of trouble getting
the pertinent information if she'd been talking to the Professora.
"He's been out of the Empire most of the past decade," he said, as if that explained something.
"Does he have siblings?" Normal brothers or sisters?
"No."
That's a bad sign.
"Oh,
I take that back," Uncle Vorthys added. "Not in the usual sense, I
should say. He has a clone. Doesn't look like him, though."
"That—if he's a—I don't understand."
"You'll
have to get Vorkosigan to explain it to you, if you're curious. It's
complicated even by his standards. I haven't met the fellow myself
yet." Around a mouthful of chocolate and cream, he added, "Speaking of
siblings, were you planning any more for Nikolai? Your family is going
to be very stretched out, if you wait much longer."
She
smiled in panic. Dare she tell him? Tien's accusation of betrayal
seared her memory, but she was so tired, exhausted, sick to death of
the stupid secrecy. If only her aunt were here . . .
She
was dully conscious of her contraceptive implant, the one bit of
galactic techno-culture Tien had embraced without question. It gave her
a galactic's sterility without a galactic's freedom. Modern women
gladly traded the deadly lottery of fertility for the certainties of
health and result that came with the use of the uterine replicator, but
Tien's obsession with concealment had barred her from that reward too.
Even if he was somatically cured, his germ-cells would not be, and any
progeny would still have to be genetically screened. Did he mean to cut
off all future children? When she'd tried to discuss the issue, he'd
put her off with an airy, First things first; when she'd persisted, he'd become angry, accusing her of nagging and selfishness. That was always effective at shutting her up.
She
skittered sideways to her uncle's question. "We've moved around so
much. I kept waiting for things to get settled with Tien's career."
"He does seem to have been rather, ah, restless." He raised his eyebrows at her, inviting . . . what?
"I
… won't pretend that hasn't been difficult." That was true enough.
Thirteen different jobs in a decade. Was this normal for a rising
bureaucrat? Tien said it was a necessity, no bosses ever promoted from
within or raised a former subordinate above them; you had to go around
to move up. "We've moved eight times. I've abandoned six gardens, so
far. The last two relocations, I just didn't plant anything except in
pots. And then I had to leave most of the pots, when we came here."
Maybe
Tien would stay with this Komarran post. How could he ever garner the
rewards of promotion and seniority, the status he hungered for, if he
never stuck with one thing long enough to earn any? His first few
postings, she'd had to agree with him, had been mediocre; she'd had no
problem understanding why he wanted to move on quickly. A young
couple's early life was supposed to be unsettled, as they stretched
into their new lives as adults. Well, as she'd stretched into hers;
she'd been only twenty, after all. Tien had been thirty when they'd
married. . . .
He'd started every new job with a
burst of enthusiasm, working hard, or at least, very long hours. Surely
no one could work harder. Then the enthusiasm dwindled, and the
complaints began, of too much work, too little reward, offered too
slowly. Lazy coworkers, smarmy bosses. At least, so he said. That had
become her secret danger signal, when Tien began offering sly sexual
slander of his superiors; it meant the job was about to end, again. A
new one would be found . . . though it seemed to take longer and longer
to find a new one, these days. And his enthusiasm would flame up again,
and the cycle would begin anew. But her hypersensitized ear had picked
up no bad signs so far in this job, and they'd been here nearly a year
already. Maybe Tien had finally found his– what had Vorkosigan called
it? His passion. This was the best posting he'd ever achieved; perhaps
things were finally starting to break into good fortune, for a change.
If she just stuck it out long enough, it would get better, virtue would
be rewarded. And . . . with this Vorzohn's Dystrophy thing hanging over
them, Tien had good reason for impatience. His time was not unlimited.
And yours is? She blinked that thought away.
"Your aunt was not sure if things were working out happily for you. Do you dislike Komarr?"
"Oh,
I like Komarr just fine," she said quickly. "I admit, I've been a
little homesick, but that's not the same thing as not liking being
here."
"She did think you would seize the
opportunity to place Nikki in a Komarran school, for the, as she would
say, cultural experience. Not that his school we saw this morning isn't
very nice, of course, which I shall report back for her reassurance, I
promise."
"I was tempted. But being a Barrayaran,
an off-worlder, in a Komarran classroom might have been difficult for
Nikki. You know how kids can gang up on anyone who's different, at that
age. Tien thought this private school would be much better. A lot of
the high Vor families in the Sector send their children there. He
thought Nikki could make good connections."
"I did
not have the impression that Nikki was socially ambitious." His dryness
was mitigated by a slight twinkle.
How was she to
respond to that? Defend a choice she did not herself agree with? Admit
she thought Tien wrong? If she once began complaining about Tien, she
wasn't sure she could stop before her most fearful worries began to
pour out. And people complaining about their spouses always looked and
sounded so ugly. "Well, connections for me, at least." Not that she had
been able to muster the energy to pursue them as assiduously as Tien
thought she ought.
"Ah. It's good you're making friends."
"Yes, well . . . yes." She scraped at the last of the apple syrup on her plate.
When
she looked up, she noticed a good-looking young Komarran man who had
stopped by the outer gate to the restaurant's patio and was staring at
her. After a moment, he entered and approached their table. "Madame
Vorsoisson?" he said uncertainly.
"Yes?" she said warily.
"Oh,
good, I thought I recognized you. My name is Andro Farr. We met at the
Winterfair reception for the Serifosa terraforming employees a few
months ago, do you remember?"
Dimly. "Oh, yes. You were somebody's guest . . . ?"
"Yes.
Marie Trogir. She's an engineering tech in the Waste Heat Management
department. Or she was. … Do you know her? I mean, has she ever talked
with you?"
"No, not really." Ekaterin had met the
young Komarran woman perhaps three times, at carefully choreographed
Project events. She had usually been too conscious of herself as a
representative of Tien, of the need to cordially meet and greet
everyone, to get into any very intimate conversations. "Had she
intended to talk to me?"
The young man slumped in
disappointment. "I don't know. I thought you might have been friends,
or at least acquaintances. I've talked to all her friends I can find."
"Urn . . . oh?" Ekaterin was not at all sure she wished to encourage this conversation.
Farr
seemed to sense her wariness; he flushed slightly. "Excuse me. I seem
to have found myself in a rather painful domestic situation, and I
don't know why. It took me by surprise. But . . . but you see . . .
about six weeks ago, Marie told me she was going out of town on a field
project for her department, and would be back in about five weeks, but
she wasn't sure exactly. She didn't give me any comconsole codes to
reach her, she said she'd probably not be able to call, and not to
worry."
"Do you, um, live with her?"
"Yes.
Anyway, time went by, and time went by, and I didn't hear … I finally
called her department head, Administrator Soudha. He was vague. In
fact, I think he gave me a run-around. So I went down there in person
and asked around.
When I finally pinned him, he
said," Farr swallowed, "she'd resigned abruptly six weeks ago and left.
So had her engineering boss, Radovas, the one she'd said she was going
on the field project with. Soudha seemed to think they'd . . . left
together. It makes no sense."
The idea of running
away from a relationship and leaving no forwarding address made perfect
sense to Ekaterin, but it was hardly her place to say so. Who knew what
profound dissatisfactions Farr had failed to detect in his lady? "I'm
sorry. I know nothing about this. Tien never mentioned it."
"I'm sorry to bother you, Madame." He hesitated, balanced upon turning away.
"Have you talked to Madame Radovas?" Ekaterin asked tentatively.
"I tried. She refused to talk with me."
That, too, was understandable, if her middle-aged husband had run off with a younger and prettier woman.
"Have
you filed a missing person report with Dome Security?" Uncle Vorthys
inquired. Ekaterin realized she hadn't introduced him and, on
reflection, decided to leave it that way.
"I wasn't sure. I think I'm about to."
"Mm,"
said Ekaterin. Did she really want to encourage the fellow to persecute
this girl? She had apparently got away clean. Had she chosen this cruel
method of ending their relationship because she was a twit, or because
he was a monster? There was no way to tell from the outside. You could
never tell what secret burdens anyone carried, concealed by their
bright smiles.
"She left all her things. She left her cats. I don't know what to do with them," he said rather piteously.
Ekaterin
had heard of desperate women leaving everything up to and including
their children, but Uncle Vorthys put in, "That does seem odd. I'd go
to Security if I were you, if only to put your mind at ease. You can
always apologize later, if necessary."
"I … I
think I might. Good day, Madame Vorsoisson. Sir." He ran his hands
through his hair, and let himself back out the little fake wrought-iron
gate to the park.
"Perhaps we ought to be getting
back," Ekaterin suggested as the young man turned out of sight. "Should
we take Lord Vorkosigan some lunch? They'll make up a carry-out."
"I'm not sure he notices missing meals, when he's wound up in a problem, but it does seem only fair."
"Do you know what he likes?"
"Anything, I would imagine."
"Does he have any food allergies?"
"Not as far as I know."
She
made a hasty selection of a suitably balanced and nutritious meal,
hoping that the prettily-arranged vegetables wouldn't end up in the
waste disposer. With males, you never knew. When the order was
delivered, they took their leave, and Ekaterin led the way to the
nearest bubble-car station to get back to her own dome section. She
still had no clear idea how Vorkosigan had so successfully handled his
mutant-status on their mutagen-scarred homeworld, except, perhaps, by
pursuing most of his career off it. Was that likely to be any help to
Nikolai?
CHAPTER FOUR
Etienne Vorsoisson's bureaucratic domain
occupied two floors partway up a sealed tower otherwise devoted to
local Serifosa Dome government offices. The tower, on the edge of the
dome-sprawl, was not housed inside any other atmosphere-containing
structure. Miles eyed the glass-roofed atrium with disfavor as they
ascended a curving escalator within it. He swore his ear detected a
faint, far off whistle of air escaping some less-than-tight seal. "So
what happens if somebody lobs a rock through a window?" he murmured to
the Professor, a step behind him.
"Not much,"
Vorthys murmured back. "It would vent a pretty noticeable draft, but
the pressure differential just isn't that great."
"True."
Serifosa Dome was not really like a space installation, despite
occasional misleading similarities of architecture. They made the air
in here from the air out there, for the most part. Vent shafts
spotted all over the dome complex sucked in Komarr's free volatiles,
filtered out the excess carbon dioxide and some trace nasties, passed
the nitrogen through unaltered, and concentrated the oxygen to a
humanly-bearable mix. The percentage of oxygen in Komarr's raw
atmosphere was still too low to support a large mammal without the
technological aid of a breath mask, but the absolute amount
remained a vast reservoir compared to the volume of even the most
extensive dome complexes. "As long as their power system keeps running."
They
stepped from the escalator and followed Vorsoisson into a corridor
branching off the central atrium. The sight of a case of emergency
breath masks affixed to a wall next to a fire extinguisher reassured
Miles slightly, in passing, that the Komarrans here were not completely
oblivious to their routine hazards. Though the case looked suspiciously
dusty; had it ever been used since it had been installed, however many
years ago? Or checked? If this were a military inspection, Miles could
amuse himself by stopping the party right now, and tearing the case
apart to determine if the masks' power and reservoir levels still fell
within spec. As an Imperial Auditor, he could also do so, of course, or
take any other action which struck his fancy. When a younger man, his
besetting sin had been his impulsiveness. In the dark doubts of night,
Miles sometimes wondered if Emperor Gregor had quite thought through
his most recent Auditorial appointment. Power was supposed to corrupt,
but this felt more like being a kid turned loose in a candy store. Control yourself, boy.
The
mask case fell behind without incident. Vorsoisson, as tour guide,
continued to point out the offices of his various subordinate
departments, without, however, inviting his visitors inside. Not that
there was that much to see in these administrative headquarters. The
real interest, and the real work, lay outside the domes altogether, in
experimental stations and plots and pockets of biota all over Serifosa
Sector. All Miles would find in these bland rooms were . . .
com-consoles. And Komarrans, of course, lots of Komarrans.
"This
way, my lords." Vorsoisson shepherded them into a comfortably spacious
room featuring a large round holovid projection table. The place
looked, and smelled, like every other conference chamber Miles had ever
been in for military and security briefings and debriefings during his
truncated career. More of the same. I predict my greatest challenge this afternoon will be to stay awake.
A half a dozen men and women sat waiting, nervously fingering recording
pads and vid disks, and a couple more scurried in behind the two
Auditors with murmured apologies. Vorsoisson indicated seats set aside
for the visitors, at his right and left hand. With a brief general
smile of greeting, Miles settled in.
"Lord Auditor
Vorthys, Lord Vorkosigan, may I present the department heads of the
Serifosa branch of the Komarr Terraforming Project." Vorsoisson went
round the table, naming each attendee and their department, which under
the three basic branches of Accounting, Operations, and Research
included such evocative titles as Carbon Draw-down, Hydrology,
Greenhouse Gases, Tests Plots, Waste Heat Management, and Microbial
Reclassification. Native-born Komarrans, every one; Vorsoisson was the
only Barrayaran expatriate among them. Vorsoisson remained standing and
turned to one of the newcomers. "My lords, may I also present Ser
Venier, my administrative assistant. Vennie has organized a general
presentation for you, after which my staff will be happy to answer any
further questions."
Vorsoisson sat down. Venier
nodded to each Auditor and murmured something inaudible. He was a
slight man, shorter than Vorsoisson, with intent brown eyes and an
unfortunate weak chin which, together with his nervous air, lent him
the look of a slightly manic rabbit. He took the holovid control
podium, and rubbed his hands together, and stacked and restacked his
pile of data disks before selecting one, then putting it back down. He
cleared his throat and found his voice. "My lords. It was suggested I
start with a historical overview." He nodded to each of them again, his
glance lingering for a moment on Miles. He inserted a disk in his
machine, and started an attractive, i.e., artistically enhanced, view
of Komarr spinning over the vid plate. "The early explorers of the
wormhole nexus found Komarr a likely candidate for possible
terraforming. Our almost point-nine-standard gravity and abundant
native supply of gaseous nitrogen, the inert buffer gas of choice, and
of sufficient water-ice, made it an immensely easier problem to tackle
than such classic cold dry planets as, say, Mars."
They
had indeed been early explorers, Miles reflected, to arrive and settle
before more salubrious worlds were found to render such ambitious
projects economically uninteresting, at least if you didn't already
live there. But . . . then there were the wormholes.
"On the debit side," Venier continued, "the concentration of atmospheric CO2
was high enough to be toxic to humans, yet insolation was so inadequate
that no greenhouse effect, runaway or otherwise, captured the heat
needed to maintain liquid water. Komarr was therefore a lifeless world,
cold and dark. The earliest calculations suggested more water would be
needed, and a few so-called low-impact cometary crashes were arranged,
hence we can thank our ancestors for our southern crater lakes." A
colorful, though out-of-scale, sprinkle of lights dusted the lower
hemisphere of the planet-image, resolving into a string of blue blobs.
"But the growing demand topside for cometary water and volatiles for
the orbital and wormhole stations soon put a stop to that. And the early downside settlers' fears of poorly controlled trajectories, of course."
Demonstrated fears, as Miles recalled his Komarran history.
He stole a glance at Vorthys. The Professor appeared perfectly content with Venier's class lecture.
"In
fact," Venier went on, "later explorations showed the water-ice tied up
in the polar caps to be thicker than at first suspected, if not so
abundant as on Earth. And so the drive for heat and light began."
Miles sympathized with the early Komarrans. He loathed arctic cold and dark with a concentrated passion.
"Our
ancestors built the first insolation mirror, succeeded a generation
later by another design." A holovid model, again out of scale, appeared
to the side, and melted into a second one. "A century later, this was
in turn succeeded by the design we see today." The seven-disk hexagon
appeared, and danced attendance on the Komarr globe. "Insolation at the
equator was boosted enough to allow liquid water and the beginnings of
a biota to draw down the carbon and release much-needed O2 .
Over the following decades, a full-spectrum mixture of artificial
greenhouse gases was manufactured and released into the upper
atmosphere to help trap the new energy." Venier moved his hand; four of
the seven disks winked out. "Then came the accident." All the Komarrans
around the table stared glumly at the crippled array.
"There was mention of a cooling projection? With figures?" Vorthys prodded gently.
"Yes,
my Lord Auditor." Venier slid a disk across the polished surface toward
the Professor. "Administrator Vorsoisson said you were an engineer, so
I left in all the calculations."
The Waste Heat
Management fellow, Soudha, also an engineer, winced and bit his thumb
at this innocent ignorance of Vorthys's stature in his field. Vorthys
merely said, "Thank you. I appreciate that."
So where's my copy? Miles did not ask aloud. "And can you please summarize your conclusions for us nonengineers, Ser Venier?"
"Certainly,
Lord Auditor . . . Vorkosigan. Serious damage to our biota in the
northernmost and southernmost latitudes, not just in Serifosa Sector
but planetwide, will begin after one season. For every year after that,
we lose more ground; by the end of five years, the destructive cooling
curve rises rapidly towards catastrophe. It took twenty years to build
the original soletta array. I pray that it will not take that many to
repair it." On the vid model, white polar caps crept like pale tumors
over the globe.
Vorthys glanced at Soudha. "And so
other sources of heat suddenly take on new importance, at least for a
stopgap."
Soudha, a big, square-handed man in his
late forties, sat back and smiled a bit grimly. He, too, cleared his
throat before beginning. "It was hoped, early on in the terraforming,
that the waste heat from our growing arcologies would contribute
significantly to planetary warming. Over time, this proved optimistic.
A planet with an activating hydrology is a huge thermal buffering
system, what with the heat of liquefaction load locked up in all that
ice. At present—before the accident—it was felt the best use of waste
heat was in the creation of microclimates around the domes, to be
reservoirs for the next wave of higher biota."
"It
sounds like insanity to an engineer to say, 'We need to waste more
energy in heat loss,'" agreed Vorthys, "but I suppose here it's true.
What's the feasibility of dedicating some number of fusion reactors to
pure heat production?"
"Boiling the seas cup by cup?" Soudha grimaced. "Possible,
sure, and I'd love to see some more done with that technique for
small-area development in Serifosa Sector. Economical-no. Per degree of
planetary warming, it's even more costly than repairing—or
enlarging—the soletta array, something for which we've been petitioning
the Imperium for years. Without success. And if you've built a reactor,
you might as well use it to run a dome while you're at it. The heat
will arrive outside eventually just the same." He slid data disks
across to both Vorthys and Miles this time. "Here's our current
departmental status report." He glanced across at one of his
colleagues. "We're all anxious to move on to higher plant forms in our
lifetimes, but at present the greatest, if not success, at least
activity remains on the microbial level. Philip?"
The
man who had been introduced as the head of Microbial Reclassification
smiled, not entirely gratefully, at Soudha, and turned to the Auditors.
"Well, yes. Bacteria are booming. Both our deliberate inoculations, and
wild genera. Over the years, every Earth type has been imported, or at
any rate, has arrived and escaped. Unfortunately, microbial life has a
tendency to adapt to its environment more swiftly than the environment
has adapted to us. My department has its hands full, keeping up with
the mutations. More light and heat are needed, as always. And, bluntly,
my lords, more funding. Although our microflora grow fast, they also
die fast, rereleasing their carbon compounds. We need to advance to
higher organisms, to sequester the excess carbon for the millennial
time-frames required. Perhaps you could address this, Liz?" He nodded
toward a pleasantly plump middle-aged lady who had been named head of
Carbon Drawdown.
She smiled happily, by which
Miles deduced her department's responsibilities were going well this
year. "Yes, my lords. We've a number of higher forms of vegetation
coming along both in major test plots, and undergoing genetic
development or improvement. By far our greatest success is with the
cold– and carbon-dioxide-hardy peat bogs. They do require liquid water,
and as always, would do better at higher temperatures. Ideally, they should be sited in subduction zones, for really
long-term carbon sequestration, but Serifosa Sector lacks these. So
we've chosen low-lying areas which will, as water is released from the
poles, eventually be covered with lakes and small seas, locking the
captured carbon down under a sedimentary cap. Properly set up, the
process will run entirely automatically, without further human
intervention. If we could just get the funding to double or triple the
area of our plantations in the next few years . . . well, here are my
projections." Vorthys collected another data disk. "We've started
several test plots of larger plants, to follow atop the bogs. These
larger organisms are of course infinitely more controllable than the
rapidly mutating microflora. They are ready to scale up to wider
plantations right now. But they are even more severely threatened by
the reduction in heat and light from the soletta. We really must have a reliable estimate of how long it will take to effect repairs in space before we dare continue our planting plans."
She gazed longingly at Vorthys, but he merely said, "Thank you, Madame."
"We
plan a flyover of the peat plantations later this afternoon,"
Vorsoisson told her. She settled back, temporarily content.
And
so it continued around the table: more than Miles had ever wanted to
know about Komarran terraforming, interspersed with oblique, and not so
oblique, pleas for increased Imperial funding. And heat and light. Power corrupts, but we want energy.
Only Accounting and Waste Heat Management had managed to arrive at the
meeting with duplicate copies of their pertinent reports for Miles. He
stifled an impulse to point this out to somebody. Did he really want
another several hundred thousand words of bedtime reading? His newer
scars were starting to twinge by the time everyone had had their say,
without even yesterday's excuse of the physical stresses of buzzing
around wreckage in a pressure suit. He rose from his chair much more
stiffly than he had intended; Vorthys made a gesture of a helping hand
to his elbow, but at Miles's frown and tiny head shake, suppressed it.
He didn't really need a drink, he just wanted one.
"Ah,
Administrator Soudha," Vorthys said, as the Waste Heat department head
stepped past them toward the door. "A word, please?"
Soudha stopped, and smiled faintly. "My Lord Auditor?"
"Was there some special reason you could not help that young fellow, Farr, find his missing lady?"
Soudha hesitated. "I beg your pardon?"
"The
fellow who was looking for your former employee, Marie Trogir, I
believe he said her name was. Was there some reason you could not help
him?"
"Oh, him. Her. Well, uh . . . that was a
difficult thing, there." Soudha looked around, but the room had
emptied, except for Vorsoisson and Venier waiting to convey their
high-ranking guests on the next leg of their tour.
"I recommended he file a missing person complaint with Dome Security. They may be making inquiries of you."
"I
… don't think I'll be able to help them any more than I could help
Farr. I'm afraid I really don't know where she is. She left, you see.
Very suddenly, only a day's notice. It put a hole in my staffing at
what has proved to be a difficult time. I wasn't too pleased."
"So
Farr said. I just thought it was odd about the cats. One of my
daughters keeps cats. Dreadful little parasites, but she's very fond of
them."
"Cats?" said Soudha, looking increasingly mystified.
"Trogir apparently left her cats in the keeping of Farr."
Soudha
blinked, but said, "I've always considered it out of line to intrude on
my subordinate's personal lives. Men or pets, it was Trogir's business,
not mine. As long as they're kept off project time. I … was there
anything else?"
"Not really," said Vorthys.
"Then if you will excuse me, my Lord Auditor." Soudha smiled again, and ducked away.
"What was that all about?" Miles asked Vorthys as they turned down the corridor in the opposite direction.
Vorsoisson
answered. "A minor office scandal, unfortunately. One of Soudha's
techs—female—ran off with one of his engineers, male. Completely
blindsided him, apparently. He's fairly embarrassed about it. However
did you run across it?"
"Young Farr accosted Ekaterin in a restaurant," said Vorthys.
"He really has been a pest." Vorsoisson sighed. "I don't blame Soudha for avoiding him."
"I
always thought Komarrans were more casual about such things," said
Miles. "In the galactic style and all that. Not as casual as the
Betans, but still. It sounds like a Barrayaran backcountry elopement." Without, surely, the need to avoid backcountry social pressures, such as homicidal relatives out to defend the clan honor.
Vorsoisson
shrugged. "The cultural contamination between the worlds can't run one
way all the time, I suppose."
The little party
continued to the underground garage, where the aircar Vorsoisson had
requisitioned was not in evidence. "Wait here, Venier." Swearing under
his breath, Vorsoisson went off to see what had happened to it; Vorthys
accompanied him.
The opportunity to interview a
Komarran in apparently-casual mode was not to be missed. What kind of
Komarran was Venier? Miles turned to him, only to find him speaking
first: "Is this your first visit to Komarr, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"By
no means. I've passed through the topside stations many times. I
haven't got downside too often, I admit. This is the first time I've
been to Serifosa."
"Have you ever visited Solstice?"
The planetary capital. "Of course."
Venier
stared at the middle distance, past the concrete pillars and dim
lighting, and smiled faintly. "Have you ever visited the Massacre
Shrine there?"
A cheeky damned Komarran, that's what kind.
The Solstice Massacre was infamous as the ugliest incident of the
Barrayaran conquest. The two hundred Komarran Counselors, the
then-ruling senate, had surrendered on terms—and subsequently been
gunned down in a gymnasium by Barrayaran security forces. The political
consequences had run a short range from dire to disastrous. Miles's
smile became a little fixed. "Of course. How could I not?"
"All Barrayarans should make that pilgrimage. In my opinion."
"I went with a close friend. To help him burn a death offering for his aunt."
"A
relative of a Martyr is a friend of yours?" Venier's eyes widened in a
moment of genuine surprise, in what otherwise felt to Miles to be a
highly choreographed conversation. How long had Venier been rehearsing
his lines in his head, itching for a chance to try them out?
"Yes." Miles let his gaze become more directly challenging.
Venier
apparently felt the weight of it, because he shifted uneasily, and
said, "As you are your father's son, I'm just a little surprised, is
all."
By what, that I have any Komarran friends? "Especially as I am my father's son, you should not be."
Venier's
brows tweaked up. "Well . . . there is a theory that the massacre was
ordered by Emperor Ezar without the knowledge of Admiral Vorkosigan.
Ezar was certainly ruthless enough."
"Ruthless
enough, yes. Stupid enough, never. It was the Barrayaran expedition's
chief Political Officer's own bright idea, for which my father made him
pay with his life, not that that did much good for anyone after the
fact. Leaving aside every moral consideration, the massacre was a
supremely stupid act. My father has been accused of many things, but
stupidity has never, I believe, been one of them." His voice was
growing dangerously clipped.
"We'll never know the whole truth, I suppose," said Venier.
Was
that supposed to be a concession? "You can be told the whole truth all
day long, but if you won't believe it, then no, I don't suppose you
ever will know it." He bared his teeth in a non-smile. No, keep control; why let this Komarran git see he's scored you off?
The
doors of a nearby elevator opened, and Venier abruptly dropped from
Miles's attention as Madame Vorsoisson and Nikolai exited. She was
wearing the same dull dun outfit she'd sported that morning, and
carried a large pile of heavy jackets over her arm. She waved her hand
around the jackets and stepped swiftly over to them. "Am I very late?"
she asked a bit breathlessly. "Good afternoon, Venier."
Suppressing the first idiocy that came to his lips, which was, Any time is a good one for you, milady, Miles managed a, "Well, good afternoon, Madame Vorsoisson, Nikolai. I wasn't expecting you. Are you to accompany us?" I hope? "Your husband has just gone off to fetch an aircar."
"Yes,
Uncle Vorthys suggested it would be educational for Nikolai. And I
haven't had much chance to see outside the domes myself. I jumped at
the invitation." She smiled, and pushed back a strand of dark hair
escaping its confinement, and almost dropped her bundle. "I wasn't sure
if we were to land anywhere and get outside on foot, but I brought
jackets for everyone just in case."
A large
two-compartment sealed aircar hissed around the corner and sighed to
the pavement beside them. The front canopy opened, and Vorsoisson
clambered out, and greeted his wife and son. The Professor watched from
the front seat with some amusement as the question of how to distribute
six passengers among the two compartments was taken over by Nikolai,
who wanted to sit both by his great-uncle and by his Da.
"Perhaps Venier could fly us today?" Madame Vorsoisson suggested diffidently.
Vorsoisson gave her an oddly black look. "I'm perfectly capable."
Her lips moved, but she uttered no audible protest. Take your pick, my Lord Auditor, Miles thought to himself. Would
you rather be chauffeured by a man just possibly suffering the first
symptoms of Vorzohn's Dystrophy, or by a Komarran, ah, patriot, with a
car full of tempting Barrayaran Vor targets? "I have no preference," he murmured truthfully.
"I
brought coats—" Madame Vorsoisson handed them out. She and her husband
and Nikolai had their own; a spare of her husband's did not quite meet
around the Professor's middle. The heavily padded jacket she handed
Miles had been hers, he could tell immediately by the scent of her,
lingering in the lining. He concealed a deep inhalation as he shrugged
it on. "Thank you, that will do very well."
Vorsoisson
dove into the rear compartment and came up with a double handful of
breath masks, which he distributed. Both he and Venier had their own,
with their names engraved on the cheek-pieces; the others wer. all
labeled "Visitor": one large, two medium, one small.
Madame
Vorsoisson hung hers over her arm, and bent to adjust Nikolai's, and
check its power and oxygen levels. "I already checked it," Vorsoisson
told her. His voice hinted a suppressed snarl. "You don't have to do it
again."
"Oh, sorry," she said. But Miles, running
through his own check in drilled habit, noticed she finished inspecting
it before turning to adjust her own mask. Vorsoisson noticed too, and
frowned.
After a few more moments of Betan-style
debate, the group sorted themselves out with Vorsoisson, his son, and
the Professor in the front compartment, and Miles, Madame Vorsoisson,
and Venier in the rear. Miles was uncertain whether to be glad or sorry
with his lot in seatmates. He felt he could have engaged either of them
in fascinating, if quite different, conversations, if the other had not
been present. They all pulled heir masks down around their necks, out
of the way but instantly ready to hand.
They
departed the garage's vehicle-lock without further delay, and the car
rose in the air. Venier returned to his initial stiffly professional
lecture mode, pointing out bits of project scenery. You could
begin to see the terraforming from this modest altitude, in the faint
smattering of Earth-green in the damp low places, and a fuzziness of
lichen and algae on the rocks. Madame Vorsoisson, her face plastered to
the canopy, asked enough intelligent questions of Venier that Miles did
not have to strain his tired brain for any, for which he was very
grateful.
"I'm surprised, Madame Vorsoisson, with
your interest in botany, that you haven't leaned on your husband for a
job in his department," said Miles after a while.
"Oh," she said, as if this was a new idea to her. "Oh, I couldn't do that."
"Why not?"
"Wouldn't it be nepotism? Or some kind of conflict of interest?"
"Not
if you did your job well, which I'm sure you would. After all, the
whole Barrayaran Vor system runs on nepotism. It's not a vice for us,
it's a lifestyle."
Venier suppressed an unexpected noise, possibly a snort, and glanced at Miles with increased interest.
"Why should you be exempt?" Miles continued.
"It's only a hobby. I don't have nearly enough technical training. I'd need much more chemistry, to start."
"You
could start in a technical assistant position—take evening classes to
fill in your gaps. Bootstrap yourself up to something interesting in no
time. They have to hire someone." Belatedly, it occurred to Miles that
if she, not Vorsoisson, was the carrier of the Vorzohn's Dystrophy,
there might be quelling reasons why she had not plunged into such a
time– and energy-absorbing challenge. He sensed an elusive energy in
her, as if it were tied in knots, locked down, circling back to exhaust
itself destroying itself; had fear of her coming illness done that to
her? Dammit, which of them was it? He was supposed to be such a hotshot
investigator now, he ought to be able to figure this one out.
Well,
he could do so easily; all he had to do was cheat, and call ImpSec
Komarr, and request a complete background medical check on his hosts.
Just wave his magical Auditor-wand and invade all the privacy he wanted
to. No. All this had nothing to do with the accident to the soletta
array. As this morning's embarrassment with her comconsole had
demonstrated, he needed to start keeping his personal and professional
curiosity just as strictly separated as his personal and Imperial
funds. Neither a peculator nor a voyeur be. He ought to get a
plaque engraved with that motto and hang it on his wall for a reminder.
At least money didn't tempt him. He could smell her faint perfume,
organic and floral against the plastic and metal and recycled air. . . .
To Miles's surprise, Venier said, "You really should consider it, Madame Vorsoisson."
Her
expression, which during the flight had gradually become animated, grew
reserved again. "I … we'll see. Maybe next year. After … if Tien
decides to stay."
Vorsoisson's voice, over the
intercom from the front compartment, interrupted to point out the
upcoming peat bog, lining a long narrow valley below. It was a more
impressive sight than Miles had expected. For one thing, it was a true
and bright Earth-green; for another, it ran on for kilometers.
"This strain produces six times the oxygen of its Earth ancestor," Venier noted with pride.
"So
… if you were trapped outside without a breath mask, could you crawl
around in it and survive till you were rescued?" Miles asked
practically.
"Mm … if you could hold your breath for about a hundred more years."
Miles
began to suspect Venier of concealing a sense of humor beneath that
twitchy exterior. In any case, the aircar spiraled down toward a rocky
outcrop, and Miles's attention was taken up by their landing site. He'd
had unpleasant and deep, so to speak, personal experience with the
treachery of arctic bogs. But Vorsoisson managed to put the car down
with a reassuring crunchy jar on solid rock, and they all adjusted
their breath masks. The canopy rose to admit a blast of chill
unbreathable outside air, and they exited for a clamber over the rocks
and down to personally examine the squishy green plants. They were
squishy green plants, all right. There were lots of them. Stretching to
the horizon. Lots. Squishy. Green. With an effort, Miles stopped his
back-brain from composing a lengthy Report to the Emperor in this
style, and tried instead to appreciate Venier's highly technical
disquisition on potential deep-freeze damage to the something-chemical
cycle.
After a little more time spent regarding
the view—it didn't change, and Nikki, though he sprang around like a
flea, with his mother laboring after him, didn't quite manage to fall
into the bog—they all reboarded the aircar. After a flyover of a
neighboring green valley, and a pass across another dull brown
unaltered one for comparison and contrast, they turned for the Serifosa
Dome.
A largish installation featuring its own
fusion reactor, and a riot of assorted greens spilling away from it,
caught Miles's attention on the leftward horizon. "What's that?" he
asked Denier.
"It's Waste Heat's main experiment station," Venier replied.
Miles
touched the intercom. "Any chance of dropping in for a visit down
there?" he called the forward compartment.
Vorsoisson's
voice hesitated. "I'm not sure we could get back to the dome before
dark. I don't like to take the chance."
Miles
hadn't thought night flight was that hazardous, but perhaps Vorsoisson
knew his own limitations. And he did have his wife and child aboard,
not to mention all that Imperial load in the somewhat unprepossessing
persons of Miles and the Professor. Still, surprise inspections were
always the most fun, if you wanted to turn up the good stuff. He toyed
with the idea of insisting, Auditorially.
"It would certainly be interesting," murmured Venier. "I haven't been out there in person in years."
"Perhaps another day?" suggested Vorsoisson.
Miles
let it go. He and Vorthys were playing visiting firemen here, not
inspectors general; the real crisis was topside. "Perhaps. If there's
time."
Another ten minutes of flight brought
Serifosa Dome up over the horizon. It was vast and spectacular in the
gathering dusk, with its glittering strings of lights, looping
bubble-car tubes, warm glow of domes, sparkling towers. We humans don't do too badly, Miles thought, if you catch us at the right angle. The aircar slid back through the vehicle lock and settled again to the garage pavement.
Venier
went off with the aircar, and Vorsoisson collected the spare breath
masks. Madame Vorsoisson's face was bright and glowing, exhilarated by
her field trip. "Don't forget to put your mask back on the recharger,"
she chirped to her husband as she handed him hers.
Vorsoisson's face darkened. "Don't. Nag. Me," he breathed through set teeth.
She
recoiled slightly, her expression closing as abruptly as a shutter.
Miles stared off through the pillars, politely pretending not to have
heard or noticed this interplay. He was hardly an expert on marital
miscommunication, but even he could see how that one had gone awry. Her
perhaps unfortunately-chosen expression of love and interest had been
received by the obviously tense and tired Vorsoisson as a slur on his
competence. Madame Vorsoisson deserved a better hearing, but Miles had
no advice to offer. He had never even come near to capturing a wife to miscommunicate with. Not for lack of trying. . . .
"Well,
well," said Uncle Vorthys, also heartily pretending not to have noticed
the byplay. "Everyone will feel better with a little supper aboard, eh,
Ekaterin? Let me treat you all to dinner. Do you have another favorite
place as splendid as the one where we ate lunch?"
The
moment of tension was extinguished in another Betan debate over the
dinner destination; this time, Nikki was successfully overruled by the
adults. Miles wasn't hungry, and the temptation to relieve Vorthys of
the day's collection of data disks and escape back to some comconsole
was strong, but perhaps with another drink or three he could endure one
more family dinner with the Vorsoisson clan. The last, Miles promised
himself.
A trifle drunker than he had intended to
be, Miles undressed for another night in the rented grav-bed. He piled
the new stack of data disks on the comconsole to wait for morning,
coffee, and better mental coherence. The last thing he did was rummage
in his case and fish out his controlled-seizure stimulator. He sat
cross-legged on the bed and regarded it glumly.
The
Barrayaran doctors had found no cure for the post-cryonic seizure
disorder that had finally ended his military career. The best they had
been able to offer was this: a triggering device to bleed off his
convulsions in smaller increments, in controlled private times and
places, instead of grandly, randomly, and spectacularly in moments of
public stress. Checking his neurotransmitter levels was now a nightly
hygienic routine, just like brushing his teeth, the doctors had
suggested. He felt his right temple for the implant and positioned the
read-contact. His only sensation was a faint spot of warmth.
The
levels were not yet in the danger zone. A few more days before he had
to put in the mouth-guard and do it again. Having left his Armsman,
Pym, who usually played valet and general servant, back on Barrayar, he
would have to find another spotter. The doctors had insisted he have a
spotter, when he did this ugly little thing. He would much prefer to be
helpless and out-of-consciousness—and twitching like a fish, he
supposed, though of course he was the one person who never got to watch—in complete privacy. Maybe he would ask the Professor.
If you had a wife, she could be your spotter.
Gee, what a treat for her.
He
grimaced, and put the device carefully away in its case, and crawled
into bed. Perhaps in his dreams the space wreckage would reassemble
itself, just like in a vid reconstruction, and reveal the secrets of
its fate. Better to have visions of the wreckage than the bodies.
CHAPTER FIVE
Ekaterin studied Tien warily as they undressed
for bed. The frowning tension in his face and body made her think she
had better offer sex very soon. Strain in him frightened her, as
always. It was past time to defuse him. The longer she waited, the
harder it would be to approach him, and the tenser he would become,
ending in some angry explosion of muffled, cutting words.
Sex,
she imagined wistfully, should be romantic, abandoned, self-forgetful.
Not the most tightly self-disciplined action in her world. Tien
demanded response of her and worked hard to obtain it, she thought; not
like men she'd heard about who took their own pleasure, then rolled
over and went to sleep. She sometimes wished he would. He became
upset—with himself, with her?—if she failed to participate fully.
Unable to act a lie with her body, she'd learned to erase herself from
herself, and so unblock whatever strange neural channel it was that
permitted flesh to flood mind. The inward erotic fantasies required to
absorb her self-consciousness had become stronger and uglier over time;
was that a mere unavoidable side-effect of learning more about the
ugliness of human possibility, or a permanent corruption of the spirit?
I hate this.
Tien
hung up his shirt and twitched a smile at her. His eyes remained
strained, though, as they had been all evening. "I'd like you to do me
a favor tomorrow."
Anything, to delay the moment. "Certainly. What?"
"Take
the brace of Auditors out and show 'em a good time. I'm about saturated
with them. This downside holiday of theirs has been incredibly
disruptive to my department. We've lost a week altogether, I bet,
pulling together that show for them yesterday. Maybe they can go poke
at something else, till they go back topside."
"Take them where, show them what?"
"Anything."
"I already took Uncle Vorthys around."
"Did
you show him the Sector University district? Maybe he'd like that. Your
uncle is interested in lots of things, and I don't think the Vor dwarf
cares what he's offered. As long as it includes enough wine."
"I haven't the first clue what Lord Vorkosigan likes to do."
"Ask him. Suggest something. Take him, I don't know, take him shopping."
"Shopping?" she said doubtfully.
"Or
whatever." He trod over to her, still smiling tightly. His hand slipped
behind her back, to hold her, and he offered a tentative kiss. She
returned it, trying not to let her dutifulness show. She could feel the
heat of his body, of his hands, and how thinly stretched his affability
was. Ah, yes, the work of the evening, defusing the unexploded Tien.
Always a tricky business. She began to pay attention to the practiced
rituals, key words, gestures, that led into the practiced intimacies.
Undressed
and in bed, she closed her eyes as he caressed her, partly to
concentrate on the touch, partly to block out his gaze, which was
beginning to be excited and pleased. Wasn't there some bizarre mythical
bird or other, back on Earth, who fancied that if it couldn't see you,
you couldn't see it? And so buried its head in the sand, odd image.
While still attached to its neck, she wondered?
She
opened her eyes, as Tien reached across her and lowered the lamplight
to a softer glow. His avid look made her feel not beautiful and loved,
but ugly and ashamed. How could you be violated by mere eyes? How could
you be lovers with someone, and yet feel every moment alone with them
intruded upon your privacy, your dignity? Don't look, Tien.
Absurd. There really was something wrong with her. He lowered himself
beside her; she parted her lips, yielding quickly to his questing
mouth. She hadn't always been this self-conscious and cautious. Back in
the beginning, it had been different. Or had it been she alone who'd
changed?
It became her turn to sit up and return
caresses. That was easy enough; he buried his face in his pillow, and
did not talk for a while, as her hands moved up and down his body,
tracing muscle and tendon. Secretly seeking symptoms. The tremula
seemed reduced tonight; perhaps last evening's shakes really had been a
false alarm, merely the hunger and nerves he had claimed.
She
knew when the shift had occurred in her, of course, back about four,
five jobs ago now. When Tien had decided, for reasons she still didn't
understand, that she was betraying him—with whom, she had never
understood either, since the two names he'd finally mentioned as his
suspects were so patently absurd. She'd had no idea such a sexual
mistrust had taken over his mind, until she'd caught him following her,
watching her, turning up at odd times and bizarre places when he was
supposed to be at work—and had that perhaps had something to do with
why that job had ended so badly? She'd finally had the
accusation out of him. She'd been horrified, deeply wounded, and subtly
frightened. Was it stalking, when it was your own husband? She had not
had the courage to ask who to ask. Her one source of security was the
knowledge that she'd never so much as been alone in any private place
with another man. Her Vor-class training had done her that much good,
at least. Then he had accused her of sleeping with her women friends.
That
had broken something in her at last, some will to desire his good
opinion. How could you argue sense into someone who believed something
not because it was true, but because he was an idiot? No amount of
panicky protestation or indignant denial or futile attempt to prove a
negative was likely to help, because the problem was not in the
accused, but in the accuser. She began then to believe he was living in
a different universe, one with a different set of physical laws,
perhaps, and an alternate history. And very different people from the
ones she'd met of the same name. Smarmy dopplegangers all.
Still,
the accusation alone had been enough to chill her friendships, stealing
their innocent savor and replacing it with an unwelcome new level of
awareness. With the next move, time and distance attenuated her
contacts. And on the move after that, she'd stopped trying to make new
friends.
To this day she didn't know if he'd taken
her disgusted refusal to defend herself for a covert admission of
guilt. Weirdly, after the blowup the subject had been dropped cold; he
didn't bring it up again, and she didn't deign to. Did he think her
innocent, or himself insufferably noble for forgiving her for
nonexistent crimes?
Why is he so impossible?
She didn't want the insight, but it came nonetheless. Because he fears losing you. And so in panic blundered about destroying her love, creating a self-fulfilling prophecy? It seemed so. It's not as though you can pretend his fears have no foundation. Love was long gone, in her. She got by on a starvation diet of loyalty these days.
I
am Vor. I swore to hold him in sickness. He is sick. I will not break
my oath, just because things have gotten difficult. That's the whole
point of an oath, after all. Some things, once broken, cannot ever be
repaired. Oaths. Trust. . . .
She could not
tell to what extent his illness was at the root of his erratic
behavior. When they returned from the galactic treatment, he might be
much better emotionally as well. Or at least she would at last be able
to tell how much was Vorzohn's Dystrophy, and how much was just . . .
Tien.
They switched positions; his skilled hands
began working down her back, probing for her relaxation and response.
An even more unhappy thought occurred to her then. Had Tien been,
consciously or unconsciously, putting off his treatment because he
realized on some obscure level that his illness, his vulnerability, was
one of the few ties that still bound her to him? Is this delay my fault? Her head ached.
Tien,
still valiantly rubbing her back, made a murmur of protest. She was
failing to relax; this wouldn't do. Resolutely, she turned her thoughts
to a practiced erotic fantasy, unbeautiful, but one which usually
worked. Was it some weird inverted form of frigidity, this thing
bordering on self-hypnosis she seemed to have to do in order to achieve
sexual release despite Tien's too-near presence? How could you tell the
difference between not liking sex, and not liking the only person you'd
ever done sex with?
Yet she was almost desperate for touch, mere affection untainted by the indignities of the erotic. Tien was
very good about that, massaging her for quite unconscionable lengths of
time, though he sometimes sighed in a boredom for which she could
hardly blame him. The touch, the make-it-better, the sheer catlike
comfort, eased her body and then her heart, despite it all. She could
absorb hours of this—she slitted one eye open to check the clock.
Better not get greedy. So mind-wrenching, for Tien to demand a sexual
show of her on the one hand, and accuse her of infidelity on the other.
Did he want her to melt, or want her to freeze? Anything you pick is wrong.
No, this wasn't helping. She was taking much too long to cultivate her
arousal. Back to work. She tried again to start her fantasy. He might
have rights upon her body, but her mind was hers alone, the one part of
her into which he could not pry.
It went according
to plan and practice, after that, mission accomplished all around. Tien
kissed her when they'd finished. "There, all better," he murmured.
"We're doing better these days, aren't we?"
She
murmured back the usual assurances, a light, standard script. She would
have preferred an honest silence. She pretended to doze, in postcoital
lassitude, till his snores assured her he was asleep. Then she went to
the bathroom to cry.
Stupid, irrational weeping. She muffled it in a towel, lest he, or Nikki, or her guests hear and investigate. I hate him. I hate myself. I hate him, for making me hate myself. . . .
Most
of all, she despised in herself that crippling desire for physical
affection, regenerating like a weed in her heart no matter how many
times she tried to root it out. That neediness, that dependence, that
love-of-touch must be broken first. It had betrayed her, worse than all
the other things. If she could kill her need for love, then all the
other coils which bound her, desire for honor, attachment to duty,
above all every form of fear, could be brought into line. Austerely
mystical, she supposed. If I can kill all these things in me, I can be free of him.
I'll be a walking dead woman, but I will be free.
She
finished the weep, and washed her face, and took three painkillers. She
could sleep now, she thought. But when she slipped back into the
bedroom, she found Tien lying awake, his eyes a faint gleam in the
shadows. He turned up the lamp at the whisper of her bare feet on the
carpet. She tried to remember if insomnia was listed among the early
symptoms of his disease. He raised the covers for her to slip beneath.
"What were you doing in there all that time, going for seconds without
me?"
She wasn't sure if he was waiting for a
laugh, if that was supposed to be a joke, or her indignant denial.
Evading the problem, instead she said, "Oh, Tien, I almost forgot. Your
bank called this afternoon. Very strange. Something about requiring my
countersignature and palm-print to release your pension account. I told
them I didn't think that could be right, but that I would check with
you and get back to them."
He froze in the act of reaching for her. "They had no business calling you about that!"
"If
this was something you wanted me to do, you might have mentioned it
earlier. They said they'd delay releasing it till I got back to them."
"Delayed, no! You idiot bitch!" His right hand clenched in a gesture of frustration.
The
hateful and hated epithet made her sick to her stomach. All that effort
to pacify him tonight, and here he was right back on the edge. . . .
"Did I make a mistake?" she asked anxiously. "Tien, what's wrong?
What's going on?" She prayed he wasn't about to put his fist through
the wall again. The noise—would her uncle hear, or that Vorkosigan
fellow, and how could she explain—
"No . . . no.
Sorry." He rubbed his forehead instead, and she let out a covert sigh
of relief. "I forgot about it being under Komarran rules. On Barrayar,
I never had any trouble signing out my pension accumulation when I left
any job, any job that offered a pension, anyway. Here on Komarr I think
they want a joint signature from the designated survivor. It's all
right. Call them back first thing in the morning, though, and clear it."
"You're not leaving your job, are you?" Her chest tightened in panic. Dear no, not another move so soon. . . .
"No, no. Hell, no. Relax." He smiled with one side of his mouth.
"Oh. Good." She hesitated. "Tien … do you have any accumulation from your old jobs back on Barrayar?"
"No,
I always signed it out at the end. Why let them have the use of the
money, when we could use it ourselves? It served to tide us over more
than once, you know." He smiled bitterly. "Under the circumstances, you
have to admit, the idea of saving for my old age is not very
compelling. And you wanted that vacation to South Continent, didn't
you?"
"I thought you said that was a termination bonus."
"So it was, in a sense."
So … if anything horrible happened to Tien, she and Nikolai would have nothing. If he doesn't get treatment soon, something horrible is going to happen to him.
"Yes, but …" The realization struck her. Could it be . . . ? "Are you
getting it out for—we're going for the galactic treatment, yes? You and
me and Nikolai? Oh, Tien, good! Finally. Of course. I should have
realized." So that's what he needed the money for, yes, at last! She
rolled over and hugged him. But would it be enough? If it was less than
a year's worth . . . "Will it be enough?"
"I … don't know. I'm checking."
"I
saved a little out of my household allowance, I could put that in," she
offered. "If it will get us underway sooner."
He licked his lips, and was silent for a moment. "I'm not sure. I don't like to let you …"
"This
is exactly what I saved it for. I mean, I know I didn't earn it in the
first place, but I managed it—it can be my contribution."
"How much do you have?"
"Almost four thousand Imperial marks!" She smiled, proud of her frugality.
"Oh!" He looked as though he were making an inner calculation. "Yes, that would help significantly."
He
dropped a kiss on her forehead, and she relaxed further. She said, "I
never thought about raiding your pension for the medical quest. I
didn't realize we could. How soon can we get away?"
"That's
… the next thing I'll have to find out. I would have checked it out
this week, but I was interrupted by my department suffering a severe
outbreak of Imperial Auditors."
She smiled in
brief appreciation of his wit. He'd used to make her laugh more. If he
had grown more sour with age, it was understandable, but the blackness
of his humor had gradually come to weary her more than amuse her.
Cynicism did not seem nearly so impressively daring to her now as it
had when she was twenty. Perhaps this decision had lightened his heart,
too.
Do you really think he'll do what he says, this time? Or will you be a fool? Again.
No … if suspicion was the deadliest possible insult, then trust was
always right, even if it was mistaken. Provisionally relieved by his
new promise, she snuggled into the crook of his body, and for once his
heavy arm flung across her seemed more comfort than trap. Maybe this
time, they would finally be able to put their lives on a rational basis.
"Shopping?"
Lord Vorkosigan echoed over the breakfast table the next morning. He
had been the last of the household to arise; Uncle Vorthys was already
busy on the comconsole in Tien's study, Tien had left for work, and
Nikki was off to school. Vorkosigan's mouth stayed straight, but the
laugh lines at the corners of his eyes crinkled. "That's an offer
seldom made to the son of my mother. . . . I'm afraid I don't need-no,
wait, I do need something, at that. A wedding present."
"Who
do you know who's getting married?" Ekaterin asked, relieved her
suggestion had taken root, primarily because she didn't have a second
one to offer. She prepared to be helpful.
"Gregor and Laisa."
It
took her a moment to realize he meant the Emperor and his new Komarran
fiancee. The surprising betrothal had been announced at Winterfair; the
wedding was to be at Midsummer. "Oh! Uh . . . I'm not sure you can find
anything in the Serifosa Dome that would be appropriate—maybe in
Solstice they would have the kind of shops . . . oh, dear."
"I
have to come up with something, I'm supposed to be Gregor's Second and
Witness on their wedding circle. Maybe I could find something that
would remind Laisa of home. Though possibly that's not a good idea—I'm
not sure. I don't want to chance making her homesick on her honeymoon.
What do you think?"
"We could look, I suppose …"
There were exclusive shops she'd never dared enter in certain parts of
the dome. This could be an excuse to venture inside.
"Duv and Delia, too, come to think of it. Yes, I've gotten way behind on my social duties."
"Who?"
"Delia
Koudelka's a childhood friend of mine. She's marrying Commodore Duv
Galeni, who is the new Chief of Komarran Affairs for Imperial Security.
You may not have heard of him yet, but you will. He's Komarran-born."
"Of Barrayaran parents?"
"No,
of Komarran resistance fighters. We seduced him to the service of the
Imperium. We've agreed it was the shiny boots that turned the trick."
He was so utterly deadpan, he had to be joking. Hadn't he? She smiled uncertainly.
Uncle Vorthys lumbered into her kitchen then, murmuring, "More coffee?"
"Certainly." She poured for him. "How is it going?"
"Variously, variously." He sipped, and gave her a thank-you smile.
"I take it the morning courier has been here," said Vorkosigan. "How was last night's haul? Anything for me?"
"No,
happily, if by that you mean more body parts. They brought back quite a
bit of equipment of various sorts."
"Does it make any difference in your pet scenarios so far?"
"No, but I keep hoping it will. I dislike the way the vector analysis is shaping up."
Vorkosigan's eyes became notably more intent. "Oh? Why?"
"Mm.
Take Point A as all things a moment before the accident—intact ship on
course, soletta passively sitting in its orbital slot. Take Point B to
be some time after the accident, parts of all masses scattering off in
all directions at all speeds. By good old classical physics, B must
equal A plus X, X being whatever forces—or masses—were added during the
accident.
We know A, pretty much, and the more of
B we collect, the more we narrow down the possibilities for X. We're
still missing some control systems, but the topside boys have by now
retrieved most of the initial mass of the system of ship-plus-mirror.
By the partial accounting done so far, X is … very large and has a very
strange shape."
"Depending on when and how the
engines blew, the explosion could have added a pretty damned big kick,"
said Vorkosigan.
"It's not the magnitudes of the
missing forces that are so puzzling, it's their direction. Fragments of
anything given a kick in free fall generally travel in a straight line, taking into account local gravities of course."
"And the ore ship pieces didn't?" Vorkosigan's brows rose. "So what do you have in mind for an outside force?"
Uncle
Vorthys pursed his lips. "I'm going to have to contemplate this for a
while. Play around with the numbers and the visual projections. My
brain is getting too old, I think."
"What's the … the shape of the force, then, that makes it so strange?" asked Ekaterin, following all this with deep interest.
Uncle
Vorthys set his cup down and placed his hands side by side, half open.
"It's … a typical mass in space creates a gravitational well, a funnel
if you will. This looks more like a trough."
"Running from the ore ship to the mirror?" asked Ekaterin, trying to picture this.
"No," said Uncle Vorthys. "Running from that nearby worm-hole jump point to the mirror. Or vice versa."
"And the ore ship, ah, fell in?" said Vorkosigan. He looked momentarily as baffled as Ekaterin felt.
Uncle Vorthys did not look much better. "I should not like to say so in public, that's certain."
Vorkosigan asked, "A gravitational force? Or maybe … a gravitic imploder lance?"
"Eh,"
said Uncle Vorthys neutrally. "It's certainly not like the force map of
any imploder lance I've ever seen. Ah, well." He picked up his coffee,
and prepared to depart for his comconsole again.
"We
were just planning an outing," said Ekaterin. "Would you like to see
some more of Serifosa? Pick up a present for the Professora?"
"I
would, but I think it's my turn to stay in and read this morning," said
her uncle. "You two go and have a good time. Though if you do see
anything you think would please your aunt, I'd be extremely grateful if
you'd purchase it, and I'll reimburse you."
"All
right . . ." Go out with Vorkosigan alone? She'd assumed she would have
her uncle along as chaperone. Still, if they stayed in public places,
it should be enough to assuage any incipient suspicion on Tien's part.
Not that Tien seemed to see Vorkosigan as any sort of threat, oddly.
"You didn't need to see any more of Tien's department, did you?" Oh,
dear, she hadn't phrased that well—what if he said yes?
"I
haven't even reviewed their first stack of reports yet." Her uncle
sighed. "Perhaps you'd care to take those on, Miles . . . ?"
"Yeah, I'll have a go at them." His eyes flicked up to Ekaterin's anxious face. "Later. When we get back."
Ekaterin
led Lord Vorkosigan across the domed park that fronted her apartment
building, heading for the nearest bubble-car station. His legs might be
short, but his steps were quick, and she found she did not have to
moderate her pace; if anything, she needed to lengthen her stride. That
stiffness which she had seen impede his motion seemed to be something
that came and went over the course of the day. His gaze, too, was
quick, as he looked all around. At one point he even turned and walked
backward a moment, studying something that had caught his eye.
"Is there anyplace in particular you would like to go?" she asked him.
"I
don't know a great deal about Serifosa. I throw myself on your mercy,
Madame, as my native guide. The last time I went shopping in any major
way, it was for military ordnance."
She laughed. "That's very different."
"It's
not as different as you might think. For the really high-ticket items
they send sales engineers halfway across the galaxy to wait upon you.
It's exactly the way my Aunt Vorpatril shops for clothes—in her case,
come to think of it, also high-ticket items. The couturiers send their
minions to her. I've become fond of minions, in my old age."
His
old age was no more than thirty, she decided. A new-minted thirty much
like her own, still worn uncomfortably. "And is that the way your
mother the Countess shops, too?" How had his mother dealt with the fact of his mutations? Rather well, judging from the results.
"Mother
just buys whatever Aunt Vorpatril tells her to. I've always had the
impression she'd be happier in her old Betan Astronomical Survey
fatigues."
The famous Countess Cordelia Vorkosigan
was a galactic expatriate, of the most galactic possible sort, a Betan
from Beta Colony. Progressive, high-tech, glittering Beta Colony, or
corrupt, dangerous, sinister Beta Colony, take your pick of political
views. No wonder Lord Vorkosigan seemed tinged with a faint galactic
air; he literally was half galactic. "Have you ever been to Beta
Colony? Is it as sophisticated as they say?"
"Yes. And no."
They
arrived at the bubble-car platform, and she led them to the fourth car
in line, partly because it was empty and partly to give herself an
extra few seconds to select their destination. Quite automatically,
Lord Vorkosigan hit the switch to close and seal the bubble canopy as
soon as they'd settled into the front seat. He was either accustomed to
his privacy, or just hadn't yet encountered the "Share the Ride"
campaign now going on in Serifosa Dome. In any case, she was glad not
to be bottled up with any Komarran strangers this trip.
Komarr
had been a galactic trade crossroads for centuries, and the bazaar of
the Barrayaran Empire for decades; even a relative backwater like
Serifosa offered an abundance of wares at least equal to Vorbarr
Sultana. She pursed her lips, then slotted in her credit chit and
punched up the Shuttleport Locks District as their destination on the
bubble-car's control panel. After a moment, they bumped into the tube
and began to accelerate. The acceleration was slow, not a good sign.
"I
believe I've seen your mother a few times on the holovid," she offered
after a moment. "Sitting next to your father on reviewing platforms and
the like. Mostly some years ago, when he was still Regent. Does it seem
strange . . . does it give you a very different view of your parents,
to see them on vid?"
"No," he said. "It gives me a very different view of holovids."
The
bubble-car swung into a walled darkness lit by side-strips, flickering
past the eye, then broke abruptly into sunlight, arching toward the
next air-sealed complex. Halfway up the arc, they slowed still further;
ahead of them, in the tube, Ekaterin could see other bubble-cars
bunching to a crawl, like pearls on a string. "Oh, dear, I was afraid
of that. Looks like we're caught in a blockage."
Vorkosigan craned his neck. "An accident?"
"No,
the system's just overloaded. At certain times of day on certain
routes, you can get held up from twenty to forty minutes. They're
having a local political argument over the bubble-car system funding
right now. One group wants to shorten the safety margins between cars
and increase speeds.
Another one wants to build more routes. Another one wants to ration access."
His
eyes lit with amusement. "Ah, yes, I understand. And how many years has
this argument been ongoing without issue?"
"At least five, I'm told."
"Isn't local democracy wonderful," he murmured. "And to think the Komarrans imagined we were doing them a favor to leave their downside affairs under their traditional sector control."
"I
hope you don't mind heights," she said uncertainly, as the bubble-car
moaned almost to a halt at the top of the arc. Through the faint
distortions of the canopy and tube, half of Serifosa Dome's chaotic
patchwork of structures seemed spread out to their view. Two cars ahead
of them, a couple seized this opportunity to indulge in some heavy
necking. Ekaterin studiously ignored them. "Or . . . small enclosed
spaces."
He smiled a little grimly. "As long as the small enclosed space is above freezing, I can manage."
Was
that a reference to his cryo-death? She hardly dared ask. She tried to
think of a way to work the conversation back to his mother, and thence
to how she'd dealt with his mutations. "Astronomical Survey? I thought
your mother served in the Betan Expeditionary Force, in the Escobar
War."
"Before the war, she had an eleven-year career in their Survey."
"Administration,
or … She didn't go out on the blind worm-hole jumps, did she? I mean,
all spacers are a little strange, but wormhole wildcatters are supposed
to be the craziest of the crazy."
"That's quite
true." He glanced out, as with a slight jerk the bubble-car began to
move once more, descending toward the next city section. "I've met some
of 'em. I confess, I never thought of the government Survey as in the
same league with the entrepreneurs. The independents make blind jumps
into possible death hoping for a staggering fortune. The Survey . . .
makes blind jumps into possible death for a salary, benefits, and a
pension. Hm." He sat back, looking suddenly bemused. "She made ship
captain, before the war. Maybe she had more practice for Barrayar than
I'd realized. I wonder if she got tired of playing wall, too. I'll have
to ask her."
"Playing wall?"
"Sorry,
a personal metaphor. When you've taken chances a few too many times,
you can get into an odd frame of mind. Adrenaline is a hard habit to
kick. I'd always assumed that my, um, former taste for that kind of
rush came from the Barrayaran side of my genetics. But
near-death experiences tend to cause you to reevaluate your priorities.
Running that much risk, that long . . . you'd end up either damn sure
who you were and what you wanted, or you'd be, I don't know,
anesthetized."
"And your mother?"
"Well, she's certainly not anesthetized."
She grew more daring still. "And you?"
"Hm."
He smiled a small, elusive smile. "You know, most people, when they get
a chance to corner me, try to pump me about my father."
"Oh." She flushed with embarrassment, and sat back. "I'm sorry. I was rude."
"Not
at all." Indeed, he did not look or sound annoyed, his posture open and
inviting as he leaned back and watched her. "Not at all."
Thus
encouraged, she decided to be daring again. When would she ever repeat
such a chance, after all? "Perhaps . . . what happened to you was a
different kind of wall for her."
"Yes, it makes sense that you would see it from her point of view, I guess."
"What . . . exactly did happen . . . ?"
"To
me?" he finished. He did not grow stiff as he had in that prickly
moment over dinner the other night, but instead regarded her
thoughtfully, with a kind of attentive seriousness that was almost more
alarming. "What do you know?"
"Not a great deal.
I'd heard that the Lord Regent's son had been born crippled, in the
Pretender's War. The Lord Regent was noted for keeping his private life
very private." Actually, she'd heard his heir was a mutie, and kept out
of sight.
"That's all!" He looked almost offended—that he wasn't more famous? Or infamous?
"My
life didn't much intersect that social set," she hastened to explain.
"Or any other. My father was just a minor provincial bureaucrat. Many
of Barrayar's rural Vor are a lot more rural than they are Vor, I'm
afraid."
His smile grew. "Quite. You should have
met my grandfather. Or … perhaps not. Well. Hm. There's not a great
deal to tell, at this late date. An assassin aiming for my father
managed to graze both my parents with an obsolete military poison gas
called soltoxin."
"During the Pretendership?"
"Just
prior, actually. My mother was five months pregnant with me. Hence this
mess." A wave of his hand down his body, and that nervous jerk of his
head, both summed himself and defied the viewer. "The damage was
actually teratogenic, not genetic." He shot her an odd sidelong look.
"It used to be very important to me for people to know that."
"Used to be? And not now?" Ingenuous of him—he'd managed to tell her quickly enough. She was almost disappointed. Was it true that only his body, and not his chromosomes, had been damaged?
"Now … I think maybe it's all right if they think I'm a mutie. If I can make it really
not matter, maybe it will matter less for the next mutie who comes
after me. A form of service that costs me no additional effort."
It
cost him something, evidently. She thought of Nikolai, heading into his
teens soon, and what a hard time of life that was even for normal
children. "Were you made to feel it? Growing up?"
"I was of course somewhat protected by Father's rank and position."
She noted that somewhat. Somewhat was not the same as completely. Sometimes, somewhat was the same as not at all.
"I
moved a few mountains, to force myself into the Imperial Military
Service. After, um, a few false starts, I finally found a place for
myself in Imperial Security, among the irregulars. The rest of the
irregulars. ImpSec was more interested in results than appearances, and
I found I could deliver results. Except– a slight miscalculation—all
the achievements upon which I'd hoped to be rejudged disappeared into
ImpSec's classified files. So I fell out at the end of a thirteen-year
career, a medically discharged captain whom nobody knew, almost as
anonymous as when I started." He actually sighed.
"Imperial Auditors aren't anonymous!"
"No, just discreet." He brightened. "So there's some hope yet."
Why did he make her want to laugh? She swallowed the impulse. "Do you wish to be famous?"
His
eyes narrowed in a moment of introspection. "I would have said so,
once. Now I think … I just wanted to be someone in my own right. Make
no mistake, I like being my father's son. He is a great man. In every
sense, and it's been a privilege to know him. But there is,
nevertheless, a secret fantasy of mine, where just once, in some
history somewhere, Aral Vorkosigan gets introduced as being principally
important because he was Miles Naismith Vorkosigan's father."
She
did laugh then, though she muffled it almost immediately with a hand
over her mouth. But he did not seem to take offense, for his eyes
merely crinkled at her. "It is pretty amusing," he said ruefully.
"No . . . no, not that," she hastily denied. "It just seems like some kind of hubris, I guess."
"Oh,
it's all kinds of hubris." Except that he did not look in the least
daunted by the prospect, merely calculating.
His
thoughtful look fell on her then; he cleared his throat, and began,
"When I was working on your comconsole yesterday morning—" The
deceleration of the bubble-car interrupted him. The little man craned
his neck as they slid to a halt in the station. "Damn," he murmured.
"Is something wrong?" she asked, concerned.
"No, no." He hit the pad to raise the canopy. "So, let's see this Docks and Locks district …"
Lord
Vorkosigan seemed to enjoy their stroll through the organized chaos of
the Shuttleport Locks district, though the route he chose was decidedly
nonstandard; he zig-zagged by preference down to what Ekaterin thought
of as the underside of the area, where people and machines loaded and
unloaded cargo, and where the less well-off sorts of spacers had their
hostels and bars. There were plenty of odd-looking people in the
district, in all colors and sizes, wearing strange clothes; snatches of
conversations in utterly strange languages teased her ear in passing.
The looks they gave the two Barrayarans were noted but ignored by
Vorkosigan. Ekaterin decided that his lack of offense wasn't because
the galactics stared less—or more—at him, it was that they stared
equally at everybody.
She also discovered that he
was attracted by the dreadful, among the galactic wares cramming the
narrow shops into which they ducked. He actually appeared to seriously
consider for several minutes what was claimed to be a genuine
twentieth-century reproduction lamp, of Jacksonian manufacture,
consisting of a sealed glass vessel containing two immiscible liquids
which slowly rose and fell in the convection currents. "It looks just
like red blood corpuscles floating in plasma," Vorkosigan opined,
staring in fascination at the underlit blobs.
"But as a wedding present?" she choked, half amused, half appalled. "What kind of message would people take it for?"
"It
would make Gregor laugh," he replied. "Not a gift he gets much. But
you're right, the wedding present proper needs to be, er, proper.
Public and political, not personal." With a regretful sigh, he returned
the lamp to its shelf. After another moment, he changed his mind again,
bought it, and had it shipped. "I'll get him another present for the wedding. This can be for his birthday."
After
that, he let Ekaterin lead him into the more sophisticated end of the
district, with shops displaying well-spread-out and well-lit jewelry
and artwork and antiques, interspersed with discreet couturiers of the
sort, she thought, who might send minions to his aunt. He seemed to
find it much less interesting than the galactic rummage sale a few
streets and levels away, the animation fading from his face, until his
eye was caught by an unusual display in a jeweler's kiosk.
Tiny
model planets, the size of the end of her thumb, turned in a
grav-bubble against a black background. Several of the little spheres
were displayed under various levels of magnification, where they proved
to be perfectly-mapped replicas of the worlds they represented, right
down to the one-meter scale. Not just rivers and mountains and seas,
but cities and roads and dams, were represented in realistic colors.
Furthermore, the terminator moved across their miniature landscapes in
real-time for the planetary cycle in question; cities lit the night
side like living jewels. They could be hung in pairs as earrings, or
displayed in pendants or bracelets. Most of the planets in the wormhole
nexus were available, including Beta Colony and an Earth that included
as an option its famous moon circling a handspan away, though how this
pairing was to be hung on someone's body was not entirely clear. The
prices, at which Vorkosigan did not even glance, were alarming.
"That's
rather fine," he murmured approvingly, staring in fascination at the
little Barrayar. "I wonder how they do that? I know where I could have
one reverse-engineered. …"
"They seem more like toys than jewels, but I have to admit, they're striking."
"Oh,
yes, a typical tech toy—high-end this year, everywhere next year,
nowhere after that, till the antiquarians' revival. Still … it would be
fun to make up an Imperial set, Barrayar, Komarr, and Sergyar. I don't
know any women with three ears . . . two earrings and a pendant,
perhaps, though then you'd have the socio-political problem of how to
rank the worlds."
"You could put all three on a necklace."
"True,
or … I think my mother would definitely like a Sergyar. Or Beta Colony
… no, might make her homesick. Sergyar, yes, very apropos. And there's
Winterfair, and birthdays coming up—let's see, there's Mother, Laisa,
Delia, Aunt Alys, Delia's sisters, Drou—maybe I ought to order a dozen
sets, and have a couple to spare."
"Uh," said
Ekaterin, contemplating this burst of efficiency, "do all these women
know each other?" Were any of them his lovers? Surely he wouldn't
mention such in the same breath with his mother and aunt. Or might he
be a suitor? But . . . toall of them?
"Oh, sure."
"Do you really think you ought to get them all the same present?"
"No?" he asked doubtfully. "But . . . they all know me …"
In
the end, he restrained himself, purchasing only two earring sets, one
each of Barrayars and Komarrs, and swapping them out, for the brides of
the two mixed marriages. He added a Sergyar on a fine chain for his
mother. At the last moment, he bolted back for another Barrayar, for
which woman on his lengthy list he did not say. The packets of tiny
planets were made up and gift-wrapped.
Feeling a
little overwhelmed by the Komarran bazaar, Ekaterin led him off for a
look at one of her favorite parks. It bounded the end of the Locks
district, and featured one of the largest and most naturally landscaped
lakes in Serifosa. Ekaterin mentally planned a stop for coffee and
pastry, after they circumnavigated the lake along its walking trails.
They
paused at a railing above a modest bluff, where a view across the lake
framed some of the higher towers of Serifosa. The crippled soletta
array was in full view overhead now, through the park's transparent
dome, creating dim sparkles on the lake's wavelets. Cheerful voices
echoed distantly across the water, from families playing on an
artificially-natural swimming beach.
"It's very
pretty," said Ekaterin, "but the maintenance cost is terrific. Urban
forestry is a full-time specialty here. Everything's consciously
created, the woods, the rocks, the weeds, everything."
"World-in-a-box," murmured Vorkosigan, gazing out over the reflecting sheet. "Some assembly required."
"Some
Serifosans think of their park system as a promise for the future,
ecology in the bank," she went on, "but others, I suspect, don't know
the difference between their little parks and real forests. I sometimes
wonder if, by the time the atmosphere is breathable, the Komarrans'
great-grandchildren will all be such agoraphobes, they won't even
venture out in it."
"A lot of Betans tend to think
like that. When I was last there—" His sentence was shattered by a
sudden crackling boom; Ekaterin started, till she identified the noise
as a load dropped from a mag-crane working on some construction, or
reconstruction, back over their shoulders beyond the trees. But
Vorkosigan jumped and spun like a cat; the package in his right hand
went flying, his left made to push her behind him, and he drew a
stunner she hadn't even known he was carrying half out of his trouser
pocket before he, too, identified the source of the bang. He inhaled
deeply, flushed, and cleared his throat. "Sorry," he said to her
wide-eyed look. "I overreacted a trifle there." Though they both
surreptitiously examined the dome overhead; it remained placidly
intact. "Stunner's a pretty useless weapon anyway, against things that
go bump like that." He shoved it back deep into his pocket.
"You dropped your planets," she said, looking around for the white packet. It was nowhere in sight.
He leaned out over the railing. "Damn."
She
followed his gaze. The packet had bounced off the boardwalk, and
fetched up a meter down the bluff, caught on a bit of hanging foliage,
a thorny bittersweet plant dangling over the water.
"I
think maybe I can reach it …" He swung over the railing past the sign
admonishing caution: stay on the trail and flung himself flat on the
ground over the edge before she could squeak, But your good suit—
Vorkosigan was not, she suspected, a man who routinely did his own
laundry. But his blunt fingers swung short of the prize they sought.
She had a hideous vision of an Imperial Auditor under her guest-hold
landing head-down in the pond. Could she be accused of treason? The
bluff was barely four meters high; how deep was the water here?
"My arms are longer," she offered, climbing after him.
Temporarily
thwarted, he scrambled back to a sitting position. "We can fetch a
stick. Or better yet, a minion with a stick." He glanced dubiously at
his wrist comm.
"I think," she said
demurely, "calling ImpSec for this might be overkill." She lay prone,
and reached as he had. "It's all right, I think I can …" Her fingers
too swung short of the packet, but only just. She inched forward,
feeling the precarious pull of the undercut slope. She stretched . . .
The
root-compacted soil of the edge sagged under her weight, and she began
to slide precipitously forward. She yelped; pushing backward fragmented
her support totally. One wildly back-grappling arm was caught suddenly
in a viselike grip, but the rest of her body turned as the soil gave
way beneath her, and she found herself dangling absurdly feet-down over
the pond. Her other arm, swinging around, was caught, too, and she
looked up into Vorkosigan's face above her. He was lying prone on the
slope, one hand locked around each of her wrists. His teeth were
clenched and grinning, his gray eyes alight.
"Let go, you idiot!" she cried.
The look on his face was weirdly, wildly exultant. "Never," he gasped, "again—"
His
half-boots were locked around . . . nothing, she realized, as he began
to slide inexorably over the edge after her. But his death-grip never
slackened. The exalted look on his face melted to sudden horrified
realization. The laws of physics took precedence over heroic intent for
the next couple of seconds; dirt, pebbles, vegetation, and two
Barrayaran bodies all hit the chilly water more or less simultaneously.
The
water, it turned out, was a bit over a meter deep. The bottom was soft
with muck. She wallowed upright onto her feet, one shoe gone who knew
where, sputtering and dragging her hair from her eyes and looking
around frantically for Vorkosigan. Lord Vorkosigan. The water
came to her waist, it ought not to be over his head—no half-booted feet
were sticking up like waving stumps anywhere—could he swim?
He
popped up beside her, and blew muddy water out of his mouth, and dashed
it from his eyes to clear his vision. His beautiful suit was sodden,
and a water-plant dangled over one ear. He clawed it away, and located
her, his hand going toward her and then stopping.
"Oh," said Ekaterin faintly. "Drat."
There
was a meditative pause before Lord Vorkosigan spoke. "Madame
Vorsoisson," he said mildly at last, "has it ever occurred to you that
you may be just a touch oversocialized?"
She
couldn't stop herself; she laughed out loud. She clapped her hand over
her mouth, and waited fearfully for some masculine explosion of wrath.
None
came; he merely grinned back at her. He looked around till he spotted
his packet, now dangling mockingly overhead. "Ha. Now gravity's on our
side, at least." He waded underneath the remains of the overhang,
disappeared into the water again, and came up holding a couple of
rocks. He shied them at the thorn plant till he dislodged his package,
and caught it one-handed as it fell, before it could hit the water. He
grinned again, and splashed back to her, and offered her his other arm
for all the world as though they were about to enter some ambassadorial
reception. "Madame, will you wade with me?"
His humor was irresistible; she found herself laying her hand upon his sleeve. "My pleasure, my lord."
She
abandoned her surreptitious toe-prodding for her lost shoe. They
sloshed off toward the nearest low place on shore, with the most
serenely cockeyed dignity Ekaterin had ever experienced. Packet in his
teeth, he scrambled ahead of her, grabbed a narrow out-leaning tree
trunk for support, and handed her up through the mud with the air of an
Armsman-driver helping his lady from the rear compartment of her
groundcar. To Ekaterin's intense relief, no one across the lake
appeared to have noticed their show. Could Vorkosigan's Imperial
authority save them from arrest for swimming in a no-swimming zone?
"You
aren't upset about the accident?" she inquired timorously as they
regained the path, still hardly able to believe her good fortune in his
admittedly odd reaction. A passing jogger stared at them, turning and
bouncing backward a moment, but Vorkosigan waved him genially onward.
He tucked his packet under his arm. "Madame Vorsoisson, trust me on this one. Needle grenades are accidents. That
was just an amusing inconvenience." But then his smile slipped, his
face stiffened, and his breath drew in sharply. He added in a rush, "I
should mention, I've lately become subject to occasional seizures. I
pass out and have convulsions. They last about five minutes, and then
go away, and I wake up, no harm done. If one should occur, don't panic."
"Are you about to have one now?" she asked, panicked.
"I feel a little strange all of a sudden," he admitted.
There
was a bench nearby, along the trail. "Here, sit down—" She led him to
it. He sat abruptly, and hunched over with his face in his hands. He
was beginning to shiver with the wet cold, as was she, but his shudders
were long and deep, traveling the length of his short body. Was a
seizure starting now? She regarded him with terror.
After
a couple of minutes, his ragged breathing steadied. He rubbed his face,
hard, and looked up. He was extremely pale, almost gray-faced. His
pasted-on smile, as he turned toward her, was so plainly false that she
almost would rather he'd have frowned. "I'm sorry. I haven't done
anything like that in quite a while, at least not in a waking state.
Sorry."
"Was that a seizure?"
"No,
no. False alarm entirely. Actually, it was a, um, combat flashback,
actually. Unusually vivid. Sorry, I don't usually … I haven't done … I
don't usually do things like this, really." His speech was scrambled
and hesitant, entirely unlike himself, and failed signally to reassure
her.
"Should I go for help?" She was sure she
needed to get him somewhere warmer, as soon as possible. He looked like
a man in shock.
"Ha. No. Worlds too late. No,
really, I'll be all right in a couple of minutes. I just need to think
about this for a minute." He looked sideways at her. "I was just
stunned by an insight, for which I thank you."
She clenched her hands in her lap. "Either stop talking gibberish, or stop talking at all," she said sharply.
His
chin jerked up, and his smile grew a shade more genuine. "Yes, you
deserve an explanation. If you want it. I warn you, it's a bit ugly."
She
was so rattled and exasperated by now, she'd have cheerfully choked
explanations out of his cryptic little throat. She took refuge in the
mockery of formality which had extracted them so nobly from the pond.
"If you please, my lord!"
"Ah, yes, well. Dagoola IV. I don't know if you've heard much about it . . . ?"
"Some."
"It
was an evacuation under fire. It was an unholy mess. Shuttles lifting
with people crammed aboard. The details don't matter now, except for
one. There was this woman, Sergeant Beatrice. Taller than you. We had
trouble with our shuttle's hatch ramp, it wouldn't retract. We couldn't
dog the hatch and lift above the atmosphere till we'd jettisoned it. We
were airborne, I don't know how high, there was thick cloud cover. We
got the damaged ramp loosened, but she fell after it. I grabbed for
her. Touched her hand, even, but I missed."
"Did . . . was she killed?"
"Oh, yes." His smile now was utterly peculiar. "It was a long way down by then. But you see . . . something I
didn't see until about five minutes ago. I've spent five, six years
walking around with this picture in my head. Not all the time, you
understand, just when I chanced to be reminded. If only I'd been a
little quicker, grabbed a little harder, hadn't lost my grip, I might
have pulled her in. Instant replay on an endless repeat. In all those
years, I never once pictured what would really have happened if I'd made my grab good. She was almost twice my weight."
"She'd
have pulled you out," said Ekaterin. For all the simplicity of his
words, the images they evoked were intense and immediate. She rubbed at
the deep red marks aching now on her wrists. Because you would not have let go.
He looked for the first time at the marks. "Oh. I'm sorry."
"It's all right." Self-conscious, she stopped massaging them.
This didn't help, because he
took her hand, and rubbed gently at the blotches, as if he might erase
them. "I think there must be something askew with my body image," he
said.
"Do you think you're six feet tall, inside your head?"
"Apparently my dream-self thinks so."
"Does that—realizing the truth—make it any better?"
"No, I don't think so. Just . . . different. Stranger."
Both
their hands were freezing cold. She sprang to her feet, eluding his
arresting touch. "We have to go get dry and warm, or we'll both … be in
a state." Catch your death, was her great-aunt's old phrase for
it, and a singularly inept phrase it would be to use just now. She
dropped her useless remaining shoe in the first trash bin they passed.
On
their way to the bubble-car stop near the public beach, Ekaterin darted
into a kiosk and bought a stack of colorful towels. In the bubble-car,
she turned the heat up to its stingy maximum.
"Here,"
she said, shoving towels at Lord Vorkosigan as the car accelerated.
"Get out of that sopping tunic, at least, and dry off a bit."
"Right."
Tunic, silk shirt, and thermal undershirt hit the floor with a wet
splat, and he rubbed his hair and torso vigorously. His skin had a
blotched purple-blue tinge; pink and white scars sprang out in high
contrast to their darkened background. There were scars on scars on
scars, mostly very fine and surgically straight, in criss-crossing
layers running back through time, growing fainter and paler: on his
arms, on his hands and fingers, on his neck and running up under his
hair, circling his ribcage and paralleling his spine, and, most pinkly
and recently, an unusually ragged and tangled mess centered on his
chest.
She stared in covert astonishment; his
glance caught hers. By way of apology, she said, "You weren't joking
about needle grenades, were you?"
His hand touched
his chest. "No. But most of this is old surgery, from the brittle bones
the soltoxin gifted me with. I've had practically every bone in my body
replaced with synthetics, at one time or another. Very piecemeal,
though I suppose it would not have been medically practical to just
whip me off my skeleton, shake me out like a suit of clothes, and pop
me back on over another one."
"Oh. My."
"Ironically
enough, all this show represents the successful repairs. The injury
that really took me out of the Service you can't even see." He touched
his forehead and wrapped a couple of the towels around himself like a
shawl. The towels had giant yellow daisies on them. His shivering was
diminishing now, his skin growing less purple, though still blotchy. "I
didn't mean to alarm you, back there."
She thought
it through. "You should have told me sooner." Yes, what if one of his
seizures had taken him by surprise, sometime along their route this
morning? What in the world would she have done? She frowned at him.
He
shifted uncomfortably. "You're quite right, of course. Um . . . quite
right. Some secrets are unfair to keep from . . . people on your team."
He looked away from her, looked back, smiled tensely, and said, "I
started to tell you, earlier, but I rather lost my nerve. When I was
working on your comconsole yesterday morning, I accidentally ran across
your file on Vorzohn's Dystrophy."
Her breath
seemed to freeze in her suddenly-paralyzed chest. "Didn't I—how could
you accidentally …" Had she somehow left it open last time? Not
possible!
"I could show you how," he offered.
"ImpSec basic training is pretty basic. I think you could pick up that
trick in about ten minutes."
The words blurted out before she could stop and think. "You opened it deliberately!"
"Well,
yes." His smile now was false and embarrassed. "I was curious. I was
taking a break from looking at vids of autopsies. Your, um, gardens are
lovely, too, by the way."
She stared at him in
disbelief. A mixture of emotions churned in her chest: violation,
outrage, fear . . . and relief? You had no right.
"No,
I had no right," he agreed, watching her obviously too-open expression;
she tried to school her face to blankness. "I apologize. I can only
plead that ImpSec training inculcates some pretty bad habits." He took
a deep breath. "What can I do for you, Madame Vorsoisson? Anything you
need to ask, or ask about … I am at your service." The little man
half-bowed, an absurdly archaic gesture, sitting wrapped in his towels
like some wizened old Count from the Time of Isolation in his robes of
office.
"There's nothing you can do for me,"
Ekaterin said woodenly. She became aware that her legs and arms were
tightly crossed, and she was starting to hunch over; she straightened
with a conscious effort. Dear God, how would Tien react to her
spilling, however inadvertently, his deadly—well, he acted as
though it were deadly—secret? Now of all times, when he seemed on the
verge of overcoming his denial, or whatever it was, and taking
effective action at last?
"I beg your pardon,
Madame Vorsoisson, but I'm afraid I'm still uncertain exactly what your
situation is. It's obviously very private, if even your uncle doesn't
knov, and I'd give odds he doesn't—"
"Don't tell him!"
"Not
without your permission, I assure you, Madame. But … if you are ill, or
expect to become ill, there is a great deal that can be done for you." He hesitated. "The contents of that file tell me you already know this. Is anyone helping you?"
Help.
What a concept. She felt as though she might melt through the floor of
the bubble car at the mere thought. She retreated from the terrible
temptation. "I'm not ill. We don't require assistance." She raised her
chin defiantly, and added with all the frost she could muster, "It was
very wrong of you to read my private files, Lord Vorkosigan."
"Yes,"
he agreed simply. "A wrong I do not care to compound by either
concealing my breach of trust, or failing to offer what help I can
command."
Just how much help Imperial
Auditor Vorkosigan might command . . . was not to be thought about. Too
painful. Belatedly, she realized that declaring herself unaffected was
tantamount to naming Tien afflicted. She was rescued from her confusion
by the bubble-car sliding to a stop at her home station. "This is very
much not your business."
"I beg you will think of your uncle as a resource, then. I'm certain he would wish it."
She shook her head, and hit the canopy release sharply.
They
walked in stiff and chilled silence back to her apartment building, in
awkward contrast, Ekaterin felt, to their earlier odd ease. Vorkosigan
didn't look happy either.
Uncle Vorthys met them
at the apartment door, still in shirtsleeves and with a data disk in
his hand. "Ah! Vorkosigan! Back earlier than I expected, good. I almost
rang your comm link." He paused, staring at their damp and bizarre
bedragglement, but then shrugged and went on, "We had a visit from a
second courier. Something for you."
"A second
courier? Must be something hot. Is it a break in the case?" Vorkosigan
shrugged an arm free of his towel-shawl and took the proffered disk.
"I'm not at all sure. They found another body."
"The missing were all accounted for. A body part, surely– a woman's arm, perhaps?"
Uncle Vorthys shook his head. "A body. Almost intact. Male. They're working on the identification now. They were all accounted for." He grimaced. "Now, it seems, we have a spare."
CHAPTER SIX
Miles boiled himself in the shower for a long
time, trying to regain control of his shocky body and scattered wits.
He'd realized quickly, earlier, that all Madame Vorsoisson's anxious
questions about his mother camouflaged oblique concerns about her son
Nikolai, and he'd answered her as openly and carefully as he could.
He'd been rewarded, through the extremely pleasant morning's
expedition, by seeing her gradually relax and grow nearly open herself.
When she'd laughed, her light blue eyes had sparkled. The animated
intelligence had illuminated her face, and spilled over to loosen and
soften her body from its original tight defensive density. Her sense of
humor, creeping slowly out from hiding, had even survived his dropping
them into that idiot pond.
Her brief appalled look
when he'd half-stripped in the bubble-car had almost thrown him back
into earlier modes of painful somatic self-consciousness, but not
quite. It seemed he had grown comfortable at last in his own ill-used
body, and the realization had given him a lunatic courage to try to
clear things with her. So when all expression in her face shut down as
he'd confessed his snooping . . . that had hurt.
He'd
handled a bad situation as well as he could, hadn't he? Yes? No? He
wished now he'd kept his mouth shut. No. His false stance with Madame
Vorsoisson had been unbearable. Unbearable? Isn't that a little strong? Uncomfortable, he revised this hastily downward. Awkward, anyway.
But
confession was supposed to be followed by absolution. If only the
damned bubble-car had been delayed again, if only he'd had ten more
minutes with her, he might have made it come out right. He shouldn't
have tried to piss it off with that stupid joke, I could show you how . . .
Her icy, armored We don't require assistance felt like . . . missing a catch. He would be forced onward, she would spin down into the fog and never be seen again.
You're overdramatizing, boy. Madame Vorsoisson wasn't in a combat zone, was she?
Yes, she is. She was just falling toward death in exquisitely slow motion.
He
wanted a drink desperately. Preferably several. Instead he dried
himself off, dressed in another of his Auditor-suits, and went to see
the Professor.
Miles leaned on the Professor's
comconsole in the guest room which doubled as Tien Vorsoisson's home
office, and studied the ravaged face of the dead man in the vid. He
hoped for some revelation of expression, surprise or rage or fear, that
would give a clue as to how the fellow had died. Besides suddenly. But
the face was merely dead, its frozen distortions entirely physiological
and familiar.
"First of all, are they sure he's
really ours?" Miles asked, pulling up a chair for himself and settling
in. On the vid, the anonymous medtech's examination recording played on
at low volume, her voice-over comments delivered in that flat clinical
tone universally used at moments like this. "He didn't drift in from
somewhere else, I suppose."
"No, unfortunately,"
Vorthys said. "His speed and trajectory put him accurately at the site
of our accident at the time of the smash-up, and his initial estimated
time of death also matches."
Miles had wished for
a break in the case, some new lead that would take him in a more
speedily fruitful direction. He hadn't realized his desires were so
magically powerful. Be careful what you wish for …
"Can they tell if he came from the ship, or the station?"
"Not from the trajectory alone."
"Mm,
I suppose not. He shouldn't have been aboard either one. Well … we wait
for the ID, then. News of this find has not yet been publicly released,
I trust."
"No, nor leaked yet either, amazingly."
"Unless
the explanation for his being there turns out to be rock-solid, I don't
think secondhand reports are going to be enough on this one." He had
read, God knew, enough reports in the last two weeks to saturate him
for a year.
"Bodies are your department." The
Professor ceded this one to him with a wave of his hand and a good will
clearly laced with relief. Above the vid-plate, the preliminary
examination wound to its conclusion; no one reached for the replay
button.
Well, strictly speaking, political
consequences were Miles's department. He really ought to visit Solstice
soon, though in the planetary capital a visiting Auditor was more
likely to get handled; he'd wanted this open provincial angle of view first, free of VIP choreographing.
"Engineering
equipment," Vorthys added, "is mine. They've also just retrieved some
of the ship's control systems I was waiting for. I'm think I'm going to
have to go back topside soon."
"Tonight?" Miles
could move out, and into a hotel, under the cover of that avuncular
withdrawal. That would be a relief.
"If I went up
now, I'd get there just in time for bed. I'll wait till morning.
They've also found some odd things. Not accounted for in inventory."
"Odd
things? New or old?" There had been tons of poorly inventoried junk
equipment on the station, a century's accumulation of obsolete and
worn-out technology that had been cheaper to store than haul away. If
the probable-cause techs had the unenviable task of sorting it now, it
must mean the highest-priority retrieval tasks were almost done.
"New. That's what's odd. And their trajectories were associated with this new body."
"I
hardly ever saw a ship where somebody didn't have an unauthorized still
or something operating in a closet somewhere."
"Nor a station either. But our Komarran boys are sharp enough to recognize a still."
"Maybe . . . I'll go up with you, tomorrow," Miles said thoughtfully.
"I would like that."
Gathering
up the remains of his nerve, Miles went to seek out Madame Vorsoisson.
This would be, he guessed, his last chance to ever have a conversation
alone with her. His footsteps echoed hollowly through the empty rooms,
and his tentative speaking of her name went unanswered. She had left
the apartment, perhaps to pick up Nikolai from school or something. Missed again. Damn.
Miles
took the examination recording off to the comconsole in her workroom
for a more careful second run-through, and stacked up the terraforming
reports from yesterday next in line. With a self-conscious twinge, he
keyed on the machine. His guilty conscience irrationally expected she
might pop in at any moment to check up on him. But no, more likely she
would avoid him altogether. He vented a depressed sigh and started the
vid.
He found little to add to the Professor's
synopsis. The mysterious eighth victim was middle-aged, of average
height and build for a Komarran, if he was a Komarran. It was not
possible at this point to tell if he had been handsome or ugly in life.
Most of his clothing had been ripped or burned off in the disaster,
including any handy pockets containing traceable credit chits,
etcetera. The shreds that were left appeared to be anonymous
ship-knits, common wear for spacers who might have to slide into a
pressure suit at a moment's notice.
What was
delaying the man's identification? Miles deliberately held in check the
dozen theories his mind wanted to generate. He longed to gallop up
immediately to the orbital station where the body had been taken, but
his arrival in person topside, to breathe over the actual
investigators' shoulders, would only distract them and slow things
down. Once you had delegated the best people to do a job for you, you
had to trust both them and your judgment.
What he
could do without admitting impediment was go bother another useless
high-level supervisor like himself. He punched up the private code for
the Chief of Imperial Security-Komarr at his office in Solstice, which
the man had properly sent him upon the Imperial Auditors' first arrival
in Komarr local space.
General Rathjens appeared
at once. He looked middle-aged, alert, and busy, all appropriate
qualities for his rank and post. Interestingly, he took advantage of
the latter and wore civilian Komarran-style street wear rather than
Imperial undress greens, suggesting he was either subtly
politically-minded, or preferred his comfort. Miles guessed the former.
Rathjens was the ImpSec's top man on Komarr, reporting directly to Duv
Galeni at ImpSec HQ in Vorbarr Sultana. "Yes, my Lord Auditor. What can
I do for you?"
"I'm interested in the new corpse
they found this morning topside in association, apparently, with our
soletta disaster. You've heard of it?"
"Only just. I haven't had a chance to view the preliminary report yet."
"I
just did. It's not very informative. Tell me, what's your standard
operating procedure for identifying this poor fellow? How soon do you
expect to have anything substantive?"
"The
identification of a victim of an ordinary accident, topside or
downside, would normally be left to the local civil security. Since
this one came within our orbit as possible sabotage, we're running our
own search in parallel with the Komarran authorities."
"Do you cooperate with each other?"
"Oh, yes. That is, they cooperate with us."
"I understand," said Miles blandly. "How long is ID likely to take?"
"If
the man was Komarran, or if he was a galactic who came through Customs
at one of the jump point stations, we should have something within
hours. If he was Barrayaran, it may take a little longer. If he was
somehow unregistered . . . well, that becomes another problem."
"I take it he hasn't been matched with any missing person report?"
"That would have sped things up. No."
"So he's been gone for almost three weeks, but nobody's missed him. Hm."
General
Rathjens glanced aside at some readout on his own comconsole desk. "Do
you know you are calling from an unsecured comconsole, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"Yes."
That was why all his and the Professor's reports and digests from
topside were being hand-carried to them from the local Serifosa ImpSec
office. They hadn't expected to be here long enough to bother having
ImpSec install their own secured machine. Should have. "I'm only seeking background information just now. When you do find out who this fellow is, how are the relatives notified?"
"Normally,
local dome security sends an officer in person, if at all possible. In
a case like this with potential ImpSec connections, we send an agent of
our own with them, to make an initial evaluation and recommend further
investigation."
"Hm. Notify me first, please. I may want to ride along and observe."
"It could come at an odd hour."
"That's
fine." He wanted to feed his back-brain on something besides
second-hand data; he wanted action for his restless body. He wanted out
of this apartment. He'd thought it had been uncomfortable that first
night because the Vorsoissons were strangers, but that was as nothing
to how awkward it had become now he'd begun to know them.
"Very well, my lord."
"Thank you, General. That's all for now." Miles cut the com.
With
a sigh, he turned again to the stack of terraforming reports, starting
with Waste Heat Management's excessively complete report on dome energy
flows. It was only in his imagination that the gaze from a pair of
outraged light blue eyes burned into the back of his head.
He
had left the workroom door open with the thought– hope?—that if Madame
Vorsoisson just happened to be passing by, and just happened to want to
renew their truncated conversation, she might realize she had his
invitation to do so. The awareness that this left him sitting alone
with his back to the door came to Miles simultaneously with the sense
that he was no longer alone. At a surreptitious sniff from the vicinity
of the doorway, he fixed his most inviting smile on his face and turned
his chair around.
It was Nikki, hovering in the
frame and staring at him in uncertain calculation. He returned Miles's
misdirected smile shyly. "Hello," the boy ventured.
"Hello, Nikki. Home from school?"
"Yep."
"Do you like it?"
"Naw."
"Ah? How was today?"
"Boring."
"What are you studying, that's so dull?"
"Nothin'."
What
a joy such monosyllabic exchanges must be to his parents, paying for
that exclusive private school. Miles's smile twisted. Reassured,
perhaps, by the glint of humor in his eye, the boy ventured within. He
looked Miles up and down more openly than he had done heretofore; Miles
bore being Looked At. Yes, you can get used to me, kiddo.
"Were you really a spy?" Nikki asked suddenly.
Miles leaned back, brows rising. "Now, wherever did you get that idea?"
"Uncle Vorthys said you were in ImpSec Galactic operations," Nikki reminded him.
Ah, yes, that first night at the dinner table. "I was a courier officer. Do you know what that is?"
"Not . . . 'zactly. I thought a courier was a jumpship . . . ?"
"The
ship is named after the job. A courier is a kind of glorified delivery
man. I carried messages back and forth for the Imperium."
Nikki's brow wrinkled dubiously. "Was it dangerous?"
"It
wasn't supposed to be. I generally got places only to have to turn
around immediately and go back. I spent a lot of time en route reading.
Composing reports. And, ah, studying. ImpSec would send these training
programs along, that you were supposed to complete in your spare time,
and turn back in to your superiors when you got home."
"Oh,"
said Nikki, sounding a little dismayed, possibly at the thought that
even grownups weren't spared from homework. He regarded Miles more
sympathetically. Then a spark rose in his eye. "But you got to go on jumpships, didn't you? Imperial fast couriers and things?"
"Oh, yes."
"We went on a jumpship, to come here. It was a Vorsmythe Dolphin-class
776 with quadruple-vortex outboard control nacelles and dual norm-space
thrusters and a crew of twelve. It carried a hundred and twenty
passengers. It was full up, too." Nikki's face grew reflective. "Kind
of a barge, compared to Imperial fast couriers, but Mama got the jump
pilot to let me come up and see his control room. He let me sit in his
station chair and put on his headset." The spark had become a flame in
the memory of this glorious moment.
Miles could recognize imprinting when he saw it. "You admire jumpships, I take it."
"I
want to be a jump pilot when I grow up. Didn't you ever? Or … or
wouldn't they let you?" A certain wariness returned to Nikki's face;
had he been cautioned by the adults not to mention Miles's mutoid
appearance? Yes, let us all pretend to ignore the obvious. That ought to clarify the kid's worldview.
"No,
I wanted to be a strategist. Like my Da and my Gran'da. I couldn't have
passed the physical for jump pilot anyway."
"My Da was a soldier. It sounded boring. He stayed on one base for practically the whole time. I want to be an Imperial pilot, in the fastest ships, and go places."
Very far away from here. Yes. Miles understood that
one, all right. It occurred to him suddenly that even if nothing else
was done between now and then, a military physical would reveal Nikki's
Vorzohn's Dystrophy. And even if it was successfully treated, the
defect would disqualify him for military pilot's training.
"Imperial
pilot?" Miles let his brows rise in apparent surprise. "Well, I suppose
. . . but if you really want to go places, the military's not your best
route."
"Why not?"
"Except
for a very few courier or diplomatic missions, the military jump pilots
just go from Barrayar to Komarr to Sergyar and back. Same old routes,
round and round. And you have to wait forever for your turn on the
roster, my pilot acquaintances tell me. Now, if you really want
experience, going out with the Komarran trade fleets would take you
much farther afield—all the way to Earth, and beyond. And they go out
for much longer, and there are many more berths to be had. There are
more kinds of ships. Pilots get a lot more time in the hot-seat. And when you get to the interesting places, you're a lot freer to look around."
"Oh." Nikki digested this thoughtfully. "Wait here," he commanded abruptly, and darted out.
He was back in moments cradling a box jammed with model jumpships. "This is the Dolphin-776 we went on," he held one up for Miles's inspection. He rummaged for another. "Did you ride on fast couriers like this one?"
"The
Falcon-9? Yes, a time or two." A model caught Miles's eye;
automatically, he slid down onto the floor beside Nikki, who was
arranging his collection for fleet inspection. "Good God, is that an RG
freighter?"
"It's an antique." Nikki held it out.
Miles took it, his eye lighting. "I owned one of the very last of these, when I was seventeen. Now, that was a barge."
"A … a model like this?" asked Nikki uncertainly.
"No, a jumpship."
"You owned a real jumpship? Yourself?" He inhaled alarmingly.
"Mm, me and a bunch of creditors." Miles smiled in reminiscence.
"Did you get to pilot it? In normal space, I mean, not in jump space."
"No, I wasn't even up to piloting shuttles then. I learned how to do that later, at the Academy."
"What happened to the RG? Do you still have it?"
"Oh,
no. Or … well, I'm not just sure. It met with an accident in Tau Verde
local space, ramming, um, colliding with another ship. Twisted hell out
of its Necklin field generator rods. It was never going to jump again
after that, so I leased it as a local-space freighter, and we left it
there. If Arde– he's a jump pilot friend of mine—ever finds a set of
replacement rods, I told him he can have the old RG."
"You had a jumpship and you gave it away!?" Nikki's eyes widened in astonishment. "Do you have anymore?"
"Not at present. Oh, look, a General-class cruiser." Miles reached for it. "My father commanded one of those, once, I believe. Do you have any Betan Survey ships . . . ?"
Heads
bent together, they laid out the little fleet on the floor. Nikki,
Miles was pleased to find, was well-up on all the tech-specs of every
ship he owned; he expanded wonderfully, his voice, formerly shy around
Miles-the-weird-adult-stranger, growing louder and faster in his
unselfconscious enthusiasm as he detailed his machinery. Miles's stock
rose as he was able to claim personal acquaintance with nearly a dozen
of the originals for the models, and add a few interesting
nonclassified jumpship anecdotes to Nikki's already impressive fund of
knowledge.
"But," said Nikki after a slight pause
for breath, "how do you get to be a pilot if you're not in the
military?"
"You go through a training school and
an apprenticeship. I know of at least four schools right here on
Komarr, and a couple more at home on Barrayar. Sergyar doesn't have one
yet."
"How do you get in?"
"Apply, and give them money."
Nikki looked daunted. "A lot of money?"
"Mm,
no more than any other college or trade school. The biggest cost is
getting your neurological interface surgically installed. It pays to
get the best on that one." Miles added encouragingly, "You can do
anything, but you have to make your chances happen. There are some
scholarships and indenture-contracts that can grease your way in, if
you hustle for them. You do have to be at least twenty years old,
though, so you have lots of time to plan."
"Oh."
Nikki seemed to contemplate this vast span of time, equal again to his
whole life so far, stretching out before him. Miles could empathize;
suppose someone told him he had to wait thirty more years for something
he passionately desired? He tried to think of something he passionately
desired. That he could have. The field was depressingly blank.
Nikki
began to replace his models in their padded box. As he nestled the
Falcon-9 into its space, his fingers caressed its Imperial military
decals. He asked, "Do you still have your ImpSec silver eyes?"
"No, they made me give 'em back when I was fi—when I resigned."
"Why d'you quit?"
"I didn't want to. I had health problems."
"So they made you be an Auditor instead?"
"Something like that."
Nikki groped around for some way to continue this polite adult conversation. "Do you like it?"
"It's
a little early to tell. It seems to involve a lot of homework." He
glanced up guiltily at the stack of report disks waiting for him on the
comconsole.
Nikki gave him a look of sympathy.
"Oh. Too bad." Tien Vorsoisson's voice made them both jump. "Nikki,
what are you doing in here? Get up off the floor!"
Nikki
scrambled to his feet, leaving Miles sitting cross-legged and abruptly
conscious that his recently-chilled body had stiffened up again.
"Are
you pestering the Lord Auditor? My apologies, Lord Vorkosigan! Children
have no manners." Vorsoisson entered and loomed over them.
"Oh,
his manners are fine. We were having an interesting discussion on the
subject of jump ships." Miles contemplated the problem of standing
gracefully in front of a fellow Barrayaran, without any unfortunate
lurch or stumble to give a false impression of disability. He
stretched, sitting, by way of preparation.
Vorsoisson
grimaced wryly. "Ah, yes, the most recent obsession. Don't step
barefoot on one of those damn things, it'll cripp—it'll hurt. Well,
every boy goes through that phase, I suppose. We all outgrow it. Pick
up all that mess, Nikki."
Nikki's eyes were
downcast, but narrowed in brief resentment at this, Miles could see
from his angle of view. The boy bent to scoop up the last of his
miniature fleet.
"Some people grow into their dreams, instead of out of them," Miles murmured.
"That
depends on whether your dreams are reasonable," said Vorsoisson, his
lips twitching in rather bleak amusement. Ah, yes. Vorsoisson must be
fully aware of the secret medical bar between Nikki and his ambition.
"No,
it doesn't." Miles smiled slightly. "It depends on how hard you grow."
It was difficult to tell just how Nikki took that in, but he heard it;
his eyes flicked back to Miles as he carried his treasure box toward
the door.
Vorsoisson frowned, suspicious of this
contradiction, but said only, "Kat sent me to tell everyone supper is
ready. Go wash your hands, Nikki, and tell your Uncle Vorthys."
Miles's
last family dinner with the Vorsoisson clan was a strained affair.
Madame Vorsoisson made herself very busy with serving admittedly
excellent food, her faintly harried pose as effective as a placard
saying Leave me alone. The conversation was left to the
Professor, who was abstracted, and Tien, who, bereft of direction,
spoke forcefully and without depth of local Komarran politics,
authoritatively explaining the inner workings of the minds of people he
had never, so far as Miles could discern, actually met. Nikolai, wary
of his father, did not pursue the subject of jumpships in front of him.
Miles
wondered now how he could have mistaken Madame Vorsoisson's silence for
serenity, that first night, or Etienne Vorsoisson's tension for energy.
Until seeing those brief glimpses of her animation earlier today, he
had not guessed how much of her personality was missing from view, or
how much went underground in the presence of her husband.
Now
that he knew what clues to look for, he could see the faint grayness
underlying Tien's dome-pallor, and spot his betraying tiny physical
twitches masked as a big man's clumsiness with small objects. At first
Miles had feared the illness was hers, and he'd been nearly ready to
challenge Tien to a duel for his failure to take immediate and massive
measures to solve the problem. If Madame Vorsoisson had been his
wife . . . But apparently Tien was playing these little delaying
head-games with his own condition. Miles knew, none better, the
bone-deep Barrayaran fear of any genetic distortion. Mortal embarrassment
was more than a turn of phrase. He didn't exactly go around advertising
his own invisible seizure-disorder, either—though he'd been privately
relieved to have that secret out with her. Not that it mattered, now
that he was leaving. Denial was Tien's choice, stupid though it seemed;
maybe the man was hoping to be hit by a meteor before his disease
manifested itself. Miles's stifled impulse toward homicide was renewed
with the thought, But he's chosen the same for her Nikolai.
Halfway
through the main course—exquisitely aromatic vat-raised fish fillets
baked on a bed of garlic potatoes—the door chimed. Madame Vorsoisson
hastily rose to answer it. Feeling obscurely that it was bad security
to send her off by herself, Miles followed. Nikolai, perhaps sensing
adventure, tried to accompany them, but was roped back to face the
remains of his dinner by his father. Madame Vorsoisson glanced at Miles
over her shoulder, but said nothing.
She checked
the welcome monitor beside the door. "It's another courier. Oh, it's a
captain this time. Usually you get a sergeant." Madame Vorsoisson keyed
open the hall door to reveal a young man in Barrayaran undress greens,
with ImpSec's eye-of-Horus pins on his collar. "Do come in."
"Madame
Vorsoisson." The man nodded to her, trod inside, and shifted his gaze
to Miles. "Lord Auditor Vorkosigan. I'm Captain Tuomonen. I head up
ImpSec's office here in Serifosa." Tuomonen appeared to be in his late
twenties, dark haired and brown eyed like most Barrayarans, and a bit
more trim and fit than the average desk soldier, though with dome-pale
skin. He had a disk case in one hand and a larger case in the other, so
nodded cordially rather than offering any salutelike gesture.
"Yes, General Rathjens mentioned you. We're honored to have such a courier."
Tuomonen
shrugged. "ImpSec Serifosa is a very small office, my lord. General
Rathjens directed you were to be informed as soon as possible after the
new body was identified."
Miles's eye took in the
secured disk case in the captain's hand. "Excellent. Come sit down." He
led the captain to the conversation circle, a deeply-padded sunken
bench which was the centerpiece of the Vorsoisson's living room. Like
most of the rest of the furnishings, it was Komarran dome
standard-issue. Did Madame Vorsoisson sometimes feel she was camping in
a hotel, rather than making a home here? "Madame Vorsoisson, would you
ask your uncle to join us? Let him finish eating first, though."
"I
would like to speak with Administrator Vorsoisson, also, when he's
finished," Tuomonen called after her. She nodded and withdrew, eyes
dark with interest but posture still self-effacing, self-erasing, as if
she wished she might become invisible to Miles's eyes.
"What
do we have?" continued Miles, settling himself. "I told Rathjens I
might like to accompany and observe the first ImpSec contact on this
matter." He could pack his bag and take it along tonight, and not have
to come back.
"Yes, my lord. That's why I'm here.
Your mysterious body turns out to be a local fellow, from Serifosa. He
is, or was, listed as an employee of the Terraforming Project here."
Miles blinked. "Not an engineer named Dr. Radovas, is it?"
Tuomonen stared at him, startled. "How did you know?"
"Wild-ass
guess, because he went missing a few weeks ago. Oh, hell, I'll bet
Vorsoisson could have identified him at a glance. Or … maybe not. He
was pretty battered. Hm. Radovas's boss thought he'd eloped with his
tech, a young lady named Marie Trogir. Her body hasn't turned up topside, has it?"
"No, my lord. But it sounds as though we ought to start looking for it."
"Yes.
A full ImpSec search and background check, I think. Don't assume she's
dead—if she's alive, we surely want to question her. Do you need a
special order from me?"
"Not necessarily, but I'll bet it would expedite things." A faint enthusiastic gleam lit Tuomonen's eye.
"You have it, then."
"Thank
you, my lord. I thought you'd want this." He handed Miles the secured
case. "I pulled the complete dossier on Radovas before I left the
office."
"Does ImpSec keep files on every Komarran citizen, or was he special?"
"No,
we don't keep universal files. But we have a search program that can
pull records of good depth from the information net very quickly. The
first part of this is his public biography, school records, medical
records, financial and travel documents, all the usual. I only had time
to glance over it. But Radovas also does have a small ImpSec file,
dating back to his student days during the Komarr Revolt. It was closed
at the amnesty."
"Is it interesting?"
"I
would not draw too many inferences from it alone. Half the population
of Komarr of that age group was part of some student protest or
would-be revolutionary group back then, including my mother-in-law."
Tuomonen waited stiffly to see what response Miles would make to this
tidbit.
"Ah, you married a local girl, did you?"
"Five years ago."
"How long have you been posted to Serifosa?"
"About six years."
"Good for you." Yes! That leaves one more Barrayaran woman for the rest of us. "You get along well with the locals, I take it."
Tuomonen's
stiffness eased. "Mostly. Except for my mother-in-law. But I don't
think that's entirely political." Tuomonen suppressed a small grin.
"But our little daughter has her under complete control, now."
"I
see." Miles smiled back at him. With a more thoughtful frown, he turned
the case over, dug his Auditor's seal out of his pocket, and keyed it
open. "Has your Analysis section red-flagged anything in this for me?"
"I am
Serifosa's Analysis section," Tuomonen admitted ruefully. His glance at
Miles sharpened. "I understand you're former ImpSec yourself, my lord.
I think I'd rather let you read it over first, before I comment."
Miles's
brows twitched up. Did Tuomonen not trust his own judgment, had the
arrival of two Imperial Auditors in his sector unnerved him, or was he
merely seizing the opportunity for some mutual brainstorming? "And what
sort of dossier did you pull off the net on one Miles Vorkosigan, and
speed-read before you left the office just now?"
"I did that day before yesterday, actually, my lord, when I was notified you would be arriving in Serifosa."
"And what was your analysis of it?"
"About
two-thirds of your career is locked under a need-to-know seal that
requires clearance from ImpSec HQ in Vorbarr Sultana to access. But
your publicly recorded awards and decorations appear in a statistically
significant pattern following supposedly routine courier missions
assigned to you by the Galactic Affairs office. At approximately five
times the density of the next most decorated courier in ImpSec history."
"And your conclusion, Captain Tuomonen?"
Tuomonen smiled faintly. "You were never a bloody courier, Captain Vorkosigan."
"Do you know, Tuomonen, I believe I am going to enjoy working with you."
"I hope so, sir." He glanced up as the Professor entered the living room, flanked by Tien Vorsoisson.
Vorthys
finished wiping his mouth with his dinner napkin, stuffed it absently
into his pocket, and greeted Tuomonen with a handshake, then introduced
his nephew-in-law. As they all sat again, Miles said, "Tuomonen has
brought us the identification of our extra body."
"Oh, good," said Vorthys. "Who was the poor fellow?"
Miles
watched Tuomonen watch Tien and say, "Strangely enough, Administrator
Vorsoisson, one of your employees. Dr. Barto Radovas."
Tien's grayness became a shade paler. "Radovas! What the hell was he doing up there?" The shock and horror on Tien's face was genuine, Miles would have sworn, the surprise in his voice unfeigned.
"I was hoping you might have some ideas, sir," said Tuomonen.
"My God. Well . . . was he aboard the station, or the ship?"
"We haven't determined that yet."
"I
really can't tell you that much about the man. He was in Soudha's
department. Soudha never made any complaints about his work to me. He
got all his merit raises right to schedule." Tien shook his head. "But
what the hell was he doing . . ."He glanced worriedly at Tuomonen.
"He's not actually my employee, you know. He resigned several weeks
ago."
"Five days before his death, according to our calculations," said Tuomonen.
Tien's
brows wrinkled. "Well … he couldn't have been aboard that ore ship,
then, could he? How could he have gotten all the way out to the second
asteroid belt and boarded it before he even left Komarr?"
"He might have joined the ore ship en route," said Tuomonen.
"Oh. I suppose that's possible. My God. He's married. Was married. Is his wife still here in town?"
"Yes,"
said Tuomonen. "I'll be meeting shortly with the dome civil security
officer who's taking the official notification of death to her."
"She's
waited three weeks with no word from him," said Miles. "Another hour
can't matter much at this point. I think I'd like to review your report
before we leave, Captain."
"Please do, my lord."
"Professor, will you join me?"
They
all ended up trooping into Vorsoisson's study. Miles privately felt he
could do without Tien, but Tuomonen made no move to exclude him.
The
report was not yet an in-depth analysis, but rather a wad of raw data
bundled logically, with hasty preliminary notes and summations supplied
by Tuomonen. A full analysis would doubtless arrive eventually from
ImpSec-Komarr HQ. They all pulled up chairs and crowded around the vid
display. After the initial overview, Miles let the Professor follow the
thread of Radovas's career.
"He lost two years out
of the middle of his undergraduate schooling to the Revolt," Vorthys
noted. "Solstice University was shut down entirely, for a time then."
"But it looks like he made up some points with that two-year postgraduate stint on Escobar," Miles said.
"Anything could have happened to him there," opined Tien.
"But
not much did, according to this," said Vorthys a bit dryly. "Commercial
work in their orbital shipyards … he didn't even get a good research
topic out of it. Solstice University did not renew his contract. Not a
man with a gift for teaching, one feels."
"He was
refused a job in the Imperial Science Institute because of his
associations in the Revolt," Tuomonen pointed out, "despite the
amnesty."
"All the amnesty promised was that he'd never be taken out and shot," said Miles a shade impatiently.
"But
he was not refused it on the basis of inadequate technical competence,"
murmured Vorthys. "Here he goes on to a job rather below his
educational level, in the Komarran orbital yards."
Miles checked. "He had three small children by then. He had to go for the money."
"Several bland years follow," the Professor droned on.
"Changes
companies only once, for a respectable increase in salary and position.
Then he is hired by—Soudha was fairly new then, but hired by Soudha for
the Terraforming Project, and moves downside permanently."
"No
pay raise that time. Professor …" Miles said plaintively. He touched
his finger to air on the vid display at this juncture in the late Dr.
Radovas's career. "Doesn't this downside move strike you as odd for a
man trained and experienced in jump technologies? He was a
five-space-math man."
Tuomonen smiled tightly, by
which Miles deduced he had put his finger rather literally upon the
same point that had bothered the captain.
Vorthys
shrugged. "There could be many compelling reasons. He could have felt
stale in his old work. He could have grown into new interests. Madame
Radovas might have refused to live on a space station for one more day.
I think you'll have to ask her."
"But it is unusual," said Tuomonen tentatively.
"Maybe," said Vorthys. "Maybe not."
"Well," sighed Miles after a long silence. "Let's go do the hard part."
The
Radovas's apartment proved to be about a third of the way across the
city from the Vorsoissons', but at this hour of the evening there were
no delays in the bubble-car system. With Tuomonen leading, Miles,
Vorthys, and Tien—whom Miles did not remember inviting, but who somehow
had attached himself to the expedition—entered the lobby, where they
found a youngish woman in a Serifosa Dome Security uniform waiting for
them, none too patiently.
"Ah, the dome cop is
female," Miles murmured to Tuomonen. He looked back over their
cavalcade. "Good. We'll seem less like an invading army."
"So I hoped, my lord."
After
brief introductions all around, they took a lift tube to a hallway
nearly identical to every other dome residence building Miles had so
far seen. The dome cop, who was styled Group-Patroller Rigby, rang the
door chime.
After a pause long enough to start Miles wondering, Is she home?
the door slid open. The woman framed there was slender and neatly
dressed, appearing to Miles's Barrayaran eye to be in her mid-forties,
which probably meant she was in her late fifties. She wore the usual
Komarran trousers and blouse, and hunched into a heavy sweater. She
looked pale and chilled, but there was certainly nothing else in her
appearance to repel any husband.
Her eyes widened as she took in the uniformed people facing her, radiating the message bad news.
"Oh," she sighed wearily. Miles, who had braced himself for hysterics,
relaxed a little. She was going to be the underreacting type, it
appeared. Her response would likely emerge oddly, and obliquely, and
later.
"Madame Radovas?" the dome cop said. The
woman nodded. "My name is Group-Patroller Rigby. I regret to inform you
that your husband, Dr. Barto Radovas, has been found dead. May we
please come in?"
Madame Radovas's hand went to her
lips; she said nothing for a moment. "Well." She looked away. "I am not
so pleased as I thought I'd be. What happened to him? That young
woman—is she all right?"
"May we come in and sit
down?" Rigby reiterated. "I'm afraid we are going to have to trouble
you with some questions. We'll try to answer yours."
Madame
Radovas's eye warily took in Tuomonen, in his ImpSec greens. "Yes. All
right." She gave way, stepping backward, and gestured them all inside.
Her
living room featured another standard conversation circle; Miles seated
himself to one side, letting Tuomonen share line-of-sight across from
Madame Radovas with the Group-Patroller, who introduced the rest of
them. Tien joined them, folding himself onto the bench, a picture of
awkward discomfort. Professor Vorthys shook his head slightly and
remained standing, his gaze taking in the room.
"What
happened to Barto? Was there an accident?" Madame Radovas's voice was
husky, barely controlled, now that the news was sinking in.
"We're
not certain," said Rigby. "His body was found in space, apparently
associated with the disaster to the soletta three weeks ago. Did you
know he had gone topside? Had he said anything before he left that
would shed some light on this?"
"I …" She looked
away. "He didn't speak to me before he left. I think he was not very
brave about this. He left me a note on the comconsole. Until I found
it, I thought this was an ordinary work trip."
"May we see it?" Tuomonen spoke for the first time.
"I erased it. Sorry." She frowned at him.
"The plan for this . . . leaving, do you think it was your husband's, or Marie Trogir's?" asked Rigby.
"You
know all about them, I see. I have no idea. I was surprised. I don't
know." Her voice grew sharper. "I wasn't consulted."
"Did he often make work trips?" asked Rigby.
"He
went out on field tests fairly often. Sometimes he went to the
terraforming conferences in Solstice. I usually went along on those."
Her voice fluttered raggedly, then came back under her control.
"What did he take with him? Anything unusual?" asked Rigby patiently.
"Just
what he normally took on a long field trip." She hesitated. "He took
all his personal files. That's how I first knew for sure that he wasn't
coming back."
"Did you talk to anyone at his work about this absence?"
Tien
shook his head, but Madame Radovas replied, "I spoke to Administrator
Soudha. After I found the note. Trying to figure out . . . what had
gone wrong."
"Was Administrator Soudha helpful to you?" asked Tuomonen.
"Not
very." She frowned again. "He didn't seem to feel it was any of his
business what happened after Barto resigned."
"I'm
sorry," said Vorsoisson. "Soudha didn't tell me about that part of it.
I'll reprimand him. I didn't know."
And you didn't ask.
But much as Miles would like to, even he found it hard to blame Tien
for steering clear of what had looked to be an embarrassing domestic
situation. Madame Radovas's frown at Vorsoisson became almost a glower.
"I
understand you and your husband moved downside about four years ago,"
said Tuomonen. "It seemed an unusual change of careers, from five-space
to what is effectively a form of civil engineering. Did he have a
long-time interest in terra-forming?"
She looked
momentarily nonplused. "Barto cared about the future of Komarr. I … we
were tired of station life. We wanted something more settled for the
children. Dr. Soudha was looking for people for his team with different
backgrounds, different kinds of problem-solving experience. He
considered Barto's station experience valuable. Engineering is
engineering, I suppose."
Professor Vorthys had
been wandering gently around the room during this, one ear cocked
toward the conversation, examining the travel mementos and portraits of
children at various ages that were its principal decorations. He
stopped before the library case on one wall, crammed with disks, and
began randomly examining their titles. Madame Radovas gave him a brief
curious glance.
"Due to the unusual situation in
which Dr. Radovas's body was found, the law requires a complete medical
examination," Rigby went on. "Given your personally awkward
circumstances, when it's concluded, do you wish to have his body or his
ashes returned to you, or to some other relative?"
"Oh.
Yes. To me, please. There should be a proper ceremony. For the
children's sake. For everyone's sake." She seemed very close to losing
control now, tears standing in her eyes. "Can you … I don't know. Do
you take care of this?"
"The Family Affairs
counselor in our department will be glad to advise and assist you. I'll
give you her number before we leave."
"Thank you."
Tuomonen
cleared his throat. "Due to the mysterious circumstances of Dr.
Radovas's death, ImpSec Komarr has also been asked to take an interest
in the matter. I wonder if we might have your permission to examine
your comconsole and personal records, to see if they suggest anything."
Madame Radovas touched her lips. "Barto took all his personal files. There's not much left but my own."
"Sometimes a technical examination can uncover more."
She
shook her head, but said, "Well … I suppose so." She added more tartly,
"Though I didn't think ImpSec had to bother with my permission."
Tuomonen
did not deny this, but said, "I like to salvage what courtesies I can,
Madame, from our crude necessities."
Professor Vorthys added in a distant tone from the far wall, his hands full of disks, "Get the library, too."
With a flash of bewildered anger, Madame Radovas said, "Why do you want to take away my poor husband's library!?"
Vorthys
looked up and gave her a kindly, disarming smile. "A man's library
gives information about the shape of his mind the way his clothing
gives information about the shape of his body. The cross-connections
between apparently unrelated subjects may exist only in his thoughts.
There is a sad disconnectedness that overcomes a library when its owner
is gone. I think I should have liked to meet your husband when he was
alive. In this ghostly way, perhaps I can, a little."
"I don't see why …" Her lips tightened in dismay.
"We
can arrange for it to be returned to you in a day or two," Tuomonen
said soothingly. "Is there anything you need out of it right away?"
"No,
but … oh … I don't know. Take it. Take whatever you want, I don't care
any more." Her eyes began to spill over at last. Group-Patroller Rigby
handed her a tissue from one of her many uniform pockets and frowned at
the Barrayarans.
Tien shifted uncomfortably;
Tuomonen remained blandly professional. Taking her outburst for his
cue, the ImpSec captain rose and carried his case over to the
comconsole in the corner by the dining ell, opened it, and plugged an
ImpSec standard black box into the side of the machine. At Vorthys's
gesture, Rigby and Miles went to assist him in removing the library
case intact from the wall, and sealing it for transport. Tuomonen,
after sucking dry the comconsole, ran a scanner over the library, which
Miles estimated contained close to a thousand disks, and generated a
vid-receipt for Madame Radovas. She crumpled the plastic flimsy into
the pocket of her gray trousers without looking at it, and stood with
her arms crossed till the invaders assembled to depart.
At
the last moment, she bit her lip and blurted, "Administrator
Vorsoisson. There won't be … will I get . . . will there be any of the
normal survivor's benefits coming from Barto's death?"
Was
she in financial need? Her two youngest children were still in
university, according to Tuomonen's files, and financially dependent on
their parents; of course she was. But Vorsoisson shook his head sadly.
"I'm
afraid not, Madame Radovas. The medical examiner seems to be quite
clear that his death took place after his resignation."
If it had been the other way around, this would be a much more interesting problem for ImpSec.
"She gets nothing, then?" asked Miles. "Through no fault of her own,
she's stripped of all normal widow's benefits just because of her," he
deleted a few pejorative adjectives, "late husband's recklessness?"
Vorsoisson shrugged helplessly, and turned away.
"Wait,"
said Miles. He'd been of damned little use to anyone today so far.
"Gregor does not approve of widows being left destitute. Trust me on
this one. Vorsoisson, go ahead and run the benefits through for her
anyway."
"I can't—how—do you want me to alter the date of his resignation?"
Thus creating the curious legal spectacle of a man resigning the day after his own death? By what method, spirit writing? "No, of course not. Simply make it by an Imperial order."
"There are no places on the forms for an Imperial order!" said Vorsoisson, taken aback.
Miles
digested this. Tuomonen, looking faintly suffused, watched with
wide-eyed fascination. Even Madame Radovas's eyebrows crimped with
bemusement. She looked directly at Miles as if seeing him for the first
time. At last, Miles said gently, "A design defect you shall have to
correct, Administrator Vorsoisson."
Tien's mouth
opened on some other protest, but then, intelligently, closed.
Professor Vorthys looked relieved. Madame Radovas, her hand pressed to
her cheek in something like wonder, said, "Thank you . . . Lord
Vorkosigan."
After the usual
If-you-think-of-anything-more-call-this-number farewells, the herd of
investigators moved off down the hallway. Vorthys handed Tien the
library case to lug. Back at the building's entrance lobby, the
Group-Patroller prepared to go her own way.
"What,
if anything, does ImpSec want us to do now?" she asked Tuomonen. "Dr.
Radovas's death seems out of Serifosa's jurisdiction. Close relatives
are automatically suspects in a mysterious death, but she's been here
the whole time. I don't see any causal chain to that body in space."
"Neither
do I, at present," Tuomonen admitted. "For now, continue with your
normal procedures, and send my office copies of all your reports and
evidence files."
"I don't suppose you'd care to
return the favor?" Judging by the twist of her lips, Rigby thought she
knew the answer.
"I'll see what I can do, if
anything pertinent to Dome security turns up," Tuomonen promised
guardedly. Rigby's brows rose at even this limited concession from
ImpSec.
"I'm going to have to go back topside
tomorrow morning," said Vorthys to Tuomonen. "I am not going to have
time to do a thorough examination of this library myself. I shall have
to trouble ImpSec for it, I'm afraid."
Tuomonen,
his eye taking in the thousand-disk case, looked momentarily appalled.
Miles added quickly, "On my authority, requisition a high-level analyst
from HQ for that job. One of the basement boffins, with engineering and
math certification, I think—right, Professor?"
"Yes, indeed, the best man you can get," said Vorthys.
Tuomonen looked very relieved. "What do you want him to look for, my Lord Auditor?"
"I
don't quite know," said the Professor. "That's why I want an ImpSec
analyst, eh? Essentially, I want him to generate an independent picture
of Radovas from this data, which we may compare with impressions from
other sources later."
"A candid view of the shape of the mind inside this library," mused Miles. "I see."
"I'm
sure you do. Talk to the man, Miles, you know the kinds of things they
do. And the kinds of things we want."
"Certainly, Professor."
They
turned the library case over to Tuomonen, and Group-Patroller Rigby
took her leave. It was approaching Komarran midnight.
"I'll
take all this lot back to my office, then," said Tuomonen, looking at
his assorted burdens, "and call HQ with the news. How much longer do
you expect to be staying in Serifosa, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"I'm
not sure. I'll stay on and have a talk with Soudha, and Radovas's other
colleagues, at least, before I go up again. I, ah, think I'll move my
things to a hotel tomorrow, after the Professor goes up."
"You are welcome to the hospitality of my home, Lord Vorkosigan," said Tien formally, and very unpressingly.
"Thank
you anyway, Administrator Vorsoisson. Who knows, I may be ready to
follow on topside as early as tomorrow night. We'll see what turns up."
"I'd
appreciate it if you'd keep my office apprised of your movements," said
Tuomonen. "It was of course your privilege to order no close security
upon your person, Lord Vorkosigan, but now that your case seems to have
acquired a local connection, I'd strongly request you reconsider that."
"ImpSec
guards are generally charming fellows, but I really like not tripping
over them every time I turn around," Miles replied. He tapped the
ImpSec issue chrono-comm link, which looked oversized strapped around
his left wrist. "Let's stick with our original compromise, for now.
I'll yelp for help if I need you, I promise."
"As you wish, my lord," said Tuomonen disapprovingly. "Is there anything else you need?"
"Not tonight," said Vorthys, yawning.
I
need all this to make sense. I need half a dozen eager informers. I
want to be alone in a locked room with Marie Trogir and a hypo of
fast-penta. I wish I might fast-penta that poor bitter widow, even.
Rigby would require a court order for such an invasive and offensive
step; Miles could do it on whim and his borrowed Imperial Voice, if he
didn't mind being a very obnoxious Lord Auditor indeed. The
justification was simply not yet sufficient. But Soudha had better watch his step, tomorrow. Miles shook his head. "No. Get some sleep."
"Eventually." Tuomonen smiled wryly. "Good night, my lords, Administrator."
They left the widow's building in opposite directions.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Ekaterin half-dozed, curled on the sunken living
room couch, waiting for the men to return. She pushed back her sleeves
and studied the deep bruises darkening on her wrists in the pattern of
Lord Vorkosigan's grip.
She was not normally very
body-conscious, she thought. She watched people's faces, giving a bare
glance to anything below the neck beyond the social language of
clothing. This . . . not aversion, screening . . . seemed a mere
courtesy, and a part of her sexual fidelity as automatic as breathing.
So it was doubly disturbing to find herself so very aware of the little
man. And probably very rude, as well, given the oddness of his body.
Vorkosigan's face, once she'd penetrated his first wary opacity, was .
. . well, charming, full of dry wit only waiting to break into open
humor. It was disorienting to find that face coupled with a body
bearing a record of appalling pain. Was it some kind of perverse
voyeurism, that her second reaction after shock had been a suppressed
desire to persuade him to tell her all the stories about his war
wounds? Not from around here, those hieroglyphs carved in his flesh had whispered, exotic with promise. And, I have survived. Want to know how?
Yes. I want to know how.
She pressed her fingers to the bridge of her nose, as if she might
press back the incipient headache gathering behind her eyes. Her body
jolted at the faint snick and shirr of the hall door
opening. But familiar voices, Tien's and her uncle's, reassured her it
was only the expected return of the information-hunting party. She
wondered what strange prey they had made a prize of. She sat up, and
pushed down her sleeves. It was well after midnight.
Tuomonen
was no longer with them, she found to her relief as she rounded the
corner into the hallway. She could lock her household down for the
night, like a proper chatelaine. Tien looked tense, Vorkosigan looked
tired, and Uncle Vorthys looked the same as ever. Vorkosigan was
murmuring, "I trust it goes without saying, Vorsoisson, that tomorrow
will be a surprise inspection?"
"Certainly, my Lord Auditor."
"Did you find out anything interesting?" Ekaterin inquired generally, resetting the lock behind them.
"Mm,
Madame Radovas had no suggestions as to how her wandering husband had
wandered into our soletta wreck," said Uncle Vorthys. "I'd been hoping
she might."
"It's so sad. They had seemed like such a nice couple, the few times I met them."
"Well, you know middle-aged men." Tien shrugged reprovingly, clearly excluding himself from the class.
Ah,
Tien. Why couldn't you be the one to run off with a younger, richer
woman? Maybe you'd be happier. You could scarcely be less happy. Why
does your one virtue have to be fidelity? As far as she knew,
anyway. Though she had wondered, during that thankfully-over weird
period when he'd been accusing her, why an act she found unthinkable
had so obsessed him. Maybe he didn't find it so unthinkable at all? She
hardly had the energy to care.
She offered a
late-night snack, an invitation only Uncle Vorthys accepted, and they
all parted company for their respective sleeping quarters. By the time
her uncle had finished eating and said good night, and she tidied up
and made her way to her own bedroom, checking on Nikolai on the way,
Tien was already in bed on his side with his eyes closed. Not sleeping
yet; he had a very distinctive near-snore when he was truly asleep.
When she slipped in beside him, he rolled over and flung his arm over
her, and snugged her in tight.
He does love me, in some inept way.
The thought almost made her want to weep. Yet what other human
connections did Tien have, aside from her and Nikolai? His distant
mother, remarried, and the ghost of his dead brother. Tien clutched her
at night sometimes like a drowning man clutching his log.
If
there was a hell, she hoped Tien's brother was in it. A Vor hell. He
had done the proper thing, oh yes he had, cutting out his own mutation,
and setting an example for Tien impossible to—so to speak—live up to.
Tien had tried to emulate him, twice early on and once later, running
up to suicide attempts so half-hearted as to barely qualify as
gestures. The first two times she had been utterly terrified. For a
period she had believed her loyalty and dependency were the only things
holding him to life. By the third, she was numb. Much more of this, and
she wouldn't be human at all. She felt barely human now.
Hoping
to pretend her way to the real thing, she let her breathing slow, and
feigned sleep. After a time, Tien, who was no more asleep than she, got
up and went to the bathroom. But instead of returning to bed, he
plodded quietly across the bedroom and out toward the kitchen. Maybe
he'd changed his mind about that snack. Would he like it if she heated
him some milk with brandy and spices in it? It was an old family recipe
and remedy her great-aunt had brought to South Continent; comfort-drink
for a visiting sick niece, though the larger of the generous portions
had always somehow seemed to find its way into the old lady's own cup.
Ekaterin smiled in memory, and padded after Tien.
Not
the refrigerator but the kitchen comconsole terminal made the only
faint light ahead of her. She paused in the doorway, puzzled. In her
parents' household, the only allowable reason to call anyone at this
hour of the night was to announce either a birth or a death, a rule
she'd found she had internalized.
"What the hell
was Radovas's body doing up there?" Tien, his back to her, spoke
hoarsely and lowly to the torso over the vid-plate. Startled, Ekaterin
recognized his subordinate, Administrator Soudha. Soudha was not, as
she would have expected, in pajamas, but still dressed for the day.
Working this late at home? Well, engineers were like that. She drew
back a little more into the shadows in the hallway. "You told me he'd
quit."
"He did," said Soudha. "It's not our problem what happened to him afterward."
"The
hell it's not. We're going to have frigging ImpSec all over the
department tomorrow. The real thing, not just a VIP tour we can run
around in circles and feed dinner and wave good-bye to. I could see
Tuomonen getting this shitty-eyed look just thinking about it."
"We'll handle them. Go back to bed, Vorsoisson."
Lord
Auditor Vorkosigan told you point-blank he wanted to make a surprise
inspection, Tien. He speaks with the Emperor's Voice. What are you
doing? She began to breathe through her mouth, soundlessly, starting to feel sick to her stomach.
"They're
going to find out all about your sweet little scheme, and then we'll
all be in it to our eyebrows," said Tien.
"No,
they won't. We're tight in town. Just keep them away from the
experiment station, and we'll grease them in and out without a squeak."
"The experiment station is a hollow shell. You haven't got a department, except in the files. What if they want to interview one of your ghost employees?"
"Such as yourself?" Soudha's mouth twisted in a thin smile. "Relax."
"I am not going down with you."
"You
think you have a choice?" Soudha snorted. "Look. It'll be all right.
They can audit all day long, and all they'll find is a lot of columns
that add perfectly. Lena Foscol in Accounting is the most meticulous
thief I've ever met. We're so far ahead of them they'll never catch up."
"Soudha, they're going to ask to interview people who don't exist. Then what?"
"Gone on vacation. Out on field work. We can stall."
"For how long? And then what?"
"Go to bed, Vorsoisson, and stop twitching."
"Goddammit, I've had two Imperial Auditors in my house
for the last three days." He stopped and took a gulping breath; Soudha
offered him a sympathetic shrug. Tien went on again in a lowered tone.
"That's . . . another thing. I need an advance on my stipend. I need
another twenty thousand marks. And I need it now."
"Now? Oh, sure, with ImpSec looking on, no doubt. Vorsoisson, you are gibbering."
"Dammit, I have to have the money. Or else."
"Or else what? Or else you're going to ImpSec and turn yourself
in? Look, Tien." Soudha ran his hands through his hair in a harried
swipe. "Lie low. Keep your mouth shut. Be sweet like sugar to the nice
ImpSec lads, give them to me, and we'll handle them. Let's just take
this one day at a time, all right?"
"Soudha, I
know you can produce the twenty thousand. There has to be at least
fifty thousand marks a month flowing out of your department's budget
and into your pockets from the dummy employees alone, and God knows how
much from the rest of it—though I'm sure your pet accountant does– what
if they decide to fast-penta her?"
Ekaterin stepped backward, her bare feet seeking silence from the floor near the wall. Dear God. What has Tien done now? It was all too easy to fill in the blanks. Embezzlement and bribery at the very least, and on a grand scale. How long has this been going on?
The
muffled voices from the kitchen exchanged a few more curt words, and
the blue reflection from the holovid winked out, leaving the hallway
obliquely lit only by the amber lights in the park outside. Heart
pounding, Ekaterin slipped back down the hall into her bathroom and
locked its door. She quickly flushed the commode and stood trembling at
the sink, staring at her dim reflection in the glass. The faint
nightlight made drowned sparks in her dilated eyes. After another
minute, the bed creaked as Tien made his way back into it.
She waited a long time, but when she crept out, he was still awake.
"Hm?" he said muzzily as she slid under the covers again.
"Not feeling too well," she muttered. Truthfully.
"Poor Kat. Something you ate, you think?"
"Not sure." She curled up away from him, not having to pretend the sick ache in her belly.
"Take something, eh? If you're batting around all night, neither of us will get any sleep."
"I'll see." I must know. After a time she added, "Did you get anything arranged about our galactic trip today?"
"God, no. Much too busy."
Not
too busy to complete the transfer of her funds to his own account,
she'd noticed. "Would you . . . like me to take over making all the
arrangements? There's no reason you should carry all that burden, I
have plenty of time. I've already researched off-world medical
facilities."
"Not now, Kat! We can deal with this later. Next week, after your uncle goes."
She let it drop, staring into the darkness.Whatever it is he needs twenty thousand marks for, it's not to fulfill his word to me.
Eventually, he slept, about two hours; Ekaterin watched the time ooze by, black and slow as tar. I must know.
And after you know, then what? Will you deal with it later, too? She lay waiting for the dawn's light.
The light is broken, remember?
The
routine of dealing with Nikolai's needs steadied her in the morning.
Uncle Vorthys left very early, to catch his orbital flight.
"Will you be coming back down?" she asked him a little wanly, helping him on with his jacket in the vestibule.
"I
hope I might, but I can't promise. This investigation has already gone
on longer than I expected, and has taken some peculiar turns. I really
have no idea how long it will take to finish up." He hesitated. "If it
drags on beyond the end of the term at the District University, perhaps
the Professora might come out to join me for a time. Would you like
that?" Not trusting herself to speak, she nodded. "Good. Good." He
seemed about to say more, but then just shrugged and smiled, and hugged
her good-bye.
She managed to evade almost all
contact with Tien and Vorkosigan by accompanying Nikki to school in the
bubble-car, an escort he scorned, and taking the long route home. As
she had hoped, the apartment was empty on her return. She washed down
more painkillers with more coffee, then, with reluctant steps, entered
Tien's office and sat before his comconsole. I wish I'd taken Lord Vorkosigan up on his offer to teach me how to do this.
Her outrage at the mutie lord yesterday in the bubble-car now seemed to
her all out of proportion. Misplaced. How much could her intimate
knowledge of Tien make up for her lack of training in this sort of
snooping? Not enough, she suspected, but she had to try. Get started. You are deliberately delaying. No. I am desperately delaying. She keyed on the comconsole.
Tien's
financial accounts, on this his personal machine, were not locked under
a code seal. Income matched his salary; outgo . . . when all the
routine outgo was accounted for, the amount left over should have been
a modest respectable savings. Tien did not indulge himself with
unshared luxuries. But the account was almost empty. Several thousand
marks had disappeared without trace, including the transfer she had
made to him yesterday morning. No, wait—that transfer was still on the
list, hastily entered, not erased or hidden yet. And it was a transfer,
not an expenditure, to a file that had appeared nowhere else.
She
followed its transfer marker to a hidden account. The comconsole
produced a palm-lock form above the vid-plate. When she and Tien had
first set up their accounts on Komarr, less than a year ago, they had
taken prudent thought or one or the other parent being temporarily
disabled; each had emergency access to the other's accounts. Had Tien
set this up entirely separately, or as a daughter-cell of his larger
financial program, letting the machine do the work for him? Maybe ImpSec covert ops doesn't have all the advantages,
she thought grimly, and placed her right hand in the light box. If only
you were willing to betray a trust, why, the most amazing range of
possible actions opened up to you. So did the file. She took a deep
breath, and started reading.
By far the largest
portion of what was under the seal turned out to be a huge research
clip-file much like her own on the subject of Vorzohn's Dystrophy. But
Tien's new obsession, it appeared, was Komarran trade fleets.
Komarr's
economy was founded, of course, on its worm-holes, and providing
services to the trade ships of other worlds that passed through them.
But once you had amassed all those profits, how to reinvest them? There
were, after all, a physically limited number of wormholes in Komarr
local space. So Komarr had gone on to develop its own trade fleets,
going out into the wormhole nexus on long complicated circuits of
months or even years, and returning, sometimes, with fabulous profits.
And
sometimes not. Stories of all the best, most legendary returns were
highlighted in Tien's files. The failures, admittedly fewer in number,
were brushed aside. Tien was nothing if not an optimist, always. Every
day was going to bring him his lucky break, the shot that would take
him directly to the top with no intervening steps. As if he really
believed that was how it was done.
Some of the
fleets were closely held to the famous family corporations, Komarr's
oligarchy, such as the Toscanes; others sold shares on the public
market to any Komarran who cared to place his bet. Almost every
Komarran did, at least in a small way; she'd heard one Barrayaran
bureaucrat joke that it replaced the need for most other sorts of
gambling in the Komarran state.
And when on Komarr, do as the Komarrans do? With dread in her heart, she switched to the financial portion of the file.
Where in God's name did Tien get a hundred thousand marks to buy fleet shares? His salary was barely five thousand marks a month. And then—having done so—why had he put all hundred thousand on the same fleet?
She
turned her attention to the first question, which was at least
potentially answerable with reference to facts of record, without
requiring psychological theory. It took her some time to break the
credit stream apart into its various sources. The partial answer was,
he'd borrowed sixty thousand marks on short term at a disturbingly high
interest rate, secured with his pension fund and forty thousand marks
worth of fleet shares he'd bought with—what? With money that came from
nowhere, apparently.
From Soudha? Was that what he had meant by a ghost employee?
Ekaterin read on. The fleet upon which Tien had placed his
borrowed bet had departed with much hype and fanfare; shares had been
trading on the secondary market at rising prices for weeks after it had
departed Komarr. Tien had even made a multicolored graph to track his
electronic gains. Then the fleet had encountered disaster: an entire
ship, cargo, and crew lost hideously to a wormhole mishap. The fleet,
now unable to complete many of its planned trade chains that had been
based in the lost cargo, had rerouted and come home early, tail between
its imaginary legs. Some fleets returned two for one to their
investors, though the average was closer to ten percent; the Golden
Voyage of Marat Galen in the previous century was famous for having
returned a fabulous fortune of a hundred to one for every share its
investors had purchased, founding at least two new oligarchic clans in
the process.
Tien's fleet, however, had returned a loss of four for one.
With
his twenty-five thousand marks of residue, Ekaterin's four thousand
marks, his personal savings, and his meager pension fund, Tien had been
placed to pay back only two-thirds of his loan, now due. Pressingly
overdue, apparently, judging from the aggressively-worded dunning
notices accumulating in the file. When he had cried to Soudha that he
needed twenty thousand marks now, Tien had not been exaggerating. She
could not help calculating how many years it would take to scrimp
twenty thousand marks from her household budget.
What a nightmare. It was almost possible to feel sorry for the man.
Except for the little problem of the origin of that magical first forty thousand marks.
Ekaterin
sat back and rubbed her numb face. She had a horrible feeling she could
guess the hidden parts of this whole chain of reasoning. This
apparently complex and deeply entrenched scam in the Terraforming
Project had not, she thought, originated with Tien. All his previous
dishonesties had been petty: wrong change not returned, a little
padding here and there on expense reports, the usual minor erosion of
character almost every adult suffered in weak moments, but not grand
theft. Soudha had been here in his job for over five years. This was
surely a home-grown Komarran crime. But Tien, newly made head of the
Serifosa Sector, had perhaps stumbled upon it, and Soudha had bought
his silence, So . . . had the previous Barrayaran Administrator whom
Tien had replaced been on the take as well? A question for ImpSec, to
be sure.
But Tien was in far over his head and
must have realized it. Hence the gamble with the trade fleet shares. If
the fleet had returned four for one, instead of the other way around,
Tien would have been placed to return his bribe, make restitution, get
out from under. Had some such panicked thought been in the back of his
mind?
And if he had been lucky instead of unlucky, would the impulse have survived to become reality?
And
if Tien had pulled a hundred thousand marks out of his hat, and told
you he won them on trade fleet shares, would you have asked the first
question about their origin? Or would you have been overjoyed and
thought him a secret genius?
She sat now bent
over, aching in every part of her body, up her back, her neck, inside
and outside her head. In her heart. Her eyes were dry.
A
Vor woman's first loyalty was supposed to be to her husband. Even unto
treason, even unto death. The sixth Countess Vorvayne had followed her
husband right up to the stocks in which he had been hung to die for his
part in the Saltpetre Plot, and sat at his feet in a hunger strike, and
died, in fact a day before him, of exposure. Great tragic story, that
one—one of the best bloody melodramas from the history of the Time of
Isolation. They'd made a holovid of it, though in the vid version the
couple had died at the same moment, as if achieving mutual orgasm.
Has a Vor woman no honor of her own, then? Before Tien entered my life, did I not have integrity all the same?
Yes, and I laid it on my marriage oath. Rather like buying all your shares in one fleet.
If
Tien had been afflicted with some great misguided political
passion—thrown in his lot with the wrong side in Vordarian's
Pretendership, whatever—if he had followed his convictions, she might
well have followed him with all good will. But this was not allegiance
to some greater truth, or even to some grandly tragic mistake.
It
was just stupidity, piled on venality. It wasn't tragedy, it was farce.
It was Tien all over. But if there was any honor to be regained by
turning her own sick husband over to the authorities, she surely did
not see it either.
If I grow much smaller, trying to keep my height under his, I believe I must soon disappear altogether.
But
if she was not a Vor woman, what was she? To step away from her
oath-sworn place at Tien's side was to step across a precipice into the
dark, naked of any identity at all.
It was, what
did they call it, a window of opportunity. If she left before the
crisis broke, before this whole hideous mess came out in some public
way, she would not be deserting Tien in his hour of greatest need,
would she?
Ask your soldier's heart, woman. Is deserting the night before the battle any better than deserting in the heat?
Yet
if she did not go, she tacitly acquiesced to this farce. Only ignorance
was innocence, was bliss. Knowledge was . . . anything but power.
No
one else would save her. No one else could. And even to open her lips
and whisper "help" was to choose Tien's destruction.
She sat still as stone, in silence, for a very long time.
CHAPTER EIGHT
Captain Tuomonen arranged to rendezvous with
Miles and Tien in the lobby of the Vorsoissons' residence building,
rather than at the Terraforming Project offices, a blandly sociable
gesture that did not fool Miles for a moment. The Imperial Auditor was
to be saddled with an ImpSec guard whether he'd ordered one or not, it
appeared. Miles almost looked forward to seeing the test of Tuomonen's
polite ingenuity this security determination was doubtless going to
demonstrate.
At the bubble-car platform across the
park, Miles seized the opportunity to shunt Tien into another car and
claim a private one for himself and Tuomonen, the better to decant the
night's news from him. A few early morning commuters crowded in with
the administrator, and his car slid away into the tubes. But as soon as
the next pair of Komarrans, already hesitant at the sight of the green
Imperial uniform, got close enough to make out the ImpSec eyes on the
captain's collar, they sheered off hastily from any attempt to join
Miles's little party.
"Do you always get a
bubble-car to yourself?" Miles inquired of Tuomonen as the canopy
closed and the car began to move.
"When I'm in
uniform. Works like a charm." Tuomonen smiled slightly. "But if I want
to eavesdrop on Serifosans, I make sure to wear civvies."
"Ha. So what's the status on Radovas's library this morning?"
"I
dispatched one of the compound guards last night to hand-carry it to HQ
in Solstice. Solstice is three time zones ahead of us; their analyst
should have started on it by now."
"Good." Miles's brow wrinkled. Compound guards? "Um . . . just how big is ImpSec Serifosa, Captain Tuomonen?"
"Well
. . . there's myself, my desk sergeant, and two corporals. We keep the
data base, coordinate information flow to HQ, and provide support for
any investigators HQ sends out on special projects. Then there is my
lieutenant who commands the guards at the Sector Sub-Consulate
compound. He has a unit of ten men to cover security there."
The Imperial Counselor
was how the Barrayaran Viceroy of Komarr was styled, in deference to
local custom. Miles's incognito arrival in Serifosa had excused him, or
so he'd chosen to pretend, from a courtesy call on the Counselor's
Serifosa Sector regional deputy. "Only ten men? For around the clock,
all week?"
"I'm afraid so." Tuomonen smiled wryly.
"Not much goes on in Serifosa, my lord. It was one of the least active
Domes in the Komarr Revolt, a tradition of political apathy it has
since maintained. It was the first Sector to have its occupying
Imperial garrison withdrawn. One of my Komarran in-laws facetiously
blames the lack of urban renewal in the Dome's central section on the
previous generation's failure to arrange for it to have been leveled by
Imperial forces." That aging and decrepit area was visible now in the
distance, as the car reached the top of an arc and bumped into an
intersecting tube. They rotated and began to descend toward Serifosa's
newer rim.
"Still—apathetic or not—how do you stay on top of things?"
"I
have a budget for paid informers. We used to pay them on a
piecework-basis, till I discovered that when they had no real news to
sell, they'd make some up. So I cut their numbers in half and put the
best ones on a part-time regular salary, instead. We meet about once a
week, and I give them a little security workshop and we have a gossip
swap. I try to get them to think of themselves as low-level civilian
analysts, rather than merely informers. It seems to have significantly
helped the reliability of my information flow."
"I see. Do you have anyone planted in the Terraforming Project?"
"No,
unfortunately. Terraforming is not considered security-critical. I do
have people at the shuttleport, in the Locks district, in the Dome
police, and a few in the local Dome government offices. We also cover
the power plant, atmosphere cycling, and water treatment both
independently and in cooperation with local authorities. They check
their job applicants for criminal records and psychological
instability, we check them for potentially dangerous political
associations. Terraforming has always been just too damn far down the
list for my budget to cover. I will say its employment background check
standards are among the lowest in the civil service."
"Hm. Wouldn't that policy tend to concentrate the disaffected?"
Tuomonen
shrugged. "Many intelligent Komarrans still do not love the Imperium.
They have to do something for a living. To qualify for the Terraforming
Project, it is perhaps enough that they love Komarr. They have simply
no political motivation for sabotage there."
Barto cared about the future of Komarr,
his widow had said. Might Radovas have been among the disaffected? And
if he were, so what? Miles frowned in puzzlement as the car pulled into
the stop in the station beneath the Terraforming Project offices.
As
instructed, Tien Vorsoisson was waiting for them on the platform. He
escorted them as before up through the atrium of his building to the
floors of his domain; though a few doors were open on early morning
activity in various departments as they passed, they were the first to
arrive in Vorsoisson's office.
"Do you have any
preference as to how to divide this up?" Miles asked Tuomonen, staring
around meditatively as Vorsoisson brought up the lights.
"I
managed to squeeze in a short interview with Andro Farr this morning,"
said Tuomonen. "He gave me some names of Marie Trogir's particular
acquaintances at work. I believe I'd like to start with them."
"Good.
If you want to start with Trogir, I'll start with Radovas, and we can
meet in the middle. I want to begin by interviewing his boss, Soudha, I
believe, Administrator Vorsoisson."
"Certainly, my Lord Auditor. Do you wish to use my office?"
"No, I think I want to see him in his own territory."
"I'll take you downstairs, then. I'll be at your disposal in just a moment, Captain Tuomonen."
Tuomonen seated himself at Vorsoisson's comconsole and eyed it thoughtfully. "Take your time, Administrator."
Vorsoisson,
with a worried look over his shoulder, led Miles down one flight to the
Department of Waste Heat Management. Soudha had not yet arrived; Miles
dispatched Tien back to Tuomonen, then circled the engineer's office
slowly, examining its decor and contents.
It was a
rather bare place. Perhaps the department head had another, more
occupied work area out at his experiment station. The book rack on the
wall was sparsely filled, mostly with disks on management and technical
references. There were works on space stations and their construction,
to be sure close cousins of domes, but unlike Radovas's library, no
more specialized texts on wormholes or five-space math than might be
residue from Soudha's university days.
A heavy
tread announced the room's owner; the curious look on Soudha's face to
find his office open and lit as he entered gave way to understanding as
he saw Miles.
"Ah. Good morning, Lord Auditor Vorkosigan."
"Good morning, Dr. Soudha." Miles replaced the handful of disks in their former slots.
Soudha
looked a bit tired; perhaps he was not a morning person. He gave Miles
a weary smile of greeting. "To what do I owe the honor of this visit?"
He muffled a yawn, pulled a chair up near his desk, and gave Miles a
gesture of invitation to it. "Can I get you some coffee?"
"No,
thank you." Miles sat, and let Soudha settle himself behind his
comconsole desk. "I have some unpleasant news." Soudha's face composed
itself attentively. "Barto Radovas is dead." He watched for Soudha's
response.
Soudha blinked, his lips parting in
dismay. "That's a shock. I thought he was in good health, for his age.
Was it his heart? Oh, my, poor Trogir."
"No one's
health stands up to exposure to vacuum without a pressure suit,
regardless of their age." Miles decided not to include the details of
the corpse's massive trauma, for now. "His body was found in space."
Soudha glanced up, his brows rising. "Do they think it has some connection to the soletta accident, then?"
Or why else would Miles be taking an interest, right. "Perhaps."
"Have they—what about Marie Trogir?" Soudha's lips thinned thoughtfully. "You didn't say she . . . ?"
"She's
not been found. Or not yet. The probable-cause crews are continuing
search sweeps topside, and ImpSec is now looking everywhere else. Their
next task, of course, is to try to trace the couple from the time and
place they were last seen, which was several weeks ago and here,
apparently. We'll be requesting the cooperation of your department, of
course."
"Certainly. This is … this is really a
very horrifying turn of events. I mean, regardless of one's opinion of
the way they chose to pursue their personal choices …"
"And
what is your opinion, Dr. Soudha? I'd really like to get a sense of the
man, and of Trogir. Do you have any ideas?"
Soudha
shook his head. "I confess, this turn in their relationship took me by
surprise. But I don't pry into my employees' private lives."
"So
you've said. But you worked closely with the man for five years. What
were his outside interests, his politics, his hobbies, his obsessions?"
"I
…" Soudha shrugged in frustration. "I can give you his complete work
record. Radovas was a quiet sort of fellow, never made trouble, did
first-rate technical work—"
"Yes, why did you hire him? Waste Heat Management does not appear to have been his previous specialty."
"Oh,
he had a great deal of station expertise—as you may know, getting rid
of excess heat topside is a standard engineering challenge. I thought
his technical experience might bring some new perspectives to our
problems, and I was right. I was very pleased with his work—Section Two
of the reports I gave you yesterday was mostly his, if you would like
to examine them to get a real sense of the man. Power generation and
distribution. Hydraulics, in Section Three, was mostly mine. The basis
of heat exchange through liquid transfer is most promising—"
"I've looked over your report, thanks."
Soudha
looked startled. "All of it? I had really understood Dr. Vorthys would
be wanting it. I'm afraid it's a bit thick on the technical detail."
Oh, sure, I speed-read all two hundred thousand words before bed last night.
Miles smiled blandly. "I accept your evaluation of Dr. Radovas's
technical competence. But if he was so good, why did he leave? Was he
bored, happy, frustrated? Why did this change in his personal
circumstances lead to change in his work? I don't see a necessary
connection."
"For that," said Soudha, "I'm afraid
you will have to ask Marie Trogir. I strongly suspect the driving force
in this peculiar decision came from her, though they both resigned and
left together. She had far less to lose, leaving here, in pay and
seniority and status."
"Tell me more about her."
"Well,
I truly can't. Barto hired her himself and worked with her on a daily
basis. She barely came to my attention. Her technical ability appears
to have been adequate—although, come to think of it, those evaluations
were all supplied by Barto. I don't know." Soudha rubbed his forehead.
"This is all pretty upsetting. Barto, dead. Why?" The distress
in his voice seemed genuine to Miles's experienced ear, but his shock
appeared more surprise than the deep grief from loss of a close friend;
Miles would, perhaps, have to look elsewhere for the insights into
Radovas he now sought.
"I'd like to examine Dr. Radovas's office and work areas."
"Oh. I'm afraid his office was cleared and reassigned."
"Have you replaced him?"
"Not yet. I'm still collecting applications. I hope to start interviewing soon."
"Radovas must have been friends with somebody. I want to speak with his coworkers."
"Of course, my Lord Auditor. When would you like me to set up appointments?"
"I thought I'd just drop in."
Soudha
pursed his lips. "Several of my people are on vacation, and several
more are out at the experiment station, running a small test this
morning. I don't expect them to be done before dark. But I can get you
started with the people here, and have some more in by the time you're
done with the first."
"All right. …"
With
the air of a man throwing a sacrifice to the volcano god, Soudha called
in two subordinates, whom Miles interviewed one at a time in the same
conference chamber they'd used day before yesterday for the VIP
briefing. Arozzi was a younger man, scarcely older than Miles, an
engineer who was temporarily scrambling to take over Radovas's
abandoned duties, and perhaps, he hinted, hoping for promotion into the
dead man's shoes. Would my Lord Auditor like to see some of his work?
No, he had not been close friends with his senior. No, the office
romance had been a surprise to him, but then Radovas had been a private
sort of fellow, very discreet. Trogir had been a bright woman, bright
and beautiful; Arozzi had no trouble appreciating what Radovas had seen
in her. What had she seen in Radovas? He had no idea, but then, he
wasn't a woman. Radovas dead? Dear God . . . No, he had no idea what
the man had been doing topside. Maybe the couple had been trying to
emigrate?
Cappell, the department's resident
mathematician, was hardly more useful. He was a bit older than Arozzi,
and a trifle more cynical. He took in the news of Radovas's death with
less change of expression than either Arozzi or Soudha. He hadn't been
close to Radovas or Trogir either, not on a social basis, though he
worked often with the engineer, yes, checking calculations, devising
projections. He'd be glad to show my Lord Auditor a few thousand more
pages of his work. No?
What was Trogir like?
Well-enough looking, he supposed, but rather sly. Look what she'd done
to poor Radovas, eh? Did he think Trogir might be dead as well? No,
women were like cats, they landed on their feet. No, he'd never
actually experimented with testing that old saying on live cats; he
didn't have any pets himself. Nor a wife. No, he didn't want a kitten,
thank you for the offer, my Lord Auditor. . . .
Miles
met again with Tuomonen at lunchtime over mediocre cafeteria food in
the executive dining room off the building's atrium; the displaced
executives were forced to go elsewhere. They exchanged reports on their
morning's conversations. Tuomonen hadn't found any breakthroughs either.
"No
one expressed a dislike of Trogir, but she seems damned elusive,"
Tuomonen noted. "The Waste Heat department has a reputation for keeping
itself to itself, apparently. The one woman in Waste Heat who was
supposed to be her friend didn't have much to say. I wonder if I ought
to get a female interrogator?"
"Mm, maybe. Though
I thought Komarrans were supposed to be more egalitarian about such
things. Maybe a Komarran female interrogator?" Miles sighed. "D'you
know that according to the latest statistics, half of the Barrayaran
women who take advanced schooling on Komarr don't go home again?
There's a small group of alarmist bachelors who are trying to get the
Emperor to deny them exit visas. Gregor has declined to hear their
petition."
Tuomonen smiled slightly. "Well, there's more than one solution to that problem."
"Yes,
how have your Komarran in-laws taken the announcement of the Emperor's
betrothal to the Toscane heiress?"
"Some of them
think it's romantic. Some of them think it's sharp business practice on
Emperor Gregor's part. Coming from Komarrans, that's a warm compliment,
by the way."
"Technically, Gregor owns the planet
Sergyar. You might point that out to anyone who theorizes he's marrying
Laisa for her money."
Tuomonen grinned. "Yes, but is Sergyar a liquid asset?"
"Only
in the sense of Imperial funds gurgling down the drain, according to my
father. But that's an entire other set of problems. And what do the
Barrayaran expatriates around here think of the marriage?"
"In
general, it's favored." Tuomonen smiled dryly into his coffee cup.
"Five years ago, my colleagues thought I was cutting my career throat
by my own marriage. I'd never get promoted out of Serifosa, they said.
Now I am suspected of secret genius, and they've taken to regarding me
with wary respect. I think . . . it's best if I be amused."
"Hen.
You are a wise man, Captain." Miles finished off a starchy and gelid
square of pasta-and-something, and chased it with the last of his
cooling coffee. "So what did Trogir's friends think of Radovas?"
"Well,
he's certainly managed to give a consistent impression of himself.
Nice, conscientious guy, didn't make waves, kept to Waste Heat, his
elopement a surprise to most. One woman thought it was your math fellow
Cappell who was sweet on Trogir, not Radovas."
"He
sounded more sour than sweet to me. Frustrated, perhaps?" Miles's
back-brain sketched a nice, straightforward scenario of jealous murder,
involving pushing Radovas out an airlock on a trajectory that only just
by coincidence matched that of some soletta debris. You can wish.
And anyway, it seemed more logical that any homicidal maniac wishing to
clear a path to Trogir's side ought to have started with Andro Farr,
and what the hell did any of this tragic romance have to do with an ore
freighter swinging off course and smashing into the soletta array
anyway? Unless the jealous maniac was Andro Farr … the Serifosa Dome police were supposed to be looking into that possibility.
Tuomonen
grunted. "I will say, I got more of a sense of Trogir's personality
from the few minutes I spent with Farr than I have from the rest of
this crew all morning. I want to talk with him again, I think."
"I
want to go topside, dammit. But whatever the end of the story is, up
there, it certainly has to have begun here. Well . . . onward, I guess."
Soudha
supplied Miles with more human sacrifices in the form of employees
called back from the experiment station. They all seemed more
interested in their work than in office gossip, but perhaps, Miles
reflected, that was an observer-effect. By late afternoon, Miles was
reduced to amusing himself wandering around the project offices and
terrorizing employees by taking over their comconsoles at random and
sampling data, and occasionally emitting ambiguous little "Hm …" noises
as they watched him in fearful fascination. This lacked even the
challenge of dissecting Madame Vorsoisson's comconsole, since the
government-issue machines all opened everything immediately to the
overrides in his Auditor's seal, regardless of their security
classification. He mainly learned that terraforming was an enormous
project with a centuries-long scientific and bureaucratic history, and
that any individual who attempted to sort clues through sheer mass data
assimilation had to be frigging insane.
Now, delegating that task, on the other hand . . . Who do I hate enough in ImpSec?
He
was still pondering this question as he browsed through the files on
Venier's comconsole in the Administrator's outer office. The nervous
Venier had fled after about the fourth "Hm," apparently unable to stand
the suspense. Tien Vorsoisson, who had intelligently left Miles pretty
much to his own devices all day, poked his head around the corner and
offered a tentative smile.
"My Lord Auditor? This is the hour at which I normally go home. Do you wish anything else from me?"
Departing
employees had been trickling past the open doorway for the past several
minutes, and office lights had been going out all down the corridor.
Miles sat back and stretched. "I don't think so, Administrator. I want
to look at a few more files, and talk to Captain Tuomonen. Why don't
you go on. Don't wait your dinner." A mental picture of Madame
Vorsoisson, moving gracefully about preparing delectable aromatic food
for her husband's return, flashed unbidden in his brain. He suppressed
it. "I'll be along later to collect my things." Or better yet . . .
"Or I may send one of Tuomonen's corporals for them. Give your lady
wife my best thanks for the hospitality of her household." There. That
finished that. He wouldn't even have to say good-bye to her.
"Certainly, my Lord Auditor. Do you, ah, expect to be here again tomorrow?"
"That rather depends on what turns up overnight. Good evening, Administrator."
"Good evening, my lord." Tien withdrew quietly.
A few minutes later, Tuomonen wandered in, his hands full of data disks. "Finding anything, my lord?"
"I
got all excited for a moment when I found a personal seal, but it
turned out to be just Venier's file of Barrayaran jokes. Some of them
are pretty good. Do you want a copy?"
"Is that the
one that starts out: 'ImpSec Officer: What do you mean he got away?
Didn't I tell you to cover all the exits?—ImpSec Guard: I did sir! He
walked out through one of the entrances.'"
"Yep.
And the next one goes, 'A Cetagandan, a Komarran, and a Barrayaran
walked into a genetic counselor's clinic—' "
Tuomonen grimaced. "I've seen that collection. My mother-in-law sent it to me."
"Ratting on her disaffected Komarran comrades, was she?"
"I
don't think that was her intent, no. I believe it was more of a
personal message." Tuomonen looked around the empty office and sighed.
"So, my Lord Auditor. When do we break out the fast-penta?"
"I've found nothing, here, really." Miles frowned thoughtfully. "I've found too much
of nothing here. I may have to sleep on this overnight, let my
back-brain play with it. The library analysis may provide some
direction. And I certainly want to see Waste Heat's experiment station
tomorrow morning, before I go back topside. Ah, Captain, it's tempting.
Call out the guards, descend in force, freeze everything, full
financial audit, fast-penta everyone in sight . . . turn this place
upside down and shake it. But I need a reason."
"I
would need a reason," said Tuomonen. "With full documentation, and my
career on the line if I spent that much of ImpSec's budget and guessed
wrong. But you, on the other hand, speak with the Emperor's Voice. You could call it a drill." There was no mistaking the envy in his voice.
"I could call it a quadrille." Miles smiled wryly. "It may come to that."
"I could call HQ, have them put a flying squad on alert," murmured Tuomonen suggestively.
"I'll let you know by tomorrow morning," Miles promised.
"I
need to stop by my own office and tend to some routine matters," said
Tuomonen. "Would you care to accompany me, my Lord Auditor?"
So you can guard me at your convenience?
"I still want to potter around here a bit. There's something . . .
something that's bothering me, and I haven't figured out what it is
yet. Though I would like a chance to talk to the Professor on a secured
channel before the evening is out."
"Perhaps, when you're ready to leave, you could call me and I can send one of my men to escort you."
Miles
considered refusing this ingenuous offer, but on the other hand, they
could swing by the Vorsoissons' apartment and collect Miles's clothes
on the return trip; Tuomonen would have his security, and Miles would
have a minion to carry his luggage, a win-win scenario. And having the
guard in tow would give Miles an excuse not to linger. "All right."
Tuomonen,
partially satisfied, nodded and took himself off. Miles turned his
attention to the next layer of Venier's corn-console. Who knew, maybe
there would be another joke list.
CHAPTER NINE
Ekaterin finished folding the last of Lord
Vorkosigan's clothing into his travel bag, rather more carefully than
their owner was wont to, judging from the stirred appearance of the
layers beneath. She sealed his toiletries case and fitted it in, then
the odd, gel-padded case containing that peculiar medical-looking
device. She trusted it wasn't some sort of ImpSec secret weapon.
Vorkosigan's
war story of his Sergeant Beatrice burned in Ekaterin's mind, as the
marks on her wrists seemed to burn. O fortunate man, that his missed
grasp had passed in a fraction of a second. What if he had had years to
think about it first? Hours to calculate the masses and forces and the
true arc of descent? Would it have been cowardice or courage to let go
of a comrade he could not possibly have saved, to save himself at
least? He'd had a command, he'd had responsibilities to others, too. How much would it have cost you, Captain Vorkosigan, to have opened your hands and deliberately let go?
She
closed the bag and glanced at her chrono. Getting Nikolai settled at
his friend's house "for overnight"—that first, before anything else—had
taken longer than she'd planned, as had getting the rental company to
come collect their grav-bed. Lord Vorkosigan had talked about removing
to a hotel this evening, but done nothing toward it. When he returned
with Tien, to find no dinner and his bed gone and his bags packed and
waiting in the hall, surely he would take the hint and decamp at once.
Their good-bye would be formal and permanent, and above all, brief. She
was almost out of time and had not even begun on her own things.
She
dragged Vorkosigan's bag to the vestibule and returned her workroom,
staring around at the seedlings and cuttings, lights and equipment. It
was impossible to pack all that in bag she could carry. Another garden
was going to be abandoned. At least they were getting smaller and
smaller. She'd once wanted to cultivate her marriage like a garden; one
of the legendary great Vor parks that people came from districts away
to admire for color and beauty through the changing seasons, the sort
that took decades to reach full fruition, growing richer and more
complex each year. When all other desires had died, shreds of that
ambition still lingered, to tempt her with, If only I try one more time. . . .
Her lips twisted in bleak derision. Time to admit she had a black thumb
for marriage. Plow it under, surface it with concrete, and be done.
She
began as a minimum gesture to pull her library off the wall and fit it
into a box. The urge to cram a few of her things hastily into some
shopping bag and flee before Tien returned as strong. But sooner or
later, she would have to face him. Because of Nikki, there would have
to be negotiations, formal plans, eventually legal petitions, the
uncertainty of which made her sick to her stomach. But she had been
years coming to this moment. If she could not do this now, when her
anger was high, how could she find the strength to face the rest in
colder blood?
She walked through the apartment,
staring at the objects of her life. They were few enough; the major
furnishings had all come with the place and would stay with the place.
Her spasmodic efforts at decoration, at creating some semblance of a
Barrayaran home, the hours of work—it was like deciding what to grab in
a fire, only slower. Nothing. Let it all burn. The sole awkward
exception was her great-aunt's bonsai'd skellytum. It was her one
memento of her life before Tien, and it was in the nature of a sacred
trust to the dead. Keeping something that foolish and ugly alive for
seventy and more years . . . well, it was a typical Vor woman's job.
She smiled bitterly, and brought it off the balcony into the kitchen,
and began to look around for some way to transit it. At the sound of
the hall door opening, she caught her breath, and schooled her features
to as little expression as possible.
"Kat?" Tien ducked into the kitchen and stared around, "Where's dinner?"
My first question would have been, Where's Nikolai? I wonder how long it will take that thought to come to him. "Where is Lord Vorkosigan?"
"He stayed on at the office. He'll be along later, he said, to take his things away."
"Oh."
She realized then that some tiny part of her had been hoping to conduct
the impending conversation while Vorkosigan was still finishing up in
her workroom or something; his presence providing some margin of
safety, of social restraint upon Tien. Maybe it was better this way.
"Sit down, Tien. I have to talk with you."
He
raised dubious brows, but sat at the head of the table, around to her
left. She would have preferred to have him opposite her.
"I am leaving you tonight."
"What?" His astonishment appeared genuine. "Why?"
She
hesitated, reluctant to be drawn into argument. "I suppose . . .
because I have come to the end of myself." Only now, looking back over
the long draining years, did she become aware of how much of her there
had been to use up. No wonder it had taken so long. All gone now.
"Why . . . why now?" At least he didn't say, You must be joking.
"I don't understand, Kat." She could see him begin to grope, not toward
understanding, but away from it, as far away as possible. "Is it the
Vorzohn's Dystrophy? Damn, I knew—"
"Don't be
stupid, Tien. If that was the issue, I'd have left years ago. I took
oath to you in sickness and health."
He frowned and sat back, his brows lowering. "Is there someone else? There's someone else, isn't there!"
"I'm
sure you wish there were. Because then it would be because of them, and
not because of you." Her voice was level, utterly flat. Her stomach
churned.
He was obviously shocked, and beginning to shake a little. "This is madness. I don't understand."
"I have nothing more to say." She began to rise, wishing nothing more than to be gone at once, away from him. You could have done this over the comconsole, you know.
No. I took my oath in the flesh. I will break it to pieces in the same way.
He rose with her, and his hand closed over hers, gripping it, stopping her. "There's more to it."
"You
would know more about that than I would, Tien." He hesitated now,
beginning, she thought, to be really afraid. This might not be any
safer for her. He's never hit me yet, I'll give him that much credit. Part of her almost wished he had. Then there would have been clarity, not this endless muddle. "What do you mean?"
"Let go of me."
"No."
She
considered his hand on hers, tight but not grinding. But still much
stronger than her own. He was half a head taller and outweighed her by
thirty kilos. She did not feel as much physical fear as she had thought
she would. She was too numb, perhaps. She raised her face to his. Her
voice grew edged. "Let go of me."
A little to her
surprise, he did so, his hand flexing awkwardly. "You have to tell me
why. Or I'll believe it's to go to some lover."
"I no longer care what you believe."
"Is he Komarran? Some damned Komarran?"
Goading
her in the usual spot, and why not? It had worked before to bring her
into line. It half-worked still. She had sworn to herself that she
wasn't even going to bring up the subject of Tien's actions and
inactions. Complaint was a tacit plea for help, for reform, for …
continuation. Complaint was to attempt to shuffle off the
responsibility for action onto another. To act was to obliterate the
need for complaint. She would act, or not act. She would not whine. Still in that dead-level voice, she said, "I found out about your trade shares, Tien."
His
mouth opened, and shut again. After a moment he said, "I can make it
up. I know what went wrong now. I can make the losses up again."
"I
don't think so. Where did you get that forty thousand marks, Tien." Her
lack of inflection made it not a question.
"I …"
She could watch it in his face, as he ratcheted over his choice of
lies. He settled on a fairly simple one. "Part I saved, part I
borrowed. You're not the only one who can scrimp, you know."
"From Administrator Soudha?"
He flinched at the name, but said ingenuously, "How did you know?"
"It
doesn't matter, Tien. I'm not going to turn you in." She stared at him
in weariness. "I take no part in you anymore."
He paced, agitated, back and forth across the kitchen, his face working. "I did it for you," he said at last.
Yes. Now he will attempt to make me feel guilty. All my fault. It was as familiar as the steps of some well-practiced, poisonous dance. She watched silently.
"All
for you. You wanted money. I worked my tail off, but it was never
enough for you, was it?" His voice rose, as he tried to lash himself
into a relieving, self-righteous anger. It fell a little flat to her
experienced ear. "You pushed me into taking a chance, with your endless
nagging and worrying. So it didn't work, and now you want to punish me,
is that it? You'd have been quick enough to make up to me if it had
paid off."
He was very good at this, she had to
admit, his accusations echoing her own dark doubts. She listened to his
patterned litany with a sort of detached appreciation, like a torture
victim, gone beyond pain unbeknownst, admiring the color of her own
blood. Now he will attempt to make me feel sorry for him. But I'm done feeling sorry. I'm done feeling anything.
"Money money money, is that what this is all about? What is it that you want to buy so damned much, Kat?"
Your health, as you may recall. And Nikki's future. And mine.
As
he paced, sputtering, his eye fell on the bright red skellytum, sitting
in its basin on the kitchen table. "You don't love me. You only love
yourself. Selfish, Kat! You love your damned potted plants more than you love me. Here, I'll prove it to you."
He
snatched up the pot and pressed the control for the door to the
balcony. It opened a little too slowly for his dramatic timing, but he
strode through nonetheless, and whirled to face her. "Which shall it be
to go over the railing, Kat? Your precious plant, or me? Choose!"
She neither spoke nor moved. Now he will attempt to terrify me with suicide gestures. This made, what, the fourth time around for that ploy? His trump card, which had always before ended the game in his favor.
He
brandished the skellytum high. "Me, or it?" He watched her face,
waiting for her to break. An almost clinical curiosity prompted her to
say You, just to see how he would wriggle out of his challenge, but she
kept silent still. When she did not speak, he hesitated in confusion
for a moment, then launched the ancient absurd thing over the side.
Five floors up.
She counted the seconds in her head, waiting for the crash from below.
It came as more of a distant, sodden thump, mixed with the crack of
exploding pottery.
"You ass, Tien. You didn't even look to see if there was anyone below."
With
a look of sudden alarm that almost made her want to laugh, he peeked
fearfully over the side. Apparently he hadn't managed to kill anyone
after all, for he inhaled deeply and turned back toward her, taking a
few steps through the open airseal door into the kitchen, but not too
near to her. "React, damn you! What do I have to do to get through to
you?"
'Don't bother," she said levelly. "I cannot
imagine anything you could do that would make me more angry than I am."
He had come to the end of his menu of tactics and stood a loss. His voice grew smaller. "What do you want?"
"I want my honor back. But you cannot give it to me."
His
voice grew smaller still; his hands opened in pleading. "I'm sorry
about your aunt's skellytum. I don't know at …"
"Are you sorry about grand theft and petty treason, bribery and peculation?"
"I did it for you, Kat!"
"In
eleven years," she said slowly, "you have apparently never figured out
who I am. I don't understand that. How you can live with someone so
intimately, so long, and yet never know them. Maybe you were living
with some Kat holovid projection from your own mind, I don't know."
"What do you want,
dammit? It's not like I can go back. I can't confess. That would be
public dishonor! For me, you, Nikki, your uncle—you can't want that!"
"I
want never to have to tell a lie again for as long as I live. What you
do is your problem." She took a deep breath. "But know this. Whatever
you do, or don't do, from now on had better be for yourself. Because it
won't touch ." Done once, done for all time. She was never going
through this again.
"I can—I can fix it."
Was he referring to her skellytum, their marriage, his crime? Wrong anyway, in all cases.
When she still did not respond, he blurted desperately, "Nikolai is mine, by Barrayaran law."
Interesting.
Nikki was the one tactic he had never employed before, off limits. She
knew then how deathly serious he knew her to be. Good. He glanced
around, and added belatedly, here is Nikki?"
"Someplace safer."
"You can't keep him from me!"
I can if you're in prison.
She didn't bother saying it aloud. Under the circumstances, Tien was
perhaps unlikely to challenge her possession of Nikki before the law.
But she wanted to keep Nikolai's concerns as far separated as possible
from the ugliest part of this thing. She would not start that war, but
if Tien dared to do so, she would finish it. She watched him more
coldly than ever.
"I will fix it. I can. I have a plan. I've been thinking about all day."
Tien with a plan was about as reassuring as a two-year-old with a charged plasma arc. No. You are not to take responsibility for him anymore. That's what this is all about, remember? Let go. "Do whatever you wish, Tien. I'm going to go finish packing now."
"Wait—"
He swung around her. It disturbed her to have him between her and the
door, but she did not let her fear show. "Wait. I'll make it up. You'll
see. I'll fix it. Wait here!"
With an anxious wave of his hands, he made for the hall door, and was gone.
She
listened to his retreating footsteps. Only when she heard the faint
whisper from the lift tube did she step back onto the balcony and look
over. Far below, the shattered remains of her skellytum made an
irregular wet blotch on the pavement, the broken scarlet tendrils
looking like spattered blood. A passer-by was staring curiously at it.
After a minute, she saw Tien emerge from the building and stride across
the park toward the bubble-car platform, almost breaking into a run
from time to time. He twice looked back up toward their balcony, over
his shoulder; she stepped back into the shadows. He disappeared into
the station.
Every muscle of her body seemed to be
spasming with tension. She felt close to vomiting. She returned to
her—to the kitchen, and drank a glass of water, which helped settle her
breathing and her stomach. She went to her work room to fetch a basket
and some plastic sheeting and a trowel, to go scrape the mess off the
walkway five floors down.
CHAPTER TEN
Miles sat at Administrator Vorsoisson's
comconsole desk, methodically reading through the files of all the
employees of the Waste Heat department. There seemed to be a lot of
personnel, compared to some of the other departments; Waste Heat was
definitely a favored child in the Project budget. Presumably most of
them spent the bulk of their time out at the experiment station, since
Waste Heat's offices here were modest. In hindsight, always acute,
Miles wished he'd begun his survey of Radovas's life out there today,
where there might have been some action to observe, instead of in this
tower of bureaucratic boredom. More, he wished he'd dropped in on the
experiment station during their first tour . . . well, no. He would not
have known what to look for then.
And you know now?
He shook his head in wry dismay and brought up another file. Tuomonen
had taken a copy of the personnel list, and in due time would be
interviewing most of these people, unless something happened to take
the investigation off in another direction. Such as finding Marie
Trogir—that was the first item now on Miles's wish list for ImpSec.
Miles shifted to ease the twinge in his back; he could feel his body
stiffening from sitting still in a cool room too long. Didn't these
Serifosans know they needed to waste more heat?
Quick
steps in the hallway paused and turned in at the outer office, and
Miles glanced up. Tien Vorsoisson, a little out of breath, hung a
moment in his office doorway, then plunged inside. He was carrying two
heavy jackets, his own and the one of his wife's that Miles had used
the other day, and a breath mask labeled Visitor, Medium. He smiled at Miles in suppressed agitation. "My Lord Auditor. So glad to still find you here."
Miles
shut down the file and regarded Vorsoisson with interest. "Hello,
Administrator. What brings you back tonight?"
"You, my lord. I need to talk with you right away. I have to … to show you something I've discovered."
Miles
opened his hand, indicating the comconsole, but Vorsoisson shook his
head. "Not here, my lord. Out at the Waste Heat experiment station."
Ah ha. "Right now?"
"Yes,
tonight, while everyone is gone." Vorsoisson laid the spare breath mask
on the comconsole, rummaged in a cabinet in the far wall, and came up
with his own personal mask. He yanked the straps over his neck and
hastily adjusted his chest harness to hold the supplementary oxygen
bottle in place. "I've requisitioned a lightflyer, it's waiting
downstairs."
"All right …" Now what was this going
to be all about? Too much to hope Vorsoisson had found Marie Trogir
locked in a closet out there. Miles checked his own mask—power and
oxygen levels indicated it was fully recharged—and slipped it on. He
took a couple of breaths in passing, to test its correct function, then
slid it down out of the way under his chin and shrugged on the jacket.
"This
way …" Vorsoisson led off with long strides, which annoyed Miles
considerably; he declined to run to keep up with the man. The
Administrator perforce waited for him at the lift tube, bouncing on his
heels in impatience. This time, when they reached the garage sub-level,
the vehicle was ready. It was a less-than-luxurious government issue
two-passenger flyer, but appeared to be in perfectly good condition.
Miles was less certain of the driver. "What's this all about, Vorsoisson?"
Vorsoisson
put his hand on the canopy and regarded Miles with an intensity of
expression that was almost alarming. "What are the rules for declaring
oneself an Imperial Witness?"
"Well . . . various,
I suppose, depending on the situation." Miles was not, he realized
belatedly, nearly as well up on the fine points of Barrayaran law as an
Imperial Auditor ought to be. He needed to do more reading. "I mean … I
don't think it's exactly something one does for oneself. It's usually
negotiated between a potential witness and whatever prosecuting
authority is in charge of the criminal case." And rarely. Since
the end of the Time of Isolation, with the importation of fast-penta
and other galactic interrogation drugs, the authorities no longer had
to bargain for truthful testimony, normally.
"In
this case, the authority is you," said Tien. "The rules are whatever
you say they are, aren't they? Because you are an Imperial Auditor."
"Uh . . . maybe."
Vorsoisson
nodded in satisfaction, raised the canopy, and slid into the pilot's
seat. With reluctant fascination, Miles levered himself in beside him.
He fastened his safety harness as the flyer lifted and glided toward
the garage's vehicle lock.
"And why do you ask?"
Miles probed delicately. Vorsoisson had all the air of a man anxious to
spill something very interesting indeed. Not for three worlds did Miles
wish to frighten him off at this point. At the same time, Miles would
have to be extremely cautious about what he promised. He's your fellow Auditor's nephew-in-law. You've just stepped onto an ethical tightrope.
Vorsoisson
did not answer right away, instead powering the lightflyer up into the
night sky. The lights of Serifosa brightened the faint feathery clouds
of valuable moisture above, which occluded the stars. But as they shot
away from the dome city, the glowing haze thinned and the stars came
out in force. The landscape away from the dome was very dark, devoid of
the villages and homesteads that carpeted less climatically hostile
worlds. Only a monorail streaked away to the southwest, a faint pale
line against the barren ground.
"I believe,"
Vorsoisson said at last, and swallowed. "I believe I have finally
accumulated enough evidence of an attempted crime against the Imperium
for a successful prosecution. I hope I haven't waited too long, but I
had to be sure."
"Sure of what?"
"Soudha has tried to bribe me. I'm not absolutely certain that he didn't bribe my predecessor, too."
"Oh? Why?"
"Waste
Heat Management. The whole department is a scam, a hollow shell. I'm
not really sure how long they've been able to keep this bubble going.
They had me fooled for … for months. I mean … a building full
of equipment on a quiet day, how was I supposed to know what it did? Or
didn't do? Or that there weren't anything but quiet days?"
"How long—" have you known, Miles bit off. That question was premature. "Just what are they doing?"
"They're
bleeding off money from the project. For all I know, it may have
started small, or by accident—some departed employee mistakenly kept on
the roster, an accumulation of pay that Soudha figured out how to
pocket. Ghost employees—his department is full of fictitious employees,
all drawing pay. And equipment purchases for the ghost employees—Soudha
suborned some woman in Accounting to go along with him. They have all
the forms right, all the numbers match, they've slid it through I don't
know how many fiscal inspections, because the accountants HQ sends out
don't know how check the science, only the forms."
"Who does check the science?"
That's the thing, my Lord Auditor. The Terraforming Project isn't expected
to produce quick results, not in any immediately measurable way. Soudha
produces technical reports, all right, plenty of them, right to
schedule, but I think he mostly does them by copying other sectors'
previous-period results and fudging."
Indeed, the
Komarran Terraforming Project was a bureaucratic backwater, far down
the Barrayaran Imperium's urgent list. Not critical: a good place to
park, say, incompetent Vor second sons out of the way of their
families. Where they could do no harm to anyone, because the project
was vast and slow, and they would cycle out and be gone again before
the damage could even be measured. "Speaking of ghost employees—how
does Radovas's death connect with this alleged scam?"
Vorsoisson
hesitated. "I'm not sure it does. Except to draw ImpSec down on it and
burst the bubble. After all, he quit days before he died."
"Soudha
said he quit. Soudha, according to you, is a proven liar and data
artist. Could Radovas have, say, threatened to expose Soudha and been
murdered to assure his silence?"
"But Radovas was in on it. For years. I mean, all the technical people had to know. They couldn't not know they weren't doing the work the reports said."
"Mm,
that may depend on how much of an artistic genius Soudha was, arranging
his reports." Soudha's own personnel certainly suggested that he was
neither stupid nor second-rate. Might he have cooked those records as
well? Oh, God. This means I'm not going to be able to trust any data off any console in the whole damned department. And he'd wasted hours today, decanting comconsoles. "Radovas might have had change of heart."
"I don't know,"
said Vorsoisson plaintively. His glance flicked aside to Miles. "I want
you to remember, I found this. I turned him in. Just as soon as I was
sure." His repeated insistence on that last point hinted broadly to
Miles's ear that his knowledge of this fascinating piece of peculation
predated his assurance by a noticeable margin. Had Soudha's bribe been
not just offered, but accepted? Till the bubble burst. Was Miles
witnessing an outbreak of patriotic duty on Vorsoisson's part, or an
unseemly rush to get Soudha and Company before they got him?
"I'll
remember," Miles said neutrally. Belatedly, it occurred to him that
going off alone in the night with Vorsoisson to some deserted outpost,
without even pausing to inform Tuomonen, might not be the brightest
thing he'd ever done. Still, he doubted Vorsoisson would be nearly this
forthcoming in the ImpSec captain's presence. It might be as well not
to be too blunt with Vorsoisson about his chances of slithering out of
this mess till they were safely back in Serifosa, preferably in the
presence of Tuomonen and a couple of nice big ImpSec goons. Miles's
stunner was a reassuring lump in his pocket. He would check in with
Tuomonen via his wrist comm link as soon as he could arrange a quiet
moment out of Vorsoisson's earshot.
"And tell Kat," Vorsoisson added.
Huh? What had Madame Vorsoisson to do with any of this? "Let's see this evidence of yours, then talk about it."
"What
you'll mainly see is an absence of evidence, my lord," said Vorsoisson.
"A great empty facility . . . there."
Vorsoisson
banked the lightflyer, and they began to descend toward the Waste Heat
experiment station. It was well lit with plenty of outdoor floodlamps,
switched on automatically at dusk Miles presumed, and in high contrast
to the surrounding dark. As they drew closer, Miles saw that its
parking lot was not deserted; half a dozen lightflyers and aircars
clustered in the landing circles. Windows glowed warmly here and there
in the small office building, and more lights snaked through the
airsealed tubes between sections. There were two big lift vans, one
backing now into an opened loading bay in the large windowless
engineering building.
"It looks pretty busy to me," said Miles. "For a hollow shell."
"I don't understand," said Vorsoisson.
Vegetation
which actually stood higher than Miles's ankle struggled successfully
against the cold here, but it was not quite abundant enough to conceal
the lightflyer. Miles almost told Vorsoisson to douse the flyer's
lights and bring them down out of sight over a small rise, despite the
hike back it would entail. But Vorsoisson was already dropping toward
an empty landing circle in the parking lot. He landed and killed the
engine, and stared uncertainly toward the facility.
"Maybe
. . . maybe you had better stay out of sight, at first," said
Vorsoisson in worry. "They shouldn't mind me."
He
was apparently unconscious of the world of self-revelation in this
simple statement. They both adjusted their breath masks, and Vorsoisson
popped the canopy. The chill night air licked Miles's exposed skin,
above his breath mask, and prickled in his scalp. He dug his hands into
his pockets as if to warm them, touched his stunner briefly, and
followed the Administrator, a little behind him. Staying out of sight
was one thing; letting Vorsoisson out of his sight was another.
"Try
looking in the Engineering building first," Miles called, his voice
muffled by his mask. "See if we can get a look at what's going on
before you make contact with the en—er, try to speak to anyone."
Vorsoisson
veered toward the loading bay's vehicle lock. Miles wondered if there
was a chance anyone glancing out in the uncertain lighting might
mistake him at first for Nikolai. The combination of Vorsoisson's
dramatic mystery and his own natural paranoia was making him twitchy
indeed, despite a better part of his mind that calculated high odds on
a harmless scenario involving Vorsoisson being wildly mistaken.
They
entered the pedestrian lock into the loading dock and cycled through.
The pressure differential in his ears was slight. Miles kept his breath
mask up temporarily as they rounded the parked lift van. He would call
Tuomonen as soon as he ditched—
Miles skidded to a
halt a moment too late to avoid being spotted in turn by the couple who
stood quietly next to a float-pallet loaded with machinery. The woman,
who had the pallet's control lead in her hand as she maneuvered the
silently hovering load into the van, was Madame Radovas. The man was
Administrator Soudha. They both looked up in shock at their unexpected
visitors.
Miles was torn for a moment between
whacking his wrist-comm's screamer circuit or going for his stunner;
but at Soudha's sudden movement toward his own vest Miles's combat
reflexes took over, and his hand dove for his pocket. Vorsoisson
half-turned, his mouth round with astonishment and the beginning of
some warning cry. Miles would have thought I've just been led into ambush by that idiot, except that Vorsoisson was clearly much more surprised than he was.
Soudha managed to get his stunner out and pointed a half second before Miles did. Oh, shit, I never asked Dr. Chenko what a stunner blast would do to my seizure stimulator—
the stunner beam took him full in the face. His head snapped back in an
agony that was mercifully brief. He was unconscious before he hit the
concrete floor.
Miles woke with a stunner migraine
pinwheeling behind his eyes, metallic splinters of pure pain seemingly
stuck quivering in his brain from his frontal lobes to his spinal
column. He closed his eyes immediately against the too-bright glare of
lights. He was nauseated to the point of vomiting. The realization
immediately following, that he was still wearing his breath mask,
caused his spacer's training to cut in; he swallowed and breathed
deeply, carefully, and the dangerous moment passed. He was cold, and
held upright in an awkward position by restraints pulling on his arms.
He opened his eyes again and looked around.
He was
outdoors in the chill Komarran dark, chained to a railing along the
walkway on the blank side of what appeared to be the Waste Heat
engineering building. Colored floodlights positioned in the vegetation
two meters below, prettily illuminating the building and raised
concrete walk, were the source of the eye-piercing light. Beyond them,
the view was singularly uninformative, the ground falling away from the
building and then rising, beyond it, into blank barrenness. The railing
was a simple one, metal posts set into the concrete at meter intervals
and a round metal handrail running between them. He was slumped to his
knees, the concrete hard and cold beneath them, and his wrists were
chained—chained? yes, chained, the links fastened with simple metal
locks—to two successive posts, holding him half-spread-eagled.
His
ImpSec comm-link was still strapped to his left wrist. He could not, of
course, reach it with his right hand. Or– he tried—his head. He twisted
his wrist around, to press it against the railing, but the
screamer-button was recessed to prevent accidental bumps setting it
off. Miles swore under his breath, and his breath mask. The mask
appeared to be tightly fitted to his face, and he could feel the oxygen
bottle still firmly strapped to his chest under his jacket—who had
fastened his jacket up to his chin?—but he would have to be exquisitely
careful not to jostle the mask till he had his hands free again to
readjust it.
So … had the stunner beam induced a
seizure while he was unconscious, or was he still working up to one?
His next was almost due. He stopped swearing abruptly and took a couple
of deep, calming breaths that fooled his body not at all.
A
couple of meters to his right, he discovered Tien Vorsoisson similarly
chained between two upright posts. His head lolled forward; he
evidently wasn't awake yet. Miles tried to convince the knot of
stressed terror in his solar plexus that this bit of cosmic justice was
at least one bright point in the affair. He smiled grimly under his
mask. All things considered, he'd rather Vorsoisson were free and able
to try for help. Better still, leave Vorsoisson fastened there, free himself to try for help. But twisting his hands in their tight chains merely scraped his wrists raw.
If they wanted to kill you, you'd be dead now,
he tried to convince his hyperventilating body. Unless, of course, they
were sadists, out for a slow and studied revenge. . . . What did I ever do to these people? Besides the usual offense of being Barrayaran in general and Aral Vorkosigan's son in particular. . . .
Minutes
crept by. Vorsoisson stirred and groaned, then fell back into flaccid
unconsciousness, at least assuring Miles he wasn't dead. Yet. At
length, the sound of footsteps on the concrete made Miles turn his head
carefully.
Because of the approaching figure's
breath mask and padded jacket Miles was not at first sure if it was a
man or a woman, but as it neared he recognized the curly gray-blond
hair and brown eyes of a woman who'd been at that first VIP orientation
meeting—it was the accountant, the meticulous one who'd been sure to
have a duplicate copy of her department's records for Miles, hah. Foscol, read the name on her breath mask.
She
saw his open eyes. "Oh, good evening, Lord Auditor Vorkosigan." She
raised her voice to a good loud clarity, to be sure her words
penetrated the muffling of her mask.
"Good
evening, Madame Foscol," he managed in return, matching her tone. If
only he could get her talking, and listening—
She
drew her hand from her pocket, and held up something glittering and
metallic. "This is the key to your wrist locks. I'll set it over here,
out of the way." She placed it carefully on the concrete walkway about
halfway between Miles and the Administrator, next to the wall of the
building. "Don't let anyone accidentally kick it over the side. You'd
have a heck of a time finding it down there." She glanced thoughtfully
over the rail at the dark vegetation below.
Implying
that someone might be expected: a rescue party? Also implying that
Foscol, Soudha, and Madame Radovas– Madame Radovas, what is she doing here?— did not expect to be around to supply the key in person when that happened.
She
rummaged in her pocket again and came up with a data disk wrapped in
protective plastic. "This, my Lord Auditor, is the complete record of
Administrator Vorsoisson's acceptance of bribes, in the amount of some
sixty thousand marks over the last eight months. Account numbers, data
trail, where his money was embezzled in the first place—everything you
should need for a successful prosecution. I'd been going to mail it to
Captain Tuomonen, but this is better." Her eyes crinkled in a smile at
him, above her breath mask. She bent and taped it securely to the back
of Vorsoisson's jacket. "With my compliments, my lord." She stepped
back and dusted her hands in the gesture of a dirty job well done.
"What are you doing?" Miles began. "What are you people doing out here, anyway? Why is Madame Radovas with—"
"Come,
come, Lord Vorkosigan," Foscol interrupted him briskly. "You don't
imagine that I'm going to stand around and chat with you, do you?"
Vorsoisson
stirred, groaned, and belched. Despite the utter contempt in her eyes,
lingering on his huddled figure, she waited a moment to be sure he
wasn't going to vomit into his breath mask. Vorsoisson stared wearily
at her, blinking in bewilderment and, Miles had no doubt, pain.
Miles
clenched his fists and jerked against his chains. Foscol glanced at him
and added kindly, "Don't hurt yourself, trying to get loose. Someone
will be along eventually to collect you. I only regret I won't be able
to watch." She turned on her heel and strode away, down the walk and
around the corner of the building. After another minute, the faint
sounds of a lift-van taking to the air drifted around the building. But
they were on the opposite side of the building to the approach from
Serifosa, and the departing van did not cross into Miles's limited line
of sight.
Soudha's a competent engineer. I wonder if he's set the reactor here to destroy itself?
was the next inspired thought to enter Miles mind. That would erase all
the evidence, Vorsoisson, and Miles, too. If he timed it just right,
Soudha might be able to take out the ImpSec rescue squad as well . . .
but it seemed Foscol meant the evidence pinned to Vorsoisson's back to
survive, at least, which argued against a scenario that would turn the
experiment station into a glowing glass hole in the landscape
resembling the lost city of Vorkosigan Vashnoi. Soudha and Company did
not seem to be thinking militarily. Thank God. This scene seemed
engineered for maximum humiliation, and one could not embarrass the
dead.
Their next-of-kin, however . . . Miles
thought of his father and shuddered. And Ekaterin and Nikolai, and, of
course, Lord Auditor Vorthys. Oh, yes.
Vorsoisson,
coming to full consciousness at last, reared up and discovered the
limits of his bonds. He swore muzzily, then with increasing clarity of
expression, and yanked his arms against their chains. After about a
minute, he stopped. He stared around and found Miles.
"Vorkosigan. What the hell is going on here?"
"We
appear to have been parked out of the way while Soudha and his friends
finish decamping from the experiment station. They seem to have
realized their time had run out." Miles wondered if he ought to mention
to Vorsoisson what was taped to his back, then decided against it. The
man was already breathing heavily from his struggles. Vorsoisson swore
some more, monotonously, but after a bit seemed to become aware that he
was repeating himself, and ran down.
"Tell me more
about this embezzlement scheme of Soudha's," Miles said into the eerie
silence. No insect or bird chirps enlivened the Komarran night, and no
tree leaves rustled in the faint, chill breeze. No further sounds came
from the buildings behind them. The only noise was the susurration of
their breath masks' powered fans, filters, and regulators. "When did
you find out about it?"
"Just . . . yesterday. A
week ago yesterday. Soudha panicked, I think, and tried to bribe me. I
didn't want to embarrass Kat's Uncle Vorthys by blowing it wide open
while he was here. And I had to be sure, before I started accusing
people right and left."
Foscol says you lie.
Miles wasn't sure which of them he trusted least by now. Foscol could
have invented her evidence against Vorsoisson using the same skills she
had apparently called on to hide Soudha's thefts. He would have to let
the ImpSec forensic specialists sort it out, and carefully.
Miles
simultaneously sympathized with and was deeply suspicious of
Vorsoisson's claimed hesitation, a dizzying state of mind to endure on
top of a stunner migraine. He had never thought of fast-penta as a
medicine for headache, but he wished he had a hypospray of it to jab in
Vorsoisson's ass right now. Later, he promised himself. Without fail. "Is that all that's going on, d'you think?"
"What do you mean, all?"
"I
don't quite … if I were Soudha and his group, fleeing the scene of our
crime . . . they did have some lead time to prepare their retreat.
Maybe as long as three or four weeks, if they knew Radovas's body was
likely to be found topside." And what the hell was Radovas's body doing up there anyway? I still don't have a clue.
"Longer, if they kept their emergency backup plans up to date, and
Soudha is an engineer if ever I met one; he's got to have had
fail-safes incorporated into his schemes. Wouldn't it make more sense
to scatter, travel light, try to get out of the Empire in ones and twos
. . . not leave in a bunch with two lift-vans full of … whatever the
hell they needed two lift-vans to transport? Not their money, surely."
Vorsoisson
shook his head, which shifted his breath mask slightly; he had to rub
his face against the railing to reseat it. After a few minutes he said
in a small voice, "Vorkosigan . . . ?"
Miles hoped
from the humbler tone the man might be going to edge toward true
confession after all. "Yes?" he said encouragingly.
"I'm almost out of oxygen."
"Didn't
you check—" Miles tried to bring up the image in his pulsing brain of
the moment Vorsoisson had snatched his breath mask out of the cabinet,
back in his office, and donned it. No. He hadn't checked anything about
it. A fully-charged mask would support twelve to fourteen hours of
vigorous outdoor activity, under normal circumstances. Miles's
visitor's mask had presumably been taken from a central store, where
some tech had the job of processing and recharging used masks before
setting them on the rack ready for reuse. Don't forget to put your mask on the recharger,
Vorsoisson's wife had said to him, and been snapped at for nagging. Was
Vorsoisson in the habit of stuffing his equipment away uncleaned? In
his office, Madame Vorsoisson couldn't very well pick up after him the
way she doubtless did at home.
At one time, Miles
could have crushed his own fragile hand bones and drawn his hand out
through a restraint before his flesh began to swell enough to trap it
again. He'd actually done that once, on a hideously memorable occasion.
But the bones in his hands were all sturdy synthetics now, less
breakable even than normal bone. All that his applied strength could do
was make his chafed wrists bleed.
Vorsoisson's wrists began to bleed too, as he struggled more frantically against his chains.
"Vorsoisson,
hold still!" Miles called urgently to him. "Conserve your oxygen.
There's supposed to be someone coming. Go limp, breathe shallowly, make
it last." Why hadn't the idiot mentioned this earlier, to Miles, to Foscol even . . . had Foscol intended this result? Maybe she'd meant both Miles and Vorsoisson to die, one after the other . . . how long
till the promised someone came to collect them? A couple of days?
Murdering an Imperial Auditor in the middle of a case was considered an
act of treason worse than murdering a ruling District Count and only
barely short of assassinating the Emperor himself. Nothing could be
more surely calculated to send ImpSec's entire forces in frenzied
pursuit of the fleeing embezzlers, with an implacable concentration
reaching, potentially, across decades and distance and diplomatic
barriers. It was a suicidal gesture, or unbelievably foolhardy. "How
much do you have left?"
Vorsoisson wriggled his
chin and tried to peer down over his nose into the dim recesses of his
jacket to see the top of the canister strapped there. "Oh, God. I think
it's reading zero."
"Those things always have some safety margin. Stay still, man! Try for some self-control!"
Instead
Vorsoisson began to struggle ever more frantically. He threw himself
forward and backward with all his considerable strength, trying to
break the railing. Blood drops flew from the flayed skin of his wrists,
and the railing reverberated and bent, but it did not break. He pulled
up his knees and then flung himself down through the meter-wide opening
between the posts, trying to propel his full body weight against the
chains. They held, and then his backward-scrambling legs could not
regain the walkway. His boot heels scraped and scrabbled on the wall.
His dizzied choking, at the last, led to vomiting inside his breath
mask. When it slipped down around his neck in his final paroxysms, it
seemed almost a mercy, except for the way it revealed his distorted,
purpling features. But the screams and pleas stopped, and then the
gasps and gulpings. The kicking legs twitched, and hung limply.
Miles
had been right; Vorsoisson might have had a full twenty or thirty
minutes more oxygen if he had hunkered down quietly. Miles stood very
still, and breathed very shallowly, and shivered in the cold.
Shivering, he recalled dimly, used more oxygen, but he could not make
himself stop. The silence was profound, broken only by the hiss of
Miles's regulators and filters, and the beating of the blood in his own
ears. He had seen many deaths, including his own, but this was surely
one of the ugliest. The shocky shudders traveled up and down his body,
and his thoughts spun uselessly: they kept circling back to the
spuriously calm observation that a barrel of fast-penta would be no
damned use to him now.
If he went into a
convulsion and dislodged his breath mask in the process, he could be
well on his way to asphyxiating before he even returned to
consciousness. ImpSec would find him hanging there beside Vorsoisson,
choked identically on his own spew. And nothing was more likely to set
off one of his seizures than stress.
Miles watched
the slime begin to freeze on the sagging corpse's face, scanned the
dark skies in the wrong direction, and waited.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
Ekaterin set down her cases next to Lord
Vorkosigan's in the vestibule, and turned for one last automatic check
of the premises, one last patrol of her old life. All lights were out.
All windows were sealed. All appliances were off … the comconsole
chimed just as she was leaving the kitchen.
She hesitated. Let it go. Let it all go.
But then she reflected it might be Tuomonen or someone, trying to reach
Lord Vorkosigan. Or Uncle Vorthys, though she was not sure she even
wanted to talk to him, tonight. She turned back to the machine, but her
hand hesitated again with the thought that it might be Tien. In that case, I will simply cut the com.
If it was Tien, about to attempt some other plea or threat or
persuasion, at least it was a guarantee he was someplace else, and not
here, and she could still walk away.
But the face
that formed over the vid-plate at her reluctant touch was that of a
Komarran woman from Tien's department, Lena Foscol. Ekaterin had only
met her in person a couple of times, but Soudha's words over this same
vid-plate last night leapt to her mind: Lena Foscol in Accounting is the most meticulous thief I've ever met. Oh, God. She was one of them.
The background was out of focus, but the woman was wearing a parka,
thrown open over dome-wear, suggesting she was either on her way to or
on her way back from some outside expedition. Ekaterin regarded her
with concealed revulsion.
"Madame Vorsoisson?"
Foscol said brightly. Without waiting for Ekaterin's answer, she went
on, "Please come pick up your husband at the Waste Heat experiment
station. He'll be waiting for you outside on the northwest side of the
Engineering building."
"But—" What was Tien doing
out there at this time of night? "How did he get out there, doesn't he
have a flyer? Can't he get a ride back with someone else?"
"Everyone else has left." Her smile widened, and she cut the com.
"But—" Ekaterin raised a hand in futile protest, too late. "Drat." And then, after a moment, "Damn it!"
Retrieving
Tien from the experiment station would be a two-hour chore, at least.
She would first have to take a bubble-car to a public flyer livery, and
rent a flyer, since she had no authority to requisition one from Tien's
department. She'd been seriously considering sleeping on a park bench
tonight, just to save her pittance of funds for the uncertain days to
come until she found some form of paying work, except that the dome
patrollers didn't permit vagrants to loiter in any of the places where
she might feel safe. Foscol hadn't said if Lord Vorkosigan was with
Tien, which suggested he was not, which meant that she'd have to fly
back to Serifosa alone with Tien, who would insist on taking the
controls, and what if he finally got serious about his suicide threats
when they were halfway back, and decided to take her down with him? No.
It wasn't worth the risk. Let him rot out there till morning, or let
him call someone else.
Her hand upon her case
again, she reconsidered. Still hostage to fortune in this mess, or at
least to everyone's good behavior, was Nikki. Tien's relationship to
his son was mostly neglectful, interspersed with occasional bullying,
but with enough spasms of actual attention that Nikki, at least, still
seemed to show attachment to him. The two of them were always going to
have a relationship separate from her own. She and Tien would be forced
to cooperate for Nikki's sake: an iron-cladding of surface courtesy
that must never crack. Tien's anger or potential brutality were no more
of a threat to her future than some belated attempt on his part at
affection or placation. She could face down either, now, she thought,
with equal stoniness.
I am not here to vent my feelings. I am here to achieve my goals.
Yes. She could foresee that was going to be her new mantra, in the
weeks to come. With a grimace, she opened her case and retrieved her
personal breath mask, checked its reservoirs, pulled on her parka, and
headed out for the bubble-car station.
The delays
were every bit as aggravating as Ekaterin had foreseen. Komarrans
sharing her bubble-car forced two extra stops. She suffered a
thirty-minute clog in the system within sight of her goal; by the time
it spat her out at the westernmost dome lock, she was quite ready to
chuck her plan of courtesy and go back to the apartment, except for the
thought of facing another thirty-minute delay en route. The lightflyer
they issued to her was elderly and not very clean. Alone at last,
flying through the vast silence of the Komarran night, her heart eased
a little, and she toyed with the fantasy of flying somewhere else,
anywhere, just to extend the heavenly solitude. There might be more to
pleasure than the absence of pain, but she couldn't prove it just now.
The absence of pain, of other human beings and their needs pressing
down upon her, seemed paradise enough. A paradise just out of reach.
Besides, she had no elsewhere.
She could not even return to Barrayar with Nikki without first earning
enough to pay for their passage, or borrowing the money from her
father, or her distant brothers, or Uncle Vorthys. Distasteful thought.
What you feel doesn't count, girl, she reminded herself. Goals. You'll do whatever you have to do.
The
bright lights of the experiment station, isolated in this barren
wilderness, made a glow on the horizon that drew the eye from
kilometers off. She followed the black silky gleam of the river that
wound past the facility. As she neared, she made out several vehicles
grounded in the station's lot, and frowned in anger. Foscol had lied
about there being no one left at the station to give Tien a lift. On
the other hand, this raised the possibility that Ekaterin might get a
ride back to Serifosa with someone else . . . she checked her impulse
to turn the flyer around in midair, and landed in the lot instead.
She
adjusted her breath mask, released the canopy, and walked to the office
building, hoping to arrange another ride before she saw Tien. The
airlock opened to her touch on the control pad. There was not much
reason to leave anything locked up way out here. She turned up the
first well-lit hallway, calling, "Hello?"
No one
answered. No one appeared to be here. About half the rooms were bare
and empty; the rest were rather messy and disorganized, she thought. A
comconsole was opened up, its insides torn out . . . melted, in fact.
That must have been a spectacular malfunction. Her footsteps echoed
hollowly as she crossed through the pedestrian tube to the engineering
building. "Hello? Tien?" No answer here, either. The two big assembly
rooms were shadowed and sinister, and deserted. "Anyone?" If Foscol
hadn't lied after all, why were all those aircars and flyers in the
lot? Where had their owners gone, and in what?
He'll be waiting for you outside on the northwest side. . . .
She had only a vague idea which side of the building was the northwest;
she'd half-expected Tien to be waiting in the parking lot. She sighed
uneasily, and adjusted her breath mask again, and stepped out through
the pedestrian lock. It would only take a few minutes to circle the
building. I want to fly back to Serifosa, right now. This is weird.
Slowly, she started around the building to her left, her footsteps
sounding sharp on the concrete in the chill and toxic night air. A
raised walkway, really the level edge of the building's concrete
foundation, skirted the wall, with a railing along the outside as the
ground fell away below. It made her feel as though she were being
herded into some trap, or a corral. She rounded the second corner.
Halfway
down the walk, a small human shape huddled on its knees, arms outflung,
its forehead pressed against the railing. Another bigger shape hung by
its wrists between two wide-spaced posts, its body dangling down over
the edge of the raised concrete foundation, feet a half-meter from the
ground. What is this? The dark seemed to pulsate. She swallowed her panic and hastened toward the odd pair.
The
dangling figure was Tien. His breath mask was off, twisted around his
neck. Even in the colored half-light from the spots in the vegetation
below, she could see his face was mottled and purple, with a cold
doughy stillness. His tongue protruded from his mouth; his bulging eyes
were fixed and frozen. Very, very dead. Her stomach churned and knotted
in shock, and her heart lumped in her chest.
The
kneeling figure was Lord Vorkosigan, wearing her second-best jacket
that she had been unable to find while packing a short eternity ago.
His breath mask was still up—he turned his head, his eyes going wide
and dark as he saw her, and Ekaterin melted with relief. The little
Lord Auditor was still alive, at least. She was frantically grateful
not to be alone with two corpses. His wrists, she saw at last,
were chained to the railing's posts just as Tien's were. Blood oozed
from them, soaking darkly into the jacket's cuffs.
Her first coherent thought was unutterable relief that she had not brought Nikki with her. How am I going to tell him?
Tomorrow, that was a problem for tomorrow. Let him play away tonight in
the bubble of another universe, one without this horror in it.
"Madame Vorsoisson." Lord Vorkosigan's voice was muffled and faint in his breath mask. "Oh, God."
Fearfully,
she touched the cold chains around his wrists. The torn flesh was
swollen up around the links, almost burying them. "I'll go inside and
look for some cutters." She almost added, Wait here, but closed her lips on that inanity just in time.
"No,
wait," he gasped. "Don't leave me alone—there's a key . . . supposedly
… on the walk back there." He jerked his head.
She
found it at once, a simple mechanical type. It was cold, a slip of
metal in her shaking fingers. She had to try several times to get it
inserted in the locks that fastened the chains. She then had to peel
the chain out of Vorkosigan's blood-crusted flesh as if from a rubber
mold, before his hand could fall. When she released the second one, he
nearly pitched headfirst over the edge of the concrete. She grabbed him
and dragged him back toward the wall. He tried to stand, but his legs
would not at first unbend, and he fell over again. "Give yourself a
minute," she told him. Awkwardly, she tried to massage his legs, to
restore circulation; even through the fabric of his gray trousers she
could feel how cold and stiff they were.
She
stood, holding the key in her hand, and stared in bewilderment at
Tien's body. She doubted she and Vorkosigan together could lift that
dead weight back up to the walk.
"It's much too
late," said Vorkosigan, watching her. His brows were crooked with
concern. "I'm s-sorry. Leave him for Tuomonen."
"What
is this on his back?" She touched the peculiar arrangement, what
appeared to be a plastic packet fixed in place with engineering tape.
"Leave
that," said Lord Vorkosigan more sharply. "Please." And then, in more
of a rush, stuttering in his shivering, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I
c-couldn't b-break the chains. Hell, he couldn't either, and he's
s-stronger than I am. … I thought I c-could break my hand and get it
out, but I couldn't. I'm sorry. …"
"You need to
come inside, where it's warm. Here." She helped pull him to his feet;
with a last look over his shoulder at Tien, he suffered himself to be
led, hunched over, leaning on her and lurching on his unsteady legs.
She
led him through the airlock into the office building, and guided him to
an upholstered chair in the lobby. He more fell than sat in it. He
shivered violently. "B-b-button," he muttered to her, holding up his
hands like paralyzed paws toward her.
"What?"
"Little button on the s-side of wrist-comm. Press it!"
She
did so; he sighed and relaxed against the seat back. His stiff hands
yanked at his breath mask; she helped him pull it off over his head,
and pulled down her own mask.
"God I am
glad to get out of that thing. Alive. I th-thought I was gonna have a
seizure out there. . . ."He rubbed his pale face, scrubbing at the red
pressure-lines engraved in the skin from the edges of the mask. "And it
itched." Ekaterin spotted the control on a nearby wall and
hastily tapped in an increase of the lobby's temperature. She was
shivering too, though not from the cold, in suppressed shocky shudders.
"Lord
Vorkosigan?" Captain Tuomonen's anxious voice issued thinly from the
wrist com. "What's going on? Where the hell are you?!"
Vorkosigan lifted his wrist toward his mouth. "Waste Heat experiment station. Get out here. I need you."
"What are you– Should I bring a squad?"
"Don't need guns now, I don't think. You'll need forensics, though. And a medical team."
"Are you injured, my lord?" Tuomonen's voice grew sharp with panic.
"Not
to speak of," he said, apparently oblivious to the blood still leaking
from his wrists. "Administrator Vorsoisson is dead, though."
"What the hell—you didn't check in with me before you left the dome, dammit! What the hell is going on out there?!"
"We
can discuss my failings at length, later. Carry on, Captain. Vorkosigan
out." He let his arm fall, wearily. His shivering was lessening, now.
He leaned his head back against the upholstery; the dark smudges of
exhaustion under his eyes looked like bruises. He stared sadly at
Ekaterin. "I am sorry, Madame Vorsoisson. There was nothing I could do."
"I would scarcely think so!"
He looked around, squinting, and added abruptly, "Power plant!"
"What about it?" asked Ekaterin.
"Gotta
check before the troops arrive. I spent a lot of time wondering if it
might have been sabotaged, when I was tied up out there."
His
legs were still not working right. He almost fell over again as he
tried to turn on his heel; she rose and just caught him, under his
elbow.
"Good," he said vaguely to her, and pointed. "That way."
She
was evidently drafted as support. He hobbled off in determination,
clinging to her arm without apology. The forced action actually helped
her to recover, if not calm, a sort of tenuous physical coherence; her
shudders damped out, and her incipient nausea passed, leaving her belly
feeling hot and odd. Another pedestrian tube led down to the power
plant, next to the river. The river was the largest in the Sector, and
the proximate reason for siting the experiment station here. By
Barrayaran standards it would have been called a creek. Vorkosigan
barged awkwardly around the power plant's control room, examining
panels and readouts. "Nothing looks abnormal," he muttered. "I wonder why they didn't set it to self-destruct? I
would have. . . ." He fell into a station chair. She pulled up another
one, and sat opposite him, watching him fearfully. "What happened!"
"I—we came out, Tien brought me out here—how the devil did you come here?"
"Lena
Foscol called me at home, and told me Tien wanted a ride. She almost
didn't catch me. I'd been about to leave. She didn't even tell me you were out here. You might still be . . ."
"No
. . . no, I'm almost certain she'd have made some other arrangement, if
she'd missed you altogether." He sat up straighter, or tried to. "What
time is it now?"
"A little before 2100."
"I
… would have guessed it was much later. They stunned us, you see. I
don't know how long . . . What time did she call you?"
"It was just after 1900 hours."
His
eyes squeezed shut, then opened again. "It was too late. It was already
too late by then, do you understand?" he asked urgently. His hand
jerked toward hers, on her knee as she leaned toward him to catch his
hoarse words, but then fell back.
"No …"
"There
was something questionable going on in the Waste Heat department. Your
husband brought me out here to show me—well, I don't quite know what he
thought he was going to show me, but we ran headlong into Soudha and
his accomplices in the process of decamping. Soudha got the drop on
me—stunned us both. I came to, chained to that railing out there. I
don't think—I don't know. … I don't think they meant to kill your
husband. He hadn't checked his breath mask, y'see. His reservoirs were
almost empty. The Komarrans didn't check it either, before they left
us. I didn't know, no one did."
"Komarrans
wouldn't," Ekaterin said woodenly. "Their mask-check procedures are
ingrained by the time they're three years old. They'd never imagine an
adult would go outside the dome with deficient equipment." Her hands
clenched, in her lap. She could picture Tien's death now.
"It was . . . quick," Vorkosigan offered. "At least that."
It was not. Neither quick nor clean. "Please do not lie to me. Please do not ever lie to me."
"All right …" he said slowly. "But I don't think … I don't think it was murder. To set up that scene, and then call you . . ."He shook his head. "Manslaughter at most. Death by misadventure."
"Death from stupidity," she said bitterly. "Consistent to the end."
He glanced up at her, his eyes not so much startled as aware, and questioning. "Ah?"
"Lord
Auditor Vorkosigan." She swallowed; her throat was so tight it felt
like a muscle spasm. The silence in the building, and outside, was
eerie in its emptiness. She and Vorkosigan might as well have been the
only two people left alive on the planet. "You should know, when I said
Foscol called as I was leaving … I was leaving. Leaving Tien.
I'd told him so, when he came home from the department tonight, and
just before he went back, I suppose, to get you. What did he do?"
He
took this in without much response at first, as if thinking it over.
"All right," he echoed himself softly at last. He glanced across at
her. "Basically, he came in babbling about some embezzlement scheme
which had been going on in Waste Heat Management, apparently for quite
some time. He sounded me out about declaring him an Imperial Witness,
which he seemed to think would save him from prosecution. It's not
quite that simple. I didn't commit myself."
"Tien would hear what he wanted to hear," she said softly.
"I … so I gathered." He hesitated, watching her face. "How long . . . what do you know about it?"
"And
how long have I known it?" Ekaterin grimaced, and rubbed her face free
of the lingering irritation of her own mask. "Not as long as I should
have. Tien had been talking for months . . . You have to understand, he
was irrationally afraid of anyone finding out about his Vorzohn's
Dystrophy."
"I actually do understand that," he offered tentatively.
"Yes . . . and no. It's Tien's older brother's fault, in part. I've cursed the man for years. When his
symptoms began, he took the Old Vor way out and crashed his lightflyer.
It made an impression on Tien he never shook off. Set an impossible
example. We'd had no idea his family carried the mutation, till Tien,
who was his brother's executor, was going through the records and
effects, and we realized both that the accident was deliberate, and
why. It was just after Nikki was born …"
"But
wouldn't it have … I'd wondered when I read your file—the defect should
have turned up in the gene scan, before the embryo was started in the
uterine replicator. Is Nikki affected, or . . . ?"
"Nikki was a body-birth. No gene scan. The Old Vor way. Old Vor have good blood, you know, no need to check anything."
He looked as if he'd bitten into a lemon. "Whose bright idea was that?"
"I
don't . . . quite remember how it was decided. Tien and I decided
together. I was young, we were just married, I had a lot of stupid
romantic ideas … I suppose it seemed heroic to me at the time."
"How old were you?"
"Twenty."
"Ah."
His mouth quirked in an expression she could not quite interpret, a sad
mixture of irony and sympathy. "Yes."
Obscurely
encouraged, she went on. "Tien's scheme for dealing with the dystrophy
without anyone ever finding out he had it was to go get galactic
treatment, somewhere far from the Imperium. It made it much more
expensive than it needed to be. We'd been trying to save for years, but
somehow, something always went wrong. We never made much progress. But
for the past six or eight months, Tien's been telling me to stop
worrying, he had it under control. Except . . . Tien always talks like
that, so I scarcely paid attention. Then last night, after you went to
sleep … I heard you tell him straight out you wanted to make a surprise
inspection of his department today, I heard you—he got up in
the night and called Administrator Soudha, to warn him. I listened … I
heard enough to gather they had some sort of payroll falsification
scheme going, and I'm very much afraid … no. I'm certain Tien was
taking bribes. Because—" she stopped and took a breath "—I broke into
Tien's comconsole this morning and looked at his financial records."
She glanced up, to see how Vorkosigan would take this. His mouth
renewed the crooked quirk. "I'm sorry I ripped at you the other day,
for looking through mine," she said humbly.
His
mouth opened, and closed; he merely gave her a little encouraging wave
of his fingers and slumped down a bit more in his chair, listening with
an air of uttermost attention. Listening.
She
went on hurriedly, not before her nerve broke, for she scarcely felt
anything now, but before she dragged to a halt from sheer exhaustion.
"He'd had at least forty thousand marks that I couldn't see where
they'd come from. Not from his salary, certainly."
"Had?"
"If
the information on the comconsole was right, he'd taken all forty
thousand and borrowed sixty more, and lost it all on Komarran trade
fleet shares."
"All?"
"Well,
no, not quite all. About three-quarters of it." At his astonished look,
she added, "Tien's luck has always been like that."
"I
always used to say you made your own luck. Though I've been forced to
eat those words often enough, I don't say it so much anymore."
"Well … I think it must be true, or how else could his luck have been so consistently bad? The only common factor in all the chaos was Tien." She leaned her head back wearily. "Though I suppose it might have been me, somehow." Tien often said it was me.
After a little silence, he said hesitantly, "Did you love your husband, Madame Vorsoisson?"
She
didn't want to answer this. The truth made her ashamed. But she was
done with dissimulation. "I suppose I did, once. In the beginning. I
can hardly remember anymore. But I couldn't stop . . . caring for him.
Cleaning up after him. Except my caring got slower and slower, and
finally it … stopped. Too late. Or maybe too soon, I don't know." But
if, of course, she had not broken from Tien just then, in just that
way, he would not tonight have . . . and, and, and, along the whole
chain of events that led to this moment. That if-only could, of
course, be said equally for any link in the chain. Not more, not less.
Not repairable. "I thought, if I let go, he would fall." She stared at
her hands. "Eventually. I didn't expect it to happen so soon."
It
began to be borne in upon her what a mess Tien's death was going to
leave in her lap. She would be trading the painful legalities of
separation for the equally painful and difficult legalities of sorting
out his probably bankrupt estate. And what was she supposed to do about
his body, or any kind of funeral, and how to notify his mother, and . .
. yet solving the worst problem without Tien seemed already a thousand
times easier than solving the simplest with Tien. No more deferential negotiations for permission or approval or consensus. She could just do
it. She felt . . . like a patient coming out of some paralysis,
stretching her arms wide for the first time, and surprised to discover
they were strong.
She frowned in puzzlement. "Will there be charges? Against Tien?"
Vorkosigan
shrugged. "It is not customary to try the dead, though I believe it was
done occasionally in the Time of Isolation. Lord Vorventa the
Twice-Hung springs to mind. No. There will be investigations, there
will be reports, oh my head the reports, ImpSec's and my own and
possibly the Serifosa Sector's security—I anticipate argument over
jurisdiction—there may be testimony required of you in the prosecution
of other persons …" He broke off, to hitch himself around with
difficulty in his chair, and shove a now somewhat less stiff-from-cold
hand into his pocket. "Persons who I suppose got away with my stunner
…" His expression changed to one of dismay, and he spasmed to his feet
and turned out both his trouser pockets, then checked his jacket,
shucked it off, and patted his gray tunic. "Damn."
"What?" asked Ekaterin in alarm.
"I
think the bastards took my Auditor's seal. Unless it just fell out of
my pocket, somewhere in all the horsing around tonight. Oh, God. It'll
open any government or security comconsole in the Empire." He took a
deep breath, then brightened. "On the other hand, it has a
locator-circuit. ImpSec can trace it, if they're close enough—ImpSec
can trace them. Ha!" With difficulty, he forced his red and swollen fingers to open a channel on his comm link. "Tuomonen?" he inquired.
"We're
on our way, my lord," Tuomonen's voice came back instantly. "We're in
the air, about halfway there I estimate. Will you please leave your channel open?"
"Listen.
I think my assailants have taken off with my Auditor's seal. Delegate
someone to start trying to track it at once. Find it and you'll find
them, if it's not just been dropped around here somewhere. You can
check that possibility when you get here."
Vorkosigan
then insisted on a tour of the building, drafting Ekaterin once more as
occasional support, though he stumbled very little now. He frowned at
the melted comconsole, and at the empty rooms, and stared with narrowed
eyes at the jumbles of equipment. Tuomonen and his men arrived just as
they were reentering the lobby.
Lord Vorkosigan's
lips twitched in bemusement as two half-armored guards, stunners at the
ready, leaped through the airseal door. They gave Vorkosigan anxious
nods, which he acknowledged with a wry salutelike gesture, then pelted
after each other through the facility for a rather noisy security
check. Vorkosigan hitched himself into a deliberately more relaxed
posture, leaning against an upholstered chair. Captain Tuomonen,
another Barrayaran soldier in half-armor, and three men in medical gear
followed into the lobby.
"My lord!" said Tuomonen,
pulling down his breath mask. His tone of voice sounded familiarly
maternal to Ekaterin's ear, halfway between Thank God you're safe and I'm going to strangle you with my bare hands.
"Good evening, Captain," said Vorkosigan genially. "So glad to see you."
"You didn't notify me!"
"Yes,
it was entirely my mistake, and I'll be certain to note your
exoneration in my report," Vorkosigan said soothingly.
"It's
not that, dammit!" Tuomonen strode over to him, motioning a medic in
his wake. He took in Vorkosigan's macerated wrists and bloody hands.
"Who did that to you?"
"I did it to myself,
rather, I'm afraid." Vorkosigan's pose of studied ease slipped back
into his original grimness. "It could have been worse, as I will show
you directly. Around back. I want you to record everything, a complete
scan. Anything you're in doubt of, leave for the experts from HQ. I
want a top forensics team scrambled from Solstice immediately. Two
teams, one for out here, one for those royally buggered comconsoles at
the Terraforming offices. But first, I think," he glanced at the
medtechs, and at Ekaterin, "we should get Administrator Vorsoisson's
body down."
"Here's the key," said Ekaterin numbly, producing it from her pocket.
"Thank
you," said Vorkosigan, taking it from her. "Wait here, please." He
jerked up his chin, checked and pulled up his mask, and led the
still-protesting Tuomonen back out the airseal doors, imperiously
motioning the medics to follow. Ekaterin could still hear the
clattering and strained sharp voices of the armed guards, echoing from
distant corridors deeper in the office building.
She
huddled into the chair Vorkosigan had vacated, feeling very odd not to
be following the men to Tien. But someone else was going to be cleaning
up the mess this time, it appeared. A few tears leaked from her eyes,
residue of her body-shock she supposed, for she surely felt no more
emotion than if she'd been a lump of lead.
After a
long while, the men returned to the lobby, where Tuomonen finally
persuaded Vorkosigan to sit down and let the senior medic attend to his
injured wrists.
"This isn't the treatment I'm most
concerned about just now," Vorkosigan complained, as a hypospray of
synergine hissed into the side of his neck. "I have to get back to
Serifosa. There's something I really need out of my luggage."
"Yes, my lord," said the medtech soothingly, and went on cleaning and bandaging.
Tuomonen
went out to his aircar to relay some terse communication with his
ImpSec superiors in Solstice, then returned to lean on the back of the
chair and watch the medtech finish up.
Vorkosigan
eyed Ekaterin, across the medtech. "Madame Vorsoisson. In retrospect,
thinking back, did your husband ever say anything that indicated this
scam had to do with something more than money?"
Ekaterin shook her head.
Tuomonen,
in gruff tones, put in, "I'm afraid, Madame Vorsoisson, that ImpSec is
going to have to take charge of your late husband's body. There must be
a complete examination."
"Yes, of course," Ekaterin said faintly. She paused. "Then what?"
"We'll
let you know, Madame." He turned to Vorkosigan, evidently continuing a
conversation. "So what else did you think of, when you were tied up out
there?"
"All I could really think about was when
my next seizure was due," said Vorkosigan ruefully. "It became kind of
an obsession, after a while. But I don't think Foscol knew about that
hidden defect, either."
"I still want to call it
murder and attempted murder, for the all-Sectors alert order," said
Tuomonen, evidently continuing a debate. "And the attempted murder of
an Imperial Auditor makes it treason, which disposes of any arguments
about requisitions."
"Yes, very good," sighed
Vorkosigan in acquiescence. "Make sure your reports have the facts
clear, though, please."
"As I see them, my lord."
Tuomonen grimaced, then burst out, "Damn, to think how long this thing
must have been going on, right under my nose . . . !"
"Not
your jurisdiction, Captain," observed Vorkosigan. "It was the Imperial
Accounting Office's job to spot this kind of fraud in the civil
service. Still . . . there's something very wrong here."
"I should say so!"
"No,
I mean beyond the obvious." Vorkosigan hesitated. "They abandoned all
their personal effects, yet took at least two air-vans of equipment."
"To . . . sell?" Ekaterin posited. "No, that makes no sense. …"
"Mm,
and they left in a group, didn't split up. These people seemed to me to
be Komarran patriots, of a sort. I can see where they might classify
theft from the Barrayaran Imperium as something between a hobby and a
patriotic duty, but … to steal from the Komarran Terraforming Project,
the hope of their future generations? And if it wasn't just to line
their pockets, what the devil were they using all the money
for?" He scowled. "That will be for ImpSec's forensic accounting team
to sort out, I suppose. And I want engineering experts in here, to see
if they can make anything at all from the mess that's been left. And
not left. It's clear Soudha's crew put something together in
the Engineering building, and I don't think it had anything to do with
waste heat." He rubbed his forehead, and muttered, "I'll bet Marie
Trogir could tell us. Damn but I wish I'd fast-penta'd Madame Radovas when I had the chance."
Ekaterin swallowed a lump of dread and humiliation. "I'm going to have to tell my uncle."
Vorkosigan glanced up at her. "I'll take over that task, Madame Vorsoisson."
She
frowned, torn between what seemed to her weak gratitude, and a dreary
sense of duty, but could not muster the energy to argue with him. The
medic finished winding the last medical tape around Vorkosigan's wrists.
"I
must leave you in charge here, Captain, and return to Serifosa. I don't
dare fly myself. Madame Vorsoisson, would you be so kind . . . ?"
"You will take a guard," said Tuomonen, a little dangerously.
"I
have to get the flyer back," said Ekaterin. "It's rented." She
squinted, realizing how stupid that sounded. But it was the only
fragment of order in this mortal chaos it was presently in her power to
restore. And then, belatedly, the realization came: I can go home. It's safe to go home. Her voice strengthened. "Certainly, Lord Vorkosigan."
The
presence of the hulking young guard crowded into the flyer behind them,
Vorkosigan's exhaustion, and Ekaterin's emotional disorientation
combined to blunt conversation on the flight back to Serifosa. She drew
stares, turning the flyer back in at the rental desk while trailed
politely by a large, fully-armed, half-armored soldier and a dwarfish
man with bloody clothes and bandages on his wrists, but on the other
hand, they had a bubble-car all to themselves for the ride back to the
apartment. There were no delays in the system on this return leg,
Ekaterin noted with weary irony. She wondered if there would be any
point, later when this all got sorted out, to check if Vorkosigan's
insistence that it had already been too late for Tien when Foscol had
called her was precisely true.
Her steps quickened
in the hallway of her apartment; she felt like an injured animal,
wanting nothing more than to go hide in her burrow. She came to an
abrupt halt at her door, and her breath drew in. The palm-lock panel
was hanging partway out of the wall, and the sliding door was not
entirely closed. A thin line of light leaked along its edge. She backed
up a step, and pointed.
Vorkosigan took it all in
at once and motioned to the guard who, equally silently, stepped up to
the door and drew his stunner. Vorkosigan put his finger to his lips,
took her by the arm, and drew her back halfway to the lift-tubes. The
automatic door wasn't working; the guard had to grasp it awkwardly and
lean, to push it back into its slot. Stunner raised and visor lowered,
he slipped inside. Ekaterin's heart hammered.
After
a few minutes, the ImpSec guard, his visor up again, poked his head
back out the door. "Someone's been through here right enough, m'lord.
But they're gone now." Vorkosigan and Ekaterin followed him inside.
Both
Vorkosigan's cases and her own, which she had left sitting by the door
in the vestibule, had been broken open. Their clothing was scattered in
mixed heaps all around on the floor. Little else in the apartment
appeared to have been touched; some drawers were opened, their contents
stirred, but aside from the disorder nothing had been vandalized. Was
it a violation, when she herself had all but vacated this space,
abandoned those possessions? She scarcely knew.
"This
is not how I left my things," Vorkosigan observed mildly to her when
they fetched up in the vestibule again after their first short survey.
"It's
not how I left them either," she said a bit desperately. "I thought you
would be coming back with Tien, and then leaving, so I'd packed them
all for you, ready to take away."
"Touch nothing,
especially the comconsoles, till the forensics folks get here,"
Vorkosigan told her. She nodded understanding. They both shucked their
heavy jackets; automatically, Ekaterin hung them up.
Vorkosigan
then proceeded to ignore his own dictate, and kneel in the vestibule to
sort through the heaps. "Did you pack my code-locked data case?"
"Yes."
"It's
gone now." He sighed, rose, and raised his wrist-comm to report these
new developments to Captain Tuomonen, still at the experiment station.
The overburdened Tuomonen, apprised, swore briefly and ordered his
soldier to stick with the Lord Auditor like glue until relieved. For
once, Vorkosigan didn't object.
Vorkosigan
returned to the mess, turning over an untidy pile of Ekaterin's
clothing. "Ha!" he cried, and pounced on the gel-pack case which
contained that odd device. He opened it hurriedly, his hands shaking a
little. "Thank God they didn't take this." He looked up at her,
measuringly. "Madame Vorsoisson …" his normally forceful tone grew
uncertain. "I wonder if I could trouble you to … assist me in this."
She almost said Yes, without thinking, but managed to alter the word to "What?" before it left her mouth.
He
smiled tightly. "I mentioned my seizure disorder to you. It doesn't
have a cure, unfortunately. But my Barrayaran doctors came up with a
palliative, of sorts. I use this little machine to stimulate seizures,
bleed them off in a controlled time and place, so they don't happen in
an uncontrolled time and place. They tend to be exacerbated by stress."
By his grimace, she could see him picturing the cold walkway on the
backside of the Engineering building. "I suspect I'm now overdue. I
would like to get it over with at once."
"I understand. But what do I do?"
"I'm
supposed to have a spotter. To see I don't spit out my mouth guard, or,
or injure myself or damage anything while I'm out. There shouldn't be
much to it."
"All right …"
Under
the dubious eye of the ImpSec guard, she followed him to the living
room. He headed for the curved couch. "If you lie on the floor,"
Ekaterin suggested diffidently, still not sure how spectacular a show
to expect, "you can't fall any further."
"Ah.
Right." He settled himself on the carpet, the case open in his hand.
She made sure the space around them was clear, and knelt beside him.
He
unfolded the device, which resembled a set of headphones with a pad on
one end and a mysterious knob on the other. He fitted it over his head
and adjusted it to his temples. He smiled at Ekaterin in what she
belatedly realized was extreme embarrassment, and muttered, "I'm afraid
this looks a little stupid," fitted a plastic mouthguard onto his
teeth, and lay back.
"Wait," said Ekaterin suddenly as his hand reached for his temple.
"Wha'?"
"Could . . . whoever came in here have tampered with that thing? Maybe it ought to be checked first."
His
wide eyes met hers; as certainly as if she had been telepathic, she
knew she shared with him at that moment a vision of his head being
blown off at the touch of his hand on the stimulator's trigger. He
ripped it back off his head, sat up, spat out his mouthguard, and
cried, "Shit!" He added after a moment, in a tone level but about half
an octave higher than his norm, "You're quite right. Thank you. I
wasn't thinking. I made . . . many cosmic promises, that if I made it
back here, I'd do this first thing, and never never never put it off just one extra day again." Hyperventilating, he stared in consternation at the device clutched in his hand.
Then
his eyes rolled up, and he fell over backwards. Ekaterin caught his
head just before it banged into the carpet. His lips were drawn back in
a strange grin. His body shuddered, in waves passing down to his toes
and fingertips, but he did not flail wildly about as she'd
half-expected. The guard hovered, looking panicked. She rescued the
mouth guard, and fitted it back over his teeth, not as difficult a task
as it at first appeared; despite an impression to that effect, he was
not rigid.
She sat back on her heels, and stared. Triggered by stress. Yes. I see.
His face was . . . altered, his personality clearly not present but in
a way that resembled neither sleep nor death. It seemed terribly rude
to watch him so, in all his vulnerability; courtesy urged her to look
away. But he had explicitly appointed her to this task.
She
checked her chrono. About five minutes, he'd said these things lasted.
It seemed a small eternity, but was in fact less than three minutes
when his body stilled. He lay slumped in alarmingly flaccid
unconsciousness for another minute beyond that, then drew in a
shuddering breath. His eyes opened and stared about in palpable
incomprehension. At least his dilated pupils were the same size.
"Sorry.
Sorry . . ."he muttered inanely. "Didn't mean to do that." He lay
staring upward, his eyebrows crooked. He added after a moment, "What does it look like, anyway?"
"Really
strange," Ekaterin answered him honestly. "I like your face better when
you're at home in your head." She had not realized how powerfully his
personality enlivened his features, or how subtly, until she'd seen it
removed.
"I like my head better when I'm at
home in it, too," he breathed. He squeezed his eyes shut, and opened
them again. "I'll get out of your way now." His hands twitched, and he
tried to sit up.
Ekaterin didn't think he ought to be trying to do anything
yet. She pressed him firmly back down with a hand on his chest. "Don't
you dare take away that guard till my door gets fixed." Not that its
expensive electronic lock had appeared to do the least good.
"Oh. No, of course not," he said faintly.
It
was abundantly apparent that Vorkosigan's implicit claim that he
bounced back out of his seizures with no ill effects was a, well, if
not a lie, a gross exaggeration. He looked terrible.
She
raised her gaze to catch that of the disturbed guard. "Corporal. Would
you please help me to get Lord Vorkosigan to bed until he is more
recovered. Or at least until your people arrive."
"Sure,
ma'am." He seemed relieved to have this direction provided for him, and
helped her pull Vorkosigan to his unsteady feet.
Ekaterin
made a lightning calculation. Nikki's bed was the only one instantly
available, and his room had no comconsole. If Vorkosigan went to sleep,
which he obviously desperately needed to do after this night's ordeal,
there was a chance he might be let to stay that way even when the
ImpSec forensic invasion arrived. "This way," she nodded to the guard,
and led them down the hall.
The incoherence of
Vorkosigan's mumbled protests assured Ekaterin that she was doing
precisely the right thing. He was shivering again. She helped him off
with his tunic, made him lie down, dragged off his boots, covered him
with extra blankets, turned the room's heat up to high, doused the
lights, and withdrew.
There was no one to put her
to bed, but she did not care to attempt conversation with the guard,
who took up station in her living room to wait for his overextended
reinforcements. Her whole body felt as though it had been beaten. She
took some painkillers and lay down fully dressed in her own bedroom, a
thousand uncertainties and conflicting scenarios for what she must do
next jostling in her mind.
Tien's body, which had
breathed beside her in this space last night, must be in the hands of
the ImpSec medical examiner by now, laid out naked and still on a cold
metal tray in some clinical laboratory here in Serifosa. She hoped they
would treat his congealed husk with some measure of dignity, and not
the nervous jocularity death sometimes evoked.
When
this bed had been impossible to bear in the night, it had been her
habit to sneak off to her workroom and fiddle with her virtual gardens.
The Barrayaran garden had increasingly been her choice, of late. It
lacked the texture, the smell, the slow dense satisfactions of the
real, but it had soothed her mind nonetheless. But first Vorkosigan had
occupied the room, and now he'd ordered her not to touch the
comconsoles till ImpSec had drained them. She sighed and turned over,
huddled in her accustomed corner of the bed even though the rest was
unoccupied. I want to leave this place as soon as I can. I want to be someplace where Tien has never been.
She
did not expect to sleep, but whether from the pain meds or exhaustion
or the combination, she fell into a doze at last.
CHAPTER TWELVE
Miles could tell right away that he wasn't going
to enjoy waking up. A bad seizure usually left him with hangover-like
symptoms the following day, and the lingering effects of heavy stun
included muscle aches, muscle spasms, and pseudo-migraines. The
combination, it appeared, was downright synergistic. He groaned, and
tried to regain unconsciousness. A gentle touch on his shoulder
thwarted his intent.
"Lord Vorkosigan?"
It
was Ekaterin Vorsoisson's soft voice. His eyes sprang open on
thankfully-dim lighting. He was in her son Nikki's room, and could not
remember how he'd arrived here. He rolled over and blinked up at her.
She had changed clothes since his last memory of her, kneeling beside
him on her living room floor; she now wore a soft, high-necked beige
shirt and darker-toned trousers in the Komarran style. Her long dark
hair lay loose in damp new-washed strands on her shoulders. He still had on his blood-stained shirt and wrinkled trousers from yesterday's nightmare.
"I'm sorry to wake you," she continued, "but Captain Tuomonen is here."
"Ah,"
said Miles thickly. He struggled upright. Madame Vorsoisson was holding
out a tray with a large mug of black coffee and a bottle of painkiller
tablets. Two tablets had already been extracted from the bottle, and
lay ready for ingestion beside the cup. Only in his imagination did a
heavenly choir supply background music. "Oh. My."
She
didn't say anything more till he had fumbled the tablets to his lips
and swallowed them. His swollen hands weren't working too well, but did
manage to clutch the mug in something resembling a death-grip. A second
swallow scalded away a world of nastiness lingering in his mouth, well
worth the challenge to the queasiness in his stomach. "Thank you."
After a third gulp, he achieved, "What time is it?"
"It's about an hour after dawn."
He'd
been out of the loop for about four hours, then. All sorts of events
could occur in four hours. Not parting with the mug, he kicked his legs
out of the bed. His sock-clad feet groped for the floor. Walking was
going to be a chancy business for the first few minutes.
"Is Tuomonen in a hurry?"
"I can't tell. He looks tired. He says they found your seal."
That
decided it; Tuomonen before a shower. He swallowed more coffee, handed
the mug back to Ekater—to Madame Vorsoisson—and levered himself to his
feet. After an awkward smile at her, he did a few bends and stretches,
to be certain he could walk down the hall without falling over in front
of ImpSec.
He had not the first idea what to say to her. I'm sorry I got your husband killed
was inaccurate on a couple of counts. Up to the point he had been
stunned, Miles might have done half a dozen different things to have
altered last night's outcome; but if only Vorsoisson had checked his
own damned breath mask before going out, the way he was supposed to,
Miles was pretty certain he would still have been alive this morning.
And the more he learned about the man, the less convinced he was that
his death was any disservice to his wife. Widow. After a moment he
essayed, "Are you all right?"
She smiled wanly, and shrugged. "All things considered."
Thin
lines etched parallels between her eyes. "Did you, um . . ."he gestured
at the bottle of tablets, "get any of those for yourself?"
"Several. Thank you."
"Ah. Good." Harm has been done you, and I don't know how to fix it.
It was going to take a hell of a lot more than a couple of pills,
though. He shook his head, regretted the gesture instantly, and
staggered out to see Tuomonen.
The Imp Sec captain
was waiting on the circular couch in the living room, also gratefully
sucking down Madame Vorsoisson's coffee. He appeared to consider
standing at some sort of quasi-attention when the Lord Auditor entered
the room, but then thought better of it. Tuomonen gestured, and Miles
seated himself across the table from the captain; they each mumbled
their good-mornings. Madame Vorsoisson followed with Miles's half-empty
coffee cup and set it before him, then, after a wary glance at
Tuomonen, quietly seated herself. If Tuomonen wanted her to leave, he
was going to have to ask her himself, Miles decided. And then justify
the request.
In the event, Tuomonen merely nodded
thanks to her, and shifted around and drew a plastic packet from his
tunic. It contained Miles's gold-encased Auditor's electronic seal. He
handed it across to Miles.
"Very good, Captain,"
said Miles. "I don't suppose you were so fortunate as to find it on the
person of its thief?"
"No, more's the pity. You'll never guess where we did find it."
Miles
squinted and held the plastic bag up to the light. A sheen of
condensation fogged the inside. "In a sewer pipe halfway between here
and the Serifosa Dome waste treatment plant, would be my first guess."
Tuomonen's jaw fell open. "How did you know?"
"Forensic plumbing was once a sort of hobby of mine. Not to sound ungrateful, but has anyone washed it?"
"Yes, in fact."
"Oh,
thank you." Miles opened the packet and shook the heavy little device
into his palm. It appeared undamaged.
Tuomonen
said, "My lieutenant had its signal traced, or at any rate,
triangulated, within half an hour of your call. He led an assault team
down into the utility tunnels after it. I wish I could have seen it,
when they finally figured out what was going on. You would have
appreciated it, I'm almost certain."
Miles grinned despite his headache. "I was in no shape last night to appreciate anything, I'm afraid."
"Well,
they made an impressive delegation when they went to wake up the
Serifosa Dome municipal engineer. She's Komarran, of course. ImpSec
coming for her in the middle of the night—her husband about had a heart
spasm. My lieutenant finally got him calmed down, and got across to her
what we needed . . . I'm afraid she found it an occasion for, er,
considerable irony. We are all grateful that my lieutenant didn't yield
to his first impulse, which was to have his team blast open the pipe
section in question with their assault plasma rifles. …"
Miles
almost choked on a swallow of coffee. "Exceedingly grateful." He stole
a glance at Ekaterin Vorsoisson, who was leaning back against the
cushions listening to this, eyes alight, a hand pressed to her lips.
His painkillers were cutting in; she didn't look so blurry now.
"There was no sign by then of our human quarry, of course," Tuomonen finished with a sigh. "Long gone."
Miles
stared at his distorted reflection in the dark surface of his drink.
"One sees the scenario. You should be able to work out the timetable
quite precisely. Foscol and an unknown number of accomplices pick my
pocket, tie me and the Administrator to the railing, fly back to
Serifosa, call Madame Vorsoisson. Probably from someplace nearby. As
soon as she vacates her apartment, they break in, knowing they have at
least an hour to explore before the alarm goes up. They use my seal to
open the data case and access my report files. Then they flush the seal
down the toilet and leave. Not even breathing hard."
"Too bad they weren't tempted to keep it."
"Mm,
they clearly realized it was traceable. Hence their little joke." He
frowned. "But . . . why my data case?"
"They might have been looking for something about Radovas. What all was in your data case, my lord?"
"Copies
of all the classified technical reports and autopsies from the soletta
accident. Soudha's an engineer. He doubtless had a very good idea what
was in there."
"We're going to have an interesting
time later this morning at the Terraforming Project offices," said
Tuomonen glumly, "trying to figure out which employees are absent
because they fled, and which ones are absent because they are
fictional. I need to get over there as soon as possible, to supervise
the preliminary interrogations. We'll have to fast-penta them all, I
suppose."
"I predict it will be a great waste of
time and drugs," agreed Miles. "But there's always the chance of
someone knowing more than they think they know."
"Mm,
yes." Tuomonen glanced at the listening woman. "Speaking of
which—Madame Vorsoisson—I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to
cooperate with a fast-penta interrogation as well. It's standard
operating procedure, in a mysterious death of this nature, to question
the closest relatives. The Dome police may also be wanting in on it, or
at least demand a copy, depending on what decisions are made about
jurisdiction by my superiors."
"I understand," said Madame Vorsoisson, in a colorless voice.
"There
was nothing mysterious about Administrator Vorsoisson's death," Miles
pointed out uneasily. "I was standing right next to him." Well,
kneeling, technically.
"She's not a suspect," Tuomonen said. "A witness."
And a fast-penta interrogation would help to keep it that way, Miles realized with reluctance.
"When do you wish to do this, Captain?" Madame Vorsoisson asked quietly.
"Well
. . . not immediately. I'll have a better set of questions after this
morning's investigations are complete. Just don't go anywhere."
Her glance at him silently inquired, Am I under house arrest?
"At some point, I have to go get my son Nikolai. He was staying
overnight at a friend's home. He hasn't been told anything about this
yet. I don't want to tell him over the comconsole, and I don't want him
to hear it first on the news."
"That won't
happen," said Tuomonen grimly. "Not yet, anyway. Though I expect I'll
have the information services badgering us soon enough. Someone is
bound to notice that the most boring ImpSec post on Komarr is suddenly
boiling with activity."
"I must either go get him, or call and arrange for him to stay longer."
"Which would you prefer?" Miles put in before Tuomonen could say anything.
"I
… if you are going to do the interrogation here, today, I'd rather wait
till it's over with to get Nikki. I'll have to explain to his friend's
mother something of the situation, at least that Tien was . . . killed
in an accident last night."
"Have you bugged her comconsoles?" Miles asked Tuomonen bluntly.
Tuomonen's
look queried this revelation, but he cleared his throat, and said,
"Yes. You should be aware, Madame Vorsoisson, that ImpSec will be
monitoring all calls in and out of here for a few days."
She looked blankly at him. "Why?"
"There
is the possibility that someone, either from Soudha's group or some
other connection we haven't yet discovered, not yet realizing the
Administrator is dead, might try to communicate."
She accepted this with a slightly dubious nod. "Thank you for warning me."
"Speaking
of calls," Miles added, "please have one of your people bring me a
secured vid-link here. I have a few calls to make myself."
"Will you be staying here, my lord?" asked Tuomonen.
"For
a while. Till after your interrogation, and until Lord Auditor Vorthys
gets downside, as he will surely wish to do. That's the first call I
want to make."
"Ah. Of course."
Miles
looked around. His seizure stimulator, its case, and his mouthguard
were still lying where they'd been dropped a few hours ago. Miles
pointed. "And if you please, could you have your lab check my medical
gear for any sign of tampering, then return it to me."
Tuomonen's brows rose. "Do you suspect it, my lord?"
"It
was just a horrible thought. But I think it's going to be a very bad
idea to underestimate either the intelligence or the subtlety of our
adversaries in this thing, eh?"
"Do you need it urgently?"
"No." Not anymore.
"The
data packet Foscol left on Administrator Vorsoisson's person—have you
had a chance to look at it?" Miles went on. He managed to avoid
glancing at Madame Vorsoisson.
"Just a quick
scan," said Tuomonen. He did look at Madame Vorsoisson, and away,
spoiling Miles's effort at delicacy. Her lips thinned only a little. "I
turned it over to the ImpSec financial analyst—a colonel, no less—that
HQ sent out to take charge of the financial part of the investigation."
"Oh, good. I was going to ask if HQ had sent you relief troops yet."
"Yes,
everything you requested. The engineering team arrived on site at the
experiment station about an hour ago. The packet Foscol left seems to
be documentation of all the financial transactions relating to the, um,
payments made by Soudha's group to the Administrator. If it's not all
lies, it's going to be an amazing help in sorting out the whole
embezzlement part of the mess. Which is really very odd, when you think
about it."
"Foscol clearly had no love for
Vorsoisson, but surely everything that incriminates him, incriminates
the Komarrans equally. Quite odd, yes." If only his brain hadn't been
turned to pulsing oatmeal, Miles felt, he could follow out some line of
logic from this. Later.
An ImpSec tech wearing
black fatigues emerged from the back of the apartment. He carried a
black box identical to– in fact, possibly the same as—the one which
Tuomonen had used at Madame Radovas's, and said to his superior, "I've
finished all the comconsoles, sir."
"Thank you,
Corporal. Go back to the office and transfer copies to our files, to HQ
Solstice, and to Colonel Gibbs."
The tech nodded and trod out through the, Miles noticed, still-ruined door.
"And,
oh yes, would you please detail a tech to repair Madame Vorsoisson's
front door," Miles added to Tuomonen. "Possibly he could install a
somewhat better-quality locking system while he's about it." She shot
him a quietly grateful look.
"Yes, my lord. I will of course keep a guard on duty while you are here."
A
duenna of sorts, Miles supposed. He must try to get Madame Vorsoisson
something rather better. Suspecting he'd loaded poor sleepless Tuomonen
with enough chores and orders for one session, Miles requested only
that he be notified at once if ImpSec caught up with Soudha or any
member of his group, and let the captain go off to his suddenly
multiplied duties.
By the time he'd showered and
dressed in his last good gray suit, the painkillers had achieved their
full effect, and Miles felt almost human. When he emerged, Madame
Vorsoisson invited him to her kitchen; Tuomonen's door guard stayed in
the living room.
"Would you care for some breakfast, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"Have you eaten?"
"Well, no. I'm not really hungry."
Likely
not, but she looked as pale and washed-out as he felt. Tactically
inspired, he said, "I'll have something if you will. Something bland,"
he added prudently.
"Groats?" she suggested diffidently.
"Oh, yes please." He wanted to say, I can get them—
mixing up a packet of instant groats was well within his ImpSec
survival-trained capabilities, he could have assured her—but he didn't
want to risk her going away, so he sat, an obedient guest, and watched
her move about. She seemed uneasy, in what should have been this core
place of her domain. Where would she fit? Someplace much larger.
She
set up and served them both; they exchanged commonplace courtesies.
When she'd eaten a few bites, she worked up an unconvincing smile, and
asked, "Is it true fast-penta makes you . . . rather foolish?"
"Mm.
Like any drug, people have varied reactions. I've conducted any number
of fast-penta interrogations in the line of my former duties. And I've
had it given to me twice."
Her interest was clearly piqued by this last statement. "Oh?"
"I, um . . ."He wanted to reassure her, but he had to be honest. Don't ever lie to me, she'd said, in a voice of suppressed passion. "My own reaction was idiosyncratic."
"Don't
you have that allergy ImpSec is supposed to give to its—well, no, of
course not, or you wouldn't be here."
ImpSec's
defense against the truth drug was to induce a fatal allergic response
in its key operatives. One had to agree to the treatment, but as it was
a gateway to larger responsibilities and hence promotions, the security
force had never lacked for volunteers. "No, in fact. Chief Illyan never
asked me to undergo it. In retrospect, I can't help wondering if my
father had a hand, there. But in any case, it doesn't make me truthful
so much as it makes me hyper. I babble. Fast-foolish, I guess. The one,
um, hostile interrogation I underwent, I was actually able to beat, by
continually reciting poetry. It was a very bizarre experience. In
normal people, the degree of, well, ugliness, depends a lot on whether
you fight it or go along with it. If you feel that the questioner is on
your side, it can be just a very relaxing way of giving the same
testimony you would anyway."
"Oh." She did not look reassured enough.
"I
can't claim it doesn't invade your reserve," and she possessed a
reserve oceans-deep, "but a properly conducted interview ought not to,"
shame you, "be too bad." Though if last night's events had not
shaken her out of her daunting self-control … He hesitated, then added,
"How did you learn to underreact the way you do?"
Her face went blank. "Do I underreact?"
"Yes. You are very hard to read."
"Oh."
She stirred her black coffee. "I don't know. I've been this way for as
long as I can remember." A more introspective look stilled her features
for a time. "No . . . no, there was a time … I suppose it goes back to
… I had, I have, three older brothers."
A typical
Vor family structure of their generation: too damned many boys, a token
girl added as an afterthought. Hadn't any of those parents possessed a)
foresight and b) the ability to do simple arithmetic? Hadn't any of
them wanted to be grandparents?
"The
eldest two were out of my range," she went on, "but the youngest was
close enough in age to me to be obnoxious. He discovered he could
entertain himself mightily by teasing me to screaming tantrums. Horses
were a surefire subject; I was horse-mad at the time. I couldn't fight
back—I hadn't the wits then to give as good as I got, and if I tried to
hit him, he was enough bigger than me—I'm thinking of the time when I
was about ten and he was about fourteen—he could just hold me upside
down. He had me so well-trained after a while, he could set me off just
by whinnying." She smiled grimly. "It was a great trial to my parents."
"Couldn't they stop him?"
"He
usually managed to be witty enough, he got away with it. It even worked
on me—I can remember laughing and trying to hit him at the same time.
And I think my mother was starting to be ill by then, though neither of
us knew it. What my mother told me—I can still see her, holding her
head—was the way to get him to stop was for me to just not react. She
said the same thing when I was teased at school, or upset about most
anything. Be a stone statue, she said. Then it wouldn't be any fun for
him, and he would stop.
"And he did stop. Or at
least, he grew out of being a fourteen-year-old lout, and left for
university. We're friends now. But I never unlearned to respond to
attack by turning to stone. Looking back now, I wonder how many of the
problems in my marriage were due to … well." She smiled, and blinked.
"My mother was wrong, I think. She certainly ignored her own pain for
far too long. But I'm stone all the way through, now, and it's too
late."
Miles bit his knuckles, hard. Right. So at
the dawn of puberty, she'd learned no one would defend her, she could
not defend herself, and the only way to survive was to pretend to be
dead. Great. And if there were a more fatally wrong move some awkward
fellow could possibly make at this moment than to take her in his arms
and try to comfort her, it escaped his wildest imaginings. If she
needed to be stone right now because it was the only way she knew how
to survive, let her be marble, let her be granite. Whatever you need, you take it, Milady Ekaterin; whatever you want, you've got it.
What he finally came up with was, "I like horses." He wondered if that sounded as idiotic as it … sounded.
Her dark brows crinkled in amused bafflement, so apparently it did. "Oh, I outgrew that years ago."
Outgrew,
or gave up? "I was an only child, but I had a cousin—Ivan—who was as
loutish as they come. And, of course, much bigger than me, though we're
about the same age. But when I was a kid, I had a bodyguard, one of the
Count-my-Father's Armsmen. Sergeant Bothari. He had no sense of humor
at all. If Ivan had ever tried anything like your brother, no amount of
wit would have saved him."
She smiled. "Your own bodyguard. Now, there's an idyllic childhood indeed."
"It
was, in a lot of ways. Not the medical parts, though. The Sergeant
couldn't help me there. Nor at school. Mind you, I didn't appreciate
what I had at the time. I spent half of my time trying to figure out
how to get away from his protection. But I succeeded often enough, I
guess, to know I could succeed."
"Is Sergeant Bothari still with you? One of those crusty Old Vor family retainers?"
"He
probably would be, if he were still alive, but no. We were, uh, caught
in a war zone on a galactic trip when I was seventeen, and he was
killed."
"Oh. I'm sorry."
"It
was not exactly my fault, but my decisions were pretty prominent in the
causal chain that led to his death." He watched for her reaction to
this confession; as usual, her face changed very little. "But he taught
me how to survive, and go on. The last of his very many lessons." You have just experienced destruction; I know survival. Let me help.
Her eyes flicked up. "Did you love him?"
"He was a … difficult man, but yes."
"Ah."
He offered after a time, "However you came by it, you are very level-headed in emergencies."
"I am?" She looked surprised.
"You were last night."
She
smiled, clearly touched by the compliment. Dammit, she shouldn't take
in this mild observation as if it were great praise. She must be starving half to death, if such a scrap seems a feast.
It
was the most nearly unguarded conversation she'd ever granted him, and
he longed to extend the moment, but they'd run out of groats to push
around in the bottom of their dishes, their coffee was cold, and the
tech from ImpSec arrived at this moment with the secured comconsole
uplink Miles had requested. Madame Vorsoisson pointed out to the tech
her late husband's office as a private space to set up the machine, the
forensics people had been and gone while Miles slept; after briefly
watching the new installation she retreated into housewifery like a red
deer into underbrush, apparently intent on erasing all traces of their
invasion of her space.
Miles turned to face the next most difficult conversation of the morning.
It
took several minutes to establish the secure link with Lord Auditor
Vorthys aboard the probable-cause team's mothership, now docked at the
soletta array. Miles settled himself as comfortably as his aching
muscles would allow, and prepared to cultivate patience in the face of
the irritating several-second time lag between every exchange. Vorthys,
when he at last appeared, was wearing standard-issue ship-knits,
evidently in preparation for donning a pressure suit; the close-fitting
cloth did not flatter his bulky figure. But he seemed to be well up for
the day. The standard-meridian Solstice time kept topside was a few
hours ahead of Serifosa's time zone.
"Good
morning, Professor," Miles began. "I trust you've had a better night
than we did. At the top of the bad news, your nephew-in-law Etienne
Vorsoisson was killed last night in a breath-mask mishap at the Waste
Heat experiment station. I'm here now at Ekaterin's apartment; she's
holding up all right so far. I'll have a very long transmission in
explanation. Over to you."
The trouble with the
time lag was just how agonizingly long one had in which to anticipate
the change of expression, and of people's lives, occasioned by the
arrival of words one had sent but could no longer call back and edit.
Vorthys looked every bit as shocked as Miles had expected when the
message reached him. "My God. Go ahead, Miles."
Miles
took a deep breath and began a blunt precis of yesterday's events, from
the futile hours of being given the royal runaround at the Terraforming
offices, to Vorsoisson's hasty return to drag him out to the experiment
station, the revelation of his involvement with the embezzlement
scheme, their encounter with Soudha and Madame Radovas, the waking up
chained to the railing. He did not describe Vorsoisson's death in
detail. Ekaterin's arrival. ImpSec teams called out in force, too late.
The business with his seal. Vorthys's expression changed from shocked
to appalled as the details mounted.
"Miles, this
is horrible. I'll come downside as soon as I can. Poor Ekaterin. Do
please stay with her till I get there, won't you?" He hesitated.
"Before this came up, I was actually thinking of requesting you to come
topside. We've found some very odd pieces of equipment up here, which
have undergone some quite incredible physical distortions. I'd wondered
if you might have seen anything like it in your galactic military
experiences. There are some traceable serial numbers left here and
there in the debris, though, which I'd hoped may prove a lead. I'll
just have to leave them to my Komarran boys for the moment."
"Odd
equipment, eh? Soudha and his friends left with a lot of odd equipment,
too. At least two lift-vans full. Have your Komarran boys send those
serial numbers to Colonel Gibbs, care of ImpSec Serifosa. He's going to
be tracing a lot of serial numbers in Terraforming Project purchases
that—may not be as bogus as I'd first assumed. There's got to be more
connections between here and there than just poor Radovas's body. Look,
um . . . ImpSec here wants to fast-penta Ekaterin, on account of Tien's
involvement. Do you want me to delay that till you arrive? I thought
you might wish to supervise her interrogation, at least."
Lag.
Vorthys's brow wrinkled in worried thought. "I … dear God. No. I want
to, but I should not. My niece—a clear conflict of interest. Miles, my
boy, do you suppose . . . would you be willing to sit in on it, and see
that they don't get carried away?"
"ImpSec hardly
ever uses those lead lined rubber hoses anymore, but yes, I planned to
do just that. If you do not disapprove, sir."
Lag. "I should be excessively relieved. Thank you."
"Of
course. I also should very much like to have your evaluation of
whatever the ImpSec engineering team turns up out at the experiment
station. At the moment I have very little evidence and lots of
theories. I'm itching to reverse the proportions."
Professor Vorthys smiled dry appreciation of this last line, when it arrived. "Aren't we all."
"I
have another suggestion, sir. Ekaterin seems very alone, here. She
doesn't seem to have any close Komarran women friends that I've seen so
far, and of course, no female relatives … I wondered if it might not be
a good idea for you to send for the Professora."
Vorthys's
face lit when this one registered. "Not only good, but wise and kind.
Yes, of course, at once. Given a family emergency of this nature, her
assistant can surely supervise her final exams. The idea should have
occurred to me directly. Thank you, Miles."
"Everything
else can wait till you get downside, unless something breaks in the
case on ImpSec's end. I'll get Ekaterin in here before I close the
transmission. I know she longs to talk with you, but . . . Tien's
involvement in this mess is pretty humiliating for her, I suspect."
The Professor's lips tightened. "Ah, Tien. Yes. I understand. It's all right, Miles."
Miles
was silent for a time. "Professor," he began at last, "about Tien.
Fast-penta interrogations tend to be a lot more controllable if the
interrogator has some clue what he's getting into. I don't want . . .
um . . . can you give me some sense of what Ekaterin's marriage looked
like from her family's point of view?"
The time
lag dragged, while Vorthys frowned. "I don't like to speak ill of the
dead before their offering is even burned," he said at last.
"I don't think we're going to have a lot of choice, here."
"Huh,"
he said glumly when Miles's words reached him. "Well … I suppose it
seemed like a good idea to everyone at the time. Ekaterin's father,
Shasha Vorvayne, had known Tien's late father—he was recently deceased
then. A decade ago already, my word the time has gone fast. Well. The
two older men had been friends, both officers in the District
government, the families knew each other . . . Tien had just quit the
military, and had used his veteran's rights to obtain a job in the
District civil service. Good-looking, healthy . . . seemed poised to
follow in his father's footsteps, you know, though I suppose it ought
to have been a clue that he had put in his ten years and never risen
beyond the rank of lieutenant." Vorthys pursed his lips.
Miles reddened slightly. "There can be a lot of reasons– never mind. Go on."
"Vorvayne
had begun to recover from my sister's untimely death. He had met a
woman, nothing unseemly, an older woman, Violie Vorvayne is a charming
lady—and begun to think of remarriage. He wanted, I suppose, to see
Ekaterin properly settled—to honorably tie off the last of his
obligations to the past, if you will. My nephews were all out on their
own by then. Tien had called on him, in part as courtesy to his late
father's friend, in part to get a reference for his District service
application . . . they struck up as much of an acquaintance as might be
between two men of such dissimilar ages. My brother-in-law doubtless
spoke highly of Ekaterin…"
"Settled in her
father's mind equated with married, I take it. Not, say, graduated from
University and employed at an enormous salary?"
"Only
for the boys. My brother-in-law can be more Old Vor than you high Vor,
in a lot of ways." Vorthys sighed. "But Tien sent a reputable Baba to
arrange the contracts, the young people were permitted to meet . . .
Ekaterin was excited. Flattered. The Professora was distressed that
Vorvayne hadn't waited a few more years, but . . . young people have no
sense of time. Twenty is old. The first offer is the last
chance. All that nonsense. Ekaterin didn't know how attractive she was,
but her father was afraid, I think, that she might settle on some
inappropriate choice."
"Non-Vor?" Miles interpreted this.
"Or
worse. Maybe even a mere tech, who knew?" Vorthys permitted himself one
tiny ironic glint. Ah, yes. Until his Auditorial apotheosis three years
ago, so startling to his relatives, Vorthys had had a most un-Vorish
career himself. And marriage.
And he'd started
both back when the Old Vor were a lot more Old Vor than they were
now—Miles thought of his grandfather, by way of exemplar, and
suppressed a shudder.
"And the marriage seemed to
start out well," the Professor went on. "She seemed busy and happy,
there was little Nikki come along . . . Tien changed jobs rather often,
I thought, but he was new in his career; sometimes it takes a few false
starts to find your legs. Ekaterin grew out of touch with us, but when
we did see her, she was . . . quieter. Tien never did settle down,
always chasing some rainbow no one else could see. I think all the
moves were hard on her." He frowned, as if thinking back for missed
clues.
Miles did not dare explain about the
Vorzohn's Dystrophy without Ekaterin's express permission, he decided.
It was not his right. He confined himself to remarking, "I think
Ekaterin may feel free to explain more of it now."
The Professor squinted worriedly at him. "Oh . . . ?"
I wonder what answers I'd get to those same questions if I could ask the Professora? Miles shook his head, and went to call Ekaterin to the comconsole.
Ekaterin.
He tasted the syllables of her name in his mind. It had been so easy,
speaking with her uncle, to slip into the familiar form. But she had
not yet invited him to use her first name. Her late husband had called
her Kat. A pet name. A little name. As if he hadn't had time to
pronounce the whole thing, or wished to be bothered. It was true her
full array, Ekaterin Nile Vorvayne Vorsoisson, made an impractical mouthful. But Ekaterin
was light on the teeth and the tip of the tongue, yet elegant and
dignified and entirely worth an extra second of, of anyone's time.
"Madame Vorsoisson?" he called quietly down the hall.
She
emerged from her workroom; he gestured to the secured vid-link. Her
face was grave, and her steps reluctant; he closed the office door
softly on her, and left her and her uncle in private. Privacy was going
to be a rare and precious element for her in the days to come, he could
foresee.
The repair tech arrived at last, along with another duty guard. Miles took them aside for a word.
"I
want you both to stay here till I get back, understand? Madame
Vorsoisson is not to be left unguarded. Um . . . when you're done with
the door, find out from her if there are any other repairs she needs
done around here, and take care of them for her."
"Yes, my lord."
Trailed
by his own guard, Miles took himself off to the Terraforming Project
offices. He passed ImpSec guards on the bubble-car platform, in the
building lobby, and at the corridor entrances to Terraforming's floors.
Miles was put glumly in mind of an Old Vor aphorism about posting a
guard on the picket line after the horses were stolen. Once within, the
ImpSec personnel shifted from steely-eyed goons to intent techs and
clerks, efficiently downloading comconsoles and examining files.
Terraforming Project employees watched them in suppressed terror.
Miles
found Colonel Gibbs set up in Vorsoisson's outer office, with his own
imported comconsole planted firmly therein; rather to his surprise, the
rabbity Venier was dancing worried attendance upon the ImpSec financial
analyst. Venier shot Miles a look of dislike as he strode in.
"Good
morning, Vennie; I didn't expect to see you, somehow," Miles greeted
him cordially. He was oddly glad the fellow hadn't been one of
Soudha's. "Hello, Colonel. I'm Vorkosigan. Sorry for dragging you out
on such short notice."
"My Lord Auditor. I am at
your disposal." Gibbs stood, formally, and took Miles's proffered hand
for a dry handshake. Gibbs was a delight to Miles's eye; a spare,
middle-aged man with graying hair and a meticulous manner who despite
his Imperial undress greens looked every bit an accountant. Even having
held his new rank for almost three whole months, it still felt odd to
Miles to accept the older man's deference.
"I trust Captain Tuomonen has briefed you, and passed on the interesting data packet we acquired last night."
Gibbs,
drawing up a chair for the Lord Auditor, nodded. Venier took the
opportunity to excuse himself, and fled without further prompting at
Gibbs' wave of permission. They seated themselves, and Miles went on,
"How are you doing so far?" He glanced at the stacks of flimsies the
comconsole desk had already acquired.
Gibbs gave
him a faint smile. "For the first three hours' work, I am reasonably
pleased. We have managed to sort out most of Waste Heat Management's
fictitious employees. I expect tracking their false accounts to go
quickly. Your Madame Foscol's report on the late Administrator
Vorsoisson's receipts is very clear. Verifying its truth should not
present a serious problem."
"Be very cautious about any data which may have passed through her hands," Miles warned.
"Oh,
yes. She's quite good. I suspect I am going to find it a pleasure and a
privilege to work with her, if you take my meaning, my lord." Gibb's
eyes glinted.
So nice to meet a man who loves his job.
Well, he'd asked Solstice HQ to send him their best. "Don't speak too
soon about Foscol. I have what promises to be a tedious request for
you."
"Ah?"
"In addition to
fictitious employees, I have reason to believe Waste Heat made a lot of
fictitious equipment purchases. Phony invoices and the like."
"Yes. I've turned up three dummy companies they appear to have used for them."
"Already? That was quick. How?"
"I
ran a data match of all invoices paid by the Terraforming Project with
a list of all real companies in the tax registry of the Empire. Not,
you understand, routine for in-house audits, though I believe I'll
forward a suggestion that it should be added to the list of procedures
in future. There were three companies left over. My field people are
checking them out. I should have confirmation for you by the end of
today. It is, I believe, not excessively optimistic to hope we may
track every missing mark in a week."
"My most
urgent concern is not actually the money." Gibb's brows rose at this;
Miles forged on. "Soudha and his co-conspirators also left with a large
amount of equipment. It has crossed my mind that if we had a reliable
list of Waste Heat's equipment and supply purchases, and subtracted
from it the current physical inventory of what's out there at their
experiment station, the remainder ought to include everything they took with them."
"So it should." Gibbs eyed him with approval.
"It's a brute-force approach," Miles said apologetically. "And not, alas, quite as simple as a data match."
"That," murmured Gibbs, "is why enlisted men were invented."
They
smiled at each other in pleased understanding. Miles continued, "This
will only work if the supply list is truly accurate. I want you to hunt
particularly for phony invoices covering real, but nonstandard,
nonaccounted equipment purchases. I want to know if Soudha smuggled in
anything . . . odd."
Gibbs's head tilted in
interest; his eyes narrowed thoughtfully. "Easy enough for them to have
used their dummy companies also to launder those."
"If you find anything like that, red-flag it and notify myself or Lord Auditor Vorthys at once. And especially
if you turn up any matches with the equipment Vorthys's probable-cause
crew are presently finding at the site of the soletta accident."
"Ah!
The connection begins to come clear. I must say, I had been wondering
why this intense Imperial interest in a mere embezzlement scheme.
Though it's a very nice embezzlement scheme," he hastened to assure Miles. "Professional."
"Quite. Consider that equipment list your top priority, please, Colonel."
"Very good, my lord."
Leaving
Gibbs frowning—rather interestedly, Miles thought– at a fountain of
data displays on his comconsole, Miles went to find Tuomonen.
The
tired-looking ImpSec captain reported no surprises uncovered so far
this morning. The field agents had not yet picked up Soudha's trail. HQ
had sent in a major with an interrogation unit, who had taken over the
systematic examination of the department's remaining employees; the
inquisition was now going on in the conference chamber. "But it's going
to take days to work through them all," Tuomonen added.
"Do you still want to do Madame Vorsoisson this afternoon?"
Tuomonen rubbed his face. "Yes, in all."
"I'll be sitting in."
Tuomonen hesitated. "That is your privilege, my lord."
Miles
considered going to watch the employee interrogations, but decided that
in his current physical state he would not contribute anything
coherent. Everything seemed to be under control, for the moment, except
for himself. The morning's painkillers were beginning to wear off, and
the corridor was getting wavery around the edges. If he was going to be
useful to anyone later in the day, he'd better give his battered body a
rest. "I'll see you back at Madame Vorsoisson's, then," he told
Tuomonen.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Ekaterin seated herself at the comconsole in her
workroom and began to triage the shambles of her life. It was actually
simpler than her first fears had supposed—there was so little of it,
after all.How did I grow so small?
She made
a list of her resources. At the top, and most vital: medical care for
the dependents of a deceased project employee was guaranteed till the
end of the quarter, a few weeks away yet. A time window, of sorts. She
counted the days in her head. It would be time enough for Nikki, if she
didn't waste any.
A few hundred marks remained in
her household account, and a few hundred marks in Tien's. Her use of
this apartment also ran till the end of the quarter, when she must
vacate it to make way for the next administrator to be appointed to
Tien's position. That was fine; she didn't want to stay here longer. No
pension, of course. She grimaced. Guaranteed passage back to Barrayar,
unavailable while Tien was alive, was due her and Nikki as another
death benefit, and thank heavens Tien hadn't figured out how to cash that in.
The
physical objects she owned were more burden than asset, given that she
must transport them by jumpship. The free weight limit was not
generous. She'd apportion Nikki the bulk of their weight allowance; his
little treasures meant more to him than most of her larger ones did to
her. It was stupid to let herself feel overwhelmed by a few rooms of
things she'd been willing to abandon altogether bare hours ago. She
could still abandon them, if she chose. She'd frequented a certain
secondhand shop in a seedier part of the dome to clothe herself and
Nikki. She could sell Tien's clothing and ordinary effects there, a
chore which need only take a few hours. For herself, she longed to
travel light.
On the other side of the ledger, her
debts too were simple, if overwhelming. First were the twenty thousand
marks Tien had borrowed and not paid back. Then—was she honor-bound,
for the sake of Vor pride and Nikki's family name, to make restitution
to the Imperium for the bribe money Tien had accepted? Well, you can't do it today. Pass on to what you can do.
She
had researched the medical resources on Komarr for treating genetic
disorders till the information had worn grooves in her brain,
fantasized solutions that Tien's paranoias—and his legal control of his
heir—had blocked her from carrying out. Technically, Nikki's legal
guardian now was some male third cousin of Tien's back on Barrayar whom
Ekaterin had never met. Nikki not being heir to a fortune or a
Countship, the transfer of his guardianship back to her was probably
hers for the asking. She would deal with that legal kink later, too.
For now, it took her something under nine minutes to contact the top
clinic on Komarr, in Solstice, and browbeat them into setting up
Nikki's first appointment for the day after tomorrow, instead of the
five weeks from today they first tried to offer her.
Yes.
So
simple. She shook with a spasm of rage, at Tien, and at herself. This
could have been done months ago, when they'd first come to Komarr, as
easily as this, if only she'd mustered the courage to defy Tien.
Next
she must notify Tien's mother, his closest living relative. Ekaterin
could leave it to her to spread the news to Tien's more distant
relatives back on Barrayar. Not feeling up to recording a vid message,
she put it in writing, hoping it would not appear too cold. An accident
with a breath mask, which Tien had failed to check. Nothing about the
Komarrans, nothing about the embezzlement, nothing to which ImpSec
could object. Tien's mother might never need to know of Tien's
dishonor. Ekaterin humbly requested her preferences as to ceremonies
and the disposition of the remains. Most likely she would want them
returned to Barrayar to bury beside Tien's brother. Ekaterin could not
help imagining her own feelings, in some future scene, if she entrusted
Nikki to his bride with all bright promise only to have him returned to
her later as a heap of ashes in a box. With a note. No, she would have
to see this through in person. All that also must come later. She sent
the message on its way.
The physical was easy; she
could be finished and packed in a week. The financial was . . . no, not
impossible, just not possible to solve at once. Presumably she must
take out a loan on longer terms to pay off the first one—assuming
anyone would loan money to a destitute and unemployed widow. Tien's
antilegacy clouded the glimmerings of the new future she ached to claim
for herself. She imagined a bird, released from ten years in a cage,
told she could at last fly free—as soon as these lead weights were
attached to her feet.
This bird's going to get there if she has to walk every step.
The
comconsole chimed, startling her from this determined reverie. A man,
soberly dressed in the Komarran style, appeared over the vid-plate at
her touch. He wasn't anyone she knew from Tien's department.
"How
do you do, ma'am," he said, looking at her uncertainly. "My name is Ser
Anafi, and I represent the Rialto Sharemarket Agency. I'm trying to
reach Etienne Vorsoisson."
She recognized the name
of the company whose money Tien had lost on the trade fleet shares.
"He's . . . not available. I'm Madame Vorsoisson. What is your
question?"
Anafi's gaze at her grew more stern.
"This is the fourth reminder notice of his outstanding loan balance,
now overdue. He must either pay in full, or take immediate action to
set up a new repayment schedule."
"How do you normally set up such a schedule?"
Anafi
appeared surprised at this measured response. Had he dealt with Tien
before this? He unbent slightly, leaning back in his chair. "Well … we
normally calculate a percentage of the customer's salary, mitigated by
any available collateral they may be able to offer."
I have no salary. I have no possessions.
Anafi, she suspected, would not be pleased to learn this. "Tien . . .
died in an accident last night. Things are in some disarray here today."
Anafi looked taken aback. "Oh. I'm sorry, Madame," he managed.
"I don't suppose . . . was the loan insured?"
"I'll
check, Madame Vorsoisson. Let us hope …" Anafi turned to his
comconsole; after a moment, he frowned. "I'm sorry to say, it was not."
Ah, Tien. "How should I pay it back?"
Anafi
was silent a long moment, as if thinking. "If you would be willing to
cosign for the loan, I could set up a payment schedule today for you."
"You can do that?"
At
a tentative knock on the door frame of her workroom, she glanced
around. Lord Vorkosigan had returned and stood leaning in the opening.
How long had he been standing there? He gestured inside, and she
nodded. He walked in and eyed Anafi over her shoulder. "Who is this
guy?" he murmured.
"His name's Anafi. He's from the company Tien owes for the fleet shares loan."
"Ah.
Allow me." He stepped up to the comconsole and tapped in a code. The
view split, and a gray-haired man with colonel's tabs and Eye-of-Horus
pins on his green uniform collar appeared.
"Colonel
Gibbs," said Lord Vorkosigan genially. "I have some more data for you
regarding Administrator Vorsoisson's financial affairs. Ser Anafi, meet
Colonel Gibbs. ImpSec. He has a few questions for you. Good day."
"ImpSec!"
said Anafi in startled horror. "ImpSec? What does—" He blipped out at
Lord Vorkosigan's flourishing gesture.
"No more Anafi," he said, with some satisfaction. "Not for the next several days, anyway."
"Now,
was that nice?" asked Ekaterin, amused in spite of herself. "They
loaned that money to Tien in all good faith."
"Nevertheless,
don't sign anything till you take legal advice. If you knew nothing of
the loan, it's possible Tien's estate is liable for it, and not you.
His creditors must squabble with each other for the pieces, and when
it's gone, it's gone."
"But there's nothing in Tien's estate but debts." And dishonor.
"Then the squabble will be short."
"But is it fair?"
"Death
is an ordinary business risk—in some businesses more than others, of
course. . . ."He smiled briefly. "Ser Anafi was getting ready to have
you sign on the spot. This suggests to me that he was perfectly aware
of his risk, and thought he might hustle you into taking over a debt
not rightfully yours while you were still in shock. Not fair. In fact, not ethical at all. Yes, I think we can leave him to ImpSec."
This
was all rather high-handed, but … it was hard not to respond to the
enthusiastic glint in Vorkosigan's eye as he'd annihilated her
adversary.
"Thank you, Lord Vorkosigan. But I really need to learn how to do these things for myself."
"Oh,
yes," he agreed without the least hesitation. "I wish Tsipis were here.
He's been my family's man of business for thirty years. He adores
tutoring the uninitiated. If I could turn him loose on you, you'd be up
to speed in no time, and he'd be just ecstatic. I'm afraid he found me
a frustrating pupil in my youth. I only wanted to learn about the
military. He finally managed to smuggle in some economic education by
presenting it as logistics and supply problems." He leaned against the
comconsole desk, and crossed his arms, and tilted his head. "Do you
think you will be returning to Barrayar anytime soon?"
"Just as soon as I possibly can. I can hardly bear being in this place."
"I think I understand. Where, ah, would you go, on Barrayar?"
She
stared broodingly at the empty vid-plate. "I'm not sure yet. Not to my
father's household." To be crammed back into the status of a child
again. . . . She pictured herself arriving penniless and without
resources, to batten upon her father or one of her brothers. They'd let
her batten, all right, generously, but they would also act as if her
dependence deprived her of rights and dignity and even intelligence.
They would then arrange her life for her own good. . . . "I'm sure I'd
be welcome, but I'm afraid his solution to my problems would be to try
to marry me off again. The idea makes me gag, just now."
"Oh," said Lord Vorkosigan.
A brief silence fell.
"What
would you do if you could do anything?" he asked suddenly. "No limited
resources to juggle, no practical considerations. Anything at all."
"I don't … I usually start with the possible, and pare away from there."
"Try
for more scope." A vague wave of his arm taking in the planet from
zenith to horizon indicated his idea of scope.
She
thought back, all the way back, to the point in her life where she had
made that fatal wrong turn. So many years lost. "Well. I suppose … I
would go back to university. But this time, I'd know what I was
about. Formal training in horticulture and in art, for garden design;
chemistry and biochemistry and botany and genetic manipulation. Real
expertise, the kind that means you can't be intimidated or, or …
persuaded to go along with something stupid because you think everyone
in the universe knows more than you do." She frowned ruefully.
"So you could design gardens for pay?"
"More than that." Her eyes narrowed, as she struggled for her inner vision.
"Planets? Terraforming?"
"Oh, good heavens. That training takes ten years, and another ten years of internship beyond it, before you can even begin to grasp the complexities."
"So? They have to hire someone. Good God, they hired Tien."
"He was only an administrator." She shook her head, daunted.
"All
right," he said cheerfully. "Bigger than a garden, smaller than a
planet. That still leaves sufficient scope, I'd say. A Barrayaran
District could be a good start. One with incomplete terraforming, say,
and, and forestry projects, and, oh, damaged land reclamation, and a
crying need for a touch of beauty. And," he went on, "you could work up to planets."
She had to laugh. "What is this obsession with planets? Will nothing smaller do, for you?"
"Elli
Qu—a friend of mine used to say, 'Aim high. You may still miss the
target but at least you won't shoot your foot off.'" His grin winked at
her. He hesitated, then said more slowly, "You know . . . your father
and brothers aren't your only relatives. The Professor and the
Professora are boundless in their enthusiasm for education. You can't
convince me they wouldn't be pleased to shelter you and Nikki in their
home while you got your new start. And you'd be right there in Vorbarr
Sultana, practically next door to the University and, um, everything.
Good schools for Nikki."
She sighed. "It would be
such a lovely change for him to stay in one place for a while. He could
finally cultivate friends he wouldn't have to abandon. But . . . I've
come to despise dependency."
He eyed her shrewdly. "Because it betrayed you?"
"Or lured me into betraying myself."
"Mm.
But surely there is a qualitative difference between, um, a greenhouse
and a cryo-chamber. Both provide shelter, but the first promotes
growth, while the second merely, um . . ." He seemed to have become a
little tangled in his metaphor.
"Retards decay?" Ekaterin politely tried to help unwind him.
"Just
so." His brief grin again. "Anyway, I'm pretty sure the Professors are
a human greenhouse. All those students—they're used to people growing
up and moving on. They regard it as normal. I'd think you'd like it there." He wandered to her window and glanced out.
"I did like it there," she admitted wistfully.
"Then it all sounds perfectly possible to me. Good, that's settled. Have you had lunch?"
"What?" She laughed, and clutched her hair.
"Lunch," he repeated, deadpan. "Many people eat it at about this time of day."
"You're
mad," she said with conviction, ignoring this willful piece of
misdirection. "Do you always dispose of people's futures in that
offhand fashion?"
"Only when I'm hungry."
She gave up. "I suppose I have something I can fix—"
"Certainly
not!" he said indignantly. "I sent a minion. I just spotted him
returning across the park, with a very promising large bag. The guards
have to eat too, you see."
She contemplated,
briefly, the spectacle of a man who casually sent ImpSec for carry-out.
There probably were security concerns about meals on duty, at that. She
let Vorkosigan shepherd her into her own kitchen, where they selected
from a dozen containers. Ekaterin snitched a flaky apricot tart to set
aside for Nikki, and they sent the remainder to the living room for the
guards to picnic off. The only thing Vorkosigan permitted her to do was
supply fresh tea.
"Did you find out anything new
this morning?" she asked him, when they were settled at the table. She
tried not to think about her last conversation here with Tien. Oh, yes, I want to go home. "Any word on Soudha and Foscol?"
"Not
yet. Part of me expects ImpSec to catch up with them at any moment.
Part of me … is not so optimistic. I keep wondering just how long they
had to plan their departure."
"Well … I don't
think they were expecting Imperial Auditors to arrive in Serifosa.
That, at least, came as a surprise to them."
"Hm. Ah! I
know why this whole thing feels so odd. It's as though my entire brain
is suffering a time lag, and it's not just the bloody seizures. I'm on
the wrong side. I'm on the damned defense, not the offense. One step
behind all the time, reacting not acting—and I'm horribly afraid it may
be an intrinsic condition of my new job." He downed a bite of sandwich.
"Unless I can sell Gregor on the idea of an Auditor Provocateur . . .
Well, anyway, I did have one idea, which I propose to spring on your
uncle when he gets downside." He paused; silence fell. After a moment
he added, "If you make an encouraging noise, I'll go on."
He'd caught her with her mouth full. "Hmm?"
"Lovely,
yes. You see, suppose . . . suppose this thing of Soudha's is more than
a mere embezzlement scheme. Maybe they were diverting all those
Imperial funds to support a real research and development project,
although nothing to do with Waste Heat Management. It may be a
prejudice of my military background, but I keep thinking they might
have been building a weapon. Some new variation on the gravitic
imploder lance, I don't know." He gulped tea.
"I
never had the impression that Soudha or any of the other Komarrans in
the Terraforming Project were very military-minded. Quite the opposite."
"They
needn't be, for an act of sabotage. Some grand stupid vile gesture—I
keep worrying about Gregor's wedding coming up."
"Soudha
isn't grandiose," said Ekaterin slowly. "Nor vile, particularly." She
didn't doubt that Tien's death had been unintended.
"Nor
stupid." Vorkosigan sighed regretfully. "I merely suggest that
timetable to make myself nervous. Keeps me awake. But suppose it was a
weapon. Did they perhaps attack that ore ship, as a test? Vile
enough. Did their smoke test go very wrong? Was the subsequent damage
to the mirror accidental, or deliberate? Or was it the other way
around? The condition of Radovas's body suggests something
backfired. A falling-out among thieves? Anyway, to anchor this spate of
speculation to some sort of physical fact, I plan to get a list of
every piece of equipment Soudha bought for his department, subtract
from it everything they left there, and produce a parts list for their
secret weapon. At this point my brilliance fails, and I plan to dump it
on your uncle."
"Oh!" said Ekaterin. "He'll like that. He'll growl at you."
"Is that a good sign?"
"Yes."
"Hm.
So, positing a secret-weapon sabotage-attack . . . how close are they
to success? I keep coming back—sorry—to Foscol's odd behavior in
providing that data packet of evidence against Tien. It seems to
proclaim: it doesn't matter if the Komarrans are incriminated,
because—fill in the blank. Because why? Because they will not
be here to suffer the consequences? That suggests flight, which runs
counter to the weapon hypothesis, which requires that they linger to
use it."
"Or that they believed you would not be
here to inflict the consequences," said Ekaterin. Had they meant
Vorkosigan to die, too? Or … what?
"Oh, nice. That's reassuring." He bit rather aggressively into the last of his sandwich.
She rested her chin on her hand and regarded him with wry curiosity. "Does ImpSec know you babble like this?"
"Only
when I'm very tired. Besides, I like to think out loud. It slows it
down so I can get a good look at it. It gives you some idea of what
living in my head is like. I admit, very few people can stand to listen
at length." He shot her an odd sideways look. Indeed, whenever his
animation slowed—which was not often—a gray weariness flashed
underneath. "Anyway, you encouraged me. You sang Hmm."
She stared in amused indignation and refused to rise to the bait.
"Sorry,"
he said in a smaller voice. "I think I'm a little disoriented just
now." He gave her an apologetic grimace. "I actually came back here to
rest. Is that not sensible of me? I must be getting old."
Both
their lives were out of phase with their chronological ages, Ekaterin
realized bemusedly. She now possessed the education of a child and the
status of a dowager. Vorkosigan . . . was young for his post, to be
sure. But this whole posthumous second life of his was surely as old as
you could be at any age. "Time is out of joint," she murmured; he
looked up sharply, and seemed about to speak.
Voices
from the vestibule interrupted whatever he'd been about to say.
Ekaterin's head turned. "Tuomonen, so soon?"
"Do you want to put this off?" Vorkosigan asked her.
She shook her head. "No. I want to get it over with. I want to go get Nikki."
"Ah."
He drained his tea mug and rose, and they both went out to her living
room. It was indeed Captain Tuomonen. He nodded to Vorkosigan, and
greeted her politely. He had brought a female medtech with him, in the
uniform of the Barrayaran military medical auxiliary, whom he also
introduced. She carried a medkit, which she placed on the round table
and opened. Ampoules and hyposprays glittered in their gel slots. Other
first-aid supplies hinted at more sinister possibilities.
Tuomonen indicated Ekaterin should sit on the circular couch. "Are you ready, Madame Vorsoisson?"
"I
suppose so." Ekaterin watched with concealed fear and some loathing as
the medtech loaded her hypospray and showed it to Tuomonen to
cross-check.
The medtech laid a second hypospray
out at the ready, and pulled a small, burr-like patch off a plastic
strip. "Would you hold out your wrist, Madame?"
Ekaterin
did so; the woman pressed the allergy test patch firmly against her
skin, then peeled it up again. She continued to hold Ekaterin's wrist
while she marked time on her chrono. Her fingers were dry and cold.
Tuomonen
dispatched the two guards to the perimeter, namely the hallway and the
balcony, and set up a vid recorder on a tripod. He then turned to
Vorkosigan, and with a rather odd emphasis, said, "May I remind you,
Lord Vorkosigan, that more than one questioner can create unnecessary
confusion in a fast-penta interrogation."
Vorkosigan gave him an acknowledging hand wave. "Quite. I know the drill. Go ahead, Captain."
Tuomonen
glanced at the medtech, who stared closely at Ekaterin's wrist, then
released it. "She's clear," the woman reported.
"Proceed, please."
At
the medtech's direction, Ekaterin rolled up her sleeve. The hypospray
hissed against her skin with a cold bite.
Count backwards slowly from ten," Tuomonen told her.
"Ten," Ekaterin said obediently. "Nine . . . eight . . . seven . . ."
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Two … one …" Ekaterin's voice, almost inaudible at first, grew more firm as she counted down.
Miles
thought he could almost mark Ekaterin's heartbeats, as the drug flooded
her system. Her tightly clenched hands loosened in her lap. Tension in
her face, neck, shoulders, and body melted away like snow in the sun.
Her eyes widened and brightened, her pale cheeks flushed with soft
color; her lips parted and curved, and she looked up at Miles, beyond
Tuomonen, with an astonished sunny smile.
"Oh," she said, in a surprised voice. "It doesn't hurt."
"No, fast-penta doesn't hurt," said Tuomonen, in a level, reassuring tone.
That isn't what she means, Tuomonen.
If a person lived in hurt like a mermaid in water, till hurt became as
invisible as breath, its sudden removal—however artificial—must come as
a stunning event. Miles breathed covert relief that Ekaterin apparently
wasn't going to be a giggler or a drooler, nor was she one of the
occasional unfortunates in whom the drug released a torrent of verbal
obscenities, or an almost equally embarrassing torrent of tears.
No. The kicker here is going to be when we take it away again. The realization chilled him. But my God, isn't she beautiful when she is not in pain?
Her open, smiling warmth looked strangely familiar to him, and he tried
to remember just when he'd seen that sweet air about her before. Not
today, not yesterday . . .
It was in your dream.
Oh.
He
sat back and rested his chin in his hand, fingers across his mouth, as
Tuomonen started down the list of standard neutral questions: name,
birth date, parents' names, the usual. The purpose was not only to give
the drug time to take full effect, but also to set up a rhythm of
question-and-answer which would help carry the interrogation along when
the questions, and answers, became more difficult. Ekaterin's birthday
was just three weeks before his own, Miles noted in passing, but the
War of Vordarian's Pretendership, which had so disrupted their mutual
birth year in the regions around Vorbarr Sultana, had scarcely touched
the South Continent.
The medtech had settled
herself on a chair drawn up outside the conversation circle, out of the
line of sight between interrogator and subject, but not, alas, entirely
out of earshot. Miles trusted she had suitable top security clearances.
He didn't know, and decided not to ask, if her gender represented
delicacy on Tuomonen's part, tacit acknowledgment that a fast-penta
interrogation could be a mind-rape. Physical brutality did not mix with
fast-penta interrogation, which had helped to eliminate certain
unsavory psychological types from successful careers as interrogators.
But physical assault was not the only possible kind, nor even
necessarily the worst. Or maybe she'd just been next up on the roster
of available personnel.
Tuomonen moved on to more
recent history. Exactly when had Tien acquired his Komarran post, and
how? Had he known anyone in his department-to-be, or met with anyone in
Soudha's group, before they'd left Barrayar? No? Had she seen any of
his correspondence? Ekaterin, growing ever more cheerful in fast-penta
elation, rattled on as confidingly as a child. She'd been so excited
about the appointment, about the promised proximity to good medical
facilities, certain she would get galactic-class help for Nikki at
last. She had agonized over Tien's application and helped him to write
it. Well, yes, written most of it for him. Serifosa Dome was
fascinating, and their assigned apartment much larger and nicer than
she'd been led to expect. Tien said the Komarrans were all
techno-snobs, but she had not found them to be so …
Gently,
Tuomonen led her back to the issue at hand. Just when had she
discovered her husband's involvement in the embezzlement scheme, and
how? She repeated the same story about Tien's midnight call to Soudha
she had given Miles last night, larded with more extraneous
details—among other things she insisted on giving Tuomonen a complete
recipe for spiced brandied milk. Fast-penta did do odd things to one's
memory, even though it did not, despite rumor, give one perfect recall.
Her report of the overheard conversation sounded nearly verbatim,
though. Despite his obvious fatigue, Tuomonen was skillful and patient,
allowing her to ramble on at length, alert for the hidden gem of
critical information in these flowing associations an interrogator
always hoped would turn up, but usually didn't.
Her
description of breaking into her husband's comconsole the following
morning included the mulish side comment, "If Lord Vorkosigan could do
it, I could do it," which at Tuomonen's alert query triggered an
embarrassing detour into her views of Miles's earlier ImpSec-style raid
on her own comconsole. Miles bit his lip and met Tuomonen's raised
brows blandly.
"He did say he liked my gardens,
though. Nobody else in my family wants to even look at them." She
sighed, and smiled shyly at Miles. Dared he hope he was forgiven?
Tuomonen
consulted his plastic flimsy. "If you didn't discover your husband's
debts until yesterday morning, why did you transfer almost four
thousand marks into his account on the previous morning?" His attention
sharpened at Ekaterin's look of drunken dismay.
"He lied to me. Bastard. Said we were going for the galactic treatment. No! He didn't say it, damn it. Fool, me. I wanted it to be true so much. Better a fool than a liar. Is it? I didn't want to be like him."
Tuomonen
sought enlightenment of Miles with a quick baffled glance. Miles blew
out his breath. "Ask her if it was Nikki's money."
"Nikki's money," she confirmed with a quick nod. Despite the fast-penta wooze, she frowned fiercely.
"This make sense to you, my lord?" Tuomonen murmured.
"I'm
afraid so. She had saved just that sum out of her household accounts
toward her son's medical treatment. I saw the account in her files,
when I was taking that, um, unfortunate tour. I take it that her
husband, claiming to be using it for that purpose, instead relieved her
of it to stave off his creditors." Embezzlement indeed. Miles exhaled, to bring his blood pressure back down. "Have you traced it?"
"Tien transferred it upon receipt to the Rialto Sharemarket Agency."
"There's no getting it back, I suppose?"
"Ask Gibbs, but I don't think so."
"Ah."
Miles bit his knuckle, and nodded for Tuomonen to proceed. Now armed
with the right questions, Tuomonen confirmed this interpretation
explicitly, and went on to draw out all the intensely personal details
about the Vorzohn's Dystrophy.
In exactly the same neutral tone, Tuomonen asked, "Did you arrange your husband's death?"
"No." Ekaterin sighed.
"Did you ask anyone, or pay anyone, to kill him?"
"No."
"Did you know he was to be killed?"
"No."
Fast-penta
frequently made subjects bloody literal-minded; you always asked the
important questions, the ones you were hot about, in a number of
different ways, to be sure.
"Did you kill him yourself?"
"No."
"Did you love him?"
Ekaterin
hesitated. Miles frowned. Facts were ImpSec's rightful prey; feelings,
maybe less so. But Tuomonen wasn't quite out of line yet.
"I
think I did, once. I must have. I remember the wonderful look on his
face, the day Nikki was born. I must have. He wore it out. I can hardly
remember that time."
"Did you hate him?"
"No
. . . yes … I don't know. He wore that out too." She looked earnestly
at Tuomonen. "He never hit me, you know."
What an obituary. When
I go down into the ground at last, as God is my judge, I pray my
best-beloved may have better to say of me than, "He didn't hit me." Miles set his jaw and said nothing.
"Are you sorry he died?"
Watch it, Tuomonen. . . .
"Oh,
but it was such a relief. What a nightmare today would have been if
Tien were still alive. Though I suppose ImpSec would have taken him
away. Theft and treason. But I would have had to go see him. Lord
Vorkosigan said I could not have saved him. There was not enough time
after Foscol called me. I'm so glad. It's so ugly to be so glad. I
suppose I should forgive Tien for everything, because he's dead now,
but I'll never forgive him for turning me into something so ugly."
Despite the drug, tears were leaking from her eyes now. "I didn't use
to be this kind of person, but now I can't go back."
Some
truths cut deeper than even fast-penta could soak. Expressionlessly,
Miles reached past Tuomonen and handed Ekaterin a tissue. She blotted
the moisture in owlish distress.
"Does she need more drug?" the medtech whispered.
"No." Miles made a hand-down gesture for silence.
Tuomonen
asked some more neutral questions, till something like his subject's
original sunny and confiding air returned. Yeah. Nobody should have to do this much truth all at once.
Tuomonen
looked at his flimsy, glanced uneasily at Miles, licked his lips, and
said, "Your cases and Lord Vorkosigan's were found together in your
vestibule. Were you planning to leave together?"
Shock and fury flushed through Miles in a hot wave. Tuomonen, you dare—! But the memory of sorting through all that mixed underwear under the eye of the ImpSec guard stopped his words; so, yes, it could
have looked odd, to someone who didn't know what was going on. He
converted his boiling words to a slow breath, which he let out in a
trickle. Tuomonen's eyes flicked sideways, wary of that sigh.
Ekaterin blinked at him in some confusion. "I'd hoped to."
What? Oh. "She means, at the same time," Miles gritted through his teeth to Tuomonen. "Not together. Try that."
"Was Lord Vorkosigan planning to take you away?"
"Away?
Oh, what a lovely idea. Nobody was taking me away. Who would? I had to
take myself away. Tien threw my aunt's skellytum over the balcony, but
he didn't quite dare throw me. He wanted to, I think."
Miles
was diverted to brood on these last words. How much physical courage
had it taken her, to stand up to Tien at the last? Miles did not
underestimate just what nerve it took to face down large angry men who
had the power to pick you up and pitch you across the room. Nerve and
wit and never letting yourself get within arm's reach, nor blocked from
the door. The calculations were automatic. And you had to stay in
practice. For Ekaterin, it must have felt like landing a fully-loaded
freight shuttle on her very first flying lesson.
Tuomonen,
trying desperately for clarity and still with one eye on Miles,
repeated, "Were you going to elope with Lord Vorkosigan?"
Her brows flew up. "No!" she said in astonishment.
No, of course not. Miles tried to recapture his first properly stunned reaction to the accusation, except that it now came out, What a great idea. Why didn't I think of it?
which rather blunted the fine edge of his outrage. Anyway, she'd never
have run off with him. It was all he could do to get a Barrayaran woman
to walk down the street with a sawed-off mutie like him. . . .
Oh hell. Have you fallen in love with this woman, idiot boy?
Um. Yeah.
He'd
been falling for days, he realized in retrospect. It was just that he'd
finally hit the ground. He should have recognized the symptoms. Oh, Tuomonen. The things we learn under fast-penta.
He
could finally see what Tuomonen was getting at, though, all complete. A
nice neat little conspiracy: murder Tien, blame it on the Komarrans,
run off with his wife over his dead body … "A most flattering scenario,
Tuomonen," Miles breathed to the ImpSec captain. "Quick work on my
part, considering I only met her five days ago. I thank you." Was ever woman in this humor wooed? Was ever woman in this humor won? I think not.
Tuomonen
shot him a flat-lipped glower. "If my guard could think of it, and I
could think of it, so could someone else. Best to knock the notion in
the head as soon as possible. It's not as though I could fast-penta
you. My lord."
No, not even if Miles volunteered.
His known idiosyncratic reaction to the drug, so historically useful in
evading hostile interrogation, also made it impossible for him to use
it to clear himself of any accusation. Tuomonen was just doing his job,
and doing it well. Miles leaned back, and growled, "Yeah, yeah, all
right. But you're optimistic, if you think even fast-penta is fast
enough to compete with titillating rumor. As a courtesy to his Imperial
Majesty's Auditors' reputations, do have a word with that guard of
yours after this."
Tuomonen didn't argue, or pretend to misunderstand. "Yes, my lord."
Temporarily
undirected, Ekaterin was burbling along on her free-association
tangent. "I wonder if the scars below his belt are as interesting as
the ones above. I could hardly have got him out of his trousers in that
bubble-car, I suppose. I had a chance last night, and I didn't even
think of it. Mutie Vor. How does he do it . . . ? I wonder what it
would be like to sleep with someone you actually liked . . . ?"
"Stop," said Tuomonen belatedly. She fell silent and blinked at him.
Just when it was getting really interesting . . .
Miles quelled a narcissistic, or perhaps masochistic, impulse to
encourage her to go on in this strain. He'd invited himself along on
this interrogation to keep ImpSec from abusing its opportunities.
"I'm
finished, my lord," Tuomonen said aside to him in a low voice. He did
not quite meet Miles's eyes. "Is there anything else you think I should
ask, or that you wish to ask?"
Could you ever love me, Ekaterin? Alas, questions of future probability were unanswerable, even under fast-penta.
"No.
I would ask you to note, nothing she's said under fast-penta
substantially contradicts anything she's told us straight out. The two
versions are in fact unusually congruent, compared to other
interrogations in my experience."
"Mine as well,"
Tuomonen allowed. "Very good." He motioned to the silently waiting
medtech. "Go ahead and administer the antagonist."
The
woman stepped forward, adjusted the new hypospray, and pressed it
against the inside of Ekaterin's arm. The lizard-hiss of the anti-drug
going in licked Miles's ears. He counted Ekaterin's heartbeats again,
one, two, three . . .
It was a horribly vampiric
thing to watch, as if life itself were being sucked out of her. Her
shoulders drew in, her whole body hunched in renewed tension, and she
buried her face in her hands. When she raised it again, it was flushed
and damp and strained, but she was not weeping, merely utterly
exhausted, and closed again. He had thought she would weep. Fast-penta doesn't hurt, eh? Couldn't prove it now.
Oh, Milady. Can I ever make you look that happy without drugs? Of more immediate importance, would she forgive him for being a party to her ordeal?
"What a very odd experience," Madame Vorsoisson said neutrally. Her voice was hoarse.
"It
was a well-conducted interview," Miles assured the room at random. "All
things considered. I've . . . seen much worse."
Tuomonen
gave him a dry look, and turned to Ekaterin. "Thank you, Madame
Vorsoisson, for your cooperation. This has been extremely useful to the
investigation."
"Tell the investigation it is welcome."
Miles was not just sure how to interpret that one. Instead he said to Tuomonen, "That will be all for her, won't it?"
Tuomonen
hesitated, obviously trying to sort out whether that was a question or
an order. "I hope so, my lord."
Ekaterin looked
across at Miles. "I'm sorry about the suitcases, Lord Vorkosigan. I
never thought how it might look."
"No, why should you have?" He hoped his voice didn't sound as hollow as it felt.
Tuomonen
said to Ekaterin, "I both suggest and request you rest for a while,
Madame Vorsoisson. My medtech will stay with you for about half an
hour, to be sure you're fully recovered and don't have any further drug
reactions."
"Yes, I … that would probably be wise,
Captain." Rubbery-legged, she rose; the medtech went to her side and
escorted her off toward her bedroom.
Tuomonen shut
down his vid recorder. He said gruffly, "Sorry about that last round of
questions, my Lord Auditor. It was not my intention to offer an insult
to either you or Madame Vorsoisson."
"Yeah, well . . . don't worry about it. What's next, from ImpSec's point of view?"
Tuomonen's
weary brow wrinkled. "I'm not sure. I wanted to make certain I
conducted this interrogation myself. Colonel Gibbs has everything in
hand at the Terraforming offices, and Major D'Emorie hasn't called to
complain yet about anything at the experiment station. What we need next, preferably, is for the field agents to catch up with Soudha and his friends."
"I
can't be in all three places," Miles said reluctantly. "Barring an
arrest coming through … the Professor is en route, and has had the
advantage of a full night's sleep. You, I believe, have had none. My
field instincts say this is the time to knock off for a while. Do I
need to make that an order?"
"No," Tuomonen
assured him earnestly. "You have your wrist-comm, I have mine . . .
Field has our numbers and orders to report the news. I'll be glad to
get home for a meal, even if it is last night's dinner. And a shower."
He rubbed his stubbled chin.
He finished packing
the recorder, exchanged farewells with Miles, and went off to consult
with his guards, hopefully to apprise them of Madame Vorsoisson's
change of status from suspect/witness to free woman.
Miles
considered the couch, rejected it, and wandered into Ekaterin's—Madame
Vorsoisson's. . . . Ekaterin's, dammit, in his mind if not on his
lips—Ekaterin's workroom. Automatic lighting still sustained the
assortment of young plantings on the trellised shelves in the corners.
The grav-bed was gone; oh yes, he'd forgotten she'd had it removed. The
floor looked remarkably inviting, though.
A flash
of scarlet in the trash bin caught his eye. Investigating, he found the
remains of the bonsai'd skellytum bundled up in a square of plastic
sheeting, mixed with pieces of its pot and damp loose dirt. Curiously,
he dug it out and cleared a place on Ekaterin's work table, and
unrolled the plastic . . . botanical body bag, he supposed.
The
fragments put him in mind of the soletta array and the ore ship, and
also of a couple of the more distressing autopsies he'd recently
reviewed. Methodically, he began to sort them out. Broken tendrils in
one pile, root threads in another, shards of the poor burst barrel of
the thing in another. The five-floor plunge had had something of the
same effect on the liquid-conserving central structure of the skellytum
as a sledgehammer applied to a watermelon. Or a needle-grenade
exploding inside someone's chest. He picked out sharp potsherds, and
made tentative tries at piecing the bits of plant into place, like a
jigsaw puzzle. Was there a botanical equivalent of surgical glue, which
could hold it all together again and allow it to heal? Or was it too
late? A brownish tinge to the pale interior lumps suggested rot already
in progress.
He brushed the damp soil from his
fingers, and realized suddenly that he was touching Barrayar. This bit
of dirt had come from South Continent, dug up, perhaps, from a tart old
Vor lady's backyard. He dragged over the station chair from the
comconsole, climbed precariously up onto it, and retrieved what proved
to be an empty pan from an upper shelf. Safely on his feet again, he
carefully gathered up as much of the soil as he could, and dumped it in
the pan.
He stood back, hands on his hips, and
studied his work so far. It made a sad pile. "Compost, my Barrayaran
friend, you're destined to be compost, for all of me. A decent burial
may be all I can do for you. Though in your case, that might actually
be the answer to your prayers. …"
A faint rustle
and an indrawn breath made him suddenly aware that he was not alone. He
turned his head to find Ekaterin, on her feet again and pausing in the
doorway. Her color looked better now than it had immediately after the
interrogation, her skin not so puffy and lined, though she still looked
very tired. Her brows were drawn down in puzzlement. "What are you
doing, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"Um . . . visiting a sick
friend?" Reddening, he gestured to his efforts laid out on her work
bench. "Has the medtech released you?"
"Yes, she's just left. She was very conscientious."
Miles
cleared his throat. "I was wondering if there was any way to put your
skellytum back together. Seemed a shame not to try, seventy years old
and all that." He drew back respectfully as she came up to the bench
and turned over a fragment. "I know you can't sew it up like a person,
but I can't help thinking there ought to be something. I'm afraid I'm
not much of a gardener. My parents let me try, once, when I was a
little kid, back behind Vorkosigan House. I was going to grow flowers
for my Betan mother. Sergeant Bothari ended up doing the spade work, as
I recall. I dug the seeds up twice a day to see if they'd sprouted yet.
My plants did not thrive, for some reason. After that we gave up and
turned it into a fort."
She smiled, a real smile, not a fast-penta grin. We did not break her after all.
"No,
you can't put it back together," she said. "The only way is to start
over. What I could do is take the strongest root fragments—several of
them, to make sure," her long hands sorted through his pile, "and set
them to soak in a hormone solution. And then when it starts to put out
new growth, repot it."
"I saved the dirt," Miles pointed out hopefully. Idiot. Do you know what an idiot you sound like?
But
she merely said, "Thank you." Following up on her words, she rummaged
in her shelves and found a shallow basin, and filled it with water from
the work bench's little sink. Another cupboard yielded a box of white
powder; she sprinkled a tiny amount into the water and stirred it with
her fingers. Taking a knife from her tool drawer, she trimmed the most
promising root fragments and pushed them into the solution. "There.
Maybe something will come of that." She stretched to set the basin
carefully out of the way on the shelf Miles had had to reach by
standing on the chair, and shook the pan of dirt into a plastic bag,
which she sealed and put next to the basin. She then rolled up the
decaying remains in their tarp again, to take over and shake into
another bin; the plastic went back into the trash. "By the time I'd
thought of this poor skellytum again, it would have gone out with the
organic recycle, and been too late. I'd abandoned hope for it last
night, when I thought I had to leave with just what I could carry."
"I didn't mean to burden you. Will it be awkward, to carry home on the jumpship?"
"I'll
put it in a sealed container. By the time I reach my destination, it
should be just about ready to replant." She washed and dried her hands;
Miles followed suit.
Damn Tuomonen anyway, for
forcing to Miles's consciousness a desire his back-brain had known very
well was too unripe and out of season for any fruitful result. Time is out of joint, she'd said. Now he was going to have to deal with it. Now he was going to have to wait. How long? How about til after Tien is buried, for starters? His intentions were honorable enough, at least some of them were, but his timing was lousy. He shoved his hands deep into his pockets and rocked on his heels.
Ekaterin
folded her arms, leaned against the counter, and stared at the floor.
"I wish to apologize, Lord Vorkosigan, for anything I might have said
under fast-penta that was not appropriate."
Miles
shrugged. "I invited myself along. But I thought you could use a
spotter. You did as much for me, after all."
"A spotter." She looked up, her expression lightening. "I had not thought of it like that."
He opened his hand and smiled hopefully.
She
smiled briefly in return, but then sighed. "I'd been so frantic, all
day, for ImpSec to be done so I could go get Nikki. Now I think they
were doing me a favor. I dread this part. I don't know what to tell
him. I don't know how much I should tell him about Tien's mess. As little as possible? The whole truth? Neither feels right."
Miles
said slowly, "We're still in the middle of a classified case, here. You
can't burden a nine-year-old boy with government secrets, or that kind
of judgment call. I don't even know yet how much of this will
eventually become public knowledge."
"Things not done right away get harder." She sighed. "As I'm finding now."
Miles
drew up the comconsole chair for her, and motioned her into it, and
pulled out the stool from under the work bench. He perched on it, and
asked, "Had you told him you were leaving Tien?"
"Not even that, yet."
"I
think . . . that for today, you should only tell him that his father
suffered an accident with his breath mask. Leave the Komarrans out of
it. If he asks for more details than you know how to deal with, send
him to me, and I'll take the job of telling him he can't know, or can't
know yet."
Her level look asked, Can I trust you? "Take care you don't stir up more curiosity than you quell."
"I
understand. The problem of the whole truth is as much a question of
when as what. But after we both get back to Vorbarr Sultana, I would
like, with your permission, to take you to talk with Gr—with a close
friend of mine. He's Vor, too. He had the experience of being in
something like Nikki's position. His father died under, ah, grievous
circumstances, when he was much too young to be told the details. When
he stumbled across some of the uglier facts, in his early twenties, it
was pretty traumatic. I'll bet he'll have a better feel than either of
us for what to tell Nikki and when. He has a fine judgment."
She gave him a provisional nod. "That sounds right. I would like that very much. Thank you."
He
returned her a half-bow, from his perch. "Glad to be of service,
Madame." He'd wanted to introduce her to Gregor the man, his
foster-brother, not Emperor Gregor the Imperial Icon, anyway. This
might serve more than one purpose.
"I also have to
tell Nikki about his Vorzohn's Dystrophy, and I can't put that off. I
made an appointment for him at a clinic in Solstice for the day after
tomorrow."
"He does not know he carries it?"
She
shook her head. "Tien would never let me tell him." She studied him
gravely. "I think you were in something like Nikki's position, too,
when you were a child. Did you have to undergo a great many medical
procedures then?"
"God, yes, years of 'em. What
can I say that's useful? Don't lie about whether it's going to hurt.
Don't leave him alone for long periods." Or you, either . . . There was finally something he could
do for her. "Events permitting, may I ride along with you to Solstice
and render what assistance I can? I can't spare your uncle to you—he's
going to be buried in technical problems by day after tomorrow, if my
parts list takes shape."
"I can't take you away from your duties!"
"My
experience suggests to me that if Soudha hasn't been arrested by then,
what I will be doing by day after tomorrow is spinning my mental
wheels. A day away from the problems may be just what I will need to
give me a fresh approach. You would be doing me a service, I assure
you."
She pursed her lips doubtfully. "I admit … I would be grateful for the company."
Did she mean any company, generally, or his company particularly? Down, boy. Don't even think about it. "Good."
Voices
drifted in from the vestibule: one of the guards, and a familiar
rumble. Ekaterin jumped up. "My uncle is here!"
"He made very good time." Miles followed her into the hallway.
Professor
Vorthys, his broad face wrinkled with concern, gave his valise over to
the guard and folded his niece in his arms, murmuring condolences.
Miles watched in exquisite envy. Her uncle's warm sympathy almost broke
her down, as all of ImpSec's cool professionalism had not; Miles made a
mental note. Cool and practical, that was the ticket. She dashed tears
from her eyes, dispatched the guard with his case to Tien's old office
as before, and led her uncle to the living room.
After
a very brief conference, it was decided the Professor would accompany
her to go collect Nikolai. Miles seconded this despite what he
ironically recognized as his present lovesick mania for volunteerism.
Vorthys had a family right, and Miles himself was too close to Tien's
death. He was also swaying on his feet as the set of painkillers and
stimulants he'd taken before lunch wore off. Taking a third dose today
would be a bad mistake. Instead he saw the Professor and Ekaterin out,
then checked in with ImpSec HQ in Solstice on the secured comconsole.
No
new news. He wandered back toward the living room. Ekaterin's uncle was
here; Miles should go, now. Collect his things and decamp to that
mythical hotel he'd been gassing about for the last week. There was no
room for him in this little apartment, with Vorthys reinstalled in the
guest room. Nikki would need his own bed back, and he was damned if he
was going to trouble Ekaterin to rustle up another grav-bed, or worse,
for his Vor lordly use. What had she been expecting, when she'd
ordered in that thing? He should definitely go. He was obviously not
being as civilly neutral toward his hostess as he'd imagined, if that
blasted guard could make whatever comment it had been that had set off
Tuomonen on that list of embarrassing questions about the suitcases.
"Do you need anything, my lord?" The door guard's voice at Miles's elbow startled him awake.
"Um
. . . yeah. Next time one of your boys comes over from Solstice HQ,
have him bring me a standard military-issue bedroll."
In the meanwhile, Miles staggered over and curled up on the couch after all. He was asleep in minutes.
Miles
awoke when the little party returned with Nikki. He sat up and managed
to be reasonably composed by the time he had to face the boy. Nikki
looked subdued and scared, but was not weeping or hysterical; he
evidently turned his reactions inward rather than outward. Like his
mother.
In the absence of female friends of
Ekaterin's bearing casseroles and cakes in the Barrayaran manner, Miles
caused ImpSec to supply dinner. The three adults kept the conversation
neutral in front of Nikki, after which he went off to play by himself
in his room, and Miles and the Professor retired to the study for a
data-exchange. The new equipment found topside was indeed peculiar,
including some power-transfer equipment heavy-duty enough for a small
jumpship, parts of which had ripped apart, melted, and apparently
exploded in a shower of plasma. The Professor called it, "Truly
interesting," an engineering code-phrase that caught Miles's full
attention.
In the middle of this, Colonel Gibbs
reported in via comconsole. He smiled dryly at both Imperial Auditors,
an expression which Miles was beginning to recognize as Gibbs's version
of ecstasy.
"My Lord Vorkosigan. I have the first
documented connection you were looking for. We've traced the serial
numbers of a pair of hastings converters my Lord Vorthys's people found
topside back through the chain to a Waste Heat purchase eight months
ago. The converters were originally delivered to their experiment
station."
"Right," breathed Miles. "Finally, more
of a link than just Radovas's body. We have hold of the real string,
all right, thank you, Colonel. Carry on."
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Ekaterin slept better than she'd expected to,
but woke to the realization that she'd got through most of yesterday on
adrenaline. Today, with its enforced wait for action, was going to be
harder. I've been waiting nine years. I can manage nineteen more hours.
Lying in bed allowed a kind of numb, foggy grief to descend, despite
her release from the late chaos of Tien's life. So she rose, dressed
carefully, ducked around the guard in her living room, made breakfast,
and waited.
The Auditors stirred soon thereafter
and came out gratefully for food, but carried off their coffee to the
secured comconsole. She ran out of things to clean up, and went out to
her balcony, but found the presence of another guard on post inhibited
her from resting there. So she gave the guards coffee, and retreated to
her kitchen, and waited some more.
Lord Vorkosigan
emerged again. He fended off her offers of more coffee, and instead
seated himself at her table. "ImpSec sent me the autopsy report on Tien
this morning. How much do you want to know about it?"
The
vision of Tien's congealed body, hanging in the frost, flashed in her
memory. "Was there anything unexpected?"
"Not with respect to cause of death. They found his Vorzohn's Dystrophy, of course."
"Yes.
Poor Tien. To spend all those years in a suppressed panic over his
disease, only to die of another cause altogether." She shook her head.
"So much effort, so misplaced. How far advanced was it, could they tell?"
"The
nervous lesions were very distinct, according to the examiner. Though
how they can tell one microscopic blob from another . . . The outward
symptoms, if I interpret the medical jargon correctly, would have been
impossible to conceal very soon."
"Yes. I think I
knew that. It was the inward progress I wondered about. When did it
start. How much of Tien's, oh, bad judgment and other behavior was his
disease." Should she have somehow held on longer? Could she have? Until what other desperate denouement had played itself out?
"The
damage builds slowly for a long time. Which parts of the brain are
affected varies from person to person. For what it's worth, his seemed
concentrated in the motor regions and peripheral nervous system. Though
it may be possible to blame some of his actions on the disease, later,
if a face-saving gesture is needed."
"How . . . politic. Face-saving for whom? I don't wish it."
He
smiled a bit grimly. "I didn't think you did. But I have the unpleasant
conviction that this case is going to shift from its nice clean
engineering parameters into some very messy politics sooner or later. I
never discard a possible reserve." He looked down at his hands, clasped
loosely before him on the table. His gray sleeves imperfectly concealed
the white bandages ringing his wrists. "How did Nikki take the news,
last night?"
"That was hard. He started out—before
I told him—trying to argue me into letting him stay and play another
night. Getting passionate and sulking, you know how kids are. I so much
wished I could simply let him go on, not having to know. I wasn't able
to prepare him as much as I would have liked. I finally had to sit him
down and tell him straight out,Nikki, you have to come home now. Your Da was killed in a breath mask accident last night.
It just . . . wiped him blank. I almost wished for the whining back."
Ekaterin looked away. She wondered what oblique forms Nikki's reactions
might eventually take, and whether she would recognize them. Or handle
them well. Or not … "I don't know how it's going to go in the long run.
When I lost my mother … I was older, and we knew it was coming, but it
was still a shock, that day, that hour. I always thought there would be more time."
"I've
not yet lost a parent," said Vorkosigan. "Grandparents are different, I
think. They are old, it's their destiny, somehow. I was shaken when my
grandfather died, but my world was not. I think my father's was,
though."
"Yes," she looked up gratefully, "that's
the difference exactly. It's like an earthquake. Something that isn't
supposed to move suddenly dumps you over. I think the world is going to
be a scarier place for Nikki this morning."
"Have you hit him with his Vorzohn's Dystrophy news yet?"
"I'm
letting him sleep. I'll tell him after breakfast. I know better than to
stress a kid who has low blood sugar."
"Odd, I
feel the same way about troops. Is there anything . . . can I help? Or
would you prefer to be private?"
"I'm not sure. He
doesn't have school today anyway. Weren't you taking my uncle out to
the experiment station this morning?"
"Directly. It can wait an extra hour for this."
"I
think … I would like it if you can stay. It's not good to make of the
disease something all secret that's too awful to even talk about. That
was Tien's mistake."
"Yes," he said encouragingly. "It's just a thing. You deal with it."
Her brows rose. "As in, one damn thing after another?"
"Yes,
very like." He smiled at her, his gray eyes crinkling. Through whatever
combination of luck and clever surgery, no scars marred his face, she
realized. "It works, as tactics if not strategy."
True
to his offer, Lord Vorkosigan drifted back into her kitchen as Nikki
was finishing his breakfast. He lingered suggestively, stirring the
coffee he took black and leaning against the far counter. Ekaterin took
a deep breath and settled beside Nikki at the table, her own half-empty
and cold cup a mere prop. Nikki eyed her warily.
"You won't be going to school tomorrow," she began, hoping to strike a positive note.
"Is that when Da's funeral is? Will I have to burn the offering?"
"Not
yet. Your Grandmadame has asked that we bring his body back to
Barrayar, to bury beside your uncle who died when you were little."
Tien's mother's return message had come in by comconsole this morning,
beamed and jumped through the wormhole-relays. In writing, as
Ekaterin's had been, and perhaps for similar reasons; writing allowed
one to leave so much out. "We'll do all the ceremonies and burn the
offering then, when everyone can be there."
"Will we have to take him on the jumpship with us?" asked Nikki, looking disturbed.
From
the side of the room Lord Vorkosigan said, "In fact, ImpS—the Imperial
Civil Service will take care of all those arrangements, with your
permission, Madame Vorsoisson. He will probably be back home before you
are, Nikki."
"Oh," said Nikki.
"Oh," Ekaterin echoed. "I … I was wondering. I thank you."
He
sketched a bow. "Allow me to pass on your mother-in-law's address and
instructions. You have enough other things to do."
She
nodded, and turned back to her son. "Anyway, Nikki . . . you and I are
going to Solstice tomorrow, to visit a clinic there. We never mentioned
this to you before, but you have a condition called Vorzohn's
Dystrophy."
Nikki made an uncertain face. "What's that?"
"It's
a disorder where, with age, your body stops making certain proteins in
quite the right shape to do their job. Nowadays the doctors can give
you some retrogenes that produce the proteins correctly, to make up for
it. You're too young to have any symptoms, and with this fix, you never
will." At Nikki's age, and on the first pass, it was probably not yet
necessary to go into the complications it would entail for his future
reproduction. She noticed dryly how she had managed to get through the
long-anticipated spiel without once using the word mutation.
"I've collected a lot of articles about Vorzohn's Dystrophy, which you
can read when you want to. Some of them are too technical, but there
are a couple I think you could get through with a little help." There.
If she could avoid setting off his homework alarms, that ought to set
up a reasonably neutral way to give him the information to which he had
a right, and he could pursue it at his own pace thereafter.
Nikki looked worried. "Will it hurt?"
"Well, they will certainly have to draw blood, and take some tissue samples."
Vorkosigan
put in, "I've had both done to me, what seems like a thousand times
over the years, for various medical reasons. The blood draw hurts for a
moment, but not later. The tissue sampling doesn't hurt because they
use a medical micro-stun, but when the stun wears off, it aches for a
while. They only need a tiny sample from you, so it won't be much."
Nikki appeared to digest this. "Do you have Vorzohn's thing, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"No.
My mother was poisoned with a chemical called soltoxin, before I was
born. It damaged my bones, mainly, which is why I'm so short." He
wandered over to the table and sat down with them.
Ekaterin was expecting Nikki's next to be something along the lines of, Will I be short? but instead, his brown eyes widened in extreme worry. "Did she die?"
"No, she recovered completely. Fortunately. For us all. She's fine now."
He took this in. "Was she scared?"
Nikki,
Ekaterin realized, had not yet sorted out just who Lord Vorkosigan's
mother was, in relation to the people he'd heard about in his history
lessons. Vorkosigan's brows rose in some bemusement. "I don't know. You
can ask her yourself, someday, when—if you meet her. I'd be fascinated
to hear the answer." He caught Ekaterin's unsettled gaze, but his
eyebrows remained unrepentant.
Nikki regarded Lord Vorkosigan dubiously. "Did they fix your bones with retrogenes?"
"No,
more's the pity. It would have been much easier on me, if it had been
possible. They waited till they thought I was done growing, and then
they replaced them with synthetics."
Nikki was diverted. "How d'you replace bones? How do you get them out?"
"Cut
me open," Vorkosigan made a slicing motion with his right hand along
his left arm from elbow to wrist, "chop the old bone out, pop the new
one in, reconnect the joints, transplant the marrow to the new matrix,
glue it up and wait for it to heal. Very messy and tedious."
"Did it hurt?"
"I was asleep—anesthetized. You're lucky you can have retrogenes. All you have to have are a few fiddling injections."
Nikki looked vastly impressed. "Can I see?"
After
an infinitesimal hesitation, Vorkosigan unfastened his shirt cuff and
pushed back his left sleeve. "That pale little line there, see?" Nikki
stared with interest, both at Vorkosigan's arm and, speculatively, at
his own. He wriggled his fingers, and watched his arm flex as the
muscles and bones moved beneath his skin.
"I have
a scab," he offered in return. "Want to see?" Awkwardly, he pushed up
his pant leg to display the latest playground souvenir on his knee.
Gravely, Vorkosigan inspected it, and agreed it was a good scab, and
would doubtless fall off very soon now, and yes, perhaps there would be
a scar, but his mother was very right to tell him not to pick it. To
Ekaterin's relief, everyone then refastened their clothes and the
contest went no further.
The conversation lagging
after that high point, Nikki pushed a few last smears of groats and
syrup artistically around the bottom of his dish, and asked, "Can I be
excused?"
"Of course," said Ekaterin. "Wash the
syrup off your hands," she called after his retreating form. She
watched him—run, not walk—out, and said uncertainly, "That went better
than I expected."
Vorkosigan smiled reassurance. "You were matter-of-fact, so you gave him no reason to be otherwise."
After a little silence Ekaterin said, "Was she scared? Your mother."
His smile twisted. "Spitless, I believe." His eyes warmed, and glinted. "But not, I understand, witless."
The
two Auditors left for an on-site inspection of the Waste Heat
experiment station shortly thereafter. Waiting carefully for a natural
break in Nikki's quiet play in his room, Ekaterin called him in to her
workroom to read the simplest and most straightforward article she had
found on the subject of Vorzohn's Dystrophy. She sat him in her lap in
her comconsole station chair, something she seldom did any more now he
had become so leggy. It was a measure of his hidden unease this
morning, she thought, that he did not resist the cuddle, nor her
direction. He read through the article with fair understanding,
stopping now and then to demand pronunciations and meanings of
unfamiliar terms, or for her to rephrase or interpret some baffling
sentence. If he had not been on her lap, she would not have detected
the slight stiffening of his body as he read the line: . . . later
investigations concluded this natural mutation first appeared in
Vorinnis's District near the end of the Time of Isolation. Only with
the arrival of galactic molecular biology was it determined that it was
unrelated to several old Earth genetic diseases which its symptoms
sometimes mimic.
"Any questions?" Ekaterin asked, when they'd finally wended to the end of the thing.
"Naw." Nikki elbowed off her lap and slid to his feet.
"You can read more whenever you want."
"Huh."
With
difficulty, Ekaterin restrained herself from pursuing some more
definite response from him, realizing she wanted it more for her sake
than his own. Are you all right, is it all right, do you forgive me?
He would not, could not, work through it all in an hour, or a day, or
even a year; each day must have the challenge and response appropriate
to it. One damn thing after another, Vorkosigan had said. But not, thank heavens, all things simultaneously.
The
addition of Lord Vorkosigan to the expedition to Solstice made
startling alterations in Ekaterin's carefully calculated travel plans.
Instead of rising in the middle of the night to catch economy-class
seats on the monorail, they awoke at a leisurely hour to take passage
on an ImpSec suborbital courier shuttle which waited their pleasure,
and would cover the intervening time zones with an hour to spare for
lunch before Nikki's appointment.
"I love the
monorail," Vorkosigan had confided apologetically at her first startled
protest at the news of this change, sprung on her late in the evening
when the two Auditors returned from their day's investigations. "In
fact, I'm thinking of urging my brother Mark to invest in some of the
companies trying to build more of them on Barrayar. But with this case
heating up, ImpSec's made it pretty clear they would rather I did not
travel by public transportation just now thank you very much my lord."
They
also had two bodyguards. They wore discreet Komarran-style civilian
clothes, which made them look exactly like a pair of Barrayaran
military bodyguards in civvies. Vorkosigan seemed equally able to deal
easily with them, or ignore them as though they were invisible, at
will. He brought reports to read on the flight, but only glanced over
them, seeming a little distracted. Ekaterin wondered if Nikki's
restlessness broke his concentration, and if she ought to try and
suppress the boy. But a quiet word from Vorkosigan at apogee won an
excited Nikki an invitation to come forward and spend ten minutes in
the pilot's compartment.
"How is the case going this morning?" Ekaterin asked him during this private interlude.
"Exactly
as I predicted, unfortunately," he said. "ImpSec's failure to catch up
with Soudha is growing more disturbing by the hour. I really thought
they'd have nailed him by now. Between Colonel Gibbs's group, and that
team of earnest ImpSec boys we have counting widgets out at the
experiment station, my parts list is starting to take shape, but it
will be at least another day before it's complete."
"Did my uncle like the idea?"
"Heh.
He said it was tedious, which I already knew. And then he appropriated
it from me, which I take to indicate approval." He rubbed his lips,
introspectively. "Thanks to your uncle, we did get one spot of
encouragement last night. He'd thought to confiscate Radovas's personal
library, when we visited Madame Radovas, and we sent it off to ImpSec
HQ for analysis. Their analyst confirmed Radovas's primary interest in
jumpship technology and wormhole physics, which does not surprise me
much, but then we got a bonus.
"Soudha or his
techs did a superb job of erasing everyone's comconsoles before ImpSec
got to them, but evidently no one thought of the library. Some of the
technical volumes had notes entered in the margin boxes. The Professor
was quite excited about the mathematical fragments, but more obviously,
there were reminders to confide this or that thought or calculation to
some names jotted next to them. Mostly members of the Waste Heat group,
but also a couple of others, including one who appears to be one of the
late members of the station-keeping crew at the soletta array. We're
now positing that Radovas and his equipment, with inside help, had been
smuggled up to the soletta for whatever it was they were trying to do,
rather than being aboard the ore freighter. So was the soletta
essential to what they were doing, or were they only using it for a
test platform? ImpSec has agents out all over the planet today,
questioning and requestioning colleagues, relatives, and friends of
everyone on the soletta or having anything to do with their resupply
shuttle. Tomorrow, I will get to read all those reports."
Nikki's
return dried up this amiable flow of information, and they soon landed
at one of ImpSec's own private shuttle-ports on the edge of the vast
sealed city of Solstice. Instead of taking a public bubble-car, they
were provided with a floater and driver, who took them down into the
restricted tunnels by some dizzying back route that brought them to
their destination in about two-thirds the time of the bubble-car system.
The
first stop was a restaurant atop one of Solstice's highest towers,
providing diners a spectacular view of the capital glittering halfway
to the horizon; though the place was crowded, no one was seated near
them while they ate, Ekaterin observed. The bodyguards did not join in
the meal.
The menu had no prices, triggering a
moment of panic in Ekaterin's heart. She had no way to direct Nikki, or
herself, for that matter, to the cheaper selections. If you have to ask, you can't afford it. Her initial determination to argue possession of her portion of the bill with Vorkosigan sagged.
Vorkosigan's
height and appearance drew the usual covert double-takes. For the first
time in his company, she became aware of being mistaken for a couple or
even a family. Her chin rose defensively. What, did they think him too
odd to attach a woman? It was none of their business anyway.
The
next stop—and Ekaterin was very grateful she did not have to navigate
to it herself—was the clinic, a comfortable quarter hour early.
Vorkosigan did not appear to notice anything in the least remarkable
about the whole magic carpet ride, though Nikki had been
enthusiastically diverted throughout. Had Vorkosigan planned that? The
boy grew suddenly very much quieter as they took the lift-tubes up to
the clinic lobby.
When they were ushered to the
booth of an admissions clerk, Vorkosigan pulled up a chair for himself
just behind Ekaterin and Nikki, and the bodyguards faded discreetly out
of range. Ekaterin presented identification and civil service payment
documentation, and all seemed to go smoothly, until they came to the
information that Nikki's father was lately deceased, and the clinic
comconsole demanded formal permissions from Nikki's legal guardian.
That thing is much too well programmed,
Ekaterin thought, and embarked on an explanation of the distance to
Tien's third cousin back on Barrayar, and the time-constrained need for
Nikki's treatment to be completed before their return. The Komarran
clerk listened with understanding and sympathy, but the comconsole
program did not agree, and after a couple of attempts to override it,
the clerk went off to fetch her supervisor. Ekaterin bit her lip and
rubbed her palms on her trouser knees. To come so far, to be so close,
to get hung up on some legal technicality now . . .
The
supervisor, a pleasant young Komarran man, returned with the clerk, and
Ekaterin gave her explanation again. He listened, and rechecked all the
documentation, and turned to her with an air of earnest regret.
"I'm
sorry, Madame Vorsoisson. If you were a Komarran planetary shareholder,
instead of a Barrayaran subject, the rules would be very different."
"All
Komarran planetary shareholders are Barrayaran subjects," Vorkosigan
pointed out from behind her, in a bland tone.
The
supervisor managed a pained smile. "I'm afraid that's not quite what I
meant. The thing is, a similar problem came up for us just a few months
ago, regarding treatment under quasi-emergency conditions of a Vor
child of Komarr-resident Barrayarans. We went with what seemed to us to
be the common-sense approach. The child's legal guardian later
disagreed, and the judicial, er, negotiations are still going on. It
proved to be a very costly error of judgment for the clinic. Given that
Vorzohn's Dystrophy is a chronic and not an immediately
life-threatening condition, and that you should in theory be able to
obtain your legal permissions in a week or two, I'm afraid I'm going to
have to ask you to reschedule."
Ekaterin took a
deep breath, whether to argue or scream she was not sure. But Lord
Vorkosigan leaned past her shoulder and smiled at the supervisor. "Hand
me that read-pad, will you?"
The puzzled
supervisor did so; Vorkosigan rummaged in his pocket and pulled out his
gold Auditor's seal, which he uncapped and pressed to the pad, along
with his right palm. He spoke into the vocorder. "By my order, and for
the good the Imperium, I request and require all assistance, to wit,
suitable medical treatment for Nikolai Vorsoisson. Vorkosigan, Imperial
Auditor." He handed it back. "See if that doesn't make your machine
happier." He murmured aside to Ekaterin, "Just like swatting flies with
a laser cannon. The aim's a bit tricky, but it sure takes care of the
flies."
"Lord Vorkosigan, I can't …" Her tongue stumbled to a halt. Can't what?
This wasn't like waffling over the lunch bill; Tien's benefits would be
paying for Nikki's treatment, if only the Komarrans could be persuaded
to disgorge it. Vorkosigan's offered contribution was entirely
intangible. "Nothing your esteemed uncle would not have done for you,
if I could have spared him to you today." He gave her one his
ghost-bows, seated.
The supervisor's expression
changed from suspicious to stunned as his comconsole digested this new
data. "You are Lord Auditor Vorkosigan?"
"At your service."
"I … er … uh … in what capacity are you here, my Lord?"
"Friend
of the family." Vorkosigan's smile twisted just slightly, "Red tape
cutter and general expediter." To his credit, the supervisor managed
not to gibber. He dismissed the clerk and sped them through processing,
and himself escorted them upstairs and into the hands of the medtechs
in the genetics department. He then vanished, but things ran blazingly
quickly thereafter.
"It almost seems unfair,"
Ekaterin murmured, when Nikki was whisked away briefly by a tech to pee
into a sampler, "to think Nikki just jumped the queue, there."
"Yes,
well … I found last winter that an Auditor's seal had the same
enlivening effect on ImpMil's veteran's treatment division, whose
hallways are much draftier and drab than these, and whose queue times
are legendary. Quite ridiculous. I was charmed." Vorkosigan's face grew
more introspective, and sober. "I'm afraid I've not quite found my
balance with this Imperial Auditor thing yet. What is the just use of
power, what is its abuse? I could have ordered Madame Radovas to be
fast-penta'd, or ordered Tien to land us at the experiment station that
first evening, and events would now be … well, I don't quite know what
they would now be, except different than this. But I did not wish to …"
He trailed off, and for just a flash, Ekaterin caught an impression of
a much younger man beneath his habitual mask of irony and authority. He is no older than me, after all.
"Did
you anticipate that problem with the permissions? I should have thought
of it, I suppose, but they took all the information when I made the
appointment, and didn't say anything, so I thought, I assumed—"
"Not
specifically. But I hoped I might have a chance to do some little
service or another today. I'm pleased it was so easy."
Yes,
she realized enviously, he could just wave all ordinary problems out of
his path. Leaving only the extraordinary ones . . . her envy ebbed. It
occurred belatedly to Ekaterin that he too might feel some guilt about
Tien's death, and that was why he was going to such lengths to assist
Tien's widow and orphan. So intense a concern seemed unnecessary, and
she wondered how to reassure him that she did not blame him without
creating more awkwardness than she erased.
A
battery of tests was completed upon Nikki in about half the time
Ekaterin had mentally allotted for them. The Komarran physician met
with them in her comfortable office very shortly thereafter; Vorkosigan
dismissed the bodyguards to lurk in the corridor.
"Nikki's
gene scan shows the dystrophy complex to be very much in the classic
mode," the doctor told them, when Ekaterin and Nikki were seated side
by side in front of her comconsole desk. Vorkosigan, as usual, took a
backseat and just watched. "He has a few idiosyncratic complications,
but nothing our lab can't handle."
She
illustrated her talk with a holovid of the actual offending
chromosomes, and a computer-generated vid of exactly how the retrovirus
would deliver the splice that would work to supplement their
deficiencies. Nikki did not ask as many questions as Ekaterin had hoped
he would—was he intimidated, weary, bored?
"I
believe our gene techs can have the retrovirus personalized for Nikki
in about a week," the doctor concluded. "I'm going to have you return
for the injection then, Nikki. Plan to stay overnight in Solstice for a
recheck the following day, Madame Vorsoisson, and if possible, visit us
again just before you leave Komarr. Nikki will need to be reexamined
monthly thereafter for three months, which you can have done at a
clinic I will recommend to you in Vorbarr Sultana. We'll give out a
disk with all the records, and they should be able to pick it up from
there. After that, assuming all goes well, a early checkup should
suffice."
"That's all?" said Ekaterin, weak with relief.
"That's all."
"There was no damage yet? We are in time?"
"No,
he's fine. It's hard to project, with Vorzohn's Dystrophy, but I would
guess in his case the onset of detectable gross cellular damage would
have begun to appear in his late teens or early twenties. You are in
good time."
Ekaterin held Nikki's hand hard as
they exited, her steps firm, to keep her feet from dancing. With an,
"Aw, Mama," Nikki extracted himself, and walked with independent
dignity beside her. Vorkosigan, his hands shoved deep in his gray
trouser pockets, followed smiling.
Nikki fell
asleep in the shuttle, with his head pillowed on Ekaterin's lap. She
watched him fondly, and stroked his hair, lightly so as not to wake him.
Vorkosigan,
sitting across from them with his reader on his knees again, watched
her in turn, and murmured, "Is it well?"
"It's
well," she said softly. "But it feels so strange . . . Nikki's illness
has been the whole focus of my life for so long. I gradually pared away
all the other impossibilities to concentrate wholly on this, the one
main thing. It feels as though I had been steeling myself to batter
down some unscalable wall. And then, when I finally took a deep breath
and put my head down and charged, it just . . . fell, all in a heap,
like that. And now I'm stumbling around in the dust and the bricks,
blinking. I feel very unbalanced. Where am I now? Who am I now?"
"Oh,
you'll find your center. You can't have mislaid it totally, even if you
have been revolving around other people. Give yourself time."
"I
thought my center was to be Vor, like the women before me." She glanced
across at him, feeling inarticulate and urgent. And then I chose Tien .
. . you have to understand, it was my choice. My marriage was
arranged, offered, but it wasn't forced, I wanted it, wanted to have
children, form a family, carry on the pattern. Make my place in this, I
don't know, generational pageant."
"I am the eleventh of my name. I know about the Vor pageant."
"Yes,"
she said gratefully. "It wasn't that I didn't choose what I wanted, or
gave away my center, or any of those things. But somehow, I didn't end
up with the beautiful Vor pattern-weave I was trying to make. I ended
up with this . . . tangle of strings." Her fingers wriggled in air,
miming chaos.
His lips quirked, introspective and ironic. "I know tangles, too."
"But
do you know—well, of course you would, but . . . The business with the
brick wall. Failure, failure was grown familiar to me. Comfortable,
almost, when I stopped struggling against it. I did not know
achievement was so devastating."
"Huh." He was
leaning back, now, his reader forgotten on his lap, regarding her with
his entire attention. "Yes . . . vertigo at apogee, eh? And the reward
for a job well done is another job, and what have you done for us
lately, and is that all, Lieutenant Vorkosigan, and . . . yes.
Achievement is devastating, or at least disorienting, and they don't
warn you in advance. It's the sudden change of momentum and direction,
I think."
She blinked. "How very strange. I expected you to tell me I was being foolish."
"Deny your perfectly correct perception? Why should you expect that?"
"Habit … I suppose."
"Mm.
You can learn to enjoy the sensation of winning, you know, once you get
over the initial queasiness. It's an acquired taste."
"How long did it take you to acquire it?"
He smiled slowly. "Once."
"That's not a taste, that's an addiction."
"It's one that would look well on you."
His
eyes were uncomfortably bright. Challenging? She smiled in confusion,
and stared out the port at the darkening Komarran sky as the shuttle
began its descent. He rubbed his lips, not quite erasing their odd
quirk, and returned his attention to his reports.
Uncle
Vorthys met them at the apartment door, data disks in his hand and a
vague distracted smile on his face. He gave Ekaterin's hand a warm
grasp, and fended off Nikki's immediate attempt to appropriate him and
carry him off to hear about the wonders of the ImpSec shuttle.
"Just
a moment, Nikki. We shall go to the kitchen for dessert, and you can
tell me all about it. Ekaterin. I've heard from the Professora. She's
taken ship on Barrayar, and will be here in three days' time. I didn't
like to tell you till she was sure she could get away."
"Oh!"
Ekaterin almost jumped with delight, mitigated immediately by concern.
"Oh, no, sir, do you meant to say you are dragging that poor woman
through five wormhole jumps from Barrayar to Komarr for me? She gets so jumpsick!"
"It was Lord Vorkosigan's idea, actually," said Uncle Vorthys.
Vorkosigan put on a bright, trapped smile at this, and shrugged warily.
"Although
I had fully intended to drag her here for my own sake," Uncle Vorthys
continued, "at the end of the term. This just advanced the timetable.
She does like Komarr, once she gets here and has a day to recover from
the jump-lag. I thought you would like it."
"You shouldn't have—but oh, I do like it, very much."
Vorkosigan
straightened at these words, and his smile relaxed into a
self-satisfaction that amused her vastly. Ekaterin wasn't sure if she
was reading the subtleties of his expression better now, or if he was
concealing them less.
"If I get you a ticket,
would you go out to meet her at the jump-point station?" Uncle Vorthys
added. "I'm afraid I won't have time, and she hates traveling alone.
You could see her a day earlier, and have some time together on the
last leg downside."
"Certainly, sir!" Ekaterin
almost shivered with the realization of how much she longed to see her
aunt. She'd been living in Tien's orbit so long, she'd become used to
her isolation as the norm. Ekaterin counted the Professora as one of
the few non-disheartening relatives she possessed. A friend—an ally!
The Komarran women Ekaterin had met were nice enough, but there was so
much they didn't understand. . . . Aunt Vorthys might make acerbic
comments, but she understood deeply.
"Yes, yes,
Nikki—" said Uncle Vorthys. "Miles. When you are ready, I'll meet you
in my room, and we can go over today's progress on the comconsole."
"Have we some? Is it interesting?"
Uncle
Vorthys made a balancing gesture with his free hand. "I'd be interested
in what pattern you see emerging, if any."
"At
your convenience. Knock on my door when you're ready." Vorkosigan
smiled at Nikki, gave the Professor a vague salutelike gesture, and
withdrew.
Nikki, impatiently waiting his turn, now
dragged his great-uncle off to the kitchen as promised; Ekaterin could
only be grateful that of his day's events the ImpSec shuttle seemed to
loom so much larger than the medical examinations. She followed,
satisfied.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
Early the next morning Miles, in shirt and
trousers but barefoot, stepped into the hallway with his toiletries
case in hand. He must remind Tuomonen to return his medical kit. The
ImpSec techs couldn't have found any interesting explosive devices in
it, or he would have been informed by now. His bleary meditations
suffered a check when he discovered Ekaterin, still dressed in a robe
and with her hair in unusual but fetching disarray, leaning against the
hall bathroom door. "Nikki," she hissed. "Open this door at once! You
can't hide all day in there."
A muffled young voice returned mulishly, "Yes, I can."
Lips
tight, she tapped again, urgently but quietly, then jumped a little as
she saw Miles, and clutched the neck of her robe.
"Oh. Lord Vorkosigan."
"Good morning, Madame Vorsoisson," he said civilly. "Ah . . . trouble?"
She
nodded ruefully. "I thought yesterday went awfully easily. Nikki tried
to insist he was too sick to go to school today, because of his
Vorzohn's Dystrophy. I explained again it didn't work that way, but he
got more and more stubborn. He begged to stay home. No, not just
stubborn. Scared, I think. This isn't the usual malingering." She
jerked her head toward the locked door. "I tried getting firm. It was
not the right tactic. Now he's panicked."
Miles
bent to glance at the lock, which was an ordinary mechanical one. Too
bad it wasn't a palm lock; he knew some tricks with those. This one
didn't even have screws, but some kind of rivets. It was going to take
a pry bar. Or subterfuge . . .
"Nikki," called
Ekaterin hopefully. "Lord Vorkosigan is out here. He needs to get
washed and dressed, so he can go to work."
Silence.
"I'm
torn," murmured Ekaterin in lower tones. "We're leaving in a few weeks.
A few missed lessons wouldn't matter, but . . . that's not the point."
"I
went to a private Vor school rather like his, when I was his age,"
Miles murmured back. "I know what he's afraid of. But I think your
instincts are correct." He frowned thoughtfully, then set his case down
and rummaged for his tube of depilatory cream, which he smeared
liberally over his night's bristles. "Nikki?" he called more loudly.
"Can I come in? I'm all over depilatory cream, and if I don't wash it
off, it'll start eating through my skin."
"Won't he realize you can wash in the kitchen?" Ekaterin whispered.
"Maybe. But he's only nine, I'm gambling depilation is still a bit of a mystery."
After a moment Nikki's voice came, "You can come in. But I'm not coming out. And I'm locking it again."
"That's fair," Miles allowed.
Some rustling near the door. "Should I grab him when it opens?" Ekaterin asked, very dubiously.
"Nope.
It would violate our tacit agreement. I'll go in, then we'll see what
happens. At least you'll have a spy inside the gate, at that point."
"It seems wrong to use you so."
"Mm,
but kids only dare defy those whom they really trust. The fact that I'm
still mostly a stranger to him gives me an advantage, which I invite
you to use."
"True enough. Well … all right."
The
door opened a cautious crack. Miles waited. It opened a little wider.
He sighed, turned sideways, and slipped through. Nikki shut it again
immediately, and snapped the lock.
The boy was
dressed for school, in his braided uniform of sober gray and maroon,
but minus his shoes. The shoes presumably had been the sticking point,
with their implicit commitment to going out. Nikki backed up and seated
himself on the edge of the tub; Miles laid out his toiletries kit on
the counter and rolled up his sleeves, trying to think fast before
coffee. Or think at all. His eloquence had inspired his soldiers to
face death, in the past, or so he dimly recalled. Now let's try something really hard.
Playing for time and inspiration, he methodically brushed his teeth, by
which time the depilatory had finished working. He washed off the
resultant goo, rubbed his face dry with the towel, flung it over his
shoulder, and leaned with his back against the door, slowly unrolling
his sleeves and fastening his cuffs.
"So, Nikki," he said at last. "What's the trouble with going to school this morning?"
Moisture
smeared around the boy's defiant eyes glistened when it caught the
light. "I'm sick. I've got Vorzohn's thing."
"It's not catching. You can't give it to anybody." Except for the way you got it.
From the blank look on Nikki's face, the idea of being dangerous to
anyone else had never crossed his mind. Ah, the self-centeredness of
childhood. Miles hesitated, wondering how to approach the real problem.
For almost the first time, he wondered how certain aspects of his
childhood had looked from his parents' point of view. The doubled
vision was dizzying. How the devil did I wind up on the enemy side?
"You
know," Miles essayed, "no one will even know you have it unless you
tell them. It's not like they can smell it on you, eh?"
The mulish look redoubled. "That's what Mama said."
Scratch
that trial balloon. There was an inherent problem in suggesting secrecy
anyway, as Tien's life demonstrated. Suppressing a passing desire to
strangle the boy for inflicting yet more distress on Ekaterin just now,
Miles asked, "Have you had breakfast yet?"
"Yeah."
Starving
him out or bribing him with food would be too slow, then. "Well . . .
deal. I won't tell you you're blowing it all out of proportion if you
won't tell me I don't understand."
Nikki glanced up from his seat, his attention arrested. Yeah. See me, kid.
Miles considered, and immediately discarded, any argument that smacked
of threat, that attempted to chivvy Nikki in the right direction by
upping the pressure. For instance, the one that started out, How do you ever expect to have the courage to jump through wormholes if you haven't the courage to face this?
Nikki was up against the wall now, driven into this untenable retreat.
Upping the pressure would just squash him. The trick was to lower the
wall. "I went to a private school a bit like yours. I can't remember a
time I wasn't dealing with being a mutie Vor, in my classmates' eyes.
By the time I was your age, I had a dozen strategies. Some of them were
pretty counterproductive, I admit."
He'd gone
through medical hell in his childhood with a stiff lip. But a few
still-remembered playfellows, upon discovering that his brittle bones
made physical harassment too dangerous—to themselves, when they found
they couldn't conceal the evidence—had learned to reduce him to
humiliated tears with words alone. Sergeant Bothari, delivering Miles
daily to this academic purgatory, quickly made a routine of an expert
shakedown, relieving him of weapons ranging from kitchen knives to a
military stunner stolen from Captain Koudelka's holster. After that,
Miles had gone to war in a subtler fashion. It had taken almost two
years to teach certain of his classmates to leave him alone. Learning
all round. Upon reflection, offering his own age nine-to-twelve
solutions might not be the best idea … in fact, letting Nikki even find
out what some of them had been could be a supremely bad idea. "But that
was twenty years ago, on Barrayar. Times have changed. What exactly do
you think your friends here will do to you?"
Nikki shrugged. "Dunno."
"Well, give me some guesses. You can't plan a strategy without good intelligence."
Nikki shrugged again. After a time he added, "It's not what they'll do. It what they'll think."
Miles
blew out his breath. "That's … a little tenuous for me to work with,
y'know. What you fear someone will think, in the future. I usually have
to use fast-penta to find out what people really think. And even
fast-penta won't tell me what they're going to think."
Nikki
hunched. Miles regretfully gave up the notion of telling him that if he
kept making those turtle-backed gestures, his spine would freeze like
that, just as Miles's had. There was a faint, awful possibility the boy
might believe him.
"What we need," Miles sighed,
"is an ImpSec agent. Someone to scout unknown territory, not knowing
what the strangers they meet are going to do or think. Listen
carefully, watch and remember, report back. And they have to do it over
and over, in new places all the time. It's bloody daunting, the first
time."
Nikki looked up. "How do you know? You said you were a courier."
Damn,
the kid was sharp. "I'm, um, not supposed to talk about it. You're not
cleared. But do you think your school is as dangerous as, say,
Jackson's Whole, or Eta Ceta? Just to pick a couple of, ah, random
examples."
Nikki stared in silent and, Miles feared, justified scorn of this adult floundering.
"Tell you something I did learn, though."
Nikki was drawn, or at least, looked up.
Go with it; he won't give you more.
"It's not as daunting the second time. I wished later I could have
started with the second time. But the only way to get to the second
time is to do the first time. Seems paradoxical, that the fastest way
to get to easy is through hard. In any case, I can't spare you an
ImpSec agent to check out your school for anti-mutant activity."
Nikki snorted warily, alive to the least hint of patronization.
Miles's grin twisted in bleak appreciation. "Besides, it would be overkill, don't you think?"
"Prob'ly." Grouchy hunching.
"The
ideal ImpSec scout would be someone who could blend in, anyway. Someone
who knew the territory like that back of his hand, and wouldn't make
dangerous mistakes out of ignorance. Someone who could keep his own
counsel and not let his assumptions get in the way of his observations.
And not get into fights, because it would blow his cover. Very
practical people, the successful Imperial agents I've known." He eyed
Nikki meditatively. This was not going well. Try another. "The youngest
subagent I ever employed was about ten. It wasn't on Barrayar, needless
to say, but I don't think you're any less bright or competent than she
was."
"Ten?" said Nikki, temporarily startled out of his surly knot. "She?"
"It
was for a spot of simple courier duty. She could pass unnoticed where a
uniformed mercen—where a uniformed adult could not. Now, I'm willing to
be your tactical consultant on this, ah, school-penetration mission,
but I can't work without intelligence. And the best agent to collect
it, in this case, is already in place. Do you dare?"
Nikki shrugged. But his lip-biting stony look had faded into one of speculation. "Ten … a girl …"
A hit, a very palpable hit.
"I put her down on my ImpSec expenditures log as a local informant. She
was paid, of course. Same rates as an adult. A small but measurable
contribution to speeding that particular mission to a successful
conclusion." Miles stared off into the middle distance for a moment,
with an air of reminiscence of the sort which usually preceded long,
boring adult stories. When he judged the hook was set, he feigned to
come back to himself and smiled faintly at Nikki. "Well, that's enough
of that. Duty drives. I haven't had breakfast. If you decide to come
out, I'll be here for another ten minutes or so."
Miles
unlatched the lock and let himself out. He didn't think Nikki had
bought more than one word of his in three, though for a change and in
contrast to several of his historic negotiations, it had all been true.
But at least he'd managed to offer a line of retreat from an impossible
position.
Ekaterin was waiting in the hall. He put
his finger to his lips and waited a moment. The door stayed closed, but
the lock did not click again. Miles motioned Ekaterin to follow, and
tiptoed away to the living room.
"Whew," said Miles. "I think that's the toughest audience I've ever played to."
"What happened?" demanded Ekaterin anxiously. "Is he coming out?"
"Not
sure yet. I gave him a couple of new things to think about. He didn't
seem as panicked. And it's going to get really boring in there after a
bit. Let's give him some time and see."
Miles was
just finishing his groats and coffee when Nikki cautiously poked his
head around the kitchen door. He lingered in the doorway, kicking his
heel against the frame. Ekaterin, seated across from Miles, put her
hand to her lips and waited.
"Where're my shoes?" asked Nikki after a moment.
"Under
the table," said Ekaterin, maintaining, with obvious effort, a
perfectly neutral tone. Nikki crawled under to retrieve them, and sat
cross-legged on the floor by the door to put them on.
When he stood up again, Ekaterin said carefully, "Do you want anyone to go with you?"
"Naw."
His gaze crossed Miles's just briefly, then he slouched into the living
room to collect his school bag and let himself out the front door.
Ekaterin,
turning back from her arrested half-rise from her chair, sank down
limply. "My word. I wonder if I ought to call the school to make sure
he arrives."
Miles thought it over. "Yes. But don't let Nikki know you checked."
"Right." She swirled the coffee around in the bottom of her cup, and added hesitantly, "How did you do that?"
"Do what?"
"Get
him out of there. If it had been Tien . . . they were both stubborn.
Tien would get so frustrated with Nikki sometimes, not without cause.
He would have threatened to take the door down and drag Nikki to
school; I would have run around in circles placating, frantically
afraid things would get out of hand. Though they never quite seemed to.
I don't know if that was because of me, or … Tien would always be a
little ashamed later, not that he would ever apologize, but he would
buy . . . well, it doesn't matter now."
Miles made
a crosshatch pattern in the bottom of his dish with his spoon, hoping
his desire for her approval was not too embarrassingly obvious.
"Physical solutions have never come easily to me. I just . . . played
with his mind, eased him out. I try never to take away somebody's face
when I'm negotiating."
"Not even a child's?" Her
lips quirked, and her brows flicked up in an expression he wasn't sure
how to interpret. "A rare approach."
"So, maybe my tactics had the novelty of surprise. I admit, I did think
of ordering my ImpSec minions into the breach, but it would have looked
like a very silly order. Nikki's dignity wasn't the only one on the
line."
"Well . . . thank you for being so patient.
One doesn't normally expect busy and important men to take the time for
kids."
Her voice was warm; she was pleased.
Oh, good. He babbled in relief, "Well, I do. Expect it, that is. My Da
always did, you see—take time for me. Later, when I learned not
everyone's Da did the same, I just assumed it was only a trait of the most busy and most important men."
"Hm." She looked down at her hands, resting on either side of her cup, and smiled crookedly.
Professor
Vorthys lumbered in, dressed for the day in his comfortable rumpled
suit, scarcely more form-fitting than his pajamas. It was tailor-made
garb, appropriate to his status as an Imperial Voice, but he must,
Miles reflected, have driven his tailor to despair before coaxing just the fit he wanted, With lots of room in the pockets,
as he'd once explained to Miles while the Professora rolled her eyes
heavenward. Vorthys was stuffing data disks into these capacious
compartments. "Are you ready, Miles? ImpSec just called to say they'll
have an aircar and driver waiting for us at the West Locks."
"Yes,
very good." With an apologetic smile to Ekaterin, Miles tossed off the
last of his coffee and rose. "Will you be all right today, Madame
Vorsoisson?"
"Yes, of course. I have a lot to do.
I have an appointment with an estate law counselor, and any amount of
sorting and packing . . . the guard won't have to go with me, will he?"
"Not
unless you wish. We are leaving one man on duty here, by your leave.
But if our Komarrans had wanted hostages, they could have taken me and
Tien that first night." And bought themselves loads more trouble. If
only they had, Miles reflected regretfully. His case could be
ever so much further along by now. Soudha was too damned smart. "If I
thought you and Nikki were in any possible danger—" I'd figure some way to use you for bait— no, no. "If you are in the least uncomfortable, I'd be happy to assign you a man."
"No, indeed."
That
faint smile again. Miles felt he could happily spend the rest of the
morning studying all the subtle expressions of her lips. Equipment lists. You're going to go study equipment lists. "Then I bid you good morning, Madame."
Lord
Auditor Vorthys, after his first survey of the new situation, had
chosen to set up his personal headquarters out at the Waste Heat
experiment station. Miles had to admit, the security there was great;
no one was likely to blunder in by accident, or wander across its bleak
surroundings unobserved. Well, he and Tien had, but the occupants had
been distracted at the time, and Tien had apparently possessed a dire
luck which amounted to antigenius. Miles wondered which had come first,
for Soudha; had the administrative acquisition of such a perfect site
for secret work triggered the idea for his shadow project, or had he
had the idea first, and then maneuvered himself into the right
promotion to capture control of the station? Just one of a long list of
questions Miles was itching to ask the man, under fast-penta.
After
the ImpSec aircar delivered the two Auditors, Miles went off first to
check the progress of his, or rather, ImpSec Engineering Major
D'Emorie's, inventory crews. The sergeant in charge promised completion
of the tedious identification, counting, and cross-check of every
portable object in the station before the end of today. Miles then
returned to Vorthys, who had set up a sort of engineer's nest in one of
the long upstairs workrooms in the office section, with roomy tables,
lots of light, and a proliferating array of high-powered comconsoles.
The Professor grunted greetings from behind a multicolored
spaghetti-array of mathematical projections, glimmering above his
vid-plate. Miles settled down in a comconsole station chair to study
the growing list of real objects Colonel Gibbs claimed Waste Heat had
paid for, but which were no longer to be found on Waste Heat's
premises, hoping some subliminally familiar ordnance pattern might
emerge.
After a while, the Professor shut off his holovid display and sighed. "Well, no doubt they built something. The topside crews picked up some more fragments yesterday, mostly melted."
"So
does our inventory represent one something, destroyed along with
Radovas, or two somethings?" Miles wondered aloud.
"Oh,
I should think two, at least. Though the second may not have been
assembled yet. If one thinks it through from Soudha's point of view,
one realizes he's been having a very bad month."
"Yes,
if that whole mess topside wasn't some really bizarre suicide mission,
or internecine sabotage, or. … and where is Marie Trogir, blast
it? I'm not at all sure the Komarrans knew, either. When he talked to
me, Soudha seemed to be angling to find out if I knew anything of her.
Unless that was just more of his misdirection."
"Are you seeing anything in your inventory yet?" asked Vorthys.
"Mm,
not exactly what I'm looking for. The final autopsy report on Radovas
revealed some cellular distortions, in addition to the gross, and I use
that term advisedly, damage. They reminded me a little of what happens
to human bodies which have suffered a near-miss from a gravitic
imploder beam. A hit, of course, is very distinctive, in a messy and
violently-distributed way, but a near-miss can kill without actually
bursting the body. I've been wondering since I first saw the cell scans
if Soudha has reinvented the gravitic imploder lance, or some other
gravitic field weapon. Scaling them down to personnel size has been an
ongoing ambition of the weapons boffins, I know. But . . . the parts
list doesn't quite jibe. There's a load of heavy-duty power
transmission equipment among this stuff, but I'm damned if I see what
they're transmitting it to."
"The math
fragments found in Radovas's library intrigue me very much," said
Vorthys. "You spoke to Soudha's mathematician, Cappell—what was your
impression of him?"
"It's hard to say, now that I
know he was lying through his teeth at me through the whole interview,"
said Miles ruefully. "I deduce that Soudha trusted him to keep his
head, at a time when the whole team must have been scrambling like hell
to complete their withdrawal. Soudha was very selective, I now realize,
in just who he gated through to me." Miles hesitated, not just sure he
could lay out the logic of his next conclusion. "I think Cappell was a
key man. Maybe next after Soudha himself. Although the accountant,
Foscol … no. I give you a foursome. Soudha, Foscol, Cappell, and
Radovas. They're the core. I'll bet you Betan dollars to sand the
farrago about a love affair between Radovas and Trogir was a complete
fabrication, a convincing smoke screen they developed after the
accident, to buy time. But in that case, where is Trogir now?"
After a moment he added, "And were they planning to use their thing, or
sell it? If sell, they'd almost have to find a customer out of the
Empire. Maybe Trogir double-crossed everyone and took off with the
specs to some high bidder. ImpSec's got a tight watch for our missing
Komarrans on all the jump-point exits from the Empire. They only had a
couple hours' start, they can't have got out before the lid clamped down. But Trogir had a two-week head start. She could be long gone by now."
Vorthys shook his head, declining to reason in advance of his data; Miles sighed, and returned to his list.
By
the end of an hour, Miles was cross-eyed from staring at meters and
meters of really supremely boring inventory readouts. His mind
wandered, revolving a plan to go attach himself like a hyperactive
leech to all the field agents searching for the fugitive
Komarrans. Sequentially, he supposed; he had learned not to wish to be
twins, or any other multiple of himself. Miles thought of the old
Barrayaran joke about the Vor lord who jumped on his horse and rode off
in all directions. Forward momentum only worked as a strategy if one
had correctly identified which way was forward. After all, Lord Auditor Vorthys didn't run around in circles; he sat composedly in the center and let it all come to him.
Miles's
meditations on the proven disadvantages of cloning were interrupted
when Colonel Gibbs called them. Gibbs was sporting a demure smile of
amazing smugness. The Professor wandered over into range of the vid
pickup and leaned on the back of Miles's chair as Gibbs spoke.
"My
Lord Auditor. My Lord Auditor." Gibbs nodded to them both. "I've found
something odd I expect you want. We finally succeeded in tracing the
real purchase orders of Waste Heat's largest equipment expenditures.
They have, over the last two years, bought five custom-designed Necklin
field generators from a Komarran jumpship powerplant firm. I have the
company's name and address, and copies of the invoices. Bollan Design–
that's the builder—still has the tech specs on file."
"Soudha
was building a jump ship?" Miles muttered, trying to picture it. "Wait
a minute, Necklin rods come in pairs . . . maybe they broke one?
Colonel, has ImpSec visited Bollan yet?"
"We did,
to confirm the invoice forgery. Bollan Design appears to be a perfectly
legitimate, though small, company; they've been in business about
thirty years, which rather predates this embezzlement operation.
They're unable to compete head to head with the major builders like
Toscane Industries, so they've specialized in odd and experimental
designs and custom repairs of out-system and obsolete jumpship rods.
Bollan as a company does not appear to have violated any regulation,
and seems to have dealt with Soudha as a customer in all good faith.
The invoices at the time they left Bollan were not yet altered; that
was done when they arrived on Foscol's comconsole, apparently.
Nevertheless . . . the chief design engineer who worked on the order
directly with Soudha has not been to work for three days, nor did my
field agent find him at home."
Miles swore under
his breath. "Ducking fast-penta interrogation, you bet. Unless his body
turns up dead in a ditch. Could be either, at this point. You have a
detainment order out on him, I trust?"
"Certainly, my lord. Shall I download everything we've acquired so far this morning on your secured channel?"
"Yes, please," said Miles.
"Especially
the tech specs," put in Vorthys over his shoulder. "After I look at
them, I may want to talk to the people at Bollan who are still
there. May I trouble ImpSec to be sure none of the rest of them go on
an extempore vacation before I get in touch with them, Colonel?"
"Already been done, my lord."
Still
looking smug, Gibbs signed off, to be replaced by the promised
financial and technical data. Vorthys tried to foist the financial
records off on Miles, who promptly filed them and went to look at
Vorthys's tech readouts.
"Well," said Vorthys,
when, after a cursory initial scan, he was able to pull up a holovid
schematic, which rotated slowly and colorfully in three dimensions
above his vid-plate. "What the hell is that?"
"I
was hoping you'd tell me," Miles breathed, now hanging in turn over the
back of Vorthys's station chair. "Sure doesn't look like any Necklin
rod I've ever seen." The lines turning in air sketched out a shape like
a cross between a corkscrew and a funnel.
"All the
designs are slightly different," noted Vorthys, bringing up four more
shapes to hang in series beside the first. "Judging by the dates, they
were scaling up with each subsequent model."
According
to the attached measurements, the first three were relatively smaller,
a couple of meters long and a meter or so wide. The fourth was double
the dimensions of the third. The fifth, probably four meters wide at
the larger end and six meters in length. Miles pictured the size of the
assembly room doors in the building next to this one. Wherever that
last one had been delivered to—four weeks ago?—it hadn't been here. And
one did not leave a delicate precision device like a Necklin rod out in
the wind and rain.
"Those things generate Necklin
fields?" said Miles. "What shape? With a pair of jumpship rods, the
fields counter-rotate and fold the ship through five-space." He held
his hands out parallel with each other, palm up, then pressed them
inward, in the metaphor he'd been given, the field wrapped around the
ship to create a five-space needle of infinitesimal diameter and
unlimited length, to punch through that area of five-space weakness
called a wormhole, and unfold again into three-space on the other side.
He'd also been dragged through a more convincing mathematical
demonstration, in his last term at the Academy, all details of which,
never called on subsequently thereafter, had evaporated out of his
brain shortly after the final exam. That was long before his
cryo-revival, so it was one bit of memory loss he could not blame on
the sniper's needle-grenade. "I used to know this stuff . . ." he
muttered plaintively.
Despite this broad hint, the
Professor did not break into an enlightening lecture. He just sat in
his station chair, his chin cupped in his palm. After a moment, he
leaned forward and called up a dizzying succession of data files from
the probable-cause investigation. "Ah. Here it is." A wriggly graph
appeared, flanked by a list of elements and percentages running down
one side. A fast pass through the data from Bollan produced another,
similar list. The Professor leaned back. "I'll be damned."
"What?" said Miles.
"I
did not expect to get this lucky. That," he pointed to the first graph,
"is an analysis of the composition of a very melted and distorted mass
fragment we picked up topside. It has nearly the same composition
fingerprint as this fourth device, here. The figures which are a tiny
bit off are just the sort of lighter and more volatile elements I'd
expect to lose in such a melt. Huh. I didn't think we'd ever be able to reconstruct the source of those blobs. Now we don't have to."
"If that was the fourth," said Miles slowly, "where's the fifth?"
The Professor shrugged. "The same place as the first, second, and third?"
"Do
you have enough information from the inventory to reconstruct its power
supply? At that point, we'd have the whole machine mapped, wouldn't we?"
"Mm,
maybe. It will certainly supply some parameters. How much power?
Continuous, or phased? Bollan had to know, to supply the proper coupler
. . . ah." He noodled again with the specs and fell into a study of the
complicated diagram.
Miles rocked impatiently on
his heels. When he felt he could no longer maintain his respectful
silence without the top of his head blowing off, he said, "Yes, but
what does it do?"
"Just what it says, presumably. Generates a five-space distortion field."
"Which does what? To what?"
"Ah."
The Professor sank back in his station chair and rubbed his chin
ruefully. "Answering that may take a little longer."
"Can't we run comconsole simulations?"
"To
be sure. But to get the right answer, one must first correctly frame
the question. I want—humph!—a mathematical physicist specializing in
five-space theory. Probably Dr. Riva, she's at the University of
Solstice."
"If she's Komarran, ImpSec will object."
"Yes,
but she's here on-planet. I've consulted her before, when I
investigated a politically suspicious wormhole jump accident on the
Sergyar route two years ago. She thinks sideways better than any of the
other five-space people I know."
Miles was under
the impression that all five-space math experts thought sideways to the
rest of humanity, but he nodded understanding of the importance of this
character trait.
"I want her; I shall have her.
But before I drag her out of her comfortable academic routine, I think
I want to visit Bollan in person. Your Colonel Gibbs is very good, but
he can't have asked all the questions."
Miles
considered denying personal ownership of ImpSec and anyone in it, but
recognized ruefully that he was now identified as the authority on
ImpSec among the Auditors just as Vorthys was identified as the
engineering expert. It's an ImpSec problem, he pictured some future conclave of his colleagues concluding. Give it to Vorkosigan. "Right."
The
trip to Bollan Design's plant did not prove as enlightening as Miles
had hoped. A hop in a suborbital shuttle to a dome one Sector west of
Serifosa soon brought Miles and Vorthys face-to-face with Bollan's
upset owners. Since they'd already thrown open all their records to
ImpSec that morning, they had little more to offer the Imperial
Auditors. The administrative people knew only of financial and
contractual details with Soudha's mythical "private research institute"
that had supposedly ordered the work; some techs who'd worked in the
fabrication shop had very little to add to the specs already in
Vorthys's possession. If the missing engineer had been as innocent of
the true identity of the customer and purpose of the device as were the
rest of the Bollan employees, he'd have had no reason to flee; Bollan
Design had committed no crime that Miles could identify.
However,
the techs were able to recall dates of several visits from men
answering to descriptions of Soudha, Cappell, and Radovas, definitely
one from Soudha as recently as the previous week. Their supervisor had
never included them in these conferences. They had been told never to
discuss the odd Necklin generators outside their work group, as the
devices were experimental and not yet patented, trade secrets soon to
transmute into profit (or loss). The progression so far had looked a
lot more like loss than profit.
The customers had
always picked up the finished devices from the plant themselves, not
had them delivered anywhere. Miles made a note to find out if Waste
Heat had owned their own large transport, and if not, to have ImpSec
check out recent lift-van rentals of anything big enough to have hauled
those last two generators.
Nosing around the plant
while the Professor went off to speak High Engineering to the
bilingual, Miles felt himself increasingly drawn to the hypothesis that
the chief designer had gone missing voluntarily. Upon closer
examination it had been found that many of the man's personal notes had
apparently gone with him. Bollan's plant security was not military
grade, but it would be a stretch to imagine Soudha's hurried Komarrans
first murdering the man, then smoothly and surgically removing quite so
many comconsole records from quite so many locations without inside
help. Anyway, Miles didn't wish the man dead in a ditch. He wished him
very much alive, at the business end of Tuomonen's hypospray. That was
the trouble, people anticipated fast-penta now. Modern
conspirators were a lot more tight-lipped than back in the bad old days
of mere physical torture. Three days ago, if someone had told Miles
that Gibbs was going to hand him what amounted to complete design specs
of Soudha's secret weapon on a platter, he would have been delighted to
imagine his case nearly solved. Ha.
Miles and
Vorthys arrived back at Ekaterin's apartment that light too late for
dinner, but in time for a hand-made dessert obviously tailored to the
Professor's tastes, involving chocolate, cream, and quantities of
hydroponic pecans. They all sat around Ekaterin's kitchen table to
devour it. Whatever Nikki had encountered from his playmates today, it
hadn't been unpleasant enough to affect his appetite, Miles noted with
approval.
"How was school today?" Miles asked him,
ashamed to let such a deadly boring triteness fall from his lips, but
how else was he supposed to find out?
"All right," Nikki said around a mouthful of cream.
"Think you'll have any trouble tomorrow?"
"Naw."
The tone of his monosyllables had returned to its normal preadolescent
adult-wary indifference; no more the breathy panicked edge of this
morning.
"Good," Miles said affably. Ekaterin's eyes were smiling, Miles noted out of the corner of his own. Good.
When
Nikki finished bolting his dessert and galloped off, she added wryly,
"And how was work today? I wasn't sure if the extra hours represented
progress, or the reverse."
How was work today.
Her tone seemed to apologize for the prosaic quality of the question.
Miles wondered how to explain to her that he found it altogether
delightful, and wished she'd do it again. And again and . . . Her
perfume was making his reptile-brain want to roll over and do tricks,
and he wasn't even sure she was wearing any. This mind-melting mixture
of lust and domesticity was entirely novel to him. Well, half novel; he
knew how to handle lust. It was the domesticity that had ambushed his
guard. "We have advanced to new and surprising levels of bafflement,"
Miles told her.
The Professor opened his mouth,
closed it, then said, "That about sums it up. Lord Vorkosigan's
hypothesis has proved correct; the embezzlement scheme was got up to
support the production of a, um, novel device."
"Secret weapon," Miles corrected. "I said secret weapon."
The Professor's eyes glinted in amusement. "Define your terms. If it's a weapon, then what's the target?"
"It's
so secret," Miles explained to Ekaterin, "we can't even figure out what
it does. So I'm at least half right." He glanced after Nikki. "I take
it once Nikki got into his usual routine, things smoothed out?"
"Yes.
I'd been almost certain they would," said Ekaterin. "Thank you so much
for your help this morning, Lord Vorkosigan. I'm very grateful that—"
Miles
was saved from certain embarrassment by the chime of the hall door.
Ekaterin rose and went to answer it and the Professor followed,
blocking Miles from his planned counterbid,
How did things go with the estate law counselor? I was sure you could get on top of it.
The ImpSec guard was now on post in the hallway, Miles reminded
himself; he didn't need to make a parade out of this. Tucking the line
away in his head for the next conversation-opener, he tapped open the
airseal door and wandered out onto the balcony.
Both
sun and soletta had set hours ago. Only the city itself gave a glow to
the night. A few pedestrians still crossed the park below, moving in
and out of the shadows, hurrying on their way to or from the bubble-car
platform, or strolling more slowly in pairs. Miles leaned on the
railing and studied one sauntering couple, his arm draped across her
shoulders, her arm circling his waist. In zero gee, a height difference
like that would cancel out, by God. And how did the space-dwelling
four-armed quaddies manage these moments? He'd met a quaddie musician
once. He was certain there must be a quaddie equivalent to a grip so
humanly universal . . .
His idle envious
speculations were derailed by the sound of voices within the apartment.
Ekaterin was welcoming a guest. A man's voice, Komarran accented: Miles
stiffened as he recognized the rabbity Venier's quick speech.
"—ImpSec
didn't take as long to release his personal effects as I would have
imagined. So Colonel Gibbs said I might bring them to you."
"Thank
you, Venier," Ekaterin's voice replied, in the soft tone Miles had come
to associate with wariness in her. "Just put the box down on the table,
why don't you? Now, where did he go . . . ?"
A
clunk. "Most of it is nothing, styluses and the like, but I figured you
would want the vidclipper with all the holos of you and your son."
"Yes, indeed."
"Actually,
there is more to my visit than just cleaning out Administrator
Vorsoisson's office." Venier took a deep breath. "I wanted to speak to
you privately."
Miles, who had been about to
reenter the kitchen from the balcony, froze. Dammit, ImpSec had
questioned and cleared Venier, hadn't they? What new secret could he be
about to offer, and to Ekaterin of all people? If Miles entered, would
he clam up?
"Well . . . well, all right. Um, why don't you sit down?"
"Thank you." The scrape of chairs.
Venier
began again, "I've been thinking about how awkward your situation here
has become since the Administrator's death. I'm so very sorry, but I
couldn't help being aware, watching you over the months, that things
were not what they should have been between you and your late husband."
"Tien . . . was difficult. I didn't realize it showed."
"Tien was an ass," Venier stated flatly. "That showed. Sorry, sorry. But it's true, and we both know it."
"It's moot now." Her tone was not encouraging.
Venier
forged on. "I heard about how he played fast and loose with your
pension. His death has plunged you into a monstrous situation. I
understand you are being forced to return to Barrayar."
Ekaterin said slowly, "I plan to return to Barrayar, yes."
He ought to clear his throat, Miles thought. Trip over a balcony chair. Pop back through the door and cry, Vennie, fancy meeting you here! He began breathing through his mouth, for silence, instead.
"I
realize this is a bad time to bring this up, much too soon," Venier
went on. "But I've been watching you for months. The way you were
treated. Practically a prisoner, in a traditional Barrayaran marriage.
I could not tell how willing a prisoner you were, but now—have you
considered staying on Komarr? Not going back into your cell? You have
this chance, you see, to escape."
Miles could feel his heart begin to beat, in a free-form panic. Where was Venier going with this?
"I … the economics . . . our return passage is a death benefit, you see." That same wary softness.
"I
have an alternative to offer you." Venier swallowed; Miles swore he
could hear the slight gurgle in his narrow neck. "Marry me. It would
give you the legal protection you need to stay here. No one could force
you back, then. I could support you, while you train up to your full
strength, botany or chemistry or anything you choose. You could be so
much. I can't tell you how it's turned my stomach, to see so much human
potential wasted on that clown of a Barrayaran. I realize that for you
it would have to start as a marriage of convenience, but as a Vor,
that's surely not an alien idea for you. And it could grow to be more,
in time, I'm certain it could. I know it's too soon, but soon you'll be
gone and then it will be too late!"
Venier paused for breath. Miles bent over, mouth still open, in a sort of silent scream. My lines! My lines! Those were all my lines, dammit!
He'd expected Vorish rivals for Ekaterin's hand to come pouring out of
the woodwork as soon as the widow touched down in Vorbarr Sultana, but
my God, she hadn't even got off Komarr yet! He hadn't thought of
Venier, or any other Komarran, as possible competition. He wasn't
competition, the idea of Vennie as competition was laughable. Miles had
more power, position, money, rank, all to lay at her feet when the time
was finally ripe—Venier wasn't even taller than Ekaterin, he was a good
four centimeters shorter—
The one thing Miles
couldn't offer, though, was less Barrayar. In that, Venier had an
advantage Miles could never match.
There followed a long, terrifying silence, during which Miles's brain screamed, Say no, say no! say NO!
"That's very kindly offered," Ekaterin said at last.
What the hell is that supposed to mean? And was Venier wondering the same thing?
"Kindness has nothing to do with it. I—" Venier cleared his throat again "—admire you very much."
"Oh, dear."
He
added eagerly, "I've applied for the administrative position as head of
terraforming here. I think I have a good chance, because of the
disruption in the department, HQ is surely going to be looking for some
continuity. Or if the mud has splattered on the innocent as well as the
guilty, I'll do whatever I have to do to get another shot, a chance to
clear my professional reputation—I can make Serifosa Sector a showcase,
I know I can. If you stay, I can get you voting shares. We could do it
together; we could make this place a garden. Stay here and help build a
world!"
Another long, terrifying silence. Then
Ekaterin said, "I suppose you'd be assigned this apartment, if you
succeeded to Tien's position."
"It goes with it,"
said Venier in an uncertain voice. Right, that wasn't a selling point,
though Miles wasn't sure if Venier knew it. I can hardly bear being in this place, she'd said.
"You
offer is kind and generous, Venier. But you have mistaken my situation,
somewhat. No one is forcing me to return home. Komarr . . . I'm afraid
these domes give me claustrophobia, anymore. Every time I pull on a
breath mask, I'm going to think about the ugly way Tien died."
"Ah," said Venier. "I can understand that, but perhaps, in time . . . ?"
"Oh,
yes. Time. Vor custom calls for a widow to mourn for one year." Miles
could not guess what gesture, what facial expression, went with these
words. A grimace? A smile?
"Do you hold to that
archaic custom? Must you? Why? I never understood it. I thought in the
Time of Isolation they tried to keep all women married all the time."
"Actually,
I think it was practical. It gave time to be certain any pregnancy that
might have been started could be completed while the woman was still
under the control of her late husband's family, so they could be sure
of claiming custody of any male issue. But still, whether I believe in
formal mourning or not won't matter. As long as people think I do, I
can use it to defend myself from—from unwanted suits. I so much need a
quiet time and place to find my balance again."
There
was a short silence. Then Venier said, more stiffly, "Defend? I did not
mean my proposal as an attack, Kat."
"Of course I don't think that," she replied faintly.
Lie, lie.
Of course she bloody well did. Ekaterin had experienced marriage as one
long siege of her soul. After ten years of Tien, she probably felt
about matrimony the way Miles felt about needle-grenade launchers. This
was very bad for Venier. Good. But it was equally bad for Miles. Bad.
Good. Bad. Good. Bad …
"Kat, I … I won't make a
pest of myself. But think about it, think about all your alternatives,
before you do anything irrevocable. I'll still be here."
Another
awful silence. Then, "I don't wish to give you pain, who never gave me
any, but it's wrong to make people live on false hopes." A long,
indrawn breath, as if she was mustering all her strength. "No."
Yes!
And then, added more weakly, "But thank you so much for caring about me."
Longer
silence. Then Venier said, "I meant to help. I can see I've made it
worse. I really must be going, I still have to pick up dinner on the
way home …"
Yes, and eat it alone, you miserable rabbit! Ha!
"Madame Vorsoisson, good night."
"Let
me see you to the door. Thank you again for bringing Tien's things. I
do hope you get Tien's job, Venier, I'm sure you could do it well. It's
time they started promoting Komarrans into the higher administrative
positions again …"
Miles slowly unfroze, wondering
how he was going to slip past her now. If she went on to check Nikki,
as she might, he could nip into her workroom without her seeing him,
and pretend he'd been there all the time—
Instead,
he heard her steps return to the kitchen. A scrape and rattle, a sigh,
then a louder rattle as the contents of a box were, apparently, dumped
wholesale into the trash chute. A chair being pulled or pushed. He
inched forward, to peek around the door port. She had sat again for a
moment, her hands pressed against her eyes. Crying? Laughing? She
rubbed her face, threw back her head, and stood, turning toward the
balcony.
Miles hastily backed up, looked around,
and sat in the nearest chair. He extended his legs and threw back his
head artistically, and closed his eyes. Dare he try to fake a snore, or
would that be overdoing it?
Her steps paused. Oh,
God, what if she sealed the door, locking him out like a strayed cat?
Would he have to bang on the glass, or stay out here all night? Would
anyone miss him? Could he climb down and come back in the front door?
The thought made him shudder. He wasn't due for another seizure, but
you never knew, that was part of what made his disorder so much fun. .
. .
Her steps continued. He let his mouth hang
slack, then he sat up, blinking and snorting. She was staring at him in
surprise, her elegant features thrown into strong relief by the
half-light from the kitchen. "Oh! Madame Vorsoisson. I must have been
more tired than I thought."
"Were you asleep?"
His Yes
mutated to a weak "Mm," as he recalled his promise not to lie to her.
He rubbed his neck. "I'd have been half-paralyzed in that position."
Her
brows drew down quizzically, and she crossed her arms. "Lord
Vorkosigan. I didn't think Imperial Auditors were supposed to
prevaricate like that."
"What . . . badly?" He sat
all the way up and sighed. "I'm sorry. I'd stepped out to contemplate
the view, and I didn't think anything when I first heard Vennie enter,
and then I thought it might be something to do with the case, and then
it was too late to say anything without embarrassing us all. As bad as
the business with your comconsole all over again, sorry. Accidents,
both. I'm not like this, really."
She cocked her
head, a weird quirky smile tilting her mouth. "What, insatiably curious
and entirely free of social inhibitions? Yes, you are. It's not the
ImpSec training. You're a natural. No wonder you did so well for them."
Was
this a compliment or an insult? He couldn't quite tell, good, bad,
good-bad-good . . . ? He rose, smiled, abandoned the idea of asking her
about the estate law session, bid her a polite good night, and fled in
ignominy.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Ekaterin made an early start the following
morning to meet her aunt inbound from Barrayar. The ferry from Komarr
to the wormhole jump station broke orbit before noon Solstice time.
Ekaterin settled into her private sleeper-cell aboard the ferry with a
contented, guilty sigh.
It was just like Uncle Vorthys to have provided this comfort for her; he did nothing by halves. No artificial shortages,
she could almost hear him enthusiastically booming, though he usually
recited that slogan in reference to desserts. So what if she could
stand in the middle of the cabinette and touch both walls. She was glad
not to be rubbing shoulders with the crowds in the economy seats as she
had done on her first passage, even if it was only an eight-hour flight
from Komarr orbit to jump station dock. She had sat then between Tien
and Nikki at the climax of a seven-day passage from Barrayar, and been
hard-pressed to name which of them had been more tired, tense, and
cranky, including herself.
If only she'd accepted
Venier's proposal, she wouldn't be facing a repeat of that wearing
journey, a point in his favor Vennie could not have guessed at. Just as
well. She thought of his unexpected offer last night in her kitchen,
and her lips twisted in remembered embarrassment, amusement, and an odd
little flash of anger. How had Venier ever got the idea that she was
available? In wariness of Tien's irrational jealousy, she'd thought she
had tamped out any possible come-on signal from her manner long ago. Or
did she really look so pitiful that even a modest soul like Vennie
could imagine himself her rescuer? If so, that surely wasn't his fault.
Neither Venier's nor Vorkosigan's enthusiastic plans for her future
education and employment were distasteful to her, indeed, they matched
her own aspirations, and yet . . . both somehow implied, You can become a real person, but only if you play our game.
Why can't I be real where I am?
Drat
it, she was not going to let this churning mess of emotions spoil her
precious slice of solitude. She dug her reader out of her carry-on,
arranged the generous allotment of cushions, and stretched out on the
bunk. At a moment like this, he could really wonder why solitary
confinement was considered such a severe punishment. Why, no one could
get at you. She wriggled her toes, luxuriating.
The
guilt was for Nikki, left ruthlessly behind with one of us school
friends, putatively so that he would miss no classes, if, as Ekaterin
sometimes felt, she really did do nothing of value all day long, why
did she have to inconvenience so many people to take over her duties
when she left? Something didn't add up. Not that Madame Vortorren,
whose husband was an aide to the Imperial Counsellor's Serifosa Deputy,
hadn't seemed cordially willing to help out the new widow. Nor was
adding Nikki to her household any great strain on its resources– he had
four children of her own, whom she somehow managed to feed, clothe, and
direct amidst a general chaos which never seemed to ruffle her air of
benign absent-mindedness. Madame Vortorren's children had learned early
to be self-reliant, and was that so bad? Nikki had been fended off in
his plea to accompany Ekaterin with the reminder that the ferry pilots
had strict rules against allowing passengers on the flight deck, and
anyway, it wasn't even a jumpship. In reality, Ekaterin looked forward
to a private time to talk frankly with her aunt about her late life
with Tien without Nikki overhearing every word. Her pent-up thoughts
felt like an over-filled reservoir, churning in her head with no
release.
She could barely sense the acceleration
as the ferry sped onward. She popped the book-disk the law counselor
had recommended to her on estate and financial management into her
viewer, and settled back. The counselor had confirmed Vorkosigan's
shrewd guess about Tien's debts ending with his estate. She would be
walking away after ten years with exactly nothing, empty-handed as she
had come. Except for the value of the experience . . . she snorted.
Upon reflection, she actually preferred to be beholden to Tien for
nothing. Let all debts be canceled.
The management
disk was dry stuff, but a disk on Escobaran water gardens waited as her
reward when she was done with her homework. It was true she had no
money to manage as yet. That too must change. Knowledge might not be
power, but ignorance was definitely weakness, and so was poverty. Time
and past time to stop assuming she was the child, and everyone else the
grownups. I've been down once. I'm never going down again.
She
finished one book and half the other, got in an exquisite uninterrupted
two-hour nap, and waked and tidied herself by the time the ferry
arrived and began maneuvering to dock. She repacked her overnight bag,
hitched up its shoulder strap, and went off to watch through the lounge
viewports as they approached the transfer station and the jump point it
served.
This station had been built nearly a
century ago, when fresh explorations of the wormhole had yielded up the
rediscovery of Barrayar. The lost colony had been found at the end of a
complex multijump route entirely different from the one through which
it had originally been settled. The station had undergone modification
and enlargement during the period of the Cetagandan invasion; Komarr
had granted the ghem lords right of passage in exchange for massive
trade concessions throughout the Cetagandan Empire and a slice of the
projected profits of the conquest, a bargain it later came to regret. A
quieter period had followed, till the Barrayarans, graduates of the
harsh school of the failed Cetagandan occupation, had poured through in
turn.
Under the new Barrayaran Imperial
management, the station had grown again, into a far-flung and chaotic
structure housing some five thousand resident employees, their
families, and a fluctuating number of transients, and serving some
hundreds of ships a week on the only route to and from cul-de-sac
Barrayar. A new long docking bar was under construction, sticking out
from the bristling structure. The Barrayaran military station was a
bright dot in the distance, bracketing the invisible five-space jump
point. Ekaterin could see half a dozen ships in flight between civilian
station and jump point, maneuvering to or from dock, and a couple of
local-space freighters chugging off with cargoes to transfer at one of
the other wormhole jump points. Then the ferry itself slid into its
docking bay, and the looming station occluded the view.
The
tedious business of customs checks having been got through back in
Komarr orbit before boarding, the ferry's passengers disembarked
freely. Ekaterin checked her holocube map, very necessary in this
fantastic maze of a place, and went off to ensure a hostel room for the
night for herself and her aunt, and to drop off her luggage there. The
hostel room was small but quiet, and should do nicely to give poor Aunt
Vorthys time to recover from her jump sickness before completing the
last leg of her journey. Ekaterin wished she'd had such a luxury
available on her own inbound passage. Realizing that the last thing the
Professora would want to face immediately was a meal, Ekaterin
prudently paused for a snack in an adjoining concourse cafe, then went
off to wait her ship's docking in the disembarkation lounge nearest its
assigned bay.
She selected a seat with a good view
of the airseal doors, and faintly regretted not bringing her reader, in
case of delays. But the station and its denizens were a fascinating
distraction. Where were all these people going, and why? Most arresting
to her eye were the obvious galactics, not-from-around-here in strange
planetary garb; were they passing through for business, diplomacy,
refuge, recreation? Ekaterin had seen two worlds, in her life; would
she ever see more? Two, she reminded herself, was one more than most
people ever got. Don't be greedy.
How many had Vorkosigan seen . . . ?
Her
idle thoughts circled back to her own personal disaster, like a flood
victim sorting through her ruined possessions after the waters have
receded. Was the Old Vor ideal of marriage and family an intrinsic
contradiction of a woman's soul, or was it just Tien who'd been the
source of her shrinkage? It was not clear how to sort out the answer
without multiple trials, and marriage was not an experiment she cared
to repeat. Yet the Professora seemed to be proof of the possible. She
had public achievement—she was a historian, teacher, scholar in four
languages—she had three grown children, and a marriage heading for the
half-century mark. Had she made secret compromises? She had a solid
place in her profession– might she have had a place at the top? She had
three children—might she have had six?
We are
going to have a race, Madame Vorsoisson. Do you wish to run with your
right leg chopped off, or your left leg chopped off?
I want to run on both legs.
Aunt
Vorthys had run on both legs, reasonably serenely– Ekaterin had lived
in her household, and didn't think she overidealized her aunt—but then,
she'd been married to Uncle Vorthys. One's career might depend solely
on one's own efforts, but marriage was a lottery, and you drew your lot
in late adolescence or early adulthood at a point of maximum idiocy and
confusion. Perhaps it was just as well. If people were too sensible,
the human race might well come to an end. Evolution favored the maximum
production of children, not of happiness.
So how did you end up with neither?
She
snorted self-derision, then sat up as the doors slid open and people
began trickling through. Most of the tide had passed when Ekaterin
spotted the short woman with the wobbly step, assisted by a shipping
line porter who saw her through the doors and handed her the leash of
the float pallet holding her luggage. Ekaterin rose, smiling, and
started forward. Her aunt looked thoroughly frazzled, her long gray
hair escaping its windings atop her head to drift about her face, which
had lost its usual attractive pink glow in favor of a greenish-gray
tinge. Her blue bolero and calf-length skirt looked rumpled, and the
matching embroidered travel boots were perched precariously atop the
pile of luggage, replaced on her feet with what were obviously bedroom
slippers.
Aunt Vorthys fell into Ekaterin's hug. "Oh! So good to see you."
Ekaterin held her out, to search her face. "Was the trip very bad?"
"Five
jumps," said Aunt Vorthys hollowly. "And it was such a fast ship, there
wasn't as much time to recover between. Be glad you're one of the lucky
ones."
"I get a touch of nausea," Ekaterin
consoled her, on the theory that misery might appreciate company. "It
passes off in about half an hour. Nikki is the lucky one—it doesn't
seem to affect him at all." Tien had concealed his symptoms in
grouchiness. Afraid of showing something he construed as weakness?
Should she have tried to … It doesn't matter now. Let it go. "I have a nice quiet hostel room waiting for you to lie down in. We can get tea there."
"Oh, lovely, dear."
"Here,
why is your luggage riding and you walking?" Ekaterin rearranged the
two bags on the float pallet and flipped up the little seat. "Sit down,
and I'll tow you."
"If it's not too dizzy a ride. The jumps made my feet swell, of all things."
Ekaterin
helped her aboard, made sure she felt secure, and started off at a slow
walk. "I apologize for Uncle Vorthys dragging you all the way out here
for me. I'm only planning to stay a few more weeks, you see."
"I'd
meant to come anyway, if his case went on much longer. It doesn't seem
to be going as quickly as he expected."
"No, well
. . . no. I'll tell you all the horrible details when we get in." A
public concourse was not the venue for discussing it all.
"Quite, dear. You look well, if rather Komarran."
Ekaterin
glanced down at her dun vest and beige trousers. "I've found Komarran
dress to be comfortable, not the least because it lets me blend in."
"Someday, I'd love to see you dress to stand out."
"Not today, though."
"No, probably not. Do you plan on traditional mourning garb, when you get home?
"Yes,
I think it would be a very good idea. It might save . . . save dealing
with a lot of things I don't want to deal with just now."
"I
understand." Despite her jump sickness, Aunt Vorthys stared around with
interest at the passing station, and began updating Ekaterin on the
lives of her Vorthys cousins.
Her aunt had
grandchildren, Ekaterin thought, yet still seemed late-middle-aged
rather than old. In the Time of Isolation, a Barrayaran woman would
have been old at forty-five, waiting for death—if she made it even that
far. In the last century, women's life expectancies had doubled, and
might even be headed toward the triple-portion taken for granted by
such galactics as the Betans. Had Ekaterin's own mother's early death
given her a false sense of time, and of timing? I have two lives for my foremothers' one.
Two lives in which to accomplish her dual goals. If one could stretch
them out, instead of piling them atop one another . . . And the arrival
of the uterine replicator had changed everything, too, profoundly. Why
had she wasted a decade trying to play the game by the old rules? Yet a
decade at twenty did not seem quite a straight trade for a decade at
ninety. She needed to think this through. . . .
Away
from the docks and locks area, the crowds thinned to an occasional
passer-by. The station did not run so much on a day-and-night rhythm,
as on a ships in dock, everybody switch, load and unload like mad
because time was money, ships out, quiet falls again pattern which did
not necessarily match the Solstice-standard time kept throughout Komarr
local-space.
Ekaterin turned up a narrow utility
corridor she'd discovered earlier which provided a shortcut to the food
concourse and her hostel beyond. One of the kiosks baked traditional
Barrayaran breads and cannily vented their ovens into the concourse,
for advertising; Ekaterin could smell yeast and cardamom and hot
brillberry syrup. The combination was redolent of Barrayaran
Winterfair, and a wave of homesickness shook her.
Coming
down the otherwise-unpeopled corridor toward them along with the aromas
was a man, wearing stationer-style dock-worker coveralls. The
commercial logo on his left breast read southport transport ltd., done
in tilted, speedy-looking letters with little lines shooting off. He
carried two large bags crammed with meal-boxes. He stopped short and
stared in shock, as did she. It was one of the engineers from Waste
Heat Management—Arozzi was his name.
He recognized
her at once, too, unfortunately. "Madame Vorsoisson!" And, more weakly,
"Imagine meeting you here." He stared around with a frantic, trapped
look. "Is the Administrator with you . . . ?"
Ekaterin was just mustering a plan for, I'm sorry, I don't believe I know you?
followed by dancing around him blankly, walking away without looking
back, turning the corner, and dashing madly for the nearest emergency
call box. But Arozzi dropped his bags, dug a stunner out of his pocket,
and fumbled it right way round before she'd made it any further than,
"I'm sorry—"
"So am I," he said with evident sincerity, and fired.
Ekaterin's
eyes opened on a cockeyed view of the corridor ceiling. Her whole body
felt like pins and needles, and refused to obey her urgent summons to
move. Her tongue felt like a wadded-up sock, stuffed in her mouth.
"Don't make me stun you," Arozzi was pleading with someone. "I will."
"I
believe you," came Aunt Vorthys's breathless voice, from just behind
Ekaterin's ear. Ekaterin realized she was now aboard the float pallet,
half-sitting up against her aunt's chest, her legs hung limply over the
rearranged luggage in front of her. The Professora's hand gripped her
shoulder. Arozzi, after a desperate look around, set his meal-boxes in
her lap, picked up the float pallet's lead, and started off down the
corridor as fast as the whining, overburdened pallet would follow.
Help, thought Ekaterin. I'm being kidnapped by a Komarran terrorist.
Her cry, as they turned down another corridor and passed a woman in a
food service uniform, came out a low moan. The woman barely glanced at
them. Not an unusual sight, this, two very jumpsick transients being
towed to their connecting ship, or to a hostel, or maybe to the
infirmary. Or the morgue . . . Heavy stun, Ekaterin had been given to
understand, knocked people out for hours. This must be light stun. Was
this a favor? She could not feel her limbs, but she could feel her
heart beating, thudding heavily in her chest as adrenaline struggled
uselessly with her unresponsive peripheral nervous system.
More
turns, more drops, more levels. Was her map cube still in her pocket?
They passed out of passenger-country, into more utilitarian levels
devoted to freight and ship repair. At last they turned in at a door
labeled southport transport, ltd. in the same logo style as on the
coveralls, and authorized personnel only in larger red print. Arozzi
led them around a turn, through some more airseal doors, and down a
ramp into a large loading bay. It smelled cold, all oil and ozone and a
sharp sick scent of plastics. They were at the outermost skin of the
station, anyway, whatever direction they'd come. She'd seen the
Southport logo before, Ekaterin realized; it was one of those minor,
shoestring-budgeted local-space shipping companies that eked out a
living in the few interstices left by the big Komarran family firms.
A
tall, squarely-built man, also in worker's coveralls, trod across the
bay toward them, his footsteps echoing. It was Dr. Soudha. "Dinner at
last," he began, then he caught sight of the float pallet. "What the
hell . . . ? Roz, what is this? Madame Vorsoisson!" He stared at her in
astonishment. She stared back at him in muzzy loathing.
"I
ran smack into her when I was coming away from the food concourse,"
explained Arozzi, grounding the float pallet. "I couldn't help it. She
recognized me. I couldn't let her run and report, so I stunned her and
brought her here."
"Roz, you fool! The last thing we need right now is hostages! She's sure to be missed, and how soon?"
"I didn't have a choice!"
"Who's this other lady?" He gave the Professora a weirdly polite, harried, how-d'you-do nod.
"My name is Helen Vorthys," said the Professora.
"Not Lord Auditor Vorthys's wife—?"
"Yes."
Her voice was cold and steady, but as sensation returned Ekaterin could
feel the slight tremble in her body.
Soudha swore under his breath.
Ekaterin
swallowed, ran her tongue around her mouth, and struggled to sit up.
Arozzi rescued his boxes, then belatedly drew his stunner again. A
woman, attracted by the raised voices, approached around a stack of
equipment. Middle-aged, with frizzy gray-blond hair, she also wore
Southport Transport coveralls. Ekaterin recognized Lena Foscol, the
accountant.
"Ekaterin," husked Aunt Vorthys, "who are these people? Do you know them?"
Ekaterin
said loudly, if a little thickly, "They're the criminals who stole a
huge sum of money from the Terraforming Project and murdered Tien."
Foscol, startled, said "What? We did no such thing! He was alive when I left him!"
"Left him chained to a railing with an empty oxygen canister, which you never checked. And then called me
to come get him. An hour and a half too late." Ekaterin spat scorn. "An
exquisite setup. Madame. Mad Emperor Yuri would have considered it a
work of art."
"Oh," Foscol breathed. She looked
sick. "Is this true? You're lying. No one would go out-dome with an
empty canister!"
"You knew Tien," said Ekaterin. "What do you think?"
Foscol fell silent.
Soudha
was pale. "I'm sorry, Madame Vorsoisson. If that was what happened, it
was an accident. We intended him to live, I swear to you."
Ekaterin
let her lips thin, and said nothing. Sitting up, with her legs swung
out to the deck, she was able to get a less dizzying view of the
loading bay. It was some thirty meters across and twenty deep, strongly
lit, with catwalks and looping power lines running across the ceiling,
and a glass-walled control booth on the opposite side from the broad
entry ramp down which they'd come. Equipment lay scattered here and
there around a huge object dominating the center of the chamber. Its
main part seemed to consist of a wriggly trumpet-shaped cone made of
some dark, polished substance—metal? glass?—resting in heavily padded
clamps on a grounded float cradle. A lot of power connections slotted
in at its narrow end. The mouth of the bell was more than twice as tall
as Ekaterin. Was this the "secret weapon" Lord Vorkosigan had posited?
And how
had they ever got it, and themselves, past the ImpSec manhunt? ImpSec
was surely checking every shuttle that left the planetary surface—now,
Ekaterin realized. This thing could have been transported weeks ago,
before the hunt even started. And ImpSec was probably concentrating its
attention on jumpships and their passengers, not on freight tugs
trapped in local space. Soudha's conspirators had had years to develop
their false ID. They acted as though they owned this place—maybe they
did.
Foscol spoke to Ekaterin's fraught silence,
almost as tight-lipped as Ekaterin herself. "We are not murderers. Not
like you Barrayarans."
"I've never killed anyone
in my life. For not-murderers, your body count is getting impressive,"
Ekaterin shot back. "I don't know what happened to Radovas and Trogir,
but what about the six poor people on the soletta crew, and that ore
freighter pilot—and Tien. That's eight at least, maybe ten." Maybe twelve, if I don't watch my step.
"I
was a student at Solstice University during the Revolt," Foscol
snarled, clearly very rattled by the news about Tien. "I saw friends
and classmates shot in the streets, during the riots. I remember the
out-gassing of the Green Park Dome. Don't you dare—a Barrayaran!—sit
there and make mouth at me about murder."
"I was
five years old at the time of the Komarr Revolt," said Ekaterin
wearily. "What do you think I ought to have done about it, eh?"
"If
you want to go back in history," the Professora put in dryly, "you
Komarrans were the people who let the Cetagandans in on us. Five
million Barrayarans died before the first Komarran ever did. Crying for
your past dead is a piece of one-downsmanship a Komarran cannot win."
"That was longer ago," said Foscol a little desperately.
"Ah. I see. So the difference between a criminal and a hero is the order
in which their vile crimes are committed," said the Professora, in a
voice dripping false cordiality. "And justice comes with a sell-by
date. In that case, you'd better hurry. You wouldn't want your heroism
to spoil."
Foscol drew herself up. "We aren't planning to kill anyone. All of us here saw the futility of that kind of heroics twenty-five years ago."
"Things
don't seem to be running exactly according to plan, then, do they?"
murmured Ekaterin, rubbing her face. It was becoming less numb. She
wished she could say the same for her wits. "I notice you don't deny
being thieves."
"Just getting some of our own back," glinted Foscol.
"The
money poured into Komarran terraforming doesn't do Barrayar any direct
good. You were stealing from your own grandchildren."
"What
we took, we took to make an investment for Komarr that will pay back
incalculable benefit to our future generations," Foscol returned.
Had
Ekaterin's words stung her? Maybe. Soudha looked as though he was
thinking furiously, eyeing the two Barrayaran women. Keep them arguing,
Ekaterin thought. People couldn't argue and think at the same time, or
at least, a lot of people she'd met seemed to have that trouble. If she
could keep them talking while her body recovered a little more from the
stun, she could . . . what? Her eye fell on a fire and emergency alarm
at the base of the entry ramp, maybe ten steps away. Alarm, false
alarm, the attention of irate authorities drawn to Southport Transport
. . . Could Arozzi stun her again in less than ten steps? She leaned
back against her aunt's legs, trying to look very limp, and let one
hand curl around the Professora's ankle, as if for comfort. The novel
device loomed silently and mysteriously in the center of the chamber.
"So
what are you planning to do," Ekaterin said sarcastically, "shut down
the wormhole jump and cut us off? Or are you going to make—" Her voice
died as the shocked silence her words had created penetrated. She
stared around at the three Komarrans, staring at her in horror. In a
suddenly smaller voice she said, "You can't do that. Can you?"
There
was a military maneuver for rendering a wormhole temporarily
impassable, which involved sacrificing a ship—and its pilot—at a
mid-jump node. But the disruption damped out in a short time. Wormholes
opened and closed, yes, but they were astrographic features like stars,
involving time scales and energies beyond the present human capacity to
control. "You can't do that," Ekaterin said more firmly. "Whatever
disruption you create, sooner or later it will become passable again,
and then you'll be in twice as much trouble as before." Unless Soudha's
conspiracy was just the tip of an iceberg, with some huge coordinated
plan behind it for all of Komarr to rise against Barrayaran rule in a
new Komarr Revolt. More war, more blood under glass—the domes of Komarr
might give her claustrophobia, but the thought of her Komarran
neighbors going down to destruction in yet another round of this
endless struggle made her sick to her stomach. The revolt had done vile
things to Barrayarans, too. If new hostilities were ignited and went on
long enough, Nikki would come of an age to be sucked into them. . . .
"You can't hold it closed. You can't hold out here. You have no
defenses."
"We can, and we will," said Soudha firmly.
Foscol's brown eyes shone. "We're going to close the worm-hole permanently.
We'll get rid of Barrayar forever, without firing a shot. A completely
bloodless revolution, and there will be nothing they can do about it."
"An engineer's revolution," said Soudha, and a ghost of a smile curved his lips.
Ekaterin's
heart hammered, and the echoing loading bay seemed to tilt. She
swallowed, and spoke with effort: "You're planning to shut the wormhole
to Barrayar with the Butcher of Komarr and three-fourths of Barrayar's
space-based military forces on this side, and you actually think you're going to get a bloodless revolution? And what about all the people on Sergyar? You are idiots!"
"The
original plan," said Soudha tightly, "was to strike at the time of the
Emperor's wedding, when the Butcher of Komarr and three-fourths of the
space forces would have been safely in Barrayar orbit."
"Along with a lot of innocent galactic diplomats. And not a few Komarrans!"
"I
cannot think of a better fate for all the top collaborators," said
Foscol, "than to be locked in with their lovely Barrayaran friends. The
Old Vor lords are always saying how much better they had it back in
their Time of Isolation. We're just giving them their wish."
Ekaterin
squeezed the Professora's ankle and climbed slowly to her feet.
Upright, she swayed, wishing her unbalance really were artistic fakery
to put the Komarrans off-guard. She spoke with deadly venom. "In the
Time of Isolation, I would have been dead at forty. In the Time of
Isolation, it would have been my job to cut my mutant infants' throats,
while my female relatives watched. I guarantee at least half the
population of Barrayar does not agree with the Old Vor lords, including
most of the Old Vor ladies. And you would condemn us all to go back to
that, and you dare to call it bloodless!"
"Then
count yourself lucky you're on the Komarran side," said Soudha dryly.
"Come on, folks, we have work to do, and less time than ever to do it.
Starting from now, all sleep shifts are canceled. Lena, go wake up
Cappell. And we have to figure out how to lock these ladies down safely
out of the way for a while."
The Komarrans were no
longer waiting for the Emperor's wedding to provide their ideal
tactical moment, it appeared. How close were they to putting
their device into action? Close enough, it appeared, that even the
arrival of two unwanted hostages wasn't enough to divert them.
Aunt
Vorthys was trying to sit up straighter; Arozzi's eye had returned to
the boxes of cooling food at his feet. Now.
Ekaterin
launched herself forward, barreling into Arozzi and dashing onward.
Arozzi swung around after her, but was temporarily distracted by a blue
boot, thrown with surprising accuracy if limited strength by Aunt
Vorthys, which bounced off the side of his head. Soudha and Foscol both
began sprinting after her, but Ekaterin made it to the alarm and yanked
down the lever hard, hanging on it as Arozzi's wavering stun beam found
her. It hurt more, this time. Her hands spasmed open, and she fell. The
first beat of the klaxon smote her ears before the shock and blackness
took her away again.
Ekaterin opened her eyes to
see her aunt's face, sideways. She realized she was lying with her head
on the Professora's lap. She blinked and tried to lick her lips. Her
body was all pins and needles and deep aches. A wave of nausea wrenched
her stomach, and she struggled to lean sideways. A couple of spasms did
not result in vomiting, however, and after a muffled belch, she rolled
back. "Are we rescued?" she mumbled. They did not look rescued to her.
They appeared to be sitting on the floor of a tiny lavatory, chilly and
hard.
"No," said the Professora in a tone of
disgust. Her face was tense and pale, with red bruises showing in the
soft skin of her face and neck. Her hair was half down, straggling over
her brow. "They gagged me, and dragged us both over behind that thing.
The station squad burst in all right, but Soudha made all sorts of
fast-talk apologies. He claimed it was an accident when Arozzi stumbled
into the wall, and agreed to pay some enormous fine or another for
turning in false alarms. I tried to make a noise, but it didn't do any
good. Then they locked us in here."
"Oh," said Ekaterin. "Drat." Oversocialized, maybe, but stronger words seemed just as inadequate.
"Just
so, dear. It was a good try, though. For a moment, I thought it would
work, and so did your Komarrans. They were very upset."
"It will make the next try harder."
"Very
likely," agreed her aunt. "We must think carefully what it ought to be.
I don't think we can count on a third chance. Brutality does not seem
to come naturally to them, but they do act very stressed. I don't
believe those are safe people, just now, for all that they know you.
When do you think we will be missed?"
"Not very
soon," said Ekaterin regretfully. "I sent a message to Uncle Vorthys
when I first got in to the station hostel. He may not expect another
till we fail to get off the ferry tomorrow night."
"Something
will happen then," said the Professora. Her tone of quiet confidence
was undercut when she added more faintly, "Surely."
Yes, but what will happen between now and then? "Yes," Ekaterin echoed. She stared around the locked lavatory. "Surely."
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Professor Vorthys's requested experts were due
to arrive at the Serifosa shuttleport at nearly the same early hour as
Ekaterin departed for her connection with the jump station ferry, so
Miles managed to invite himself along on what would otherwise have been
a family farewell. Ekaterin did not discuss last night's visit from
Venier with her uncle; Miles had no opportunity to urge her, Don't accept any marriage proposals from strangers while you're out there.
The Professor loaded her with verbal messages for his wife, and got a
goodbye hug. Miles stood with his hands shoved in his pockets, and
nodded a cordial safe-journey to her.
What Miles thought of as the Boffin Express,
a commercial morning flight from Solstice, landed a short time later.
The five-space expert, Dr. Riva, turned out to be a thin, intense,
olive-skinned woman of about fifty, with bright black eyes and a quick
smile. A stout, sandy young man she had in tow whom Miles first pegged
as an undergraduate student was revealed as a mathematics professor
colleague, Dr. Yuell.
A high-powered ImpSec aircar
waited to whisk them directly out to the Waste Heat experiment station.
When they arrived, the Professor led them all upstairs to his nest,
which seemed to have acquired more comconsoles, stacks of flimsies, and
tables littered with machine parts overnight. To everyone's discomfort,
but not to Miles's surprise, ImpSec Major D'Emorie took formal recorded
oaths of loyalty and secrecy from the two Komarran consultants. Miles
thought the loyalty oath was redundant, since neither academic could
have held their current posts without having taken one previously. As
for the secrecy oath . . . Miles wondered if either of the Komarrans
had noticed yet that they had no way of leaving the experiment station
except by ImpSec transport.
The five of them all
then sat down to a lecture conducted by Lord Auditor Vorthys, which
seemed halfway between a military briefing and an academic seminar,
with a tendency to drift toward the latter. Miles wasn't sure if
D'Emorie was there as participant or observer, but then, Miles didn't
have much to say either, except to confirm one or two points about the
autopsies when he was cued by Vorthys. Miles wondered again whether he
might be more useful elsewhere, such as out with the field agents; he
could hardly be less useful here, he realized glumly as the
mathematical references began flying over his head. When you folks
convert all that to the pretty colored shapes on the comconsole, show
me the picture. I like my storybooks to have pictures in them.
Perhaps he ought to go back to school for two or three years himself,
and brush up. He consoled himself with the reflection that it was
seldom he found himself in company who made him feel this stupid. It
was probably good for his soul.
"The power that's
fed into the—I suppose we can call it the horn—of the Necklin field
generator is pulsed, definitely pulsed," Vorthys told the Komarrans.
"Highly directional, rapid, and adjustable—I almost want to say,
tunable."
"That's so very odd," said Dr. Riva.
"Jumpship rods have steady power—in fact, keeping unwanted fluctuations
out of the power is a major design concern. Let's try some simulations
with the various hypotheses …"
Miles woke up, and
bent closer, as the assorted theories began to take visible form as
three-dimensional vector maps above the vid-plate. Professor Vorthys
provided some limiting parameters based on the projected nature of the
power supply. The boffins did indeed produce some pretty pictures, but
except for aesthetic considerations involving color contrasts, Miles
didn't see what was to choose among them.
"What
happens if somebody stands in front of the directional five-space
pulses from that thing?" he asked at last. At various distances, say.
Or runs an ore freighter in front of it."
"Not
much," said Riva, staring at the whirls and lines with an intensity at
least equal to Miles's. "I'm not sure it would be good for you on the
cellular level to be that close to any power generator of this
magnitude, but it is, after all, a five-space field pulse. Any
three-space effects would be due to some unfocus on the fringe, and
doubtless take the energy form of gravitational waves. Artificial
gravity is a five-space/three-space interface phenomenon, as is your
military gravitic imploder lance."
D'Emorie
twitched slightly, but trying to keep a five-space physicist from
knowing about the principles of the imploder lance was an exercise in
futility right up there with trying to keep weather secret from a
farmer. The best the military could hope for was to keep the
engineering details under wraps for a time.
"Could it be, I don't know . . . that we're looking at half the weapon?"
Riva
shrugged, but looked interested rather than scornful, so Miles hoped it
wasn't a stupid question. "Have you determined if it is meant to be a
weapon at all?" she said.
"We've got some very dead people to account for," Miles pointed out.
"That,
alas, does not necessarily require a weapon." Professor Vorthys sighed.
"Carelessness, stupidity, haste, and ignorance are quite as powerfully
destructive of forces as homicidal intent. Though I must confess a
special distaste for intent. It seems so unnecessarily redundant. It's
. . . anti-engineering."
Dr. Riva smiled.
"Now," said Vorthys, "what I want to know is what happens if you aim this device at a wormhole, or, possibly, activate it while jumping through a wormhole. One would in that case also have to take into account effects due to the Necklin field it was traveling inside."
"Hmm
…" said Riva. She and the sandy-haired youth went into close
math-gibberish-mode, punctuated by some reprogramming of the simulation
console. The first colorful display was rejected by them both with the
muttered comment, "That's not right. . . ."A couple more went
by. Riva sat back at last, and ran her hands through her short curls.
"Any chance of taking this home to sleep on overnight?"
"Ah,"
said Lord Auditor Vorthys. "I'm afraid I was unclear to you over the
comconsole last night. This is something in the nature of a crash
program, here. We have reason to suspect time could be of the essence.
We're all here for the duration, till we figure this out. No data leave
this building."
"What, no dinner at the Top of the Dome in Serifosa?" said Yuell, sounding disappointed.
"Not
tonight," Vorthys apologized. "Unless someone gets really inspired.
Food and bedding will be supplied by the Emperor."
Riva
glanced around the room, and by implication the facility. Is this going
to be the ImpSec Budget Hostel again? Bedrolls and ready-meals?"
The Professor smiled wryly. "I'm afraid so."
"I
should have remembered that part from the last time. . . . Well, it's
motivation of a sort, I suppose. Yuell, that's enough of this
comconsole for now. Something's not right. I need to pace."
"The corridor is at your disposal," Professor Vorthys told her cordially. "Did you bring your walking shoes?"
"Certainly. I did remember that
from our last date." She stuck out her legs, displaying comfortable
thick-soled shoes, and rose to go off to the hallway. She began walking
rapidly up and down, murmuring to herself from time to time.
"Riva
claims to think better while walking," Vorthys explained to Miles. "Her
theory is that it pumps the blood up to her brain. My theory is that
since no one can keep up with her, it cuts down on the distracting
interruptions."
A kindred spirit, by God. "Can I watch?"
"Yes, but please don't talk to her. Unless she talks to you, of course."
Both
Vorthys and Yuell returned to fooling with their comconsoles. The
Professor appeared to be trying to refine his hypothetical design for
the missing power-supply system or the novel device. Miles wasn't sure
but what Yuell was playing some sort of mathematical vid game. Miles
leaned back in his station chair, stared out the window, and addressed
his imagination to the question, If I were a Komarran conspirator
with ImpSec on my tail and a novel device the size of a couple of
elephants, where would I hide it? Not in his luggage, for damn
sure. He scratched out ideas on a flimsy, and drew rejecting lines
through most of them. D'Emorie studied the Professor's work and reran
some of the earlier simulations.
After about
three-quarters of an hour, Miles became aware hat the echo of soft
rapid footsteps from the corridor had eased. He rose, and went and
poked his head out the door. Dr. Riva was seated on a window ledge at
the end of the corridor, gazing pensively out over the Komarran
landscape. It fell away toward the stream, here, and was much less
bleak than the usual scene, being liberally colonized by Earth green.
Miles ventured to approach her.
She looked up at
him with her quick smile as he neared, which he returned. He hitched
his hip over the low ledge, and followed her gaze out the sealed
window, then turned to study her profile. "So," he said at last. "What
are you thinking?"
Her lips twisted wryly. "I'm thinking . . . that I don't believe in perpetual motion."
"Ah."
Well, if it had been easy, or even just moderately difficult, the
Professor would not have called for reinforcements, Miles reflected.
"Hm."
She turned her gaze from the scenery to him,
and said after a moment, "So, you're really the son of the Butcher?"
"I'm the son of Aral Vorkosigan," he replied steadily.
"Yes."
Her version of the perpetual question was neither the accidental social
blunder of Tien, nor the deliberate provocation of Venier. It seemed
something more . . . scientific. What was she testing for?
"The private life of men of power isn't what we expect, sometimes."
He
jerked up his chin. "People have some very odd illusions about power.
Mostly it consists of finding a parade and nipping over to place
yourself at the head of the band. Just as eloquence consists of
persuading people of things they desperately want to believe.
Demagoguery, I suppose, is eloquence sliding to some least moral energy
level." He smiled bleakly at his boot. "Pushing people uphill is one
hell of a lot harder. You can break your heart, trying that."
Literally, but he saw no point in discussing the Butcher's medical
history with her.
"I was given to understand that power politics had chewed you up."
Surely
she could not see scars through his gray suit. "Oh," Miles shrugged,
"the prenatal damage was just the prologue. The rest I did to myself."
"If you could go back in time and change things, would you?"
"Prevent the soltoxin attack on my pregnant mother? If I could only pick one event to change . . . maybe not."
"What,
because you wouldn't want to risk missing an Auditorship at thirty?"
Her tone was only faintly mocking, softened by her wry smile. What the
devil had Vorthys told her about him, anyway? She was highly aware,
though, of the power of an Emperor's Voice.
"I
almost arrived at thirty in a coffin, a couple of times. An Auditorship
was never an ambition of mine. That appointment was a caprice of
Gregor's. I wanted to be an admiral. It's not that." He paused, and
drew in breath, and let it out slowly. "I've made a lot of grievous
mistakes in my life, getting here, but … I wouldn't trade my journey
now. I'd be afraid of making myself smaller."
She
cocked her head, measuring his dwarfishness, not missing his meaning.
"That's as fair a definition of satisfaction as any I've ever heard."
He shrugged. "Or loss of nerve." Dammit, he'd come out here to pick her brain. "So what do you think of the novel device?"
She
grimaced, and rubbed her hands slowly, palm to palm. "Unless you want
to posit that it was invented for the purpose of giving headaches to
physicists, I think . . . it's time to break for lunch."
Miles grinned. "Lunch, we can supply."
Lunch,
as threatened, was indeed military-issue ready-meals, though of the
highest grade. They all sat around one of the tables in the long room,
pushed aside chunks of equipment to make space, and tore off the
wrappers from the self-heating trays. The Komarrans eyed their food
dubiously; Miles explained how it could have been much worse, getting a
giggle from Riva. The conversation became general, touching on husbands
and wives and children and tenure and an exchange of scurrilous
anecdotes about the fecklessness of former colleagues. D'Emorie had a
couple of good ones about early ImpSec cases. Miles was tempted to top
them with a few about his cousin Ivan, but nobly refrained, though he
did explain how he'd once sunk himself and his personal vehicle in
several meters of arctic mud. This led to the subject of the progress
of Komarran terraforming, and so by degrees back to work. Riva, Miles
noticed, grew quieter and quieter.
She maintained
her silence as they all took to the corn-consoles again after lunch.
She did not resume her pacing. Miles watched her covertly, then less
covertly. She reran several simulations, but did not play with further
alterations. Miles knew damn well one couldn't hurry insight. This kind
of problem-solving was a lot more like fishing than like hunting:
waiting patiently and, to a degree, helplessly, for things to rise up
out of the depths of the mind.
He thought about the last time he'd been fishing.
He
considered Riva's age. She'd been in her teens at the time of the
Barrayaran conquest of Komarr. In her twenties at the time of the
Revolt. She'd survived, she'd endured, she'd cooperated; her years
under Imperial rule had been good, including an obviously successful
life of the mind, and a single marriage. She'd compared children with
Vorthys, and spoken of an eldest daughter's upcoming wedding. No
Komarran terrorist, she.
If you could go back in time and change things . . . The only moment in time you could change things was the elusive now,
which slipped through your fingers as fast as you could think about it.
He wondered if she was thinking about that right now, too. Now.
Now,
the Professora's ship from Barrayar would be getting ready for its
final wormhole jump. Now, Ekaterin's ferry would be approaching the
jump-point station. Now, Soudha and his crew of earnest techs would be
doing . . . what? Where? Now, he was sitting in a room on Komarr
watching a quietly brilliant woman who had stopped thinking.
He
rose, and went to touch Major D'Emorie on his green-uniformed shoulder.
"Major, can I have a word with you outside."
Surprised,
D'Emorie shut down his comconsole, where he'd been checking out some
question about available power transformers Vorthys had put to him. He
followed Miles into the hall and down the corridor.
"Major, do you have a fast-penta interrogation kit available?"
D'Emorie's brows rose. "I can check, my lord."
"Do so. Get one and bring it to me, please."
"Yes, my lord."
D'Emorie
went off. Miles lingered by the window. It was twenty minutes before
D'Emorie returned, but he had the familiar case in his hand.
Miles
took it. "Thank you. Now I would like you to take Dr. Yuell for a walk.
Discreetly. I'll let you know when you can come back in."
"My lord … if it's a matter for fast-penta, I'm sure ImpSec would want me to observe."
"I
know what ImpSec wants. You may be assured, I will tell them what they
need to know, afterward." Turnabout, hah, for all those briefings with
vital pieces missing Lieutenant Vorkosigan had once endured . . . life
was good, sometimes. Miles smiled a little sourly; D'Emorie,
intelligently, veered off.
"Yes, my Lord Auditor."
Miles
stood aside for D'Emorie to exit with Dr. Yuell. When he entered the
long room, he locked the door after himself. Both Professor Vorthys and
Dr. Riva looked up at him in puzzlement.
"What's that for?" Dr. Riva asked, as he set the case on the table and opened it.
"Dr.
Riva, I request and require a somewhat franker conversation with you
than the one we had earlier." He held up the hypospray and calibrated
the dosage for her estimated body mass. Allergy check? He didn't think
he needed it, but it was standard operating procedure; if he didn't
have to guess, he didn't have to guess wrong. He tore off a test-dot
from the coiled strip of them and walked over to her station chair. She
was too startled to resist at first when he took her hand, turned it
over, and pressed the tester to the inside of her wrist, but she jerked
back her arm at the prickle. He let it go.
"Miles,"
said Professor Vorthys in an agitated voice, "what is this? You can't
fast-penta … Dr. Riva is my invited guest!"
That
wording was one step away from the sort of Vor challenge that used to
result in duels, in the bad old days. Miles took a deep breath. "My
Lord Auditor. Dr. Riva. I have made two serious errors of judgment on
this case so far. If I'd avoided either of them, your nephew-in-law
would still be alive, we'd have nailed Soudha before he got away with
all his equipment, and we would not now all be sitting at the bottom of
a deep tactical hole playing with jigsaw puzzles. They were both at
heart the same error. The first day we toured the Terraforming Project,
I did not insist on Tien landing the aircar here, though I wanted to
see the place. And on the second night, I did not insist on a
fast-penta interrogation of Madame Radovas, though I wanted to. You're
the failure analyst, Professor; am I wrong?"
"No . . . But you could not have known, Miles!"
"Oh,
but I could have known. That's the whole point. But I didn't choose to
do what was necessary, because I did not want to appear to use or abuse
my Auditorial power in an offensive way. Especially not on here on
Komarr, where everyone is watching me, the son of the Butcher, to see
what I'll do. Besides, I spent a career fighting the powers-that-be.
Now I am them. Naturally, I was a little confused."
Riva's
hand was to her mouth; there was no hive or red streak on the inside of
her arm. Well and good. Miles returned to the table and picked up the
hypospray.
"Lord Vorkosigan, I do not consent to this!" said Riva stiffly as he approached her.
"Dr.
Riva, I did not ask you to." His left hand guarded his right as in
knife-play; the hypospray darted in to touch her neck even as she
turned and began to rise from her chair. "It would be too cruel a
dilemma." She sank back, glaring at him. Angry, but not desperate; she
was divided in her own mind, then, which had doubtless saved them both
the embarrassment of him chasing her around the room. Even at her age
and dignity she could probably outrun him if she were truly determined
to do so.
"Miles," said the Professor dangerously,
"it may be your Auditorial privilege, but you had better be able to
justify this."
"Hardly a privilege. Only my duty."
He stared into Riva's eyes as her pupils dilated and she sank back
limply in her chair. He didn't bother with the standard opening litany
of neutral questions while waiting for the drug to cut in, but merely
watched her lips. Their thin tension slowly softened to the
stereotypical fast-penta smile. Her eyes remained more focused than
those of the usual subject; he bet she could make this a lengthy and
circuitous interrogation, if she chose. He'd do his best to cut that
circuit as short as possible. The shortest way across a hostile
District was around three sides.
"This was a
really interesting five-space problem that Professor Vorthys set you,"
Miles observed to her. "Sort of a privilege to be brought in on it."
"Oh,
yes," she agreed cordially. She smiled, frowned, her hands twitched,
then her smile settled in more securely.
"Could be prizes and academic preferment, when it's all sorted out at last."
"Oh,
better than that," she assured him. "New physics only come along once
in a lifetime, and usually you're too young or too old."
"Strange, I've heard military careerists make the same complaint. But won't Soudha get the credit?"
"I
doubt it was Soudha who thought of it. I'd bet it was the
mathematician, Cappell, or maybe poor Dr. Radovas. It should be named
after Radovas. He died for it, I suspect."
"I don't want anybody else to die for it."
"Oh, no," she agreed earnestly.
"What
did you say it was, again, Professor Riva?" Miles did his best to pitch
his voice like a bewildered undergraduate's. "I didn't understand."
"The
wormhole collapsing technique. There ought to be a better name for it.
I wonder if your Dr. Soudha calls it something shorter."
Lord
Auditor Vorthys, who'd been watching with slit-eyed disapproval, sat
slowly upright, his eyes widening, his lips moving.
The last time Miles had felt his stomach behave like this, he'd been on a combat drop from low orbit. Wormhole collapsing technique? Does this mean what I think it does?
"Wormhole
collapsing technique," he repeated blandly, in his best fast-penta
interrogator style. "Wormholes collapse, but didn't think anything
people could do could cause them to. Wouldn't it take an awful lot of
power?"
"They seem to have found a way around
that. Resonance, five-space resonance. Amplitude augmentation, you see.
Shut down forever. Don't think it would work in reverse, though. Can't
be anti-entropic."
Miles glanced at Vorthys. The words obviously meant something to him. Good.
Dr.
Riva waved her hands dreamily in front of her. "Higher and higher and
higher and—boop!" She giggled. It was a very fast-penta'ish sort of
giggle, the disturbing sort which suggested that on some other level,
in her drug-scrambled brain, she was not giggling at all. Maybe she was
screaming. As Miles was. . . . "Except," she added, "that there's
something very wrong somewhere."
No lie. He
walked over and picked up the hypospray of antagonist, and glanced up
at Vorthys. "Anything you want to add while she's still under? Or is it
time to go back to normal mode?"
Vorthys still had
an abstracted, inward look, his mind obviously ratcheting over
everything he'd learned during the investigation in light of this new,
revolutionary idea. He glanced up and over at the goofily grinning
Riva. "I think we need all our wits about us." His brows drew down in
something like pain. "One sees, of course, why she hesitated to confide
her theory to us. In case it is right …"
Miles
walked over to Riva with the second hypospray. "This is the fast-penta
antagonist. It will neutralize the drug in your system in less than a
minute."
To his astonishment, she threw up a
restraining hand. "Wait, had it. I could almost see it, in my mind . .
. like a vid pro-action . . . energy transfers, flowing . . . field
reservoir . . . wait."
She closed her eyes and
leaned her head back; her feet tapped gently and rhythmically on the
floor. Her smile came and went, came and went. Her eyes popped open at
last, and he stared briefly and intently at Vorthys. "The keyword," she
intoned, "is elastic recoil. Remember it." She glanced at Miles and held out a languid arm. "You may proceed, my lord." She giggled again.
He
applied the hypospray over the blue vein inside her proffered elbow; it
hissed briefly. He gave her an odd little half-bow, and stepped back,
and waited. Her loose limbs tightened; she buried her face in her hands.
After about a minute, she looked up again, blinking. "What did I just say?" she asked Vorthys.
"Elastic recoil," he repeated, watching her intently. "What does it mean?"
She
was silent a moment, staring at her feet. "It means . . . I compromised
myself for nothing." Her lips thinned bitterly. "Soudha's device
doesn't work. Or at any rate, it doesn't work to collapse a wormhole."
She sat up, and shook herself out, stretching, the sense of her body
doubtless coming back to her as the last of the antagonist chased
through her system. "I thought that stuff would make me sick."
"Reactions vary wildly from subject to subject," said Miles. Indeed, he'd never seen one quite like that before. "A woman we interrogated the other day said she found it very restful."
"It had the strangest effect on my internal visualizations." She stared at the hypospray with speculative respect. "I may try it on purpose someday."
I want to be there if you do.
Miles had a sudden exciting vision of using the drug to augment his own
insights—instant brains!—then remembered to his extreme disappointment
that fast-penta didn't work like that on him.
Riva glanced at Miles. "If I ever get out of a Barrayaran prison. Am I under arrest now?"
Miles chewed his lip. "What for?"
"Isn't violating loyalty and security oaths treason?"
"You
haven't violated any security oath. Yet. As for the other . . . when
two Imperial Auditors say they didn't see something, it can become
remarkably invisible."
Vorthys smiled suddenly.
"I thought you were sworn to tell the truth, Lord Auditor."
"Only to Gregor. What we tell the rest of the universe is negotiable. We just don't advertise the fact."
"That, alas, is true." Vorthys sighed.
"How will you explain the missing drug doses to ImpSec?"
"One,
I am an Imperial Auditor, I don't have to explain anything to anyone.
Least of all ImpSec. Two, we used it experimentally to enhance
scientific insight. Which I gather is the truth, so I return to Go and collect my tokens."
Her lips twisted up in a genuine, if wryly baffled, smile. "I see. I think."
"In
short, this never happened, you are not under arrest, and we have work
to do. For my curiosity, though, before I call our junior colleagues
back in—can you give me a quick synopsis of your chain of reasoning? In
nonmathematical terms, please."
"It's only in
nonmathematical terms so far. If I can't run some real numbers in under
this—well, I'll just have to dismiss it as an interesting
hallucination."
"You were convinced enough to dry up on us."
"I was stunned. Not so much convinced as breathless."
"With hope?"
"With
… I don't quite know." She shook her head. "I may yet be proved wrong,
and it wouldn't be the first time. but you are familiar, I assume, with
examples of positive feedback loops in resonant phenomena—sound, for
example?"
"Feedback squeals, yes."
"Or a pure note that breaks a wineglass. And in structures– you
know why soldiers must break step when marching across a bridge? So
that the resonance of their steps doesn't collapse he structure?"
Miles
grinned. "I actually saw that happen once. It involved a squad of
Imperial Junior Scouts, a flag ceremony, a wooden footbridge, and my
cousin Ivan. Dumped twenty really obnoxious teenage boys into a creek."
He added aside to the Professor, "They wouldn't let me march with my
squad that evening because, they said, my height would mess up their
symmetry. So I was watching from the back benches. It was glorious. I
think I was about thirteen, but I'll treasure the memory forever."
"Did you see it coming, or did it take you by surprise?" asked the Professor curiously.
"I saw it coming, though not, I admit, very far in advance."
"Hm."
Riva's
brows twitched; she licked her lips and began. "Wormholes resonate in
five-space. Very slightly, and at a very high state. I believe
that the function of Soudha's device is to emit a five-space energy
pulse precisely tuned to the natural frequency of a wormhole. The
pulse's power is low, compared to the latent energies involved in the
wormhole's structure, but if properly tuned it might—no, would,
gradually build up the amplitude of the wormhole's resonance until it
exceeded its phase boundaries and collapsed. Or rather, I think
Soudha's group thought it must collapse. What I think actually happened
is more complex."
"Elastic recoil?" Vorthys prodded hopefully.
"In a sense. What I
think happened is that the pulse amplified the resonance energies until
the phase boundaries recoiled, and the energy was abruptly returned to
three-space in the form of a directed gravitational wave."
"Good
God," said Miles. "Do you mean to say Soudha's found way to turn an
entire wormhole into a giant imploder lance?"
"Mmmm …" said Riva. "Er . . . maybe. What I don't know is if that was what he meant
to do. The first theory made more political sense to me … as a
Komarran. It quite seduced me. I wonder if they were seduced as well?
If he did mean the wormhole to act as a sort of imploder lance,
I don't see that he's found a way to aim it. I think the gravitational
pulse was returned back along the initial path. I don't know if Radovas
committed suicide, but I'm very much afraid he may have shot himself."
"My word," breathed Vorthys. "And the ore ship—"
"If
their test platform was indeed aboard the soletta array, the
involvement of the ore ship was sheer bad luck. Bad timing. It
blundered into the gravitational pulse and was ripped apart, then was
funneled toward and struck the soletta array and thoroughly confused
the issue. If the device was aboard the ore ship—well, same result."
"Including the confusion," said Vorthys ruefully.
"But
. . . but there's still something very wrong. You have presumably
calculated most of the energy vectors involved in the soletta accident?
"Over and over."
"You trust the numbers you gave me?"
"Yes."
"And you've put limits on what energies the device can have transferred, over various lengths of time."
"There
are some fairly strict and obvious engineering limits to its potential
peak power output," agreed Vorthys. "What we don't know is how long
they could run it."
"Well," the five-space
physicist took a deep breath, "unless they were running it for weeks,
and Radovas and Trogir were seen downside much later than that, I think
you've got more energy out of the wormhole than went into it."
"From where?"
"Presumably from the wormhole's deep structure. Somehow. Unless you want to posit that Soudha has invented perpetual motion as well, which is against my religion."
Vorthys was looking wildly excited. "This is wonderful! Miles, call Yuell. Call D'Emorie. We must check those numbers."
When
D'Emorie returned with Yuell, all the tech folk were too entranced with
the breakthrough regarding the novel device to broach any embarrassing
questions about where the fast-penta had gone. D'Emorie would doubtless
think to ask later; Miles would be bland and uninformative, he decided.
Riva clearly didn't want to waste time and mental energy on anger when
there was physics to be had, but if she decided to be pissed at him
later, he would grovel as needed. For now, Miles sat back, watched, and
listened, feeling that he understood perhaps one sentence in three.
So
did Soudha now imagine that he possessed a wormhole collapser—or a
giant imploder lance? He had stolen much of the technical data from the
accident investigation; he had a lot of the same numbers Vorthys did,
and the same amount of time to look them over. While simultaneously
managing a complex evacuation of some dozen persons and several tons of
equipment, Miles reminded himself. Soudha had been rather busy. Of
course, he hadn't had to waste time reconstructing the plans of his device from scattered specs.
But
the gravitational backlash from the test wormhole near the soletta
array must have surprised Radovas—however briefly—and Soudha. The
accident had stopped their research, brought Auditors down upon them,
compelled their flight. It made no sense, none, to posit the
destruction of the soletta as deliberate sabotage and suicide. If one
wanted to blow up Barrayarans, there were much more inviting targets
around. Such as the military stations guarding each wormhole exit from
Komarr local space. As an imploder lance variant, the device wasn't
going to make a very useful military weapon till they figured out how
to aim it at someone besides themselves. Though if one could set it up
in secret aboard a military station, turn it on, and flee before the
blast occurred . . .
Had Soudha figured out
what had happened yet? He had data, yes, but his five-space man was
dead. Arozzi was only a junior engineer, and Cappell the math man did
not show any special brilliance in his academic record. Vorthys had
been able to tap the top five-space expert on the planet, not to
mention Yuell the Wonderboy, who, Miles noted, was just at this moment
arguing math with Vorthys and winning. Given the data and enough time,
Radovas might have made the same conceptual breakthrough as Riva, but
Soudha in his flight was not equipped to. Unless he'd found a
replacement for Radovas . . . Miles made a note to tell ImpSec to check
for the disappearance of any other Komarran five-space experts in the
last weeks.
Soudha's flight, Miles decided, had to
be following one of three logic branches. Either they had abandoned all
and fled, or they'd withdrawn to hide, painfully rebuild their safe
base, and try again another day. Or they had moved up their timetable
and elected to risk all on an early strike of some kind. Miles wondered
if they'd put what should have been a technically-driven decision to a
vote. They were Komarrans, after all, and apparently volunteers.
Amateur conspirators, not that it was exactly a licensed trade. Option
One didn't feel right, given what Miles had seen so far. Option Two
seemed more likely, but gave ImpSec time enough to do their job. The
Komarrans might have thought so too.
If you're going to worry, worry about Option Three.
There was a lot to worry about, in Option Three. Panicked and desperate
people were capable of very strange moves indeed; look at some of the
incidents in his own career.
"Professor Vorthys.
Dr. Riva." Miles had to repeat himself, more loudly, before they looked
up. "So you aim this device at a worm-hole, and switch it on, and it
starts pumping in energy. At some point, it builds up to a break-point
and bounces back at you. What happens if you turn it off before that
point?"
"I am not certain," said Riva, "that that
wasn't exactly what happened. The backlash may have been triggered by
either exceeding the phase boundaries, or by Radovas turning off the
pulse source. It is unclear if the phase-boundary deaugmentation is
discontinous or not."
"So . . . once activated,
the device may become in effect its own dead-man switch? Turning it off
sets it off?"
"I'm not sure. It would be a good point to test."
From a suitable distance. "Well … if you figure it out, please let me know, eh? Carry on."
After
a moment to either digest his question, or wait to see if he'd pop out
with any other interruption, the conversation around the table returned
to its original polyglot of English, mathematics, and engineering.
Miles settled back, feeling anything but reassured.
If
Soudha had perfected his device with an eye to using the wormholes as
power sources to blow up the military stations that guarded them, as a
surprise opening for a shooting war … the way to do it would be to blow
up all six at once, coordinated with a Komarr-wide uprising on the
scale of the ill-fated Komarr Revolt. Miles was not totally pleased
with ImpSec's performance in this case so far, but Soudha's had been a
small group, running close to the ground. The signs of a massive revolt
brewing must be too widespread for even ImpSec to miss. Besides, the
chief conspirators were all of an age to have been through that once.
Anyone who'd experienced the debacle of the Komarr Revolt on the Komarr
side had reason to mistrust their fellows almost as much as they
mistrusted Barrayarans. The last people Soudha would want in on his
plot were a bunch more Komarrans. And . . . they didn't have six
devices. They'd had five, the fourth was destroyed, and the three
earlier ones seemed to have been smaller-scale prototypes.
It was like having a gun with one bullet in it. You'd want to pick your target very carefully.
Suppose
Soudha still imagined he possessed a wormhole-collapser, albeit one
with a few bugs in the design. There were six active wormholes in
Komarr local space, but Miles hadn't any doubt which one Soudha would
go for.
The sole jump to Barrayar. Cut us off at one stroke, yeah. From a Komarran viewpoint that
was a plot worth all of these five years of devotion, all the sweat and
risk: closing Barrayar's only gate to the galactic wormhole nexus. A
bloodless revolution, by God, sure to appeal to these tech types.
They'd return Komarr to the good old days of its glory a century
ago—and Barrayar to its bad old days, in a new Time of Isolation.
Whether everyone, or indeed, anyone on either Komarr or Barrayar wanted
to go there or not. Did the conspirators imagine they'd be permitted to
live, once the truth was unraveled?
Probably not.
But if Riva spoke straight, the process was not reversible; the
wormhole, once collapsed, could not be reopened. The deed would be
done, and no tears or prayers would undo it. Like an assassination.
Soudha and his friends might imagine themselves as a new and more
effective generation of Martyrs, content to be enshrined after death.
They had seemed too practical, but who knew? One could be hypnotized by
the hard choices in ways that had nothing to do with one's intelligence.
Yes.
Miles now knew where the Komarrans were going, if they weren't there
already. The civilian—or the military? No, the civilian transfer
station which served the wormhole jump to Barrayar.
You just sent Ekaterin there. She's there now.
So
was the Professora, and so were several thousand other innocent people,
he reminded himself. He fought panic, to follow out his thread of
thought to the end. Soudha might have a bolthole of some kind set up on
the station, prepared perhaps months or years in advance. He would plan
to set up his novel device, aim it at the wormhole, draw power
from—where? If from the station, someone might notice. If they mounted
it aboard a ship (and it had to have been on some kind of ship to get
out there), they could draw ship's power. But traffic control and the
Barrayaran military were unlikely to tolerate any ship hanging around
the wormhole without a filed flight plan, from which it had better not
deviate.
Ship, or station? He had insufficient
data to decide. But if Soudha had not seriously modified his device,
the plot which began with a bloodless plan to collapse the wormhole
could end in the bloody chaos of a major disaster to the transfer
station. Miles had seen space disasters on various scales. He didn't
want to ever see another.
Miles could imagine a
dozen different scenarios from the data they had in hand, but only this
one gave him no time or room to be wrong. Go. He reached for the
secured comconsole and punched up ImpSec Komarr HQ at Solstice.
"This is Lord Auditor Vorkosigan. Give me General Rathjens, immediately. It's an emergency."
Vorthys looked up from the long table. "What?"
"I've
just figured out that if there's any action coming up, it's got to be
at the transfer station by the Barrayar jump."
"But Miles—surely Soudha would not be so foolish as to try again, after his initial disaster!"
"I don't trust Soudha in any way. Have you heard from Ekaterin or your wife?"
"Yes,
Ekaterin messaged when you were out getting your, ah, supplies. She'd
reached her hostel safely and was off to meet the Professora."
"Did she leave a number?'
"Yes, it's on the comconsole—"
General Rathjen's face appeared above the vid-plate. "My Lord Auditor?"
"General.
I have new data suggesting our escaped Komarrans are at or are heading
for the Barrayar Transfer Station. I want a max-penetration ImpSec
search-sweep for them on the station and aboard any in-bound traffic,
to commence as quickly as possible. I want ImpSec courier transport for
myself out to there as fast as you can scramble it. I'll give you the
details once I'm en route. When all that's in motion, I want to send a
tight-beam personal message to, um—" he did a quick search "—this
number."
Rathjens's brows rose, but he said only, "Yes, my Lord Auditor. I'll be most interested in those details."
"Indeed you will. Thanks."
Rathjens's face vanished; in a few moments, the tight-beam link blinked its go-ahead.
"Ekaterin,"
Miles spoke rapidly and with all his will into the vid pickup, as if he
might so speed the message. "Take the Professora and get yourselves
aboard the first outbound transport you can find, any local space
destination—Komarr orbit, one of the other stations, anywhere. We'll
arrange to pick you both up later and get you home right and tight.
Just get yourselves off the station, and go at once."
He hesitated over his closing; no, this was not the time or place to declare, I love you,
no matter what dangers he imagined threatening her. By the time this
message arrived, she might well be back in her hostel room, with the
Professora listening over her shoulder. "Be careful. Vorkosigan out."
As Miles rose to go, Vorthys said doubtfully, "Do you think I should go with you?"
"No.
I think you all should stay here and figure out what the hell happens
when somebody tries to turn that infernal device off. And when you do,
please tight-beam me the instructions."
Vorthys
nodded. Miles gave the lot of them an ImpSec analyst's salute, which
was a vague wave of the hand in the vicinity of one's forehead, turned,
and strode for the door.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
Ekaterin watched morosely as the sonic toilet ate her shoes with scarcely a burp.
"It was worth a try, dear," said Aunt Vorthys, glancing at her expression.
"There are too many fail-safe systems on this space station," Ekaterin said. "This worked for Nikki, on the jumpship coming out here. What an uproar there was. The ship's steward was so upset with us."
"My
grandchildren could make short work of this, I'll bet," agreed the
Professora. "It's too bad we don't have a few nine-year-olds with us."
"Yes," sighed Ekaterin. And no.
That Nikki was safely back on Komarr right now was a source of
liberating joy in some secret level of her mind. But there ought to be
some way to sabotage a sonic toilet that would light up a station
tech's board and bring an investigation. How to turn a sonic toilet
into a weapon was just not in Ekaterin's job training. Vorkosigan
probably knew how, she reflected bitterly. Just like a man, to be
underfoot in her life for days and then a quarter of a solar system
away when she really needed him.
For the tenth
time, she felt the walls, tried the door, inventoried their clothes.
Practically the only flammable item in the room was the women's hair.
Setting a fire in a room in which one was locked did not much recommend
itself to Ekaterin's mind, though it was a possible last resort. She
stuck her hands in the wall slot and turned them, letting the sonic
cleaner loosen the dirt, and the UV light bathe away the germs, and the
air fan, presumably, whisk their little corpses away. She drew her
hands out again. The engineers might swear the system was more
effective, but it never made her feel as fresh is an old-fashioned
water wash. And how were you supposed to put a baby's bottom in the
thing? She glowered at the sanitizer. "If we had any kind of a tool at
all, we ought to be able to dosomething with this."
"I had my Vorfemme knife," said the Professora sadly. "It was my best enameled one."
"Had?"
"It was in my boot-sheath. The boot I threw, I believe."
"Oh."
"You don't carry yours, these days?"
"Not
on Komarr. I was trying to be, I don't know, modern." Her lips twisted.
"I do wonder about the cultural message in the Vorfemme knife. I mean,
yes, it made you better armed than the peasants, but never as
well-armed as the two-sword men. Were the Vor lords afraid of their
wives getting the drop on them?"
"Remembering my grandmother, it's possible," said the Professora.
"Mm. And my Great-Aunt Vorvayne." Ekaterin sighed, and glanced worriedly at her present aunt.
The
Professora was leaning on the wall with one hand supporting her,
looking still very pale and shaky. "If you are done with the attempted
sabotage, I think I would like to sit down again."
"Yes, of course. It was a stupid idea anyway."
The
Professora sank gratefully onto the only seat in the tiny lavatory, and
Ekaterin took her turn leaning on the wall. "I am so sorry I dragged
you into this. If you hadn't been with me . . . One of us must get away."
"If you see a chance, Ekaterin, take it. Don't wait for me."
"That would still leave Soudha with a hostage."
"I
don't think that's the most important issue, just now. Not if the
Komarrans were telling the truth about what that great ugly thing out
there does."
Ekaterin rubbed her toe over the
smooth gray deck of the lav. In a quieter voice, she asked, "Do you
suppose our own side would sacrifice us, if it came to a standoff?"
"For
this? Yes," said the Professora. "Or at any rate . . . they certainly
ought to. Do the Professor and Lord Auditor Vorkosigan and ImpSec know what the Komarrans have built?"
"No,
not as of yesterday. That is, they knew Soudha had built something—I
gather they had almost managed to reconstruct the plans."
"Then they will know," said the Professora firmly. And a little less firmly, "Eventually …"
"I hope they won't think we ought to sacrifice ourselves, like in the Tragedy of the Maiden of the Lake."
"She
was actually sacrificed by her brother, as the tradition would have
it," said the Professora. "I do wonder if it was quite so voluntary as
he later claimed."
Ekaterin reflected dryly on the
old Barrayaran legend. As the tale went, the town of Vorkosigan
Surleau, on the Long Lake, had been besieged by the forces of
Hazelbright. Loyal vassals of the absent Count, a Vor officer and his
sister, had held out till the last. On the verge of the final assault,
the Maiden of the Lake had offered up her pale throat to her brother's
sword rather than fall to the ravages of the enemy troops. The very
next morning, the siege was unexpectedly lifted by the subterfuge of
her betrothed—one of their Auditor Vorkosigan's distant ancestors, come
to think of it, the latterly famous General Count Selig of that
name—who sent the enemy hurriedly marching away to meet the false rumor
of another attack. But it was, of course, too late for the Maiden of
the Lake. Much Barrayaran historical sympathy, in the form of plays and
poems and songs, had been expended upon the subsequent grief of the two
men; Ekaterin had memorized one of the shorter poems for a school
recitation, in her childhood. "I've always wondered," said Ekaterin,
"if the attack really had taken place the next day, and all the pillage
and rape had proceeded on schedule, would they have said, 'Oh, that's
all right, then'?"
"Probably," said Aunt Vorthys, her lips twitching.
After a time, Ekaterin remarked, "I want to go home. But I don't want to go back to Old Barrayar."
"No more do I, dear. It's wonderful and dramatic to read about. So nice to be able to read, don't you know."
"I
know girls who pine for it. They like to play dress-up and pretend
being Vor ladies of old, rescued from menace by romantic Vor youths.
For some reason they never play dying in childbirth, or vomiting your guts out from the red dysentery, or weaving till you go blind and crippled from arthritis and dye poisoning, or infanticide.
Well, they do die romantically of disease sometimes, but somehow it's
always an illness that makes you interestingly pale and everyone sorry
and doesn't involve losing bowel control."
"I've
taught history for thirty years. One can't reach them all, though we
try. Send them to my class, next time."
Ekaterin smiled grimly. "I'd love to."
Silence fell for a
time, while Ekaterin stared at the opposite wall and her aunt leaned
back with her eyes closed. Ekaterin watched her in growing worry. She
glanced at the door, and said at last, "Do you suppose you could
pretend to be much sicker than you really are?"
"Oh," said Aunt Vorthys, not opening her eyes, "that would not be at all difficult."
By
which Ekaterin deduced that she was already pretending to be much less
sick than she really was. The jump-nausea seemed to have hit her
awfully hard, this time. Was that gray-faced fatigue really all due to
travel-sickness? Stunner fire could be unexpectedly lethal for a weak
heart—was there a reason besides bewilderment that her aunt had not
tried to struggle or cry out under Arozzi's threats?
"So . . . how is your heart, these days?" Ekaterin asked diffidently.
Aunt
Vorthys's eyes popped open. After a moment, she shrugged. "So-so, dear.
I'm on the waiting list for a new one."
"I thought new organs were easy to grow, now."
"Yes,
but surgical transplant teams are rather less so. My case isn't that
urgent. After the problems a friend of mine had, I decided I'd rather
wait for one of the more proven groups to have a slot available."
"I
understand." Ekaterin hesitated. "I've been thinking. We can't do
anything locked in here. If I can get anyone to come to the door, I
thought we might try to feign you were dangerously sick, and get them
to let us out. After that—who knows? It can't be worse than this. All
you'd have to do is go limp and moan convincingly."
"I'm willing," said Aunt Vorthys.
"All right."
Ekaterin
fell to pounding on the door as loudly as she could, and calling the
Komarrans urgently by name. After about ten minutes of this, the lock
clicked, the door slid back, and Madame Radovas peeked in from a slight
distance. Arozzi stood behind her with his stunner in his hand.
"What?" she demanded.
"My
aunt is ill," said Ekaterin. "She can't stop shivering, and her skin is
getting clammy. I think she may be going into shock from the
jump-sickness and her bad heart and all this stress. She has to have a
warm place to lie down, and a hot drink, at least. Maybe a doctor."
"We
can't get you a doctor right now." Madame Radovas peered worriedly past
Ekaterin at the limp Professora. "We could arrange the other, I guess."
"Some
of us wouldn't mind having the lav back," Arozzi muttered. "It's not so
good, all of us having to parade up and down the corridor to the
nearest public one."
"There's no other safe place to lock them up," said Madame Radovas to him.
"So,
put them out in the middle of the room and keep an eye on them. Stick
them back in here later. One's sick, the other has to take care of her,
what can they do? It's no good if the old lady dies on us."
"I'll see what I can do," said Madame Radovas to Ekaterin, and closed the door again.
In
a little while she came back, to escort the two Barrayaran women to a
cot and a folding chair set up at the edge of the loading bay, as far
as possible from any emergency alarm. Ekaterin and Madame Radovas
supported the stumbling Professora to the cot, and helped her lie down,
and covered her up. Leaving Arozzi to guard them, Madame Radovas went
off and returned with a steaming mug of tea and set it down; Arozzi
then turned the stunner over to her and returned to his work. Madame
Radovas drew up another folding chair and sat down a few prudent meters
away from her captives. Ekaterin supported her aunt's shoulders while
she drank the tea, blinked gratefully, and sank back with a moan.
Ekaterin made play of feeling the Professora's forehead, and rubbing
her chill hands, and looking very concerned. She stroked the tousled
gray hair, and stared covertly around the loading bay she'd merely
glimpsed before.
The device still sat in its float
cradle, but more power lines snaked across the floor to it now; Soudha
was overseeing the attachment of one such cable to the awkward array of
converters at the base of the horn. A man she did not recognize busied
himself in the glass-walled control booth. At his gestures, Cappell
drew careful chalk lines on the deck near the device. When he finished,
he consulted with Soudha, and Soudha himself took the float cradle's
remote control, stepped back, and with exquisite care set the cradle to
lift, move forward till it almost touched the outer wall, and gently
land again in precise alignment with the chalk marks. The horn was now
aimed not quite square-on with the inner door of the large freight
lock. Were they getting ready to load it aboard a ship, and take it out
to point at the wormhole? Or could they use it right from here?
Ekaterin
drew her map cube from her pocket. Madame Radovas sat up in alarm,
aiming the stunner, saw what it was, and settled back uneasily, but did
not move to take the map from her. Ekaterin checked the location of the
Southport Transport docks and locks; the company had leased three
loading bays in a line, and Ekaterin was not sure just which she was
now in. The three-dimensional vid projection did not supply any
exterior orientation, but she rather thought they were on the same side
of the station as the wormhole, which might well put this lock in
line-of-sight to it.I don't think there's very much time left at all.
In
addition to the ramp by which she'd entered and the door to the
lavatory, there appeared to be two other airsealed exits from the bay.
One was clearly a personnel lock to the exterior, next to the freight
lock. Another went back into a section which might be offices, if this
was indeed the center bay of the three. Ekaterin mentally traced a
route through it to the nearest public corridor. Several Komarrans had
come and gone through that door; perhaps they were all camping back
there. In any case, it seemed more heavily populated than the door
she'd come in. But closer. The control booth was a dead end.
Ekaterin
eyed her fellow-widow. Strange to think that their different domestic
paths had brought them both to the same place in the end. Madame
Radovas looked tired and worn. This has been a nightmare for everyone.
"How do you imagine you're going to get away, after this?" Ekaterin asked her curiously. Will you take us along? Surely the Komarrans would have to.
Madame
Radovas's lips thinned. "We hadn't planned to. Till you two came along.
I'm almost sorry. It was simpler before. Collapse the wormhole and die.
Now it's all possibilities and distractions and worries again."
"Worries? Worse than expecting to die?"
"I left three children back on Komarr. If I were dead, ImpSec would have no reason to … bother them."
Hostages all round, indeed.
"Besides," said Madame Radovas, "I voted for it. I could do no less than my husband did."
"You took a vote?
On what? And how do you divide up Komarran-style voting shares in a
revolt? You had to have taken everyone along—if anyone who knew
anything had been left to be questioned under fast-penta, it would have
been all up."
"Soudha, Foscol, Cappell, and my
husband were considered the primary shareholders. They decided I had
inherited my husband's voting stock. The choices were simple
enough—surrender, flee, or fight to the last. The count was three to
one for this."
"Oh? Who voted against it?"
She hesitated. "Soudha."
"How odd," said Ekaterin, startled. "He's your chief engineer now—doesn't that worry you?"
"Soudha,"
said Madame Radovas tartly, "has no children. He wanted to wait and try
again later, as though there would be a later. If we do not strike now,
ImpSec will shortly hold all our relatives hostage. But if we close the
wormhole and die, there will be no one left for ImpSec to threaten with
their harm. My children will be safer, even if I never see them again."
Her eyes were bleak and sincere.
"What about all
the Barrayarans on Komarr and Sergyar who will never see their families
again? Cut off, not ever knowing their fate …" Mine, for instance.
"They'll be the same as dead, to each other. It will be the Time of
Isolation all over again." She shivered in horror at the cascading
images of shock and grief.
"So be glad you're on
the good side of the wormhole," Madame Radovas snapped. At Ekaterin's
cold stare, she relented a little. "It won't be like your old Time of
Isolation at all. You have a fully developed planetary industrial base,
now, and a much larger population, which has experienced a
hundred-year-long inflow of new genes. There are plenty of other worlds
which scarcely maintain any galactic contact, and they get along just
fine."
The Professora's eyes slitted open. "I think you are underestimating the psychological impact."
"What
you Barrayarans do to each other, afterwards, is not my
responsibility," said Madame Radovas. "As long as you can never do it
to us again."
"How … do you expect to die?" asked Ekaterin. "Take poison together? Walk out an airlock?" And will you kill us first?
"I
expect you Barrayarans will take care of those details, when you figure
out what happened," said Madame Radovas. "Foscol and Cappell think we
will escape, afterwards, or that we might be permitted to surrender. I
think it will be the Solstice Massacre all over again. We even have our
very own Vorkosigan for it. I'm not afraid." She hesitated, as if
contemplating her own brave words. "Or at any rate, I'm too tired to
care anymore."
Ekaterin could understand that. Unwilling to murmur agreement with the Komarran woman, she fell silent, staring unseeing across the loading bay.
Dispassionately,
she considered her own fear. Her heart beat, yes, and her stomach
knotted, and her breath came a bit too fast. Yet these people did not
frighten her, deep down, nearly as much as she thought they ought to.
Once
upon a time, shortly after one of Tien's unfathomable uncomfortable
jealous jags had subsided back to whatever fantasy world it came from,
he'd earnestly assured her that he had thrown his nerve disrupter
(illegally owned because he did not carry it in issuance from their
District liege lord) from a bridge one night, and got rid of it. She
hadn't even known he'd possessed it. These Komarrans were desperate,
and dangerous in their desperation. But she had slept beside things
that scared her more than Soudha and all his friends. How strange I feel.
There
was a tale in Barrayaran folklore about a mutant who could not be
killed, because he hid his heart in a box on a secret island far from
his fortress. Naturally, the young Vor hero talked the secret out of
the mutant's captive maiden, stole the heart, and the poor mutant came
to the usual bad end. Maybe her fear failed to paralyze her because
Nikki was her heart, and safe away, far from here. Or maybe it was
because for the first time in her life, she owned herself whole.
A
few meters away across the loading bay, Soudha crossed again to the
novel device, aimed the remote at the float cradle, and adjusted its
position fractionally. Cappell called some question from the other side
of the bay, and Soudha set the remote down on the edge of the cradle
and paced along one of the power cables, examining it closely, till he
reached the wall slot Cappell was fussing over. They bent their heads
together over some loose connection or other. Cappell yelled a question
to the man in the glass booth, who shook his head, and went out to join
them.
If I think about this, the chance will be gone. If I think about this, even my mutant's heart will fail me.
Had she the right to take this much risk upon herself? That
was the real fear, yes, and it shook her to her core. This wasn't a
task for her. This was a task for ImpSec, the police, the army, a Vor
hero, anyone but her. Who are not here. But oh, if she tried
and failed, she failed for all Barrayar, for all time. And who would
take care of Nikki, if he lost both parents in the space of barely a
week? The safe thing to do was to wait for competent grownup male
people to rescue her.
Like Tien, yeah?
"Are
you getting any warmer now, Aunt Vorthys?" Ekaterin asked. "Have you
stopped shivering?" She rose, and bent over her aunt with her back to
Madame Radovas, and pretended to tuck the blanket tighter, while
actually loosening it. Madame Radovas was shorter than Ekaterin, and
slighter, and twenty-five years older. Now, Ekaterin mouthed to the Professora.
Moving
smoothly but not suddenly, she turned, paced toward Madame Radovas, and
flung the blanket over the woman's head as she jumped to her feet. The
chair banged over backward. Another two paces and she was able to wrap
her arms around the smaller woman, pinning her arms to her side. The
stunner's beam splashed, buzzing, on the deck at their feet, and the
nimbus made Ekaterin's legs tingle. She lifted Madame Radovas off her
feet and shook her. The stunner clattered to the deck, and Ekaterin
kicked it toward her aunt, who was fighting to get upright on her cot.
Ekaterin flung the blanket-muffled Komarran woman away from her as hard
as she could, turned, and sprinted for the float cradle.
She
snatched up the remote control and spun away toward the glass control
booth as fast as her legs could push her, her sweating bare feet firm
against the smooth surface. The men at the wall outlet shouted and
started toward her. She didn't look back.
She
galloped around the corner and up the two stairs to the booth in one
leap. She batted frantically at the door control pad. The door took
forever to slide shut; Cappell was almost to the steps before she was
able, after two tries with her shaking fingers, to activate the lock.
Cappell hit the door with a resounding thud and began pounding on it.
She
did not, dared not, look back to see what was happening to the
Professora. Instead, she raised the remote and pointed it through the
glass at the float cradle. The controls included six buttons and a
four-pronged knob. She'd never been good at this sort of coordination.
Fortunately, subtlety was not her object now.
The third stab of her fingers on a button found the up
vector. All too slowly, the float cradle began to rise off the loading
bay deck. Perhaps there were some sort of sensors in it which kept it
level; the first four combinations she tried seemed to do nothing.
Finally, she was able to make the thing begin to rotate. It bumped into
the catwalks above, making nasty grinding noises. Good. Power cables
snapped off and whipped around; the strange man barely dodged the
spitting sparks. Soudha was screaming, trying to jump up at the glass
wall in front of her. She could barely hear him. The glass, after all,
was supposed to stand up to vacuum. He scrambled back and aimed a
stunner at her. The beam splashed harmlessly off the window.
At
last, she was able to make the sensor program appear in the remote's
little readout. She canceled its running instructions, and then the
cradle became more lively. She'd achieved an almost 180-degree
rotation, bottom to top. Then she turned the cradle's power off.
It
was only about a four-meter drop from the catwalks to the deck. She had
no idea what material the huge horn was fabricated from. She
anticipated having to try a couple of times, to achieve some dent or
crack Soudha could not repair in the day it would take for her and her
aunt to be missed at the ferry. Instead, the bell burst like—like a
flower pot.
The boom shook the bay. Shards big and
small skittered off across the deck like shrapnel. One jagged piece
whanged past centimeters from Soudha's head and smacked into the
booth's glass, and Ekaterin ducked involuntarily. But the glass held.
Amazing material. She was glad the device's horn hadn't been cast of
it. Laughter bubbled out of her throat, bravura berserker joy. She
wanted to destroy a hundred devices. She turned on the float
cradle's power again and bounced the smashed remains on the deck a few
more times, just because she could. The Maiden of the Lake fires back!
The
Professora was sitting on the deck by the far wall, bent over. Not
running away, not even close to making an escape. Not good. Madame
Radovas was on her feet and had recovered her stunner. Cappell the
mathematician was beating on the control booth's door with a meter-long
high-torque wrench he'd found somewhere. Arozzi, his face running with
blood from a flying piece of horn-shrapnel, dissuaded him before he
rendered it unopenable; Soudha came running up with a handful of
electronic tools, and he and Arozzi disappeared below the door's
window. Scratchy sounds penetrated by the door lock, more sinister even
than Cappell's frantic blows.
Ekaterin caught her
breath and looked around the control booth. She couldn't empty the air
from the loading bay, her aunt was out there, too. There, there was the
comconsole. Should she have gone for it first? No, she was doing this
in he right order. No matter how screwed up ImpSec's response vas, no
matter how misapplied or incompetent their tactics, hey could not
possibly lose Barrayar now.
"Hello, Emergency?"
Ekaterin panted as the vid-plate activated. "My name is Ekaterin
Vorsoisson—" She had to stop, as the automated system tried to route
her to her choice of traveler's aids. She rejected Lost & Found,
selected Security, and started over, not certain she'd reached a human
yet, and praying it would all be recorded. "My name is Ekaterin
Vorsoisson. Lord Auditor Vorthys is my uncle. I'm being held prisoner,
along with my aunt, by Komarran terrorists at the Southport Transport
docks and locks. I'm in a loading bay control booth right now, but
they're getting the door open." She glanced over her shoulder. Soudha
had defeated the lock; the airseal door, bent from Cappell's efforts
with the wrench, whined and refused to retreat into its slot. Soudha
and Arozzi put their shoulders to it, grunting, and it inched open.
"Tell Lord Auditor Vorkosigan—tell ImpSec—"
Then
the swearing Soudha slipped sideways through the door, followed by
Cappell still clutching his wrench. Laughing hysterically, tears
running down her cheeks, Ekaterin turned to face her fate.
CHAPTER TWENTY
Miles barely restrained himself from pressing
his face to his courier ship's airlock window, while waiting for the
tube seals from the jump station to finish seating themselves. When the
door hissed open at last he swung himself through in one motion, to
land on his feet with a thump, and glare around the hatch corridor. His
reception committee at the private lock, the ranking ImpSec man aboard
and a fellow in blue-and-orange civilian security garb, both braced to
attention after only the briefest beat of surprise at his height—he
could tell by the way their eyes had to track downward to meet his
face—and appearance.
"Lord Auditor Vorkosigan,"
the strained-looking ImpSec man, Vorgier, acknowledged Miles. "This is
Group-Commander Husavi, who heads Station Security."
"Captain
Vorgier. Commander Husavi. Are there any new developments in the
situation in the last," he glanced at his chrono, "fifteen minutes?"
Almost a full three hours had passed since the first message from
Vorgier had turned his journey from Komarr orbit into this viscous
nightmare of suppressed panic. Never had an ImpSec courier ship seemed
to move so slowly, and since no amount of Auditorial screaming at the
crew could change the laws of physics, Miles had perforce seethed in
silence.
"My men, backed by those of Commander
Husavi, are almost into position for our assault," Vorgier assured him.
"We believe we can get an emergency tube seal into place over the outer
door of the airlock containing the Vor women before, or almost before,
the Komarrans can evacuate the air. The moment the hostages are
retrieved, our armored men can enter the Southport bay at will. It will
be over in minutes."
"Too bloody likely," snapped
Miles. "Several engineers have had several hours to prepare for you.
These Komarrans may be desperate, but I guarantee they are not stupid.
If I can think of putting a pressure-sensitive explosive in the
airlock, so can they."
What a set of mental images
Vorgier's words conjured—a tube seal misapplied or applied too late to
the outer skin of the station, Ekaterin's and the Professora's bodies
blown outward into space—some space-armored ImpSec goon missing his
catch—Miles could almost hear his embarrassed, bass Oops over the audio
link now, in his mind's ear. Such a blessing that Vorgier hadn't
confided these details earlier, when Miles would have had all those
hours en route to reflect upon them, stuck aboard his courier ship.
"The Vor ladies are not expendable. Madame Dr. Vorthys has a weak
heart, her husband Lord Auditor Vorthys tells me. And Madame Vorsoisson
is—just not expendable. And the Komarrans are the least expendable of
all. We want them alive for questioning. Sorry, Captain, but I mislike
your plan."
Vorgier stiffened. "My Lord Auditor. I
appreciate your concern, but I believe this will be most quickly and
effectively concluded as a military operation. Civilian authority can
help best by staying out of the way and letting the professionals do
their job."
The ImpSec deck had dealt him two men
in a row of exceptional competence, Tuomonen and Gibbs; why, oh why,
couldn't good things come in threes? They were supposed to, dammit.
"This is my operation, Captain, and I will answer personally to
the Emperor for every detail of it. I spent the last ten years as an
ImpSec galactic agent and I've dealt with more damned situations than anyone else on Simon Illyan's roster and I know just exactly how fucked-up a professional operation can get." He tapped his chest. "So climb down off your Vor horse and brief me properly."
Vorgier
looked considerably taken aback; Husavi tamped out a smile, which told
Miles all too much about how things had been going here. To Vorgier's
credit, he recovered almost instantly, and said, "Come this way, my
Lord Auditor, to the operations center. I'll show you the details, and
you can judge for yourself."
Better. They
started off down the corridor, almost quickly enough for Miles's taste.
"Has there been any change or increase in power-draw into the Southport
Transport area?"
"Not yet," Husavi answered. "As
you ordered, my engineers shut down their lines to just that necessary
to run their life support. I don't know how much power the Komarrans
are able to tap from the local system freighter they have docked there.
Soudha has said if we try to capture or remove the ship, they'll open
the airlock on the Vor ladies, so we've waited. Our remote sensors
don't indicate any unusual readings from there yet."
"Good."
Baffling, but good. Miles could not imagine why the Komarrans hadn't
switched on their wormhole-collapsing device yet, in a last-ditch
effort to accomplish their long-sought goal. Had Soudha figured out its
inherent defect? Corrected it, or tried to? Was it not quite ready yet,
and the Komarrans even now frantically preparing it? In any case, once
it was powered up they were all in deep-deep, because the Professor and
Riva had concluded, with some pretty unreassuring hand-waving,
something like a fifty percent probability of an immediate
gravitational back-blow from the wormhole the moment it was switched
off, ripping the station apart. When Miles had inquired what the
technical difference was between a fifty-fifty chance and we don't know,
he hadn't got a straight answer from them. Further theoretical
refinements had come to an abrupt halt, when the news had come through
about the stand-off here; the Professor was on his way now to the jump
point, just a few hours behind Miles.
They turned
a corner and entered a lift-tube. Miles asked, "What's the current
status of the station evacuation?"
Husavi replied,
"We've waved off all incoming ships that could be diverted. A couple
had to dock in order to refuel, or they couldn't have made it to an
alternate station." He waited till they'd exited into another corridor
before continuing. "We've managed to remove most of the transient
passengers and about five hundred of our nonessential personnel so far."
"What story are you giving them?"
"We're telling them it's a bomb scare."
"Excellent." And effectively true.
"Most are cooperating. Some aren't."
"Hm."
"But
there's a serious problem with transportation. There are simply not
enough ships in range to remove everyone in less than ten hours."
"If
the power-draw to the Southport bay spikes suddenly, you'll have to
start shuttling people over to the military station." Though Miles was
by no means sure the gravitational event, if it occurred, wouldn't suck
in and damage or destroy the military station as well. "They'll have to
help out."
"Captain Vorgier and I discussed this
possibility with the military commander, my lord. He wasn't happy with
the prospect of a sudden influx of, um, randomly selected, uncleared
persons onto his station."
Miles bet not. "I'll
speak with him." He sighed. Vorgier's "operations center" turned out to
be the local ImpSec offices; the central communications chamber did
indeed bear a passing resemblance to a warship's tactics room, Miles
had to allow. Vorgier called up a holovid display of the Southport
docks and locks area, one with rather better technical detail than the
one Miles had spent the last hour studying.
He ran
over the expected placement of his men and the projected timing and
technique of his assault. It wasn't a bad plan, as assaults went. In
his youth, out on covert ops, Miles had come up with things just as
bravura and idiotic on equally short notice. All right . . . more
idiotic, he admitted ruefully himself. Someday, Miles, his boss ImpSec Chief Simon Illyan had once said to him, I hope you live to have a dozen subordinates just like you. Miles hadn't realized till now that had been a formal curse on Illyan's part.
Vorgier's
sales pitch kept fading out in Miles's mind, displaced by an
instant-replay of the recording of the last message from Ekaterin,
which Vorgier had thoughtfully supplied Miles by tight-beam. He'd
memorized every nuance of it in the last three hours. I'm in a loading bay control booth—they're forcing the door open— She hadn't said anything about the novel device. Unless some report had been going to follow the Tell Lord Vorkosigan—tell ImpSec—
part, which had been rudely interrupted by the red-faced Soudha's paw
abruptly descending on the comconsole control. Nothing could be seen in
the fuzzy background, however computer-enhanced, but the bay control
booth. And the mathematician, Cappell, gripping wrench he looked ready
to use for something other than tightening bolts, but evidently hadn't;
ImpSec had received vids in the loading bay airlock's safety channel of
both women being bundled alive into it, before Soudha had cut off the
signal off. Those brief images too burned in Miles's brain. "All right,
Captain Vorgier," Miles interrupted. "Hold your plan as a possible last
resort."
"To be implemented under what circumstances, my Lord Auditor?"
Over my dead body, Miles did not reply. Vorgier might not understand it wasn't a joke. "Before we start blowing walls in, I want to try to negotiate with Soudha and his friends."
"These are Komarran terrorists. Madmen—you can't negotiate with them!"
The
late Baron Ryoval had been a madman. The late Ser Galen had been a
madman, without question. And the late General Metzov hadn't exactly
been rowing with both oars in the water, either, come to think of it.
Miles had to admit, there had been a definite negative trend to all
those negotiations. "I'm not without experience in the problem,
Vorgier. But I don't think Dr. Soudha is a madman. He's not even a mad
scientist. He's merely a very upset engineer. These Komarrans may in
fact be the most sensible revolutionaries I've ever met."
He
stood a moment, staring unseeing at Vorgier's colorful, ominous
tactical display, the logistics of the station evacuation warring in
his head with guesses about the Komarrans' state of mind. Delusion,
political passion, personality, judgment . . . visions of Ekaterin's
terror and despair spun in his back-brain. If so spacious a containment
as a Komarran dome gave her claustrophobia . . . stop it. He pictured a
thick sheet of glass sliding down between him and that personal
maelstrom of anxiety. If his authority here was absolute, so was his
obligation to keep his thinking clear.
"Every hour
buys lives. We'll play for time. Get me a channel to the military
station's commander," Miles ordered. "After that, we'll see whether
Soudha will answer his comconsole."
The
deliberately blank chamber in which Miles sat might as easily have been
on the nearby military station, or a ship lying several thousand
kilometers off-station, as the few hundred meters from the Southport
bay it actually was. Soudha's location, when his face formed at last
over the vid-plate, was not so anonymous; he sat in the same
glass-walled control booth from which Ekaterin had sent her alarm.
Miles wondered what techs were monitoring the corridors for moves on
ImpSec's part, and who was keeping a nervous finger on the personnel
airlock's outer door control. Had they arranged it as a dead-man's
switch?
Soudha's face was drawn and sincerely
weary, no more the bland bluff liar. Lena Foscol sat tensely to the
right of his station chair on a rolling stool, looking like some frumpy
vizier. Madame Radovas too looked on, her face half-shadowed behind
him, and Cappell stood off to the side, almost out of focus. Good. A
Komarran stockholders' voting quorum, if he read the signs right. At
least they honored his Imperial Auditor's authority to that extent.
"Good evening, Dr. Soudha," Miles began.
"You're out here?" Soudha's brows rose as he took in the lack of transmission lag.
"Yes,
well, unlike Administrator Vorsoisson, I got out of my chains at the
experiment station alive. I still don't know if you intended me to
survive."
"He didn't really die, did he?" Foscol interrupted.
"Oh,
yes." Miles made his voice deliberately soft. "I got to watch, just as
you arranged. Every filthy minute of it. It was a remarkably ugly
death."
She fell silent. Soudha said, "This is all
beside the point now. The only message we want to receive from you
people is that you have the jumpship ready to transport us to the
nearest neutral space—Pol, or Escobar—whereupon you will get your Vor
ladies back. If it's not that, I'm cutting this com."
"I
have a few pieces of free information for you, first," said Miles. "I
don't think they're ones you anticipate."
Soudha's hand hovered. "Go on."
"I'm
afraid your wormhole-collapser no longer qualifies as a secret weapon.
We caught up with your specs on file at Bollan Design. Professor
Vorthys invited Dr. Riva, of Solstice University, in to consult. Are
you aware of her reputation?"
Soudha nodded warily; Cappell's eyes widened. Madame Radovas stared wearily. Foscol looked deeply suspicious.
"Well,
putting together your specs, the data from the soletta accident, and
Riva's physics—there was a mathematician by the name of Dr. Yuell in
there too, if the name means anything to you—the Empire's top failure
analyst and the Empire's top five-space expert have concluded that you
did not, in fact, manage to invent a wormhole-collapser. What you
managed to invent was a wormhole-boomerang. Riva says that when the
five-space waves amplified the wormhole's resonance past its phase
boundaries, instead of collapsing, the wormhole returned the energy to
three-space in the form of a gravitational pulse. Tangling with this
pulse was what destroyed the soletta array and the ore ship, and—I'm
sorry, Madame Radovas—killed Dr. Radovas and Marie Trogir. The
probable-cause crew finally found her body a few hours ago, I regret to
report, wrapped up in some of the wreckage they'd retrieved almost a
week back."
Only a puff of breath from Cappell marked his grief, but water glittered in his eyes. Check, thought Miles. I thought he'd protested too much. Nobody looked surprised, merely oppressed.
"So
if you succeed in getting your thing working, what you will actually do
is destroy this station, the five thousand or so people aboard, and
yourselves. And tomorrow morning, Barrayar will still be there." Miles
let his voice fall to a near whisper. "All for nothing, and less than
nothing."
"He lies," said Foscol fiercely into the shocked silence. "He lies."
Soudha
gave a weird snort, ran his hands through his hair, and shook his head.
Then, to Miles's dismay, he laughed out loud.
Cappell stared at his colleague. "Do you really think that's why? That it malfunctioned like that?"
"It
would explain," began Soudha. "It would explain . . . oh, God." He
trailed off. "I thought it was the ore ship," he said at last.
"Interfering somehow."
"I should also mention,"
Miles put in, still uneasily watching Soudha's odd reaction, "that
ImpSec has arrested all the Waste Heat personnel and their families you
left back at the Southport Transport facility at Solstice. And then
there are all your other relatives and friends, the innocents who knew
nothing. The hostage game is a bad game, a sad and ugly game that's a
lot easier to start than end. The worst versions I've seen ended up
with neither side in control, or getting anything they wanted. And the
people who stand to lose the most in it frequently aren't even playing."
"Barrayaran threats." Foscol lifted her chin. "Do you think, after all this, we can't stand up to you?"
"I'm
sure you can, but for what reason? There aren't too many prizes left in
this mess. The biggest one is gone; you can't shut off Barrayar. You
can't keep your secret or shield anyone you left behind on Komarr.
About the only thing you can do now is kill more innocent people. Great
goals can call for great sacrifices, yes, but your possible rewards are
steadily shrinking." Yes, that was it; don't raise the pressure, lower
the wall.
"We did not," husked Cappell, rubbing
his eyes with the back of his hand, "go through all this just to
deliver the weapon of the century straight into Barrayaran hands."
"It's
already there. As a weapon, it appears to have some fundamental
defects, so far. But Riva says there's evidence you got more power out
of the wormhole than you put into it. This suggests possible future
peaceful, economic uses, when the phenomena are better understood."
"Really?" said Soudha, sitting up. "How did she figure? What are her numbers?"
"Soudha!"
said Foscol reprovingly. Madame Radovas winced, and Soudha subsided,
albeit reluctantly, staring at Miles through narrowed eyes.
"On
the other hand," Miles continued, "until further research assures us
that collapsing a wormhole is indeed quite impossible, none of you are
going anywhere, and especially not to any other planetary government.
It's one of those ugly military decisions, y'know? And I'm afraid it's
mine." The Vor ladies are not expendable, he'd told Vorgier. Was he lying then, or now? Well, if he couldn't figure it out, maybe the Komarrans couldn't either.
"You
are all headed, inexorably, for a Barrayaran prison," he went on. "The
devil's bargain part about being Vor, which lot of people including
some Vor overlook, is that our lives are made for sacrifice. There is
no threat, no torture, no slow murder you can apply to two Barrayaran
women that will change your outcome."
Was this the
right tack? Above the vid-plate their listening images were undersized,
a little ghostly, hard to read. Miles wished he were having this
conversation face-to-face. Half the subliminal clues, of body language,
of the subtle nuances of expression and voice, were washed out in
transmission and unavailable to his instincts. But handing himself over
to them person to augment their hostage collection could only have
served to stiffen their wavering resolve. The memory of a woman's hand,
slipping through his fingers into a screaming fog, flickered through
his mind; his fists clenched helplessly in his lap. Never again, you said. Not expendable, you said.
He watched the Komarrans' faces intently for all flickers of expression
he could get, reflections of truth, lies, belief, suspicion, trust.
"There
are advantages to prisons," he went on persuasively, "Some of them are
comfortably furnished, and unlike graves, sometimes, eventually, you
can get out of them again. Now, I am willing, in exchange for your
peaceful surrender and cooperation, to personally guarantee your lives.
Not, note, your freedom—that will have to wait. But time passes, old
crises are succeeded by new ones, people change their minds. Live ones
do, anyway. There are always those amnesties, in celebration of this or
that public event—the birth of an Imperial heir, for instance. I doubt
any of you will be forced to spend as much as a full decade in prison."
"Some offer," said Foscol bitterly.
Miles
let his brows rise. "It's an honest one. You have a better hope of
amnesty than Tien Vorsoisson does. That ore freighter pilot will enjoy
no visits from her children. I reviewed her autopsy, did I mention? All
the autopsies. If I have a moral claim, it's that I'm bargaining away
the rights of the dead soletta-keepers' families to any justice for
their slain. There ought to be civil trials for manslaughter over this."
Even Foscol looked away at these words.
Good. Go on.
The more time he burned, the better, and they were tracking his
arguments; as long as he could keep Soudha from cutting the com, he was
making some twisty sort of progress. "You bitch endlessly about
Barrayaran tyranny, but somehow I don't think you folks took a vote of
all Komarran planetary shareholders, before you attempted to seal—or
steal– their future. And if you could have, I don't think you would
have dared. Twenty years ago, even fifteen years ago, maybe you could
have counted on majority support. By ten years ago, it was already too
late. Would your fellows really want to close off their nearest market
now, and lose all that trade? Lose all their relatives who've moved to
Barrayar, and their half-Barrayaran grandchildren? Your trade fleets
have found their Barrayaran military escorts bloody useful often
enough. Who are the true tyrants here—the blundering Barrayarans who
seek, however awkwardly, to include Komarr in their future, or the
Komarran intellectual elitists who seek to exclude all but themselves
from it?" He took a deep breath to control the unexpected anger which
had boiled up with his words, aware he was teetering on the edge with
these people. Watch it, watch it. "So all that remains for us is to try and salvage as many lives as possible from the wreckage."
After
a little time, Madame Radovas asked, "How would you guarantee our
lives?" They were the first words she had spoken, though she had
listened intently throughout.
"By my order, as an Imperial Auditor. Only Emperor Gregor himself could gainsay it."
"So . . . why won't Emperor Gregor gainsay it?" asked Cappell skeptically.
"He's not going to be happy about any of this," Miles answered frankly. And I'm going to have to give him the report, God help me. "But … if I lay my word on the line, I don't think he'll deny me." He hesitated. "Or else I will have to resign."
Foscol snorted. "How nice for us, to know that after we are dead, you will resign. What a consolation."
Soudha
rubbed his lips, watching Miles . . . watching his truncated image,
Miles reminded himself. He was not the only one missing body cues. The
engineer was silent, thinking . . . what?
"Your word?" Cappell grimaced. "Do you know what a Vorkosigan's word means to us?"
"Yes," said Miles levelly. "Do you know what it means to me?"
Madame Radovas tilted her head, and her quiet stare became, if possible, more focused.
Miles leaned forward into the vid pickup. "My word is all that stands between you and ImpSec's aspiring heroes coming through your walls. They don't need the corridors, you know. My word
went down on my Auditor's oath, which holds me at this moment
unblinking to a duty I find more terrific than you can know. I only
have one name's oath. It cannot be true to Gregor if it is false to
you. But if there's one thing my father's heartbreaking experience at
Solstice taught, it's that I'd better not put my word down on events I
do not control. If you surrender quietly, I can control what happens.
If ImpSec has to detain you by force, it will be up to chance, chaos,
and the reflexes of some overexcited young men with guns and gallant visions of thwarting mad Komarran terrorists."
"We are not terrorists," said Foscol hotly.
"No? You've succeeded in terrifying me," Miles said bleakly. Her lips thinned, but Soudha looked less certain.
"If you unleash ImpSec, the consequences will be your doing," said Cappell.
"Almost
correct," Miles agreed. "If I unleash ImpSec, the consequences will be
my responsibility. It's that devil's distinction between being in
charge and being in control. I'm in charge; you're in control. You can
imagine how much this thrills me."
Soudha snorted. One corner of Miles's mouth tilted up in unwilling response. Yeah, Soudha knows all about that one, l oo.
Foscol
leaned forward. "This is all a smoke screen. Captain Vorgier said they
were sending for a jumpship. Where s it?"
"Vorgier
was lying for time, which was his clear duty. There will not be a
jumpship." Shit, that did it. There were only two ways this could go
now. There were only two ways it could go before.
"We have a pair of hostages. Do we have to space one of them to prove we're serious?"
"I
believe you are deathly serious. Which one gets to watch, the aunt or
the niece?" Miles asked softly, settling back again. "You claim to not
be mad terrorists, and I believe you. You're not. Yet. You are also not
murderers; I actually accept that all the deaths you've left in your
wake were accidents. So far. But I also know that line gets easier to
slip over with practice. Please observe that you have now gone as far
as you can without turning yourselves into a perfect replica of the
enemy you set out to oppose."
He let those last words hang in the air for a time, for emphasis.
"Vorkosigan's
right, I think," said Soudha unexpectedly. "We've come to the end of
our choices. Or to the beginning of another set. One that isn't the set
I signed up for."
"We have to stick together, or
it's no good," said Foscol urgently. "If we have to space one of them,
I vote for that hell-cat Vorsoisson."
"Would you do it with your own hands?" said Soudha slowly. "Because I think I decline."
"Even after what she did to us?"
What in God's name did gentle Ekaterin do to you? Miles kept his expression as blank as he could, his body still.
Soudha hesitated. "Seems it made no difference after all."
Cappell
and Madame Radovas both began to speak at once, but Soudha held up a
restraining hand. He blew out his breath like a man in pain. "No. Let
us continue as we began. The choice is plain. Stop now—unconditional
surrender—or call Vorkosigan's bluff. Now, it's no secret to you I
thought the time to go into hiding for a later try was before we ever
left Komarr."
"I'm sorry I voted against you the last time," Cappell said to Soudha.
Soudha shrugged. "Yeah, well … If we're going to quit, the time's come."
No, it hasn't,
Miles thought frantically. This was too abrupt. There was time for
another ten hours of chit chat at the very least. He wanted to slide
them to surrender, not stampede them to suicide. Or murder. If they
believed him about the defects of their device, as they appeared to, it
must soon occur to them that they could hold the whole station hostage,
if they didn't mind the self-immolating aspect. Well, if they weren't
going to think of that themselves, far be it from him to point it out.
He leaned back in his station chair, and chewed on the side of his
finger, and watched, and listened.
"There's no benefit in waiting, either way," Soudha went on. "The risk increases every minute. Lena?"
"No surrender," said Foscol sturdily. "We go on." And more bleakly, "Somehow."
"Cappell?"
The mathematician hesitated a long time. "I can't stand that Marie died for nothing. Hold out."
"Myself
…" Soudha let his big square hand fall open. "Stop. Now that we've lost
surprise, this goes nowhere. The only question is how long it takes to
arrive." He turned to Madame Radovas.
"Oh. My turn already? I didn't want to go last."
"Yours would be the tie-breaking vote in any case," said Soudha.
Madame
Radovas fell silent, staring out the control booth's glass—at the
airlock door, across the bay? Miles's gaze could but help following
hers; her turn back caught him at it, and he flinched.
You've
done it now, boy. Ekaterin's life and your soul's oath hang on a
frigging Komarran shareholders' debate. How did you let this happen?
This wasn't in the plans. . . . His eye relocated, and ignored, the code on his comconsole that would launch Vorgier and his waiting troops.
Madame
Radovas's gaze returned to window. She said, to no one in particular,
"Our safety before always depended on secrecy. Now even if we get to
Pol or Escobar, or further, ImpSec will follow us. There would not ever
be a safe time give up our hostages. In exile or not, it will be
prisons, always prisoners. I'm tired of being a prisoner, of hope, of
fear."
"You were not a prisoner!" said Foscol. "You were one of us, I thought."
Madame Radovas looked across at her. "I supported my husband. If I hadn't—he would still be alive. Lena, I'm tired." Foscol said tentatively, "Maybe you should rest, before deciding."
The
look she got from Madame Radovas in return for that line made her drop
her eyes, and look away. Madame Radovas said to Soudha, "Do you believe
him, about the device not working?"
Soudha frowned deeply. "Yes. I'm afraid so. Or I would have acted differently."
"Poor Barto." She stared at Miles for a long time in an almost detached wonder.
Encouraged by her apparent dispassion, he asked curiously, why is your vote the tie-breaker?"
"The
scheme was my husband's idea, originally. This obsession has dominated
my life for seven years. His voting share is always considered the
greatest."
How very Komarran. Then Soudha had
actually been the second-in-command, forced into the dead man's shoes .
. . was all amazingly irrelevant now. Maybe they'll name it after him. The Radovas Effect. Belike. "We are both heirs, of a sort, then."
"Indeed."
The widow's lips twisted. "You know, I will never forget the look on
your face when that fool Vorsoisson told you there was no place on his
forms for an Imperial order. I almost laughed out loud, despite it all."
Miles smiled briefly, scarcely daring to breathe.
Madame
Radovas shook her head in disbelief, but not, he thought, of his
promises. "Well, Lord Vorkosigan . . . I'll take your word. And find
out what it's worth." She searched the faces of each of her three
colleagues, but when she spoke, she looked at him. "I vote to stop now."
Miles
waited tensely for signs of dissension, protest, internal revolt.
Cappell struck his fist on the booth's glass wall, which reverberated,
and turned away, his features working. Foscol buried her face in her
hands. After that, silence.
"That's it, then,"
said Soudha, bleakly exhausted. Miles wondered if the news of the
device's inherent defect had sapped his will more than any argument.
"We surrender, on your word for our lives. Lord Auditor Vorkosigan." He
squeezed his eyes shut and opened them again. "Now what?"
"A
lot of sensible slow moves. First I gently detach ImpSec from its
vision of a heroic assault. They were getting pretty worked up, out
here. Then you inform the rest of your group. Then disarm whatever
booby-traps you've set, and pile any weapons you may possess well away
from yourselves. Unlock the doors. Then sit down quietly on the loading
bay floor with your hands behind your heads. At that point, I'll let
the boys in." He added prudently, "Please avoid sudden movements, that
sort of thing."
"So be it." Soudha cut his comm;
the Komarrans winked out. Miles shuddered in sudden disorientation,
alone again in his little sealed room. The screaming man behind the
glass wall in his mind was getting out a battering ram, it felt like.
Miles
opened the channel on his comconsole and ordered a medical squad to
accompany the arresting officers from ImpSec and Station Security, who
were to be armed with stunners and stunners only. He repeated that last
command a couple of times, to be sure. He felt as if he'd spent a
century in his station chair. When he tried to stand up, he nearly fell
over. Then he ran.
Miles's only compromise with
Vorgier's anxiety for the Imperial Auditor's personal safety was to
march down the ramp into the Southport loading bay behind instead of in
front of the security team. The ten or so Komarrans, sitting
cross-legged on the floor, twisted around to watch as the Barrayarans
entered. After Miles came the tech squad, which spread out looking for
booby-traps, and behind them the medical team with a float pallet.
The
first thing which caught Miles's eye after the live target inventory
was the upside-down float cradle in the middle of the bay, atop a pile
of tangled wreckage. He was able, barely, to recognize it from the
diagrams he'd seen back on Komarr of the fifth novel device. His heart
lifted at this inexplicable, welcome sight.
He
walked around it, staring, and came up to where Soudha was being
frisked down and restrained. "My goodness. Your wormhole-collapser
appears to have met with an accident. But it won't do you any good. We
have the plans." Cappell and a man Miles recognized as the engineer
who'd fled from Bollan Design stood nearby, glowering at him; Foscol
struggled into earshot, barely controlled by her female arresting
officer.
"It wasn't us," sighed Soudha. "It was her."
A jerk of his thumb drew Miles's attention to the inner door of the
bay's personnel airlock. A metal bar was placed crookedly across the
airseal door's jamb; the ends were melted onto floor and wall
respectively.
Miles's eyes widened, and his lips parted in breathless anticipation. "Her?"
"The bitch from hell. Or Barrayar, which is almost the same thing to hear her tell it. Madame Vorsoisson."
"Remarkable."
The source of several oddly tilted responses on the Komarrans' part to
his recent negotiations began at last to come clear to Miles. "Um . . .
how? "
All three Komarrans tried to answer
him at once, with a medley of blame-casting which included a lot of
phrases like, if Madame Radovas hadn't let her out, If you hadn't
let Radovas let her out, How was I supposed to know? The old lady
looked sick to me. Still does. If you hadn't put the remote down right
front of her, If you hadn't left the damned control booth, If you had
just moved faster, If you had run for the float cradle and cut the
power, So why didn't you think of that, huh? by which Miles slowly
pieced together the most glorious mental picture he'd had all day. All
year. For quite a long time, actually.
I'm in
love. I'm in love. I just thought I was in love, before, now I really
am. I must, I must, I must have this woman! Mine, mine, mine. Lady
Ekaterin Nile Vorvayne Vorsoisson Vorkosigan, yes! She'd left nothing here for ImpSec and all the
Emperor's Auditors to do but sweep up the bits. He wanted to roll on
the floor and howl with joy, which would be most undiplomatic of him,
under the circumstances. He kept his face neutral, and very straight.
Somehow, he didn't think the Komarrans appreciated the exquisite
delight of it all.
"When we stuffed her in the airlock I welded it shut," said Soudha morosely. "I wasn't going to let her do us a third time." "Third time?" Miles said. "If that was the second, what was the first?"
"When
that idiot Arozzi first brought her down here, she damn near blew the
whole thing right then by hitting the emergency alarm."
Miles glanced aside at the alarm on the nearby wall. "And then what happened?"
"We had a sudden influx of station accident control. I thought I'd never get rid of them."
"Ah. I see." How curious. Vorgier never mentioned that part. Later. "You mean we've spent the last five hours scrambling to evacuate this station for nothing?"
Soudha smiled sourly. "You coming to me for sympathy, Barrayaran?"
"Heh. Never mind."
Most of the prisoners were formed up and marched out; with a gesture, Miles ordered Soudha to be held behind.
"Moment of truth, Soudha. Have you booby-trapped this thing?"
"There
is a motion-sensitive charge attached to the outer door. Opening it
from this side should not set it off."
With iron
self-control, Miles watched as an ImpSec tech torched off the metal
bar. It fell to the deck with a clang. He paused in one last moment of
sick fear.
"What are you waiting for?" asked Soudha curiously.
"Just
pondering the depth of your political ingenuity. Suppose this is set to
go off and snatch our prize from us at the last."
"Now? Why? It's over," said Soudha.
"Revenge.
Manipulation. Maybe you figure to drive me berserk and trigger a repeat
of the Solstice Massacre all over again, writ somewhat smaller. That
could be a propaganda coup. Whether it would be worth spending your
lives for is all in your point of view, of course. Properly massaged,
the incident could help start a new Komarr Revolt, I suppose."
"You
have a really twisted mind, Lord Vorkosigan," said Soudha, shaking his
head. "Was it your upbringing, or your genetics?"
"Yes."
Miles sighed. After a brief moment of reflection, Miles waved the
guards on, and Soudha was marched out after his colleagues.
After
a go-ahead nod from the Imperial Auditor, the tech tapped the control
pad. The inner door whined, sticking halfway. Miles pressed it gently
sideways with his boot, and it shuddered open.
Ekaterin
was on her feet, between the inner door and the Professora, who sat on
the deck wearing her niece's vest over her own bolero. Ekaterin's face
bore a red bruise, her hair was hanging every which way, her fists were
clenched, and she looked perfectly demented and altogether gorgeous, in
Miles's personal opinion. Smiling broadly, he held out both his hands
and leaned inside.
She glared back at him. "About time." She stalked past, muttering in a voice of loathing, "Men!"
After
the briefest lurch, Miles managed to convert his open arms into a
smooth bow toward the Professora. "Madame Dr. Vorthys. Are you all
right?"
"Why, hello, Miles." She blinked at him,
gray faced and very chilled-looking. "I've been better, but I believe
I'll survive. "
"I have a float pallet for you. These sturdy young men will help you to it."
"Oh, thank you, dear."
Miles
stood back and waved the medtechs forward. The Professora looked
perfectly content to be whisked aboard the medical pallet and covered
with warm wraps. A cursory examination and a few words of debate
resulted in a half-dose of synergine for her, but no IV; then the
pallet rose into the air.
"The Professor will be
here shortly," Miles assured her. "In fact, he'll likely be along
before you both are done at the station infirmary. I'll see he gets
sent straight on to you."
"I'm so pleased." The
Professora motioned him nearer; when he bent over her, she grabbed him
by the ear and planted a kiss on his cheek. "Ekaterin was wonderful,"
she whispered.
"I know," he breathed. His eyes crinkled, and she smiled back.
He
stepped back from the pallet to Ekaterin's side, hoping her aunt's
example might inspire her—he wouldn't mind salvaging some
little show of appreciation—"You didn't seem surprised to see me," he
murmured. The pallet started off, under the guidance of a medtech, and
he and Ekaterin followed in procession; the ImpSec technicians politely
waited till they'd cleared the chamber to plunge in to the airlock to
disarm the charge.
Ekaterin shoved a strand of
hair back over one ear with a hand that trembled only slightly. Red
bruises glared on her arms, too, as her sleeve slid back. Miles frowned
at them. "I knew it had to be our side," she said simply. "Or else it
would have been the other door."
"Eh. Quite." Three hours, she'd had, to contemplate that possibility. "My fast courier was slow."
They
turned up the next corridor in reflective silence. Gratifying as it
might have been to have her fling herself into his arms and weep relief
into—well, if not his shoulder, at least the top of his head—in front
of that herd of ImpSec fellows, he had to admit he admired this style
even more. So what is this thing you have about tall women and unrequited love?
His cousin Ivan would doubtless have some cutting things to say—he
growled in anticipation, in his mind. He would deal with Ivan and other
hazards to his courtship later.
"Do you know you saved about five thousand lives?" he asked her.
Her dark brows drew down. "What?"
"The
novel device was defective. If the Komarrans had managed to get it
started, the gravitational back-blow from the wormhole would have taken
out this station just like the soletta array, possibly with as few
survivors. And I shudder at the thought of the property damage bill. To
think how Illyan used to complain about my equipment losses back when I
was just covert ops. …"
"You mean … it didn't work after all? I did all that for nothing?" She stopped short, her shoulders sagging.
"What
do you mean, nothing? I've met Imperial generals who completed their
entire careers with less to show for them. You should get a bloody
medal, I think. Except that this whole thing is going to end up so
classified, they're going to have to invent a whole new level of
classification just to put it in. And then classify the classification."
Her lips puffed, not quite mirthfully. "What would I do with so useless an object as a medal?"
He
thought bemusedly of the contents of a certain drawer at home in
Vorkosigan House. "Frame it? Use it as a paperweight? Dust it?"
"Just what I always wanted. More clutter."
He
grinned at her; she smiled back at last, clearly beginning to come off
her adrenaline jag, and without breaking down, either. She drew breath
and started forward again, and he kept pace. She had met the enemy,
mastered her moment, hung three hours on death's doorstep, all that,
and she'd emerged still on her feet and snarling. Oversocialized, hah. Oh, yeah, Da, I want this one.
He
stopped at the door to the infirmary; the Professora vanished within,
borne off by her medical minions like a lady on a palanquin. Ekaterin
paused with him.
"I have to leave you for a time and check on my prisoners. The stationers will take care of you."
Her brow wrinkled. "Prisoners? Oh. Yes. How did you get rid of the Komarrans?"
Miles smiled grimly. "Persuasion."
She
stared down at him, one side of her lovely mouth curving up. Her lower
lip was split; he wanted to kiss it and make it well. Not yet. Timing, boy. And one other thing.
"You must be very persuasive."
"I
hope so." He took a deep breath. "I bluffed them into believing that I
wouldn't let them go no matter what they did to you and the Professora.
Except that I wasn't bluffing. We could not have let them go." There.
Betrayal confessed. His empty hands clenched.
She stared at him in disbelief; his heart shrank. "Well, of course not!"
"Eh . . . what?"
"Don't
you know what they wanted to do to Barrayar?" she demanded. "It was a
horror show. Utterly vile, and they couldn't even see it. They actually
tried to tell me that collapsing the wormhole wouldn't hurt anyone!
Monstrous fools."
"That's what I thought, actually."
"So, wouldn't you put your life on the line to stop them?"
"Yes, but I wasn't putting my life—I was putting yours."
"But I'm Vor," she said simply.
His smile and his heart revived, dizzy with delight. "True Vor, milady," he breathed.
A
female medtech was approaching, murmuring anxiously, "Madame
Vorsoisson?" Miles yielded to her shepherding motions, gave Ekaterin an
analyst's salute, and turned away. He was humming, off-key, by the time
he rounded the first corner.
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
The station infirmary personnel insisted on keeping both Vor women overnight, a
precaution with which neither argued. Despite her exhaustion Ekaterin
did get dispensation to go pick up her valise from her never-used
hostel room, under the watchful eye of a very young ImpSec guard who
called her "Ma'am" in every sentence and was determined to carry her
luggage.
One message waited on her hostel room's
comconsole: an urgent order from Lord Vorkosigan for her to take her
aunt and flee the station at once, delivered in a tone of such intense
conviction as to almost send her scurrying off despite its obviously
outdated content. Instructions only, she noted; no explanations
whatsoever. He really must have once held military command. The
contrast between this strained, forceful lord and the almost goofy
geniality of the young man who'd bowed her out of the airlock bemused
her; which was the real Lord Vorkosigan? For all his apparently
self-revealing babble, the man remained as elusive as a handful of
water. Water in the desert. The thought popped unbidden into her mind, and she shook her head to clear it.
After
she returned to the infirmary, Ekaterin sat up for a while with her
aunt, waiting for the Professor. Uncle Vorthys arrived in the next
hour. He was unusually breathless and subdued as he sat on the edge of
his wife's bed and embraced her. She hugged him back, tears starting in
her eyes for almost the first time in this whole night's ordeal.
"You
shouldn't frighten me like that, woman," he told her in mock severity.
"Running around getting kidnapped, thwarting Komarran terrorists,
putting ImpSec out of a job … Your premature demise would entirely
disarrange my selfish plan to drop dead first and leave you to pick up
after me. Kindly don't do that!"
She laughed
shakily. "I'll try not to, dear." The patient gown she wore was not a
very flattering fashion, but her color did look rather better, Ekaterin
thought. Synergine, hot liquids, warmth, quiet, and safety were working
to banish her more alarming symptoms without further medical
intervention, so that even her anxious husband was fairly quickly
reassured. Ekaterin let her aunt tell him most of the story of their
harrowing hours with the Komarrans, only putting in a few murmurs of
correction when she waxed too flattering of her niece's part in it all.
Ekaterin
reflected with bleak envy on the nature of a marriage that its
principals could regard as prematurely threatened after a mere
forty-plus years. Not for me. I've lost that option. The
Professor and the Professora were surely among the fortunate few.
Whatever personal qualities it took to achieve this happy state, it was
abundantly plain to Ekaterin that she did not possess them. So be it.
The
Professor's booming voice and precise academic diction returned to
usual as he proceeded to harry the medtechs, unnecessarily, on his
wife's behalf. Ekaterin intervened to suggest firmly that what Aunt
Vorthys needed most now was rest; after one last disruptive
pass through the private room, he took himself off to find Lord
Vorkosigan and tour the late battlefield at the Southport locks.
Ekaterin didn't think she could ever sleep again, but after she cleaned
up and crawled into her own infirmary bed, a medtech brought her a
potion and invited her to drink it. Ekaterin was still complaining
muzzily that such things didn't work for her when the bed sheets seemed
to suck her right down.
Whether due to the potion,
exhaustion, sheer nervous collapse, or the absence of a nine-year-old
demanding services, she slept late. The restful residue of the morning,
spent chatting desultorily with her aunt, had drifted toward noon when
Lord Vorkosigan trooped into the infirmary room. He was clean as a cat
and his fine gray suit was crisp and fresh, though his face was traced
with fatigue. He carried an enormous and awkward flower arrangement
under each arm. Ekaterin hurried to help relieve him of them, sliding
them onto a table before he dropped them both.
"Good
day, Madame Dr. Vorthys, you're looking much better. Excellent. Madame
Vorsoisson." He ducked his head at her, and his white grin winked.
"Wherever did you find such gorgeous flowers on a space station?" Ekaterin asked, astonished.
"In a shop. It's a Komarran space station. They'll sell you anything. Well, not anything—
that would be Jackson's Whole. But it stands to reason, with all the
people meeting and greeting and parting through here, that there would
be a market niche for this sort of thing. They grow them right here on
the station, you know, along with all their truck garden vegetables.
Why do they call them truck gardens, I wonder? I don't think they ever
grew trucks in them, even back on Old Earth." He dragged over a chair
and sat down near her, at the foot of the Professora's bed. "I believe
that dark red fuzzy thing is a Barrayaran plant, by the way. It made me
break out in hives when I touched it."
"Yes, bloody puffwad," she agreed.
"Is that its name, or a value judgment?"
She
smiled. "I believe it refers to the color. It comes from South
Continent, on the western slopes of the Black Escarpment."
"I
was at the Black Escarpment for winter training once. Happily, these
things must have been buried under several meters of snow at the time."
"How shall we ever get them home, Miles?" said the Professora, half laughing.
"Don't burden yourself," he recommended. "You can always give them to the medtechs when you leave."
"But
they must be very expensive," said Ekaterin in worry. Ridiculously so,
for something they could only enjoy for a few hours.
"Expensive?"
he said blankly. "Automated weapons-control systems are expensive.
Combat drop missions which go wrong are very expensive. These are
cheap. Really. Anyway, it supports a business, which is good for the
Imperium. If you get a chance, you ought to ask for a tour of the
station's hydroponics section before you leave. I'd think you'd find it
pretty interesting."
"We'll see if there's time,"
said Ekaterin. "It's been such a bizarre experience. It's strange to
realize I'm not even late getting back to pick up Nikki yet. Just a few
more days to complete his treatment, and I'm done with Komarr."
"Do
you have everything in hand for that? Everything you need? Your aunt,"
he nodded at the Professora, "is with you now."
"I expect I'll be able to handle anything that comes up this time," Ekaterin assured him.
"I expect you will." That scimitar smile flickered over his face again.
"We
only missed the ship we were originally scheduled to take this morning
because Uncle Vorthys insisted we wait and travel back to Komarr with
him in his fast courier. Do you know when that will be? I should send a
message to Madame Vortorren."
"He has a few chores
here yet. ImpSec Komarr sent us out a special squad of boffins and
techs to clean up and document that mess you made in the Southport
loading bay– "
"Oh, dear. I'm sorry—" she began automatically.
"No,
no, it was a beautiful mess. Couldn't have made a better one myself,
and I've made a few. Anyway, he will be overseeing them, and then
returning to Komarr to set up a secret scientific commission to study
the device, explore its limits and all that. And HQ sent me some
high-powered interrogators whom I wanted to personally brief before
they took charge of my prisoners. Captain Vorgier wasn't too happy that
I wouldn't let any of his local people question our conspirators, but
I've already declared all details of this case need-to-know under my
Auditor's seal, so he's out of luck." He cleared his throat. "Your
uncle and I have decided I get the job of going straight back to
Vorbarr Sultana from here and making the preliminary report to Emperor
Gregor in person. He's only been getting ImpSec digests."
"Oh,"
she said, startled. "Leaving so soon . . . ? What about all your
things—you shouldn't go off without your seizure stimulator, should
you?"
Half self-consciously, he rubbed his temple;
the white bandages were gone from his wrists, she noticed, leaving only
pale red rings of new scars. To add to his collection, presumably. "I
had Tuomonen pack up all my kit and send it out here with the crew from
HQ. It arrived a couple of hours ago, so I'm all set. Good old ImpSec,
they do piss me off sometimes. Tuomonen is going to get a major black
mark, because the conspiracy in Serifosa Terraforming took place on his
watch, and he never caught it, even though it was really the Imperial
Accounting Office which should have been the first line of defense. And
that idiot Vorgier is getting a commendation. There is no justice."
"Poor Tuomonen. I liked him. Isn't there anything you can do about that?"
"Mm, I turned down a chance to be in charge of ImpSec's internal affairs, so no, I think I'd better not."
"Will he keep his post?"
"It's
uncertain at this time. I told him if he finds his military career at a
stand, to look me up. I think I'm going to be able to use a good
trained assistant in this Auditor job. The work will be irregular,
though. The trend of my life."
He sucked
thoughtfully on his lower lip, and glanced across at her. "The
reclassification of this case from a peculation scam to something far
more serious also affects what you can tell Nikki, I'm afraid. It's all
headed into a security black hole as fast as we can stuff it in there,
and it's going to stay there for quite some time. There will,
therefore, be no public prosecutions and no need for you to testify,
though ImpSec may be around for another interview or two—not
under fast-penta. In retrospect, I'm very relieved I played it as close
to my chest as I did. But for Nikki, and all Tien's relatives, and
anyone else, the story is going to have to remain that he died in a
simple breath mask accident from being caught outside with a low
reservoir, and you don't know any more details than that. Madame Dr.
Vorthys, this is for you, too."
"I understand," said the Professora.
"I am both relieved, and disturbed," said Ekaterin slowly.
"In
time, the security considerations will soften. You will have to rejudge
the problem then, when, well, when many things may have changed."
"I
did wonder if, for Nikki's name's honor, I ought to try to pay back the
Imperium all the bribe money Tien received."
He looked startled. "Good God, no. If anyone owes anything, it's Foscol. She stole it in the first place. And we certainly won't be getting anything back from her."
"Something is owed," she said gravely.
"Tien
settled his debt with his life. He's quits with the Imperium, I assure
you. In the Emperor's Voice, if necessary."
She
took this in. Death did wipe out debt. It just didn't erase the memory
of pain; time was still required for that healing. Your time is your own, now. That felt strange. She could take all the time she wanted, or needed. Riches beyond dreams. She nodded. "All right."
"The
past is paid. Please notify me about Tien's funeral, though. I wish to
attend, if I can." He frowned. "I too owe something there."
She shook her head mutely.
"In
any case, do call me when you and your aunt get back to Vorbarr
Sultana." He glanced again at the Professora. "She and Nikki will be staying with you for a time, yes?" Ekaterin was not quite sure if that was phrased as a question or a demand.
"Yes, indeed." Aunt Vorthys smiled.
"So
here are all my addresses." He spoke again to Ekaterin, and handed her
a plastic flimsy. "The numbers for the Vorkosigan residences in Vorbarr
Sultana, Hassadar, and Vorkosigan Surleau, for Master Tsipis in
Hassadar—my man of business, I believe I mentioned him to you—he
usually knows where to get hold of me in a pinch, when I'm out in the
District—and a drop-number through the Imperial Residence, which will always know how to reach me. Any time, day or night."
Aunt
Vorthys leaned back, with her finger on her lips, and regarded him with
growing bemusement. "Do you think those will be enough, Miles? Perhaps
you can think of three or four more, just to be sure?"
To
Ekaterin's surprise, he flushed a little. "I trust these will suffice,"
he said. "And of course, I should be able to reach you through your aunt, right?"
"Of course," murmured Aunt Vorthys.
"I'd
like to show you over my District sometime," he added to Ekaterin,
avoiding the Professora's eye. "There's a great deal to see there you
might find of interest. There's a major forestry project going on in
the Dendarii Mountains, and some radiation reclamation experiments. My
family owns several maple syrup and winery operations. There's botany
all over the damn place, in fact; you can hardly move without tripping
over a plant."
"Perhaps later on," said Ekaterin uncertainly. "What will happen to the Terraforming Project, as a result of all this mess with the Komarrans?"
"Mm,
not too much, I now suspect. The security classification is going to
limit the immediate public political repercussions."
"In the long run, too?"
"Though
the amount of money that was stolen from Serifosa Sector's budget was
huge from the viewpoint of a private individual, from the standpoint of
the bureaucracy it wasn't that big a bite. There are nineteen other
Sectors, after all. The damage to the soletta array is actually going
to be the biggest bill."
"Will the Imperium repair it properly? I've so hoped they would."
He
brightened. "I had this great idea about that. I'm going to pitch it to
Gregor that we should declare the soletta repair—and enlargement—as a
wedding present, from Gregor to Laisa and from Barrayar to Komarr. I'm
going to recommend its size be nearly doubled, adding the six new
panels the Komarrans have been begging for since forever. I think this
mischance can be turned into an absolute propaganda coup, with the
right timing. We'll shove the appropriation through the Council of
Counts and Ministers quickly, before Midsummer, while everyone in
Vorbarr Sultana is still sentimentally wound up for the Imperial
Wedding."
She clapped her hands in enthusiasm,
then paused in doubt. "Will that work? I didn't think the crusty old
Council of Counts was susceptible to what Tien used to call romantic drivel."
"Oh,"
he said airily, "I'm sure they are. I'm a cadet member of the Counts
myself—we're only human, after all. Besides, we can point out that
every time a Komarran looks up—well, half the time—they'll see this
Barrayaran gift hanging overhead, and know what it's doing to create
their future. The power of suggestion and all that. It could save us
the expense of putting down the next Komarran conspiracy."
"I hope so," she said. "I think it's a lovely idea."
He
grinned, clearly gratified. He looked over at the Professora, and away,
shifted around, and drew a small packet from his trouser pocket. "I
don't know, Madame Vorsoisson, whether Gregor will give you a medal or
not, for your quick thinking and cool response in the Southport bay—"
She shook her head. "I don't need—"
"But I thought you should have something to remember it all by. This." He stuck out his hand.
She took the packet and laughed. "Do I recognize this?"
"Probably."
She
unfolded the familiar wrapping and opened the box to reveal the little
model Barrayar from the jeweler's shop in Serifosa, now on a slender
chain of braided gold. She held it up; it spun in the light. "Look,
Aunt Vorthys," she said shyly, and handed it across for inspection and
approval.
The Professora examined it with interest, squinting a trifle. "Very fine, dear. Very fine indeed."
"Call
it the Lord Auditor Vorkosigan Award for Making His Job Easier," said
Vorkosigan. "You really did, you know. If the Komarrans hadn't already
lost their infernal device, they would never have surrendered, even if
I'd talked myself blue. In fact, Soudha said something to that effect
during our preliminary interrogations last night, so you may consider
it confirmed. If not for you, this station would be in a million
hurtling pieces by now."
She hesitated. Should she
accept—? She glanced at her aunt, who was smiling at her benignly and
without apparent misgivings about the propriety of it. Not that Aunt
Vorthys was particularly passionate about propriety—that indifference
was, in fact, one of the qualities which made her Ekaterin's favorite
female relative. Think on that. "Thank you," she said sincerely to Lord Vorkosigan. "I will remember. And I do remember," she added.
"Um, you're supposed to forget the unfortunate part about the pond."
"Never."
Her lips curved up. "It was the highlight of the day. Was it some sort
of psychic precognition that you laid this by?"
"I
don't think so. Chance favors the prepared and all that. Fortunately
for my credit, from the outside most people can't tell the rapid
exploitation of a belatedly recognized opportunity from deep-laid
planning." He positively smirked as she slid the chain over her head.
"You know, you're the first girlfr– female friend I've had I've ever
succeeded in giving Barrayar to. Not for lack of trying."
Her
eyes crinkled. "Have you had a great many girlfriends?" If he hadn't,
she'd have to dismiss her whole gender as congenital idiots. The man
could charm snakes from their holes, nine-year-olds from locked
bathrooms, and Komarran terrorists from their bunkers. Why weren't
females following him around in herds? Could no Barrayaran woman see
past his surface, or their own cocked-up noses?
"Mmm
. . ."A rather long hesitation. "The usual progression, I suppose.
Hopeless first love, this and that over the years, unrequited mad
crushes."
"Who was the hopeless first love?" she asked, fascinated.
"Elena. The daughter of one of my father's Armsmen, who was my bodyguard when I was young."
"Is she still on Barrayar?"
"No,
she emigrated years ago. Had a galactic military career and retired
with the rank of captain. She's a commercial shipmaster now."
"Jumpships?"
"Yes."
"Nikki would be so envious. Um . . . what exactly is this and that? If I may ask." Would he answer?
"Er. Well. Yes, I think you should, all things considered. Better sooner than later, belike."
He was growing terribly Barrayaran, she thought; that use of belike
was pure Dendarii mountain dialect. This outburst of confidences was at
least as entertaining as putting him on fast-penta might be. Better,
given what he'd said about his weird reaction to the drug.
"There was Elli. She was a free mercenary trainee when I first met her."
"What is she now?"
"Fleet Admiral. Actually."
"So she was this. Who was that?"
"There was Taura."
"What was she, when you first met her?"
"A Jacksonian body-slave. Of House Ryoval—very bad news, House Ryoval used to be."
"I must ask more about those covert ops missions of yours sometime … So what is she now?"
"Master Sergeant in a mercenary fleet."
"The same fleet as, um, the this?"
"Yes."
Her
brows rose, helplessly. Her Aunt Vorthys was leaning back with her
finger over her lips again, her eyes alight with laughter; no, the
Professora clearly wasn't going to interfere with this. "And . . . ?"
she led him on, beginning to be immensely curious as to how long he'd
keep going. Why in the world did he think all this romantic history was
something she ought to know? Not that she would stop him . . . nor
would Aunt Vorthys, apparently, not for a bribe of five kilos of
chocolates. But her secret opinion of her gender began to rise.
"Mm . . . there was Rowan. That was . . . that was brief."
"And she was . . . ?"
"A
technical serf of House Fell. She's a cryo-revival surgeon in an
independent clinic on Escobar, now, though, I'm happy to say. Very
pleased with her new citizenship."
Tien had
protected her proudly, she reflected, in the little Vor-lady fortress
of her household. Tien had spent a decade protecting her so hard,
especially from anything that resembled growth, she'd felt scarcely
larger at thirty than she'd been at twenty. Whatever it was Vorkosigan
had offered to this extraordinary list of lovers, it hadn't been
protection.
"Do you begin to notice a trend in all this, Lord Vorkosigan?"
"Yes," he replied glumly. "None of them would marry me and come live on Barrayar."
"So . . . what about the unrequited mad crush?"
"Ah. That was Rian. I was young, just a new lieutenant on a diplomatic mission."
"And what does she do, now?"
He
cleared his throat. "Now? She's an empress." He added, under the
pressure of Ekaterin's wide stare, "Of Cetaganda. They have several,
you see."
A silence fell, and stretched. He shifted uneasily in his chair, and his smile flicked on and off.
She
rested her chin in her hand, and regarded him; her brows quirked in
quizzical delight. "Lord Vorkosigan. Can I take a number and get in
line?"
Whatever it was he'd been expecting her to
say, it wasn't that; he was so taken aback he nearly fell off his
chair. Wait, she hadn't meant it to come out sounding quite like– His
smile stuck in the on position, but decidedly sideways.
"The next number up," he breathed, "is 'one.'"
It
was her turn to be taken aback; her eyes fell, scorched by the blaze in
his. He had lured her into levity. His fault, for being so … luring.
She stared wildly around the room, groping for some suitably neutral
remark with which to retrieve her reserve. It was a space station:
there was no weather. My, the vacuum is hard out today. . . .
Not that, either. She gazed beseechingly at Aunt Vorthys. Vorkosigan
observed her involuntary recoil, and his smile acquired a sort of
stuffed apologetic quality; he too looked cautiously to the Professora.
The
Professora rubbed one finger thoughtfully over her chin. "And are you
traveling back to Barrayar on a commercial liner, Lord Vorkosigan?" she
asked him affably. The mutually alarmed parties blinked at her in
suffused gratitude.
"No," said Vorkosigan. "Fast
courier. In fact, it's waiting for me right now." He cleared his
throat, jumped to his feet, and made a show of checking his chrono.
"Yes, right now. Professora, Madame Vorsoisson, I trust I shall see you
both back in Vorbarr Sultana?"
"Yes, certainly," said Ekaterin, barely avoiding breathlessness.
"I will look forward to it with great fascination," said the Professora piously.
His
smile went crooked in trenchant appreciation of her tone; he backed out
with a flourishing, self-conscious bow, a courtly effect slightly
spoiled by his caroming off the door-jamb. His quick steps faded down
the corridor.
"A nice young man," observed Aunt Vorthys, into a room seeming suddenly much emptier. "A pity he's so short."
"He's not so short," said Ekaterin defensively. "He's just . . . concentrated."
Her aunt's smile grew maddeningly bland. "I could see that, dear."
Ekaterin
lifted her chin in what remained of her dignity. "I see you are feeling
very much better. Shall we go ask about that hydroponics tour?"