Barrayar
CHAPTER ONE
The big groundcar jerked to a stop centimeters
fromthe vehicle ahead of it, and Armsman Pym, driving, swore under his
breath. Miles settled back again in his seat beside him, wincing at a
vision of the acrimonious street scene from which Pym's reflexes had
delivered them. Miles wondered if he could have persuaded the feckless
prole in front of them that being rear-ended by an Imperial Auditor was
a privilege to be treasured. Likely not. The Vorbarr Sultana University
student darting across the boulevard on foot, who had been the cause of
the quick stop, scampered off through the jam without a backward
glance. The line of groundcars started up once more.
"Have
you heard if the municipal traffic control system will be coming on
line soon?" Pym asked, apropos of what Miles counted as their third
near-miss this week.
"Nope. Delayed in development
again, Lord Vorbohn the Younger reports. Due to the increase in fatal
lightflyer incidents, they're concentrating on getting the automated
air system up first."
Pym nodded, and returned his
attention to the crowded road. The Armsman was a habitually fit man,
his graying temples seeming merely an accent to his brown-and-silver
uniform. He'd served the Vorkosigans as a liege-sworn guard since Miles
had been an Academy cadet, and would doubtless go on doing so till
either he died of old age, or they were all killed in traffic.
So
much for short cuts. Next time they'd go around the campus. Miles
watched through the canopy as the taller new buildings of the
University fell behind, and they passed through its spiked iron gates
into the pleasant old residential streets favored by the families of
senior professors and staff. The distinctive architecture dated from
the last un-electrified decade before the end of the Time of Isolation.
This area had been reclaimed from decay in the past generation, and now
featured shady green Earth trees, and bright flower boxes under the
tall narrow windows of the tall narrow houses. Miles rebalanced the
flower arrangement between his feet. Would it be seen as redundant by
its intended recipient?
Pym glanced aside at his
slight movement, following his eye to the foliage on the floor. "The
lady you met on Komarr seems to have made a strong impression on you,
m'lord . . ." He trailed off invitingly.
"Yes," said Miles, uninvitingly.
"Your
lady mother had high hopes of that very attractive Miss Captain Quinn
you brought home those times." Was that a wistful note in Pym's voice?
"Miss
Admiral Quinn, now," Miles corrected with a sigh. "So had I. But she
made the right choice for her." He grimaced out the canopy. "I've sworn
off falling in love with galactic women and then trying to persuade
them to immigrate to Barrayar. I've concluded my only hope is to find a
woman who can already stand Barrayar, and persuade her to like me."
"And does Madame Vorsoisson like Barrayar?"
"About as well as I do." He smiled grimly.
"And, ah . . . the second part?"
"We'll see, Pym." Or not, as the case may be.
At least the spectacle of a man of thirty-plus, going courting
seriously for the first time in his life—the first time in the
Barrayaran style, anyway—promised to provide hours of entertainment for
his interested staff.
Miles let his breath and his
nervous irritation trickle out through his nostrils as Pym found a
place to park near Lord Auditor Vorthys's doorstep, and expertly wedged
the polished old armored groundcar into the inadequate space. Pym
popped the canopy; Miles climbed out, and stared up at the three-story
patterned tile front of his colleague's home.
Georg
Vorthys had been a professor of engineering failure analysis at the
Imperial University for thirty years. He and his wife had lived in this
house for most of their married life, raising three children and two
academic careers, before Emperor Gregor had appointed Vorthys as one of
his hand-picked Imperial Auditors. Neither of the Professors Vorthys
had seen any reason to change their comfortable lifestyle merely
because the awesome powers of an Emperor's Voice had been conferred
upon the retired engineer; Madame Dr. Vorthys still walked every day to
her classes. Dear no, Miles! the Professora had said to him, when he'd once wondered aloud at their passing up this opportunity for social display. Can you imagine moving all those books? Not to mention the laboratory and workshop jamming the entire basement.
Their
cheery inertia proved a happy chance, when they invited their
recently-widowed niece and her young son to live with them while she
completed her own education. Plenty of room, the Professor had boomed
jovially, the top floor is so empty since the children left. So close
to classes, the Professora had pointed out practically. Less than six kilometers from Vorkosigan House!
Miles had exulted in his mind, adding a polite murmur of encouragement
aloud. And so Ekaterin Nile Vorvayne Vorsoisson had arrived. She's here, she's here! Might she be looking down at him from the shadows of some upstairs window even now?
Miles
glanced anxiously down the all-too-short length of his body. If his
dwarfish stature bothered her, she'd shown no signs of it so far. Well
and good. Going on to the aspects of his appearance he could control:
no food stains spattered his plain gray tunic, no unfortunate street
detritus clung to the soles of his polished half-boots. He checked his
distorted reflection in the groundcar's rear canopy. Its convex
mirroring widened his lean, if slightly hunched, body to something
resembling his obese clone-brother Mark, a comparison he primly
ignored. Mark was, thank God, not here. He essayed a smile, for
practice; in the canopy, it came out twisted and repellent. No dark
hair sticking out in odd directions, anyway.
"You
look just fine, my lord," Pym said in a bracing tone from the front
compartment. Miles's face heated, and he flinched away from his
reflection. He recovered himself enough to take the flower arrangement
and rolled-up flimsy Pym handed out to him with, he hoped, a tolerably
bland expression. He balanced the load in his arms, turned to face the
front steps, and took a deep breath.
After about a minute, Pym inquired helpfully from behind him, "Would you like me to carry anything?"
"No.
Thank you." Miles trod up the steps and wiggled a finger free to press
the chime-pad. Pym pulled out a reader, and settled comfortably in the
groundcar to await his lord's pleasure.
Footsteps
sounded from within, and the door swung open on the smiling pink face
of the Professora. Her gray hair was wound up on her head in her usual
style. She wore a dark rose dress with a light rose bolero, embroidered
with green vines in the manner of her home District. This somewhat
formal Vor mode, which suggested she was just on her way either in or
out, was belied by the soft buskins on her feet. "Hello, Miles.
Goodness, you're prompt."
"Professora." Miles
ducked a nod to her, and smiled in turn. "Is she here? Is she in? Is
she well? You said this would be a good time. I'm not too early, am I?
I thought I'd be late. The traffic was miserable. You're going to be
around, aren't you? I brought these. Do you think she'll like them?"
The sticking-up red flowers tickled his nose as he displayed his gift
while still clutching the rolled-up flimsy, which had a tendency to try
to unroll and escape whenever his grip loosened.
"Come
in, yes, all's well. She's here, she's fine, and the flowers are very
nice—" The Professora rescued the bouquet and ushered him into her
tiled hallway, closing the door firmly behind them with her foot. The
house was dim and cool after the spring sunshine outside, and had a
fine aroma of wood wax, old books, and a touch of academic dust.
"She
looked pretty pale and fatigued at Tien's funeral. Surrounded by all
those relatives. We really didn't get a chance to say more than two
words each." I'm sorry and Thank you , to be precise. Not that he'd wanted to talk much to the late Tien Vorsoisson's family.
"It
was an immense strain for her, I think," said the Professora
judiciously. "She'd been through so much horror, and except for Georg
and myself—and you—there wasn't a soul there to whom she could talk
truth about it. Of course, her first concern was getting Nikki through
it all. But she held together without a crack from first to last. I was
very proud of her."
"Indeed. And she is . . . ?"
Miles craned his neck, glancing into the rooms off the entry hall: a
cluttered study lined with bookshelves, and a cluttered parlor lined
with bookshelves. No young widows.
"Right this
way." The Professora conducted him down the hall and out through her
kitchen to the little urban back garden. A couple of tall trees and a
brick wall made a private nook of it. Beyond a tiny circle of green
grass, at a table in the shade, a woman sat with flimsies and a reader
spread before her. She was chewing gently on the end of a stylus, and
her dark brows were drawn down in her absorption. She wore a
calf-length dress in much the same style as the Professora's, but solid
black, with the high collar buttoned up to her neck. Her bolero was
gray, trimmed with simple black braid running around its edge. Her dark
hair was drawn back to a thick braided knot at the nape of her neck.
She looked up at the sound of the door opening; her brows flew up and
her lips parted in a flashing smile that made Miles blink. Ekaterin .
"Mil—my Lord Auditor!" She rose in a flare of skirt; he bowed over her hand.
"Madame
Vorsoisson. You look well." She looked wonderful, if still much too
pale. Part of that might be the effect of all that severe black, which
also made her eyes show a brilliant blue-gray. "Welcome to Vorbarr
Sultana. I brought these . . ." He gestured, and the Professora set the
flower arrangement down on the table. "Though they hardly seem needed,
out here."
"They're lovely," Ekaterin assured him,
sniffing them in approval. "I'll take them up to my room later, where
they will be very welcome. Since the weather has brightened up, I find
I spend as much time as possible out here, under the real sky."
She'd
spent nearly a year sealed in a Komarran dome. "I can understand that,"
Miles said. The conversation hiccuped to a brief stop, while they
smiled at each other.
Ekaterin recovered first. "Thank you for coming to Tien's funeral. It meant so much to me."
"It was the least I could do, under the circumstances. I'm only sorry I couldn't do more."
"But
you've already done so much for me and Nikki—" She broke off at his
gesture of embarrassed denial and instead said, "But won't you sit
down? Aunt Vorthys—?" She drew back one of the spindly garden chairs.
The
Professora shook her head. "I have a few things to attend to inside.
Carry on." She added a little cryptically, "You'll do fine."
She
went back into her house, and Miles sat across from Ekaterin, placing
his flimsy on the table to await its strategic moment. It
half-unrolled, eagerly.
"Is your case all wound up?" she asked.
"That
case will have ramifications for years to come, but I'm done with it
for now," Miles replied. "I just turned in my last reports yesterday,
or I would have been here to welcome you earlier." Well, that and a
vestigial sense that he'd ought to let the poor woman at least get her
bags unpacked, before descending in force.
"Will you be sent out on another assignment now?"
"I
don't think Gregor will let me risk getting tied up elsewhere till
after his marriage. For the next couple of months, I'm afraid all my
duties will be social ones."
"I'm sure you'll do them with your usual flair."
God, I hope not.
"I don't think flair is exactly what my Aunt Vorpatril—she's in charge
of all the Emperor's wedding arrangements—would wish from me. More
like, shut up and do what you're told, Miles. But speaking of
paperwork, how's your own? Is Tien's estate settled? Did you manage to
recapture Nikki's guardianship from that cousin of his?"
"Vassily Vorsoisson? Yes, thank heavens, there was no problem with that part."
"So, ah, what's all this, then?" Miles nodded at the cluttered table.
"I'm
planning my course work for the next session at university. I was too
late to start this summer, so I'll begin in the fall. There's so much
to choose from. I feel so ignorant."
"Educated is what you aim to be coming out, not going in."
"I suppose so."
"And what will you choose?"
"Oh,
I'll start with basics—biology, chemistry . . ." She brightened. "One
real horticulture course." She gestured at her flimsies. "For the rest
of the season, I'm trying to find some sort of paying work. I'd like to
feel I'm not totally dependent on the charity of my relatives, even if
it's only my pocket money."
That seemed almost the
opening he was looking for, but Miles's eye caught sight of a red
ceramic basin, sitting on the wooden planks forming a seat bordering a
raised garden bed. In the middle of the pot a red-brown blob, with a
fuzzy fringe like a rooster's crest growing out of it, pushed up
through the dirt. If it was what he thought . . . He pointed to the
basin. "Is that by chance your old bonsai'd skellytum? Is it going to
live?"
She smiled. "Well, at least it's the start
of a new skellytum. Most of the fragments of the old one died on the
way home from Komarr, but that one took."
"You have a—for native Barrayaran plants, I don't suppose you can call it a green thumb, can you?"
"Not unless they're suffering from some pretty serious plant diseases, no."
"Speaking
of gardens." Now, how to do this without jamming his foot in his mouth
too deeply. "I don't think, in all the other uproar, I ever had a
chance to tell you how impressed I was with your garden designs that I
saw on your comconsole."
"Oh." Her smile fled, and she shrugged. "They were no great thing. Just twiddling."
Right.
Let them not bring up any more of the recent past than absolutely
necessary, till time had a chance to blunt memory's razor edges. "It
was your Barrayaran garden, the one with all the native species, which
caught my eye. I'd never seen anything like it."
"There
are a dozen of them around. Several of the District universities keep
them, as living libraries for their biology students. It's not really
an original idea."
"Well," he persevered, feeling like a fish swimming upstream against this current of self-deprecation, "I
thought it was very fine, and deserved better than just being a ghost
garden on the holovid. I have this spare lot, you see . . ."
He
flattened out his flimsy, which was a ground plot of the block occupied
by Vorkosigan House. He tapped his finger on the bare square at the
end. "There used to be another great house, next to ours, which was
torn down during the Regency. ImpSec wouldn't let us build anything
else—they wanted it as a security zone. There's nothing there but some
scraggly grass, and a couple of trees that somehow survived ImpSec's
enthusiasm for clear lines of fire. And a criss-cross of walks, where
people made mud paths by taking short cuts, and they finally gave up
and put some gravel down. It's an extremely boring piece of ground." So
boring he had completely ignored it, till now.
She
tilted her head, to follow his hand as it blocked out the space on the
ground plan. Her own long finger made to trace a delicate curve, but
then shyly withdrew. He wondered what possibility her mind's eye had
just seen, there.
"Now, I think," he went
on valiantly, "that it would be a splendid thing to install a
Barrayaran garden—all native species—open to the public, in this space.
A sort of gift from the Vorkosigan family to the city of Vorbarr
Sultana. With running water, like in your design, and walks and benches
and all those civilized things. And those discreet little name tags on
all the plants, so more people could learn about the old ecology and
all that." There: art, public service, education—was there any bait
he'd left off his hook? Oh yes, money. "It's a happy chance that you're
looking for a summer job," chance, hah, watch and see if I leave anything to chance,
"because I think you'd be the ideal person to take this on. Design and
oversee the installation of the thing. I could give you an unlimited,
um, generous budget, and a salary, of course. You could hire workmen,
bring in whatever you needed."
And she would have to visit Vorkosigan House practically every day , and consult frequently
with its resident lord. And by the time the shock of her husband's
death had worn away, and she was ready to put off her forbidding formal
mourning garb, and every unattached Vor bachelor in the capital showed
up on her doorstep, Miles could have a lock on her affections that
would permit him to fend off the most glittering competition. It was
too soon, wildly too soon, to suggest courtship to her crippled heart;
he had that clear in his head, even if his own heart howled in
frustration. But a straightforward business friendship just might get
past her guard. . . .
Her eyebrows had flown up;
she touched an uncertain finger to those exquisite, pale unpainted
lips. "This is exactly the sort of thing I wish to train to do. I don't
know how to do it yet ."
"On-the-job
training," Miles responded instantly. "Apprenticeship. Learning by
doing. You have to start sometime. You can't start sooner than now."
"But what if I make some dreadful mistake?"
"I do intend this be an ongoing
project. People who are enthusiasts about this sort of thing always
seem to be changing their gardens around. They get bored with the same
view all the time, I guess. If you come up with better ideas later, you
can always revise the plan. It will provide variety."
"I don't want to waste your money."
If she ever became Lady Vorkosigan, she would have to get over that quirk, Miles decided firmly.
"You don't have to decide here on the spot," he purred, and cleared his throat. Watch that tone, boy. Business.
"Why don't you come to Vorkosigan House tomorrow, and walk over the
site in person, and see what ideas it stirs up in your mind. You really
can't tell anything by looking at a flimsy. We can have lunch,
afterward, and talk about what you see as the problems and
possibilities then. Logical?"
She blinked. "Yes, very." Her hand crept back curiously toward the flimsy.
"What time may I pick you up?"
"Whatever
is convenient for you, Lord Vorkosigan. Oh, I take that back. If it's
after twelve hundred, my aunt will be back from her morning class, and
Nikki can stay with her."
"Excellent!" Yes, much
as he liked Ekaterin's son, Miles thought he could do without the
assistance of an active nine-year-old in this delicate dance. "Twelve
hundred it will be. Consider it a deal." Only a little belatedly, he
added, "And how does Nikki like Vorbarr Sultana, so far?"
"He
seems to like his room, and this house. I think he's going to get a
little bored, if he has to wait until his school starts to locate boys
his own age."
It would not do to leave Nikolai
Vorsoisson out of his calculations. "I gather then that the retro-genes
took, and he's in no more danger of developing the symptoms of
Vorzohn's Dystrophy?"
A smile of deep maternal
satisfaction softened her face. "That's right. I'm so pleased. The
doctors in the clinic here in Vorbarr Sultana report he had a very
clean and complete cellular uptake. Developmentally, it should be just
as if he'd never inherited the mutation at all." She glanced across at
him. "It's as if I'd had a five-hundred-kilo weight lifted from me. I
could fly, I think."
So you should.
Nikki
himself emerged from the house at this moment, carrying a plate of
cookies with an air of consequence, followed by the Professora with a
tea tray and cups. Miles and Ekaterin hastened to clear a place on the
table.
"Hello, Nikki," said Miles.
"Hi, Lord Vorkosigan. Is that your groundcar out front?"
"Yes."
"It's a barge." This observation was delivered without scorn, as a point of interest.
"I know. It's a relic of my father's time as Regent. It's armored, in fact—has a massive momentum."
"Oh yeah?" Nikki's interest soared. "Did it ever get shot at?"
"I don't believe that particular car ever did, no."
"Huh."
When
Miles had last seen Nikki, the boy had been wooden-faced and pale with
concentration, carrying the taper to light his father's funeral
offering, obviously anxious to get his part of the ceremony right. He
looked much better now, his brown eyes quick and his face mobile again.
The Professora settled and poured tea, and the conversation became
general for a time.
It became clear shortly that
Nikki's interest was more in the food than in his mother's visitor; he
declined a flatteringly grownup offer of tea, and with his great-aunt's
permission snagged several cookies and dodged back indoors to whatever
he'd been occupying himself with before. Miles tried to remember what
age he'd been when his own parents' friends had stopped seeming part of
the furniture. Well, except for the military men in his father's train,
of course, who'd always riveted his attention. But then, Miles had been
military-mad from the time he could walk. Nikki was jump-ship mad, and
would probably light up for a jump pilot. Perhaps Miles could provide
one sometime, for Nikki's delectation. A happily married one, he
corrected this thought.
He'd laid his bait on the
table, Ekaterin had taken it; it was time to quit while he was winning.
But he knew for a fact that she'd already turned down one premature
offer of remarriage from a completely unexpected quarter. Had
any of Vorbarr Sultana's excess Vor males found her yet? The capital
was crawling with young officers, rising bureaucrats, aggressive
entrepreneurs, men of ambition and wealth and rank drawn to the
empire's heart. But not, by a ratio of almost five to three, with their
sisters. The parents of the preceding generation had taken galactic
sex-selection technologies much too far in their foolish passion for
male heirs, and the very sons they'd so cherished—Miles's
contemporaries—had inherited the resulting mating mess. Go to any
formal party in Vorbarr Sultana these days, and you could practically
taste the damned testosterone in the air, volatilized by the alcohol no
doubt.
"So, ah . . . have you had any other callers yet, Ekaterin?"
"I only arrived a week ago."
That
was neither yes nor no. "I'd think you'd have the bachelors out in
force in no time." Wait, he hadn't meant to point that out . . .
"Surely," she gestured down her black dress, "this will keep them away. If they have any manners at all."
"Mm, I'm not so sure. The social scene is pretty intense just now."
She
shook her head and smiled bleakly. "It makes no difference to me. I had
a decade of . . . of marriage. I don't need to repeat the experience.
The other women are welcome to the bachelors; they can have my share,
in fact." The conviction in her face was backed by an uncharacteristic
hint of steel in her voice. "That's one mistake I don't have to make
twice. I'll never remarry."
Miles controlled his flinch, and managed a sympathetic, interested smile at this confidence. We're just friends. I'm not hustling you, no, no. No need to fling up your defenses, milady, not for me.
He
couldn't make this go faster by pushing harder; all he could do was
screw it up worse. Forced to be satisfied with his one day's progress,
Miles finished his tea, exchanged a few more pleasantries with the two
women, and took his leave.
Pym hurried to open the
groundcar door as Miles skipped down the last three steps in one jump.
He flung himself into the passenger seat, and as Pym slipped back into
the driver's side and closed the canopy, waved grandly. "Home, Pym."
Pym eased the groundcar into the street, and inquired mildly, "Go well, did it, m'lord?"
"Just
exactly as I had planned. She's coming to Vorkosigan House tomorrow for
lunch. As soon as we get home, I want you to call that gardening
service—get them to get a crew out tonight and give the grounds an
extra going-over. And talk to—no, I'll talk to Ma Kosti. Lunch
must be . . . exquisite, yes. Ivan always says women like food. But not
too heavy. Wine—does she drink wine in the daytime, I wonder? I'll
offer it, anyway. Something from the estate. And tea if she doesn't
choose the wine, I know she drinks tea. Scratch the wine. And get the
house cleaning crew in, get all those covers off the first floor
furniture—off all the furniture. I want to give her a tour of the house
while she still doesn't realize . . . No, wait. I wonder . . . if the
place was a dreadful bachelor mess, perhaps it would stir up her pity.
Maybe instead I ought to clutter it up some more, used glasses
strategically piled up, the odd fruit peel under the sofa—a silent
appeal, Help us! Move in and straighten this poor fellow out— or would that be more likely to frighten her off? What do you think, Pym?"
Pym
pursed his lips judiciously, as if considering whether it was within
his Armsman's duties to spike his lord's taste for street theater. He
finally said in a cautious tone, "If I may presume to speak for the
household, I think we should prefer to put our best foot forward. Under the circumstances."
"Oh. All right."
Miles
fell silent for a few moments, staring out the canopy as they threaded
through the crowded city streets, out of the University district and
across a mazelike corner of the Old Town, angling back toward
Vorkosigan House. When he spoke again, the manic humor had drained from
his voice, leaving it cooler and bleaker.
"We'll
be picking her up tomorrow at twelve hundred. You'll drive. You will
always drive, when Madame Vorsoisson or her son are aboard. Figure it
in to your duty schedule from now on."
"Yes, m'lord." Pym added a carefully laconic, "My pleasure."
The
seizure disorder was the last souvenir that ImpSec Captain Miles
Vorkosigan had brought home from his decade of military missions. He'd
been lucky to get out of the cryo-chamber alive and with his mind
intact; Miles was fully aware that many did not fare nearly so well.
Lucky to be merely medically discharged from the Emperor's Service, not
buried with honors, the last of his glorious line, or reduced to some
animal or vegetative existence. The seizure-stimulator the military
doctors had issued him to bleed off his convulsions was very far from
being a cure, though it was supposed to keep them from happening at
random times. Miles drove, and flew his lightflyer—but only alone. He
never took passengers anymore. Pym's batman's duties had been expanded
to include medical assistance; he had by now witnessed enough of
Miles's disturbing seizures to be grateful for this unusual burst of
level-headedness.
One corner of Miles's mouth
crooked up. After a moment, he asked, "And how did you ever capture Ma
Pym, back in the old days, Pym? Did you put your best foot forward?"
"It's
been almost eighteen years ago. The details have gone a bit fuzzy." Pym
smiled a little. "I was a senior sergeant at the time. I'd taken the
ImpSec advanced course, and was assigned to security duty at Vorhartung
Castle. She had a clerk's job in the archives there. I thought, I
wasn't some boy anymore, it was time I got serious . . . though I'm not
just sure that wasn't an idea she put into my head, because she claims
she spotted me first."
"Ah, a handsome fellow in
uniform, I see. Does it every time. So why'd you decide to quit the
Imperial Service and apply to the Count-my-father?"
"Eh,
it seemed the right progression. Our little daughter'd come along by
then, I was just finishing my twenty-years hitch, and I was facing
whether or not to continue my enlistment. My wife's family was here,
and her roots, and she didn't particularly fancy following the flag
with children in tow. Captain Illyan, who knew I was District-born, was
kind enough to give me a tip, that your father had a place open in his
Armsmen's score. And a recommendation, when I nerved up to apply. I
figured a Count's Armsman would be a more settled job, for a family
man."
The groundcar arrived at Vorkosigan House;
the ImpSec corporal on duty opened the gates for them, and Pym pulled
around to the porte cochиre and popped the canopy.
"Thank you, Pym," Miles said, and hesitated. "A word in your ear. Two words."
Pym made to look attentive.
"When
you chance to socialize with the Armsmen of other Houses . . . I'd
appreciate it if you wouldn't mention Madame Vorsoisson. I wouldn't
want her to be the subject of invasive gossip, and, um . . . she's no
business of everyone and his younger brother anyway, eh?"
"A loyal Armsman does not gossip, m'lord," said Pym stiffly.
"No,
of course not. Sorry, I didn't mean to imply . . . um, sorry. Anyway.
The other thing. I'm maybe guilty of saying a little too much myself,
you see. I'm not actually courting Madame Vorsoisson."
Pym
tried to look properly blank, but a confused expression leaked into his
face. Miles added hastily, "I mean, not formally . Not yet
. She's . . . she's had a difficult time, recently, and she's a touch .
. . skittish. Any premature declaration on my part is likely to be
disastrous, I'm afraid. It's a timing problem. Discreet is the
watchword, if you see what I mean?"
Pym attempted a discreet but supportive-looking smile.
"We're just good friends," Miles reiterated. "Anyway, we're going to be."
"Yes, m'lord. I understand."
"Ah.
Good. Thank you." Miles climbed out of the groundcar, and added over
his shoulder as he headed into the house, "Find me in the kitchen when
you've put the car away."
* * *
Ekaterin stood in the middle of the blank square of grass with gardens boiling up in her head.
"If
you excavated there," she pointed, "and piled it up on that side, you'd
gain enough slope for the water flow. A bit of a wall there, too, to
block off the street noise and to heighten the effect. And the walkway
curving down—" She wheeled, to encounter Lord Vorkosigan watching her,
smiling, his hands stuffed in his gray trouser pockets. "Or would you
prefer something more geometrical?"
"Beg pardon?" He blinked.
"It's an aesthetic question."
"I,
uh . . . aesthetics are not exactly my area of expertise." He said this
in a tone of sad confession, as though it might be something of which
she was previously unaware.
Her hands sketched the
bones of the projected piece, trying to call structure out of the air.
"Do you want an illusion of a natural space, Barrayar before it was
touched by man, with the water seeming like rocks and a creek, a slice
of backcountry in the city—or something more in the nature of a
metaphor, with the Barrayaran plants in the interstices of these strong
human lines—probably in concrete. You can do really wonderful things
with water and concrete."
"Which is better?"
"It's not a question of better. It's a question of what you are trying to say."
"I hadn't thought of it as a political statement. I'd thought of it as a gift."
"If it's your garden, it will be seen as a political statement whether you intended it or not."
The
corner of his lip quirked as he took this in. "I'll have to think about
that. But there's no doubt in your mind something could be done with
the area?"
"Oh, none." The two Earth trees,
seemingly stuck in the flat ground at random, would have to go. That
silver maple was punky in the heartwood and would be no loss, but the
young oak was sound—perhaps it could be moved. The terraformed topsoil
must also be salvaged. Her hands twitched with the desire to start
digging into the dirt then and there. "It's an extraordinary space to
find preserved in the middle of Vorbarr Sultana." Across the street, a
commercial office building rose a dozen stories high. Fortunately, it
angled to the north and did not block out much light. The hiss and huff
of groundcar fans made continuous counterpoint along the busy
thoroughfare crossing the top end of the block, where she'd mentally
placed her wall. Across the park on the opposite side, a high gray
stone wall topped with iron spikes was already in place; treetops
rising beyond it half-screened from view the great house holding down
the center of the block.
"I'd invite you to sit
while I think about it," said Lord Vorkosigan, "but ImpSec never put in
benches—they didn't want to encourage loitering around the Regent's
residence. Suppose you run up both contrasting designs on your
comconsole, and bring them to me for review. Meanwhile, shall we walk
round to the house? I think my cook will have lunch ready soon."
"Oh
. . . all right . . ." With only one backward glance at the entrancing
possibilities, Ekaterin let him lead her away.
They
angled across the park. Around the corner of the gray wall at
Vorkosigan House's front entrance, a concrete kiosk sheltered a guard
in Imperial Security undress greens. He coded open the iron gate for
the little Lord Auditor and his guest, and watched them pass through
it, exchanging a short formal nod for Vorkosigan's thank-you
half-salute, and smiling pleasantly at Ekaterin.
The
somber stone of the mansion rose before them, four stories high in two
major wings. What seemed dozens of windows frowned down. The short
semicircle of drive curled around a brilliantly healthy patch of green
grass and under a portico, which sheltered carved double doors flanked
by tall narrow windows.
"Vorkosigan House is about
two hundred years old, now. It was built by my great-great-great
grandfather, the seventh Count, in a moment of historically unusual
family prosperity ended by, among other things, the building of
Vorkosigan House," Lord Vorkosigan told her cheerfully. "It replaced
some decaying clan fortress down in the old Caravanserai area, and not
before time, I gather."
He started to hold his
hand to a palm-lock, but the doors eased soundlessly open before he
could even touch it. His brows twitched up, and he bowed her inside.
Two
guardsmen in Vorkosigan brown-and-silver livery stood at attention,
flanking the entrance to the black-and-white stone-paved foyer. A third
liveried man, Pym, the tall driver whom she'd met when Vorkosigan had
picked her up earlier, was just turning away from the door security
control panel; he too braced before his lord. Ekaterin was daunted. She
had not received the impression when she'd seen him on Komarr that
Vorkosigan maintained the old Vor formalities to quite this extent.
Though not totally formal—instead of being sternly expressionless, the
large guardsmen all smiled down at them, in a friendly and most
welcoming manner.
"Thank you, Pym," said
Vorkosigan automatically, and paused. After a moment regarding them
back with a quizzical bent to his brows, he added, "I thought you were
on night shift, Roic. Shouldn't you be asleep?"
The largest and youngest of the guards stood more stiffly to attention, and murmured, "M'lord."
"M'lord is not an answer. M'lord
is an evasion," Vorkosigan said, in a tone more of observation than
censure. The guard ventured a subdued smile. Vorkosigan sighed, and
turned from him. "Madame Vorsoisson, permit me to introduce the rest of
the Vorkosigan Armsmen presently seconded to me—Armsman Jankowski,
Armsman Roic. Madame Vorsoisson."
She ducked her head, and they both nodded back, murmuring, "Madame Vorsoisson," and "My pleasure, Madame."
"Pym, you can let Ma Kosti know we're here. Thank you, gentlemen, that will be all," Vorkosigan added, with peculiar emphasis.
With
more subdued smiles, they melted away down the back passage. Pym's
voice drifted back, "See, what did I tell you—" His further explication
to his comrades, whatever it was, was quickly muffled by distance into
an unintelligible mutter.
Vorkosigan rubbed his
lips, recovered his hostly cordiality, and turned back to her again.
"Would you like to take a walk around the house before lunch? Many
people find it of historical interest."
Personally,
she thought it would be utterly fascinating, but she didn't want to
come on like some goggling backcountry tourist. "I don't wish to
trouble you, Lord Vorkosigan."
His mouth flickered
to dismay and back again to earnest welcome. "No trouble. A pleasure,
in fact." His gaze at her grew oddly intent.
Did
he want her to say yes? Perhaps he was very proud of his possessions.
"Then thank you. I should like that very much."
It
was the right answer. His cheer returned in force, and he immediately
motioned her to the left. A formal antechamber gave way to a wonderful
library running the length of the end of the wing; she had to tuck her
hands in her bolero pockets to keep them from diving at the old printed
books with leather bindings which lined parts of the room from floor to
ceiling. He bowed her out glass doors at the end of the library and
across a back garden where several generations of servitors had clearly
left very little room for any improvements. She thought she might
plunge her arm to the elbow into the soil of the perennial beds.
Apparently determined to be thorough, he led on into the cross-wing and
down to an enormous wine cellar stocked with produce of various
Vorkosigan District country farms. They passed through a subbasement
garage. The gleaming armored groundcar was there, and a red enameled
lightflyer tucked into a corner.
"Is that yours?" Ekaterin said brightly, nodding to the lightflyer.
His answer was unusually brief. "Yes. But I don't fly it much any more."
Oh. Yes. His seizures
. She could have kicked herself. Fearing that some tangled attempt to
apologize could only make it worse, she followed his shortcut up
through a huge and redolent kitchen complex. There Vorkosigan formally
introduced her to his famous cook, a plump middle-aged woman named Ma
Kosti, who smiled broadly at Ekaterin and thwarted her lord's attempt
to sample his lunch-in-preparation. Ma Kosti made it plain she felt her
vast domain was underutilized—but how much could one short man eat,
after all? He should be encouraged to bring in more company; hope you
will come again soon, and often, Madame Vorsoisson.
Ma
Kosti benignly shooed them on their way again, and Vorkosigan conducted
Ekaterin through a bewildering succession of formal receiving rooms and
back to the paved foyer. "Those are the public areas," he told her.
"The second floor is all my own territory." With an infectious
enthusiasm, he hustled her up the curving staircase to show off a suite
of rooms he assured her had once been occupied by the famous General
Count Piotr himself, and which were now his own. He made sure to point
out the excellent view of the back gardens from the suite's sitting
room.
"There are two more floors, plus the attics.
The attics of Vorkosigan House are something to behold. Would you like
to see them? Is there anything you'd particularly like to see?"
"I
don't know," she said, feeling a little overwhelmed. "Did you grow up
here?" She stared around the well-appointed sitting room, trying to
picture the child-Miles therein, and decide whether she was grateful
he'd stopped short of hauling her through his bedroom, just visible
through the end door.
"In fact, for the first five
or six years of my life, we lived at the Imperial Residence with
Gregor," he replied. "My parents and my grandfather had some little,
um, disagreement in the early years of the Regency, but then they were
reconciled, and Gregor went off to the preparatory academy. My parents
moved back here; they claimed the third floor the way I've marked off
the second. Heir's privilege. Several generations in one house works
best if it's a very large house. My grandfather had these rooms
till he died, when I was about seventeen. I had a room on my parents'
floor, though not in the same wing. They chose it for me because Illyan
said it had the worst angle of fire from . . . um, it has a good view
of the garden too. Would you care to . . . ?" He turned, gestured,
smiled over his shoulder, and led her out and up another flight, around
a corner, and part way down a long hall.
The room
into which they turned did have a good window on the garden, but any
traces of the boy Miles had been were erased. It was now done up as a
bland guest room, with scant personality beyond what was lent it by the
fabulous house itself. "How long were you here?" she asked, staring
around.
"Till last winter, actually. I moved
downstairs after I was medically discharged." He jerked up his chin in
his habitual nervous tic. "During the decade I served in ImpSec, I was
home so seldom, I never thought to need more."
"At
least you had your own bath. These houses from the Time of Isolation
are sometimes—" She broke off, as the door she casually opened proved
instead to be a closet. The door next to it must lead into the bath. A
soft glow of light came on automatically.
The
closet was stuffed with uniforms—Lord Vorkosigan's old military
uniforms, she realized from the size of them, and the superior
tailoring. He wouldn't have been able to use standard-issue gear, after
all. She recognized black fatigues, Imperial dress and undress greens,
and the glittering brilliance of the formal parade red-and-blues. An
array of boots stood guard along the floor from side to side. They'd
all been put away clean, but the close concentrated aroma of him still
permeated the warm dry air that puffed against her face like a caress.
She inhaled, stunned by the military-masculine patchouli. It seemed to
flow from her nose to her body directly, circumventing her brain. He
stepped anxiously to her side, watching her face; the well-chosen scent
he wore that she'd noticed in the cool air of his groundcar, a
flattering spicy-citrus overlying clean male, was suddenly intensified
by his proximity.
It was the first moment of spontaneous sensuality she'd felt since Tien's death. Oh, since years before Tien's death . It was embarrassing, yet oddly comforting too. Am I alive below the neck after all? She was abruptly aware that this was a bedroom.
"What's
this one?" She kept her voice from squeaking upward much, and reached
to pull out an unfamiliar gray uniform on its hanger, a heavy short
jacket with epaulettes, many closed pockets, and white trim, with
matching trousers. The stripes on the sleeves and assorted collar-pins
encoding rank were a mystery to her, but there seemed to be a lot of
them. The fabric had that odd fire-proof feel one found only in
seriously expensive field gear.
His smile
softened. "Well, now." He slipped the jacket off the hanger she
clutched, and held it up briefly. "You've never met Admiral Naismith,
have you. He was my favorite covert ops persona. He—I—ran the Dendarii
Free Mercenary Fleet for ImpSec for years."
"You pretended to be a galactic admiral?"
"—Lieutenant
Vorkosigan?" he finished wryly. "It started as a pretense. I made it
real." One corner of his mouth zigged up, and with a murmur of Why not?
, he hung the jacket over the doorknob and slipped out of his gray
tunic, revealing a fine white shirt. A shoulder holster she'd not
guessed he wore held a hand-weapon flat to his left side. Even here, he goes armed? It was only a heavy-duty stunner, but he seemed to wear it as unselfconsciously as he wore his shirt. I suppose if you are a Vorkosigan, that's how you dress every day.
He
traded the tunic for the jacket and pulled it on; his suit trousers
were so close a color match, he hardly needed to don the uniform pants
to present his effect, or effect his presentation. He stretched, and on
the return came to a posture totally unlike anything she'd seen in him
before: relaxed, extended, somehow filling the space beyond his
undersized body. One arm came out to prop him casually against the
doorframe, and his tilted smile turned into something blazing. In a
deadpan-perfect flat Betan accent that seemed never to have heard of
the concept of the Vor caste, he said, "Aw, don't let that dull
dirt-sucking Barrayaran bring you down. Stick with me, lady, and I'll
show you the galaxy." Ekaterin, startled, stepped back a pace.
He
jerked up his chin, still grinning dementedly, and began fastening the
clasps. His hands reached the jacket waist, straightened the band, and
paused. The ends were a couple of centimeters short of meeting at the
middle, and the clasp notably failed to seat itself even when he gave
it a covert tug. He stared down in such obvious dismay at this
treasonous shrinkage, Ekaterin choked on a giggle.
He
glanced up at her, and a rueful smile lit his eyes in response to the
crinkle of her own. His voice returned to Barrayaran-normal. "I haven't
had this on for over a year. Seems we outgrow our past in more ways
than one." He hitched back out of the uniform jacket. "Hm. Well, you
met my cook. Food's not a job for her, it's a sacred calling."
"Maybe it shrank in the wash," she offered in attempted consolation.
"Bless
you. No." He sighed. "The Admiral's deep cover was fraying badly even
before he was killed. Naismith's days were numbered anyway."
His
voice made light of this loss, but she'd seen the scars on his chest
left by the needle-grenade. Her mind circled back to the seizure she'd
witnessed, on the living room floor of her and Tien's cramped apartment
on Komarr. She remembered the look in his eyes after the epileptic
storm had passed: mental confusion, shame, helpless rage. The man had
driven his body far past its limits, in the belief, apparently, that
unsupported will could conquer anything.
So it can. For a time . Then time ran out—no. Time ran on. There was no end to time. But you come to the end of yourself, and time runs on, and leaves you . Her years with Tien had taught her that, if nothing else.
"I
suppose I ought to give these to Nikki to play with." He gestured
casually at the row of uniforms. But his hands carefully straightened
the gray jacket again on its hanger, brushed invisible lint, and hooked
it back into its place in the bar. "While he still can, and is young
enough to want to. He'll outgrow them in another year or so, I think."
Her breath drew in. I think that would be obscene.
These relics had clearly been life and death to him. What possessed
him, to make-believe they were no more than a child's playthings? She
couldn't think how to discourage him from this horrifying notion
without sounding as though she scorned his offer. Instead, after the
moment's silence threatened to stretch unbearably, she blurted, "Would
you go back? If you could?"
His gaze grew distant.
"Well, now . . . now that's the strangest thing. I think I would feel
like a snake trying to crawl back into its shed dead skin. I miss it
every minute, and I have no wish at all to go back." He looked up, and
twinkled at her. "Needle grenades are a learning experience, that way."
This
was his idea of a joke, apparently. She wasn't sure if she wanted to
kiss him and make it well, or run away screaming. She managed a faint
smile.
He shrugged on his plain civilian tunic,
and the sinister shoulder holster disappeared from view again. Closing
the closet door firmly, he took her on a spin around the rest of the
third floor; he pointed out his absent parents' suite, but to
Ekaterin's secret relief did not offer to take her inside the
succession of rooms. It would have felt very odd to wander through the
famous Count and Countess Vorkosigan's intimate space, as though she
were some voyeur.
They finally fetched up back on
"his" floor, at the end of the main wing in a bright room he called the
Yellow Parlor, which he apparently used as a dining room. A small table
was elegantly set up for lunch for two. Good, they were not expected to
dine downstairs in that elaborately-paneled cavern with the table that
extended to seat forty-eight; ninety-six in a squeeze, if a second
table, cleverly secreted behind the wainscoting, was brought out in
parallel. At some unseen signal, Ma Kosti appeared with luncheon on a
cart: soup, tea, an exquisite salad involving cultured shrimp and fruit
and nuts. She left her lord and his guest discreetly alone after the
initial flourishing serving, though a large silver tray with a domed
cover which she left sitting atop the cart at Lord Vorkosigan's elbow
promised more delights to come.
"It's a great
house," Lord Vorkosigan told Ekaterin between bites, "but it gets
really quiet at night. Lonely. It's not meant to be this empty. It
needs to be filled up with life again, the way it used to be in my
father's heyday." His tone was almost disconsolate.
"The
Viceroy and Vicereine will be returning for the Emperor's wedding,
won't they? It should be full again at Midsummer," she pointed out
helpfully.
"Oh, yes, and their whole entourage. Everyone
will be back on planet for the wedding." He hesitated. "Including my
brother Mark, come to think of it. I suppose I should warn you about
Mark."
"My uncle once mentioned you had a clone. Is that him, um . . . it?"
"It is the preferred Betan pronoun for a hermaphrodite; definitely him. Yes."
"Uncle
Vorthys didn't say why you—or was it your parents?—had a clone made,
except that it was complicated, and I should ask you." The explanation
that leapt most readily to mind was that Count Vorkosigan had wanted an
undeformed replacement for his soltoxin-damaged heir, but that
obviously wasn't the case.
"That's the complicated part. We
didn't. Some Komarran expatriates exiled to Earth did, as part of a
much-too-baroque plot against my father. I guess when they couldn't get
up a military revolution, they thought they'd try some biological
warfare on a budget. They got an agent to filch a tissue sample from
me—it couldn't have been that hard, I'd had hundreds of medical
treatments and tests and biopsies as a child—and farmed it out to one
of the less savory clone lords on Jackson's Whole."
"My
word. But Uncle Vorthys said your clone didn't look like you—did he
grow up without your, um, prenatal damage, then?" She gave him a short
nod, but kept her eyes politely on his face. She'd already encountered
his somewhat erratic sensitivity about his birth defects. Teratogenic, not genetic , he'd made sure she understood.
"If
it had been that simple . . . He actually started to grow as he should,
so they had to body-sculpt him down to my size. And shape. It was
pretty gruesome. They'd intended him to pass close inspection as my
replacement, so when I did things like have my busted leg bones
replaced with synthetics, his got surgically replaced too. I know
exactly how much that must have hurt. And they forced him to study to
pass for me. All the years I thought I was an only child, he was
developing the worst case of sibling rivalry you ever saw. I mean,
think about it. Never allowed to be yourself, constantly—under threat
of torture, in fact—compared with your older brother . . . By the time
the plot fell through, he was on a fair way to being driven crazy."
"I should think so! But . . . how did you rescue him from the Komarrans?"
He
was silent for a little, then said, "He kind of turned up on his own,
at the last. As soon as he came within my Betan mother's orbit—well,
you can imagine. Betans have very strict and clear convictions about
parental responsibilities to clones. It surprised the hell out of him,
I think. He knew he had a brother, God knows he'd had his face ground
into that fact, but he wasn't expecting parents. He certainly wasn't
expecting Cordelia Vorkosigan. The family has adopted him, I suppose is
the simplest way of thinking about it. He was here on Barrayar for a
while, then last year my mother sent him off to Beta Colony, to attend
university and get therapy under the supervision of my Betan
grandmother."
"That sounds good," she said,
pleased with the bizarre tale's happy ending. The Vorkosigans stood by
their own, it seemed.
"Mm, maybe. Reports leaking
back from my grandmother suggest it's been pretty rocky for him. You
see, he's got this obsession—perfectly understandable—about
differentiating himself from me, so's no one could ever mistake one of
us for the other ever again. Which is fine by me, don't get me wrong. I
think it's a great idea. But . . . but he could have gotten a facial
mod, or body sculpture, or growth hormones, or changed his eye color or
bleached his hair, or anything but . . . instead what he decided to do
was gain a great deal of weight. At my height, the effect is damned
startling. I think he likes it that way. Does it on purpose." He stared
rather broodingly at his plate. "I thought his Betan therapy might do
something about that, but apparently not."
A
scrabble at the edge of the tablecloth made Ekaterin start; a
determined-looking half-grown black-and-white kitten hauled itself up
over the side, tiny claws like pitons, and made for Vorkosigan's plate.
He smiled absently, picked a couple of remaining shrimp from his salad,
and deposited them before the little beast; it growled and purred
through its enthusiastic chewing. "The gate guard's cat keeps having
these kittens," he explained. "I admire their approach to life, but
they do turn up . . ." He picked the large cover off the tray, and
deposited it over the creature, trapping it. The undaunted purr
resonated against the silver hemisphere like some small machine
stripping its gears. "Dessert?"
The silver tray
was loaded with eight different dessert pastries, so alarmingly
beautiful Ekaterin thought it an aesthetic crime to eat them without
making a vid recording for posterity first. "Oh, my." After a long
pause, she pointed at one with thick cream and glazed fruit like
jewels. Vorkosigan slipped it onto a waiting plate, and handed it
across. He stared at the array longingly, but did not select one for
himself, Ekaterin noticed. He was not in the least fat, she thought
indignantly; when he'd played Admiral Naismith he must have been
practically emaciated. The pastry tasted as wonderful as it looked, and
Ekaterin's contribution to the conversation ceased for a short time.
Vorkosigan watched her, smiling in, apparently, vicarious pleasure.
As
she was scraping up the last molecules of cream from her plate with her
fork, footsteps sounded in the hall, and men's voices. She recognized
Pym's rumble, saying, " . . . no, m'lord's in conference with his new
landscape designer. I really don't think he wishes to be disturbed."
A drawling baritone replied, "Yeah, yeah, Pym. Nor did I. It's official business from m'mother."
A
look of extreme annoyance flashed over Vorkosigan's face, and he bit
off an expletive too muffled to quite make out. As his visitor loomed
in the doorway to the Yellow Parlor, his expression went very bland.
The
man Pym was failing to impede was a young officer, a tall and
startlingly handsome captain in undress greens. He had dark hair,
laughing brown eyes, and a lazy smile. He paused to sweep Vorkosigan a
mocking half-bow, saying, "Hail, O Lord Auditor coz. My God, is that a
Ma Kosti lunch I spy? Tell me I'm not too late. Is there anything left?
Can I lick your crumbs?" He stepped inside, and his eye swept over
Ekaterin. "Oh ho! Introduce me to your landscape designer , Miles!"
Lord
Vorkosigan said, somewhat through his teeth, "Madame Vorsoisson, may I
make you known to my feckless cousin, Captain Ivan Vorpatril. Ivan,
Madame Vorsoisson."
Undaunted by this disapproving
editorial, Vorpatril grinned, bowed deeply over her hand, and kissed
it. His lips lingered an appreciative second too long, but at least
they were dry and warm; she didn't have to overcome an impolite impulse
to wipe her hand on her skirt, when he at last released it. "And are
you taking commissions, Madame Vorsoisson?"
Ekaterin
was not quite sure whether to be amused or offended at his cheerful
leer, but amused seemed safer. She permitted herself a small smile.
"I'm only just starting."
Lord Vorkosigan put in,
"Ivan lives in an apartment. I believe there is a flowerpot on his
balcony, but the last time I looked, its contents were dead."
"It was winter
, Miles." A faint mewing from the silver dome at his elbow distracted
him. He stared at the cover, curiously tilted it up on one side, said,
"Ah. One of you," and let it back down. He wandered around the table,
spied the unused dessert plate, smiled beatifically, and helped himself
to two of the pastries and the leftover fork at his cousin's plate.
Returning to the empty place opposite, he settled his spoils, dragged
up a chair, and seated himself between Lord Vorkosigan and Ekaterin. He
regarded the mews of protest rising in volume from the dome, sighed,
retrieved the feline prisoner, and settled it on his lap atop the fine
cloth napkin, occupying it with a liberal smear of cream on its paws
and face. "Don't let me interrupt you," he added around his first bite.
"We were just finishing," said Vorkosigan. "Why are you here
, Ivan?" He added under his breath, "And why couldn't three bodyguards
keep you out? Do I have to give orders to shoot to kill?"
"My
strength is great because my cause is just," Vorpatril informed him.
"My mother has sent me with a list of chores for you as long as my arm.
With footnotes." He drew a roll of folded flimsies from his tunic, and
waved them at his cousin; the kitten rolled on its back and batted at
them, and he amused himself briefly, batting back. "Tik-tik-tik!"
"Your determination is relentless because you're more afraid of your mother than you are of my guardsmen."
"So are you. So are your guardsmen," observed Lord Vorpatril, downing another bite of dessert.
Vorkosigan
swallowed an involuntary laugh, then recovered his severe look again.
"Ah . . . Madame Vorsoisson, I can see I'm going to have to deal with
this. Perhaps we'd best break off for today." He smiled apologetically
at her, and pushed back his chair.
Lord Vorkosigan
doubtless had important security matters to discuss with the young
officer. "Of course. Um, it was good to meet you, Lord Vorpatril."
Impeded
by the kitten, the captain didn't rise, but he nodded a most cordial
farewell. "Madame Vorsoisson, a pleasure. I hope we'll see each other
again soon."
Vorkosigan's smile went thin; she
rose with him, and he shepherded her out into the hall, raising his
wristcom to his lips and murmuring, "Pym, please bring the car around
front." He gestured onward, and fell into step beside her down the
corridor. "Sorry about Ivan."
She didn't quite see what he felt the need to apologize for, so concealed her bewilderment in a shrug.
"So do we have a deal?" he went on. "Will you take on my project?"
"Maybe you'd better see a few possible designs, first."
"Yes, of course. Tomorrow . . . or you can call me whenever you're ready. You have my number?"
"Yes, you gave me several of them back on Komarr. I still have them."
"Ah.
Good." They turned down the great stairway, and his face went
thoughtful. At the bottom, he looked up at her and added, "And do you
still have that little memento?"
He meant the tiny
model Barrayar, pendant on a chain, souvenir of the grim events they
couldn't talk about in any public forum. "Oh, yes."
He
paused hopefully, and she was stricken that she couldn't pull the
jewelry out of her black blouse and demonstrate it on the spot, but
she'd thought it too valuable to wear everyday; it was put away,
carefully wrapped, in a drawer in her aunt's house. After a moment, the
sound of the groundcar came from the porte cochиre, and he ushered her
back out the double doors.
"Good day, then, Madame
Vorsoisson." He shook her hand, firmly and without holding it for too
long, and saw her into the groundcar's rear compartment. "I guess I'd
better go straighten out Ivan." As the canopy closed and the car pulled
away, he turned to stalk back indoors. By the time the car bore her
smoothly out the gates, he'd vanished from view.
* * *
Ivan
set one of the used salad plates down on the floor, and plunked the
kitten next to it. He had to admit, a young animal of almost any kind
made an excellent prop; he'd noted the way Madame Vorsoisson's cool
expression had softened as he'd noodled with the furry little
verminoid. Where had Miles found that astonishing widow? He sat back,
and watched the kitten's pink tongue flash over the sauce, and
reflected glumly on his own last night's outing.
His date had seemed such a possible
young woman: University student, away from home for the first time,
bound to be impressed with an Imperial Vor officer. Bold of gaze and
not a bit shy; she'd picked him up in her lightflyer.
Ivan was expert in the uses of a lightflyer for breaking down
psychological barriers and creating the proper mood. A few gentle
swoops and you could almost always evoke some of those cute little
shrieks where the young lady clung closer, her chest rising and falling
as her breath came faster through parted and increasingly-kissable
lips. This girl, however . . . he hadn't come so near to losing
his last meal in a lightflyer since being trapped by Miles in one of
his manic phases for an updraft demonstration over Hassadar. She'd
laughed, fiendishly, while Ivan had smiled helplessly through clenched
teeth, his knuckles whitening on the seat straps.
Then,
in the restaurant she'd picked, they'd met up oh-so-casually with that
surly pup of a graduate student, and the playlet began to fall into
place. She'd been using him, dammit, to test the pup's devotion to her cause; and the cur had rolled over and snarled right on cue. How do you do, sir. Oh, isn't this your uncle you said was in the Service? I beg your pardon. . . .
The smooth way he'd managed to turn the overly respectful offer of a
chair into a subtle insult had been worthy of, of Ivan's shortest
relative, practically. Ivan had escaped early, silently wishing them
joy of each other. Let the punishment fit the crime. He didn't know
what was happening with young Barrayaran girls these days. They were
turning almost . . . almost galactic , as if they'd been taking
lessons from Miles's formidable friend Quinn. His mother's acerbic
recommendation that he stick to women of his own age and class seemed
almost to begin to make sense.
Light footsteps
echoed from the hall, and his cousin appeared in the doorway. Ivan
considered, and dismissed, an impulse to favor Miles with a vivid
account of last night's debacle. Whatever emotion was tightening
Miles's lips and pulling his head down into that
bulldog-with-a-hair-up-its-butt look, it was very far from promising
sympathy.
"Rotten timing, Ivan," Miles bit out.
"What, did I spoil your tкte-а-tкte? Landscape designer , eh? I could develop a sudden interest in a landscape like that, too. What a profile."
"Exquisite," Miles breathed, temporarily distracted by some inner vision.
"And her face isn't bad, either," Ivan added, watching him.
Miles
almost took the bait right then, but he muffled his initial response in
a grimace. "Don't get greedy. Weren't you telling me you have that
sweetheart deal with Madame Vor-what's-her-name?" He pulled back his
chair and slumped into it, crossing his arms and his ankles and
watching Ivan through narrowed eyes.
"Ah. Yes. Well. That seems to have fallen through."
"You amaze me. Was the compliant husband not so compliant after all?"
"It
was all so unreasonable. I mean, they're cooking up their kid in a
uterine replicator. It's not like someone even can graft a
little bastard onto the family tree these days. In any case, he's
nailed down a post in the colonial administration, and is whisking her
off to Sergyar. He scarcely even let us make a civil good-bye." It had
been an unpleasant scene with oblique death threats, actually. It might
have been mitigated by the slightest sign of regret, or even concern
for Ivan's health and safety, on her part, but instead she'd spent the
moment hanging on her husband's arm and looking impressed by his
territorial trumpeting. As for the pubescent prole terrorist with the
lightflyer whom he'd next tried to persuade to mend his broken heart .
. . he suppressed a shudder.
Ivan shrugged off his
retrospective moment of depression, and went on, "But a widow, a real
live young widow! Do you know how hard they are to find these days? I
know fellows in HQ who'd give their right hands for a friendly widow,
except they have to save them for those long, lonely nights. However
did you luck onto this honey-pot?"
His cousin
didn't deign to answer. After a moment, he gestured to the flimsy,
rolled up beside Ivan's empty plate. "So what's all this?"
"Ah."
Ivan flattened it out, and handed it across the table. "It's the agenda
for your upcoming meeting with the Emperor, the Empress-to-be, and my
mother. She's pinning Gregor to the wall on all the final details about
the wedding. Since you are to be Gregor's Second, your presence is
requested and required."
"Oh." Miles glanced down
the contents. A puzzled line appeared between his brows, and he looked
up again at Ivan. "Not that this isn't important, but shouldn't you be
on duty at Ops right now?"
"Ha," said Ivan glumly. "Do you know what those bastards have done to me?"
Miles shook his head, brows rising inquisitively.
"I have been formally seconded to my mother—my mother —as aide-de-camp till the wedding's over. I joined the Service to get away from my mother, blast it. And now she's suddenly my chain of command!"
His
cousin's brief grin was entirely without sympathy. "Until Laisa is
safely hitched to Gregor, and can take over her duties as his political
hostess, your mother may be the most important person in Vorbarr
Sultana. Don't underestimate her. I've seen planetary invasion plans
less complex than what's being booted about for this Imperial Wedding.
It's going to take all Aunt Alys's generalship to bring it off."
Ivan
shook his head. "I knew I should have put in for off-planet duty while
I still could. Komarr, Sergyar, some dismal embassy, anywhere but
Vorbarr Sultana."
Miles's face sobered. "I don't
know, Ivan. Short of a surprise attack, this is the most politically
important event of—I was about to say, of the year, but I really think,
of our lifetimes. The more little heirs Gregor and Laisa can put
between you and me and the Imperium, the safer we'll be. Us and our families."
"We don't have families yet," Ivan pointed out. So, is that what's on his mind with the pretty widow? Oh ho!
"Would we have dared? I
sure thought about the issue, every time I got close enough to a woman
to . . . never mind. But this wedding needs to run on rails, Ivan."
"I'm
not arguing with that," said Ivan sincerely. He reached down to
dissuade the kitten, who had licked the plate clean, from trying to
sharpen its claws on his polished boots. A few moments spent petting it
in his lap bought it off from that enthusiasm, and it settled down,
purring, to the serious business of digesting and growing more hairs to
shed on Imperial uniforms. "So what's your widow's first name, say
again?" Miles hadn't actually imparted that bit of information, yet.
"Ekaterin," Miles sighed. His mouth seemed to caress all four syllables before reluctantly parting with them.
Oh, yeah. Ivan thought back over every bit of chaff his cousin had ever inflicted upon him for his numerous love affairs. Did you think I was a stone, for you to sharpen your wits upon?
Opportunities to even the score seemed to hover on the horizon like
rain clouds after a long drought. "Grief-stricken, is she, you say?
Seems to me she could use someone with a sense of humor, to cheer her
up. Not you, you're clearly in one of your funks. Maybe I ought to
volunteer to show her the town."
Miles had poured
himself more tea and been just about to put his feet up on a
neighboring chair; at this, they came back down with a thump. "Don't
even think about it. This one is mine ."
"Really? You secretly betrothed already? Quick work, coz."
"No," he admitted grudgingly.
"You have some sort of an understanding?"
"Not yet."
"So she is not, in point of fact, anyone's but her own. At present."
Uncharacteristically,
Miles took a slow sip of tea before responding. "I mean to change that.
When the time is right, which it surely is not yet."
"Hey, all's fair in love and war. Why can't I try?"
Miles snapped back, "If you step in this, it will be war."
"Don't
let your exalted new status go to your head, coz. Even an Imperial
Auditor can't order a woman to sleep with him."
"Marry him," Miles corrected frostily.
Ivan tilted his head, his grin spreading. "My God, you are gone completely over the edge. Who'd have guessed it?"
Miles bared his teeth. "Unlike you, I have never pretended to not be interested in that fate. I
have no brave bachelor speeches to eat. Nor a juvenile reputation as a
local stud to maintain. Or live down, as the case may be."
"My, we are snarky today."
Miles
took a deep breath; before he could speak, Ivan put in, "Y'know, that
head-down hostile scrunch makes you look more hunch-backed. You ought
to watch that."
After a long, chill silence, Miles said softly, "Are you challenging my ingenuity . . . Ivan?"
"Ah . . ." It didn't take long to grope for the right answer. "No."
"Good,"
Miles breathed, settling back. "Good . . ." Another long and
increasingly disturbing silence followed this, during which his cousin
studied Ivan through narrowed eyes. At last, he seemed to come to some
internal decision. "Ivan, I'm asking for your word as Vorpatril—just
between you and me—that you will leave Ekaterin alone."
Ivan's brows flew up. "That's a little pushy, isn't it? I mean, doesn't she get a vote?"
Miles's nostrils flared. "You have no real interest in her."
"How do you know? How do I know? I barely had a chance to say hello before you hustled her out."
"I
know you. For you, she's interchangeable with the next ten women you
chance to meet. Well, she's not interchangeable for me. I propose a
treaty. You can have all the rest of the women in the universe. I just
want this one. I think that's fair."
It was one of
those Miles-arguments again, which always seemed to result
oh-so-logically in Miles getting whatever Miles wanted. Ivan recognized
the pattern; it hadn't changed since they were five years old. Only the
content had evolved. "The problem is, the rest of the women in the
universe are not yours to dispense, either," Ivan pointed out
triumphantly. After a couple of decades practice, he was getting quicker at this. "You're trying to trade something you don't have for—something you don't have."
Thwarted, Miles settled back in his chair and glowered at him.
"Seriously,"
said Ivan, "isn't your passion a trifle sudden, for a man who just
parted company with the estimable Quinn at Winterfair? Where have you
been hiding this Kat, till now?"
"Ekaterin. I met her on Komarr," Miles replied shortly.
"During your case? This is
recent, then. Hey, you haven't told me all about your first case, Lord
Auditor coz. I must say, all that uproar about their solar mirror sure
seems to have petered out into nothing." He waited expectantly, but
Miles did not pick up on this invitation. He must not be in one of his
voluble moods. Either you can't turn him on, or you can't turn him off.
Well, if there was a choice, taciturn was probably safer for the
innocent bystanders than spring-wound. Ivan added after a moment, "So
does she have a sister?"
"No."
"They never do." Ivan heaved a sigh. "Who is she, really? Where does she live?"
"She
is Lord Auditor Vorthys's niece, and her husband suffered a ghastly
death barely two months ago. I doubt she's in the mood for your humor."
She
wasn't the only one so disinclined, it appeared. Damn, but Miles seemed
stuck in prick-mode today. "Eh, he got mixed up in one of your
affairs, did he? That'll teach him." Ivan leaned back, and grinned
sourly. "That's one way to solve the widow shortage, I suppose. Make
your own."
All the latent amusement which had
parried Ivan's sallies till now was abruptly wiped from his cousin's
face. His back straightened as much as it could, and he leaned forward,
his hands gripping his chair arms. His voice dropped to an arctic
pitch. "I will thank you, Lord Vorpatril, to take care not to repeat
that slander. Ever."
Ivan's stomach lurched in
surprise. He had seen Miles come the Lord Auditor a couple of times
now, but never before at him. The freezing gray eyes suddenly
had all the expression of a pair of gun barrels. Ivan opened his mouth,
then closed it, more carefully. What the hell was going on here? And how did someone so short manage to project that much menace? Years of practice, Ivan supposed. And conditioning. "It was a joke , Miles."
"I
don't find it very damned amusing." Miles rubbed his wrists, and
frowned into the middle distance. A muscle jumped in his jaw; he jerked
up his chin. After a moment, he added more bleakly, "I won't be telling
you about the Komarran case, Ivan. It's slit-your-throat-before-reading
stuff, and no horseshit. I will tell you this, and I expect it to go no
further. Etienne Vorsoisson's death was a mess and a murder, and I
surely failed to prevent it. But I did not cause it."
"For God's sake Miles, I didn't really think you—"
"However,"
his cousin raised his voice to override this, "all the evidence which
proves this is now as classified as it's possible to be. It follows,
that should such an accusation be made against me, I can't publicly
access the facts or testimony to disprove it. Think about the consequences of that for one minute, if you please. Especially if . . . if my suit prospers."
Ivan
sucked on his tongue for a moment, quelled. Then he brightened. "But .
. . Gregor has access. Who could argue with him? Gregor could pronounce
you clear."
"My foster-brother the Emperor, who appointed me Auditor as a favor to my father? Or so everyone says?"
Ivan shifted uncomfortably. So, Miles had heard that one, had he? "The people who count know better. Where do you pick this stuff up, Miles?"
A
dry shrug, and a little hand-gesture, was the only reply he got. Miles
was growing unnervingly political, these days. Ivan had slightly less
interest in becoming involved with Imperial politics than in holding a
plasma arc to his head and pulling the trigger. It wasn't that he ran
away screaming whenever the loaded topics arose; that would draw too
much attention. Saunter off slowly, that was the ticket. Miles . . .
Miles the maniacal maybe had the nerve for a political career. The
dwarf always did have that little suicidal streak. Better you than me, boy.
Miles,
who had fallen into a study of his half-boots, looked up again. "I know
I have no right to demand a damned thing from you, Ivan. I still owe
you for . . . for the events of last fall. And the dozen other times
you saved my neck, or tried to. All I can do is ask. Please. I don't
get many chances, and this one matters the world to me." A crooked
smile.
Damn that smile . Was it Ivan's
fault, that he had been born undamaged while his cousin had been born
crippled? No, blast it. It was bloody bungled politics that had wrecked
him, and you'd think it would be a lesson to him, but no. Demonstrably,
even sniper fire couldn't stop the hyperactive little git. In between
inspiring you to strangle him with your bare hands, he could make you
proud enough to cry. At least, Ivan had taken care no one could see his
face, when he'd watched from the Council floor as Miles had taken his
Auditor's oath with that terrifying intensity, before all the assembled
panoply of Barrayar last Winterfair. So small, so wrecked, so
obnoxious. So incandescent. Give the people a light, and they'll follow it anywhere. Did Miles know how dangerous he was?
And
the little paranoid actually believed Ivan had the magic to entice any
woman Miles really wanted away from him. His fears were more flattering
to Ivan than he would ever let on. But Miles had so few humilities, it
seemed almost a sin to take this one away from him. Bad for his soul,
eh.
"All right." Ivan sighed. "But I'm only giving
you first shot, mind. If she tells you to take a hike, I think I should
have just as much right to be next in line as the other fellow."
Miles half relaxed. "That's all I'm asking." Then tensed again. "Your word as Vorpatril, mind."
"My word as Vorpatril," Ivan allowed grudgingly, after a very long moment.
Miles
relaxed altogether, looking much more cheerful. A few minutes of
desultory conversation about the agenda for Lady Alys's planning
session segued into an enumeration of Madame Vorsoisson's manifold
virtues. If there was one thing worse than enduring his cousin's
preemptive jealousy, Ivan decided, it was listening to his romantically
hopefulburbling . Clearly, Vorkosigan House was not going to be
a good place to hide out from Lady Alys this afternoon, nor, he
suspected, for many afternoons to come. Miles wasn't even interested in
a spot of recreational drinking; when he started to explain to Ivan his
several new plans for gardens, Ivan pleaded duty, and escaped.
As he found his way down the front stairs, it dawned on Ivan that Miles had done him again
. He'd obtained exactly what he wanted, and Ivan wasn't even sure how
it had happened. Ivan hadn't had any intention of giving up his name's
word on this one. The very suggestion had been quite offensive, when
you looked at it from a certain angle. He frowned in frustration.
It
was all wrong. If this Ekaterin woman was indeed that fine, she
deserved a man who'd hustle for her. And if the widow's love for Miles
was to be tested, it would certainly be better done sooner than later.
Miles had no sense of proportion, of restraint, of . . . of
self-preservation. How devastating it would be, if she decided to throw
him back. It would be the ice-water bath therapy all over again. Next time, I should hold his head under longer. I let him up too soon, that was my mistake . . .
It
would be almost a public service, to dangle the alternatives in front
of the widow before Miles got her mind all turned inside out like he
did everyone else's. But . . . Miles had extracted his word from Ivan,
with downright ruthless determination. Forced it, practically, and a
forced oath was no oath at all.
The way around
this dilemma occurred to Ivan between one step and the next; his lips
pursed in a sudden whistle. The scheme was nearly . . . Milesian.
Cosmic justice, to serve the dwarf a dish with his own sauce. By the
time Pym let him out the front door, Ivan was smiling again.
CHAPTER TWO
Kareen Koudelka slid eagerly into the window
seat of the orbital shuttle, and pressed her nose to the port. All she
could see so far was the transfer station and its starry background.
After endless minutes, the usual clanks and yanks signaled undocking,
and the shuttle spun away from the station. The thrilling colored arc
of Barrayar's terminator slid past her view as the shuttle began its
descent. The western three-quarters of North Continent still glowed in
its afternoon. She could see the seas . Home again, after nearly a year. Kareen settled back in her seat, and considered her mixed feelings.
She
wished Mark were with her, to compare notes. And how did people like
Miles, who had been off-world maybe fifty times, handle the cognitive
dissonance? He'd had a student year on Beta Colony too, when even
younger than she. She realized she had a lot more questions to ask him
about it now, if she could work up the nerve.
So
Miles Vorkosigan really was an Imperial Auditor now. It was hard to
imagine him as one of those stiff old sticks. Mark had expended
considerable nervous wit at the news, before sending off a
congratulatory message by tight-beam, but then, Mark had a Thing about
Miles. Thing was not accepted psychoscientific terminology,
she'd been informed by his twinkling therapist, but there was scarcely
another term with the scope and flexibility to take in the whole
complexity of the . . . Thing.
Her hand drifted
down in an inventory, tugging her shirt and smoothing her trousers. The
eclectic mix of garb—Komarran-style pants, Barrayaran bolero, a
syntha-silk shirt from Escobar—wasn't going to shock her family. She
pulled an ash-blond curl out straight and looked up at it cross-eyed.
Her hair was almost grown out again to the length and style she'd had
when she'd left. Yes, all the important changes were on the inside,
privately; she might reveal them or not, in her own time, as seemed
right or safe. Safe? she queried herself in bemusement. She was letting Mark's paranoias rub off on her. Still . . .
With
a reluctant frown, she drew her Betan earrings from her ears, and
tucked them into her bolero pocket. Mama had hung around with Countess
Cordelia enough; she might well be able to decode their Betan meaning.
This was the style that said: Yes, I'm a consenting and
contraceptive-protected adult, but I am presently in an exclusive
relationship, so please do not embarrass us both by asking. Which was
rather a lot to encrypt in a few twists of metal, and the Betans had a
dozen more styles for other nuances; she'd graduated through a couple
of them. The contraceptive implant the earrings advertised could now
just ride along in secret, no one's business but her own.
Kareen
considered briefly the comparison of Betan earrings with related social
signals in other cultures: the wedding ring, certain styles of clothing
or hats or veils or facial hair or tattoos. All such signals could be
subverted, as with unfaithful spouses whose behavior belied their
outward statement of monogamy, but really the Betans seemed very good
about keeping congruent to theirs. Of course, they had so many choices.
Wearing a false signal was highly disapproved, socially. It screws it up for the rest of us, a Betan had once explained to her. The whole idea is to eliminate the weird guessing-games
. You had to admire their honesty. No wonder they did so well at the
sciences. In all, Kareen decided, there was a lot about the sometimes
appallingly sensible Betan-born Countess Cordelia Vorkosigan that she
thought she might understand much better now. But Tante Cordelia
wouldn't be back home to talk with till nearly the Emperor's wedding at
Midsummer, sigh.
She set the ambiguities of the
flesh abruptly aside as Vorbarr Sultana drew into view below. It was
evening, and a glorious sunset painted the clouds as the shuttle made
its final descent. City lights in the dusk made the groundscape
magical. She could pick out dear, familiar landmarks, the winding
river, a real river after a year of those measly fountains the
Betans put in their underground world, the famous bridges—the folk song
in four languages about them rippled through her mind—the main monorail
lines . . . then the rush of landing, and the final whine to a true
stop at the shuttleport. Home, home, I'm home! It was all she
could do to keep from stampeding over the bodies of all the slow old
people ahead of her. But at last she was through the flex-tube ramp and
the last maze of tube and corridor. Will they be waiting? Will they all be there?
They
did not disappoint her. They were all there, every one, standing in
their own little squad, staking out the best space by the pillars
closest to the exit doors: Mama clutching a huge bouquet of flowers,
and Olivia, holding up a big decorated sign with rainbow ribbons
streaming that said WELCOME HOME KAREEN!, and Martya, jumping up
and down as she saw her, and Delia looking very cool and grownup, and
Da himself, still wearing his Imperial undress greens from the day's
work at HQ, leaning on his stick and grinning. The group-hug was all
that Kareen's homesick heart had ever imagined, bending the sign and
squashing the flowers. Olivia giggled and Martya shrieked and even Da
rubbed water from his eyes. Passers-by stared; male passers-by stared
longingly, and tended to blunder into walls. Commodore Koudelka's
all-blond commando team, the junior officers from HQ joked. Kareen
wondered if Martya and Olivia still tormented them on purpose. The poor
boys kept trying to surrender, but so far, none of the sisters had
taken prisoners except Delia, who'd apparently conquered that Komarran
friend of Miles's at Winterfair—an ImpSec commodore, no less. Kareen
could hardly wait to get home and hear all the details of the
engagement.
All talking at once, except for Da,
who'd given up years ago and now just listened benignly, they herded
off to collect Kareen's luggage and meet the groundcar. Da and Mama had
evidently borrowed the big one from Lord Vorkosigan for the occasion,
along with Armsman Pym to drive it, so that they all might fit in the
rear compartment. Pym greeted her with a hearty welcome-home from his
liege-lord and himself, piled her modest valises in beside him, and
they were off.
"I thought you would come home
wearing one of those topless Betan sarongs," Martya teased her, as the
groundcar pulled away from the shuttleport and headed toward town.
"I thought about it." Kareen buried her grin in her armload of flowers. "It's just not warm enough here."
"You didn't actually wear one there , did you?"
Fortunately,
before Kareen was forced to either answer or evade this, Olivia piped
up, "When I saw Lord Vorkosigan's car I thought Lord Mark might have
come home with you after all, but Mama said not. Won't he be coming
back to Barrayar for the wedding?"
"Oh, yes. He
actually left Beta Colony before I did, but he stopped on the way at
Escobar to . . ." she hesitated, "to attend to some business of his."
Actually, Mark had gone to cadge weight-loss drugs, more powerful than
those his Betan therapist would prescribe for him, from a clinic of
refugee Jacksonian doctors in which he had a financial interest. He
would doubtless check out the business health of the clinic at the same
time, so it wasn't an outright lie.
Kareen and
Mark had come close to having their first real argument over this
dubious choice of his, but it was, Kareen recognized, indeed his
choice. Body-control issues lay near the core of his deepest troubles;
she was developing an instinct—if she didn't flatter herself, close to
a real understanding—of when she could push for his good. And when she
just had to wait, and let Mark wrestle with Mark. It had been a
somewhat terrifying privilege to watch and listen, this past year, as
his therapist coached him; and an exhilarating experience to
participate, under the therapist's supervision, in the partial healing
he was achieving. And to learn there were more important aspects to
love than a mad rush for connection: confidentiality, for one. Patience
for another. And, paradoxically and most urgently in Mark's case, a
certain cool and distant autonomy. It had taken her months to figure
that one out. She wasn't about to try to explain it to her noisy,
teasing, loving family in the back of a groundcar.
"You've become good friends . . ." her mother trailed off invitingly.
"He needed one." Desperately .
"Yes, but is he your boy friend?" Martya had no patience with subtlety, preferring clarity.
"He
seemed sweet on you when he was here last year," Delia observed. "And
you've been running around with him all year on Beta Colony. Is he slow
off the gun?"
Olivia added, "I suppose he's bright enough to be interesting—I mean, he's Miles's twin, he has to be—but I thought he was a bit creepy."
Kareen stiffened. If
you'd been cloned a slave, raised by terrorists to be a murderer,
trained by methods tantamount to physical and psychological torture,
and had to kill people to escape, you'd likely seem a little creepy
too. If you weren't a twitching puddle. Mark was no puddle, more
power to him. Mark was creating himself anew with an all-out effort no
less heroic for being largely invisible to the outside observer. She
pictured herself trying to explain this to Olivia or Martya, and gave
up instantly. Delia . . . no, not even Delia. She needed only to
mention Mark's four semiautonomous subpersonalities, each with his own
nickname, for the conversation to slide downhill permanently.
Describing the fascinating way they all worked together to support the
fragile economy of his personality would not thrill a family of
Barrayarans obviously testing for an acceptable in-law.
"Down,
girls," Da put in, smiling in the dimness of the groundcar compartment,
and earning Kareen's gratitude. But then he added, "Still, if we are
about to receive a go-between from the Vorkosigans, I'd like some
warning to prepare my mind for the shock. I've known Miles all his
life. Mark . . . is another matter."
Could they
picture no other role for a man in her life than potential husband?
Kareen was by no means sure Mark was a potential husband. He was still
working his heart out on becoming a potential human being. On Beta
Colony, it had all seemed so clear. She could almost feel the murky
doubt rising around her. She was glad now she'd ditched her earrings.
"I shouldn't think so," she said honestly.
"Ah." He settled back, clearly relieved.
"Did
he really get hugely fat on Beta Colony?" asked Olivia brightly. "I
shouldn't think his Betan therapist would have let him. I thought they
were supposed to fix that. I mean, he was fat when he left here ."
Kareen suppressed an urge to tear her hair, or better still, Olivia's. "Where did you hear that?"
"Mama
said Lady Cordelia said her mother said," Olivia recited the links of
the gossip-chain, "when she was back here at Winterfair for Gregor's
betrothal."
Mark's grandmother had been a good
Betan godmother to both bewildered Barrayaran students this past year.
Kareen had known that she was a pipeline of information to her
concerned daughter about the progress of her strange clone-son, with
the sort of frankness only two Betans could have; Gran'tante Naismith
often talked about the messages she'd sent or received, and passed on
news and greetings. The possibility of Tante Cordelia talking to Mama
was the one she hadn't considered, Kareen realized. After all, Tante
Cordelia had been on Sergyar, Mama was here. . . . She found herself
frantically calculating backward, comparing two planetary calendars.
Had she and Mark become lovers yet, by Barrayaran Winterfair when the
Vorkosigans had last been home? No, whew. Whatever Tante Cordelia knew
now, she hadn't known it then.
"I thought the
Betans could tweak your brain chemistry around any way they wanted,"
said Martya. "Couldn't they just normalize him, blip, like that? Why's
it take so long?"
"That's just the point," Kareen
said. "Mark spent most of his life having his body and mind forcibly
jerked around by other people. He needs the time to figure out who he
is when people aren't pumping him full of stuff from the
outside. Time to establish a baseline, his therapist says. He has a
Thing about drugs, you see." Though not, evidently, the ones he got
himself from refugee Jacksonians. "When he's ready—well, never mind."
"Did his therapy make any progress, then?" Mama asked dubiously.
"Oh, yes, lots," said Kareen, glad to be able to say something unequivocally positive about Mark at last.
"What kind?" asked her puzzled mother.
Kareen pictured herself gibbering, Well,
he's gotten completely over his torture-induced impotence, and been
trained how to be a gentle and attentive lover. His therapist says
she's terribly proud of him, and Grunt is just ecstatic. Gorge would be
a reasonable gourmand, if it weren't for his being co-opted by Howl to
meet Howl's needs, and it was me who figured out that was what was
really going on with the eating binges. Mark's therapist congratulated
me for my observation and insight, and loaded me down with catalogs for
five different Betan therapist training programs, and told me she'd
help me find scholarships if I was interested. She doesn't quite know
what to do about Killer yet, but Killer doesn't bother me. I can't deal
with Howl. And that's one year's progress. And oh yes, through all this
private stress and strain Mark maintained top standing in his
high-powered finance school, does anybody care? "It's pretty complicated to explain," she managed at last.
Time
to change the subject. Surely someone else's love interest could be
publicly dissected. "Delia! Does your Komarran commodore know Gregor's
Komarran fiancйe? Have you met her yet?"
Delia perked up. "Yes, Duv knew Laisa back on Komarr. They shared some, um, academic interests."
Martya
chimed in, "She's cute, short, and plump. She has the most striking
blue-green eyes, and she's going to set a fashion in padded bras. You'll be right in. Did you gain weight this year?"
"We've
all met Laisa," Mama intervened before this theme could be developed
into acrimony. "She seems very nice. Very intelligent."
"Yes,"
said Delia, shooting Martya a look of scorn. "Duv and I hope Gregor
doesn't waste her in public relations, though she'll have to do some,
of course. She has Komarran training in economics. She could run
Ministerial committees, Duv says, if they'd let her. At least the Old
Vor can't shuffle her off to be a brood mare. Gregor and Laisa have
already let it be quietly known they plan to use uterine replicators
for their babies."
"Are they getting any argument about that from the high traditionalists?" Kareen asked.
"If they do, Gregor's said he'll send 'em to argue with Lady Cordelia." Martya giggled. "If they dare."
"She'll
hand them back their heads on a plate if they try," Da said cheerfully.
"And they know she can. Besides, we can always help out by pointing to
Kareen and Olivia as proof positive that replicators give fine results."
Kareen
grinned. Olivia smiled more faintly. Their family's own demographics
marked the arrival of that galactic technology on Barrayar; the
Koudelkas had been among the first ordinary Barrayarans to chance the
new gestation method, for their two younger daughters. Being presented
to all and sundry like a prize agricultural exhibit at a District Fair
got to be a weary pain after a while, but Kareen supposed it was a
public service. There'd been much less of that lately, as the
technology became widely accepted, at least in the cities and by those
who could afford it. For the first time, she wondered how the Control
Sisters, Delia and Martya, had felt about it.
"What do the Komarrans think of the marriage, does your Duv say?" Kareen asked Delia.
"It's
a mixed reception, but what else do you expect from a conquered world?
The Imperial Household means to put all the positive propaganda spin on
it they can, of course. Right down to doing the wedding over again on
Komarr in the Komarran style, poor Gregor and Laisa. All ImpSec leaves
are canceled from now till after the second ceremony, so that means
Duv's and my wedding plans are on hold till then." She heaved a large
sigh. "Well, I'd rather have his undivided attention when I do finally
get it. He's scrambling to get on top of his new job, and as the first
Komarran to head Komarran Affairs he knows every eye in the Imperium is
on him. Especially if anything goes wrong." She grimaced. "Speaking of
people's heads on plates."
Delia had changed, this
past year. Last time she'd spoken of Imperial events, the conversation
had revolved around what to wear, not that color-coordinating the
Koudelkas wasn't a challenge in its own right. Kareen began to think
she might like this Duv Galeni fellow. A brother-in-law, hm. It was a
concept to get used to.
And then the groundcar
rounded the last corner, and home loomed up. The Koudelkas' residence
was the end house in a block-row, a capacious three stories high and
with a greedy share of windows overlooking a crescent-shaped park,
smack in the middle of the capital and not half a dozen blocks from
Vorkosigan House itself. The young couple had purchased it twenty-five
years ago, when Da had been personal military aide to the Regent, and
Mama had quit her ImpSec post as bodyguard to Gregor and his
foster-mother Lady Cordelia in order to have Delia. Kareen couldn't
begin to calculate how much its value must have appreciated since then,
though she bet Mark could. An academic exercise—who could bear to sell
the dear old place, creaky as it was? She bounded out of the car, wild
with joy.
It was late in the
evening before Kareen had a chance to talk privately with her parents.
First there had to be the unpacking, and the distribution of presents,
and the reclaiming of her room from the stowage her sisters had
ruthlessly dumped there during her absence. Then there was the big
family dinner, with all three of her best old girlfriends invited.
Everybody talked and talked, except Da of course, who sipped wine and
looked smug to be sitting down to dinner with eight women. In all the
camouflaging chatter Kareen only gradually became aware that she was
wrapping away in private silence the things that mattered most
intensely to her. That felt very strange.
Now she
perched on the bed in her parents' room as they readied for sleep. Mama
was running through her set series of isometric exercises, as she'd
done every night for as long as Kareen could remember. Even after two
body-births and all those years, she still maintained an athlete's
muscle tone. Da limped across the room and set his swordstick up by his
side of the bed, sat awkwardly, and watched Mama with a little smile.
His hair was all gray now, Kareen noticed; Mama's braided mane still
maintained her tawny blond without cosmetic assistance, though it was
getting a silvery sheen to it. Da's clumsy hands began the task of
removing his half-boots. Kareen's eye was having trouble readjusting.
Barrayarans in their mid-fifties looked like Betans in their
mid-seventies, or even mid-eighties; and her parents had lived hard in
their youth, through war and service. Kareen cleared her throat.
"About next year's," she began with a bright smile, "school."
"You are
planning on the District University, aren't you?" said Mama, chinning
herself gently on the bar hung from the ceiling joists, swinging her
legs out horizontally, and holding them there for a silent count of
twenty. "We didn't pinch marks to provide you with a galactic education
to have you quit halfway. That would be heartbreaking."
"Oh, yes, I want to keep going. I want to go back to Beta Colony." There.
A brief silence. Then Da, plaintively: "But you just got home , lovie."
"And
I wanted to come home," she assured him. "I wanted to see you all. I
just thought . . . it wasn't too soon to begin planning. Knowing it's a
big thing."
"Campaigning?" Da raised an eyebrow.
She
controlled irritation. It wasn't as though she were a little girl
begging for a pony. This was her whole life on the line, here.
"Planning. Seriously."
Mama said slowly, perhaps
because she was thinking or perhaps because she was folding herself
upside-down, "Do you know what you would study this time? The work you
selected last year seemed a trifle . . . eclectic."
"I did well in all my classes," Kareen defended herself.
"All fourteen completely unrelated courses," murmured Da. "This is true."
"There was so much to choose from."
"There
is much to choose from at Vorbarr Sultana District," Mama pointed out.
"More than you could learn in a couple of lifetimes, even Betan
lifetimes. And the commute is much less costly."
But Mark won't be at Vorbarr Sultana. He'll be back on Beta. "Mark's therapist was telling me about some scholarships in her field."
"Is that your latest interest?" asked Da. "Psycho-engineering?"
"I'm not sure," she said honestly. "Itis
interesting, the way they do it on Beta." But was it psychology in
general that entranced her, or just Mark's psychology? She couldn't
really say. Well . . . maybe she could. She just didn't entirely like
how the answer sounded.
"No doubt," said Mama,
"any practical galactic medical or technical training would be welcome
back here. If you could focus on one long enough to . . . The problem
is money, love. Without Lady Cordelia's scholarship, we couldn't have
dreamed of sending you off world. And as far as I know, her next year's
grant has already been awarded to another girl."
"I
didn't expect to ask her for anything more. She's done so much for me
already. But there is the possibility of a Betan scholarship. And I
could work this summer. That, plus what you would have spent anyway on
the District University . . . you wouldn't expect a little thing like
money to stop, say, Lord Miles?"
"I wouldn't expect plasma arc fire to stop Miles." Da grinned. "But he is, shall we say, a special case."
Kareen
wondered momentarily what fueled Miles's famous drive. Was it
frustrated anger, like the kind now heating her determination? How much
anger? Did Mark, in his exaggerated wariness of his progenitor and
twin, realize something about Miles that had eluded her? "Surely we can
come up with some solution. If we all try."
Mama
and Da exchanged a look. Da said, "I'm afraid things are a bit in the
hole to start with. Between schooling for all of you, and your late
grandmother Koudelka's illness . . . we mortgaged the house by the sea
two years ago."
Mama chimed in, "We'll be renting
it out this summer, all but a week. We figure with all the events at
Midsummer we'll hardly have time to get out of the capital anyway."
"And
your mama is now teaching self-defense and security classes for
Ministerial employees," Da added. "So she's doing all she can. I'm
afraid there aren't too many sources of cash left that haven't already
been pressed into service."
"I enjoy the
teaching," Mama said. Reassuring him? She added to Kareen, "And it's
better than selling the summer place to clear the debt, which for a
time we were afraid we'd have to do."
Lose the
house by the sea, focus of her childhood? Kareen was horrified. Lady
Alys Vorpatril herself had given the house on the eastern shore to the
Koudelkas for a wedding present, all those years ago; something about
saving her and baby Lord Ivan's lives in the War of Vordarian's
Pretendership. Kareen hadn't known finances were so tight. Until she
counted up the number of sisters ahead of her, and multiplied their
needs . . . um.
"It could be worse," Da said
cheerfully. "Think of what floating this harem would have been like
back in the days of dowries!"
Kareen smiled
dutifully—he'd been making that joke for at least fifteen years—and
fled. She was going to have to come up with another solution. By
herself.
* * *
The decor of
the Green Room in the Imperial Residence was superior to that of any
other conference chamber in which Miles had ever been trapped. Antique
silk wall coverings, heavy drapes and thick carpeting gave it a hushed,
serious, and somewhat submarine air, and the elegant tea laid out in
elaborate service on the inlaid sideboard beat the
extruded-food-in-plastic of the average military meeting all hollow.
Spring sunshine streamed through the windows to make warm golden bars
across the floor. Miles had been watching them hypnotically shift as
the morning stretched.
An inescapable military
tone was lent to the proceedings by the presence of three men in
uniform: Colonel Lord Vortala the Younger, head of the ImpSec task
force assigned to provide security for the Emperor's wedding; Captain
Ivan Vorpatril, dutifully keeping notes for Lady Alys Vorpatril, just
as he would have done as aide to his commander at any military HQ
conference; and Commodore Duv Galeni, chief of Komarran Affairs for
ImpSec, preparing for the day when the whole show would be replayed on
Komarr. Miles wondered if Galeni, forty and saturnine, was picking up
ideas for his own wedding with Delia Koudelka, or whether he had enough
sense of self-preservation to hide out and leave it all to the highly
competent, not to mention assertive, Koudelka women. All five of them.
Miles would offer Vorkosigan House to Duv as a sanctuary, except the
girls would certainly track him there.
Gregor and
Laisa seemed to be holding up well so far. Emperor Gregor in his
mid-thirties was tall and thin, dark and dry. Dr. Laisa Toscane was
short, with ash-blond curls and blue-green eyes that narrowed often in
amusement, and a figure that made Miles, for one, just want to sort of
fall over on top of her and burrow in for the winter. No treason
implied; he did not begrudge Gregor his good fortune. In fact, Miles
regarded the months of public ceremony which were keeping Gregor from
that consummation as a cruelty little short of sadistic. Assuming, of
course, that they were keeping . . .
The
voices droned on; Miles's thoughts drifted further. Dreamily, he
wondered where he and Ekaterin might hold their future wedding. In the
ballroom of Vorkosigan House, in the eye of the Empire? The place might
not hold a big enough mob. He wanted witnesses, for this. Or did he, as
heir to his father's Countship, have a political obligation to stage it
at the Vorkosigan's District capital of Hassadar? The modern Count's
Residence at Hassadar had always seemed more like a hotel than a home,
attached as it was to all those District bureaucratic offices lining
the city's main square. The most romantic site would be the house at
Vorkosigan Surleau, in the gardens overlooking the Long Lake. An
outdoor wedding, yes, he bet Ekaterin would like that. In a sense, it
would give Sergeant Bothari a chance to attend, and General Piotr too. Did you ever believe such a day would come for me, Grandfather?
The attraction of that venue would depend on the time of year, of
course—high summer would be glorious, but it wouldn't seem so romantic
in a mid-winter sleet storm. He wasn't at all sure he could bring
Ekaterin up to the matrimonial fence before fall, and delaying the
ceremony till next spring would be as agonizing as what was being done
to Gregor. . . .
Laisa, across the conference
table from Miles, flipped over the next page of her stack of flimsies,
read down it for a few seconds, and said, "You people can't be serious !" Gregor, seated beside her, looked alarmed, and leaned to peer over her shoulder.
Oh, we must have got to page twelve already. Quickly, Miles found his place again on the agenda, and sat up and tried to look attentive.
Lady
Alys gave him a dry glance, before turning her attention to Laisa. This
half-year-long nuptial ordeal, from the betrothal ceremonies this past
Winterfair to the wedding upcoming at Midsummer, was the cap and crown
of Lady Alys's career as Gregor's official hostess. She'd made it clear
that Things Would Be Done Properly.
The problem came in defining the term Properly
. The most recent wedding of a ruling emperor had been the scrambling
mid-war union of Gregor's grandfather Emperor Ezar to the sister of the
soon-to-be-late Mad Emperor Yuri, which for a number of sound
historical and aesthetic reasons Alys was loath to take as a model.
Most other emperors had been safely married for years before they
landed on the throne. Prior to Ezar one had to go back almost two
hundred years, to the marriage of Vlad Vorbarra le Savante and Lady
Vorlightly, in the most gaudily archaic period of the Time of Isolation.
"They
didn't really make the poor bride strip to the buff in front of all
their wedding guests, did they?" Laisa asked, pointing out the
offending passage of historical quotation to Gregor.
"Oh,
Vlad had to strip too," Gregor assured her earnestly. "The in-laws
would have insisted. It was in the nature of a warranty inspection.
Just in case any mutations turned up in future offspring, each side
wanted to be able to assert it wasn't their kin's fault."
"The
custom has largely died out in recent years," Lady Alys remarked,
"except in some of the backcountry districts in certain language
groups."
"She means the Greekie hicks," Ivan
helpfully interpreted this for offworld-born Laisa. His mother frowned
at this bluntness.
Miles cleared his throat. "The
Emperor's wedding may be counted on to reinvigorate any old customs it
takes up and displays. Personally, I'd prefer that this not be one of
them."
"Spoilsport," said Ivan. "I think it would reintroduce a lot of excitement to wedding parties. It could be a better draw than the competitive toasting."
"Followed
later in the evening by the competitive vomiting," Miles murmured. "Not
to mention the thrilling, if erratic, Vor crawling races. I think you
won one of those once, didn't you, Ivan?"
"I'm surprised you remember. Aren't you usually the first to pass out?"
"Gentlemen," said Lady Alys coldly. "We have a great deal of material yet to get through in this meeting. And neither
of you is leaving till we are finished." She let that hang quellingly
in the air for a moment, for emphasis, then went on. "I wouldn't expect
to exactly reproduce that old custom, Laisa, but I put it on the list
because it does represent something of cultural importance to the more
conservative Barrayarans. I was hoping we might come up with an updated
version which would serve the same psychological purpose."
Duv Galeni's dark brows lowered in a thoughtful frown. "Publish their gene scans?" he suggested.
Gregor
grimaced, but then took his fiancйe's hand and gripped it, and smiled
at her. "I'm sure Laisa's would be just fine."
"Well,
of course it is," she began. "My parents had it checked before I ever
went into the uterine replicator—"
Gregor kissed her palm. "Yes, and I'll bet you were a darling blastocyst."
She
grinned giddily at him. Alys smiled faintly, in brief indulgence. Ivan
looked mildly nauseated. Colonel Vortala, ImpSec trained and with years
of experience on the Vorbarr Sultana scene, managed to look pleasantly
blank. Galeni, nearly as good, appeared only a little stiff.
Miles
took this strategic moment to lean across and ask Galeni in an
undertone, "Kareen's home, has Delia told you?"
Galeni brightened. "Yes. I expect I'll see her tonight."
"I
want to do something for a welcome-home. I was thinking of inviting the
whole Koudelka clan for dinner soon. Interested?"
"Sure—"
Gregor
tore his besotted gaze from Laisa's, leaned back, and said mildly,
"Thank you, Duv. And what other ideas does anyone have?"
Gregor
was clearly not interested in making his gene-scan public knowledge.
Miles thought through several regional variants of the old custom. "You
could make it a sort of a levee. Each set of parental in-laws, or
whoever you think ought to have the right and the voice, plus a
physician of their choice gets to visit the opposite member of the
couple on the morning of the wedding, for a brief physical. Each
delegation publicly announces itself satisfied at some appropriate
point of the ceremony. Private inspection, public assurance. Modesty,
honor, and paranoia all get served."
"And you
could be given your tranquilizers at the same time," Ivan pointed out,
with gruesome cheer. "Bet you'll both need 'em by then."
"Thank you, Ivan," murmured Gregor. "So thoughtful." Laisa could only nod in amused agreement.
Lady Alys's eyes narrowed in calculation. "Gregor, Laisa? Is that idea mutually acceptable?"
"It works for me," said Gregor.
"I
don't think my parents would mind going along with it," said Laisa. "Um
. . . who would stand in for your parents, Gregor?"
"Count
and Countess Vorkosigan will be taking their place on the wedding
circle, of course," said Gregor. "I'd assume it would be them . . . ah,
Miles?"
"Mother wouldn't blink," said Miles,
"though I can't guarantee she wouldn't make rude comments about
Barrayarans. Father . . ."
A more
politically-guarded silence fell around the table. More than one eye
drifted to Duv Galeni, whose jaw tightened slightly.
"Duv,
Laisa." Lady Alys tapped one perfectly enameled fingernail on the
polished tabletop. "Komarran socio-political response on this one.
Frankly, please."
"I have no personal objection to Count Vorkosigan," said Laisa.
Galeni sighed. "Any . . . ambiguity that we can sidestep, I believe we should."
Nicely put, Duv. You'll be a politician yet.
"In other words, sending the Butcher of Komarr to ogle their nekkid
sacrificial maiden would be about as popular as plague with the
Komarrans back home," Miles put in, since no one else could. Well, Ivan
maybe. Lady Alys would have had to grope for several more moments to
come up with a polite locution for the problem. Galeni shot him a
medium-grateful glower. "Perfectly understandable," Miles went on. "If
the lack of symmetry isn't too obvious, send Mother and Aunt Alys as
the delegation from Gregor's side, with maybe one of the female cousins
from his mother Princess Kareen's family. It'll fly for the Barrayaran
conservatives because guarding the genome always was women's work."
The Barrayarans around the table grunted agreement. Lady Alys smiled shortly, and ticked off the item.
A
complicated, and lengthy, debate ensued over whether the couple should
repeat their vows in all four of Barrayar's languages. After that came
thirty minutes of discussion on how to handle domestic and galactic
newsfeeds, in which Miles adroitly, and with Galeni's strong support,
managed to avoid collecting any more tasks requiring his personal
handling. Lady Alys flipped to the next page, and frowned. "By the way,
Gregor, have you decided what you're going to do about the Vorbretten
case yet?"
Gregor shook his head. "I'm trying to
avoid making any public utterance on that one for the moment. At least
till the Council of Counts gets done trampling about in it. Whichever
way they fall out, the loser's appeal will doubtless land in my lap
within minutes of their decision."
Miles glanced at his agenda in confusion. The next item read Meal Schedules . "Vorbretten case?"
"Surely
you've heard the scandal—" began Lady Alys. "Oh, that's right, you were
on Komarr when it broke. Didn't Ivan fill you in? Poor Renй. The whole
family's in an uproar."
"Has something happened to
Renй Vorbretten?" Miles asked, alarmed. Renй had been a couple of years
ahead of Miles at the Academy, and looked to be following in his
brilliant father's footsteps. Commodore Lord Vorbretten had been a star
protйgй of Miles's father on the General Staff, until his untimely, if
heroic, death by Cetagandan fire in the war of the Hegen Hub a decade
past. Less than a year later, old Count Vorbretten had died, some said
in grief for the loss of his beloved eldest son; Renй had been forced
to give up his promising military career and take up his duties as
Count of his family's District. Three years ago, in a whirlwind romance
that had been the delight of Vorbarr Sultana, he'd married the gorgeous
eighteen-year-old daughter of the wealthy Lord Vorkeres. Them what has, gets , as they said in the backcountry.
"Well . . ." said Gregor, "yes and no. Um . . ."
"Um what ?"
Lady
Alys sighed. "Count and Countess Vorbretten, having decided it was time
to start carrying out their family duties, very sensibly decided to use
the uterine replicator for their first-born son, and have any detected
defects repaired in the zygote. For which, of course, they both had
complete gene scans."
"Renй found he was a mutie?"
Miles asked, astonished. Tall, handsome, athletic Renй? Renй, who spoke
four languages in a modulated baritone that melted female hearts and
male resistance, played three musical instruments entrancingly, and had
perfect singing pitch to boot? Renй, who could make Ivan grind his teeth in sheer physical jealousy?
"Not exactly," said Lady Alys, "unless you count being one-eighth Cetagandan ghem as a defect."
Miles sat back. "Whoops." He took this in. "When did this happen?"
"Surely you can do the math," murmured Ivan.
"Depends on which line it came through."
"The male," said Lady Alys. "Unfortunately."
Right.
Renй's grandfather, the seventh Count-Vorbretten-to-be, had indeed been
born in the middle of the Cetagandan occupation. The Vorbrettens, like
many Barrayarans, had done what they needed to survive. . . . "So
Renй's great-grandma was a collaborator. Or . . . was it something
nastier?"
"For what it's worth," said Gregor,
"what little surviving documentation ImpSec has unearthed suggests it
was probably a voluntary and rather extended liaison, with one—or
more—of the high-ranking ghem-officers occupying their District. At
this range, one can't tell if it was love, self-interest, or an attempt
to buy protection for her family in the only coin she had."
"It could have been all three," said Lady Alys. "Life in a war zone isn't simple."
"In any case," said Gregor, "it seems not to have been a matter of rape."
"Good God. So, ah, do they know which ghem-lord was Renй's ancestor?"
"They
could in theory send his gene scan to Cetaganda and find out, but as
far as I know they haven't elected to do so yet. It's rather academic.
What is . . . something other than academic is the apparent fact that
the seventh Count Vorbretten was not the son of the sixth Count."
"They were calling him Renй Ghembretten last week at HQ," Ivan volunteered. Gregor grimaced.
"I'm
astounded the Vorbrettens let this leak out," said Miles. "Or was it
the doctor or the medtechs who betrayed them?"
"Mm,
therein hangs yet more of the tale," said Gregor. "They had no
intention of doing so. But Renй told his sisters and his brother,
thinking they had a right to know, and the young Countess told her
parents. And from there, well, who knows. But the rumor eventually came
to the ears of Sigur Vorbretten, who is the direct descendant of the
sixth Count's younger brother, and incidentally the son-in-law of Count
Boriz Vormoncrief. Sigur has somehow—and there's a counter-suit pending
about his methods—obtained a copy of Renй's gene scan. And Count
Vormoncrief has brought suit before the Council of Counts, on his
son-in-law's behalf, to claim the Vorbretten descent and District for
Sigur. And there it sits."
"Ow. Ow! So . . . is
Renй still Count, or not? He was presented and confirmed in his person
by the Council, with all the due forms—hell, I was there, come to think
of it. A Count doesn't have to be the previous Count's
son—there've been nephews, cousins, skips to other lines, complete
breaks due to treason or war—has anyone mentioned Lord Midnight, the
fifth Count Vortala's horse, yet? If a horse can inherit a Countship, I
don't see what's the theoretical objection to a Cetagandan.
Part-Cetagandan."
"I doubt Lord Midnight's father was married to his mother, either," Ivan observed brightly.
"Both
sides were claiming that case as a precedent, last I heard," Lord
Vortala, himself a descendant of the infamous fifth Count, put in. "One
because the horse was confirmed as heir, t' other because the
confirmation was later revoked."
Galeni, listening
in fascination, shook his head in wonder, or something like that. Laisa
sat back and gnawed gently on her knuckle, and kept her mouth straight.
Her eyes only crinkled slightly.
"How's Renй taking it all?" asked Miles.
"He seems to have become rather reclusive lately," said Alys, in a worried tone.
"I . . . maybe I'll call on him."
"That
would be a good thing," said Gregor gravely. "Sigur is attempting in
his suit to attach everything Renй inherited, but he's let it be known
he'd be willing to settle for just the Countship and its entailments.
Too, I suppose there are some trifles of property inherited through the
female lines which aren't under question."
"In the
meanwhile," Alys said, "Sigur has sent a note to my office requesting
his rightful place in the wedding procession and the oath-takings as
Count Vorbretten. And Renй has sent a note requesting Sigur be barred
from the ceremonies if the case has not yet been settled in his favor.
So, Gregor? Which one lays his hands between Laisa's when she's
confirmed as Empress, if the Council of Counts hasn't made up what
passes for its collective mind by then?"
Gregor
rubbed the bridge of his nose, and squeezed his eyes shut briefly. "I
don't know. We may have to have both of them. Provisionally."
"Together?"
said Lady Alys, her lip curling in dismay. "Tempers are running high, I
heard." She glowered at Ivan. "Exacerbated by the humor certain
low-minded persons seem to find in what is actually an exquisitely
painful situation."
Ivan began to smile, then apparently thought better of it.
"One
trusts they will not choose to mar the dignity of the occasion," said
Gregor. "Especially if their appeal to me is still hanging fire. I
suppose I should find some way to let them know that, gently. I am
presently constrained to avoid them . . ." His eye fell on Miles. "Ah,
Lord Auditor Vorkosigan. This sounds like a task very much within your
purview. Would you be so kind as to remind them both of the delicacy of
their positions, if things look to be getting out of hand at any point?"
Since
the official job description of an Imperial Auditor was, in effect,
Whatever You Say, Gregor, Miles could hardly argue with this. Well, it
could have been worse. He shuddered to think of how many chores he
might have been assigned by now if he'd been so stupid as to not show up for this meeting. "Yes, Sire," he sighed. "I'll do my best."
"The
formal invitations begin to go out soon," Lady Alys said. "Let me know
if there are any changes." She turned over the last page. "Oh, and have
your parents said yet exactly when they'll be arriving, Miles?"
"I've assumed you would know before I did. Gregor?"
"Two
Imperial ships are assigned to the Viceroy's pleasure," said Gregor.
"If there are no crises on Sergyar to impede him, Count Vorkosigan
implied he'd like to be here in better time than last Winterfair."
"Are they coming together? I thought Mother might come early again, to support Aunt Alys," said Miles.
"I
love your mother dearly, Miles," Lady Alys sighed, "but after the
betrothal, when I suggested she come home to help me with these
preparations, she suggested Gregor and Laisa ought to elope."
Gregor
and Laisa both looked quite wistful at the thought, and held hands
under the table. Lady Alys frowned uneasily at this dangerous breath of
mutiny.
Miles grinned. "Well, of course. That's what she did. After all, it worked for her."
"I
don't think she was serious, but with Cordelia, one can never quite
tell. It's just appalling how this whole subject brings out the Betan
in her. I can only be grateful she's on Sergyar just now." Lady Alys
glowered at her flimsy, and added, "Fireworks."
Miles
blinked, then realized this wasn't a prediction of the probable result
of the clash in social views between his Betan mother and his
Barrayaran aunt, but rather, the last—thank God—item on today's agenda.
"Yes!"
said Gregor, smiling eagerly. All the Barrayarans round the table,
including Lady Alys, perked up at this. An inherent cultural passion
for things that went boom, perhaps.
"On what
schedule?" Lady Alys asked. "There will of course be the traditional
display on Midsummer Day, the evening after the Imperial Military
Review. Do you want displays every night on the three days intervening
till the wedding, as well as on the wedding night?"
"Let
me see that budget," Gregor said to Ivan. Ivan called it up for him.
"Hm. We wouldn't want the people to become jaded. Let other
organizations, such as the city of Vorbarr Sultana or the Council of
Counts, foot the displays on the intervening nights. And up the budget
for the post-wedding display by fifty percent, from my personal purse
as Count Vorbarra."
"Ooh," said Ivan appreciatively, and entered the changes. "Nice."
Miles stretched. Done at last.
"Oh, yes, I almost forgot," added Lady Alys. "Here is your meal schedule, Miles."
"My what?" Without thinking, he accepted the flimsy from her hand.
"Gregor
and Laisa have dozens of invitations during the week between the Review
and the Wedding from assorted organizations which wish to honor
them—and themselves—ranging from the Imperial Veterans' Corps to the
Honorable Order of City Bakers. And Bankers. And Brewers. And
Barristers. Not to mention the rest of the alphabet. Far more than they
can possibly accept, of course. They will do as many of the most
critical ones as they can fit in, but after that, you will have to take
the next tier, as Gregor's Second."
"Did any of
these people actually invite me, in my own person?" Miles asked,
scanning down the list. There were at least thirteen meals or
ceremonies in three days on it. "Or are they getting a horrible
surprise? I can't eat all this!"
"Throw yourself
on that unexploded dessert, boy!" Ivan grinned. "It's your duty to save
the Emperor from indigestion."
"Of course they'll
know. You may expect to be called upon to make a number of thank-you
speeches appropriate to the various venues. And here," his mother
added, "is your schedule, Ivan."
Ivan's grin faded
into a look of dismay, as he stared at his own list. "I didn't know
there were that many guilds in this damned town . . ."
A
wonderful thought occurred to Miles—he might be able to take Ekaterin
along to a sedate selection of these. Yes, let her see Lord Auditor
Vorkosigan in action. And her serene and sober elegance would add no
little validation to his consequence. He sat up straighter, suddenly consoled, and folded the flimsy and slipped it into his tunic.
"Can't
we send Mark to some of these?" asked Ivan plaintively. "He'll be back
in town for this bash. And he's a Vorkosigan too. Outranks a Vorpatril,
surely. And if there's one thing the lad can do, it's eat."
Galeni's
brows rose in reluctant agreement with this last assessment, though the
look on his face was a study in grim bemusement. Miles wondered if
Galeni too was reflecting that Mark's other notable talent was
assassination. At least he doesn't eat what he kills.
Miles
began to glower at Ivan, but Aunt Alys beat him to it. "Control your
wit, if you please, Ivan. Lord Mark is neither the Emperor's Second,
nor an Imperial Auditor, nor of any great experience in delicate social
situations. And despite all Aral and Cordelia could do for him last
year, most people still regard his position within the family as rather
ambiguous. Nor is he, I'm given to understand, stable enough yet to be
safely subjected to stress in very public arenas. Despite his therapy."
"It was a joke
," Ivan muttered defensively. "How do you expect us to all get through
this alive if we're not allowed to have a sense of humor?"
"Exert yourself," his mother advised him brutally.
On these daunting words, the meeting broke up.
CHAPTER THREE
A cool spring drizzle misted onto Miles's hair
as he stepped into the shelter of the Vorthys's doorway. In the gray
air, the gaudy tile front of the house was subdued, becoming a
patterned subtlety. Ekaterin had inadvertently delayed this meeting by
sending him her proposed garden designs over the comconsole.
Fortunately, he hadn't had to feign indecision over the choice;
both layouts were very fine. He trusted they would still be able to
spend hours this afternoon, heads bent together over the vid display,
comparing and discussing the fine points.
A
fleeting memory of the erotic dream from which he'd awoken this morning
warmed his face. It had been a replay of his and Ekaterin's first
meeting in the garden here, but in this version her welcome had taken a
much more, um, exciting and unexpected turn. Except why had his stupid
unconscious spent so much worry about tell-tale grass-stains on the
knees of his trousers, when it could have been manufacturing even more
fabulous moments of abundance for his dream-self? And then he'd woken
up too damned soon. . . .
The Professora opened
the door to him, and smiled a welcome. "Come in, Miles." She added, as
he entered her hallway, "Have I ever mentioned before how much I
appreciate the fact that you call before you visit?"
Her
house did not have its usual hushed, librarylike quiet. There seemed to
be a party going on. Startled, Miles swiveled his head toward the
archway on his left. A clink of plates and glassware and the scent of
tea and apricot pastries wafted from the parlor.
Ekaterin,
smiling politely but with two little parallel lines of tension between
her brows, sat enthroned in her uncle's overstuffed chair in the
corner, holding a teacup. Ranged around the room, perched on more
decorative chairs, were three men, two in Imperial undress greens and
one in a civilian tunic and trousers.
Miles didn't
recognize the heavy-set fellow who wore major's tabs, along with Ops
pins, on his high collar. The other officer was Lieutenant Alexi
Vormoncrief, whom Miles knew slightly. His pins, too, indicated he now
worked in Ops. The third man, in the finely-cut civilian togs, was
highly adept at avoiding work of any kind, as far as Miles knew. Byerly
Vorrutyer had never joined the Service; he'd been a town clown for as
long as Miles had been acquainted with him. Byerly had impeccable taste
in everything but his vices. Miles would have been loath to introduce
Ekaterin to him even after she was safely betrothed.
"Where did they come from?" Miles asked the Professora in an undertone.
"Major
Zamori I had as an undergraduate student, fifteen years ago," the
Professora murmured back. "He brought me a book he said he thought I
would like. Which is true; I already had a copy. Young Vormoncrief came
to compare pedigrees with Ekaterin. He thought they might be related,
he said, as his grandmother was a Vorvane. Aunt to the Minister for
Heavy Industries, you know."
"I know that branch, yes."
"They
have spent the past hour establishing that, while the Vorvanes and the
Vorvaynes are indeed of the same root stock, the families split off at
least five generations back. I don't know why By Vorrutyer is here. He
neglected to supply me with an excuse."
"There is
no excuse for By." But Miles thought he could see exactly why the three
of them were there, lame stories and all, and she was clutching her
teacup in the corner and looking trapped. Couldn't they do better than
those palpably transparent tales? "Is my cousin Ivan here?" he added
dangerously. Ivan worked in Ops, come to think of it. Once was
happenstance, twice was coincidence . . .
"Ivan
Vorpatril? No. Oh, dear, is he likely to turn up? I'm out of pastries.
I had bought them for the Professor's dessert tonight. . . ."
"I
trust not," muttered Miles. He fixed a polite smile on his face, and
swung into the Professora's parlor. She followed after him.
Ekaterin's
chin came up, and she smiled and put down her cup-shield. "Oh, Lord
Vorkosigan! I'm so glad you're here. Um . . . do you know these
gentlemen?"
"Two out of three, Madame. Good morning, Vormoncrief. Hello, Byerly."
The three acquaintances exchanged guarded nods. Vormoncrief said politely, "Good morning, my Lord Auditor."
"Major Zamori, this is Lord Auditor Miles Vorkosigan," the Professora supplied.
"Good
day, sir," said Zamori. "I've heard of you." His gaze was direct and
fearless, despite his being so heavily outnumbered by Vor lords. But
then, Vormoncrief was a mere stripling of a lieutenant, and Byerly
Vorrutyer didn't rank at all. "Did you come to see Lord Auditor
Vorthys? He just stepped out."
Ekaterin nodded. "He went for a walk."
"In the rain?"
The
Professora rolled her eyes slightly, by which Miles guessed her husband
had skipped off and left her to play duenna to her niece by herself.
"No
matter," Miles went on. "In fact, I have some little business with
Madame Vorsoisson." And if they took that to mean a Lord Auditor's
Imperial business, and not merely Lord Vorkosigan's private business,
who was he to correct them?
"Yes," Ekaterin nodded in confirmation of this.
"My
apologies for interrupting you all," Miles added, by way of a broad
hint. He did not sit down, but leaned against the frame of the archway,
and crossed his arms. No one moved.
"We were just discussing family trees," Vormoncrief explained.
"At some length," murmured Ekaterin.
"Speaking
of strange pedigrees, Alexi, Lord Vorkosigan and I were almost related
much more closely," Byerly remarked. "I feel quite a familial
attachment to him."
"Really?" said Vormoncrief, looking puzzled.
"Oh,
yes. One of my aunts on the Vorrutyer side was once married to his
father. So Aral Vorkosigan is actually some sort of virtual, if not
virtuous, uncle to me. But she died young, alas—ruthlessly pruned from
the tree—without bearing me a cousin to cut the future Miles out of his
inheritance." Byerly cocked a brow at Miles. "Was she fondly
remembered, in your family dinner conversations?"
"We never much discussed the Vorrutyers," said Miles.
"How
odd. We never much discussed the Vorkosigans, either. Hardly at all, in
fact. Such a resounding silence, one feels."
Miles
smiled, and let just such a silence stretch between them, curious to
see who would flinch first. By's eye began to glint appreciation, but
the first whose nerve broke was one of the innocent bystanders.
Major
Zamori cleared his throat. "So, Lord Auditor Vorkosigan. What's the
final word on the Komarr accident, really? Was it sabotage?"
Miles
shrugged, and let By and his habitual needling drop from his attention.
"After six weeks of sifting through the data, Lord Auditor Vorthys and
I returned a probable cause of pilot error. We debated the possibility
of pilot suicide, but finally discarded the idea."
"And which was your opinion?" asked Zamori, sounding interested. "Accident or suicide?"
"Mm.
I felt suicide would explain a lot about certain physical aspects of
the collision," Miles replied, sending up a silent prayer of apology to
the soul of the slandered pilot. "But since the dead pilot neglected to
supply us with any supporting evidence, such as notes or messages or
therapy records, we couldn't make it an official verdict. Don't quote
me," he added, for verisimilitude.
Ekaterin,
sheltered in her uncle's chair, nodded understanding to him of this
official lie, perhaps adding it to her own repertoire of deflections.
"So
what do you think of this Komarran marriage of the Emperor's?"
Vormoncrief added. "I suppose you must approve of it—you're in it."
Miles
took note of his dubious tone. Ah yes, Vormoncrief's uncle Count Boriz
Vormoncrief, being just outside the spatter-zone, had inherited the
leadership of the shrinking Conservative Party after the fall of Count
Vortrifrani. The Conservative party's response to future-Empress Laisa
had been lukewarm at best, though, prudently, no overt hostility had
been permitted to leak into their public stances where someone—i.e.,
ImpSec—would have been compelled to take notice of it. Still, just
because Boriz and Alexi were related didn't by any means guarantee they
shared the same political views. "I think it's great," said Miles. "Dr.
Toscane is brilliant and beautiful, and Gregor, well, it's high time he
produced an heir. And you have to figure, if nothing else it leaves one
more Barrayaran woman for the rest of us."
"Well, it leaves one more Barrayaran woman for one of us," Byerly Vorrutyer corrected this sweetly. "Unless you are proposing something delightfully outrй."
Miles's
smile thinned as he contemplated By. Ivan's wit, wearing as it could
sometimes grow, was saved from being offensive by a certain
ingenuousness. Unlike Ivan, Byerly never insulted anyone
unintentionally.
"You gentlemen should all pay a
visit to Komarr," Miles recommended genially. "Their domes are just
chock full of lovely women, all with clean gene scans and galactic
educations. And the Toscanes aren't the only clan fielding an heiress.
Many of the Komarran ladies are rich—Byerly." He restrained himself
from helpfully explaining to all present that Madame Vorsoisson's
feckless late husband had left her destitute, first because Ekaterin
was sitting right there, with her eyebrows tilted at him, and secondly
because he couldn't imagine that By, for one, didn't already know it.
Byerly smiled faintly. "Money isn't everything, they say."
Check . "Still, I'm sure you could make yourself pleasant, if you ever chose to try."
By's lip quirked. "Your faith in me is touching, Vorkosigan."
Alexi
Vormoncrief said sturdily, "A daughter of the Vor is good enough for
me, thanks. I've no need or taste for off-world exotica."
While
Miles was still trying to work out if this was an intended slur on his
Betan mother—with By, he would have been sure, but Vormoncrief had
never struck him as over-supplied with subtlety—Ekaterin said brightly,
"I'll just step up to my room and get those data disks, shall I?"
"If
you please, Madame." Miles trusted By had not made her the object of
any of his guerrilla conversational techniques. If so, Miles might have
a little private word with his ersatz cousin. Or maybe even send his
Armsmen to do so, just like the good old days. . . .
She
rose, and made her way to the hall and up the stairs. She did not
return. Vormoncrief and Zamori eventually exchanged disappointed looks,
and noises about time to be going , and made to rise. The
military raincoat Vormoncrief shrugged on had had time to dry since his
arrival, Miles noted with disapproval. The gentlemen courteously took
their leave of their putative hostess, the Professora.
"Tell
Madame Vorsoisson I'll bring that disk of jumpship designs around for
Nikki as soon as I may," Major Zamori assured the Professora, glancing
up the stairway.
Zamori's been here often enough to know Nikki already?
Miles regarded his regular profile uneasily. He seemed tall, too,
though not as tall as Vormoncrief; it was his bulk that helped make his
presence loom like that. Byerly was slim enough that his height was not
so apparent.
They lingered a moment in an awkward
crowded gaggle in the tiled hall, but Ekaterin did not descend again,
and at last they gave up and let themselves be shepherded out the front
door. It was raining harder now, Miles saw with some satisfaction.
Zamori plunged off into the shower, head-down. The Professora closed
the door on them with a grimace of relief.
"You
and Ekaterin can use the comconsole in my study," she directed Miles,
and turned to start collecting the plates and cups left derelict in her
parlor.
Miles trod across the hall into her
office-cum-library, and looked around. Yes, this would be a fine and
cozy spot for his conference. The front window was propped open to
catch a fresh draft. Voices from the porch carried through the damp air
with unfortunate clarity.
"By, you don't think Vorkosigan is dangling after Madame Vorsoisson, is he?" That was Vormoncrief.
Byerly Vorrutyer replied indifferently, "Why not?"
"You'd think she'd be revolted. No, it must be just some leftover business from his case."
"I
wouldn't wager on that. I know women enough who would hold their noses
and take the plunge for a Count's heir even if he came covered in green
fur."
Miles's fist clenched, then carefully unclenched. Oh, yeah? So why didn't you ever supply me with that list, By? Not that Miles cared now . . .
"I
don't claim to understand women, but Ivan's the catch I could see them
going for," Vormoncrief said. "If the assassins had been a little more
competent, way back when, he might have inherited the
Vorkosigans' Countship. Too bad. My uncle says he'd be an ornament to
our party, if he didn't have that family alliance with Aral
Vorkosigan's damned Progressives."
"Ivan
Vorpatril?" Byerly snorted. "Wrong type of party for him, Alexi. He
only goes to the kind where the wine flows freely."
Ekaterin
appeared in the archway and smiled crookedly at Miles. He considered
slamming the window shut, hard. There were technical difficulties with
that idea; it had a crank-latch. Ekaterin too had caught the voices—how
soon? She drifted in, and cocked her head, and lifted an inquiring and
unrepentant brow at him, as if to say, At it again, are you? Miles managed a brief embarrassed smile.
"Ah,
here's your driver at last," Byerly added. "Lend me your coat, Alexi; I
don't wish to damp my lovely new suit. What do you think of it? The
color flatters my skin tone, no?"
"Hang your skin tone, By."
"Oh,
but my tailor assured me it does. Thank you. Good, he's opening the
canopy. Now for the dash through the wet; well, you can dash. I shall
saunter with dignity, in this ugly but inarguably waterproof Imperial
garment. Off we go now . . ." Two sets of footsteps faded into the
drizzle.
"He is a character, isn't he?" said Ekaterin, half-laughing.
"Who? Byerly?"
"Yes. He's very snarky. I could scarcely believe the things he dared to say. Or keep my face straight."
"I
scarcely believe the things By says either," said Miles shortly. He
pulled a second chair around in front of the comconsole as close to the
first as he dared, and settled her. "Where did they all come from?"
Besides the Ops department of Imperial Headquarters, apparently. Ivan, you rat, you and I are going to have a talk about what sort of gossip you sprinkle around at work. . . .
"Major
Zamori called on the Professora last week," said Ekaterin. "He seems a
pleasant enough fellow. He had a long chat with Nikki—I was impressed
with his patience."
Miles was impressed with his brains . Damn the man, for spotting Nikki as one of the few chinks in Ekaterin's armor.
"Vormoncrief
first turned up a few days ago. I'm afraid he's a bit of a bore, poor
man. Vorrutyer just came in with him this morning; I'm not sure he was
exactly invited."
"He's found a new victim to
sponge off, I suppose," said Miles. Vorrutyers seemed to come in two
flavors, flamboyant and reclusive; By's father, the youngest son of his
generation, was a misanthropic pinchmark of the second category, and
never came near the capital if he could help it. "By's notoriously
without visible means of support."
"He puts up a good front, if so," said Ekaterin judiciously.
Upper-class
poverty was a dilemma with which Ekaterin could identify, Miles
realized. He hadn't intended his remark as a ploy to gain sympathy for
Byerly Vorrutyer. Blast.
"I think Major Zamori was
a bit put out when they arrived on top of his visit," Ekaterin went on.
She added fretfully, "I don't know why they're here ."
Check your mirror , Miles refrained from advising her. He let his brows rise. "Truly?"
She
shrugged, and smiled a little bitterly. "They mean well, I guess. Maybe
I was naпve to think this," she gestured down her black dress, "would
be enough to relieve me of having to deal with the nonsense. Thanks for
trying to ship them to Komarr for me, though I'm not sure it took. My
hints don't seem to be working. I don't wish to be rude."
"Why
not?" said Miles, hoping to encourage this trend of thought. Though
rudeness might not work on By; it would be just as likely to excite him
into making it a contest. Miles suppressed a morbid urge to inquire if
there'd been any more unattached gentlemen turn up on her front
step this week, or if he'd just viewed the whole inventory. He really
didn't want to hear the answer. "But enough of this, as you say,
nonsense. Let's talk about my garden."
"Yes, let's," she said gratefully, and set up the two vid models, which they'd dubbed the backcountry garden and the urban garden
respectively, on her aunt's comconsole. Their heads bent together side
by side, just as Miles had pictured. He could smell the dusky perfume
of her hair.
The backcountry garden was a
naturalistic display, with bark pathways curling through thickly
planted native species on contoured banks, a winding stream, and
scattered wooden benches. The urban garden had strong rectangular
terraces of poured plascrete, which were walks and benches and channels
for the water all together. In a series of skillful, penetrating
questions, Ekaterin managed to elicit from him that his heart really
favored the backcountry garden, however much his eye was seduced by the
plascrete fountains. As he watched in fascination, she modified the
backcountry design to give the ground more slope and the stream more
prominence, winding in an S-curve that originated in a rock fall and
ended in a small grotto. The central circle where the paths intersected
was transformed to traditional patterned brick, with the Vorkosigan
crest, the stylized maple leaf backed by the three overlapping
triangles representing the mountains, picked out in contrasting paler
brick. The whole was dropped further below street level, to give the
banks more room to climb, and to muffle the city noise.
"Yes,"
he said at last, in considerable satisfaction. "That's the plan. Go
with it. You can start lining up your contractors and bids."
"Are
you sure you really want to go on?" said Ekaterin. "I'm now out of my
experience, I'm afraid. All my designs have been virtual ones, till
this."
"Ah," said Miles smugly, having anticipated
this last-minute waffle. "Now is the moment to put you in direct touch
with my man of business, Tsipis. He's had to arrange every sort of
maintenance and building work on the Vorkosigan properties in the last
thirty years. He knows who all the reputable and reliable people are,
and where we can draw labor or materials from the Vorkosigan estates.
He'll be delighted to walk you through the whole thing." In fact, I've let him know I'll have his head if he's not delighted every minute.
Not that Miles had had to lean very hard; Tsipis found all aspects of
business management utterly fascinating, and would drone on for hours
about them. It made Miles laugh, if painfully, to realize how often in
his space mercenary command he'd saved a day by drawing not on his
ImpSec training, but on one of old Tsipis's scorned lessons. "If you're
willing to be his pupil, he'll be your slave."
Tsipis,
carefully primed, answered the comconsole in his office in Hassadar
himself, and Miles made the necessary introductions. The new
acquaintance went well; Tsipis was elderly, long married, and genuinely
interested in the project at hand. He drew Ekaterin almost instantly
out of her wary shyness. By the time he'd finished his first lengthy
conversation with her, she'd shifted from I can't possibly mode
to possession of a flow-chart checklist and a coherent plan which
would, with luck, result in groundbreaking as early as the following
week. Oh yes. This was going to do well. If there was one thing Tsipis
appreciated, it was a quick study. Ekaterin was one of those show once
people whom Miles, in his mercenary days, had found more precious than
unexpected oxygen in the emergency reserve. And she didn't even know
she was unusual.
"Good heavens," she remarked,
organizing her notes after Tsipis had cut the com. "What an education
that man is. I think I should be paying you."
"Payment,"
said Miles, reminded. "Yes." He drew a credit chit from his pocket.
"Tsipis has set up the account for you to pay all expenses incurred.
This is your own fee for the accepted design."
She checked it in the comconsole. "Lord Vorkosigan, this is too much!"
"No,
it's not. I had Tsipis scout the prices for similar design work from
three different professional companies." They happened to be the top
three in the business, but would he have hired anything less for
Vorkosigan House? "This is an average of their bids. He can show them
to you."
"But I'm an amateur."
"Not for damn long."
Wonder
of wonders, this actually won a smile of increasing self-confidence.
"All I did was assemble some pretty standard design elements."
"So,
ten percent of that is for the design elements. The other ninety
percent is for knowing how to arrange them."
Hah, she didn't argue with that
. You couldn't be that good and not know it, somewhere in your secret
heart, however much you'd been abused into affecting public humility.
This
was, he recognized, a good bright note on which to end. He didn't want
to linger to the point of boring her, as Vormoncrief had evidently
done. Was it too early to . . . no, he'd try. "By the way, I'm putting
together a dinner party for some old friends of mine—the Koudelka
family. Kareen Koudelka, who is a sort of protйgй of my mother's, is
just back from a school year on Beta Colony. She's hit the ground
running, but as soon as I can determine a date when everyone's free,
I'd like to have you come too, and meet them."
"I wouldn't want to intrude—"
"Four
daughters," he overrode this smoothly, "Kareen's the youngest. And
their mother, Drou. And Commodore Koudelka, of course. I've known them
all my life. And Delia's fiancй, Duv Galeni."
"A family with five women in it? All at once?" An envious note sounded plainly in her voice.
"I'd think you'd enjoy them a lot. And vice versa."
"I
haven't met many women in Vorbarr Sultana . . . they're all so busy . .
." She glanced down at her black skirt. "I really ought not to go to
parties just yet."
"A family party," he
emphasized, tacking handily into this wind. "Of course I mean to invite
the Professor and the Professora." Why not? He had, after all,
ninety-six chairs.
"Perhaps . . . that would be unexceptionable."
"Excellent!
I'll get back to you on the dates. Oh, and be sure to call Pym to
notify the House guards when your workmen are due, so he can add them
to his security schedule."
"Certainly."
And on that carefully-balanced note, warm yet not too personal, he made his excuses and decamped.
So, the enemy was now thronging her gates. Don't panic, boy.
By the time of the dinner party, he might have her up to the pitch of
accepting some of his wedding-week engagements. And by the time they'd
been seen publicly paired at half a dozen of those, well, who knew.
Not me, unfortunately.
He sighed, and sprinted off through the rain to his waiting car.
* * *
Ekaterin
wandered back to the kitchen, to see if her aunt needed any more help
with the clean up. She was guiltily afraid she was too late, and indeed
she found the Professora sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of tea
and stack of, judging by the bemused look on her face, undergraduate
essays.
Her aunt frowned fiercely, and scribbled with her stylus, then looked up and smiled. "All done, dear?"
"More like, just started. Lord Vorkosigan chose the backcountry garden. He really wants me to go ahead."
"I never doubted it. He's a decisive man."
"I'm sorry for all the interruptions this morning." Ekaterin made a gesture in the direction of the parlor.
"I don't see why you're apologizing. You didn't invite them."
"Indeed,
I didn't." Ekaterin held up her new credit chit, and smiled. "But Lord
Vorkosigan has already paid me for the design! I can give you rent for
Nikki and me now."
"Good heavens, you don't owe us
rent. It doesn't cost us anything to let you have the use of those
empty rooms."
Ekaterin hesitated. "You can't say the food we eat comes free."
"If
you wish to buy some groceries, go ahead. But I'd much prefer you saved
it toward your schooling in the fall."
"I'll do
both." Ekaterin nodded firmly. Carefully managed, the credit chit would
spare her having to beg her father for spending money for the next
several months. Da was not ungenerous, but she didn't want to hand him
the right to give her reams of unwanted advice and suggestions as to
how to run her life. He'd made it plain at Tien's funeral that he was
unhappy she hadn't chosen to come home, as befit a Vor widow, or gone
to live with her late husband's mother, though the senior Madame
Vorsoisson hadn't invited them.
And how had he
imagined Ekaterin and Nikki could fit in his modest flat, or find any
educational opportunities in the small South Continent town to which
he'd retired? Sasha Vorvayne seemed a man oddly defeated by his life,
at times. He'd always made the conservative choices. Mama had been the
daring one, but only in the little ways she could fit into the
interstices of her role as a bureaucrat's wife. Had the defeat become
contagious, toward the end? Ekaterin sometimes wondered if her parents'
marriage had been, in some subtler way, almost as much of a secret
mismatch as her own.
A white-haired head passed
the window; a rattle, and the back door opened to reveal her Uncle
Vorthys, Nikki in tow. The Professor stuck his head inside, and
whispered dramatically, "Are they gone? Is it safe to come back?"
"All clear," reported his wife, and he lumbered into the kitchen.
He
was burdened with a large bag, which he dumped on the table. It proved
to contain replacements, several times over, for the pastries that had
been consumed earlier.
"Do you think we have enough now?" the Professora inquired dryly.
"No
artificial shortages," declaimed her husband. "I remember when the
girls were going through that phase. Up to our elbows in young men at
all hours, and not a crumb left in the house at the end of the day. I
never understood your generous strategy." He explained aside to
Ekaterin, "I wanted to cut their numbers by offering them spotty
vegetables, and chores. The ones who came back after that , we would know were serious. Eh, Nikki? But for some reason, the women wouldn't let me."
"Feel free to offer them all the rotten vegetables and chores you can think of," Ekaterin told him. Alternately, we could lock the doors and pretend no one is home. . . . She sat down glumly beside her aunt, and helped herself to a pastry. "Did you and Nikki get your share, finally?"
"We had coffee and cookies and milk at the bakery," her uncle assured her.
Nikki
licked his lips happily, and nodded confirmation. "Uncle Vorthys says
all those fellows want to marry you," he added in apparent disbelief.
"Is that really true?"
Thank you, dear Uncle
, Ekaterin thought wryly. She'd been wondering how to explain it all to
a nine-year-old boy. Though Nikki didn't seem to find the idea nearly
as horrifying as she did. "That would be illegal," she murmured.
"Outrй, even." She smiled faintly at By Vorrutyer's jibe.
Nikki scorned the joke. "You know what I mean! Are you going to pick one of 'em?"
"No, dear," she assured him.
"Good." He added after a moment of silence, "Though if you did , a major would be better than a lieutenant."
"Ah . . . why?"
Ekaterin watched with interest as Nikki struggled to evolve Vormoncrief is a patronizing Vor bore , but to her relief, the vocabulary escaped him. He finally fell back on, "Majors make more money."
"A
very practical point," Uncle Vorthys observed, and, perhaps still
mistrusting his wife's generosity, packed up about half of his new
stock of pastries to carry off and hide in his basement laboratory.
Nikki tagged along.
Ekaterin leaned her elbows on
the kitchen table, rested her chin on her hands, and sighed. "Uncle
Vorthys's strategy might not be such a bad idea, at that. The threat of
chores might get rid of Vormoncrief, and would certainly repel
Vorrutyer. I'm not so sure it would work on Major Zamori, though. The
spotty vegetables might be good all round."
Aunt
Vorthys sat back, and regarded her with a quizzical smile. "So what do
you want me to do, Ekaterin? Start telling your potential suitors
you're not at home to visitors?"
"Could you? With my work on the garden starting, it would be the truth," said Ekaterin, considering this.
"Poor boys. I almost feel sorry for them."
Ekaterin
smiled briefly. She could feel the pull of that sympathy, like a
clutching hand, drawing her back into the dark. It made her skin crawl.
Every
night now, lying down alone without Tien, was like a taste of some
solitary heaven. She could stretch her arms and legs out all the way to
the sides of the bed, reveling in the smooth space, free of compromise,
confusion, oppression, negotiation, deference, placation. Free of Tien.
Through the long years of their marriage she had become almost numb to
the ties that had bound her to him, the promises and the fear, his
desperate needs, his secrets and lies. When the straps of her vows had
been released at last by his death, it was as if her whole soul had
come awake, tingling painfully, like a limb when circulation was
restored. I did not know what a prison I was in, till I was freed.
The thought of voluntarily walking back into such a marital cell again,
and locking the door with another oath, made her want to run screaming.
She shook her head. "I don't need another dependent."
Her aunt's brows quirked. "You don't need another Tien, that's certain. But not all men are like Tien."
Ekaterin's fist tightened, thoughtfully. "But I'm still like me. I don't know if I can be
intimate, and not fall back into the bad old ways. Not give myself away
down to the very bottom, and then complain I'm empty. The most horrible
thought I have, looking back on it all, is that it wasn't all Tien's
fault. I let him get worse and worse. If he'd chanced to marry a woman who would have stood up to him, who would have insisted . . ."
"Your line of logic makes my head ache," her aunt observed mildly.
Ekaterin shrugged. "It's all moot now."
After a long moment of silence, the Professora asked curiously, "So what do you think of Miles Vorkosigan?"
"He's all right. He doesn't make me cringe."
"I thought—back on Komarr—he seemed a bit interested in you himself."
"Oh,
that was just a joke," Ekaterin said sturdily. Their joke had gone a
little beyond the line, perhaps, but they had both been tired, and
punchy at their release from those days and hours of fearsome strain .
. . his flashing smile, and the brilliant eyes in his weary face,
blazed in her memory. It had to have been a joke. Because if it weren't
a joke . . . she would have to run screaming. And she was much too
tired to get up. "But it's been nice to find someone genuinely
interested in gardens."
"Mmm," said her aunt, and turned over another essay.
* * *
The
afternoon sun of the Vorbarr Sultana spring warmed the gray stone of
Vorkosigan House into something almost mellow, as Mark's hired
groundcar turned in to the drive. The ImpSec gate guard at the kiosk
was not one of the men Mark had met last year. The guard was respectful
but meticulous, going as far as checking Mark's palm print and retina
scan before waving them through with a mumbled grunt that might have
been an apologetic "M'lord." Mark stared up through the car's canopy as
they wound up the drive to the front portico.
Vorkosigan
House again. Home? His cozy student apartment back on Beta Colony
seemed more like home now than did this vast stone pile. But although
he was hungry, horny, tired, tense, and jump-lagged, at least he wasn't
throwing up in a paroxysm of anticipated terror this time. It was just
Vorkosigan House. He could handle it. And as soon as he got inside, he
could call Kareen, yes! He released the canopy the instant the car
sighed to the pavement, and turned to help Enrique unload.
Mark's
feet had barely hit the concrete when Armsman Pym popped out of the
front doors, and gave him a snappy, yet somehow reproachful, salute.
"My Lord Mark! You should have called us from the shuttleport, m'lord.
We'd have picked you up properly."
"That's all
right, Pym. I don't think all our gear would have fit in the armored
car anyway. Don't worry, there's still plenty for you to do." The hired
freight van which had followed them from the shuttleport cleared the
gate guard and chuffed up the drive to wheeze to a halt behind them.
"Holy
saints," murmured Enrique out of the corner of his mouth, as Mark
hurried to help him hoist the DELICATE crate, which had ridden between
them in the ground car, out to the pavement. "You really are Lord Vorkosigan. I'm not sure I totally believed you, till now."
"I really am Lord Mark
," Mark corrected this. "Get it straight. It matters, here. I am not
now, nor do I ever aspire to be, the heir to the Countship." Mark
nodded toward the new short figure exiting the mansion through the
carved double doors, now swung welcoming-wide. "He's Lord Vorkosigan."
Miles
didn't look half-bad, despite the peculiar rumors about his health
which had leaked back to Beta Colony. Someone had taken a hand in
improving his civilian wardrobe, judging by the sharp gray suit he
wore, and he filled it properly, not so sickly-thin as he'd still been
when Mark had last seen him here almost a year ago. He advanced on Mark
with a grin, his hand held out. They managed to exchange a firm,
brotherly handshake. Mark was desperate for a hug, but not from Miles.
"Mark,
dammit, you took us by surprise. You're supposed to call from orbit
when you get in. Pym would have been there to pick you up."
"So I've been advised."
Miles
stood back and looked him over, and Mark flushed in self-consciousness.
The meds Lilly Durona had given him had permitted him to piss away more
fat in less time than was humanly natural, and he'd stuck religiously
to the strict regimen of diet and liquids to combat the corrosive side
effects. She'd said the drug-complex wasn't addictive, and Mark
believed her; he couldn't wait to get off the loathsome stuff. He now
weighed very little more than when he'd last set foot on Barrayar, just
as planned. Killer was released from his fleshly cage, able to defend
them again if he absolutely had to. . . . But Mark hadn't anticipated
how flabby and gray he was going to look, as though he were melting and
slumping like a candle in the sun.
And indeed, the
next words out of his brother's mouth were, "Are you feeling all right?
You don't look so good."
"Jump lag. It will pass."
He grinned tightly. He wasn't sure if it was the drugs, Barrayar, or
missing Kareen that put him more on edge, but he was sure of the cure.
"Have you heard from Kareen? Did she get in all right?"
"Yes, she got here fine, last week. What's that peculiar crate with all the layers?"
Mark
wanted to see Kareen more than anything in the universe, but first
things first. He turned to Enrique, who was goggling in open
fascination at him and his progenitor-twin.
"I
brought a guest. Miles, I'd like you to meet Dr. Enrique Borgos.
Enrique, my brother Miles, Lord Vorkosigan."
"Welcome
to Vorkosigan House, Dr. Borgos," Miles said, and shook hands in
automatic politeness. "Your name sounds Escobaran, yes?"
"Er, yes, er, Lord Vorkosigan."
Wonders,
Enrique managed to get it right this time. Mark had only been coaching
him on Barrayaran etiquette for ten straight days. . . .
"And
what are you a doctor of?" Miles glanced again, worriedly, at Mark;
Mark guessed he was evolving alarmed theories about his clone-brother's
health.
"Not medicine," Mark assured Miles. "Dr. Borgos is a biochemist and genetic entomologist."
"Words
. . . ? No, that's etymologist. Bugs, that's right." Miles's eye was
drawn again to the big steel-wound shock-cushioned crate at their feet.
"Mark, why does that crate have air holes?"
"Lord Mark and I are going to be working together," the gangling scientist told Miles earnestly.
"I assume we have some room to spare for him," Mark added.
"God,
yes, help yourselves. The House is yours. I moved last winter to the
big suite on the second floor of the east wing, so the whole of the
north wing is unoccupied now above the ground floor. Except for the
room on the fourth floor that Armsman Roic has. He sleeps days, so you
might want to give him some margin. Father and Mother will bring their
usual army with them when they get here towards Midsummer, but we can
rearrange things then if necessary."
"Enrique hopes to set up a little temporary laboratory, if you don't mind," Mark said.
"Nothing explosive, I trust? Or toxic?"
"Oh, no, no, Lord Vorkosigan," Enrique assured him. "It's not like that at all."
"Then
I don't see why not." He glanced down, and added in a fainter tone,
"Mark . . . why do the air holes have screens in them?"
"I'll
explain everything," Mark assured him airily, "as soon as we get
unloaded and I pay off these hired drivers." Armsman Jankowski had
appeared at Pym's elbow while the introductions had been going forth.
"The big blue valise is mine, Pym. Everything else goes with Dr.
Borgos."
By press-ganging the drivers, the van was
unloaded quickly to the staging area of the black-and-white tiled entry
hall. A moment of alarm occurred when Armsman Jankowski, tottering
along under a load of what Mark knew to be hastily-packed laboratory
glassware, stepped on a black-and-white kitten, well-camouflaged by the
tiles. The outraged creature emitted an ear-splitting yowl, spat, and
shot off between Enrique's feet, nearly tripping the Escobaran, who was
just then balancing the very expensive molecular analyzer. It was saved
by a grab from Pym.
They'd almost been caught,
during their midnight raid on the padlocked lab that had liberated the
all-important notes and irreplaceable specimens, when Enrique had
insisted on going back for the damned analyzer. Mark would have taken
it as some sort of cosmic I-told-you-so if Enrique had dropped it now. I'll buy you a whole new lab when we get to Barrayar
, he'd kept trying to convince the Escobaran. Enrique had seemed to
think Barrayar was still stuck in the Time of Isolation, and he wasn't
going to be able to obtain anything here more scientifically complex
than an alembic, a still, and maybe a trepanning chisel.
Settling
in their digs took still more time, as the ideal spot Enrique
immediately tried to select for his new lab was the mammoth,
modernized, brilliantly-lit, and abundantly-powered kitchen. Upon Pym's
inquiry, Miles hastily arrived to defend this turf for his cook, a
formidable woman whom he seemed to regard as essential to the smooth
running not only of his household but also of his new political career.
After a low-voiced explanation from Mark that the phrase The House is yours
was a mere polite locution, and not meant to be taken literally,
Enrique was persuaded to settle for a secondary laundry room in the
half-basement of the north wing, not nearly so spacious, but with
running water and waste disposal facilities. Mark promised a shopping
trip for whatever toys and tools and benches and hoods and lighting
Enrique's heart desired just as soon as possible, and left him to start
arranging his treasures. The scientist showed no interest whatsoever in
the selection of a bedroom. Mark figured he'd probably end up dragging
a cot into his new lab, and settling there like a brooding hen
defending her nest.
Mark threw his valise into the
same room he'd occupied last year, and returned to the laundry to make
ready to pitch his proposal to his big brother. It had all seemed to
make such splendid sense, back on Escobar, but Mark hadn't known
Enrique so well then. The man was a genius, but God Almighty he needed
a keeper. Mark thought he understood the whole mess with the bankruptcy
proceedings and the fraud suits perfectly, now. "Let me do the talking,
understand?" Mark told Enrique firmly. "Miles is an important man here,
an Imperial Auditor, and he has the ear of the Emperor himself.
His support could give us a big boost." More importantly, his active
opposition could be fatal to the scheme; he could kill it with a word.
"I know how to work him. Just agree with everything I say, and don't
try to add any embellishments of your own."
Enrique
nodded eagerly, and followed him like an over-sized puppy through the
maze of the house till they tracked Miles down in the great library.
Pym was just setting out a spread of tea, coffee, Vorkosigan wines, two
varieties of District-brewed beer, and a tray of assorted hors
d'oeuvres that looked like a stained-glass window done in food. The
Armsman gave Mark a cordial welcome-home nod, and withdrew to leave the
two brothers to their reunion.
"How handy," Mark
said, pulling up a chair next to the low table. "Snacks. It just so
happens I have a new product for you to taste-test, Miles. I think it
could prove very profitable."
Miles flicked up an
interested eyebrow, and leaned forward as Mark unwrapped a square of
attractive red foil to reveal a soft white cube. "Some sort of cheese,
is it?"
"Not exactly, though it is an animal
product, in a sense. This is the unflavored base version. Flavors and
colors can be added as desired, and I'll show you some of those later
when we've had time to mix them up. It's nutritious as hell, though—a
perfectly balanced blend of carbohydrates, proteins, and fats, with all
the essential vitamins in their proper proportions. You could live on a
diet of this stuff alone, and water, if you had to."
"I
lived on it for three months straight!" Enrique put in proudly. Mark
shot him a slight frown, and he subsided.
Mark
seized one of the silver knives on the tray, cut the cube into four
parts, and popped a portion into his mouth. "Try it!" he said around
his chewing. He stopped short of a dramatic mumble of yum, yum!
or other convincing sound effects. Enrique too reached for a piece.
More cautiously, so did Miles. He hesitated, with the fragment at his
lips, to find both his watchers hanging on his gesture. His brows
twitched up; he chewed. A breathless silence fell. He swallowed.
Enrique, scarcely able to contain himself, said, "How d'you like it?"
Miles
shrugged. "It's . . . all right. Bland, but you said it was unflavored.
Tastes better than a lot of military rations I've eaten."
"Oh, military rations," said Enrique. "Now, there's an application I hadn't thought of—"
"We'll get to that phase later," said Mark.
"So what makes it so potentially profitable?" asked Miles curiously.
"Because,
through the miracle of modern bioengineering, it can be made
practically for free. Once the customer has purchased, or perhaps
licensed, his initial supply of butter bugs, that is."
A slight but noticeable silence. "His what?"
Mark
pulled out the little box from his jacket pocket, and carefully lifted
the lid. Enrique sat up expectantly. "This," said Mark, and held the
box out toward his brother, "is a butter bug."
Miles glanced down into the box, and recoiled. "Yuk! That is the most disgusting thing I've seen in my life!"
Inside
the box, the thumb-sized worker butter bug scrabbled about on its six
stubby legs, waved its antennae frantically, and tried to escape. Mark
gently pushed its tiny claws back from the edges. It chittered its dull
brown vestigial wing carapaces, and crouched to drag its white, soft,
squishy-looking abdomen to the safety of one corner.
Miles
leaned forward again, to peer in revolted fascination. "It looks like a
cross between a cockroach, a termite, and a . . . and a . . . and a
pustule."
"We have to admit, its physical appearance is not its main selling point."
Enrique looked indignant, but refrained from denying this last statement out loud.
"Its
great value lies in its efficiency," Mark went on. It was a good thing
they hadn't started out by showing Miles a whole colony of butter bugs.
Or worse, a queen butter bug. They could work up to the queen butter
bugs much later, once they'd dragged their prospective patron over the
first few psychological humps. "These things eat almost any kind of
low-grade organic feedstocks. Corn stalks, grass clippings, seaweed,
you name it. Then, inside their gut, the organic matter is processed by
a carefully-orchestrated array of symbiotic bacteria into . . . bug
butter curds. Which the butter bugs regur—return through their mouths
and pack into special cells, in their hive, all ready for humans to
harvest. The raw butter curds—"
Enrique, unnecessarily, pointed to the last fragment still sitting on the foil.
"Are
perfectly edible at this point," Mark went on more loudly, "though they
can be flavored or processed further. We're considering more
sophisticated product development by adding bacteria to provide
desirable flavors to the curds right in the bug's guts, so even that
processing step won't be necessary."
"Bug vomit,"
said Miles, working through the implications. "You fed me bug vomit."
He touched his hand to his lips, and hastily poured himself some wine.
He looked at the butter bug, looked at the remaining fragment of curd,
and drank deeply. "You're insane," he said with conviction. He drank
once more, carefully swishing the wine around in his mouth for a long
time before swallowing.
"It's just like honey," Mark said valiantly, "only different."
Miles's
brow wrinkled, as he considered this argument. "Very different. Wait.
Is that what was in that crate you brought in, these vomit bugs?"
"Butter bugs," Enrique corrected frostily. "They pack most efficiently—"
"How many . . . butter bugs?"
"We
rescued twenty queen-lines in various stages of development before we
left Escobar, each supported by about two hundred worker bugs," Enrique
explained. "They did very well on the trip—I was so proud of the
girls—they more than doubled their numbers en route. Busy, busy! Ha,
ha!"
Miles's lips moved in calculation. "You've carted upwards of eight thousand of those revolting things into my house ?"
"I can see what you're worried about," Mark cut in quickly, "and I assure you, it won't be a problem."
"I don't think you can, but what won't be a problem?"
"Butter
bugs are highly controllable, ecologically speaking. The worker bugs
are sterile; only the queens can reproduce, and they're
parthenogenetic—they don't become fertile till treated with special
hormones. Mature queens can't even move, unless their human keeper
moves them. Any worker bug that might chance to get out would just
wander about till it died, end of story."
Enrique made a face of distress at this sad vision. "Poor thing," he muttered.
"The sooner, the better," said Miles coldly. "Yuk!"
Enrique
looked reproachfully at Mark, and began in a low voice, "You promised
he'd help us. But he's just like all the others. Short-sighted,
emotional, unreasoning—"
Mark held up a
restraining hand. "Calm down. We haven't even gotten to the main part
yet." He turned to Miles. "Here's the real pitch. We think Enrique can
develop a strain of butter bugs to eat native Barrayaran vegetation, and convert it into humanly-digestible food."
Miles's mouth opened, then shut again. His gaze sharpened. "Go on . . ."
"Picture
it. Every farmer or settler out in the backcountry could keep a hive of
these butter bugs, which would crawl around eating all that free alien
food that you folks go to so much trouble to eradicate with all the
burning and terraforming treatments. And not only would the farmers get
free food, they would get free fertilizer as well. Butter bug guano is
terrific for plants—they just sop it up, and grow like crazy."
"Oh."
Miles sat back, an arrested look in his eyes. "I know someone who is
very interested in fertilizers . . ."
Mark went
on, "I want to put together a development company, here on Barrayar, to
both market the existing butter bugs, and create the new strains. I
figure with a science genius like Enrique and a business genius like
me," and let us not get the two mixed up , "well, there's no limit to what we can get."
Miles
frowned thoughtfully. "And what did you get on Escobar, if I may ask?
Why bring this genius and his product all the way here?"
Enrique would have got about ten years in jail, if I hadn't come along, but let's not go into that
. "He didn't have me to handle the business, then. And the Barrayaran
application is just absolutely compelling, don't you think?"
"If it can be made to work."
"The
bugs can work to process Earth-descended organic matter right now.
We'll market that as soon as we can, and use the proceeds to finance
the basic research on the other. I can't set a timetable for that till
Enrique has had more time to study Barrayaran biochemistry. Maybe a
year or two, to, ah, get all the bugs out." Mark grinned briefly.
"Mark
. . ." Miles frowned at the butter bug box, now sitting closed on the
table. Tiny scratching noises arose from it. "It sounds logical, but I
don't know if logic is going to sell to the proles. Nobody will want to
eat food that comes out of something that looks like that . Hell, they won't want to eat anything it touches ."
"People eat honey," argued Mark. "And that comes out of bugs."
"Honeybees
are . . . sort of cute. They're furry, and they have those classy
striped uniforms. And they're armed with their stings, just like little
swords, which makes people respect them."
"Ah, I see—the insect version of the Vor class," Mark murmured sweetly. He and Miles exchanged edged smiles.
Enrique
said, in a bewildered tone, "So do you think if I put stings on my
butter bugs, Barrayarans would like them better?"
"No!" said Miles and Mark together.
Enrique sat back, looking rather hurt.
"So."
Mark cleared his throat. "That's the plan. I'll be setting up Enrique
in a proper facility as soon as I have time to find something suitable.
I'm not sure whether here in Vorbarr Sultana or out in Hassadar would
be better—if this takes off, it could bring in a lot of business, which
you might like for the District."
"True . . ." allowed Miles. "Talk to Tsipis."
"I
plan to. Do you begin to see why I think of them as money bugs? And do
you think you might want to invest? Nothing like getting in on the
ground floor, and all that."
"Not . . . at this time. Thanks all the same," said Miles neutrally.
"We, ah, do appreciate the temporary space, you know."
"No problem. Or at least . . ." his eye chilled, "it had better not be."
In
the conversational lull that followed, Miles was apparently recalled to
his place as a host, and he offered up the food and drinks. Enrique
chose beer, and treated them to a dissertation on the history of yeast
in human food production, going back to Louis Pasteur, with side
comments on parallels between yeast organisms and the butter bugs'
symbiotes. Miles drank more wine and didn't say much. Mark nibbled from
the grand platter of delectable hors d'oeuvres and calculated the day
when he would come to the end of his weight-loss drugs. Or maybe he
would just flush the rest tonight.
Eventually Pym,
who was apparently playing butler in Miles's reduced bachelor
household, came in to collect the plates and glasses. Enrique eyed his
brown uniform with interest, and asked about the meaning and history of
the silver decorations on the collar and cuffs. This actually drew
Miles out briefly, as he supplied Enrique with a few highlights of
family history (politely omitting their prominent place in the aborted
Barrayaran invasion of Escobar a generation ago), the past of
Vorkosigan House, and the story of the Vorkosigan crest. The Escobaran
seemed fascinated by the fact that the mountains-and-leaf design had
originated as a Count's mark to seal the bags of District tax revenues.
Mark was encouraged to believe Enrique was developing a social grace
after all. Perhaps he would develop another one soon. One could hope.
When
enough time had passed that, Mark calculated, he and Miles could feel
they'd accomplished their unaccustomed and still awkward fraternal
bonding ritual, he made noises about finishing unpacking , and the welcome-home party broke up. Mark guided Enrique back to his new lab, just to be sure he got there all right.
"Well," he said heartily to the scientist. "That went better than I expected."
"Oh,
yes," said Enrique vaguely. He had that foggy look in his eyes that
betokened visions of long-chain molecules dancing in his head: a good
sign. The Escobaran was apparently going to survive his traumatic
transplant. "And I've had this wonderful idea how to get your brother
to like my butter bugs."
"Great," said Mark,
somewhat at random, and left him to it. He headed up the back stairs
two at a time to his bedroom and its waiting comconsole, to call
Kareen, Kareen, Kareen .
CHAPTER FOUR
Ivan had finished his mission of delivering one
hundred hand– calligraphed Imperial wedding invitations to Ops HQ for
subsequent off-world distribution to select serving officers, when he
encountered Alexi Vormoncrief, also passing out through the security
scanners in the building's lobby.
"Ivan!" Alexi hailed him. "Just the man! Wait up."
Ivan
paused by the automated doors, mentally composing a likely mission
order from She Who Must Be Obeyed Till After The Wedding in case he
needed to effect an escape. Alexi was not the most stultifying bore in
Vorbarr Sultana—several gentlemen of the older generation currently
vied for that title—but he certainly qualified as an understudy. On the
other hand, Ivan was extremely curious to know if the seeds he'd
dropped in Alexi's ear a few weeks back had borne any amusing fruit.
Alexi
finished negotiating security and bustled over, a little breathless.
"I'm just off duty, are you? Can I treat you to a round, Ivan? I have a
bit of news, and you deserve to be the first to know." He rocked on his
heels.
If Alexi was buying, why not? "Sure."
Ivan
accompanied Alexi across the street to the convenient tavern that the
Ops officers regarded as their collective property. The place was
something of an institution, having gone into business some ten or
fifteen minutes after Ops had opened its then-new building soon after
the Pretender's War. The decor was calculatedly dingy, tacitly
preserving it as a male bastion.
They slid into a
table toward the back; a man in well-cut civvies lounging at the bar
turned his head as they passed. Ivan recognized By Vorrutyer. Most town
clowns didn't frequent the officers' bars, but By could turn up
anywhere. He had the damnedest connections. By raised a hand in
mock-salute to Vormoncrief, who, expansively, beckoned him over to join
them. Ivan raised a brow. Byerly was on record as despising the company
of his fellows who, as he put it, came unarmed to the battle of wits.
Ivan couldn't imagine why he was cultivating Vormoncrief. Opposites
attracting?
"Sit, sit," Vormoncrief told By. "I'm buying."
"In
that case, certainly," said By, and settled in smoothly. He gave Ivan a
cordial nod; Ivan returned it a trifle warily. He didn't have Miles
present as a verbal shield-wall. By never baited Ivan while Miles was
around. Ivan wasn't quite sure if it was because his cousin ran subtle
interference, or because By preferred the more challenging target.
Maybe Miles ran interference by being the more challenging
target. On the other hand, maybe his cousin regarded Ivan as his own
personal archery butt, and just didn't want to share. Family
solidarity, or mere Milesian possessiveness?
They
punched their orders into the server, and Alexi tapped in his credit
chit. "Oh, my sincere condolences, by the way, on the death of your
cousin Pierre," he said to Byerly. "I kept forgetting to mention that,
because you don't wear your House blacks. You really should, you know.
You have the right, your blood ties are close enough. Did they finally
determine the cause of death?"
"Oh, yes. Heart failure, dropped him like a stone."
"Instant?"
"As
far as anyone could tell. Being a ruling Count, his autopsy was
thorough. Well, if the man hadn't been such an antisocial recluse,
someone might have come across the body before his brain spoiled."
"So young, hardly fifty. It's a shame he died without issue."
"It's
a greater shame that rather more of my Vorrutyer uncles didn't die
without issue." By sighed. "I'd have a new job."
"I
didn't know you hankered after the Vorrutyers' District, By," said
Ivan. "Count Byerly? A political career?"
"God
forfend. I have no desire whatsoever to join that hall full of fossils
arguing in Vorhartung Castle, and the District bores me to tears.
Dreary place. If only my fecund cousin Richars were not such a very
complete son-of-a-bitch—no insult intended to my late aunt—I would wish
him joy of his prospects. If he can obtain them. Unfortunately, he does take joy in them, which quite takes the joy out of it all for me."
"What's
wrong with Richars?" asked Alexi blankly. "Seemed a solid enough fellow
to me, the few times I've met him. Politically sound."
"Never mind, Alexi."
Alexi shook his head in wonderment. "By, don't you have any proper family feeling?"
By
dismissed this with an airy what-would-you? gesture. "I haven't any
proper family. My principal feeling is revulsion. With perhaps one or
two exceptions."
Ivan's brow wrinkled, as he unraveled By's patter. "If
he can obtain them? What impediment would Richars have?" Richars was
eldest son of the eldest uncle, adult, and as far as Ivan knew, in his
right mind. Historically, being a son-of-a-bitch had never been
considered a valid excuse for exclusion from the Council of Counts,
else it would have been a much thinner body. It was only being a
bastard that eliminated one. "No one's discovered he's a secret
Cetagandan, like poor Renй Vorbretten, have they?"
"Unfortunately,
no." By glanced across at Ivan, an oddly calculating look starting in
his eyes. "But Lady Donna—I believe you know her, Ivan—lodged a formal
declaration of impediment with the Council the day after Pierre died,
which has temporarily blocked Richars's confirmation."
"I'd
heard something. Wasn't paying attention." Ivan hadn't seen Pierre's
younger sister Lady Donna in the flesh—and what delicious flesh it had
once been—since she'd divested her third spouse and semiretired to the
Vorrutyer's District to become her brother's official hostess and
unofficial District deputy. It was said she had more clout in the
day-to-day running of the District than Pierre. Ivan could believe it.
She must be almost forty now; he wondered if she'd started to run to
fat yet. On her, it might look good. Ivory skin, wicked black hair to
her hips, and smoldering brown eyes like embers. . . .
"Oh, I'd wondered why Richars's confirmation was taking so long," said Alexi.
By shrugged. "We'll see if Lady Donna can make her case stick when she gets back from Beta Colony."
"My
mother thought it odd she left before the funeral," said Ivan. "She
hadn't heard of any bad blood between Donna and Pierre."
"Actually, they got along rather well, for my family. But the need was urgent."
Ivan's
own fling with Donna had been memorable. He'd been a callow new
officer, she'd been ten years older and temporarily between spouses.
They hadn't talked much about their relatives. He'd never told her, he
realized, how her mind-melting lessons had saved his ass a few years
later, during that near-disastrous diplomatic mission to Cetaganda. He
really ought to call on her, when she got back from Beta Colony. Yes,
she might be depressed about those accumulating birthdays, and need
cheering up . . .
"So what's the substance of her
declaration of impediment?" asked Vormoncrief. "And what's Beta Colony
got to do with it?"
"Ah, we shall have to see how
that plays out when Donna gets back. It will be a surprise. I wish her
every success." A peculiar smile quirked By's lips.
Their
drinks arrived. "Oh, very good." Vormoncrief raised his glass high.
"Gentlemen, to matrimony. I have sent the Baba!"
Ivan paused with his glass halfway to his lips. "Beg pardon?"
"I've met a woman," said Alexi smugly. "In fact, I might say I have met the
woman. For which I thank you, Ivan. I would never have known of her
existence but for your little hint. By's seen her once—she's suitable
in every way to be Madame Vormoncrief, don't you think, By? Great
connections—she's Lord Auditor Vorthys's niece—how did you find out
about her, Ivan?"
"I . . . met her at my cousin Miles's. She's designing a garden for him." How did Alexi get so far, so fast?
"I
didn't know Lord Vorkosigan had any interest in gardens. No accounting
for taste. In any case, I managed to get her father's name and address
through this casual conversation about family trees. South Continent. I
had to buy a round-trip ticket for the Baba, but she's one of the most
exclusive go-betweens—not that there are many left—in Vorbarr Sultana.
Hire the best, I say."
"Madame Vorsoisson has accepted you?" said Ivan, stunned. I never intended it to go to this. . . .
"Well,
I assume she will. When the offer arrives. Almost no one uses the old
formal system anymore. She'll take it as a romantic surprise, I hope.
Bowl her right over." His smugness was tinged with anxiety, which he
soothed with a large gulp of his beer. By Vorrutyer swallowed a sip of
wine and whatever words he'd been about to utter.
"Think she'll accept?" Ivan said cautiously.
"A
woman in her situation, why should she refuse? It will give her a
household of her own again, which she must be used to, and how else can
she get one? She's true Vor, she will surely appreciate the nicety. And it steals a march on Major Zamori."
She
hadn't accepted yet. There was still hope. This wasn't celebration,
this was nervous babbling seeking the sedation of drink. Sound
idea—Ivan took a long gulp. Wait . . . "Zamori? I didn't tell Zamori
about the widow."
Ivan had selected Vormoncrief
with care, as a plausible enough threat to put the wind up Miles
without actually posing a real danger to his suit. For status, a mere
no-lord Vor surely couldn't compete with a Count's heir and Imperial
Auditor. Physically . . . hm. Maybe he hadn't thought enough about that
one. Vormoncrief was a well-enough looking man. Once Madame Vorsoisson
was outside of Miles's charismatic jamming-field, the comparison might
be . . . rather painful. But Vormoncrief was a blockhead—surely she
couldn't pick him over . . . and how many married blockheads do you know? Somebody picked 'em. It can't be that much of an impediment. But Zamori—Zamori was a serious man, and no fool.
"Something
I let slip, I fear." Vormoncrief shrugged. "No matter. He's not Vor. It
gives me an edge with her family Zamori can't touch. She married Vor
before, after all. And she must know a woman alone has no business
raising a son. It'll be a financial stretch, but I think if I take a
firm hand I can convince her to fire him off to a real Vor school soon
after the knot is tied. Make a man of him, knock that little obnoxious
streak right out of him before it becomes a habit."
They finished their beer; Ivan ordered the next round. Vormoncrief went off to find the head.
Ivan chewed on his knuckle, and stared at By.
"Problems, Ivan?" By inquired easily.
"My cousin Miles is courting Madame Vorsoisson. He told me to back off her under pain of his ingenuity."
By's
brows twitched up. "Then watching him annihilate Vormoncrief should
amuse you. Or would it be the other way around that would charm?"
"He's
going to eviscerate me out my ass when he finds out I tipped
Vormoncrief onto the widow. And Zamori, oh God."
By smiled briefly with one side of his mouth. "Now, now. I was there. Vormoncrief bored her to tears."
"Yes,
but . . . maybe her situation isn't comfortable. Maybe she would take
the first ticket out that was offered . . . wait, you? How did you come
there?"
"Alexi . . . leaks. It's a habit of his."
"Didn't know you were wife-hunting."
"I'm
not. Don't panic. Nor am I about to inflict a Baba—good lord, what an
anachronism—on the poor woman. Though I may note that I did not
bore her. She was even a little intrigued, I fancy. Not bad for a first
reconnaissance. I may take Vormoncrief along on my future amorous
starts, for flattering contrast." By glanced up, to be sure the object
of their analysis was not on the way back, and leaned forward and
lowered his voice to a more confidential tone. But he did not go on to
carve the block further or more wittily. Instead he murmured, "You
know, I think my cousin Lady Donna would be very glad of your support
in her upcoming case. You could be of real use to her. You have the ear
of a Lord Auditor—short, but surprisingly convincing in his new role, I
was impressed—Lady Alys, Gregor himself. Important people."
"They're important. I'm not." Why the hell was By flattering him ? He must want something—badly.
"Would you be willing to meet with Lady Donna, when she returns?"
"Oh."
Ivan blinked. "That, gladly. But . . ." He thought it through. "I'm not
quite sure what she expects to accomplish. Even if she blocks Richars,
the Countship can only go to one of his sons or younger brothers.
Unless you're planning mass murder at the next family reunion, which is
more exertion than I'd expect of you, I don't see how it delivers any
benefit to you."
By smiled briefly. "I said I don't want the Countship. Meet with Donna. She will explain it all to you."
"Well . . . all right. Good luck to her, anyway."
By sat back. "Good."
Vormoncrief
returned, to dither about his Vor mating ploys into his second beer.
Ivan tried without success to change the subject. Byerly drifted off
just before it was his turn to buy the next round. Ivan made excuses
involving obscure Imperial duties, and escaped at last.
How
to avoid Miles? He couldn't put in for transfer to some distant embassy
till this damned wedding was over. That would be too late. Desertion
was a possibility, he thought morosely—maybe he could go off and join
the Kshatryan Foreign Legion. No, with all Miles's galactic
connections, there wasn't a cranny of the wormhole nexus, no matter how
obscure, sure to be safe from his wrath. And ingenuity. Ivan would have
to trust to luck, Vormoncrief's stultifying personality, and for
Zamori—kidnapping? Assassination? Maybe introduce him to more women?
Ah, yes! Not to Lady Donna, though. That one, Ivan proposed to keep for
himself.
Lady Donna. She was no pubescent
prole. Any husband who dared to trumpet in her presence risked being
sliced off at the knees. Elegant, sophisticated, assured . . . a woman
who knew what she wanted, and how to ask for it. A woman of his own
class, who understood the game. A little older, yes, but with lifespans
extending so much these days, what of that? Look at the Betans; Miles's
Betan grandmother, who must be ninety if she was a day, was reported to
have a gentleman-friend of eighty. Why hadn't he thought of Donna
earlier?
Donna. Donna, Donna, Donna. Mmm. This was one meeting he wouldn't miss for worlds.
* * *
"I
set her to wait in the antechamber to the library, m'lord," Pym's
familiar rumble came to Kareen's ears. "Would you like me to bring you
anything, or ah, anything?"
"No. Thank you," came
Lord Mark's lighter voice in reply from the front hall. "Nothing, that
will be all, thank you."
Mark's footsteps echoed
off the stone paving: three rapid strides, two skips, a slight
hesitation, and a more measured footfall to the archway into the
antechamber. Skips? Mark? Kareen bounced to her feet as he rounded the corner. Oh, my, surely
it could not have been good for him to lose that much weight that
quickly—instead of the familiar excessively round solidity, he looked
all saggy , except for his grin, and his blazing eyes—
"Ah!
Stand right there!" he ordered her, seized a footstool, placed it
before her knees, climbed up, and flung his arms around her. She
wrapped her arms around him in turn, and the conversation was buried
for a moment in frantic kisses given and received and returned
redoubled.
He came up for air long enough to
inquire, "How did you get here?" then didn't let her answer for another
minute.
"Walked," she said breathlessly.
"Walked! It must be a kilometer and a half!"
She
put her hands on his shoulders, and backed off far enough to focus her
eyes on his face. He was too pale, she thought disapprovingly, almost
pasty. Worse, his buried resemblance to Miles was edging toward the
surface with his bones, an observation she knew would horrify him. She
kept it to herself. "So? My father used to walk to work here every day
in good weather, stick and all, when he was the Lord Regent's aide."
"If
you'd called, I would have sent Pym with the car—hell, better, I'd have
come myself. Miles says I can use his lightflyer whenever I want."
"A
lightflyer, for six blocks?" she cried indignantly, between a couple
more kisses. "On a beautiful spring morning like this?"
"Well,
they don't have slidewalks here . . . mmm. . . . Oh, that's good . . ."
He nuzzled her ear, inhaled her tickling curls, and planted a spiral
line of kisses from her earlobe to her collarbone. She hugged him
tight. The kisses seemed to burn across her skin like little fiery
footprints. "Missed you, missed you, missed you . . ."
"Missed you missed you missed you too." Though they could have traveled home together, if he hadn't insisted on his Escobaran detour.
"At
least the walk made you all warm . . . you could come up to my room,
and take off all those hot clothes . . . can Grunt come out to play,
hmm . . . ?"
"Here ? In Vorkosigan House ? With all the Armsmen around?"
"It's
where I live, presently." This time, he broke off and leaned back to
eye-focusing distance. "And there's only three Armsmen, and one sleeps
in the daytime." A worried frown started between his eyes. "Your house
. . . ?" he ventured.
"Worse. It's full of parents. And sisters.Gossipy sisters."
"Rent a room?" he offered after a puzzled moment.
She shook her head, groping for an explanation of muddled feelings she hardly understood herself.
"We could borrow Miles's lightflyer . . ."
This brought an involuntary giggle to her lips. "There's really not enough room. Even if we both took your nasty meds."
"Yes,
he can't have been thinking, when he purchased that thing. Better a
huge aircar, with vast comfortable upholstered seats. That you can fold
down. Like that armored groundcar he has, left over from the
Regency—hey! We could crawl in the back, mirror the canopy . . ."
Kareen shook her head, helplessly.
"Anywhere on Barrayar?"
"That's the trouble," she said. "Barrayar."
"In orbit . . . ?" He pointed skyward in hope.
She laughed, painfully. "I don't know , I don't know . . ."
"Kareen,
what's wrong?" He was looking very alarmed, now. "Is it something I've
done? Something I said? What have I—are you still mad about the drugs?
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'll stop them. I'll, I'll gain the weight back.
Whatever you want."
"It's not that ." She stepped back half a pace further, though neither let go of the other's hands. She cocked her head. "Though I don't
understand why being a body narrower should make you suddenly look half
a head shorter. What a bizarre optical illusion. Why should mass
translate to height, psychologically? But no. It's not you. It's me."
He clutched her hands and stared in earnest dismay. "I don't understand."
"I've
been thinking about it the whole ten days, waiting for you to get home
here. About you, about us, about me. All week, I've been feeling
stranger and stranger. On Beta Colony, it seemed so right, so logical.
Open, official, approved. Here . . . I haven't been able to tell my
parents about us. I tried to work up to it. I haven't even been able to
tell my sisters. Maybe, if we'd come home together, I wouldn't have
lost my nerve, but . . . but I did."
"Were . . .
are you thinking about that Barrayaran folktale where the girl's lover
ended up with his head in a pot of basil, when her relatives caught up
with him?"
"Pot of basil? No!"
"I
thought about it . . . I think your sisters could, y'know, if they
teamed up. Hand me my head, I mean. And I know your mother could; she
trained you all."
"How I wish Tante Cordelia were
here!" Wait, that was perhaps an unfortunate remark, in the context.
Pots of basil, good God. Mark was so paranoid . . . quite . Never mind. "I wasn't thinking of you, at all."
"Oh." His voice went rather flat.
"That's
not what I mean! I was thinking of you day and night. Of us. But I've
been so uncomfortable, since I got back. It's like I can just feel
myself, folding back up into my old place in this Barrayaran
culture-box. I can feel it, but I can't stop it. It's horrible."
"Protective
coloration?" His tone suggested he could understand a desire for
camouflage. His fingers noodled back along her collarbone, crept around
her neck. One of his wonderful neck rubs would feel so good, just now .
. . He'd worked so hard, to learn to touch and be touched, to overcome
the panic and the flinching and the hyperventilation. He was breathing
faster now.
"Something like that. But I hate secrets and lies."
"Can't you just . . . tell your family?"
"I tried. I just couldn't. Could you?"
He looked nonplused. "You want me to? It would be the basil for sure."
"No, no, I mean hypothetically."
"I could tell my mother."
"I could tell your mother. She's Betan. She's another world, the other world, the one where we were so right. It'smy
mother I can't talk to. And I always could, before." She found she was
trembling, a little. Mark could feel it through her hands; she could
tell by the stricken look in his eyes as he raised his face to hers.
"I
don't understand how it can feel so right there, and so wrong here,"
Kareen said. "It should be not wrong here. Or not right there. Or
something."
"That makes no sense. Here or there, what's the difference?"
"If
there's no difference, why did you go to so much trouble to lose all
that weight before you would set foot on Barrayar again?"
His
mouth opened, and closed. He finally got out, "Well, so. It's only for
a couple of months. I can take a couple of months."
"It gets worse. Oh, Mark! I can't go back to Beta Colony."
"What?
Why not? We'd planned—you'd planned—is it that your parents suspect,
about us? Have they forbidden you—"
"It's not
that. At least, I don't think it is. It's just money. Or just no money.
I couldn't have gone, last year, without the Countess's scholarship.
Mama and Da say they're strapped, and I don't know how I can earn so
much in just the few months." She bit her lip in renewed determination.
"But I mean to think of something."
"But if you
can't—but I'm not done yet, on Beta Colony," he said plaintively. "I
have another year of school, and another year of therapy."
Or more . "But you do mean to come back to Barrayar, after, don't you?"
"Yes,
I think. But a whole year apart—" He gripped her tighter, as though
looming parents were bearing down upon them to rip her from his grasp
on the spot. "It would be . . . excessively stressful, without you," he
mumbled in muffled understatement into her flesh.
After
a moment, he took a deep breath, and peeled himself away from her. He
kissed her hands. "There's no need to panic," he addressed her knuckles
earnestly. "There's months to figure something out. Anything could
happen." He looked up, and feigned a normal smile. "I'm glad you're
here anyway. You have to come see my butter bugs." He hopped down from
the footstool.
"Your what?"
"Why
does everyone seem to have so much trouble with that name? I thought it
was simple enough. Butter bugs. And if I hadn't gone by Escobar, I
would never have run across 'em, so that much good has come of it all.
Lilly Durona tipped me on to them, or rather, onto Enrique, who was in
a spot of trouble. Great biochemist, no financial sense. I bailed him
out of jail, and helped him rescue his experimental stocks from the
idiot creditors who'd confiscated 'em. You'd have laughed, to watch us
blundering around in that raid on his lab. Come on, come see."
As he towed her by the hand through the great house, Kareen asked dubiously, "Raid? On Escobar?"
"Maybe raid is the wrong word. It was entirely peaceful, miraculously enough. Burglary , perhaps. I actually got to dust off some of my old training, believe it or not."
"It doesn't sound very . . . legal."
"No,
but it was moral. They were Enrique's bugs—he'd made 'em, after all.
And he loves them like pets. He cried when one of his favorite queens
died. It was very affecting, in a bizarre sort of way. If I hadn't been
wanting to strangle him at just that moment, I'd have been very moved."
Kareen
was just starting to wonder if those cursed weight-loss meds had any
psychological side-effects Mark hadn't seen fit to confide to her, when
they arrived at what she recognized as one of Vorkosigan House's
basement laundry rooms. She hadn't been back in this part of the house
since she'd played hide-and-seek here with her sisters as children. The
windows high in the stone walls let in a few strips of sunlight. A
lanky fellow with crisp dark hair, who looked no older than his early
twenties at the outside, was puttering distractedly about among piles
of half-unpacked boxes.
"Mark," he greeted them.
"I must have more shelving. And benches. And lighting. And more heat.
The girls are sluggish. You promised."
"Check the attics first, before you go running out to buy stuff new," Kareen suggested practically.
"Oh, good idea. Kareen, this is Dr. Enrique Borgos, from Escobar. Enrique, this is my . . . my friend
, Kareen Koudelka. My best friend." Mark held tightly and possessively
to her hand as he announced this. But Enrique merely nodded vaguely at
her.
Mark turned to a broad covered metal tray,
balanced precariously on a crate. "Don't look yet," he said over his
shoulder to her.
A memory of life with her older sisters whispered through Kareen's mind—Open your mouth and close your eyes, and you will get a big surprise . . . Prudently, she ignored his directive and advanced to see what he was doing.
He
lifted the tray's cover to reveal a writhing mass of brown-and-white
shapes, chittering faintly and crawling over one another. Her startled
eye sorted out the details—insectoid, big, lots of legs and waving
feelers—
Mark plunged his hand in amongst the heaving masses, and she blurted, "Eck!"
"It's
all right. They don't bite or sting," he assured her with a grin.
"Here, see? Kareen, meet butter bug. Bug, Kareen."
He held out a single bug, the size of her thumb, in his palm.
Does he really want me to touch that thing?
Well, she'd got through Betan sex education, after all. What the hell.
Torn between curiosity and revulsion, she held out her hand, and Mark
tipped the bug into it.
Its little clawed feet
tickled her skin, and she laughed nervously. It was quite the most
incredibly ugly live thing she'd ever seen in her life. Though she had
perhaps dissected nastier items in her Betan xenozoology course last
year; nothing looked its best after pickling. The bugs didn't smell too
bad, just sort of green, like mown hay. It was the scientist who needed
to wash his shirt.
Mark embarked on an explanation
of how the bugs reprocessed organic matter in their really
disgusting-looking abdomens, complicated by pedantic technical
corrections about the biochemical details from his new friend Enrique.
It all made sense biologically, as far as Kareen could tell.
Enrique
pulled a single petal from a pink rose which lay piled with half a
dozen others in a box. The box, also balanced on a stack of crates,
bore the mark of one of Vorbarr Sultana's premier florists. He set the
petal in her palm next to the bug; the bug clutched it in its front
claws, and began nibbling off the tender edge. He smiled fondly at the
creature. "Oh, and Mark," he added, "the girls need more food as soon
as possible. I got these this morning, but they won't last the day." He
waved at the florist's box.
Mark, who had been
anxiously watching Kareen contemplate the bug in her hand, seemed to
notice the roses for the first time. "Where did you get the flowers?
Wait, you bought roses for bug fodder ?"
"I
asked your brother how to get some Earth-descended botanical matter
that the girls would like. He said, call there and order it. Who is
Ivan? But it was terribly expensive. We're going to have to rethink the
budget, I'm afraid."
Mark smiled thinly, and seemed to count to five before answering. "I see. A slight
miscommunication, I fear. Ivan is our cousin. You will doubtless not be
able to avoid meeting him sooner or later. There is Earth-descended
botanical matter available much more cheaply. I believe you can collect
some outside—no, maybe I'd better not send you out alone. . . ." He
stared at Enrique with an expression of deeply mixed emotion, rather
the way Kareen stared at the butter bug in her palm. It was about
halfway through munching down the rose petal now.
"Oh, and I must
have a lab assistant as soon as possible," Enrique added, "if I am to
plunge unimpeded into my new studies. And access to whatever the
natives here may know about their local biochemistry. Mustn't waste
precious time reinventing the wheel, you know."
"I
believe my brother has some contacts at Vorbarr Sultana University. And
at the Imperial Science Institute. I'm sure he could get you access to
anything that isn't security-related." Mark chewed gently on his lip,
his brows drawn down in a momentarily downright Milesian expression of
furious thought. "Kareen . . . didn't you say you were looking for a
job?"
"Yes . . ."
"Would you like a job as an assistant? You had those couple of Betan biology courses last year—"
"Betan training?" Enrique perked up. "Someone with Betan training, in this benighted place?"
"Only a couple of undergraduate courses," Kareen explained hastily. "And there are lots of folks on Barrayar with galactic training of all sorts." What does he think this is, the Time of Isolation?
"It's
a start," said Enrique, in a tone of judicious approval. "But I was
going to ask, Mark, do we have enough money to hire anyone yet?"
"Mm," said Mark.
"You, out of money?" said Kareen to Mark, startled. "What did you do on Escobar?"
"I'm not out
. It's just tied up in a lot of nonliquid ways right now, and I spent
quite a bit more than I'd budgeted—it's only a temporary cash-flow
problem. I'll get it sorted out at the end of the next period. But I
have to confess, I was really glad I could put Enrique and his project
up here free for a little while."
"We could sell shares again," Enrique suggested. "That's what I did before," he added in an aside to Kareen.
Mark winced. "I think not. I know I explained to you about closely-held ."
"People do raise venture capital that way," Kareen observed.
Mark
informed her under his breath, "But they don't normally sell shares to
five hundred and eighty percent of their company."
"Oh."
"I
was going to pay them all back," Enrique protested indignantly. "I was
so close to breakthrough, I couldn't stop then!"
"Um
. . . excuse us a moment, Enrique." Mark took Kareen by her free hand,
led her into the corridor outside the laundry room, and shut the door
firmly. He turned to her. "He doesn't need an assistant. He needs a mother . Oh, God, Kareen, you have no idea what a boon it would be if you could help me ride herd on the man. I could give you
the credit chits with a quiet mind, and you could keep the records and
dole out his pocket-money, and keep him out of dark alleys and not let
him pick the Emperor's flowers or talk back to ImpSec guards or
whatever suicidal thing he comes up with next. The thing is, um . . ."
He hesitated. "Would you be willing to take shares as collateral
against your salary, at least till the end of the period? Doesn't give
you much spending money, I know, but you said you meant to save . . ."
She
stared dubiously at the butter bug, still tickling her palm as it
finished off the last of its rose petal. "Can you really give me
shares? Shares of what? But . . . if this doesn't work out as you hope,
I wouldn't have anything else to fall back on."
"It
will work," he promised urgently. "I'll make it work. I own fifty-one
percent of the enterprise. I'm having Tsipis help me officially
register us as a research and development company, out of Hassadar."
She
would be betting their future together on Mark's odd foray into
bioentrepreneurship, and she wasn't even sure he was in his right mind.
"What, ah, does your Black Gang think of all this?"
"It's not their department in any way."
Well,
that was reassuring. This was apparently the work of his dominant
personality, Lord Mark, serving the whole man, and not a ploy of one of
his sub-personas for its own narrow ends. "Do you really think Enrique
is that much of a genius? Mark, I thought that smell back in the lab
was the bugs at first, but it was him. When was his last bath?"
"He
probably forgot to take one. Feel free to remind him. He won't be
offended. In fact, think of it as part of your job. Make him wash and
eat, take charge of his credit chit, organize the lab, make him look
both ways before crossing the street. And it would give you an excuse to hang out here at Vorkosigan House."
Put
like that . . . besides, Mark was giving her that pleading-puppy-eyes
look. In his own strange way Mark was almost as good as Miles at
drawing one into doing things one suspected one would later regret
deeply. Infectious obsession, a Vorkosigan family trait.
"Well . . ." A little chittering burp
made her look down. "Oh, no, Mark! Your bug is sick." Several
milliliters of thick white liquid dripped from the bug's mandibles onto
her palm.
"What?" Mark surged forward in alarm. "How can you tell?"
"It's
throwing up. Ick! Could it be jump-lag? That makes some people nauseous
for days." She looked around frantically for a place to deposit the
creature before it exploded or something. Would bug diarrhea be next?
"Oh. No, that's all right. They're supposed to do that. It's just producing its bug butter. Good girl," he crooned to the bug. At least, Kareen trusted he was addressing the bug.
Firmly,
Kareen took his hand, turned it palm-up, and dumped the now-slimy bug
into it. She wiped her hand on his shirt. "Your bug. You hold it."
"Our bugs . . . ?" he suggested, though he accepted it without demur. "Please . . . ?"
The
goop didn't smell bad, actually. In fact, it had a scent rather like
roses, roses and ice cream. She nevertheless found the impulse to lick
the stickiness off her hand to be quite resistible. Mark . . . was less
so. "Oh, very well." I don't know how he talks me into things like this. "It's a deal."
CHAPTER FIVE
Armsman Pym admitted Ekaterin to the grand front
hall of Vorkosigan House. Belatedly, she wondered if she ought to be
using the utility entrance, but in his tour of a couple of weeks ago
Vorkosigan hadn't shown her where it was. Pym was smiling at her in his
usual very friendly way, so perhaps it was all right for the moment.
"Madame Vorsoisson. Welcome, welcome. How may I serve you?"
"I
had a question for Lord Vorkosigan. It's rather trivial, but I thought,
if he was right here, and not busy . . ." She trailed off.
"I
believe he's still upstairs, madame. If you would be pleased to wait in
the library, I'll fetch him at once."
"I can find
my way, thank you," she fended off his proffered escort. "Oh, wait—if
he's still asleep, please don't—" But Pym was already ascending the
stairs.
She shook her head, and wandered through
the antechamber to the left toward the library. Vorkosigan's Armsmen
seemed impressively enthusiastic, energetic, and attached to their
lord, she had to concede. And astonishingly cordial to visitors.
She
wondered if the library harbored any of those wonderful old
hand-painted herbals from the Time of Isolation, and whether she might
borrow—she came to a halt. The chamber had an occupant: a short, fat,
dark-haired young man who crouched at a comconsole that sat so
incongruously among the fabulous antiques. It was displaying a
collection of colored graphs of some kind. He glanced up at the sound
of her step on the parquet.
Ekaterin's eyes widened. At my height, Lord Vorkosigan had complained, the effect is damned startling.
But it wasn't the soft obesity that startled nearly so much as the
resemblance to, what did they call it for a clone, to his progenitor,
which was half-buried beneath the . . . why did she instantly think of
it as a barrier of flesh? His eyes were the same intense gray as
Miles's—as Lord Vorkosigan's, but their expression was closed and wary.
He wore black trousers and a black shirt; his belly burgeoned from an
open backcountry-style vest which conceded the spring weather outside
only by being a green so dark as to be almost black.
"Oh. You must be Lord Mark. I'm sorry," she spoke to that wariness.
He
sat back, his finger touching his lips in a gesture very like one of
Lord Vorkosigan's, but then going on to trace his doubled chin,
pinching it between thumb and finger in an emphatic variation clearly
all his own. "I, on the other hand, am tolerably pleased."
Ekaterin flushed in confusion. "I didn't mean—I didn't mean to intrude."
His
eyebrows flicked up. "You have the advantage of me, milady." The timbre
of his voice was very like his brother's, perhaps a trifle deeper; his
accent was an odd amalgam, neither wholly Barrayaran nor wholly
galactic.
"Not milady, merely Madame. Ekaterin
Vorsoisson. Excuse me. I'm, um, your brother's landscape consultant. I
just came in to check what he wants done with the maple tree we're
taking down. Compost, firewood—" She gestured at the cold carved white
marble fireplace. "Or if he just wants me to sell the chippings to the
arbor service."
"Maple tree, ah. That would be Earth-descended botanical matter, wouldn't it?"
"Why, yes."
"I'll take any chopped-up bits he doesn't want."
"Where . . . would you want it put?"
"In the garage, I suppose. That would be handy."
She pictured the heap dumped in the middle of Pym's immaculate garage. "It's a rather large tree."
"Good."
"Do you garden . . . Lord Mark?"
"Not at all."
The
decidedly disjointed conversation was interrupted by a booted tread,
and Armsman Pym leaning around the doorframe to announce, "M'lord will
be down in a few minutes, Madame Vorsoisson. He says, please don't go
away." He added in a more confiding tone, "He had one of his seizures
last night, so he's a little slow this morning."
"Oh,
dear. And they give him such a headache. I shouldn't trouble him till
he's had his painkillers and black coffee." She turned for the door.
"No,
no! Sit down, madame, sit, please. M'lord would be right upset with me
if I botched his orders." Pym, smiling anxiously, motioned her urgently
toward a chair; reluctantly, she sat. "There now. Good. Don't move." He
watched her a moment as if to make sure she wasn't going to bolt, then
hurried off again. Lord Mark stared after him.
She
hadn't thought Lord Vorkosigan was the sort of Old Vor who threw his
boots at his servants' heads when he was displeased, but Pym did seem
edgy, so who knew? She looked around again to find Lord Mark leaning
back in his chair, steepling his fingers and watching her curiously.
"Seizures . . . ?" he said invitingly.
She
stared back at him, not at all sure what he was asking. "They leave him
with the most dreadful hangover the next day, you see."
"I'd understood they were practically cured. Is this not, in fact, the case?"
"Cured? Not if the one I witnessed was a sample. Controlled, he says."
His eyes narrowed. "So, ah . . . where did you see this show?"
"The
seizure? It was on my living room floor, actually. In my old apartment
on Komarr," she felt compelled to explain at his look. "I met him
during his recent Auditorial case there."
"Oh." His gaze flicked up and down, taking in her widow's garb. Construing . . . what?
"He
has this little headset device his doctors made for him, which is
supposed to trigger them when he chooses, instead of randomly." She
wondered if the one he'd had last night was medically induced, or if
he'd left it for too long again and suffered the more severe,
spontaneous version. He'd claimed to have learned his lesson, but—
"He
neglected to supply me with all those complicating details, for some
reason," Lord Mark murmured. An oddly unhumorous grin flashed over his
face and was gone. "Did he explain to you how he came by them in the
first place?"
His attention upon her had grown
intent. She groped for the right balance between truth and discretion.
"Cryo-revival damage, he told me. I once saw the scars on his chest
from the needle grenade. He's lucky he's alive."
"Huh. Did he also mention that at the time he encountered the grenade, he was trying to save my sorry ass?"
"No
. . ." She hesitated, taking in his defiantly lifted chin. "I don't
think he's supposed to talk much about his, his former career."
He
smiled thinly, and drummed his fingers on the comconsole. "My brother
has this bad little habit of editing his version of reality to fit his
audience, y'see."
She could understand why Lord
Vorkosigan was loath to display any weakness. But was Lord Mark angry
about something? Why? She sought to find some more neutral topic. "Do
you call him your brother, then, and not your progenitor?"
"Depends on my mood."
The
subject of their discussion arrived then, curtailing the conversation.
Lord Vorkosigan wore one of his fine gray suits and polished
half-boots, his hair was neatly combed but still damp, and the faint
scent of his cologne carried from his shower-warmed skin. This dapper
impression of greet-the-morning energy was unfortunately belied by his
gray-toned face and puffy eyes; the general effect was of a corpse
reanimated and dressed for a party. He managed a macabre smile in
Ekaterin's direction, and a suspicious squint at his clone-brother, and
lowered himself stiffly into an armchair between them. "Uh," he
observed.
He looked appallingly just like that
morning-after on Komarr, minus the bloodstains and scabs. "Lord
Vorkosigan, you should not have gotten up!"
He
gave her a little wave of his fingers which might have been either
agreement or denial, then Pym arrived in his wake bearing a tray with
coffeepot, cups, and a basket covered with a bright cloth from which
wafted an enticing aroma of warm spiced bread. Ekaterin watched with
fascination as Pym poured out the first cup and folded his lord's hand
around it; Lord Vorkosigan sipped, inhaled—it looked like his first
breath of the day—sipped again, and looked up and blinked. "Good
morning, Madame Vorsoisson." His voice only sounded a little underwater.
"Good
morning—oh—" Pym poured her a cup too before she could forestall him.
Lord Mark shut off his comconsole graphs and added sugar and cream to
his, and studied his progenitor-brother with obvious interest. "Thank
you," Ekaterin said to Pym. She hoped Vorkosigan had ingested his
painkillers upstairs, first thing; by his rapidly-improving color and
easing movement, she was fairly sure he had.
"You're up early," Vorkosigan said to her.
She
almost pointed out the time, in denial of this, then decided that might
be impolitic. "I was excited to be starting my first professional
garden. The sod crew are out rolling up the grass in the park this
morning, and collecting the terraformed topsoil. The tree crew will be
along shortly to transplant the oak. It occurred to me to ask if you
wanted the maple for firewood, or compost."
"Firewood.
Sure. We burn wood now and then, when we're being deliberately archaic
for show—it impresses the hell out of my mother's Betan visitors—and
there're always the Winterfair bonfires. There's a pile out back behind
some bushes. Pym can show you."
Pym nodded genial confirmation.
"I've laid claim to the leaves and chippings," Lord Mark put in, "for Enrique."
Lord
Vorkosigan shrugged, and held a hand palm-out in a warding gesture.
"That's between you and your eight thousand little friends."
Lord
Mark appeared to find no mystery in this obscure remark; he nodded
thanks. Having, apparently, accidentally routed her employer out of
bed, Ekaterin wondered if it would be too rude to dash out again
immediately. She ought probably to stay long enough to drink at least
one cup of Pym's coffee. "If all goes well, the excavation can start
tomorrow," she added.
"Ah, good. Did Tsipis put you in the way of collecting all your water and power connection permits?"
"Yes, that's all under control. And I've learned more than I expected about Vorbarr Sultana's infrastructure."
"It's
a lot older and stranger than you'd think. You should hear Drou
Koudelka's war stories some time, about how they escaped through the
sewers after collecting the Pretender's head. I'll see if I can get her
going at the dinner party."
Lord Mark leaned his elbow on the comconsole, nibbled gently on his knuckle, and idly rubbed his throat.
"A
week from tomorrow night seems to be the date I can round up everyone,"
Lord Vorkosigan added. "Will that work for you?"
"Yes, I think so."
"Good."
He shifted around, and Pym hastened to pour him more coffee. "I'm sorry
I missed the garden groundbreaking. I really meant to come out and
watch that with you. Gregor sent me out-country a couple of days ago on
what turned out to be a fairly bizarre errand, and I didn't get back
till late last night."
"Yes, what was that all about?" Lord Mark put in. "Or is it an Imperial secret?"
"No,
unfortunately. In fact, it's already gossip all over town. Maybe it
will divert attention from the Vorbretten case. Though I'm not sure if
you can call it a sex scandal, exactly." A tilted grimace. "Gregor told me, `You're half-Betan, Miles, you're just the Auditor to handle this one.' I said, `Thanks, Sire.'"
He
paused for his first bite of sweet spiced bread, washed down with
another swallow of coffee, and warmed to his theme. "Count Vormuir came
up with this wonderful idea how to solve his District's underpopulation
problem. Or so he imagined. Are you up on the latest hot demographic
squabbles among the Districts, Mark?"
Lord Mark
waved a negating hand, and reached for the bread basket. "I haven't
been following Barrayaran politics for the past year."
"This
one goes back further than that. Among our father's early reforms, when
he was Regent, was that he managed to impose uniform simplified rules
for ordinary subjects who wanted to change Districts, and switch their
oaths to their new District Count. Since every one of the sixty Counts
was trying to attract population to his District at the expense of his
brother Counts, Da somehow greased this through the Council, even
though everyone was also trying to prevent their own liege people from
leaving them. Now, each Count has a lot of discretion about how he runs
his District, how he structures his District government, how he imposes
his taxes, supports his economy, what services he provides his people,
whether Progressive or Conservative or a party of his own invention
like that loon Vorfolse down on the south coast, and on and on. Mother
describes the Districts as sixty sociopolitical culture dishes. I'd
add, economic, too."
"That part, I've been studying," Lord Mark allowed. "It matters to where I place my investments."
Vorkosigan
nodded. "Effectively, the new law gave every Imperial subject the right
to vote local government with their feet. Our parents drank champagne
with dinner the night the vote slipped through, and Mother grinned for
days. I must have been about six, because we were living here by then,
I remember. The long-term effect, as you can imagine, has been a
downright biological competition. Count Vorenlightened makes it good
for his people, his District grows, his revenues increase. His neighbor
Count Vorstodgy makes it too tough, and he leaks people like a sieve,
and his revenues drop. And he gets no sympathy from his brother Counts, because his loss is their gain."
"Ah, ha," said Mark. "And is the Vorkosigan's District winning or losing?"
"We're
just treading water, I think. We've been losing people to the Vorbarr
Sultana economy since forever. And a hell of a lot of loyalists
followed the Viceroy to Sergyar last year. On the other hand, the
District University and new colleges and medical complexes in Hassadar
have been a big draw. Anyway, Count Vormuir has been a long-time loser
in this demographic game. So, he implemented what he fondly imagined to
be a wildly Progressive personal—I might say, very personal—solution."
Ekaterin's
cup was empty, but she'd lost all desire to leave. She could listen to
Lord Vorkosigan by the hour, she thought, when he was on like this. He
was entirely awake and alive now, engrossed in his story.
"Vormuir,"
Vorkosigan went on, "bought himself thirty uterine replicators and
imported some techs to run them, and started, ah, manufacturing his own
liege people. His own personal crиche, as it were, but with only one
sperm donor. Guess who."
"Vormuir?" Mark hazarded.
"None
other. It's the same principle as a harem, I guess. Only different. Oh,
and he's only making little girls, at present. The first batch of them
are almost two years old. I saw them. Appallingly cute, en masse."
Ekaterin's
eyes widened at this vision of a whole thundering cadre of little
girls. The impact must be something like a child-garden—or, depending
on the decibel level, a girl-grenade. I always wanted daughters. Not just one, lots—sisters, the like of which she had never had. Too late now.
None for her, dozens for Vormuir—the pig, it wasn't fair! She was
bemusedly aware that she ought to be feeling outrage, but what she
really felt was outraged envy. What had Vormuir's wife—wait. Her brows
lowered. "Where is he getting the eggs? His Countess?"
"That's
the next little legal wrinkle in this mess," Vorkosigan went on
enthusiastically. "His Countess, who has four half-grown children of
her—and his—own, wants nothing to do with this. In fact, she isn't
talking to him, and has moved out. One of his Armsmen told Pym, very
privately, that the last time he attempted to impose a, um, conjugal
visit upon her, and threatened to batter down her door, she dumped a
bucket of water out the window on him—this was mid-winter—and then
threatened to personally warm him with her plasma arc. And then threw
down the bucket and screamed at him that if he was that much in love
with plastic tubes, he could use that one. Do I have that right, Pym?"
"Not the precise quote I was given, but close enough, m'lord."
"Did she hit him?" Mark asked, sounding quite interested.
"Yes," said Pym, "both times. I understand her aim is superior."
"I suppose that made the plasma arc threat convincing."
"Speaking professionally, when one is standing next to the target, an assailant with bad aim is actually more alarming. Nevertheless, the Count's Armsmen persuaded him to come away."
"But
we digress." Vorkosigan grinned. "Ah, thank you, Pym." The attentive
Armsman, blandly, poured his lord more coffee, and refilled Mark and
Ekaterin's cups.
Vorkosigan went on, "There is a
commercial replicator crиche in Vormuir's District capital, which has
been growing babies for the well-to-do for several years now. When a
couple present themselves for this service, the techs routinely harvest
more than one egg from the wife, that being the more complex and
expensive part of the proceedings. The backup eggs are kept frozen for
a certain length of time, and if not claimed by then, are discarded. Or
they are supposed to be. Count Vormuir hit upon a clever economy. He
had his techs collect all the viable discards. He was very proud of
this angle, when he was explaining it all to me."
Now that
was appalling. Nikki had been, to her cost, a body-birth, but it might
well have been different. If Tien had had sense, or if she'd stood up
for simple prudence instead of letting herself be seduced by the
romantic drama of it all, they might have chosen a
replicator-gestation. Imagine learning that her longed-for daughter was
now the property of an eccentric like Vormuir . . . "Do any of the
women know?" asked Ekaterin. "The ones whose egg cells were . . . can
you call it stolen?"
"Ah, not at first. Rumors,
however, had begun to leak out, hence the Emperor was moved to dispatch
his newest Imperial Auditor to investigate." He bowed at her, sitting.
"As for whether it can be called theft– Vormuir claims to have violated
no Barrayaran law whatsoever. He claims it quite smugly. I shall be
consulting with several of Gregor's Imperial lawyers over the next few
days, and trying to figure out if that is in fact true. On Beta Colony,
they could hang him out to dry for this, and his techs with him, but of
course on Beta Colony, he'd never have got this far."
Lord Mark shifted in his station chair. "So how many little girls does Vormuir have by now?"
"Eighty-eight
live births, plus thirty more coming along in the replicators. Plus his
first four. A hundred and twenty-two children for that idiot, not one
for—anyway, I gave him an order in the Emperor's Voice to start no more
until Gregor had ruled on his ingenious scheme. He was inclined to
protest, but I pointed out that since all his replicators were full
anyway, and would be for the next seven or so months, he wasn't really
much discommoded by this. He shut up, and went off to consult with his lawyers. And I flew back to Vorbarr Sultana and gave Gregor my verbal report, and went home to bed."
He'd
left out confession of his seizure in this description, Ekaterin noted.
What was Pym about, to have so pointedly mentioned it?
"There ought to be a law," Lord Mark said.
"There
ought to be," his brother replied, "but there isn't. This is Barrayar.
Lifting the Betan legal model wholesale strikes me as a recipe for
revolution, and besides, a lot of their particular conditions don't
apply here. There are a dozen galactic codes which address these issues
in addition to the Betan. I left Gregor last night muttering about
appointing a select committee to study them all and recommend a Joint
Council ruling. And me on it, for my sins. I hate committees. I much
prefer a nice clean chain of command."
"Only if you're at the top of it," Lord Mark observed dryly.
Lord Vorkosigan conceded this with a sardonic wave. "Well, yes."
Ekaterin
asked, "But will you be able to corner Vormuir with a new law? Surely
his situation would have to be, um . . . grandfathered."
Lord
Vorkosigan grinned briefly. "Exactly the problem. We've got to nail
Vormuir under some existing rule, bent to fit, to discourage imitators,
while shoving the new law, in whatever form it finally takes, through
the Counts and Ministers. We can't use a rape charge; I looked up all
the technical definitions, and they just don't stretch that way."
Lord Mark asked, in a worried voice, "Did the little girls seem abused or neglected?"
Lord
Vorkosigan glanced up at him rather sharply. "I'm not the expert on
crиche care you are, but they seemed all right to me. Healthy . . .
noisy . . . they screeched and giggled a lot. Vormuir told me he had
two full-time nurturers for every six children, in shifts. He also went
on about his frugal plans for having the older ones care for the
younger ones, later on, which gave an unsettling hint of just how far
he's thinking of expanding this genetic enterprise. Oh, and we can't
get him for slavery, either, because they all really are actually his
daughters. And the theft-of-the-eggs angle is extremely ambiguous under
current rules." In a peculiarly exasperated tone he added,
"Barrayarans!" His clone-brother gave him an odd look.
Ekaterin
said slowly, "In Barrayaran customary law, when Vor-caste families
split because of death or other reasons, the girls are supposed to go
to their mothers or mother's kin, and the boys to their fathers. Don't
these girls belong to their mothers?"
"I looked at
that one, too. Leaving aside the fact that Vormuir isn't married to any
of them, I suspect very few of the mothers would actually want the
girls, and all of them would be pretty upset."
Ekaterin wasn't altogether sure about the first part of this, but he certainly had the second dead-to-rights.
"And
if we forced them into their mothers' families, what punishment would
there be in it to Vormuir? His District would still be richer by a
hundred and eighteen girls, and he wouldn't even have to feed them." He
set aside his half-eaten piece of spice bread, and frowned. Lord Mark
selected a second, no, third slice, and nibbled on it. A glum silence
fell.
Ekaterin's brows drew down in thought. "By
your account, Vormuir is much taken with economies, of scale and
otherwise." Only long after Nikki's birth had she wondered if Tien had
pushed for the old-fashioned way because it had seemed much cheaper. We won't have to wait until we can afford it
had been a potent argument, in her eager ears. Vormuir's motivation
seemed as much economic as genetic: ultimately, wealth for his District
and therefore for him. This techno-harem was intended to become future
taxpayers, along with the husbands he no doubt assumed they would draw
in, to support him in his old age. "In effect, the girls are the
Count's acknowledged bastards. I'm sure I read somewhere . . . in the
Time of Isolation, weren't Imperial and count-palatine female bastards
entitled to a dowry, from their high-born father? And it required some
sort of Imperial permission . . . the dowry almost was the sign of
legal acknowledgment. I'll bet the Professora would know all the
historical details, including the cases where the dowries had to be
dragged out by force. Isn't an Imperial permission effectively an
Imperial order? Couldn't Emperor Gregor set Count Vormuir's dowries for
the girls . . . high?"
"Oh." Lord Vorkosigan sat
back, his eyes widening with delight. "Ah." An evil grin leaked between
his lips. "Arbitrarily high, in fact. Oh . . . my ." He looked
across at her. "Madame Vorsoisson, I believe you have hit on a possible
solution. I will certainly pass the idea along as soon as I may."
Her
heart lifted in response to his obvious pleasure—well, all right,
actually it was a sort of razor-edged glee; anyway, he smiled at her
smile at his smile. She could only hope she'd done some little bit to
ease his morning-after headache. A chiming clock began sounding in the
antechamber. Ekaterin glanced at her chrono. Wait, how could it
possibly be this late? "Oh, my word, the time. My tree crew will be
here any moment. Lord Vorkosigan, I must excuse myself."
She
jumped to her feet, and made polite farewells to Lord Mark. Both Pym
and Lord Vorkosigan escorted her personally to the front door.
Vorkosigan was still very stiff; she wondered how much pain his forced
motion denied, or defied. He encouraged her to stop in again, any time
she had the least question, or needed anything at all, and dispatched
Pym to show her where to have the crew stack the maple wood, and stood
in the doorway and watched them both till they turned the corner of the
great house.
Ekaterin glanced back over her
shoulder. "He didn't look very well this morning, Pym. You really
shouldn't have let him get out of bed."
"Oh, I
know it, ma'am," Pym agreed morosely. "But what's a mere Armsman to do?
I haven't the authority to countermand his orders. What he really
needs, is looking after by someone who won't stand his nonsense. A
proper Lady Vorkosigan would do the trick. Not one of those shy,
simpering ingenues all the young lords seem to be looking to these
days, he'd just ride right over her. He needs a woman of experience, to
stand up to him." He smiled apologetically down at her.
"I
suppose so," sighed Ekaterin. She hadn't really thought about the Vor
mating scene from the Armsmen's point of view. Was Pym hinting that his
lord had such an ingenue in his eye, and his staff was worried it was
some sort of mismatch?
Pym showed her the wood
cache, and made a sensible suggestion for placing Lord Mark's compost
heap near it rather than in the underground garage, assuring her it
would be just fine there. Ekaterin thanked him and headed back toward
the front gates.
Ingenues. Well, if a Vor wanted
to marry within his caste, he almost had to look to the younger cohort,
these days. Vorkosigan did not strike her as a man who would be happy
with a woman who was not up to his intellectual weight, but how much
choice did he have? Presumably any woman with brains enough to be
interesting to him in the first place would not be so foolish as to
reject him for his physical . . . it was no business of hers, she told
herself firmly. And it was absurd to allow the vision of this imaginary
ingenue, offering him an imaginary devastating insult about his
disabilities, to raise one's real blood pressure. Completely absurd.
She marched off to oversee the dismantling of the bad tree.
* * *
Mark
was just reaching to reactivate the comconsole when Miles wandered back
into the library, smiling absently. Mark turned to watch his
progenitor-brother start to fling himself back into his armchair, only
to hesitate, and lower himself more carefully. Miles stretched his
shoulders as if to loosen knotted muscles, leaned back, and stuck his
feet out. He picked up his half-eaten piece of bread, remarked
cheerfully, "That went well, don't you think?" and bit into it.
Mark eyed him doubtfully. "What went well?"
"The
co'versation." Miles chased his bite with the last of his cold coffee.
"So, you've met Ekaterin. Good. What did you two find to talk about,
before I got downstairs?"
"You. Actually."
"Ah?" Miles's face lit, and he sat up a little straighter. "What did she say about me?"
"We
mainly discussed your seizures," Mark said grimly. "She seemed to know
a great deal more about them than you had seen fit to confide to me."
Miles
subsided, frowning. "Hm. That's not the aspect of me I'm really anxious
to have her dwell on. Still, it's good she knows. I wouldn't want to be
tempted to conceal a problem of that magnitude again. I've learned my
lesson."
"Oh, really." Mark glowered at him.
"I
sent you the basic facts," his brother protested in response to this
look. "You didn't need to dwell on all the gory medical details. You
were on Beta Colony; there was nothing you could do about it anyway."
"They're my fault."
"Rubbish."
Miles really did do a very good offended snort; Mark decided it was a
touch of his—their—Aunt Vorpatril in it that gave it that nice
upper-class edge. Miles waved a dismissive hand. "It was the sniper's
doing, followed by more medical random factors than I can calculate.
Done's done; I'm alive again, and I mean to stay that way this time."
Mark
sighed, realizing reluctantly that if he wanted to wallow in guilt,
he'd get no cooperation from his big brother. Who, it appeared, had
other things on his mind.
"So what did you think of her?" Miles asked anxiously.
"Who?"
"Ekaterin , who else?"
"As a landscape designer? I'd have to see her work."
"No, no, no! Not as a landscape designer, though she's good at that too . As the next Lady Vorkosigan."
Mark blinked. "What?"
"What do you mean, what
? She's beautiful, she's smart—dowries, ye gods, how perfect, Vormuir
will split—she's incredibly level-headed in emergencies. Calm, y'know?
A lovely calm. I adore her calm. I could swim in it. Guts and wit, in one package."
"I wasn't questioning her fitness. That was a merely a random noise of surprise."
"She's
Lord Auditor Vorthys's niece. She has a son, Nikki, almost ten. Cute
kid. Wants to be a jump-pilot, and I think he has the determination to
make it. Ekaterin wants to be a garden designer, but I think she could
go on to be a terraformer. She's a little too quiet, sometimes—she
needs to build up her self-confidence."
"Perhaps she was just waiting to get a word in edgewise," Mark suggested.
Miles paused, stricken—briefly—by doubt. "Do you think I talked too much, just now?"
Mark
waved his fingers in a little perish-the-thought gesture, and poked
through the bread basket for any lurking spice bread crumbs. Miles
stared at the ceiling, stretched his legs, and counter-rotated his feet.
Mark
thought back over the woman he had just seen here. Pretty enough, in
that elegant brainy-brunette style Miles liked. Calm? Perhaps. Guarded,
certainly. Not very expressive. Round blondes were much sexier. Kareen
was wonderfully expressive; she'd even managed to rub some of those
human skills off on him, he thought in his more optimistic moments.
Miles was plenty expressive too, in his own unreliable way. Half of it
was horseshit, but you were never sure which half.
Kareen, Kareen, Kareen . He must not take her attack of nerves as a rejection of him. She's met someone she likes better, and is dumping us , whispered someone from the Black Gang in the back of his head, and it wasn't the lustful Grunt. I know a few ways to get rid of excess fellows like that. They'd never even find the body. Mark ignored the vile suggestion. You have no place in this, Killer.
Even
if she had met someone else, say, on the way home, all lonely by
herself because he'd insisted on taking that other route, she had the
compulsive honesty to tell him so if it were so. Her honesty was at the
root of their present contretemps. She was constitutionally incapable
of walking around pretending to be a chaste Barrayaran maiden unless
she was. It was her unconscious solution to the cognitive dissonance of
having one foot planted on Barrayar, the other on Beta Colony.
All
Mark knew was that if it came down to a choice between Kareen and
oxygen, he'd prefer to give up oxygen, thanks. Mark considered,
briefly, laying his sexual frustrations open to his brother for advice.
Now would be the perfect opportunity, trading on Miles's newly-revealed
infatuation. Trouble was, Mark was by no means sure which side Miles
would be on . Commodore Koudelka had been Miles's mentor and
friend, back when Miles had been a fragile youth hopelessly wild for a
military career. Would Miles be sympathetic, or would he lead,
Barrayaran-style, the posse seeking Mark's head? Miles was being
terrifically Vorish these days.
Yes, and so after
all his exotic galactic romances, Miles had finally settled on the Vor
next door. If settled was the term—the man mouthed certainties that the
twitching of his body belied. Mark's brow wrinkled in puzzlement. "Does
Madame Vorsoisson know this?" he asked at last.
"Know what?"
"That you're, um . . . hustling her for the next Lady Vorkosigan." And what an odd way to say, I love her, and I want to marry her . It was very Miles, though.
"Ah."
Miles touched his lips. "That's the tricky part. She's very recently
widowed. Tien Vorsoisson was killed rather horribly less than two
months ago, on Komarr."
"And you had what, to do with this?"
Miles
grimaced. "Can't give you the details, they're classified. The public
explanation is a breath-mask accident. But in effect, I was standing
next to him. You know how that one feels."
Mark
flipped up a hand, in sign of surrender; Miles nodded, and went on.
"But she's still pretty shaken up. By no means ready to be courted.
Unfortunately, that doesn't stop the competition around here. No money,
but she's beautiful, and her bloodlines are impeccable."
"Are you choosing a wife, or buying a horse?"
"I
am describing how my Vor rivals think, thank you. Some of them,
anyway." His frown deepened. "Major Zamori, I don't trust. He may be
smarter."
"You have rivals already?" Down, Killer. He didn't ask for your help.
"God,
yes. And I have a theory about where they came from . . . never mind.
The important thing is for me to make friends with her, get close to
her, without setting off her alarms, without offending her. Then, when
the time is right—well, then."
"And, ah, when are you planning to spring this stunning surprise on her?" Mark asked, fascinated.
Miles
stared at his boots. "I don't know. I'll recognize the tactical moment
when I see it, I suppose. If my sense of timing hasn't totally deserted
me. Penetrate the perimeter, set the trip lines, plant the
suggestion—strike. Total victory! Maybe." He counter-rotated his feet
the other way.
"You have your campaign all plotted
out, I see," said Mark neutrally, rising. Enrique would be glad to hear
the good news about the free bug fodder. And Kareen would be here for
work soon—her organizational skills had already had notable effect on
the zone of chaos surrounding the Escobaran.
"Yes, exactly. So take care not to foul it up by tipping my hand, if you please. Just play along."
"Mm, I wouldn't dream of interfering." Mark made for the door. "Though I'm not at all sure I'd choose to structure my most intimate relationship as a war. Is she the enemy, then?"
His
timing was perfect; Miles's feet had come down and he was still
sputtering just as Mark passed the door. Mark stuck his head back
through the frame to add, "I hope her aim is as good as Countess
Vormuir's."
Last word: I win. Grinning, he exited.
CHAPTER SIX
"Hello?" came a soft alto voice from the door of the laundry room-cum-laboratory. "Is Lord Mark here?"
Kareen
looked up from assembling a new stainless steel rack on wheels to see a
dark-haired woman leaning diffidently through the doorway. She wore
very conservative widow's garb, a long-sleeved black shirt and skirt
set off only by a somber gray bolero, but her pale face was
unexpectedly young.
Kareen put down her tools and
scrambled to her feet. "He'll be back soon. I'm Kareen Koudelka. Can I
help you?"
A smile illuminated the woman's eyes,
all too briefly. "Oh, you must be the student friend who is just back
from Beta Colony. I'm glad to meet you. I'm Ekaterin Vorsoisson, the
garden designer. My crew took out that row of amelanchier bushes on the
north side this morning, and I wondered if Lord Mark wanted any more
compost."
So that's what those scrubby things had
been called. "I'll ask. Enrique, can we use any um, amel-whatsit bush
chippings?"
Enrique leaned around his comconsole
display and peered at the newcomer. "Is it Earth-descended organic
matter?"
"Yes," replied the woman.
"Free?"
"I suppose. They were Lord Vorkosigan's bushes."
"We'll
try some." He disappeared once more behind the churning colored
displays of what Kareen had been assured were enzymatic reactions.
The
woman stared curiously around the new lab. Kareen followed her gaze
proudly. It was all beginning to look quite orderly and scientific and
attractive to future customers. They'd painted the walls cream white;
Enrique had picked the color because it was the exact shade of bug
butter. Enrique and his comconsole occupied a niche in one end of the
room. The wet-bench was fully plumbed, set up with drainage into what
had once been the washtub. The dry-bench, with its neat array of
instruments and brilliant lighting, ran along the wall all the way to
the other end. The far end was occupied by racks each holding a quartet
of meter-square custom-designed new bughouses. As soon as Kareen had
the last set assembled, they could release the remaining queen-lines
from their cramped travel box into their spacious and sanitary new
homes. Tall shelves on both sides of the door held their proliferating
array of supplies. A big plastic waste bin brimmed with a handy supply
of bug fodder; a second provided temporary storage for bug guano. The
bugshit had not proved nearly as smelly or abundant as Kareen had
expected, which was nice, as the task of cleaning the bughouses daily
had fallen to her. Not half bad for a first week's work.
"I
must ask," said the woman, her eye falling on the heaped-up maple bits
in the first bin. "What does he want all those chippings for ?"
"Oh,
come in, and I'll show you," said Kareen enthusiastically. The
dark-haired woman responded to Kareen's friendly smile, drawn in
despite her apparent reserve.
"I'm the Head Bug
Wrangler of this outfit," Kareen went on. "They were going to call me
the lab assistant, but I figured as a shareholder I ought to at least
be able to pick my own job title. I admit, I don't have any other
wranglers to be the head of, yet, but it never hurts to be optimistic."
"Indeed."
The woman's faint smile was not in the least Vor-supercilious; drat it,
she hadn't said if it was Lady or Madame Vorsoisson. Some Vor could get
quite huffy about their correct title, especially if it was their chief
accomplishment in life so far. No, if this Ekaterin were that sort, she
would have made a point of the Lady at the first possible instant.
Kareen
unlatched the steel-screen top of one of the bug hutches, reached in,
and retrieved a single worker-bug. She was getting quite good at
handling the little beasties without wanting to puke by now, as long as
she didn't look too closely at their pale pulsing abdomens. Kareen held
out the bug to the gardener, and began a tolerably close copy of Mark's
Better Butter Bugs for a Brighter Barrayar sales talk.
Though
Madame Vorsoisson's eyebrows went up, she didn't shriek, faint, or run
away at her first sight of a butter bug. She followed Kareen's
explanation with interest, and was even willing to hold the bug and
feed it a maple leaf. There was something very bonding about
feeding live things, Kareen had to admit; she would have to keep that
ploy in mind for future presentations. Enrique, his interest piqued by
the voices drifting past his comconsole discussing his favorite
subject, wandered over and did his best to queer her pitch by adding
long, tedious technical footnotes to Kareen's streamlined explanations.
The garden designer's interest soared visibly when Kareen got to the
part about future R&D to create a Barrayaran-vegetation-consuming
bug.
"If you could teach them to eat
strangle-vines, South Continent farmers would buy and keep colonies for
that alone," Madame Vorsoisson told Enrique, "whether they produced
edible food as well or not."
"Really?" said Enrique. "I didn't know that. Are you familiar with the local planetary botany?"
"I'm not a fully-trained botanist—yet—but I have some practical experience, yes."
"Practical," echoed Kareen. A week of Enrique had given her a new appreciation for the quality.
"So let's see this bug manure," the gardener said.
Kareen
led her to the bin and unsealed the lid. The woman peered in at the
heap of dark, crumbly matter, leaned over, sniffed, ran her hand
through it, and let some sift out through her fingers. "Good heavens."
"What?" asked Enrique anxiously.
"This
looks, feels, and smells like the finest compost I've ever seen. What
kind of chemical analysis are you getting off it?"
"Well,
it depends on what the girls have been eating, but—" Enrique burst into
a kind of riff on the periodic table of the elements. Kareen followed
the significance of about half of it.
Madame Vorsoisson, however, looked impressed. "Could I have some to try on my plants at home?" she asked.
"Oh,
yes," said Kareen gratefully. "Carry away all you want. There's getting
to be rather a lot of it, and I'm really beginning to wonder where
would be a safe place to dispose of it."
"Dispose
of it? If this is half as good as it looks, put it up in ten-liter bags
and sell it! Everyone who's trying to grow Earth plants here will be
willing to try it."
"Do you think so?" said Enrique, anxious and pleased. "I couldn't get anyone interested, back on Escobar."
"This
is Barrayar. For a long time, burning and composting was the only way
to terraform the soil, and it's still the cheapest. There was never
enough Earth-life based compost to both keep old ground fertile and
break in new lands. Back in the Time of Isolation they even had a war
over horse manure."
"Oh, yeah, I remember that one from my history class." Kareen grinned. "A little war, but still, very . . . symbolic."
"Who fought who?" asked Enrique. "And why?"
"I
suppose the war was really over money and traditional Vor privilege,"
Madame Vorsoisson explained to him. "It had been the custom, in the
Districts where the Imperial cavalry troops were quartered, to
distribute the products of the stables free to any prole who showed up
to cart it away, first-come first-served. One of the more financially
pressed Emperors decided to keep it all for Imperial lands or sell it.
This issue somehow got attached to a District inheritance squabble, and
the fight was on."
"What finally happened?"
"In that
generation, the rights fell to the District Counts. In the following
generation, the Emperor took them back. And in the generation after
that—well, we didn't have much horse cavalry anymore." She went to the
sink to wash, adding over her shoulder, "There is still a customary
distribution every week from the Imperial Stables here in Vorbarr
Sultana, where the ceremonial cavalry squad is kept. People come in
their groundcars, and carry off a bag or two for their flower beds,
just for old time's sake."
"Madame Vorsoisson,
I've lived for four years in butter bug guts," Enrique told her
earnestly as she dried her hands.
"Mm," she said,
and won Kareen's heart on the spot by receiving this declaration with
no more risibility than a slight helpless widening of her eyes.
"We
really need someone on the macro-level as a native guide to the native
vegetation," Enrique went on. "Do you think you could help us out?"
"I
suppose I could give you some sort of quick overview, and some ideas
about where to go to next. But you'd really need a District agronomy
officer—Lord Mark can surely access the one in the Vorkosigan's
District for you."
"There, you see already," cried
Enrique. "I didn't even know there was such a thing as a District
agronomy officer."
"I'm not sure Mark does, either," Kareen added doubtfully.
"I'll bet the Vorkosigans' manager, Tsipis, could guide you," Madame Vorsoisson said.
"Oh, do you know Tsipis? Isn't he a lovely man?" said Kareen.
Madame
Vorsoisson nodded instant agreement. "I've not met him in person yet,
but he's given me ever so much help over the comconsole with Lord
Vorkosigan's garden project. I mean to ask him if I could come down to
the District to collect stones and boulders from the Dendarii Mountains
to line the stream bed—the water in the garden is going to take the
form of a mountain stream, you see, and I fancied Lord Vorkosigan would
appreciate the home touch."
"Miles? Yes, he loves those mountains. He used to ride up into them all the time when he was younger."
"Really? He hasn't talked much to me about that part of his life—"
Mark
appeared at the door at that moment, tottering along under a large box
of laboratory supplies. Enrique relieved him of it with a glad cry, and
carried it off to the dry bench, and began unpacking the awaited
reagents.
"Ah, Madame Vorsoisson," Mark greeted
her, catching his breath. "Thank you for the maple chippings. They seem
to be a hit. Have you met everyone?"
"Just now," Kareen assured him.
"She likes our bugs," said Enrique happily.
"Have you tried the bug butter yet?" Mark asked.
"Not yet," Madame Vorsoisson said.
"Would
you be willing to? I mean, you did see the bugs, yes?" Mark smiled
uncertainly at this new potential customer/test subject.
"Oh . . . all right." The gardener's return smile was a trifle crooked. "A small bite. Why not."
"Give her a taste test, Kareen."
Kareen
pulled one of the liter tubs of bug butter from the stack on the shelf,
and pried it open. Sterilized and sealed, the stuff would keep
indefinitely at room temperature. She'd harvested this batch just this
morning; the bugs had responded most enthusiastically to their new
fodder. "Mark, we're going to need more of these containers. Bigger
ones. A liter of bug butter per bughouse per day is going to add up to
a lot of bug butter after a while." Pretty soon, actually. Especially
when they hadn't been able to persuade anyone in the household to eat
more than a mouthful apiece. The Armsmen had taken to avoiding this
corridor.
"Oh, the girls will make more than that,
now they're fully fed," Enrique informed them cheerfully over his
shoulder from the bench.
Kareen stared
thoughtfully at the twenty tubs she'd put up this morning, atop the
small mountain from the last week. Fortunately, there was a lot of
storage space in Vorkosigan House. She scrounged up one of the
disposable spoons kept ready for sampling, and offered it to Madame
Vorsoisson. Madame Vorsoisson accepted it, blinked uncertainly, scooped
a sample from the tub, and took a brave bite. Kareen and Mark anxiously
watched her swallow.
"Interesting," she said politely after a moment.
Mark slumped.
Her
brows knotted in sympathy; she glanced at the stack of tubs. After a
moment she offered, "How does it respond to freezing? Have you tried
running it through an ice cream freezer, with some sugar and flavoring?"
"Actually, not yet," said Mark. His head tilted in consideration. "Hm. D'you think that would work, Enrique?"
"Don't
see why not," responded the scientist. "The colloidal viscosity doesn't
break down when exposed to subzero temperatures. It's thermal
acceleration which alters the protein microstructure and hence texture."
"Gets kind of rubbery when you cook it," Mark translated this. "We're working on it, though."
"Try freezing," Madame Vorsoisson suggested. "With, um, perhaps a more dessert-sounding name?"
"Ah, marketing," Mark sighed. "That's the next step now, isn't it?"
"Madame Vorsoisson said she would test out the bug shit on her plants for us," Kareen consoled him.
"Oh,
great!" Mark smiled again at the gardener. "Hey, Kareen, you want to
fly down to the District with me day after tomorrow, and help me scout
sites for the future facility?"
Enrique paused in his unpacking to unfocus his gaze into the air, and sigh, "Borgos Research Park ."
"Actually, I was thinking of calling it Mark Vorkosigan Enterprises
," Mark said. "D'you suppose I ought to spell it out in full? MVK
Enterprises might have some potential for confusion with Miles."
"Kareen's Butter Bug Ranch ," Kareen put in sturdily.
"We'll obviously have to have a shareholder's vote." Mark smirked.
"But you'd win automatically," Enrique said blankly.
"Not
necessarily," Kareen told him, and shot Mark a mock-glower. "Anyway,
Mark, we were just talking about the District. Madame Vorsoisson has to
go down there and collect rocks. And she told Enrique she could help
him with figuring out Barrayaran native botany. What if we all go
together? Madame Vorsoisson says she's never met Tsipis except over the
comconsole. We could introduce her and make a sort of picnic out of it
all."
And she wouldn't end up alone with Mark, and
exposed to all sorts of . . . temptation, and confusion, and
resolve-melting neck rubs, and back rubs, and ear-nibbling, and . . .
she didn't want to think about it. They'd got on very professionally all week here at Vorkosigan House, very comfortably. Very busily. Busy was good. Company was good. Alone together was . . . um.
Mark
muttered under his breath to her, "But then we'd have to take Enrique,
and . . ." By the look on his face, alone together had been just what he'd had in mind.
"Oh,
c'mon, it'll be fun." Kareen took the project firmly in hand. A very
few minutes of persuasion and schedule-checking and she had the quartet
committed, with an early start set and everything. She made a mental
note to arrive at Vorkosigan House in plenty of time to make sure
Enrique was bathed, dressed, and ready for public display.
Quick,
light footsteps sounded from the corridor, and Miles rounded the
doorjamb like a trooper swinging himself through a shuttle hatch. "Ah!
Madame Vorsoisson," he panted. "Armsman Jankowski only just told me you
were here." His gaze swept the room, taking in the demonstration in
progress. "You didn't let them feed you that bug vom—bug stuff, did
you? Mark—!"
"It's not half bad, actually," Madame
Vorsoisson assured him, earning a relieved look from Mark, followed by
a see-what-did-I-tell you jerk of his chin at his brother. "It may
possibly need a little product development before it's ready to market."
Miles rolled his eyes. "Just a tad, yes."
Madame
Vorsoisson glanced at her chrono. "My excavation crew will be back from
lunch any minute. It was nice to meet you, Miss Koudelka, Dr. Borgos.
Until day after tomorrow, then?" She picked up the bag of tubs packed
with bug manure Kareen had put up for her, smiled, and excused herself.
Miles followed her out.
He was back in a couple of
minutes, having evidently seen her to the door at the end of the
corridor. "Good God, Mark! I can't believe you fed her that bug vomit.
How could you!"
"Madame Vorsoisson," said Mark with dignity, "is a very sensible woman. When presented with compelling facts, she doesn't let a thoughtless emotional response overcome her clear reason."
Miles ran his hands through his hair. "Yeah, I know."
Enrique said, "Impressive, actually. She seemed to understand what I wanted to say even before I spoke."
"And after you spoke, too," said Kareen mischievously. "That's even more impressive."
Enrique grinned sheepishly. "Was I too technical, do you think?"
"Evidently not in this case."
Miles's brows drew down. "What's going on the day after tomorrow?"
Kareen
answered sunnily, "We're all going down to the District together to
visit Tsipis and look around for various things we need. Madame
Vorsoisson's promised to introduce Enrique to Barrayaran native botany
on site, so he can start to design what modifications he'll need to
make to the new bugs later."
"I was going
to take her on her first tour of the District. I have it all planned
out. Hassadar, Vorkosigan Surleau, the Dendarii Gorge—I have to make
exactly the right first impression."
"Too bad,"
said Mark unsympathetically. "Relax. We're only going to have lunch in
Hassadar and scout around a bit. It's a big District, Miles, there'll
be plenty left for you to show off later."
"Wait, I know! I'll go with you. Expedite things, yeah."
"There
are only four seats in the lightflyer," Mark pointed out. "I'm flying,
Enrique needs Madame Vorsoisson, and I'm damned if I'm going to leave
Kareen behind in order to packyou ." He somehow smiled fondly at her and glowered at his brother simultaneously.
"Yeah, Miles, you're not even a stockholder," Kareen supported this.
With a driven glare, Miles decamped, going off up the corridor muttering, " . . . can't believe he fed her bug vomit. If only I'd gotten here before—Jankowski, dammit, you and I are going to have a little—"
Mark
and Kareen followed him out the door. They stood in the corridor
watching this retreat. "What in the world's bit him?" Kareen asked in
wonder.
Mark grinned evilly. "He's in love."
"With his gardener?" Kareen's brows rose.
"Causality's
the other way around, I gather. He met her on Komarr during his recent
case. He hired her as his gardener to create a little propinquity. He's
courting her in secret."
"In secret? Why? She
seems perfectly eligible to me—she's Vor, even—or is her rank only by
marriage? But I shouldn't think that would matter to Miles. Or—are her
relatives against it, because of his—?" A vague gesture down her body
implied Miles's putative mutations. She frowned in outrage at the scent
of this romantically doleful scenario. How dare they look down on Miles
for—
"Ah, secret from her, as I understand it."
Kareen wrinkled her nose. "Wait, what?"
"You'll
have to get him to explain it. It made no sense to me. Not even by
Miles's standards of sense." Mark frowned thoughtfully. "Unless he's
having a major outbreak of sexual shyness."
"Sexually shy, Miles?" Kareen scoffed. "You met that Captain Quinn he had in tow, didn't you?"
"Oh,
yes. I've met several of his girlfriends, in fact. The most appalling
bunch of bloodthirsty amazons you ever saw. God, they were
frightening." Mark shuddered in memory. "Of course, they were all
pissed as hell at me at the time for getting him killed, which I
suppose accounts for some of it. But I was just thinking . . . you
know, I really wonder if he picked them—or if they picked him? Maybe,
instead of being such a great seducer, he's just a man who can't say
no. It would certainly explain why they were all tall
aggressive women who were used to getting what they wanted. But
now—maybe for the first time—he's up against trying to pick for
himself. And he doesn't know how . He hasn't had any practice." A slow grin spread across Mark's broad face at this vision. "Ooh. I wanna watch."
Kareen punched his shoulder. "Mark, that's not nice. Miles deserves to meet the right woman. I mean, he's not getting any younger, is he?"
"Some
of us get what they deserve. Others of us get luckier than that." He
captured her hand, and nuzzled the inside of her wrist, making the
hairs stand up on her arm.
"Miles always says you
make your own luck. Stop that." She repossessed her hand. "If
sweat-equity is going to pay my way back to Beta Colony, I need to get
back to work." She retreated into the lab; Mark followed.
"Was Lord Vorkosigan very upset?" Enrique asked anxiously as they reappeared. "But Madame Vorsoisson said she didn't mind trying our bug butter—"
"Don't
worry about it, Enrique," Mark told him jovially. "My brother is just
being a prick because he has something on his mind. If we're lucky,
he'll go take it out on his Armsmen."
"Oh," said Enrique. "That's all right, then. I have a plan to bring him around."
"Yeah?" said Mark skeptically. "What plan?"
"It's
a surprise," said the scientist, with a sly grin, or at any rate, as
sly as he could bring off, which really wasn't very. "If it works, that
is. I'll know in a few more days."
Mark shrugged, and glanced at Kareen. "You know what he's got up his sleeve?"
She
shook her head, and settled herself on the floor once more with her
rack-assembly project. "You might try pulling an ice cream freezer out
of yours, though. Ask Ma Kosti first. Miles seems to have showered her
with every piece of food service equipment imaginable. I think he was
trying to bribe her into resisting the employment offers from all his
friends." Kareen blinked, seized by inspiration.
Product
development, too right. Never mind the appliances, the resource they
had right here in Vorkosigan House was human genius. Frustrated
human genius; Ma Kosti pressed the hard-working entrepreneurs to come
to a special lunch in her kitchen every day, and sent trays of snacks
to the lab betimes. And the cook was already soft on Mark, even after
just a week; he so obviously appreciated her art. They were well on
their way to bonding.
She jumped up and handed Mark the screwdriver. "Here. Finish this."
Grabbing six tubs of bug butter, she headed for the kitchen.
* * *
Miles
climbed from the old armored groundcar, and paused a moment on the
flower-bordered curving walkway to stare enviously at Renй Vorbretten's
entirely modern townhouse. Vorbretten House perched on the bluff
overlooking the river, nearly opposite to Vorhartung Castle. Civil war
as urban renewal: the creaky old fortified mansion which had formerly
occupied the space had been so damaged in the Pretender's War that the
previous Count and his son, when they'd returned to the city with Aral
Vorkosigan's victorious forces, had decided to knock it flat and start
over. In place of dank, forbidding, and defensively useless old stone
walls, truly effective protection was now supplied by optional
force-fields. The new mansion was light and open and airy, and took
full advantage of the excellent views of the Vorbarr Sultana cityscape
up and down stream. It doubtless had enough bathrooms for all the
Vorbretten Armsmen. And Miles bet Renй didn't have troubles with his drains.
And if Sigur Vorbretten wins his case, Renй will lose it all.
Miles shook his head, and advanced to the arched doorway, where an
alert Vorbretten Armsman stood ready to lead Miles to his liege-lord's
presence, and Pym, no doubt, to a good gossip downstairs.
The
Armsman brought Miles to the splendid sitting room with the window-wall
looking across the Star Bridge toward the castle. This morning,
however, the wall was polarized to near-darkness, and the Armsman had
to wave on lights as they entered. Renй was sitting in a big chair with
his back to the view. He sprang to his feet as the Armsman announced,
"Lord Auditor Vorkosigan, m'lord."
Renй swallowed,
and nodded dismissal to his Armsman, who withdrew silently. At least
Renй appeared sober, well-dressed, and depilated, but his handsome face
was dead pale as he nodded formally to his visitor. "My Lord Auditor.
How may I serve you?"
"Relax, Renй, this isn't an official visit. I just dropped by to say hello."
"Oh."
Renй exhaled visible relief, the sudden stiffness in his face reverting
to mere tiredness. "I thought you were . . . I thought Gregor might
have dispatched you with the bad news."
"No, no,
no. After all, the Council can't very well vote without telling you."
Miles nodded vaguely toward the river, and the Council's seat beyond
it; Renй, recalled to his hostly duties, depolarized the window and
pulled chairs around for himself and Miles to take in the view while
they talked. Miles settled himself across from the young Count. Renй
had thought quickly enough to drag up a rather low chair for his august
visitor, so Miles's feet didn't dangle in air.
"But
you might have been—well, I don't know what you might have been," said
Renй ruefully, sitting down and rubbing his neck. "I wasn't expecting
you. Or anyone. Our social life has evaporated with amazing speed.
Count and Countess Ghembretten are apparently not good people to know."
"Ouch. You've heard that one, have you?"
"My Armsmen heard it first. The joke's all over town, isn't it?"
"Eh,
yeah, sort of." Miles cleared his throat. "Sorry I wasn't by earlier. I
was on Komarr when your case broke, and I only heard about it when I
got back, and then Gregor sent me up-country, and, well, screw the
excuses. I'm sorry as hell this thing has happened to you. I can flat
guarantee the Progressives don't want to lose you."
"Can you? I thought I had become a deep embarrassment to them."
"A vote's a vote. With turnover among the Counts literally a once-in-a-lifetime event—"
"Usually," Renй put in dryly.
Miles
shrugged this off. "Embarrassment is a passing emotion. If the
Progressives lose you to Sigur, they lose that vote for the next
generation. They'll back you." Miles hesitated. "They are backing you,
aren't they?"
"More or less. Mostly. Some." Renй
waved an ironic hand. "Some are thinking that if they vote against
Sigur and lose, they'll have made a permanent enemy in the Council. And
a vote, as you say, is a vote."
"What do the numbers look like, can you tell yet?"
Renй
shrugged. "A dozen certain for me, a dozen certain for Sigur. My fate
will be decided by the men in the middle. Most of whom aren't speaking
with the Ghembrettens this month. I don't think it looks good, Miles."
He glanced across at his visitor, his expression an odd mix of
sharpness and hesitancy. In a neutral tone he added, "And do you know
how Vorkosigan's District is going to vote yet?"
Miles
had realized he would have to answer that question if he saw Renй. So,
no doubt, did every other Count or Count's Deputy, which also explained
the sudden dip in Renй's social life lately; those who weren't avoiding
him were avoiding the issue. With a couple of weeks to think it through
behind him, Miles had his answer ready. "We're for you. Could you doubt
it?"
Renй managed a rueful smile. "I had been
almost certain, but then there is that large radioactive hole the
Cetagandans once put in the middle of your District."
"History, man. Do I help your vote-count?"
"No," sighed Renй. "I'd already factored you in."
"Sometimes, one vote makes all the difference."
"It makes me crazy to think it might be that close," Renй confessed. "I hate this. I wish it were over."
"Patience,
Renй," Miles counseled. "Don't throw away any advantage just because of
an attack of nerves." He frowned thoughtfully. "Seems to me what we
have here are two coequal legal precedents, jostling each other for
primacy. A Count chooses his own successor, with the consent of the
Council by their vote of approval, which is how Lord Midnight got in."
Renй's smile twisted. "If a horse's ass can be a Count, why not the whole horse?"
"I think that was
one of the fifth Count Vortala's arguments, actually. I wonder if any
transcripts of those sessions still exist in the archives? I must read
them someday, if they do. Anyway, Midnight clearly established that
direct blood relationship, though customary, was not required, and even
if Midnight's case is rejected, there are dozens of other less
memorable precedents on that score anyway. Count's choice before
Count's blood, unless the Count has neglected to make a choice. Only
then does male primogeniture come into play. Your grandfather was
confirmed as heir in his . . . his mother's husband's lifetime, wasn't
he?" Miles had been confirmed as his own father's heir during the
Regency, while his father had been at the height of his power to ram it
through the Council.
"Yes, but fraudulently, according to Sigur's suit. And a fraudulent result is no result."
"I
don't suppose the old man might have known? And is there any way to
prove it, if he did? Because if he knew your grandfather was not his
son, his confirmation was legal, and Sigur's case evaporates."
"If
the sixth Count knew, we haven't been able to find a scrap of evidence.
And we've been turning the family archives inside out for weeks. I
shouldn't think he could have known, or he would surely have killed the
boy. And the boy's mother."
"I'm not so sure. The
Occupation was a strange time. I'm thinking about how the bastard war
played out in the Dendarii region." Miles blew out his breath.
"Ordinary known Cetagandan by-blows were usually aborted or killed as
soon as possible. Occasionally, the guerrillas used to make a sort of
gruesome game of planting the little corpses for the occupying soldiers
to find. Used to unnerve the hell out of the Cetagandan rank and file.
First was their normal human reaction, and second, even the ones who
were so brutalized by then as not to care realized anywhere we slipped
in a dead baby, we could just as well have slipped in a bomb."
Renй
grimaced distaste, and Miles realized belatedly that the lurid
historical example might have acquired a new personal edge for him. He
hurried on, "The Cetagandans weren't the only people to object to that
game. Some Barrayarans hated it too, and took it as a blot on our
honor—Prince Xav, for example. I know he argued vehemently with my
grandfather against it. Your great—the sixth Count could well have been
in agreement with Xav, and what he did for your grandfather a sort of
silent answer."
Renй tilted his head, looking struck. "I never thought of that. He was a friend of old Xav's, I believe. But there's still no proof. Who knows what a dead man knew, but never spoke of?"
"If you have no proof, neither does Sigur."
Renй brightened slightly. "That's true."
Miles
gazed again at the magnificent view along the urbanized river valley. A
few small boats chugged up and down the narrowing stream. In former
eras, Vorbarr Sultana had been as far inland as navigation from the sea
could get, as the rapids and falls here blocked further commercial
transport. Since the end of the Time of Isolation, the dam and locks
just upstream from the Star Bridge had been destroyed and rebuilt three
times.
Across from where they sat in Vorbretten
House, Vorhartung Castle's crenellations loomed up through the
spring-green treetops, gray and archaic. The traditional meeting-place
of the Council of Counts had overlooked—in both senses of the word,
Miles thought dryly—all these transformations. When there wasn't a war
on, waiting for old Counts to die in order to effect change could be a
slow process. One or two popped off a year, on average these days, but
the pace of generational turnover was slowing still further as life
spans extended. Having two seats open at once, and both up for grabs by
either a Progressive or a Conservative heir, was fairly unusual. Or
rather, Renй's seat was up for grabs between the two main parties. The
other was more mysterious.
Miles asked Renй, "Do
you have any idea what was the substance of Lady Donna Vorrutyer's
motion of impediment against her cousin Richars taking the Vorrutyer
Countship? Have you heard any talk?"
Renй waved a
hand. "Not much, but then, who's talking to me, these days? Present
company excepted." He shot Miles a covertly grateful look. "Adversity
does teach who your real friends are."
Miles was
embarrassed, thinking of how long it had taken him to get over here.
"Don't take me for more virtuous than I am, Renй. I would have to be
the last person on Barrayar to argue that carrying a bit of off-planet
blood in one's veins should disqualify one for a Countship."
"Oh. Yes. You're half-Betan, that's right. But in your case, at least it's the correct half."
"Five-eighths
Betan, technically. Less than half a Barrayaran." Miles realized he'd
just left himself open for a pot shot about his height, but Renй didn't
take aim. Byerly Vorrutyer would never have let a straight-line like
that pass unexploited, and Ivan would have at least dared to grin. "I
usually try to avoid bringing people's attention to the math."
"Actually,
I did have a few thoughts on Lady Donna," Renй said. "Her case just
might end up impinging on you Vorkosigans after all."
"Oh?"
Renй,
drawn out of his bleak contemplation of his own dilemma, grew more
animated. "She placed her motion of impediment and took off immediately
for Beta Colony. What does that suggest to you?"
"I've
been to Beta Colony. There are so many possibilities I can scarcely
begin to sort them out. The first and simplest thought is that she's
gone to collect some sort of obscure evidence about her cousin
Richars's ancestry, genes, or crimes."
"Have you ever met Lady Donna? Simple isn't how I'd describe her."
"Mm, there's that. I should ask Ivan for a guess, I suppose. I believe he slept with her for a time."
"I
don't think I was around town then. I was out on active duty during
that period." A faint regret for his abandoned military career crept
into Renй's voice, or maybe Miles was projecting. "But I'm not
surprised. She had a reputation for collecting men."
Miles cocked an interested eyebrow at his host. "Did she ever collect you?"
Renй grinned. "I somehow missed that honor." He returned the ironic glance. "And did she ever collect you?"
"What, with Ivan available? I doubt she ever looked down far enough to notice me."
Renй
opened his hand, as if to deflect Miles's little flash of
self-deprecation, and Miles bit his tongue. He was an Imperial Auditor
now; public whining about his physical lot in life sat oddly on the
ear. He had survived. No man could challenge him now. But would
even an Auditorship be enough to induce the average Barrayaran woman to
overlook the rest of the package? So it's a good thing you're not in love with an average woman, eh, boy?
Renй
went on, "I was thinking about your clone Lord Mark, and your family's
push to get him recognized as your brother."
"He is my brother, Renй. My legal heir and everything."
"Yes,
yes, so your family has argued. But what if Lady Donna has been
following that controversy, and how you made it come out? I'll bet
she's gone off to Beta Colony to have a clone made of poor old Pierre,
and is going to bring it back to offer as his heir in place of Richars.
Somebody had to try that, sooner or later."
"It's
. . . certainly possible. I'm not sure how it would fly with the
fossils. They damn near choked on Mark, year before last." Miles
frowned in thought. Could this damage Mark's position? "I heard she was
practically running the District for Pierre these last five years. If
she could get herself appointed the clone's legal guardian, she could
continue to run it for the next twenty. It's unusual to have a female
relative be a Count's guardian, but there are some historical
precedents."
"Including that Countess who was
legally declared a male in order to inherit," Renй put in. "And then
had that bizarre suit later about her marriage."
"Oh,
yeah, I remember reading about that one. But there was a civil war on,
at the time, which broke down the barriers for her. Nothing like being
on the side of the right battalions. No civil war here except for
whatever lies between Donna and Richars, and I've never heard an inside
story on that feud. I wonder . . . if you're right—would she use a
uterine replicator for the clone, or would she have the embryo
implanted as a body-birth?"
"Body-birth seems
weirdly incestuous," Renй said, with a grimace of distaste. "You do
wonder about the Vorrutyers, sometimes. I hope she uses a replicator."
"Mm,
but she never had a child of her own. She's what, forty or so . . . and
if the clone were growing inside her own body, she'd at least be sure
to have it—excuse me, him—as thoroughly personally guarded as possible.
Much harder to take away from her, that way, or to argue that someone
else should be his guardian. Richars, for example. Now that would be a
sharp turn of events."
"With Richars as guardian, how long do you think the child would live?"
"Not
past his majority, I suspect." Miles frowned at this scenario. "Not
that his death wouldn't be impeccable."
"Well,
we'll find out Lady Donna's plan soon," said Renй. "Or else her case
will collapse by default. Her three months to bring her evidence are
almost up. It seems a generous allotment of time, but I suppose in the
old days they had to allow everyone a chance to get around on
horseback."
"Yes, it's not good for a District to
leave its Countship empty for so long." One corner of Miles's mouth
turned up. "After all, you wouldn't want the proles to figure out they
could live without us."
Renй's brows twitched acknowledgment of the jibe. "Your Betan blood is showing, Miles."
"No, only my Betan upbringing."
"Biology isn't destiny?"
"Not anymore, it's not."
The
light music of women's voices echoed up the curving staircase into the
sitting room. A low alto burble Miles thought he recognized was
answered by a silvery peal of laughter.
Renй sat
up, and turned around; his lips parted in a half smile. "They're back.
And she's laughing. I haven't heard Tatya laugh in weeks. Bless Martya."
Had
that been Martya Koudelka's voice? The thump of a surprising number of
feminine feet rippled up the stairs, and three women burst into Miles's
appreciative view. Yes . The two blond Koudelka sisters, Martya
and Olivia, set off the dark good looks of the shorter third woman. The
young Countess Tatya Vorbretten had bright hazel eyes, wide-set in a
heart-shaped face with a foxy chin. And dimples. The whole delightful
composition was framed by ringlets of ebony hair that bounced as she
now did.
"Hooray, Renй!" said Martya, the owner of the alto voice. "You're not still sitting alone here in the dark and gloom. Hi, Miles! Did you finally come to cheer Renй up? Good for you!"
"More or less," said Miles. "I didn't realize you all knew each other so well."
Martya
tossed her head. "Olivia and Tatya were in school together. I just came
along for the ride, and to boot them into motion. Can you believe, on
this beautiful morning, they wanted to stay in ?"
Olivia
smiled shyly, and she and Countess Tatya clung together for a brief
supportive moment. Ah, yes. Tatya Vorkeres had not been a countess back
in those private-school days, though she had certainly already been a
beauty, and an heiress.
"Where all did you go?" asked Renй, smiling at his wife.
"Just
shopping in the Caravanserai. We stopped for tea and pastries at a cafй
in the Great Square, and caught the changing of the guard at the
Ministry." The Countess turned to Miles. "My cousin Stannis is a
directing officer in the fife and drum corps of the City Guard now. We
waved at him, but of course he couldn't wave back. He was on duty."
"I
was sorry we hadn't made you come out with us," said Olivia to Renй,
"but now I'm glad. You would have missed Miles."
"It's
all right, ladies," said Martya stoutly. "Instead I vote we make Renй
escort us all to the Vorbarr Sultana Hall tomorrow night. I happen to know where I can get four tickets."
This
was seconded and voted in without reference to the Count, but Miles
couldn't see him offering much resistance to a proposal that he escort
three beautiful women to hear music that he adored. And indeed, with a
somewhat sheepish glance at Miles, he allowed himself to be persuaded.
Miles wondered how Martya had cornered the tickets, which were
generally sold out a year or two in advance, on such short notice. Was
she drawing on her sister Delia's ImpSec connections, perhaps? This
whole thing smelled of Team Koudelka in action.
The
Countess smiled and held up a hand-calligraphed envelope. "Look, Renй!
Armsman Kelso handed this to me as we came in. It's from Countess
Vorgarin."
"Looks like an invitation to me," said
Martya in a tone of vast satisfaction. "See, things aren't so bad as
you feared."
"Open it," urged Olivia.
Tatya
did so; her eyes raced down the handwriting. Her face fell. "Oh," she
said in a flattened tone. The delicate paper half-crumpled in her tight
fist.
"What?" said Olivia anxiously.
Martya retrieved the paper, and read down it in turn. "The cat! It's an un –invitation! To her baby daughter's naming party. ` . . . afraid you would not be comfortable,' my eye! The coward. The cat!"
Countess
Tatya blinked rapidly. "That's all right," she said in a muffled voice.
"I hadn't been planning to go anyway."
"But you said you were going to wear—" Renй began, then closed his mouth abruptly. A muscle jumped in his jaw.
"All
the women—and their mothers—who missed catching Renй these last ten
years are being just . . . just . . ." Martya sputtered to Miles, "feline ."
"That's an insult to cats," said Olivia. "Zap has better character."
Renй
glanced across at Miles. "I couldn't help noticing . . ." he said in an
extremely neutral voice, "we haven't received a wedding invitation from
Gregor and Dr. Toscane as yet."
Miles held up a
reassuring hand. "Local invitations haven't been sent out yet. I know
that for a fact." This was not the moment to mention that inconclusive
little political discussion on the subject he'd sat in on a few weeks
ago at the Imperial Residence, Miles decided.
He
stared around the tableau, Martya fuming, Olivia stricken, the Countess
chilled, Renй flushed and stiff. Inspiration struck. Ninety-six chairs.
"I'm giving a little private dinner party in two nights time. It's in
honor of Kareen Koudelka and my brother Mark getting home from Beta
Colony. Olivia will be there, and all the Koudelkas, and Lady Alys
Vorpatril and Simon Illyan, and my cousin Ivan and several other valued
friends. I'd be honored if you both would join us."
Renй managed a pained smile at this palpable charity. "Thank you, Miles. But I don't think—"
"Oh,
Tatya, yes, you've got to come," Olivia broke in, squeezing her old
friend's arm. "Miles is finally unveiling his lady-love for us all to
meet. Only Kareen's seen her so far. We're all just dying of curiosity."
Renй's
brows went up. "You, Miles? I thought you were as confirmed a bachelor
as your cousin Ivan. Married to your career."
Miles
grimaced furiously at Olivia, and twitched at Renй's last words. "I had
this little medical divorce from my career. Olivia, where did you ever
get the idea that Madame Vorsoisson—she's my landscape designer, you
see, Renй, but she's Lord Auditor Vorthys's niece, I met her on Komarr,
she's just recently widowed and certainly not—not ready to be
anybody's lady-love. Lord Auditor Vorthys and the Professora will be
there too, you see, a family party, nothing inappropriate for her."
"For who?" asked Martya.
"Ekaterin," escaped his mouth before he could stop it. All four lovely syllables.
Martya
grinned unrepentantly at him. Renй and his wife looked at each
other—Tatya's dimple flashed, and Renй pursed his lips thoughtfully.
"Kareen said Lord Mark said you said," Olivia said innocently. "Who was lying, then?"
"Nobody,
dammit, but—but—" He swallowed, and prepared to run down the drill one
more time. "Madame Vorsoisson is . . . is . . ." Why was this getting
harder to explain with practice, instead of easier? "Is in formal
mourning for her late husband. I have every intention of declaring
myself to her when the time is right. The time is not right. So I have
to wait." He gritted his teeth. Renй was now leaning his chin on his
hand, his finger across his lips, and his eyes alight. "And I hate waiting ," Miles burst out.
"Oh," said Renй. "I see."
"Is she in love with you too?" asked Tatya, with a furtive fond glance at her husband.
God,
the Vorbrettens were as gooey as Gregor and Laisa, and after three
years, too. This marital enthusiasm was a damned contagious disease. "I
don't know," Miles confessed in a smaller voice.
"He told Mark he's courting her in secret," Martya put in to the Vorbrettens. "It's a secret from her. We're all still trying to figure that one out."
"Is the entire city party to my private conversations?" Miles snarled. "I'm going to strangle Mark."
Martya blinked at him with manufactured innocence. "Kareen had it from Mark. I
had it from Ivan. Mama had it from Gregor. And Da had it from Pym. If
you're trying to keep a secret, Miles, why are you going around telling
everyone?"
Miles took a deep breath.
Countess
Vorbretten said demurely, "Thank you, Lord Vorkosigan. My husband and I
would be pleased to come to your dinner party." She dimpled at him.
His breath blew out in a, "You're welcome."
"Will
the Viceroy and Vicereine be back from Sergyar?" Renй asked Miles. His
voice was tinged with political curiosity.
"No. In fact. Though they're due quite soon. This is my
party. My last chance to have Vorkosigan House to myself before it
fills up with the traveling circus." Not that he didn't look forward to
his parents' return, but his head-of-the-House role had been rather . .
. pleasant, these past few months. Besides, introducing Ekaterin to
Count and Countess Vorkosigan, her prospective future parents-in-law,
was something he wished to choreograph with the utmost care.
He'd
surely done his social duty by now. Miles rose with some dignity, and
bid everyone farewell, and politely offered Martya and Olivia a ride,
if they wished it. Olivia was staying on with her friend the Countess,
but Martya took him up on it.
Miles gave Pym a
fishy look as the Armsman opened the groundcar canopy for them to enter
the rear compartment. Miles had always put down Pym's extraordinary
ability to collect gossip, a most valuable skill to Miles in his new
post, to Pym's old ImpSec training. He hadn't quite realized Pym might
be trading . Pym, catching the look but not its cause, went a
bit blander than usual, but seemed otherwise unaffected by his
liege-lord's displeasure.
In the rear compartment
with Martya as they pulled away from Vorbretten House and swung down
toward the Star Bridge, Miles seriously considered dressing her down
for roasting him about Ekaterin in front of the Vorbrettens. He was an
Imperial Auditor now, by God—or at least by Gregor. But then he'd get
no further information out of her. He controlled his temper.
"How do the Vorbrettens seem to be holding up, from your view?" he asked her.
She
shrugged. "They're putting up a good front, but I think they're pretty
shaken. Renй thinks he's going to lose the case, and his District, and
everything."
"So I gathered. And he might, if he doesn't make more push to keep it." Miles frowned.
"He's
hated the Cetagandans ever since they killed his da in the war for the
Hegen Hub. Tatya says it just spooks him, to think the Cetagandans are in
him." She added after a moment, "I think it spooks her a little, too. I
mean . . . now we know why that branch of the Vorbrettens suddenly
acquired that extraordinary musical talent, after the Occupation."
"I'd
made that connection too. But she seems to be standing by him."
Unpleasant, to think this mischance might cost Renй his marriage as
well as his career.
"It's been hard on her too.
She likes being a Countess. Olivia says, back in their school days,
envy sometimes made the other girls mean to Tatya. Being picked out by
Renй was kind of a boost for her, not that the rest of them couldn't
see it coming, with her glorious soprano. She does adore him."
"So you think their marriage will weather this?" he asked hopefully.
"Mm . . ."
"Mm . . . ?"
"This
whole thing began when they were going to start their baby. And they
haven't gone ahead. Tatya . . . doesn't talk about that part of things.
She'll talk about everything else, but not that."
"Oh." Miles tried to figure out what that might mean. It didn't sound very encouraging.
"Olivia
is almost the only one of Tatya's old friends who've shown up, after
all this blew up. Even Renй's sisters have kind of gone to ground,
though for the opposite reason I suppose. It's like nobody wants to
look her in the eye."
"If you go back far enough,
we're all descended from off-worlders, dammit," Miles growled in
frustration. "What's one-eighth? A tinge. Why should it disqualify one
of the best people we have? Competence should count for something."
Martya's
grin twisted. "If you want sympathy, you've come to the wrong store,
Miles. If my da were a Count, it wouldn't matter how competent I was, I
still wouldn't inherit. All the brilliance in the world wouldn't matter
a bit. If you're just now finding out that this world is unjust, well,
you're behind the times."
Miles grimaced. "It's
not news to me, Martya." The car pulled up outside Commodore Koudelka's
townhouse. "But justice wasn't my job, before." And power isn't nearly as all-powerful as it looks from the outside.
He added, "But that's probably the one issue I can't help you on. I
have the strongest personal reasons for not wanting to reintroduce
inheritance through the female line into Barrayaran law. Like, my
survival. I like my job very well. I don't want Gregor's."
He
popped the canopy, and she climbed out, and gave him a sort of
acknowledging salaam for both this last point and the ride. "See you at
your dinner party."
"Give my best to the Commodore and Drou," he called after her.
She shot him a bright Team Koudelka smile over her shoulder, and bounced away.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Mark gently banked the lightflyer, to give the
rear-seat passengers, Kareen and Madame Vorsoisson, a better view of
the Vorkosigan's District capital of Hassadar glittering on the
horizon. The weather was cooperating, a beautiful sunny day that
breathed promise of imminent summer. Miles's lightflyer was a delight:
sleek, fast, and maneuverable, knifing through the soft warm air, and
best of all with the controls precisely aligned to be ergonomically
perfect for a man just Mark's height. So what if the seat was a little
on the narrow side. You couldn't have everything. For example, Miles can't have this anymore. Mark grimaced at the thought, and shunted it aside.
"It's lovely land," Madame Vorsoisson remarked, pressing her face to the canopy to take it all in.
"Miles
would be flattered to hear you say so," Mark carefully encouraged this
trend of thought. "He's pretty stuck on this place."
They
were certainly viewing it in the best possible light, literally, this
morning. A patchwork of spring verdure in the farms and woods—the woods
no less a product of back-breaking human cultivation than the
fields—rippled across the landscape. The green was broken up and set
off by irregular slashes of Barrayaran native red-brown, in the ravines
and creek bottoms and along uncultivable slopes.
Enrique, his nose also pressed to the canopy, said, "It's not at all what I was expecting, from Barrayar."
"What were you expecting?" asked Madame Vorsoisson curiously.
"Kilometers
of flat gray concrete, I suppose. Military barracks and people in
uniform marching around in lockstep."
"Economically unlikely for an entire planetary surface. Though uniforms, we do have," Mark admitted.
"But
once it gets up to several hundred different kinds, the effect isn't so
uniform anymore. And some of the colors are a little . . . unexpected."
"Yes,
I feel sorry for those Counts who ended up having to pick their House
colors last," Mark agreed. "I think the Vorkosigans must have fallen
somewhere in the middle. I mean, brown and silver isn't bad ,
but I can't help feeling that the fellows with the blue and gold—or the
black and silver—do have a sartorial edge." He could fancy himself in
black and silver, with Kareen all blond and tall on his arm.
"It
could be worse," Kareen put in cheerfully. "How do you think you'd look
in a House cadet's uniform of chartreuse and scarlet, like poor
Vorharopulos, Mark?"
"Like a traffic signal in
boots." Mark made a wry face. "The lockstep is lacking too, I've
gradually come to realize. More like, milling around in a confused
herd. It was . . . almost disappointing, at first. I mean, even
disregarding enemy propaganda, it's not the image Barrayar itself tries
to project, now is it? Though I've learned to kind of like it this way."
They
banked again. "Where is the infamous radioactive area?" Madame
Vorsoisson asked, scanning the changing scene.
The
Cetagandan destruction of the old capital of Vorkosigan Vashnoi had
torn the heart out of the Vorkosigan's District, three generations ago.
"Southeast of Hassadar. Downwind and downstream," Mark replied. "We
won't pass it today. You'll have to get Miles to show it to you
sometime." He suppressed a slightly snarky grin. Betan dollars to sand
the blighted lands hadn't been on Miles's projected itinerary.
"Barrayar
doesn't all look like this," Madame Vorsoisson told Enrique. "The part
of South Continent where I grew up was flat as a griddlecake, even
though the highest mountain range on the planet—the Black
Escarpment—was just over the horizon."
"Was it dull, being so flat?" asked Enrique.
"No,
because the horizon was boundless. Stepping outdoors was like stepping
into the sky. The clouds, the light, the storms—we had the best
sunrises and sunsets ever."
They passed the
invisible barrier of Hassadar's air traffic control system, and Mark
gave over navigation to the city computers. After a few more minutes
and some brief coded transmissions, they were brought gently down on a
very private and highly restricted landing pad atop the Count's
Residence. The Residence was a large modern building faced with
polished Dendarii mountain stone. With its connections to the municipal
and District offices, it occupied most of one side of the city's
central square.
Tsipis stood waiting by the
landing ring, neat and gray and spare as ever, to receive them. He
shook hands with Madame Vorsoisson as though they were old friends, and
greeted off-worlder Enrique with the grace and ease of a natural
diplomat. Kareen gave, and got, a familial hug.
They
switched vehicles to a waiting aircar, and Tsipis shepherded them off
for a quick tour of three possible sites for their future facility,
whatever it was to be named, including an underutilized city warehouse,
and two nearby farms. Both farm sites were untenanted because their
former inhabitants had followed the Count to his new post on Sergyar,
and no one else had wanted to take on the challenge of wrestling profit
from their decidedly marginal land, one being swampy and the other
rocky and dry. Mark checked the radioactivity plats carefully. They
were all Vorkosigan properties already, so there was nothing to
negotiate with respect to their use.
"You might
even persuade your brother to forgo the rent, if you ask," Tsipis
pointed out with enthusiastic frugality about the two rural sites. "He
can; your father assigned him full legal powers in the District when he
left for Sergyar. After all, the family's not getting any income from
the properties now. It would conserve more of your capital for your
other startup costs."
Tsipis knew precisely what
budget Mark had to work with; they'd gone over his plans via comconsole
earlier in the week. The thought of asking Miles for a favor made Mark
twitch a little, but . . . was he not a Vorkosigan too? He stared
around the dilapidated farm, trying to feel entitled.
He
put his head together with Kareen, and they ran over the choices.
Enrique was permitted to wander about with Madame Vorsoisson, being
introduced to various native Barrayaran weeds. The condition of the
buildings, plumbing, and power-grid connections won over condition of
the land, and they settled at last on the site with the
newer—relatively—and more spacious outbuildings. After one more
thoughtful tour around the premises, Tsipis whisked them back to
Hassadar.
For lunch, Tsipis led them to Hassadar's
most exclusive locale—the official dining room of the Count's
Residence, overlooking the Square. The remarkable spread which the
staff laid on hinted that Miles had sent down a few urgent
behind-the-scenes instructions for the care and feeding of his . . .
gardener. Mark confirmed this after dessert when Kareen led Enrique and
the widow off to see the garden and fountain in the Residence's inner
courtyard, and he and Tsipis lingered over the exquisite vintage of
Vorkosigan estate-bottled wine usually reserved for visits from Emperor
Gregor.
"So, Lord Mark," said Tsipis, after a
reverent sip. "What do you think of this Madame Vorsoisson of your
brother's?"
"I think . . . she is not my brother's yet."
"Mm, yes, I'd understood that part. Or should I say, it has been explained to me."
"What all has he been telling you about her?"
"It is not so much what he says, as how he says it. And how often he repeats himself."
"Well,
that too. If it were anyone but Miles, it would be hilarious. Actually,
it's still hilarious. But it's also . . . hm."
Tsipis
blinked and smiled in perfect understanding. "Heart-stopping . . . I
think . . . is the word I should choose." And Tsipis's vocabulary was
always as precise as his haircut. He stared out over the square through
the room's tall windows. "I used to see him as a youngster rather
often, when I was in company with your parents. He was constantly
overmatching his physical powers. But he never cried much when he broke
a bone. He was almost frighteningly self-controlled, for a child that
age. But once, at the Hassadar District Fair it was, I chanced to see
him rather brutally rejected by a group of other children whom he'd
attempted to join." Tsipis took another sip of wine.
"Did he cry then?" asked Mark.
"No.
Though his face looked very odd when he turned away. Bothari was
watching with me—there was nothing the Sergeant could do either, there
wasn't any physical threat about it all. But the next day Miles had a
riding accident, one of his worst ever. Jumping, which he had been
forbidden to do, on a green horse he'd been told not to ride . . .
Count Piotr was so infuriated—and frightened—I thought he was going to
have a stroke on the spot. I came later to wonder how much of an
accident that accident was." Tsipis hesitated. "I always imagined Miles
would choose a galactic wife, like his father before him. Not a
Barrayaran woman. I'm not at all sure what Miles thinks he's doing with
this young lady. Is he setting himself up to go smash again?"
"He claims he has a Strategy."
Tsipis's thin lips curved, and he murmured, "And doesn't he always . . ."
Mark
shrugged helplessly. "To tell the truth, I've barely met the woman
myself. You've been working with her—what do you think?"
Tsipis tilted his head shrewdly. "She's a quick study, and meticulously honest."
That sounded like faint praise, unless one happened to know those were Tsipis's two highest encomiums.
"Quite
well-looking, in person," he added as an afterthought. "Not, ah, nearly
as over-tall as I was expecting."
Mark grinned.
"I think she could do the job of a future Countess."
"Miles
thinks so too," Mark noted. "And picking personnel was supposed to have
been one of his major military talents." And the better he got to know
Tsipis, the more Mark thought that might be a talent Miles had
inherited from his—their —father.
"It's not
before time, that's certain," Tsipis sighed. "One does wish for Count
Aral to have grandchildren while he's still alive to see them."
Was that remark addressed to me?
"You will keep an eye on things, won't you?" Tsipis added.
"I don't know what you think I could do. It's not like I could make her fall in love with him. If I had that kind of power over women, I'd use it for myself!"
Tsipis
smiled vaguely at the place Kareen had vacated, and back,
speculatively, to Mark. "What, and here I was under the impression you
had."
Mark twitched. His new-won Betan rationality
had been losing ground on the subject of Kareen, this past week, his
subpersonas growing restive with his rising tension. But Tsipis was his
financial advisor, not his therapist. Nor even—this was Barrayar, after
all—his Baba.
"So have you seen any sign at all
that Madame Vorsoisson returns your brother's regard?" Tsipis went on
rather plaintively.
"No," Mark confessed. "But
she's very reserved." And was this lack of feeling, or just frightening
self-control? Who could tell from this angle? "Wait, ha, I know! I'll
set Kareen onto it. Women gossip to each other about that sort of
thing. That's why they go off so long to the ladies' room together, to
dissect their dates. Or so Kareen once told me, when I'd complained
about being left bereft too long . . ."
"I do like
that girl's sense of humor. I've always liked all the Koudelkas."
Tsipis's eye grew glinty for a moment. "You will treat her properly, I trust?"
Basil alert, basil alert!
"Oh, yes," Mark said fervently. Grunt, in fact, was aching to treat her
properly to the limit of his Betan-trained skills and powers right now,
if only she'd let him. Gorge, who made a hobby of feeding her gourmet
meals, had had a good day today. Killer lurked ready to assassinate any
enemy she cared to name, except that Kareen didn't make enemies, she
just made friends. Even Howl was strangely satisfied, this week,
everyone else's pain being his gain. On this subject, the Black Gang
voted as one man.
That lovely, warm, open woman .
. . In her presence he felt like some sluggish cold-blooded creature
crawling from under a rock where it had crept to die, meeting the
unexpected miracle of the sun. He might trail around after her all day,
meeping piteously, hoping she would light him again for just one more
glorious moment. His therapist had had a few stern words to him on the
subject of this addiction—It's not fair to Kareen to lay such a
burden on her, now is it? You must learn to give, from sufficiency, not
only take, from neediness. Quite right, quite right. But dammit, even his therapist
liked Kareen, and was trying to recruit her for the profession.
Everyone liked Kareen, because Kareen liked everyone. They wanted to be
around her; she made them feel good inside. They would do anything for
her. She had in abundance everything Mark most lacked, and most longed
for: good cheer, infectious enthusiasm, empathy, sanity. The woman had
the most tremendous future in sales—what a team the two of them might
make, Mark for analysis, Kareen for the interface with the rest of
humanity . . . The mere thought of losing her, for any reason, made
Mark frantic.
His incipient panic attack vanished
and his breathing steadied as she reappeared safely, with Enrique and
Madame Vorsoisson still in tow. Despite the loss of ambition on
everyone's part due to lunch, Kareen got them all up and moving again
for the second of the day's tasks, collecting the rocks for Miles's
garden. Tsipis had rustled them up a holo-map, directions, and two
large, amiable young men with hand tractors and a lift van; the lift
van followed the lightflyer as Mark headed them south toward the
looming gray spine of the Dendarii Mountains.
Mark
brought them down in a mountain vale bordered by a rocky ravine. The
area was still more Vorkosigan family property, entirely undeveloped.
Mark could see why. The virgin patch of native Barrayaran—well, you
couldn't call it forest, quite, though scrub summed it up fairly well—extended for kilometers along the forbidding slopes.
Madame
Vorsoisson exited the lightflyer, and turned to take in the view to the
north, out over the peopled lowlands of the Vorkosigan's District. The
warm air softened the farthest horizon into a magical blue haze, but
the eye could still see for a hundred kilometers. Cumulous clouds
puffed white and, in three widely separated arcs, towered up over
silver-gray bases like rival castles.
"Oh," she said, her mouth melting in a smile. "Now that's
a proper sky. That's the way it should be. I can see why you said Lord
Vorkosigan likes it up here, Kareen." Her arms stretched out,
half-unconsciously, to their fullest extent, her fingers reaching into
free space. "Usually hills feel like walls around me, but this—this is
very fine."
The oxlike beings with the lift van
landed beside the lightflyer. Madame Vorsoisson led them and their
equipment scrambling down into the ravine, there to pick out her supply
of aesthetically-pleasing genuine Dendarii rocks and stones for the
minions to haul away to Vorbarr Sultana. Enrique followed after like a
lanky and particularly clumsy puppy. Since what went down would have to
puff and wheeze back up, Mark limited himself to a peek over the edge,
and then a stroll around the less daunting grade of the vale, holding
hands with Kareen.
When he slipped his arm around
her waist and cuddled in close, she melted around him, but when he
tried to slip in a subliminal sexual suggestion by nuzzling her breast,
she stiffened unhappily and pulled away. Damn.
"Kareen . . ." he protested plaintively.
She shook her head. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
"Don't
. . . apologize to me. It makes me feel very weird. I want you to want
me too, or it's no damn good. I thought you did."
"I
did. I do. I'm—" She bit off her words, and tried again. "I thought I
was a real adult, a real person, back on Beta Colony. Then I came back
here . . . I realize I'm dependent for every bite of food I put in my
mouth, for every stitch of clothing, for everything, on my family, and
this place. And I always was, even when I was on Beta. Maybe it was all
. . . fake."
He clutched her hand; that at least
he might not let go of. "You want to be good. All right, I can
understand that. But you have to be careful who you let define your good . My terrorist creators taught me that one, for damn sure."
She
clutched him back, at that feared memory, and managed a sympathetic
grimace. She hesitated, and went on, "It's the mutually exclusive
definitions that are driving me crazy. I can't be good for both places
at the same time. I learned how to be a good girl on Beta Colony, and
in its own way, it was just as hard as being a good girl here. And a
lot scarier, sometimes. But . . . I felt like I was getting bigger inside, if you can see what I mean."
"I
think so." He hoped he hadn't provided any of that scary, but suspected
he had. All right, he knew he had. There had been some dark times, last
year. Yet she had stuck with him. "But you have to choose Kareen's
good, not Barrayar's . . ." he took a deep breath, for honesty, "Not
even Beta's." Not even mine?
"Since I got back, it's like I can't even find myself to ask."
For
her, this was a metaphor, he reminded himself. Though maybe he was a
metaphor too, inside his head with the Black Gang. A metaphor gone
metastatic. Metaphors could do that, under enough pressure.
"I
want to go back to Beta Colony," she said in a low, passionate voice,
staring out unseeing into the breath-taking space below. "I want to
stay there till I'm a real grownup, and can be myself wherever I am. Like Countess Vorkosigan."
Mark's
brows rose at this idea of a role model for gentle Kareen. But you had
to say this for his mother, she didn't take any shit from any one for
any reason. It would be preferable, though, if one could catch a bit of
that quality without having to walk through war and fire barefoot to
get it.
Kareen in distress was like the sun going
dark. Apprehensively, he hugged her around the waist again.
Fortunately, she read it as support, as intended, and not importunity
again, and leaned into him in return.
The Black
Gang had their place as emergency shock troops, but they made piss-poor
commanders. Grunt would just have to wait some more. He could damn well
set up a date with Mark's right hand or something. This one was too
important to screw up, oh yeah.
But what if she finally became herself in a way that left no room for him . . . ?
There was nothing to eat, here. Change the subject, quick. "Tsipis seems to like Madame Vorsoisson."
Her face lightened with instant gratitude at this release. Therefore, I must have been pressuring her . Howl whimpered, from deep inside; Mark stifled him.
"Ekaterin? I do too."
So she was Ekaterin now: first names, good. He would have to send them off to the ladies' room some more. "Can you tell if she likes Miles?"
Kareen shrugged. "She seems to. She's working really hard on his garden and all."
"I
mean, is she in love at all? I've never even heard her call him by his
first name. How can you be in love with someone you're not on a
first-name basis with?"
"Oh, that's a Vor thing."
"Huh."
Mark took in this reassurance dubiously. "It's true Miles is being very
Vor. I think this Imperial Auditor thing has gone to his head. But do
you suppose you could kind of hang around her, and try to pick up some
clues?"
"Spy on her?" Kareen frowned disapproval. "Did Miles set you on me for this?"
"Actually, no. It was Tsipis. He's a bit worried for Miles. And—I am too."
"I would like to be friends with her . . ."
Naturally.
"She
doesn't seem to have very many. She's had to move a lot. And I think
whatever happened to her husband on Komarr was more ghastly than she
lets on. The woman is so full of silences, they spill over."
"But will she do for Miles? Will she be good for him?"
Kareen cocked an eyebrow down at him. "Is anyone bothering to ask if Miles will be good for her?"
"Um
. . . um . . . why not? Count's heir. Well-to-do. An Imperial Auditor,
for God's sake. What more could a Vor desire?"
"I
don't know, Mark. It likely depends on the Vor. I do know I'd take you
and every one of the Black Gang at their most obstreperous for a
hundred years before I'd let myself get locked up for a week with
Miles. He . . . takes you over ."
"Only if
you let him." But he warmed inside with the thought that she could
really, truly prefer him to the glorious Miles, and suddenly felt less
hungry.
"Do you have any idea what it takes to
stop him? I still remember being kids, me and my sisters, visiting Lady
Cordelia with Mama, and Miles told off to keep us occupied. Which was a
really cruel thing to do to a fourteen-year-old boy, but what did I
know? He decided the four of us should be an all-girl precision drill
team, and made us march around in the back garden of Vorkosigan House,
or in the ballroom when it was raining. I think I was four." She
frowned into the past. "What Miles needs is a woman who will tell him
to go soak his head, or it'll be a disaster. For her, not him." After a
moment, she added sapiently, "Though if for her, for him too, sooner or
later."
"Ow."
The amiable
young men came panting back up out of the ravine then, and took the
lift van back down into it. With clanks and thumps, they finished
loading, and their van lumbered into the air and headed north. Some
time later, Enrique and Madame Vorsoisson appeared, breathless.
Enrique, who clutched a huge bundle of native Barrayaran plants, looked
quite cheerful. In fact, he actually looked as if he had blood
circulation. The scientist probably hadn't been outdoors for years; it
was doubtless good for him, despite the fact that he was dripping wet
from having fallen in the creek.
They managed to
get the plants stuffed in the back, and Enrique half-dried, and
everyone loaded up again as the sun slanted west. Mark took pleasure in
trying the lightflyer's speed, as they circled the vale one last time
and banked northward, back toward the capital. The machine hummed like
an arrow, sweet beneath his feet and fingertips, and they reached the
outskirts of Vorbarr Sultana again before dusk.
They
dropped off Madame Vorsoisson first, at her aunt and uncle's home near
the University, with many promises that she would stop in at Vorkosigan
House on the morrow and help Enrique look up the scientific names of
all his new botanical samples. Kareen hopped out at the corner in front
of her family's townhouse, and gave Mark a little farewell kiss on the
cheek. Down, Grunt. That wasn't to your address .
Mark
slipped the lightflyer back into its corner in the subbasement garage
of Vorkosigan House, and followed Enrique into the lab to help him give
the butter bugs their evening feed and checkup. Enrique did stop short
of singing lullabies to the little creepy-crawlies, though he was in
the habit of talking, half to them and half to himself, under his
breath as he puttered around the lab. The man had worked all alone for
too damned long, in Mark's view. Tonight, though, Enrique hummed as he
separated his new supply of plants according to a hierarchy known only
to himself and Madame Vorsoisson, some into beakers of water and some
spread to dry on paper on the lab bench.
Mark
turned from weighing, recording, and scattering a few generous scoops
of tree bits into the butter bug hutches to find Enrique settling at
his comconsole and firing it up. Ah, good. Perhaps the Escobaran was
about to commit some more futurely-profitable science. Mark wandered
over, preparing to kibitz approvingly. Enrique was busying himself not
with a vertigo-inducing molecular display, but with an array of
closely-written text.
"What's that?" Mark asked.
"I promised to send Ekaterin a copy of my doctoral thesis. She asked ," Enrique explained proudly, and in a tone of some wonder. "Toward Bacterial and Fungal Suite-Synthesis of Extra-cellular Energy Storage Compounds
. It was the basis of all my later work with the butter bugs, when I
finally hit upon them as the perfect vehicle for the microbial suite."
"Ah." Mark hesitated. It's Ekaterin for you too, now?
Well, if Kareen had got on a first-name basis with the widow, Enrique,
also present, couldn't very well have been excluded, could he? "Will
she be able to read it?" Enrique wrote just the same way he talked, as
far as Mark had seen.
"Oh, I don't expect her to
follow the molecular energy-flow mathematics—my faculty advisors had a
struggle with those—but she'll get the gist of it, I'm sure, from the
animations. Still . . . perhaps I could do something about this
abstract, to make it more attractive at first glance. I have to admit,
it's a trifle dry." He bit his lip, and bent over his comconsole. After
a minute he asked, "Can you think of a word to rhyme with glyoxylate ?"
"Not . . . off-hand. Try orange . Orsilver ."
"Those don't rhyme with anything. If you can't be helpful, Mark, go away."
"What are you doing ?"
"Isocitrate
, of course, but that doesn't quite scan . . . I'm trying to see if I
can produce a more striking effect by casting the abstract in sonnet
form."
"That sounds downright . . . stunning."
"Do you think?" Enrique brightened, and started humming again. "Threonine, serine, polar, molar . . ."
"Dolor,"
Mark supplied at random. "Bowler." Enrique waved him off irritably.
Dammit, Enrique wasn't supposed to be wasting his valuable brain-time
writing poetry; he was supposed to be designing long-chain molecule
interactions with favorable energy-flows or something. Mark stared at
the Escobaran, bent like a pretzel in his comconsole station chair in
his concentration, and his brows drew down in sudden worry.
Even Enrique couldn't imagine he might attract a woman with his dissertation, could he? Or was that, only Enrique could imagine . . . ? It was, after all, his sole signal success in his short life. Mark had to grant, any woman he could
attract that way was the right sort for him, but . . . but not this
one. Not the one Miles had fallen in love with. Madame Vorsoisson was
excessively polite, though. She would doubtless say something kind no
matter how appalled she was by the offering. And Enrique, who was as
starved for kindness as . . . as someone else Mark knew all too well,
would build upon it . . .
Expediting the removal
of the Bugworks to its new permanent site in the District seemed
suddenly a much more urgent task. Lips pursed, Mark tiptoed quietly out
of the lab.
Padding up the hall, he could still
hear Enrique's happy murmur, "Mucopolysaccharide, hm, there's a good
one, like the rhythm, mu –co-pol –ee-sacc –a-ride . . ."
* * *
The
Vorbarr Sultana shuttleport was enjoying a mid-evening lull in traffic.
Ivan stared impatiently around the concourse, and shifted his
welcome-home bouquet of musky-scented orchids from his right hand to
his left. He trusted Lady Donna would not arrive too jump-lagged and
exhausted for a little socialization later. The flowers should strike
just the right opening note in this renewal of their acquaintance; not
so grand and gaudy as to suggest desperation on his part, but
sufficiently elegant and expensive to indicate serious interest to
anyone as cognizant of the nuances as Donna was.
Beside
Ivan, Byerly Vorrutyer leaned comfortably against a pillar and crossed
his arms. He glanced at the bouquet and smiled a little By smile, which
Ivan noted but ignored. Byerly might be a source of witty, or
half-witty, editorial comment, but he certainly wasn't competition for
his cousin's amorous attentions.
A few elusive
wisps of the erotic dream he'd had about Donna last night tantalized
Ivan's memory. He would offer to carry her luggage, he decided, or
rather, some of it, whatever she had in her hand for which he might
trade the flowers. Lady Donna did not travel light, as he recalled.
Unless
she came back lugging a uterine replicator with Pierre's clone in it.
That, By could handle all by himself; Ivan wasn't touching it with a
stick. By had remained maddeningly closed-mouthed about what Lady Donna
had gone to obtain on Beta Colony that she thought would thwart her
cousin Richars's inheritance, but really, somebody had to try the
clone-ploy sooner or later. The political complications might land in
his Vorkosigan cousins' laps, but as a Vorpatril of a mere junior line,
he could steer clear. He didn't have a vote in the Council of Counts, thank God.
"Ah."
By pushed off from the pillar and gazed up the concourse, and raised a
hand in brief greeting. "Here we go."
Ivan
followed his glance. Three men were approaching them. The white-haired,
grim-looking fellow on the right, returning By's wave, he recognized
even out of uniform as the late Count Pierre's tough senior
Armsman—what was his name?—Szabo. Good, Lady Donna had taken help and
protection on her long journey. The tall fellow on the left, also in
civvies, was one of Pierre's other guardsmen. His junior status was
discernible both by his age and by the fact that he was the one towing
the float pallet with the three valises aboard. He had an expression on
his face with which Ivan could identify, a sort of covert crogglement
common to Barrayarans just back from their first visit to Beta Colony,
as if he wasn't sure whether to fall to the ground and kiss the
concrete or turn around and run back to the shuttle.
The
man in the center Ivan had never seen before. He was an
athletic-looking fellow of middle height, more lithe than muscular,
though his shoulders filled his civilian tunic quite well. He was
soberly dressed in black, with the barest pale gray piping making
salute to the Barrayaran style of pseudo-military ornamentation in
men's wear. The subtle clothes set off his lean good looks: pale skin,
thick dark brows, close-cropped black hair, and trim, glossy black
beard and mustache. His step was energetic. His eyes were an electric
brown, and seemed to dart all around as if seeing the place for the
first time, and liking what they saw.
Oh, hell,
had Donna picked up a Betan paramour? This could be annoying. The
fellow wasn't a mere boy, either, Ivan saw as they came up to him and
By; he was at least in his mid-thirties. There was something oddly
familiar about him. Damned if he didn't look a true Vorrutyer—that
hair, those eyes, that smirking swagger. An unknown son of Pierre's?
The secret reason, revealed at last, why the Count had never married?
Pierre would've had to have been about fifteen when he'd sired the
fellow, but it was possible.
By exchanged a
cordial nod with the smiling stranger, and turned to Ivan. "You two, I
think, need no introduction."
"I think we do," Ivan protested.
The
fellow's white grin broadened, and he stuck out a hand, which Ivan
automatically took. His grip was firm and dry. "Lord Dono Vorrutyer, at
your service, Lord Vorpatril." His voice was a pleasant tenor, his
accent not Betan at all, but educated Barrayaran Vor-class.
It was the smiling eyes that did it at last, bright like embers.
"Aw, shit ," hissed Ivan, recoiling, and snatching back his hand. "Donna, you didn't
." Betan medicine, oh, yeah. And Betan surgery. They could, and would,
do anything on Beta Colony, if you had the money and could convince
them you were a freely consenting adult.
"If I
have my way with the Council of Counts, soon to be Count Dono
Vorrutyer," Donna—Dono—whoever—went on smoothly.
"Or
killed on sight." Ivan stared at . . . him, in draining disbelief. "You
don't seriously think you can make this fly, do you?"
He—she—twitched
a brow at Armsman Szabo, who raised his chin a centimeter. Donna/Dono
said, "Oh, believe me, we went over the risks in detail before starting
out." She/he, whatever, spotted the orchids clutched forgotten in
Ivan's left hand. "Why, Ivan, are those for me ? How sweet of
you!" she cooed, wrested them from him, and raised them to her nose.
Beard occluded, she blinked demure black eyelashes at him over the
bouquet, suddenly and horribly Lady Donna again.
"Don't do that in public," said Armsman Szabo through his teeth.
"Sorry Szabo." The voice's pitch plunged again to its initial masculine depth. "Couldn't resist. I mean, it's Ivan ."
Szabo's shrug conceded the point, but not the issue.
"I'll
control myself from now on, I promise." Lord Dono reversed the flowers
in his grip and swept them down to his side as though holding a spear,
and came to a shoulders-back, feet-apart posture of quasimilitary
attention.
"Better," said Szabo judiciously.
Ivan
stared in horrified fascination. "Did the Betan doctors make you
taller, too?" He glanced down; Lord Dono's half-boot heels were not
especially thick.
"I'm the same height I always was, Ivan. Other things have changed, but not my height."
"No, you are taller, dammit. At least ten centimeters."
"Only
in your mind. One of the many fascinating psychological side effects of
testosterone I am discovering, along with the amazing mood-swings. When
we get home we can measure me, and I'll prove it to you."
"Yes,"
said By, glancing around, "I do suggest we continue this conversation
in a more private place. Your groundcar is waiting as you instructed,
Lord Dono, with your driver." He offered his cousin a little ironic bow.
"You . . . don't need me, to intrude on this family reunion," Ivan excused himself. He began to sidle away.
"Oh,
yes we do," said By. With matching evil grins, the two Vorrutyers each
took Ivan by an arm, and began to march him toward the exit. Dono's
grip was convincingly muscular. The Armsmen followed.
They
found the late Count Pierre's official groundcar where By had left it.
The alert Armsman-driver in the Vorrutyers' famous blue-and-gray livery
hurried to raise the rear canopy for Lord Dono and his party. The
driver looked sidelong at the new lord, but appeared entirely
unsurprised by the transformation. The younger Armsman finished stowing
the limited luggage and slid into the front compartment with the
driver, saying, "Damn, I'm glad to be home. Joris, you would not believe what I saw on Beta—"
The
canopy lowered on Dono, By, Szabo, and Ivan in the rear compartment,
cutting off his words. The car pulled smoothly away from the
shuttleport. Ivan twisted his neck, and asked plaintively, "Was that
all your luggage?" Lady Donna used to require a second car to carry it
all. "Where is the rest of it?"
Lord Dono leaned
back in his seat, raised his chin, and stretched his legs out before
him. "I dumped it all back on Beta Colony. One case is all my Armsmen
are expected to travel with, Ivan. Live and learn."
Ivan noted the possessive, my Armsmen. "Are they—" he nodded at Szabo, listening, "are you all in on this?"
"Of
course," said Dono easily. "Had to be. We all met together the night
after Pierre died, Szabo and I presented the plan, and they swore
themselves to me then."
"Very, um . . . loyal of them."
Szabo
said, "We've all had a number of years to watch Lady Donna help run the
District. Even my men who were less than, mm, personally taken with the
plan are District men bred and true. No one wanted to see it fall to
Richars."
"I suppose you all have had
opportunities to watch him, too, over time," allowed Ivan. He added
after a moment, "How'd he manage to piss you all off?"
"He didn't do it overnight," said By. "Richars isn't that heroic. It's taken him years of persistent effort."
"I
doubt," said Dono in a suddenly clinical tone, "that anyone would care,
at this late date, that he tried to rape me when I was twelve, and when
I fought him off, drowned my new puppy in retaliation. After all, no
one cared at the time."
"Er," said Ivan.
"Give
your family credit," By put in, "Richars convinced them all the puppy's
death had been your fault. He's always been very good at that sort of
thing."
"You believed my version," said Dono to By. "Almost the only person to do so."
"Ah, but I'd had my own experiences with Richars by then," said By. He did not volunteer further details.
"I was not yet in your father's service," Szabo pointed out, possibly in self-exculpation.
"Count yourself lucky," sighed Dono. "To describe that household as lax would be overly kind. And no one else could impose order till the old man finally stroked out."
"Richars
Vorrutyer," Armsman Szabo continued to Ivan, "observing Count Pierre's,
er, nervous problems, has counted the Vorrutyer Countship and District
as his property anytime these last twenty years. It was never in his
interest to see poor Pierre get better, or form a family of his own. I
know for a fact that he bribed the relatives of the first young lady to
whom Pierre was engaged to break it off, and sell her elsewhere.
Pierre's second effort at courtship, Richars thwarted by smuggling the
girl's family certain of Pierre's private medical records. The third
fiancйe's death in that flyer wreck was never proved to be anything but
an accident. But Pierre didn't believe it was an accident."
"Pierre . . . believed a lot of strange things," Ivan noted nervously.
"I
didn't think it was an accident either," said Szabo dryly. "One of my
best men was driving. He was killed too."
"Oh. Um. But Pierre's own death is not suspected . . . ?"
Szabo
shrugged. "I believe the family tendency to those circulatory diseases
would not have killed Pierre if he hadn't been too depressed to take
proper care of himself."
"I tried , Szabo,"
said Dono—Donna—bleakly. "After that episode with the medical records,
he was so incredibly paranoid about his doctors."
"Yes,
I know." Szabo began to pat her hand, caught himself, and gave him a
soft consoling punch in the shoulder instead. Dono's smile twisted in
appreciation.
"In any case," Szabo went on, "it
was abundantly plain that no Armsman who was loyal to Pierre—and we all
were, God help the poor man—would last five minutes in Richars's
service. His first step—and we'd all heard him say so—would be to make
a clean sweep of everything and everyone loyal to Pierre, and install
his own creatures. Pierre's sister being the first to go, of course."
"If Richars had a gram of self-preservation," murmured Dono fiercely.
"Could he do that?" asked Ivan doubtfully. "Evict you from your home? Have you no rights under Pierre's will?"
"Home,
District, and all." Dono smiled grimly. "Pierre made no will, Ivan. He
didn't want to name Richars as his successor, wasn't all that fond of
Richars's brothers or sons either, and was still, I think, even to the
last, hoping to cut him out with an heir of his own body. Hell, Pierre
might have expected to live forty more years, with modern medicine. All
I would have had as Lady Donna was the pittance from my own dowries.
The estate's in the most incredible mess."
"I'm not surprised," said Ivan. "But do you really think you can make this work? I mean, Richars is heir-presumptive. And whatever you are now, you weren't Pierre's younger brother at the moment Pierre died."
"That's
the most important legal point in the plan. A Count's heir only
inherits at the moment of his predecessor's death if he's already been
sworn in before the Council. Otherwise, the District isn't inherited
till the moment the Counts confirm it. And at that moment—some time in
the next couple of weeks—I will be, demonstrably, Pierre's brother."
Ivan's
mouth screwed up, as he tried to work this through. Judging by the
smooth fit of the black tunic, the lovely great breasts in which he'd
once . . . never mind—anyway, they were clearly all gone now. "You've
really had surgery for . . . what did you do with . . . you didn't do
that hermaphrodite thing, did you? Or where is . . . everything?"
"If
you mean my former female organs, I jettisoned 'em with the rest of my
luggage back on Beta. You can scarcely find the scars, the surgeon was
so clever. They'd put in their time, God knows—can't say as I miss 'em."
Ivan
missed them already. Desperately. "I wondered if you might have had
them frozen. In case things don't work out, or you change your mind."
Ivan tried to keep the hopeful tone out of his voice. "I know there are
Betans who switch sexes back and forth three or four times in their
lives."
"Yes, I met some of them at the clinic. They were most helpful and friendly, I must say."
Szabo
rolled his eyes only slightly. Was Szabo acting as Lord Dono's personal
valet now? It was customary for a Count's senior Armsman to do so.
Szabo must have witnessed it all, in detail. Two witnesses. She took two witnesses, I see.
"No,"
Dono went on, "if I ever change back—which I have no plans to do, forty
years were enough—I'd start all over with fresh cloned organs, just as
I've done for this. I could be a virgin again. What a dreadful thought."
Ivan
hesitated. He finally asked, "Didn't you need to add a Y chromosome
from somewhere? Where'd you get it? Did the Betans supply it?" He
glanced helplessly at Dono's crotch, and quickly away. "Can Richars
argue that the—the inheriting bit is part-Betan?"
"I thought of that. So I got it from Pierre."
"You
didn't have, um, your new male organs cloned from him?" Ivan boggled at
this grotesque idea. It made his mind hurt. Was it some kind of
techno-incest, or what?
"No, no! I admit, I did
borrow a tiny tissue sample from my brother—he didn't need it, by
then—and the Betan doctors did use part of a chromosome from it, just
for my new cloned parts. My new testicles are a little less than two
percent Pierre, I suppose, depending on how you calculate it. If I ever
decide to give my prick a nickname, the way some fellows do, I suppose
I ought to call it after him. I don't feel much inclined to do so,
though. It feels very all-me."
"But are the chromosomes of your body still double-X?"
"Well,
yes." Dono frowned uneasily, and scratched his beard. "I expect Richars
to try to make a point with that, if he thinks of it. I did look into
the retrogenetic treatment for complete somatic transformation. I
didn't have time for it, the complications can be strange, and for a
gene splice this large the result is usually no better than a partial
cellular mosaic, a chimera, hit-or-miss. Sufficient for treating some
genetic diseases, but not the legal disease of being
some-little-cell-female. But the portion of my tissues responsible for
fathering the next little Vorrutyer heir is certifiably XY, and
incidentally, made free of genetic disease, damage, and mutation while
we were about it. The next Count Vorrutyer won't have a bad heart.
Among other things. The prick's always been the most important
qualification for a Countship anyway. History says so."
By
chuckled. "Maybe they'll just let the prick vote." He made an X gesture
down by his crotch, and intoned sonorously, "Dono, his mark ."
Lord
Dono grinned. "While it wouldn't be the first time a real prick has
held a seat in the Council of Counts, I'm hoping for a more complete
victory. That's where you come in, Ivan."
"Me? I don't have anything to do with this! I don't want
anything to do with this." Ivan's startled protests were cut short by
the car slowing in front of the Vorrutyers' townhouse and turning in.
Vorrutyer
House was a generation older than Vorkosigan House and correspondingly
notably more fortresslike. Its severe stone walls threw projections out
to the sidewalk in a blunted star pattern, giving crossfire onto what
had been a mud street decorated with horse dung in the great house's
heyday. It had no windows on the ground floor at all, just a few
gun-slits. Thick iron-bound planks, scorning carving or any other
decorative effect, formed the double doors into its inner courtyard;
they now swung aside at an automated signal, and the groundcar squeezed
through the passage. The walls were marked with smears of vehicle
enamel from less careful drivers. Ivan wondered if the murder-holes in
the dark arched roof, above, were still functional. Probably.
The
place had been restored with an eye to defense by the great general
Count Pierre "Le Sanguinaire" Vorrutyer himself, who was principally
famous as Emperor Dorca's trusted right arm/head thug in the civil war
that had broken the power of the independent Counts just before the end
of the Time of Isolation. Pierre had made serious enemies, all of whom
he had survived into a foul-tongued old age. It had taken the invading
Cetagandans and all their techno-weaponry to finally put an end to him,
with great difficulty, after an infamous and costly siege—not of this
place, of course. Old Pierre's eldest daughter had married an earlier
Count Vorkosigan, which was where the Pierre of Mark's middle name had
come down from. Ivan wondered what old Pierre would think of his
offshoots now. Maybe he would like Richars best. Maybe his ghost still
walked here. Ivan shuddered, stepping out onto the dark cobblestones.
The
driver took the car off to its garage, and Lord Dono led the way, two
steps at a time, up the green-black granite staircase out of the
courtyard and into the house. He paused to sweep a glance back over the
stony expanse. "First thing is, I'm going to get some more light out
here," he remarked to Szabo.
"First thing is, get the title deed in your name," Szabo returned blandly.
"My new name." Dono gave him a short nod, and pushed onward.
The
interior of the house was so ill-lit, one couldn't make out the mess,
but apparently all had been left exactly as it had been dropped when
Count Pierre had last gone down to his District some months ago. The
echoing chambers had a derelict, musty odor. They fetched up finally,
after laboring up two more gloomy staircases, in the late Count's
abandoned bedroom.
"Guess I'll sleep here
tonight," said Lord Dono, staring around dubiously. "I want clean
sheets on the bed first, though."
"Yes, m'lord," said Szabo.
Byerly
cleared a pile of plastic flimsies, dirty clothes, dried fruit rinds,
and other detritus from an armchair, and settled himself comfortably,
legs crossed. Dono prowled the room, staring rather sadly at his dead
brother's few and forlorn personal effects, picking up and putting down
a set of hairbrushes—Pierre had been balding—dried-up cologne bottles,
small coins. "Starting tomorrow, I want this place cleaned up. I'm not
waiting for the title deed for that, if I have to live here."
"I
know a good commercial service," Ivan couldn't help volunteering. "They
clean Vorkosigan House for Miles when the Count and Countess aren't in
residence, I know."
"Ah? Good." Lord Dono made a
gesture at Szabo. The Armsman nodded, and promptly collected the
particulars from Ivan, noting them down on his pocket audiofiler.
"Richars
made two attempts to take possession of the old pile while you were
gone," Byerly reported. "The first time, your Armsmen stood firm and
wouldn't let him in."
"Good men," muttered Szabo.
"Second
time, he came round with a squad of municipal guardsmen and an order
he'd conned out of Lord Vorbohn. Your officer of the watch called me,
and I was able to get a counter-order from the Lord Guardian of the
Speaker's Circle with which to conjure them away. It was quite
exciting, for a little while. Pushing and shoving in the doorways . . .
no one drew weapons, or was seriously injured, though, more's the pity.
We might have been able to sue Richars."
"We've
lawsuits enough." Dono sighed, sat on the edge of the bed, and crossed
his legs. "But thanks for what you did, By."
By waved this away.
"Below the knees, if you must," said Szabo. "Knees apart is better."
Dono immediately rearranged his pose, crossing his ankles instead, but noted, "By sits that way."
"By is not a good male model to copy."
By
made a moue at Szabo, and flipped one wrist out limply. "Really, Szabo,
how can you be so cruel? And after I saved your old homestead, too."
Everyone
ignored him. "How about Ivan?" Dono asked Szabo, eyeing Ivan
speculatively. Ivan was suddenly unsure of where to put his feet, or
his hands.
"Mm, fair. The very best model, if you can remember exactly how he moved, would be Aral Vorkosigan. Now, that
was power in motion. His son doesn't do too badly, either, projecting
beyond his real space. Young Lord Vorkosigan is just a bit studied,
though. Count Vorkosigan just is."
Lord Dono's
thick black brows snapped up, and he rose to stalk across the room,
flip a desk chair around, and straddle it, arms crossed along its back.
He rested his chin on his arms and glowered.
"Huh!
I recognize that one," said Szabo. "Not bad, keep working on it. Try to
take up more space with your elbows."
Dono
grinned, and leaned one hand on his thigh, elbow cocked out. After a
moment, he jumped up again, and went to Pierre's closet, flung the
doors wide, and began rooting within. A Vorrutyer House uniform tunic
sailed out to land on the bed, followed by trousers and a shirt; then
one tall boot after another thumped to the bed's end. Dono reemerged,
dusty and bright-eyed.
"Pierre wasn't that much
taller than me, and I always could wear his shoes, if I had thick
socks. Get a seamstress in here tomorrow—"
"Tailor," Szabo corrected.
"Tailor, and we'll see how much of this I can use in a hurry."
"Very good, m'lord."
Dono began unfastening his black tunic.
"I think it's time for me to go now," said Ivan.
"Please sit down, Lord Vorpatril," said Armsman Szabo.
"Yes, come sit by me, Ivan." Byerly patted his upholstered chair arm invitingly.
"Sit
down, Ivan," Lord Dono growled. His burning eyes suddenly crinkled, and
he murmured, "For old time's sake, if nothing else. You used to run into my bedroom to watch me undress, not out of it. Must I lock the door and make you play hunt the key again?"
Ivan
opened his mouth, raised a furious admonishing finger in protest,
thought better of it, and sank to a seat on the edge of the bed. You wouldn't dare
seemed suddenly a really unwise thing to say to the former Lady Donna
Vorrutyer. He crossed his ankles, then hastily uncrossed them again and
set his feet apart, then crossed them again, and twined his hands
together in vast discomfort. "I don't see what you need me for," he
said plaintively.
"So you can witness," said Szabo.
"So
you can testify," said Dono. The tunic hit the bed beside Ivan, making
him jump, followed by a black T-shirt.
Well, Dono
had spoken truly about the Betan surgeon; there weren't any visible
scars. His chest sprouted a faint nest of black hairs; his musculature
tended to the wiry. The shoulders of the tunic hadn't been padded.
"So you can gossip
, of course," said By, lips parted in either some bizarre prurient
interest, or keen enjoyment of Ivan's embarrassment, or more likely
both at once.
"If you think I'm going to say one word about being here tonight to anyone —"
With a smooth motion, Dono kicked his black trousers onto the bed atop the tunic. His briefs followed.
"Well?"
Dono stood before Ivan with an utterly cheerful leer on his face. "What
do you think? Do they do good work on Beta, or what?"
Ivan glanced sidelong at him, and away. "You look . . . normal," he admitted reluctantly.
"Well, show me while you're at it," By said.
Dono turned before him.
"Not bad," said By judiciously, "but aren't you a trifle, ah, juvenile?"
Dono
sighed. "It was a rush job. Quality, but rush. I went from the hospital
straight to the jumpship for home. The organs are going to have to
finish growing in situ , the doctors tell me. A few months yet to fully adult morphology. The incisions don't hurt anymore, though."
"Ooh," said By, "puberty. What fun for you."
"On
fast-forward, at that. But the Betans have smoothed that out a lot for
me. You have to give them credit, they're a people in control of their
hormones."
Ivan conceded reluctantly, "My cousin
Miles, when he had his heart and lungs and guts replaced, said it took
almost a full year for his breathing and energy to be completely back
to normal. They had to finish growing back to adult size after they
were installed too. I'm sure . . . it will be all right." He added
after a helpless moment, "So does it work?"
"I can
piss standing up, yeah." Dono reached over and retrieved his briefs,
and slid them back on. "As for the other, well, real soon now, I
understand. I can hardly wait for my first wet dream."
"But
will any woman want to . . . it's not like you're going to be keeping
it a secret, who and what you were before . . . how will you, um . . .
That's one place Armsman Pygmalion over there," Ivan waved at Szabo,
"won't be able to coach you."
Szabo smiled faintly, the most expression Ivan had seen on his face tonight.
"Ivan, Ivan, Ivan." Dono shook his head, and scooped up the House uniform trousers. "I taught you how, didn't I? Of all the problems I expect to have . . . puzzling how to lose my male virginity isn't one of them. Really."
"It . . . doesn't seem fair," said Ivan in a smaller voice. "I mean, we had to figure all this stuff out when we were thirteen."
"As opposed to, say, twelve?" Dono inquired tightly.
"Um."
Dono
buckled the trousers—they were not too snug across the hips after
all—hitched into the tunic, and frowned at his reflection in the
mirror. He bunched handfuls of extra fabric at the sides. "Yeah,
that'll do. The tailor should have it ready by tomorrow night. I want
to wear this when I go present my evidence of impediment at Vorhartung
Castle."
The blue-and-gray Vorrutyer House uniform
was going to look exceptionally good on Lord Dono, Ivan had to concede.
Maybe that would be a good day to call in his Vor rights and get a
ticket, and take a discreet back seat in the visitor's gallery at the
Council of Counts. Just to see what happened, to use one of Gregor's
favorite phrases.
Gregor . . .
"Does Gregor know about this?" Ivan asked suddenly. "Did you tell him your plan, before you left for Beta?"
"No, of course not," said Dono. He sat on the bed's edge, and began pulling on the boots.
Ivan could feel his teeth clench. "Are you out of your minds?"
"As
somebody or another is fond of quoting—I think it was your cousin
Miles—it is always easier to get forgiveness than permission." Dono
rose, and went to the mirror to check the effect of the boots.
Ivan
clutched his hair. "All right. You two—you three—dragged me up here
because you claimed you wanted my help. I'm going to hand you a hint.
Free." He took a deep breath. "You can blindside me, and laugh your
heads off if you want to. It won't be the first time I've been the
butt. You can blindside Richars with my good will. You can blindside
the whole Council of Counts. Blindside my cousin Miles—please. I want
to watch. But do not, if you value your chances, if you mean this to be
anything other than a big, short joke, do not blindside Gregor."
Byerly
grimaced uncertainly; Dono, turning before the mirror, shot Ivan a
penetrating look. "Go to him, you mean?"
"Yes. I
can't make you," Ivan went on sternly, "but if you don't, I
categorically refuse to have anything more to do with you."
"Gregor can kill it all with a word," said Dono warily. "Before it even launches."
"He
can," said Ivan, "but he won't, without strong motivation. Don't give
him that motivation. Gregor does not like political surprises."
"I thought Gregor was fairly easy-going," said By, "for an emperor."
"No,"
said Ivan firmly. "He is not. He is merely rather quiet. It's not the
same thing at all. You don't want to see what he's like pissed."
"What does he look like, pissed?" asked By curiously.
"Identical to what he looks like the rest of the time. That's the scary part."
Dono
held up a hand, as By opened his mouth again. "By, aside from the
chance to amuse yourself, you pulled Ivan in on this tonight because of
his connections, or so you claimed. In my experience, it's a bad idea
to ignore your expert consultants."
By shrugged. "It's not like we're paying him anything."
"I
am calling in some old favors. This costs me. And it's not from a fund
I can replace." Dono's glance swept to Ivan. "So what exactly do you
suggest we do?"
"Ask Gregor for a brief interview. Before
you talk to or see anyone else at all, even over the comconsole. Chin
up, look him in the eye—" An ungodly thought occurred to Ivan then.
"Wait, you didn't ever sleep with him , did you?"
Dono's
lips, and mustache, twitched up with amusement. "No, unfortunately. A
missed opportunity I now regret deeply, I assure you."
"Ah."
Ivan breathed relief. "All right. Then just tell him what you plan to
do. Claim your rights. He'll either decide to let you run, or he'll
impound you. If he cuts you off, well, the worst will be over, and
quickly. If he decides to let you run . . . you'll have a silent backer
even Richars at his most vicious can't top."
Dono
leaned against Pierre's bureau, and drummed his fingers in the dust
atop it. The orchids now lay there in a forlorn heap. Wilted, like
Ivan's dreams. Dono's lips pursed. "Can you get us in?" he asked at
last.
"I, uh . . . I, uh . . ."
His gaze became more urgent, piercing. "Tomorrow?"
"Ah . . ."
"Morning?"
"Not morning ," By protested faintly.
"Early," insisted Dono.
"I'll . . . seewhatIcando," Ivan managed at last.
Dono's face lit. "Thank you!"
The
extraction of this reluctant promise had one beneficial side-effect:
the Vorrutyers proved willing to let their captive audience go, the
better for Ivan to hurry home and call Emperor Gregor. Lord Dono
insisted on detailing his car and a driver to take Ivan the short
distance to his apartment, thwarting Ivan's faint hope of being mugged
and murdered in a Vorbarr Sultana alleyway on the way home and thus
avoiding the consequences of this evening's revelations.
Blessedly
alone in the back of the groundcar, Ivan entertained a brief prayer
that Gregor's schedule would be too packed to admit the proposed
interview. But it was more likely he'd be so shocked at Ivan breaking
his rule of a low profile, he'd make room at once. In Ivan's
experience, the only thing more dangerous to such innocent bystanders
as himself than arousing Gregor's wrath was arousing his curiosity.
Once
back safely in his little apartment, Ivan locked the door against all
Vorrutyers past and present. He'd beguiled his time yesterday imagining
entertaining the voluptuous Lady Donna here . . . what a waste. Not
that Lord Dono didn't make a passable man, but Barrayar didn't need
more men. Though Ivan supposed they might reverse Donna's ploy, and
send the excess male population to Beta Colony to be altered into the
more pleasing form . . . he shuddered at the vision.
With
a reluctant sigh, he dug out the security card he'd managed to avoid
using for the past several years, and ran it through his comconsole's
read-slot.
Gregor's gatekeeper, a man in bland
civilian dress who did not identify himself—if you had this access, you
were supposed to know—answered at once. "Yes? Ah. Ivan."
"I would like to speak to Gregor, please."
"Excuse me, Lord Vorpatril, but did you mean to use this channel?"
"Yes."
The
gatekeeper's brows rose in surprise, but his hand moved to one side,
and his image blinked out. The comconsole chimed. Several times.
Gregor's
image came up at last. He was still dressed for the day, relieving
Ivan's alarmed visions of dragging him out of bed or the shower. The
background showed one of the Imperial Residence's cozier sitting rooms.
Ivan could just make out a fuzzy view of Dr. Toscane, in the
background. She seemed to be adjusting her blouse. Ulp. Keep it brief. Gregor clearly has better things to do tonight.
I wish I did.
Gregor's
blank expression changed to one of annoyance as he recognized Ivan.
"Oh. It's you." The irritated look faded slightly. "You never call me
on this channel, Ivan. Thought it had to be Miles. What's up?"
Ivan
took a deep breath. "I just came from meeting . . . Donna Vorrutyer at
the shuttleport. Back from Beta. You two need to see each other."
Gregor's brows rose. "Why?"
"I'm sure she'd much rather explain it all herself. I have nothing to do with this."
"You
do now. Lady Donna's calling in old favors, is she?" Gregor frowned,
and added a bit dangerously, "I am not a coin to be bartered in your
love affairs, Ivan."
"No, Sire," Ivan agreed
fervently. "But you want to see her. Really and truly. As soon as
possible. Sooner. Tomorrow. Morning. Early."
Gregor cocked his head. Curiously. "Just how important is this?"
"That's entirely for you to judge. Sire."
"If you
want nothing to do with it . . ." Gregor trailed off, and stared
unnervingly at Ivan. His hand at last tapped on his comconsole control,
and he glanced aside at some display Ivan could not see. "I could move
. . . hm. How about eleven sharp, in my office."
"Thank you, Sire." You won't regret this
seemed a much too optimistic statement to add. In fact, adding anything
at all had all the appeal of stepping over a cliff without a grav-suit.
Ivan smiled instead, and ducked his head in a little half-bow.
Gregor's
frown grew more thoughtful still, but after a moment of further
contemplation, he returned Ivan's nod, and cut the com.
CHAPTER EIGHT
Ekaterin sat before the comconsole in her aunt's
study, and ran again through the seasonal succession of Barrayaran
plants bordering the branching pathways of Lord Vorkosigan's garden.
The one sensory effect the design program could not help her model was
odor. For that most subtle and emotionally profound effect, she had to
rely on her own experience and memory.
On a soft
summer evening, a border of scrubwire would emit a spicy redolence that
would fill the air for meters around, but its color was muted and its
shape low and round. Intermittent stands of chuffgrass would break up
the lines, and reach full growth at the right time, but its sickly
citrus scent would clash with the scrubwire, and besides, it was on the
proscribed list of plants to which Lord Vorkosigan was allergic.
Ah—zipweed! Its blond and maroon stripes would provide excellent
vertical visual interest, and its faint sweet fragrance would combine
well, appetizingly even, with the scrubwire. Put a clump there by the
little bridge, and there and there. She altered the program, and ran
the succession again. Much better . She took a sip of her cooling tea, and glanced at the time.
She
could hear her Aunt Vorthys moving about in the kitchen. Late-sleeper
Uncle Vorthys would be down soon, and shortly afterwards Nikki, and
aesthetic concentration would be a lost cause. She had only a few days
for any last design refinements before she began working with real
plants in quantity. And less than two hours before she needed to be
showered and dressed and onsite to watch the crew hook up and test the
creek's water circulation.
If all went well, she
could start laying her supply of Dendarii rocks today, and tuning the
gentle burble of the water flow around and over and among them. The
sound of the creek was another subtlety the design program could not
help her with, though it had addressed environmental noise abatement.
The walls and curving terraces were up onsite, and satisfactory; the
city-noise-baffling effects were all she'd hoped for. Even in winter
the garden would be hushed and restful. Blanketed with snow broken only
by the bare up-reaching lines of the woodier scrub, the shape of the
space would still please the eye and soothe the mind and heart.
By
tonight, the bones of the thing would be complete. Tomorrow, the flesh,
in the form of trucked-in, unterraformed native soils from remote
corners of the Vorkosigan's District, would arrive. And tomorrow
evening before Lord Vorkosigan's dinner party, just for promise, she
would put the first plant into the soil: a certain spare rootling from
an ancient South Continent skellytum tree. It would be fifteen years or
more before it would grow to fill the space allotted for it, but what
of that? Vorkosigans had held this ground for two hundred years.
Chances were good Vorkosigans would still be there to see it in its
maturity. Continuity. With continuity like that, you could grow a real garden. Or a real family . . .
The
front door chimed, and Ekaterin jumped, abruptly aware she was still
dressed in an old set of her uncle's ship knits for pajamas, with her
hair escaping the tie at the nape of her neck. Her aunt's step sounded
from the kitchen into the tiled hall, and Ekaterin tensed to duck out
of the line of sight should it prove some formal visitor. Oh, dear,
what if it was Lord Vorkosigan? She'd waked at dawn with garden
revisions rioting through her head, sneaked quietly downstairs to work,
and hadn't even brushed her teeth yet—but the voice greeting her aunt
was a woman's, and a familiar one at that. Rosalie, here? Why?
A
dark-haired, fortyish woman leaned around the edge of the archway and
smiled. Ekaterin waved back in surprise, and rose to go to the hallway
and greet her. It was indeed Rosalie Vorvayne, the wife of Ekaterin's
eldest brother. Ekaterin hadn't seen her since Tien's funeral. She wore
conservative day-wear, skirt and jacket in a bronze green that
flattered her olive skin, though the cut was a little dowdy and
provincial. She had her daughter Edie in tow, to whom she said, "Run
along upstairs and find your cousin Nikki. I have to talk to your Aunt
Kat for a while." Edie had not quite reached the adolescent slouch
stage, and thumped off willingly enough.
"What brings you to the capital at this hour?" Aunt Vorthys asked Rosalie.
"Is Hugo and everyone all right?" Ekaterin added.
"Oh,
yes, we're all fine," Rosalie assured them. "Hugo couldn't get away
from work, so I was dispatched. I plan to take Edie shopping later, but
getting her up to catch the morning monorail was a real chore, believe
me."
Hugo Vorvayne held a post in the Imperial
Bureau of Mines northern regional headquarters in Vordarian's District,
two hours away from Vorbarr Sultana by the express. Rosalie must have
risen before light for this outing. Her two older sons, grown almost
past the surly stage, presumably had been left to their own devices for
the day.
"Have you had breakfast, Rosalie?" Aunt Vorthys asked. "Do you want any tea or coffee?"
"We ate on the monorail, but tea would be lovely, thank you, Aunt Vorthys."
Rosalie
and Ekaterin both followed their aunt into her kitchen to offer
assistance, and as a result all ended up seated around the kitchen
table with their steaming cups. Rosalie brought them up to date upon
the health of her husband, the events of her household, and the
accomplishments of her sons since Tien's funeral. Her eyes narrowed
with good humor, and she leaned forward confidingly. "But to answer
your question, what brings me here is you, Kat."
"Me?" said Ekaterin blankly.
"Can't you imagine why?"
Ekaterin wondered if it would be rude to say, No, how should I? She compromised with an inquiring gesture, and raised eyebrows.
"Your father had a visitor a couple of days ago."
Rosalie's
arch tone invited a guessing-game, but Ekaterin could only think of how
soon she might finish the social niceties and get away to her
work-site. She continued to smile dimly.
Rosalie
shook her head in amused exasperation, leaned forward, and tapped her
finger on the table beside her cup. "You, my dear, have a very eligible
offer."
"Offer of what?" Rosalie wasn't likely to
be bringing her a new garden design contract. But surely she couldn't
mean—
"Marriage, what else? And from a proper Vor
gentleman, too, I'm pleased to report. So old-fashioned of the man, he
sent a Baba all the way from Vorbarr Sultana to your da in South
Continent—it quite bowled the old man over. Your da called Hugo to pass
on the particulars. We decided that after all that baba-ing rather than
do it over the comconsole someone ought to tell you the good news in
person. We're all so pleased, to think you might be settled again so
soon."
Aunt Vorthys sat up, looking considerably startled. She put a finger to her lips.
A
Vor gentleman from the capital, old-fashioned and highly conscious of
etiquette, Da bowled over, who else could it be but—Ekaterin's heart
seemed to stop, then explode. Lord Vorkosigan? Miles, you rat, how could you do this without asking me first! Her lips parted in a dizzying mixture of fury and elation.
The arrogant little—! But . . . he to pick her
, to be his Lady Vorkosigan, chatelaine of that magnificent house and
of his ancestral District—there was so much to be done in that
beautiful District, so daunting and exciting—and Miles himself, oh, my.
That fascinating scarred short body, that burning intensity, to come to
her bed? His hands had touched her perhaps twice; they might as
well have left scorch marks on her skin, so clearly did her body
remember those brief pressures. She had not, had not dared, let herself
think about him in that way, but now her carnal consciousness of him
wrenched loose from its careful suppression and soared. Those humorous
gray eyes, that alert, mobile, kissable mouth with its extraordinary
range of expression . . . could be hers, all hers. But how dare he ambush her like this, in front of all her relatives?
"You're
pleased?" Rosalie, watching her face closely, sat back and smiled. "Or
should I say, thrilled? Good! And not completely surprised, I daresay."
"Not . . . completely." I just didn't believe it. I chose not to believe it, because . . . because it would have ruined everything . . .
"We
were afraid you might find it early days, after Tien and all. But the
Baba said he meant to steal a march on all his rivals, your da told
Hugo."
"He doesn't have any rivals." Ekaterin
swallowed, feeling decidedly faint, thinking of the remembered scent of
him. But how could he imagine that she—
"He has good hopes for his postmilitary career," Rosalie went on.
"Indeed, he's said so." It's all kinds of hubris
, Miles had told her once, describing his ambitions for fame to exceed
his father's. She'd gathered he didn't expect that fact to slow him
down in the least.
"Good family connections."
Ekaterin couldn't help smiling. "A slight understatement, Rosalie."
"Not
as rich as others of his rank, but well-enough to do, and I never
thought you were one to hold out for the money. Though I always did
think you needed to look a bit more to your own needs, Kat."
Well,
yes, Ekaterin had been dimly aware that the Vorkosigans were not as
wealthy as many other families of Count's rank, but Miles had riches
enough to drown in by her old straitened standards. She would never
have to pinch and scrape again. All her energy, all her thought, could
be freed for higher goals—Nikki would have every opportunity—"Plenty
enough for me, good heavens!"
But how bizarre of
him, to send a Baba all the way to South Continent to talk to her da .
. . was he that shy? Ekaterin's heart was almost touched, but for the
reflection that it might simply be that Miles gave no thought to how
much his wants inconvenienced others. Shy, or arrogant? Or both at
once? He could be a most ambiguous man sometimes—charming as . . . as
no one she'd ever met before, but elusive as water.
Not
just elusive; slippery. Borderline trickster, even. A chill stole over
her. Had his garden proposal been nothing more than a trick, a ploy to
keep her close under his eye? The full implications began to sink in at
last. Maybe he didn't admire her work. Maybe he didn't care about his
garden at all. Maybe he was merely manipulating her. She knew herself
to be hideously vulnerable to the faintest flattery. Her starvation for
the slightest scrap of interest or affection was part of what had kept
her self-prisoned in her marriage for so long. A kind of Tien-shaped
box seemed to loom darkly before her, like a pitfall trap baited with
poisoned love.
Had she betrayed herself again?
She'd so much wanted it to be true, wanted to take her first steps into
independence, to have the chance to display her prowess. She'd imagined
not just Miles, but all the people of the city, amazed and delighted by
her garden, and new orders pouring in, the launch of a career. . . .
You can't cheat an honest man
, the saying went. Or woman. If Lord Vorkosigan had manipulated her,
he'd done so with her full cooperation. Her hot rage was douched with
cold shame.
Rosalie was burbling on, " . . . want
to tell Lieutenant Vormoncrief the good news yourself, or should we go
round through his Baba again?"
Ekaterin blinked her back into focus. "What? Wait, who did you say?"
Rosalie stared back. "Lieutenant Vormoncrief. Alexi."
"That block?" cried Ekaterin in dawning horror. "Rosalie, never tell me you've been talking about Alexi Vormoncrief this whole time!"
"Why, yes," said Rosalie in dismay. "Who did you think, Kat?"
The Professora blew out her breath and sat back.
Ekaterin
was so upset the words escaped her mouth without thought. "I thought
you were talking about Miles Vorkosigan!"
The
Professora's brows shot up; it was Rosalie's turn to stare. "Who? Oh,
good heavens, you don't mean the Imperial Auditor fellow, do you? That
grotesque little man who came to Tien's funeral and hardly said a word
to anyone? No wonder you looked so odd. No, no, no." She paused to peer
more closely at her sister-in-law. "You don't mean to tell me he's been
courting you too? How embarrassing!"
Ekaterin took a breath, for balance. "Apparently not."
"Well, that's a relief."
"Um . . . yes."
"I
mean, he's a mutie, isn't he? High Vor or no, the family would never
urge you to match with a mutie just for money, Kat. Put that right out
of your mind." She paused thoughtfully. "Still . . . they're not
handing out too many chances to be a Countess. I suppose, with the
uterine replicators these days, you wouldn't actually have to have any
physical contact. To have children, I mean. And they could be
gene-cleaned. These galactic technologies give the idea of a marriage
of convenience a whole new twist. But it's not as though you were that
desperate."
"No," Ekaterin agreed hollowly. Just desperately distracted
. She was furious with the man; why should the notion of never ever
having to have any physical contact with him make her suddenly want to
burst into tears? Wait, no—if Vorkosigan wasn't the man who'd
sent the Baba, her whole case against him, which had bloomed so
violently in her mind just now, collapsed like a house of cards. He was
innocent. She was crazy, or headed that way fast.
"I mean," Rosalie went on in a tone of renewed encouragement, "here's Vormoncrief, for instance."
"Here is not
Vormoncrief," Ekaterin said firmly, grasping for the one certain anchor
in this whirlwind of confusion. "Absolutely not. You've never met the
man, Rosalie, but take it from me, he's a twittering idiot. Aunt
Vorthys, am I right or not?"
The Professora smiled
fondly at her. "I would not put it so bluntly, dear, but really,
Rosalie, shall we say, I think Ekaterin can do better. There's plenty
of time yet."
"Do you think so?" Rosalie took in
this assurance doubtfully, but accepted her elder aunt's authority.
"It's true Vormoncrief's only a lieutenant, and the descendant of a
younger son at that. Oh, dear. What are we to tell the poor man?"
"Diplomacy's the Baba's job," Ekaterin pointed out. "All we have to supply is a straight no . She'll have to take it from there."
"That's
true," Rosalie allowed, looking relieved. "One of the advantages of the
old system, I suppose. Well . . . if Vormoncrief is not the one, he's
not the one. You're old enough to know your own mind. Still, Kat, I
don't think you ought to be too choosy, or wait too long past your
mourning time. Nikki needs a da. And you're not getting any younger.
You don't want to end up as one of those odd old women who eke out
their lives in their relatives' attics."
Your attic is safe from me under any circumstances, Rosalie. Ekaterin smiled a bit grimly, but did not speak this thought aloud. "No, only the third floor."
The
Professora's eyes flicked at her, reprovingly, and Ekaterin flushed.
She was not ungrateful, she wasn't. It was just . . . oh, hell. She
pushed back her chair.
"Excuse me. I have to go get my shower and get dressed. I'm due at work soon."
"Work?"
said Rosalie. "Must you go? I'd hoped to take you out to lunch, and
shopping. To celebrate, and look for bride clothes, in the original
plan, but I suppose we could convert it to a consolation day instead.
What do you say, Kat? I think you could use a little fun. You haven't
had much, lately."
"No shopping," said Ekaterin.
She remembered the last time she'd been shopping, on Komarr with Lord
Vorkosigan in one of his more lunatic moods, before Tien's death had
turned her life inside-out. She didn't think a day with Rosalie could
match it. At Rosalie's look of distressed disappointment, she relented.
The woman had got up before dawn for this fool's errand, after all.
"But I suppose you and Edie could pick me up for lunch, and then bring
me back."
"All right . . . where? Whatever are you
doing these days, anyway? Weren't you talking about going back to
school? You haven't exactly communicated with the rest of the family
much lately, you know."
"I've been busy. I have a
commission to design and implement a display garden for a Count's
townhouse." She hesitated. "Lord Auditor Vorkosigan's, actually. I'll
give you directions how to get there before you and Edie go out."
"Vorkosigan
is employing you, too?" Rosalie looked surprised, then suddenly
militantly suspicious. "He hasn't been . . . you know . . . pushing
himself on you at all, has he? I don't care whose son he is, he has no
right to impose on you. Remember, you have a brother to stand up for
you if you need it." She paused, perhaps to reflect upon a vision of
Hugo's probable appalled recoil at being volunteered for this duty. "Or
I'd be willing to give him a piece of my mind myself, if you need
help." She nodded, now on firmer ground.
"Thank
you," choked Ekaterin, beginning to evolve plans for keeping Rosalie
and Lord Vorkosigan as far apart as possible. "I'll keep you in mind,
if it ever becomes necessary." She escaped upstairs.
In
the shower, she tried to recover from the seething chaos Rosalie's
misunderstood mission had generated in her brain. Her physical
attraction for Miles—Lord Vorkosigan—Miles , was no news,
really. She'd felt and ignored the pull of it before. It was by no
means in despite of his odd body; his size, his scars, his energy, his differences
fascinated her in their own right. She wondered if people would think
her perverse, if they knew the strange way her tastes seemed to be
drifting these days. Firmly, she turned the water temperature down to
pure cold.
But flatline suppression of all erotic
speculation was a legacy of her years with Tien. She owned herself now,
owned her own sexuality at last. Free and clear. She could dare to
dream. To look. To feel, even. Action was another matter altogether,
but drat it, she could want , in the solitude of her own skull, and possess that wanting whole.
And
he liked her, he did. It was no crime to like her, even if it was
inexplicable. And she liked him back, yes. A little too much, even, but
that was no one's business but her own. They could go on like this. The
garden project wouldn't last forever. By midsummer, fall at the latest,
she could turn it and a schedule of instructions over to Vorkosigan
House's usual groundskeepers. She might drop by to check on it from
time to time. They might even meet. From time to time.
She
was starting to shiver. She turned the water temperature back up to as
hot as she could stand, so the steam billowed in clouds.
Would
it do any harm, to make of him a dream-lover? It seemed invasive. How
would she like it, after all, if she discovered she was starring in
someone else's pornographic daydreams? Horrified, yes? Disgusted, to be
pawed over in some untrusted stranger's thoughts. She imagined herself
so portrayed in Miles's thoughts, and checked her horror quotient. It
was a little . . . weak.
The obvious solution was
to bring dreams and reality into honest congruence. If deleting the
dreams wasn't possible, what about making them real? She tried to
imagine having a lover. How did people go about such things,
anyway? She could barely nerve herself to ask for directions on a
street corner. How in the world did you ask someone to . . . But
reality—reality was too great a risk, ever again. To lose herself and
all her free dreams in another long nightmare like her life with Tien,
a slow, sucking, suffocating bog closing over her head forever . . .
She
jerked the temperature down again, and adjusted the spray so the
droplets struck her skin like spicules of ice. Miles was not Tien. He
wasn't trying to own her, for heaven's sake, or destroy her; he'd only
hired her to make him a garden. Entirely benign. She must be going
insane. She trusted it was a temporary insanity. Maybe her hormones had
spiked this month. She would just ride it out, and all these . . .
unusual thoughts, would just go away on their own. She would look back
on herself and laugh.
She laughed, experimentally.
The hollow echoes were due to being in the shower, no doubt. She shut
off the freezing water, and stepped out.
There was
no reason she would have to see him today. He sometimes came out and
sat on the wall a while and watched the crew's progress, but he never
interrupted. She wouldn't have to talk with him, not till his dinner
tomorrow night, and there would be lots of other people to talk with then. She had plenty of time to settle her mind again. In the meanwhile, she had a creek to tune.
Lady
Alys Vorpatril's office at the Imperial Residence, which handled all
matters of social protocol for the Emperor, had expanded of late from
three rooms to half of a third-floor wing. There Ivan found himself at
the disposal of the fleet of secretaries and assistants Lady Alys had
laid on to help handle the wedding. It had sounded a treat, to be
working in an office with dozens of women, till he'd discovered they
were mostly steely-eyed middle-aged Vor ladies who brooked even less
nonsense from him than his mother did. Fortunately, he'd only dated two
of their daughters, and both those ventures had ended without acrimony.
It could have been much worse.
To Ivan's concealed
dismay, Lord Dono and By Vorrutyer were in such good time for their
Imperial appointment they stopped up to see him on the way in. Lady
Alys's secretary summoned him curtly into the department's outer
office, where he found the pair refraining from sitting down and making
themselves comfortable. By was dressed in his usual taste, in a maroon
suit conservative only by town clown standards. Lord Dono wore his neat
Vor-style black tunic and trousers with gray piping and decoration,
clearly mourning garb, which not coincidentally set off his newly
masculinized good looks. The middle-aged secretary was giving him
approving glances from under her eyelashes. Armsman Szabo, in full
Vorrutyer House uniform, had taken up that I-am-furniture guard stance
by the door, as if covertly declaring there were some kinds of lines of
fire it wasn't his job to be in.
No one not on
staff wandered the halls of the Imperial Residence by themselves; Dono
and By had an escort, in the person of Gregor's senior major-domo. This
gentleman turned from some conversation with the secretary as Ivan
entered, and eyed him with new appraisal.
"Good morning, Ivan," said Lord Dono cordially.
"Morning, Dono, By." Ivan managed a brief, reasonably impersonal nod. "You, ah, made it, I see."
"Yes, thank you." Dono glanced around. "Is Lady Alys here this morning?"
"Gone
off to inspect florists with Colonel Vortala," said Ivan, happy to be
able to both tell the truth and avoid being drawn further into whatever
schemes Lord Dono might have.
"I must chat with her sometime soon," mused Dono.
"Mm,"
said Ivan. Lady Donna had not been one of Alys Vorpatril's intimates,
being half a generation younger and involved with a different social
set than the politically active crowd over which Lady Alys presided.
Lady Donna had discarded, along with her first husband, a chance to be
a future Countess; though having met that lordling, Ivan thought he
could understand the sacrifice. In any case, Ivan had not had any
trouble controlling his urge to gossip about this new twist of events
with either his mother or any of the sedate Vor matrons she employed.
And fascinating as it would be to witness the first meeting of Lady
Alys with Lord Dono and all the protocol puzzles he trailed, on the
whole Ivan thought he would rather be safely out of range.
"Ready, gentlemen?" said the major-domo.
"Good luck, Dono," said Ivan, and prepared to retreat.
"Yes," said By, "good luck. I'll just stay here and chat with Ivan till you're done, shall I?"
"My
list," said the major-domo, "has all of you on it. Vorrutyer, Lord
Vorrutyer, Lord Vorpatril, Armsman Szabo."
"Oh,
that's an error," said Ivan helpfully. "Only Lord Dono actually needs
to see Gregor." By nodded confirmation.
"The list," said the major-domo, "is in the Emperor's own hand. This way, please."
The
normally saturnine By swallowed a little, but they all dutifully
followed the major-domo down two floors and around the corner to the
north wing and Gregor's private office. The major-domo had not demanded
Ivan vouch for Dono's identity, Ivan noted, by which he deduced the
Residence had caught up with events overnight. Ivan was almost
disappointed. He'd so wanted to see somebody else be as boggled as he'd
been.
The major-domo touched the palm pad by the
door, announced his party, and was bid to enter. Gregor shut down his
comconsole desk and looked up as they all trod within. He rose and
walked around to lean against it, cross his arms, and eye the group.
"Good morning, gentlemen. Lord Dono. Armsman."
They returned a mumble averaging out to Good morning, Sire
, except for Dono, who stepped forward with his chin up and said in a
clear voice, "Thank you for seeing me on such short notice, Sire."
"Ah,"
said Gregor. "Short notice. Yes." He cast an odd look at By, who
blinked demurely. "Please be seated," Gregor went on. He gestured to
the leather sofas at the end of the room, and the major-domo hurried to
pull around a couple of extra armchairs. Gregor took his usual seat on
one of the sofas, turned a little sideways, that he might have full
view of his guests' faces in the bright diffuse light from the
north-facing windows overlooking his garden.
"I
should be pleased to stand, Sire," Armsman Szabo murmured suggestively,
but he was not to be permitted to hug the doorway and potential escape;
Gregor merely smiled briefly, and pointed at a chair, and Szabo
perforce sat, though on the edge. By took a second chair and managed a
good simulation of his usual cross-legged ease. Dono sat straight,
alert, knees and elbows apart, claiming a space no one disputed; he had
the second couch entirely to himself, until Gregor opened an ironic
palm, and Ivan was forced to take the place next to him. As far toward
the end as possible.
Gregor's face wasn't giving
much away, except the obvious fact that the chance of Donna/Dono taking
him by surprise had passed sometime in the intervening hours since
Ivan's call. Gregor broke the ensuing silence just before Ivan could
panic and blurt something.
"So, whose idea was this?"
"Mine,
Sire," Lord Dono answered steadily. "My late brother expressed himself
forcibly many times—as Szabo and others of the household can
witness—that he abhorred the idea of Richars stepping into his place as
Count Vorrutyer. If Pierre had not died so suddenly and unexpectedly,
he would surely have found a substitute heir. I feel I am carrying out
his verbal will."
"So you, ah, claim his posthumous approval."
"Yes.
If he had thought of it. Granted, he had no reason to entertain such an
extreme solution while he lived."
"I see. Go on."
This was Gregor in his classic give-them-enough-rope-to-hang-themselves
mode, Ivan recognized. "What support did you assure yourself of, before
you left?" He glanced rather pointedly at Armsman Szabo.
"I
secured the approval of my Arms—of my late brother's Armsmen, of
course," said Dono. "Since it was their duty to guard the disputed
property until my return."
"You took their oaths?" Gregor's voice was suddenly very mild.
Ivan
cringed. To receive an Armsman's oath before one was confirmed as a
Count or Count's heir was a serious crime, a violation of one of the
subclauses of Vorlopulous's Law which, among other things, had
restricted a Count's Armsmen to a mere squad of twenty. Lord Dono gave
Szabo the barest nod.
"We gave our personal
words," Szabo put in smoothly. "Any man may freely give his personal
word for his personal acts, Sire."
"Hm," said Gregor.
"Beyond
the Vorrutyer Armsmen, the only two people I informed were my attorney,
and my cousin By," Lord Dono continued. "I needed my attorney to put
certain legal arrangements into motion, check all the details, and
prepare the necessary documents. She and all her records are entirely
at your disposal, of course, Sire. I'm sure you understand the tactical
necessity for surprise. I told no one else before I left, lest Richars
take warning and also prepare."
"Except for Byerly," Gregor prompted.
"Except
for By," Dono agreed. "I needed someone I could trust in the capital to
keep an eye on Richars's moves while I was out of range and
incapacitated."
"Your loyalty to your cousin is most . . . notable, Byerly," murmured Gregor.
By eyed him warily. "Thank you, Sire."
"And your remarkable discretion. I do take note of it."
"It seemed a personal matter, Sire."
"I see. Do go on, Lord Dono."
Dono hesitated fractionally. "Has ImpSec passed you my Betan medical files yet?"
"Just this morning. They were apparently a little delayed."
"You
mustn't blame that nice ImpSec boy who was following me. I'm afraid he
found Beta Colony a trifle overwhelming. And I'm sure the Betans didn't
offer them up voluntarily, especially since I told them not to." Dono
smiled blandly. "I'm glad to see he rose to the challenge. One would
hate to think ImpSec was losing its old edge, after Illyan's
retirement."
Gregor, listening with his chin in
his hand, gave a little wave of his fingers in acknowledgement of this,
on all its levels.
"If you've had a chance to
glance over the records," Dono went on, "you will know I am now fully
functional as a male, capable of carrying out my social and biological
duty of siring the next Vorrutyer heir. Now that the requirement of
male primogeniture has been met, I claim the nearest right by blood to
the Countship of the Vorrutyer's District, and in light of my late
brother's expressed views, I claim Count's choice as well.
Peripherally, I also assert that I will make a better Count than my
cousin Richars, and that I will serve my District, the Imperium, and
you more competently than he ever could. For evidence, I submit my work
in the District on Pierre's behalf over the last five years."
"Are you proposing other charges against Richars?" asked Gregor.
"Not
at present. The one charge of sufficient seriousness lacked sufficient
proof to bring to trial at the time—" Dono and Szabo exchanged a glance.
"Pierre
requested an ImpSec investigation of his fiancйe's flyer accident. I
remember reading the synopsis of the report. You are correct. There was
no proof."
Dono managed to shrug acknowledgement
without agreement. "As for Richars's lesser offenses, well, no one
cared before, and I doubt they'll start caring now. I will not be
charging that he is unfit—though I think he is unfit—but rather,
maintaining that I am more fit and have the better right. And so I will
lay it before the Counts."
"And do you expect to obtain any votes?"
"I
would expect a certain small number of votes against Richars from his
personal enemies even if I were a horse. For the rest, I propose to
offer myself to the Progressive party as a future voting member."
"Ah?"
Gregor glanced up at this. "The Vorrutyers were traditionally mainstays
of the Conservatives. Richars was expected to maintain that tradition."
"Yes.
My heart goes out to the old guard; they were my father's party, and
his father's before him. But I doubt many of their hearts will go out
to me. Besides, they are a present minority. One must be practical."
Right.
And while Gregor was careful to maintain a faзade of Imperial
even-handedness, no one had any doubt the Progressives were the party
he privately favored. Ivan chewed on his lip.
"Your
case is going to create an uproar in the Council at an awkward time,
Lord Dono," said Gregor. "My credit with the Counts is fully extended
right now in pushing through the appropriations for the Komarran solar
mirror repairs."
Dono answered earnestly, "I ask
nothing of you, Sire, but your neutrality. Don't quash my motion of
impediment. And don't permit the Counts to dismiss me unheard, or hear
me only in secret. I want a public debate and a public vote."
Gregor's
lips twisted, contemplating this vision. "Your case could set a most
peculiar precedent, Lord Dono. With which I would then have to live."
"Perhaps. I would point out that I am playing exactly by the old rules."
"Well . . . perhaps not exactly ," murmured Gregor.
By
put in, "May I suggest, Sire, that if in fact dozens of Counts' sisters
were itching to stampede out to galactic medical facilities and return
to Barrayar to attempt to step into their brothers' boots, it would
have likely happened before now? As a precedent, I doubt it would be
all that popular, once the novelty wore off."
Dono
shrugged. "Prior to our conquest of Komarr, access to that sort of
medicine was scarcely available. Someone had to be the first. It
wouldn't even have been me if things had gone differently for poor
Pierre." He glanced across at Gregor, eye to eye. "Though I will
certainly not be the last. Quashing my case, or brushing it aside,
won't settle anything. If nothing else, taking it through the full
legal process will force the Counts to explicitly examine their
assumptions, and rationalize a set of laws which have managed to ignore
the changing times for far too long. You cannot expect to run a
galactic empire with rules that haven't been revised or even reviewed
since the Time of Isolation." That awful cheerful leer ignited Lord
Dono's face suddenly. "In other words, it will be good for them."
A
very slight smile escaped Gregor in return, not entirely voluntarily,
Ivan thought. Lord Dono was playing Gregor just right—frank, fearless,
and up front. But then, Lady Donna had always been observant.
Gregor
looked Lord Dono over, and pressed his hand to the bridge of his nose,
briefly. After a moment he said ironically, "And will you be wanting a
wedding invitation too?"
Dono's brows flicked up.
"If I am Count Vorrutyer by then, my attendance will be both my right
and my duty. If I'm not—well, then." After a slight silence, he added
wistfully, "Though I always did like a good wedding. I had three. Two
were disasters. It's so much nicer to watch, saying over and over to
yourself, It's not me! It's not me! One can be happy all day afterward on that alone."
Gregor said dryly, "Perhaps your next one will be different."
Dono's chin lifted. "Almost certainly, Sire."
Gregor
sat back, and stared thoughtfully at the crew arrayed before him. He
tapped his fingers on the sofa arm. Dono waited gallantly, By
nervously, Szabo stolidly. Ivan spent the time wishing he were
invisible, or that he'd never run across By in that damned bar, or that
he'd never met Donna, or that he'd never been born. He waited for the
ax, whatever it was going to be, to fall, and wondered which way he
ought to dodge.
Instead what Gregor said at last was, "So . . . what's it like?"
Dono's
white grin flashed in his beard. "From the inside? My energy's up. My
libido's up. I would say it makes me feel ten years younger, except I
didn't feel like this when I was thirty, either. My temper's shorter.
Otherwise, only the world has changed."
"Ah?"
"On
Beta Colony, I scarcely noticed a thing. By the time I got to Komarr,
well, the personal space people gave me had approximately doubled, and
their response time to me had been cut in half. By the time I hit the
Vorbarr Sultana Shuttleport, the change was phenomenal. Somehow, I
don't think I got all that result just from my exercise program."
"Huh. So . . . if your motion of impediment fails, will you change back?"
"Not
any time soon. I must say, the view from the top of the food chain
promises to be downright panoramic. I propose to have my blood and
money's worth of it."
Another silence fell. Ivan
wasn't sure if everyone was digesting this declaration, or if their
minds had all simply shorted out.
"All right . . ." said Gregor slowly at last.
The look of growing curiosity in his eyes made Ivan's skin crawl. He's going to say it, I just know he is . . .
"Let's
see what happens." Gregor sat back, and gave another little wave of his
fingers, as if to speed them on their way. "Carry on, Lord Dono."
"Thank you, Sire," said Dono sincerely.
No
one waited around for Gregor to reiterate this dismissal. They all beat
a prudent retreat to the corridor before the Emperor could change his
mind. Ivan thought he could feel Gregor's eyes boring wonderingly into
his back all the way out the door.
"Well," By
exhaled brightly, as the major-domo led them down the corridor once
more. "That went better than I'd expected."
Dono
gave him a sidelong look. "What, was your faith failing, By? I think
things went quite as well as I'd hoped for."
By shrugged. "Let's say, I was feeling a bit out of my usual depth."
"That's why we asked Ivan for help. For which I thank you once more, Ivan."
"It was nothing," Ivan denied. "I didn't do anything." It's not my fault.
He didn't know why Gregor had put him on his short list for this
meeting; the Emperor hadn't even asked him anything. Though Gregor was
as bad as Miles for plucking clues out of, as far as Ivan could tell,
thin air. He couldn't imagine what Gregor had construed from all this.
He didn't want to imagine what Gregor had construed from all this.
The
syncopated clomp of all their boots echoed as they rounded the corner
into the East Wing. A calculating look entered Lord Dono's eyes, which
put Ivan briefly in mind of Lady Donna, in the least reassuring way.
"So what's your mama doing in the next few days, Ivan?"
"She's
busy. Very busy. All this wedding stuff, you know. Long hours. I
scarcely see her except at work, anymore. Where we are all very busy."
"I
have no wish to interrupt her work. I need something more . . . casual.
When were you going to see her again not at work?"
"Tomorrow
night, at my cousin Miles's dinner party for Kareen and Mark. He told
me to bring a date. I said I'd be bringing you as my guest. He was
delighted." Ivan brooded on this lost scenario.
"Why, thank you, Ivan!" said Dono promptly. "How thoughtful of you. I accept."
"Wait,
no, but that was before—before you—before I knew you—" Ivan sputtered,
and gestured at Lord Dono in his new morphology. "I don't think he'll
be so delighted now. It will mess up his seating arrangements."
"What, with all the Koudelka girls coming? I don't see how. Though I suppose some of them have taken young men in tow by now."
"I
don't know about that, except for Delia and Duv Galeni. And if Kareen
and Mark aren't—never mind. But I think Miles is trying to slant the
sex ratio, to be on the safe side. It's really a party to introduce
everyone to his gardener."
"I beg your pardon?"
said Dono. They fetched up in the vestibule by the Residence's east
doors. The major-domo waited patiently to see the visitors out, in that
invisible and unpressing way he could project so well. Ivan was sure he
was taking in every word to report to Gregor later.
"His
gardener. Madame Vorsoisson. She's this Vor widow he's gone and lost
his mind over. He hired her to put a garden in that lot next to
Vorkosigan House. She's Lord Auditor Vorthys's niece, if you must know."
"Ah.
Quite eligible, then. But how unexpected. Miles Vorkosigan, in love at
last? I'd always thought Miles would fancy a galactic. He always gave
one the feeling most of the women around here bored him to death. One
was never quite certain it wasn't sour grapes, though. Unless it was
self-fulfilling prophecy." Lord Dono's smile was briefly feline.
"It
was getting a galactic to fancy Barrayar that was the hang-up, I
gather," said Ivan stiffly. "Anyway, Lord Auditor Vorthys and his wife
will be there, and Illyan with my mother, and the Vorbrettens, as well
as all the Koudelkas and Galeni and Mark."
"Renй
Vorbretten?" Dono's eyes narrowed with interest, and he exchanged a
glance with Szabo, who gave a tiny nod in return. "I'd like to talk to him . He's a pipeline into the Progressives."
"Not this week, he's not." By smirked. "Didn't you hear what Vorbretten found dangling in his family tree?"
"Yes."
Lord Dono waved this away. "We all have our little genetic handicaps. I
think it would be fascinating to compare notes with him just now. Oh,
yes, Ivan, you must bring me. It will be perfect."
For whom?
With all that Betan education, Miles was about as personally liberal as
it was possible for a Barrayaran Vor male to be, but Ivan still
couldn't imagine that he would be thrilled to find Lord Dono Vorrutyer
at his dining table.
On the other hand . . . so what? If Miles had something else
to be irritated about, perhaps it would distract him from that little
problem with Vormoncrief and Major Zamori. What better way to confuse
the enemy than to multiply the targets? It wasn't as though Ivan would
have any obligation to protect Lord Dono from Miles.
Or
Miles from Lord Dono, for that matter. If Dono and By considered Ivan,
a mere HQ captain, a valuable consultant on the social and political
terrain of the capital, how much better a one was a real Imperial
Auditor? If Ivan could, as it were, transfer Dono's affections to this
new target, he might be able to crawl away entirely unobserved. Yes .
"Yes,
yes, all right. But this is the last favor I'm going to do for you,
Dono, is it understood?" Ivan tried to look stern.
"Thank you," said Lord Dono.
CHAPTER NINE
Miles stared at his reflection in the long
antique mirror on his grandfather's former bedroom wall, now his own
room, and frowned. His best Vorkosigan House uniform of brown and
silver was much too formal for this dinner party. He would surely have
an opportunity to squire Ekaterin to some venue for which it was
actually appropriate, such as the Imperial Residence or the Council of
Counts, and she could see and, he hoped, admire him in it then.
Regretfully, he shucked the polished brown boots back off and prepared
to return to the clothing he'd started with forty-five minutes before,
one of his plain gray Auditor's suits, very clean and pressed. Well,
slightly less pressed, now, with another House uniform and two Imperial
uniforms from his late service tossed atop it on the bed.
He
necessarily cycled back through naked, and frowned uneasily at himself
again. Someday, if things went well, he must stand before her in his
skin, in this very room and place, with no disguise at all.
A
moment of panicked longing for Admiral Naismith's gray-and-whites, put
away in the closet one floor above, passed over him. No. Ivan would be
certain to hoot at him. Worse, Illyan might say something . . . dry.
And it wasn't as though he wanted to explain the little Admiral to his
other guests. He sighed, and redonned the gray suit.
Pym
stuck his head back through the bedroom door, and smiled in approval,
or perhaps relief. "Ah, are you ready now, m'lord? I'll just get these
out of your way again, shall I?" The speed with which Pym whipped away
the other garments assured Miles he'd made the right choice, or at
least, the best choice available to him.
Miles
adjusted the thin strip of white shirt collar above the jacket's neck
with military precision. He leaned forward to peer suspiciously for
gray in his scalp, relocated the couple of strands he'd noted recently,
suppressed an impulse to pluck them out, and then combed his hair
again. Enough of this madness .
He hurried
downstairs to recheck the table arrangements in the grand dining room.
The table glittered with Vorkosigan cutlery, china, and a forest of
wineglasses. The linen was graced with no less than three strategically
low, elegant flower arrangements, over which he could see, and which he
hoped Ekaterin would enjoy. He'd spent an hour debating with Ma Kosti
and Pym over how to properly seat ten women and nine men. Ekaterin
would be seated at Miles's right hand, off the head of the table, and
Kareen at Mark's, off the foot; that hadn't been negotiable. Ivan would
be seated next to his lady guest, in the middle as far from Ekaterin
and Kareen as possible, the better to block any possible move of his on
anyone else's partner—though Miles trusted Ivan would be fully occupied.
Miles
had been an envious bystander to Ivan's brief, meteoric affair with
Lady Donna Vorrutyer. In retrospect, he thought perhaps Lady Donna had
been more charitable and Ivan less suave than it had seemed to his
then-twenty-year-old perspective, but Ivan had certainly made the most
of his good luck. Lady Alys, still full of plans for her son's marriage
to some more eligible Vor bud, had been a bit rigid about it all; but
with all those years of frustrated matchmaking behind her Lady Alys
might find Lady Donna looking much better now. After all, with the
advent of the uterine replicator and associated galactic biotech, being
forty-something was no bar to a woman's reproductive plans at all. Nor
being sixty-something, or eighty-something . . . Miles wondered if Ivan
had mustered the nerve to ask Lady Alys and Illyan if they had any
plans for providing him with a half-sib, or if the possibility hadn't
crossed his mind yet. Miles decided he would have to point it out to
his cousin at some appropriate moment, preferably when Ivan's mouth was
full.
But not tonight. Tonight, everything had to be perfect.
Mark
wandered in to the dining room, also frowning. He too was showered and
slicked, and dressed in a suit tailored and layered, black on black
with black. It lent his short bulk a surprisingly authoritative air. He
strolled up the table's side, reading place cards, and reached for a
pair.
"Don't even touch them," Miles told him firmly.
"But
if I just switch Duv and Delia with Count and Countess Vorbretten, Duv
will be as far away from me as we can get him," Mark pleaded. "I can't
believe he wouldn't prefer that himself. I mean, as long as he's still
next to Delia . . ."
"No. I have to put Renй next
to Lady Alys. It's a favor. He's politicking. Or he damn well should
be." Miles cocked his head. "If you're serious about Kareen, you and
Duv are going to have to deal, you know. He's going to be one of the
family."
"I can't help thinking his feelings about me must be . . . mixed."
"Come now, you saved his life." Among other things. "Have you seen him, since you got back from Beta?"
"Once,
for about thirty seconds, when I was dropping off Kareen at her home,
and he was coming out with Delia."
"So what did he say?"
"He said, Hello, Mark ."
"That sounds pretty unexceptionable."
"It was his tone of voice. That dead-level thing he does, y'know?"
"Well, yes, but you can't deduce anything from that."
"Exactly my point."
Miles
grinned briefly. And just how serious was Mark about Kareen? He was
attentive to her to the point of obsession, and the sense of sexual
frustration rising from them both was like heat off a pavement in high
summer. Who knew what had passed between them on Beta Colony? My mother does, probably.
Countess Vorkosigan had better spies than ImpSec did. But if they were
sleeping together, it wasn't in Vorkosigan House, according to Pym's
informal security reports.
Pym himself entered at this point, to announce, "Lady Alys and Captain Illyan have arrived, m'lord."
This
formality was scarcely necessary, as Aunt Alys was right at Pym's
elbow, though she nodded brief approval at the Armsman as she passed
into the dining room. Illyan strolled in after her, and favored the
room with a benign smile. The retired ImpSec chief looked downright
dapper, in a dark tunic and trousers that set off the gray at his
temples; since their late-life romance had bloomed, Lady Alys had taken
a firm hand in improving his somewhat dire civilian wardrobe. The sharp
clothes did a lot to camouflage the disturbing vague look that clouded
his eyes now and then, damn the enemy who'd so disabled him.
Aunt
Alys swept down the table, inspecting the arrangements with a cool air
that would have daunted a drill sergeant. "Very good, Miles," she said
at last. The Better than I would have expected of you was unspoken, but understood. "Though your numbers are uneven."
"Yes, I know."
"Hm.
Well, it can't be helped now. I want a word with Ma Kosti. Thank you,
Pym, I'll find my way." She bustled out the server's door. Miles let
her go, trusting that she would find all in order below, and that she
would refrain from prosecuting her ongoing campaign to hire away his
cook in the middle of the most important dinner party of his life.
"Good
evening, Simon," Miles greeted his former boss. Illyan shook his hand
cordially, and Mark's without hesitation. "I'm glad you could make it
tonight. Did Aunt Alys explain to you about Eka—about Madame
Vorsoisson?"
"Yes, and Ivan had a few comments as
well. Something on the theme of fellows who fall into the muck-hole and
return with the gold ring."
"I haven't got to the
gold ring part yet," said Miles ruefully. "But that's certainly my
plan. I'm looking forward to you all meeting her."
"She's the one, is she?"
"I hope so."
Illyan's smile sharpened at Miles's fervent tone. "Good luck, son."
"Thanks. Oh, one word of warning. She's still in her mourning year, you see. Did Alys or Ivan explain—"
He
was interrupted by the return of Pym, who announced that the Koudelka
party had arrived, and he had conveyed them to the library, as planned.
It was time to go play host in earnest.
Mark, who
trod on Miles's heels all the way across the house, paused in the
antechamber to the great library to give himself a desperate look in
the mirror there, and smooth his jacket down over his paunch. In the
library, Kou and Drou waited, all smiles; the Koudelka girls were
raiding the shelves. Duv and Delia were seated together bent over an
old book already.
Greetings were exchanged all
around, and Armsman Roic, on cue, began bringing out the hors d'oeuvres
and drinks. Over the years Miles had watched Count and Countess
Vorkosigan host what seemed a thousand parties and receptions here in
Vorkosigan House, scarcely one without some hidden or overt political
agenda. Surely he could manage this little one in style. Mark, across
the room, made himself properly attentive to Kareen's parents. Lady
Alys arrived from her inspection tour, gave her nephew a short nod, and
went to hang on Illyan's arm. Miles listened for the door.
His
heart beat faster at the sound of Pym's voice and steps, but the next
guests the Armsman ushered in were only Renй and Tatya Vorbretten. The
Koudelka girls instantly made Tatya welcome. Things were certainly
starting well. At the sound of action at the distant front door again,
Miles abandoned Renй to make what he could of his opportunity with Lady
Alys, and slipped out to check for the new arrivals. This time it was Lord Auditor Vorthys and his wife, and Ekaterin at last, yes!
The
Professor and the Professora were gray blurs in his eyes, but Ekaterin
glowed like a flame. She wore a sedate evening dress in some silky
charcoal-gray fabric, but she was happily handing off a pair of dirty
garden gloves to Pym. Her eyes were bright, and her cheeks bore a
faint, exquisite flush. Miles concealed in a welcoming smile his thrill
to see the pendant model Barrayar he'd given her lying skin-warmed
against her creamy breast.
"Good evening, Lord
Vorkosigan," she greeted him. "I'm pleased to report the first native
Barrayaran plant is now growing in your garden."
"Clearly,
I'll have to inspect it." He grinned at her. What a great excuse to nip
out for a quiet moment together. Perhaps it might finally give him
occasion to declare . . . no. No. Still much too premature. "Just as
soon as I get everyone introduced, here." He offered her his arm, and
she took it. Her warm scent made him a little dizzy.
Ekaterin
hesitated at the party noise already pouring from the library as they
approached, her hand tightening on his arm, but she took a breath, and
plunged in with him. Since she already knew Mark and the Koudelka
girls, whom Miles trusted would soon make her comfortable again, he
made her known first to Tatya, who eyed her with interest and exchanged
shy pleasantries. He then took her over to the long doors, took a
slight breath himself, and introduced her to Renй, Illyan, and Lady
Alys.
Miles was watching so anxiously for the
signs of approval in Illyan's expression that he almost missed the
blink of terror in Ekaterin's, as she found herself shaking the hand of
the legend who'd run the dreaded Imperial Security for thirty iron
years. But she rose to the occasion with scarcely a tremor. Illyan, who
seemed blithely unconscious of his sinister effect, smiled upon her
with all the admiration Miles could have hoped for.
There.
Now people could mill about and drink and talk till it was time to herd
them all in to be seated for dinner. Were they all in? No, he was still
missing Ivan. And one other—should he send Mark to check—?
Ah,
not necessary. Here came Dr. Borgos, all on his own. He poked his head
around the door and entered diffidently. To Miles's surprise, he was
all washed and combed and dressed in a perfectly respectable suit, if
in the Escobaran style, that was entirely free of lab stains. Enrique
smiled, and came up to Miles and Ekaterin. He reeked not of chemicals,
but of cologne.
"Ekaterin, good evening!" he said happily. "Did you get my dissertation?"
"Yes, thank you."
His smile grew shyer still, and he stared down at his shoe. "Did you like it?"
"It was very impressive. Though it was a bit over my head, I'm afraid."
"I don't believe that. I'm sure you got the gist of it . . ."
"You flatter me, Enrique." She shook her head, but her smile said,And you may flatter me some more.
Miles went slightly stiff. Enrique? Ekaterin? She doesn't even call me by my first name yet!
And she would never have accepted a comment on her physical beauty
without flinching; had Enrique stumbled on an unguarded route to her
heart that Miles had missed?
She added, "I think I
followed the introductory sonnet, almost. Is that the usual style, for
Escobaran academic papers? It seems very challenging."
"No, I made it up especially." He glanced up at her again, then down at his other shoe.
"It, um, scanned quite perfectly. Some of the rhymes seemed quite unusual."
Enrique brightened visibly.
Good God, Enrique was writing poetry to her? Yes, and why hadn't he
thought of poetry? Besides the obvious reason of his absence of talent
in that direction. He wondered if she'd like to read a really clever
combat-drop mission plan, instead. Sonnets, damn. All he'd ever come up
with in that line were limericks.
He stared at
Enrique, who was now responding to her smile by twisting himself into
something resembling a tall knotted bread-stick, with dawning horror. Another rival? And insinuated into his own household . . . ! He's a guest. Your brother's guest, anyway. You can't have him assassinated. Besides, the Escobaran was only twenty-four standard years old; she must see him as a mere puppy. But maybe she likes puppies . . .
"Lord
Ivan Vorpatril," Pym's voice announced from the doorway. "Lord Dono
Vorrutyer." The odd timbre in Pym's voice jerked Miles's head around
even before his brain caught up with the unauthorized name accompanying
Ivan. Who?
Ivan stood well clear of his
new companion, but it was obvious by some remark the other was making
that they'd come in together. Lord Dono was an intense-looking fellow
of middle height with a close-trimmed black spade-beard, wearing
Vor-style mourning garb, a black suit edged with gray which set off his
athletic body. Had Ivan made a substitution in Miles's guest list
without telling him? He should know better than to violate House
Vorkosigan's security procedures like that . . . !
Miles
strolled up to his cousin, Ekaterin still beside him—well, he hadn't
exactly let go of her hand on his arm, but she hadn't tried to draw it
from under his hand, either. Miles thought he knew on sight all his
Vorrutyer relatives who could claim a lord's rank. Was this a more
distant descendant of Pierre Le Sanguinaire, or some by-blow? The man
was not young. Damn, where had he seen those electric brown eyes before
. . . ?
"Lord Dono. How do you do." Miles
proffered his hand, and the lithe man took it in a cheerful grip.
Between one breath and the next the clue dropped, bricklike, and Miles
added suavely, "You have been to Beta Colony, I perceive."
"Indeed, Lord Vorkosigan." Lord Dono's—Lady Donna who was, yes—white grin broadened in his black beard.
Ivan looked on with betrayed disappointment at this lack of a double-take.
"Or
should I say, Lord Auditor Vorkosigan," Lord Dono went on. "I don't
believe I've had the chance to congratulate you upon your new
appointment.'
"Thank you," said Miles. "Permit me to introduce my friend, Madame Ekaterin Vorsoisson . . ."
Lord
Dono kissed Ekaterin's hand with slightly too enthusiastic panache,
bordering on a mockery of the gesture; Ekaterin returned an uncertain
smile. They gavotted through the social niceties, while Miles's wits
went on overdrive. Right. Clearly, the former Lady Donna did not have a
clone of brother Pierre tucked away in a uterine replicator after all.
It was breathtakingly plain what his legal tactic against Pierre's
putative heir Richars was going to be instead. Well, somebody had to try it, sooner or later. And it would be a privilege to watch. "May I wish you the best of luck in your upcoming suit, Lord Dono?"
"Thank
you." Lord Dono met his gaze directly. "Luck, of course, has nothing to
do with it. May I discuss it in more detail with you, later on?"
Caution
tempered his delight; Miles sidestepped. "I am, of course, but my
father's proxy in the Council. As an Auditor, I am obliged to avoid
party politics on my own behalf."
"I quite understand."
"But,
ah . . . perhaps Ivan could reintroduce you to Count Vorbretten over
there. He's dealing with a suit in the Council as well; you could
compare valuable notes. And Lady Alys and Captain Illyan, of course.
Professora Vorthys would also be extremely interested, I think; don't
overlook any comments she might have. She's a noted expert on
Barrayaran political history. Carry on, Ivan." Miles nodded demurely
disinterested dismissal.
"Thank you, Lord Vorkosigan." Lord Dono's eyes were alight with appreciation of all the nuances, as he passed cordially on.
Miles
wondered if he could sneak out to the next room and have a laughing
fit. Or if he'd better make a vid call . . . He grabbed Ivan in
passing, and stood on tiptoe to whisper, "Does Gregor know about this
yet?"
"Yes," Ivan returned out of the corner of his mouth. "I made sure of that, first thing."
"Good man. What did he say?"
"Guess."
"Let's see what happens? "
"Got it in one."
"Heh." Relieved, Miles let Lord Dono tow Ivan off.
"Why are you laughing?" Ekaterin asked him.
"I am not laughing."
"Your eyes are laughing. I can tell."
He
glanced around. Lord Dono had buttonholed Renй, and Lady Alys and
Illyan were circling in curiously. The Professor and Commodore Koudelka
were off in a corner discussing, from the snatches of words Miles could
overhear, quality control problems in military procurement. He motioned
Roic to bring wine, led Ekaterin into the remaining free corner, and
brought her up to speed on Lady Donna/Lord Dono and the impending
motion of impediment in as few words as he could manage.
"Goodness."
Ekaterin's eyes widened, and her left hand stole to touch the back of
her right, as if the pressure of Lord Dono's kiss still lingered there.
But she managed to keep her other reactions to no more than a quick
glance down the room, where Lord Dono was now attracting a crowd
including all the Koudelka girls and their mother. "Did you know about
this?"
"Not at all. That is, everyone knew she'd
spiked Richars and gone to Beta Colony, but not why. It makes perfect
sense now, in an absurd kind of way."
"Absurd?"
said Ekaterin doubtfully. "I should think it would have taken a great
deal of courage." She took a sip of her drink, then added in a
thoughtful tone, "And anger."
Miles back-pedaled quickly. "Lady Donna never suffered fools gladly."
"Really?" Ekaterin, an odd look in her eyes, drifted away down the room toward this new show.
Before
he could follow her, Ivan appeared at his elbow, a glass of wine
already half-empty in his hand. Miles didn't want to talk with Ivan. He
wanted to talk with Ekaterin . He murmured nonetheless, "That's
quite a date you brought. I would never have suspected you of such
Betan breadth of taste, Ivan."
Ivan glowered at him. "I might have known I'd get no sympathy from you."
"Bit of a shock, was it?"
"I damn near passed out right there in the shuttleport. Byerly Vorrutyer set me up for it, the little sneak."
"By knew?"
"Sure did. In on it from the beginning, I gather."
Duv
Galeni too drifted up, in time to hear this; seeing Duv detached from
Delia at last, his future father-in-law Commodore Koudelka and the
Professor joined them. Miles let Ivan explain the new arrival, in his
own words. Miles's guess was confirmed that Ivan hadn't had any hint of
this at the time he'd asked his host's permission to bring Donna to the
dinner, smugly plotting his welcome-home campaign upon her, well, not
virtue; oh, oh, oh, to have been the invisible eye at the moment Ivan
discovered the change . . . !
"Did this catch ImpSec by surprise too?" Commodore Koudelka inquired blandly of Commodore Galeni.
"Wouldn't know. Not my department." Galeni took a firm sip of his wine. "Domestic Affairs' problem."
Both
officers glanced around at a peal of laughter from the group at the far
end of the room; it was Madame Koudelka's laugh. An echoing cascade of
giggles hushed conspiratorially, and Olivia Koudelka glanced over her
shoulder at the men.
"What are they laughing at?" said Galeni doubtfully.
"Us, probably," growled Ivan, and slouched off to find more wine for his empty glass.
Koudelka stared down the room, and shook his head. "Donna Vorrutyer, good God."
Every
woman in the party including Lady Alys was now clustered in evident
fascination around Lord Dono, who was gesturing and holding forth to
them in lowered tones. Enrique was grazing the hors d'oeuvres, and
staring at Ekaterin in bovine rapture. Illyan, abandoned by Alys, was
leafing absently through a book, one of the illustrated herbals Miles
had laid out earlier.
It was time to serve dinner, Miles decided firmly. Where Ivan and
Lord Dono would be barricaded behind a wall of older, married ladies
and their spouses. He broke away for a quiet word with Pym, who
departed to pass the word belowstairs, and returned shortly to formally
announce the meal.
The couples resorted themselves
and shuffled out of the great library, across the anteroom and the
paved hall, and through the intervening series of chambers. Miles, in
the lead with Ekaterin recaptured on his arm, encountered Mark and Ivan
conspiratorially exiting the formal dining room. They turned around and
rejoined the throng. Miles's sudden suspicion was horribly confirmed,
out of the corner of his eye, as he passed up the table; his hour of
strategic planning with the place cards had just been disarranged.
All
his carefully rehearsed conversational gambits were for people now on
the other end of the table. Seating was utterly randomized—no, not
randomized, he realized. Reprioritized. Ivan's goal had clearly been to
get Lord Dono as far away from himself as possible; Ivan now was taking
his chair at the far end of the table by Mark, while Lord Dono seated
himself in the place Miles had intended for Renй Vorbretten. Duv, Drou,
and Kou had somehow all migrated Miles-ward, farther from Mark. Mark
still kept Kareen at his right hand, but Ekaterin had been
bumped down the other side of the table, beyond Illyan, who was still
on Miles's immediate left. It seemed no one had quite dared touch
Illyan's card. Miles would now have to speak across Illyan to converse
with her, no sotto voce remarks possible.
Aunt
Alys, looking a little confused, seated herself at Miles's honored
right, directly across from Illyan. She'd clearly noticed the switches,
but failed Miles's last hope of help by saying nothing, merely letting
her eyebrows flick up. Duv Galeni found his future mother-in-law Drou
between himself and Delia. Illyan glanced at the cards and seated
Ekaterin between himself and Duv, and the accompli was fait .
Miles kept smiling; Mark, ten places distant, was too far away to catch the I-will-get-you-for-this-later edge to it. Maybe it was just as well.
Conversations,
though not the ones Miles had anticipated, began anew around the table
as Pym, Roic, and Jankowski, playing butler and footmen, bustled about
and began to serve. Miles watched Ekaterin with some concern for signs
of stress, trapped as she was between her formidable ImpSec seatmates,
but her expression remained calm and pleasant as the Armsmen plied her
with excellent food and wine.
It wasn't until the
second course appeared that Miles realized what was bothering him about
the food. He had confidently left the details to Ma Kosti, but this
wasn't quite the menu they'd discussed. Certain items were . . .
different. The hot consommй was now an exquisite cold creamy fruit
soup, decorated with edible flowers. In honor of Ekaterin, maybe? The
vinegar-and-herb salad dressing had been replaced by something with a
pale, creamy base. The aromatic herb spread, passed around with the
bread, bore no relation to butter . . .
Bug vomit. They've slipped in that damned bug vomit.
Ekaterin
twigged to it, too, about the time Pym brought round the bread; Miles
spotted it by her slight hesitation, glance through her lashes at
Enrique and Mark, and completely dead-pan continuation in spreading her
piece and taking a firm bite. By not the smallest other sign did she
reveal that she knew what she was swallowing.
Miles
tried to indicate to her that she didn't have to eat it by pointing
surreptitiously at the little herbed bug-butter crock and desperately
raising his eyebrows; she merely smiled and shrugged.
"Hm?" Illyan, between them, murmured with his mouth full.
"Nothing, sir," Miles said hastily. "Nothing at all." Leaping up and screaming, Stop, stop, you're all eating hideous bug stuff!
to his high-powered guests, would be . . . startling. Bug vomit wasn't,
after all, poisonous. If nobody told them, they'd never know. He bit
into dry bread, and chased it with a large gulp of wine.
The
salad plates were removed. Three-quarters of the way down the table,
Enrique dinged on his wineglass with his knife, cleared his throat, and
stood up.
"Thank you for your attention . . ." He
cleared his throat again. "I've enjoyed the hospitality of Vorkosigan
House, as I'm sure we all have tonight—" agreeing murmurs rose around
the table; Enrique brightened and burbled on. "I have a gift of thanks
I would like to present to Lord—to Miles, Lord Vorkosigan," he smiled
at his successful precision, "and I thought that now would be a good
time."
Miles was seized with certainty that whatever it was, now would be a terrible time. He stared down-table at Mark with an inquiring glower, Do you know what the hell this is all about? Mark returned an unreassuring No clue, sorry, shrug, and eyed Enrique with growing concern.
Enrique
removed a box from his jacket and trod up the room to lay it between
Miles and Lady Alys. Illyan and Galeni, across the table, tensed in
ImpSec-trained paranoia; Galeni's chair slid back slightly. Miles
wanted to reassure them that it wasn't likely to be explosive, but with
Enrique, how could one be sure? It was bigger than the last box the
butter-bug crew had presented to him. Miles prayed for maybe one of
those tacky sets of gold-plated dress spurs that had been a brief rage
a year ago, mostly among young men who'd never crossed a horse in their
lives, anything but . . .
Enrique proudly lifted
the lid. It wasn't a bigger butter bug; it was three butter bugs. Three
butter bugs whose carapaces flashed brown and silver as they scrabbled
over one another, feelers waving . . . Lady Alys recoiled and strangled
a squeak; Illyan jerked upright in alarm for her. Lord Dono leaned
forward around her in curiosity, and his black brows shot up.
Miles,
mouth slightly open, bent to stare in paralyzed fascination. Yes, it
was indeed the Vorkosigan crest stenciled in bright silver on each
tiny, repulsive brown back; a lace-edge of silver outlined the
vestigial wings in exact imitation of the decorations on the sleeves of
his Armsmen's uniforms. The replication of his House colors was
precise. You could identify the famous crest at a glance. You could
probably identify it at a glance from two meters away. Dinner service
ground to a halt as Pym, Jankowski, and Roic gathered to look over his
shoulder into the box.
Lord Dono glanced from the
butter bugs to Miles's face, and back. "Are they . . . are they perhaps
a weapon?" he ventured cautiously.
Enrique
laughed, and launched into an enthusiastic explanation of his new model
butter bugs, complete with the totally unnecessary information that
they were the source of the very fine improved bug butter base
underlying the soup, salad dressing, and bread spread recipes. Miles's
mental picture of Enrique bent over a magnifying glass with a teeny,
tiny paintbrush shredded into vapor as Enrique explained that the
patterns weren't, oh no, of course not, applied , but rather, genetically created, and would breed true with each succeeding generation.
Pym
looked at the bugs, glanced at the sleeve of his proud uniform, stared
again at the deadly parody of his insignia the creatures now bore, and
shot Miles a look of heartbreaking despair, a silent cry which Miles
had no trouble interpreting as, Please, m'lord, please, can we take him out and kill him now?
From
the far end of the table he heard Kareen's worried voice whisper,
"What's going on? Why isn't he saying anything? Mark, go look . . ."
Miles
leaned back, and grated through his teeth to Pym at the lowest possible
volume, "He didn't intend it as an insult." It just came out that way. My father's, my grandfather's, my House's sigil on those pullulating cockroaches . . . !
Pym
returned him a fixed smile over eyes blazing with fury. Aunt Alys
remained rather frozen in place. Duv Galeni had his head cocked to one
side, his eyes crinkling and his lips parted in who-knew-what inner
reflections, and Miles wasn't about to ask, either. Lord Dono was even
worse; he now had his napkin half stuffed into his mouth, and his face
was flushed as he snorted through his nose. Illyan watched with his
finger to his lips, and almost no expression at all, except for a faint
delight in his eyes that made Miles writhe inside. Mark arrived, and
bent to look. His face paled, and he glanced sideways at Miles in
alarm. Ekaterin had her hand over her mouth; her eyes upon him were
dark and wide.
Of all his riveted audience, only one's opinion mattered.
This
was the woman whose late unlamented husband had been given over to . .
. what displays of temper? What public or private rages? Miles
swallowed his gibbering opinion of Enrique, Escobarans, bioengineering,
his brother Mark's insane notions of entrepreneurship, and Liveried
Vorkosigan Vomit Bugs, blinked, took a deep breath, and smiled.
"Thank
you, Enrique. Your talent leaves me speechless. But perhaps you ought
to put the girls away now. You wouldn't want them to get . . . tired."
Gently, he replaced the lid of the box, and handed it back to the
Escobaran. Across from him, Ekaterin softly exhaled. Lady Alys's brows
rose in impressed surprise. Enrique marched back happily to his place.
Where he proceeded to explain and demonstrate his Vorkosigan butter
bugs to everyone who had been seated too far away to see the show,
including Count and Countess Vorbretten opposite him. It was a real
conversation-stopper, except for an unfortunate crack of laughter from
Ivan, quickly choked down at a sharp reproof from Martya.
Miles
realized that food had ceased to appear in the previous smooth stream.
He motioned the still-transfixed Pym over, and murmured, "Will you
bring the next course now, please?" He added in a grim undertone, "Check it first."
Pym, jerked back to attention to his duties, muttered, "Yes, m'lord. I understand."
The
next course proved to be poached chilled Vorkosigan District lake
salmon, without bug butter sauce, just some hastily-cut lemon slices.
Good. Miles breathed temporary relief.
Ekaterin at
last worked up the nerve to attempt a conversational gambit upon one of
her seatmates. One couldn't very well ask an ImpSec officer, So, how was work today?
so she fell back on what she clearly thought was a more generalized
opener. "It's unusual to meet a Komarran in the Imperial Service," she
said to Galeni. "Does your family support your career choice?"
Galeni's
eyes widened just slightly, and narrowed again at Miles, who realized
belatedly that his predinner briefing to Ekaterin, designed to
accentuate the positive, hadn't included the fact that most of Galeni's
family had died in various Komarran revolts and their aftermaths. And
the peculiar relation between Duv and Mark was something he hadn't even
begun to figure out how to broach to her. He was frantically trying to
guess how to telepathically convey this to Duv, when Galeni replied
merely, "My new one does." Delia, who had stiffened in alarm, melted in
a smile.
"Oh." It was instantly apparent from
Ekaterin's face that she knew she'd misstepped, but not how. She
glanced at Lady Alys, who, perhaps still stunned by the butter bugs,
was bemusedly studying her plate and missed the silent plea.
Never
one to let a damsel flounder in distress, Commodore Koudelka cut in
heartily, "So, Miles, speaking of Komarr, do you think their solar
mirror repair appropriations are going to fly in Council?"
Oh,
perfect segue. Miles flashed his old mentor a brief smile of gratitude.
"Yes, I think so. Gregor's thrown his weight behind it, as I'd hoped he
would."
"Good," said Galeni judiciously. "That will help on all sides." He gave Ekaterin a short, forgiving nod.
The
difficult moment passed; in the relieved pause while people marshaled
their contributory bits of political gossip to follow up this welcome
lead, Enrique Borgos's cheerful voice floated up the table,
disastrously clear:
"—will make so much profit,
Kareen, you and Mark can buy yourselves another one of those amazing
trips to the Orb when you get back to Beta. As many as you want, in
fact." He sighed enviously. "I wish I had somebody to go there with."
The
Orb of Unearthly Delights was one of Beta Colony's most famous, or
notorious, pleasure domes; it had a galactic reputation. If your tastes
weren't quite vile enough to direct you on to Jackson's Whole, the
range of licensed, medically supervised pleasures which could be
purchased at the Orb was enough to boggle most minds. Miles entertained
a brief, soaring hope that Kareen's parents had never heard of it. Mark
could pretend it was a Betan science museum, anything but—
Commodore
Koudelka had just taken a mouthful of wine to chase his last bite of
salmon. The atomized spray arced nearly to Delia, seated across from
her father. A lungful of wine in a man that age was an alarming event
in any case; Olivia patted his back in hesitant worry, as he buried his
reddening face in his napkin and gasped. Drou half-pushed her chair
back, as she hesitated between going up around the table to assist her
husband or, possibly, down the table to strangle Mark. Mark was no help
at all; guilty terror drained his fat cheeks of blood, producing a
suety, unflattering effect.
Kou got just enough breath back to gasp at Mark, "You took my daughter to the Orb ?"
Kareen, utterly panicked, blurted, "It was part of his therapy!"
Mark, panicked worse, added in desperate exculpation, "We got a Clinic discount . . ."
Miles
had often thought that he wanted to be there to see the look on Duv
Galeni's face when he learned that Mark was his potential
brother-in-law. Miles now took the wish back, but it was too late. He'd
seen Galeni look frozen before, but never so . . . stuffed .
Kou was breathing again, which would be reassuring if it weren't for
the slight tinge of hyperventilation. Olivia stifled a nervous giggle.
Lord Dono's eyes were bright with appreciation; he surely knew all
about the Orb, possibly in both his current and former sexual
incarnations. The Professora, next to Enrique, leaned forward to take a
curious look up and down the table.
Ekaterin
looked terribly worried, but not, Miles noted, surprised. Had Mark
confided history to her that he hadn't seen fit to trust to his own
brother? Or had she and Kareen already become close enough friends to
share such secrets, one of those women-things? And if so, what had
Ekaterin seen fit to confide to Kareen in return about him , and was there any way he could find out . . . ?
Drou,
after a notable hesitation, sank back down. An ominous, blighted
we-will-discuss-this-later silence fell.
Lady Alys
was alive to every nuance; her social self-control was such that only
Miles and Illyan were close enough to her to detect her wince. Well
able to set a tone no one dared ignore, she weighed in at last with,
"The presentation of the mirror repair as a wedding gift has proven
most popular with—Miles, what has that animal got in its mouth?"
Miles's confused query of What animal?
was answered before he even voiced it by the thump of multiple little
feet across the dining room's polished floor. The half-grown
black-and-white kitten was being chased by its all-black litter mate;
for a catlet with its mouth stuffed full, it managed to emit an
astonishingly loud mrowr of possession. It scrabbled across the
wide oak boards, then gained traction on the priceless antique
hand-woven carpet, till it caught a claw and flipped itself over. Its
rival promptly pounced upon it, but failed to force it to give up its
prize. A couple of insectoid legs waved feebly among the quivering
white whiskers, and a brown-and-silver wing carapace gave a dying
shudder.
"My butter bug!" cried Enrique in horror,
shoved back his chair, and pounced, rather more effectively, on the
feline culprit. "Give it up, you murderess!" He retrieved the mangled
bug, much the worse for wear, from the jaws of death. The black kitten
stretched itself up his leg, and waved a frantic paw, Me, me, give me one too!
Excellent! thought Miles, smiling fondly at the kittens. The vomit bugs have a natural predator after all!
He was just evolving a rapid-deployment plan for Vorkosigan House's
guardcats when his brain caught up with itself. The kitten had already
had the butter bug in its mouth when it had scampered into the dining
room. Therefore—
"Dr. Borgos, where did that cat
find that bug?" Miles asked. "I thought you had them all locked down.
In fact," he glanced down the table at Mark, "you promised me they
would be."
"Ah . . ." Enrique said. Miles didn't
know what chain of thought the Escobaran was thumbing down, but he
could see the jerk when he got to the end. "Oh. Excuse me. There's
something I have to check in the lab." Enrique smiled unreassuringly,
dropped the kitten on his vacated chair, spun on his heel, and hurried
out of the dining room toward the back stairs.
Mark said hastily, "I think I'd better go with him," and followed.
Filled
with foreboding, Miles set his napkin down, and murmured quietly, "Aunt
Alys, Simon, take over for me, would you?" He joined the parade,
pausing only long enough to direct Pym to serve more wine. Lots more.
Immediately.
Miles caught up with Enrique and Mark
at the door of the laundry-cum-laboratory one floor below just in time
to hear the Escobaran's cry of Oh, no! Grimly, he shouldered
past Mark to find Enrique kneeling by a large tray, one of the butter
bug houses, which now lay at an angle between the box upon which it had
been perched, and the floor. Its screen top was knocked askew. Inside,
a single Vorkosigan-liveried butter bug, which was missing two legs on
one side, scrambled about in forlorn circles but failed to escape over
the side-wall.
"What happened?" Miles hissed to Enrique.
"They're gone
," Enrique replied, and began to crawl around the floor, looking under
things. "Those cursed cats must have knocked the tray over. I'd pulled
it out to select your presentation bugs. I wanted the biggest and best.
It was all right when I left it . . ."
"How many bugs were in this tray?"
"All of them, the entire genetic grouping. About two hundred individuals."
Miles
stared around the lab. No Vorkosigan-liveried bugs were visible
anywhere. He thought about what a large, old, creaky structure
Vorkosigan House really was. Cracks in the floors, cracks in the walls,
tiny fissures of access everywhere; spaces under the floorboards,
behind the wainscoting, up in the attics, inside the old plastered
walls . . .
The worker bugs , Mark had said, would just wander about till they died, end of story . . .
"You still have the queen, presumably? You can, ah, recover your
genetic resource, eh?" Miles began to walk slowly along the walls,
staring down intently. No brown-and-silver flashes caught his straining
eye.
"Um," said Enrique.
Miles chose his words carefully. "You assured me the queens couldn't move."
"Mature queens can't move, that's true," Enrique explained, climbing to his feet again, and shaking his head. "Immature queens, however, can scuttle like lightning."
Miles
thought it through; it took only a split-second. Vorkosigan-liveried
vomit bugs. Vorkosigan-liveried vomit bugs all over Vorbarr Sultana .
There
was an ImpSec trick, which involved grabbing a man by the collar and
giving it a little half-twist, and doing a thing with the knuckles;
applied correctly, it cut off both blood circulation and breath. Miles
was absently pleased to see that he hadn't lost his touch, despite his
new civilian vocation. He drew Enrique's darkening face down toward his
own. Kareen, breathless, arrived at the lab door.
"Borgos. You will have every one of those god-damned vomit bugs, and especially
their queen, retrieved and accounted for at least six hours before
Count and Countess Vorkosigan are due to walk in the door tomorrow
afternoon. Because five hours and fifty-nine minutes before my parents
arrive here, I am calling in a professional exterminator to take care
of the infestation, that means any and all vomit bugs left outstanding,
do you understand? No exceptions, no mercy."
"No, no! " Enrique managed to wail, despite his lack of oxygen. "You mustn't . . ."
"Lord
Vorkosigan!" Ekaterin's shocked voice came from the door. It had some
of the surprise effect of being hit from ambush by a stunner beam.
Miles's hand sprang guiltily open, and Enrique staggered upright again,
drawing breath in a huge strangled wheeze.
"Don't
stop on my account, Miles," said Kareen coldly. She stalked into the
lab, Ekaterin behind her. "Enrique, you idiot, how could you mention the Orb in front of my parents! Have you no sense?"
"You've known him for this long, and you have to ask?" said Mark direfully.
"And how did you—" her angry gaze swung to Mark, "how did he find out about it anyway—Mark?"
Mark shrank slightly.
"Mark
never said it was a secret—I thought it sounded romantic. Lord
Vorkosigan, please! Don't call an exterminator! I'll get the girls all
back, I promise! Somehow—" Tears welled in Enrique's eyes.
"Calm
down, Enrique!" Ekaterin said soothingly. "I'm sure," she cast Miles a
doubtful look, "Lord Vorkosigan won't order your poor bugs killed.
You'll find them again."
"I have a time
limit here . . ." Miles muttered through his teeth. He could just
picture the scene, tomorrow afternoon or evening, of himself explaining
to the returning Viceroy and Vicereine just what those tiny retching
noises coming from their walls were. Maybe he could shove the task of
apprising them onto Mark—
"If you like, Enrique, I'll stay and help you hunt," Ekaterin volunteered sturdily. She frowned at Miles.
The sensation was like an arrow through his heart, Urk . Now there
was a scenario: Ekaterin and Enrique with their heads heroically, and
closely, bent together to save the Poor Bugs from the evil threats of
the villainous Lord Vorkosigan . . . Grudgingly, he back-pedaled.
"After dinner," he suggested. "We'll all come back after dinner and
help." Yes, if anyone was going to crawl around on the floor hunting
bugs alongside Ekaterin, it would be him, dammit. "The Armsmen too." He
pictured Pym's joy at the news of this task, and cringed inside. "For
now, perhaps we had better return and make polite conversation and all
that," Miles went on. "Except Dr. Borgos, who will be busy."
"I'll stay and help him," Mark offered brightly.
"What?" cried Kareen. "And send me back up there with my parents all alone? And my sisters—I'll never hear the end of this from them . . ."
Miles
shook his head in exasperation. "Why in God's name did you take Kareen
to the Orb in the first place, Mark?"
Mark stared at him in disbelief. "Why d'you think ?"
"Well . . . yes . . . but surely you knew it wasn't, um, wasn't, um . . . proper for a young Barrayaran la—"
"Miles,
you howling hypocrite!" said Kareen indignantly. "When Gran' Tante
Naismith told us you'd been there yourself—several times . . . !"
"That
was duty," Miles said primly. "It's astounding how much interstellar
military and industrial espionage gets filtered through the Orb. You'd
better believe Betan security tracks it, too."
"Oh,
yeah?" said Mark. "And are we also supposed to believe you never once
sampled the services while you were waiting for your contacts—?"
Miles
could recognize the moment for a strategic retreat when he saw it. "I
think we should all go eat dinner now. Or it will burn up or dry out or
something, and Ma Kosti will be very angry with us for spoiling her
presentation. And she'll go work for Aunt Alys instead, and we'll all
have to go back to eating Reddi-Meals."
This hideous threat reached both Mark and Kareen. Yes, and who had
inspired his cook to come up with all those tasty bug butter recipes?
Ma Kosti surely hadn't volunteered on her own. It reeked of conspiracy.
He
exhaled, and offered his arm to Ekaterin. After a moment of hesitation,
and a worried glance back at Enrique, she took it, and Miles managed to
get them all marshaled out of the lab and back upstairs to the dining
room again without anyone bolting off.
"Was all well, belowstairs, m'lord?" Pym inquired in a concerned undervoice.
"We'll talk about it later," Miles returned, equally sotto voce . "Start the next course. And offer more wine."
"Should we wait for Dr. Borgos?"
"No. He'll be occupied."
Pym
gave a disquieted twitch, but moved off about his duties. Aunt Alys,
bless her etiquette, didn't ask for enlargement, but led the
conversation immediately onto neutral topics; her mention of the
Emperor's wedding diverted most people's thoughts at once. Possibly
excepted were the thoughts of Mark and Commodore Koudelka, who eyed
each other in wary silence. Miles wondered if he ought to privately
warn Kou what a bad idea it would be to pull his swordstick on Mark, or
whether that might do more harm than good. Pym topped up Miles's own
wineglass before Miles could explain that his whispered instructions
hadn't been meant to apply to himself. What the hell. A certain . . .
numbness, was beginning to seem like an attractive state.
He
was not at all sure if Ekaterin was having a good time; she'd gone all
quiet again, and glanced occasionally toward Dr. Borgos's empty place.
Though Lord Dono's remarks made her laugh, twice. The former Lady Donna
made a startlingly good-looking man, Miles realized on closer study.
Witty, exotic, and just possibly heir to a Countship . . . and, come to
think of it, with the most appalling unfair advantage in love-making
expertise.
The Armsmen cleared away the plates for
the main course, which had been grilled vat beef fillet with a very
quick pepper garnish, accompanied by a powerful deep red wine. Dessert
appeared: sculpted mounds of frozen creamy ivory substance bejeweled
with a gorgeous arrangement of glazed fresh fruit. Miles caught Pym,
who had been avoiding his eye, by the sleeve in passing, and leaned
over for a word behind his hand.
"Pym, is that what I think it is?"
"Couldn't
be helped, m'lord," Pym muttered back in wary self-exculpation. "Ma
Kosti said it was that or nothing. She's still right furious about the
sauces, and says she wants a word with you after this."
"Oh. I see. Well. Carry on."
He
picked up his spoon, and took a valiant bite. His guests followed suit
doubtfully, except for Ekaterin, who regarded her portion with every
evidence of surprised delight, and leaned forward to exchange a smile
with Kareen, downtable; Kareen returned her a mysterious but triumphant
high-sign. To make it even worse, the stuff was meltingly delicious,
seeming to lock into every primitive pleasure-receptor in Miles's mouth
at once. The sweet and potent golden dessert wine followed it with an
aromatic shellburst on his palate that complemented the frozen bug
stuff perfectly. He could have cried. He smiled tightly, and drank,
instead. His dinner party limped on somehow.
Talk
of Gregor and Laisa's wedding allowed Miles to supply a nice, light,
amusing anecdote about his duties in obtaining, and transporting, a
wedding gift from the people of his District, a life-sized sculpture of
a guerilla soldier on horseback done in maple sugar. This won a brief
smile from Ekaterin at last, this time toward the right fellow. He
mentally marshaled a leading question about gardens to draw her out;
she could sparkle, he was sure, if only she had the right straight
line. He briefly regretted not priming Aunt Alys for this ploy, which
would have been more subtle, but in his original plan, she hadn't been
going to be seated right there—
Miles's pause had
lasted just a little too long. Genially taking his turn to fill it,
Illyan turned to Ekaterin.
"Speaking of weddings,
Madame Vorsoisson, how long has Miles been courting you? Have you
awarded him a date yet? Personally, I think you ought to string him
along and make him work for it."
A chill flush plunged to the pit of Miles's stomach. Alys bit her lip. Even Galeni winced.
Olivia looked up in confusion. "I thought we weren't supposed to mention that yet."
Kou, next to her, muttered, "Hush, lovie."
Lord
Dono, with malicious Vorrutyer innocence, turned to her and inquired,
"What weren't we supposed to mention?"
"Oh, but if Captain Illyan said it, it must be all right," Olivia concluded.
Captain Illyan had his brains blown out last year, thought Miles. He is not all right. All right is precisely what he is not . . .
Her gaze crossed Miles's. "Or maybe . . ."
Not , Miles finished silently for her.
Ekaterin's
face, animate and amused moments ago, was turning to sculpted marble.
It was not an instantaneous process, but it was relentless, implacable,
geologic. The weight of it, pressing on Miles's heart, was crushing. Pygmalion in reverse; I turn breathing women to white stone. . . . He knew that bleak and desert look; he'd seen it one bad day on Komarr, and had hoped never to see it in her lovely face again.
Miles's sinking heart collided with his drunken panic. I can't afford to lose this one, I can't, I can't. Forward momentum, forward momentum and bluff, those had won battles for him before.
"Yes,
ah, heh, quite, well, so, that reminds me, Madame Vorsoisson, I'd been
meaning to ask you—will you marry me?"
Dead silence reigned all along the table.
Ekaterin
made no response at all, at first. For a moment, it seemed as though
she had not even heard his words, and Miles almost yielded to a
suicidal impulse to repeat himself more loudly. Aunt Alys buried her
face in her hands. Miles could feel his breathless grin grow sickly,
and slide down his face. No, no. What I should have said—what I meant to say was . . . please pass the bug butter? Too late . . .
She
visibly unlocked her throat, and spoke. Her words fell from her lips
like ice chips, singly and shattering. "How strange. And here I thought
you were interested in gardens. Or so you told me."
You lied to me hung in the air between them, unspoken, thunderously loud.
So yell. Scream. Throw something. Stomp on me all up and down, it'll be all right, it'll hurt good—I can deal with that—
Ekaterin
took a breath, and Miles's soul rocketed in hope, but it was only to
push back her chair, set her napkin down by her half-eaten dessert,
turn, and walk away up the table. She paused by the Professora only
long enough to bend down and murmur, "Aunt Vorthys, I'll see you at
home."
"But dear, will you be all right . . . ?"
The Professora found herself addressing empty air, as Ekaterin strode
on. Her steps quickened as she neared the door, till she was almost
running. The Professora glanced back and made a helpless,
how-could-you-do-this, or maybe that was,
how-could-you-do-this-you-idiot, gesture at Miles.
The rest of your life is walking out the door. Do something. Miles's chair fell backwards with a bang as he scrambled out of it. "Ekaterin, wait, we have to talk—"
He
didn't run till he passed the doorway, pausing only long enough to slam
it, and a couple of intervening ones, shut between the dinner party and
themselves. He caught up with her in the entry hall, as she tried the
door and fell back; it was, of course, security-locked.
"Ekaterin, wait, listen to me, I can explain," he panted.
She
turned to give him a disbelieving stare, as though he were a
Vorkosigan-liveried butter bug she'd just found floating in her soup.
"I have to talk to you. You have to talk to me," he demanded desperately.
"Indeed,"
she said after a moment, white about the lips. "There is something I
need to say. Lord Vorkosigan, I resign my commission as your landscape
designer. As of this moment, you no longer employ me. I will send the
designs and planting schedules on to you tomorrow, to pass on to my
successor."
"What good will those do me?!"
"If a garden was what you really wanted from me, then they are all you'll need. Right?"
He tested the possible answers on his tongue. Yes was right out. So was no . Wait a minute—
"Couldn't
I have wanted both?" he suggested hopefully. He continued more
strongly, "I wasn't lying to you. I just wasn't saying everything that
was on my mind, because, dammit, you weren't ready to hear it, because
you aren't half-healed yet from being worked over for ten years by that
ass Tien, and I could see it, and you could see it, and even your Aunt
Vorthys could see it, and that's the truth."
By
the jerk of her head, that one had hit home, but she only said, in a
dead-level voice, "Please open your door now, Lord Vorkosigan."
"Wait, listen—"
"You have manipulated me enough," she said. "You've played on my . . . my vanity —"
"Not vanity," he protested. "Skill, pride, drive—anyone could see you just needed scope, opportunity—"
"You are
used to getting your own way, aren't you, Lord Vorkosigan. Any way you
can." Now her voice was horribly dispassionate. "Trapping me in front
of everyone like that."
"That was an accident. Illyan didn't get the word, see, and—"
"Unlike everyone else? You're worse than Vormoncrief! I might just as well have accepted his offer!"
"Huh?
What did Alexi—I mean, no, but, but—whatever you want, I want to give
it to you, Ekaterin. Whatever you need. Whatever it is."
"You
can't give me my own soul." She stared, not at him, but inward, on what
vista he could not imagine. "The garden could have been my gift. You took that away too."
Her
last words arrested his gibbering. What? Wait, now they were getting
down to something, elusive, but utterly vital—
A
large groundcar was pulling up outside, under the porte cochиre. No
more visitors were due; how had they got past the ImpSec gate guard
without notification of Pym? Dammit, no interruptions, not now , when she was just beginning to open up, or at least open fire—
On
the heels of this thought, Pym hurtled through the side doors into the
foyer. "Sorry, m'lord—sorry to intrude, but—"
"Pym ." Ekaterin's voice was nearly a shout, cracking, defying the tears lacing it. "Open the damned door and let me out ."
"Yes milady!" Pym snapped to attention, and his hand spasmed to the security pad.
The
doors swung wide. Ekaterin stormed blindly through, head-down, into the
chest of a startled, stocky, white-haired man wearing a colorful shirt
and a pair of disreputable, worn black trousers. Ekaterin bounced off
him, and had her hands caught up by the, to her, inexplicable stranger.
A tall, tired-looking woman in rumpled travel-skirts, with long
roan-red hair tied back at the nape of her neck, stepped up beside
them, saying, "What in the world . . . ?"
"Excuse
me, miss, are you all right?" the white-haired man rumbled in a raspy
baritone. He stared piercingly at Miles, lurching out of the light of
the foyer in Ekaterin's wake.
"No," she choked. "I need—I want an auto-cab, please."
"Ekaterin, no, wait," Miles gasped.
"I want an auto-cab right now ."
"The
gate guard will be happy to call one for you," the red-haired woman
said soothingly. Countess Cordelia Vorkosigan, Vicereine of Sergyar—Mother
—stared even more ominously at her wheezing son. "And see you safely
into it. Miles, why are you harrying this young lady?" And more
doubtfully, "Are we interrupting business, or pleasure?"
From
thirty years of familiarity, Miles had no trouble unraveling this
cryptic shorthand to be a serious query of, Have we walked in on, perhaps, an official Auditorial interrogation gone wrong, or is this one of your personal screw-ups again?
God knew what Ekaterin made of it. One bright note: if Ekaterin never
spoke to him again, he'd never be put to explain the Countess's
peculiar Betan sense of humor to her.
"My dinner party," Miles grated. "It's just breaking up." And sinking. All souls feared lost. It was redundant to ask, What are you doing here?
His parents' jumpship had obviously made orbit early, and they had left
the bulk of their entourage to follow on tomorrow, while they came
straight downside to sleep in their own bed. How had he rehearsed this
vitally-important, utterly-critical meeting, again? "Mother, Father,
let me introduce—she's getting away !"
As a
new distraction rose from the hallway at Miles's back, Ekaterin slipped
through the shadows all the way to the gate. The Koudelkas, having
perhaps intelligently concluded that this party was over, were
decamping en masse, but the wait-till-we-get-home conversation had
undergone a jump-start. Kareen's voice was protesting; the Commodore's
overrode it, saying, "You will come home now. You're not staying another minute in this house."
"I have to come back. I work here."
"Not any more, you don't—"
Mark's harried voice dogged along, "Please, sir, Commodore, Madame Koudelka, you mustn't blame Kareen—"
"You can't stop me!" Kareen declaimed.
Commodore
Koudelka's eye fell on the returnees as the rolling altercation piled
up in the hallway. "Ha—Aral!" he snarled. "Do you realize what your son
has been up to?"
The Count blinked. "Which one?" he asked mildly.
The
chance of the light caught Mark's face, as he heard this off-hand
affirmation of his identity. Even in the chaos of his hopes pinwheeling
to destruction, Miles was glad to have seen the brief awed look that
passed over those fat-distorted features. Oh, Brother. Yeah. This is why men follow this man—
Olivia tugged her mother's sleeve. "Mama," she whispered urgently, "can I go home with Tatya?"
"Yes,
dear, I think that might be a good idea," said Drou distractedly,
clearly looking ahead; Miles wasn't sure if she was cutting down
Kareen's potential allies in the brewing battle, or just the
anticipated noise level.
Renй and Tatya looked as
though they would have been glad to sneak out quietly under the
covering fire, but Lord Dono, who had somehow attached himself to their
party, paused just long enough to say cheerily, "Thank you, Lord
Vorkosigan, for a most memorable evening." He nodded cordially to Count
and Countess Vorkosigan, as he followed the Vorbrettens to their
groundcar. Well, the operation hadn't changed Donna/Dono's vile grip on
irony, unfortunately . . .
"Who was that?" asked Count Vorkosigan. "Looks familiar, somehow . . ."
A
distracted-looking Enrique, his wiry hair half on-end, prowled into the
great hall from the back entry. He had a jar in one hand, and what
Miles could only dub Stink-on-a-Stick in the other: a wand with a wad
of sickly-sweet scent-soaked fiber attached to its end, which he waved
along the baseboards. "Here, buggy, buggy," he cooed plaintively. "Come
to Papa, that's the good girls . . ." He paused, and peered worriedly
under a side-table. "Buggy-buggy . . . ?"
"Now . . . that cries out for an explanation," murmured the Count, watching him in arrested fascination.
Out
by the front gate, an auto-cab's door slammed; its fans whirred as it
pulled away into the night forever. Miles stood still, listening amid
the uproar, till the last whisper of it was gone.
"Pym!"
The Countess spotted a new victim, and her voice went a little
dangerous. "I seconded you to look after Miles. Would you care to
explain this scene?"
There was a thoughtful pause. In a voice of simple honesty, Pym replied, "No, Milady."
"Ask Mark," Miles said callously. "He'll explain everything." Head down, he started for the stairs.
"You rat-coward—!" Mark hissed at him in passing.
The rest of his guests were shuffling uncertainly into the hallway.
The Count asked cautiously, "Miles, are you drunk?"
Miles
paused on the third step. "Not yet, sir," he replied. He didn't look
back. "Not nearly enough yet. Pym, see me."
He took the steps two at a time to his chambers, and oblivion.
CHAPTER TEN
"Good afternoon, Mark." Countess Vorkosigan's
bracing voice spiked Mark's last futile attempts to maintain
unconsciousness. He groaned, pulled his pillow from his face, and
opened one bleary eye.
He tested responses on his furry tongue. Countess. Vicereine. Mother. Strangely enough, Mother seemed to work best. "G'fertn'n, M'thur."
She
studied him for a moment further, then nodded, and waved at the maid
who'd followed in her wake. The girl set down a tea tray on the bedside
table and stared curiously at Mark, who had an urge to pull his covers
up over himself even though he was still wearing most of last night's
clothing. The maid trundled obediently out of Mark's room again at the
Countess's firm, "Thank you, that will be all."
Countess
Vorkosigan opened the curtains, letting in blinding light, and pulled
up a chair. "Tea?" she inquired, pouring without waiting for an answer.
"Yeah,
I guess." Mark struggled upright, and rearranged his pillows enough to
accept the mug without spilling it. The tea was strong and dark, with
cream, the way he liked it, and it scalded the glue out of his mouth.
The
Countess poked doubtfully at the empty butter bug tubs piled on the
table. Counting them up, perhaps, because she winced. "I didn't think
you'd want breakfast yet."
"No. Thank you." Though his excruciating stomach-ache was calming down. The tea actually soothed it.
"Neither does your brother. Miles, possibly driven by his new-found need to uphold Vor tradition, sought his
anesthetic in wine. Achieved it, too, according to Pym. At present,
we're letting him enjoy his spectacular hangover without commentary."
"Ah." Fortunate son.
"Well,
he'll have to come out of his rooms eventually. Though Aral advises not
to look for him before tonight." Countess Vorkosigan poured herself a
mug of tea too, and stirred in cream. "Lady Alys was very peeved at
Miles for abandoning the field before his guests had all departed. She
considered it a shameful lapse of manners on his part."
"It
was a shambles." One that, it appeared, they were all going to live
through. Unfortunately. Mark took another sluicing swallow. "What
happened after . . . after the Koudelkas left?" Miles had bailed out
early; Mark's own courage had broken when the Commodore had lost his
grip to the point of referring to the Countess's mother as a damned Betan pimp
, and Kareen had flung out the door proclaiming that she would sooner
walk home, or possibly to the other side of the continent, before
riding one meter in a car with a pair of such hopelessly uncultured,
ignorant, benighted Barrayaran savages . Mark had fled to his
bedroom with a stack of bug butter tubs and a spoon, and locked the
door; Gorge and Howl had done their best to salve his shaken nerves.
Reversion
under stress, his therapist would no doubt have dubbed it. He'd half
hated, half exulted in the sense of not being in charge in his own
body, but letting Gorge run to his limit had blocked the far more
dangerous Other . It was a bad sign when Killer became
nameless. He had managed to pass out before he ruptured, but only just.
He felt spent now, his head foggy and quiet like a landscape after a
storm.
The Countess continued, "Aral and I had an
extremely enlightening talk with Professor and Professora Vorthys—now, there's
a woman who has her head screwed on straight. I wish I'd made her
acquaintance before this. They then left to see after their niece, and
we had a longer talk with Alys and Simon." She took a slow sip. "Do I
understand correctly that the dark-haired young lady who bolted past us
last night was my potential daughter-in-law?"
"Not anymore, I don't think," said Mark morosely.
"Damn."
The Countess frowned into her cup. "Miles told us practically nothing
about her in his, I think I'm justified in calling them briefs , to us on Sergyar. If I'd known then half the things the Professora told me later, I'd have intercepted her myself."
"It
wasn't my fault she ran off," Mark hastened to point out. "Miles opened
his mouth and jammed his boot in there all by himself." He conceded
reluctantly after a moment, "Well, I suppose Illyan helped."
"Yes.
Simon was pretty distraught, once Alys explained it all to him. He was
afraid he'd been told Miles's big secret and then forgot. I'm quite peeved at Miles for setting him up like that." A dangerous spark glinted in her eye.
Mark
was considerably less interested in Miles's problems than in his own.
He said cautiously, "Has, ah . . . Enrique found his missing queen,
yet?"
"Not so far." The Countess hitched around in
her chair and looked bemusedly at him. "I had a nice long talk with Dr.
Borgos, too, once Alys and Illyan left. He showed me your lab. Kareen's
work, I understand. I promised him a stay of Miles's execution order
upon his girls, after which he calmed down considerably. I will say,
his science seems sound."
"Oh, he's brilliant about the things that get his attention. His interests are a little, um, narrow, is all."
The
Countess shrugged. "I've been living with obsessed men for the better
part of my life. I think your Enrique will fit right in here."
"So . . . you've met our butter bugs?"
"Yes."
She seemed unfazed; Betan, you know . He could wish Miles had inherited more of her traits. "And, um . . . has the Count seen them yet?"
"Yes, in fact. We found one wandering about on our bedside table when we woke up this morning."
Mark flinched. "What did you do?"
"We
turned a glass over her and left her to be collected by her papa.
Sadly, Aral did not spot the bug exploring his shoe before he put it
on. That one we disposed of quietly. What was left of her."
After a daunted silence, Mark asked hopefully, "It wasn't the queen, was it?"
"We couldn't tell, I'm afraid. It appeared to have been about the same size as the first one."
"Mm, then not. The queen would have been noticeably bigger."
Silence fell again, for a time.
"I
will grant Kou one point," said the Countess finally. "I do have some
responsibility toward Kareen. And toward you. I was perfectly aware of
the array of choices that would be available to you both on Beta
Colony. Including, happily, each other." She hesitated. "Having Kareen
Koudelka as a daughter-in-law would give Aral and me great pleasure, in
case you had any doubt."
"I never imagined otherwise. Are you asking me if my intentions are honorable?"
"I
trust your honor, whether it fits in the narrowest Barrayaran
definition or encompasses something broader," the Countess said equably.
Mark
sighed. "Somehow, I don't think the Commodore and Madame Koudelka are
ready to greet me with reciprocal joy."
"You are a Vorkosigan."
"A clone. An imitation. A cheap Jacksonian knock-off." And crazy to boot.
"A bloody expensive Jacksonian knock-off."
"Ha," Mark agreed darkly.
She
shook her head, her smile growing more rueful. "Mark, I'm more than
willing to help you and Kareen reach for your goals, whatever the
obstacles. But you have to give me some clue of what your goals are ."
Be careful how you aim this woman.
The Countess was to obstacles as a laser cannon was to flies. Mark
studied his stubby, plump hands in covert dismay. Hope, and its
attendant, fear, began to stir again in his heart. "I want . . .
whatever Kareen wants. On Beta, I thought I knew. Since we got back
here, it's been all confused."
"Culture clash?"
"It's
not just the culture clash, though that's part of it." Mark groped for
words, trying to articulate his sense of the wholeness of Kareen. "I
think . . . I think she wants time . Time to be herself, to be
where she is, who she is. Without being hurried or stampeded to take up
one role or another, to the exclusion of all the rest of her
possibilities. Wife is a pretty damned exclusive role, the way they do it here. She says Barrayar wants to put her in a box."
The Countess tilted her head, taking this in. "She may be wiser than she knows."
He
brooded. "On the other hand, maybe I was her secret vice, back on Beta.
And here I'm a horrible embarrassment to her. Maybe she'd like me to
just shove off and leave her alone."
The Countess
raised a brow. "Didn't sound like it last night. Kou and Drou
practically had to pry her nails out of our door jamb."
Mark brightened slightly. "There is that."
"And
how have your goals changed, in your year on Beta? In addition to
adding Kareen's heart's desire to your own, that is."
"Not
changed, exactly," he responded slowly. "Honed, maybe. Focused.
Modified . . . I achieved some things in my therapy I'd despaired of,
of ever making come right in my life. It made me think maybe the rest
isn't so impossible after all."
She nodded encouragement.
"School
. . . economics school was good. I'm getting quite a tool-kit of skills
and knowledge, you know. I'm really starting to know what I'm doing,
not just faking it all the time." He glanced sideways at her. "I
haven't forgotten Jackson's Whole. I've been thinking about indirect
ways to shut down the damned butcher cloning lords there. Lilly Durona
has some ideas for life-extension therapies that might be able to
compete with their clone-brain transplants. Safer, nearly as effective,
and cheaper. Draw off their customers, disrupt them economically
even if I can't touch them physically. Every scrap of spare cash I've
been able to amass, I've been dumping into the Durona Group, to support
their R and D. I'm going to own a controlling share of them, if this
goes on." He smiled wryly. "And I still want enough money left that no
one has power over me. I'm beginning to see how I can get it, not
overnight, but steadily, bit by bit. I, um . . . wouldn't mind starting
a new agribusiness here on Barrayar."
"And
Sergyar, too. Aral was very interested in possible applications for
your bugs among our colonists and homesteaders."
"Was he?" Mark's lips parted in astonishment. "Even with the Vorkosigan crest on them?"
"Mm,
it would perhaps be wise to lose the House livery before pitching them
seriously to Aral," the Countess said, suppressing a smile.
"I
didn't know Enrique was going to do that," Mark offered by way of
apology. "Though you should have seen the look on Miles's face, when
Enrique presented them to him. It almost made it worth it. . . ." He
sighed at the memory, but then shook his head in renewed despair. "But
what good is it all, if Kareen and I can't get back to Beta Colony? She's
stuck for money, if her parents won't support her. I could offer to pay
her way, but . . . but I don't know if that's a good idea."
"Ah," said the Countess. "Interesting. Are you afraid Kareen would feel you had purchased her loyalty?"
"I'm
. . . not sure. She's very conscientious about obligations. I want a
lover. Not a debtor. I think it would be a bad mistake to accidentally
. . . put her in another kind of box. I want to give her everything. But I don't know how!"
An
odd smile turned the Countess's lip. "When you give each other
everything, it becomes an even trade. Each wins all."
Mark shook his head, baffled. "An odd sort of Deal."
"The
best." The Countess finished her tea and put down her cup, "Well. I
don't wish to invade your privacy. But do remember, you're allowed to ask for help. It's part of what families are all about."
"I owe you too much already, milady."
Her
smile tilted. "Mark, you don't pay back your parents. You can't. The
debt you owe them gets collected by your children, who hand it down in
turn. It's a sort of entailment. Or if you don't have children of the
body, it's left as a debt to your common humanity. Or to your God, if
you possess or are possessed by one."
"I'm not sure that seems fair."
"The
family economy evades calculation in the gross planetary product. It's
the only deal I know where, when you give more than you get, you aren't
bankrupted—but rather, vastly enriched."
Mark took
this in. And what kind of parent to him was his progenitor-brother?
More than a sibling, but most certainly not his mother. . . . "Can you
help Miles?"
"That's more of a puzzle." The
Countess smoothed her skirts, and rose. "I haven't known this Madame
Vorsoisson all her life the way I've known Kareen. It's not at all
clear what Ican do for Miles—I would say poor boy , but
from everything I've heard he dug his very own pit and jumped in. I'm
afraid he's going to have to dig himself back out. Likely it will be
good for him." She gave a firm nod, as though a supplicant Miles were
already being sent on his way to achieve salvation alone: Write when you find good works . The Countess's idea of maternal concern was damned unnerving, sometimes, Mark reflected as she made her way out.
He
was conscious that he was sticky, and itchy, and needed to pee and
wash. And he had a pressing obligation to go help Enrique hunt for his
missing queen, before she and her offspring built a nest in the walls
and started making more Vorkosigan butter bugs. Instead, he lurched to his comconsole, sat gingerly, and tried the code for the Koudelkas' residence.
He
desperately aligned an array of fast talk in four flavors, depending on
whether the Commodore, Madame Koudelka, Kareen, or one of her sisters
answered the vid. Kareen hadn't called him this morning: was she
sleeping, sulking, locked in? Had her parents bricked her up in the
walls? Or worse, thrown her out on the street? Wait, no, that would be
all right—she could come live here —
His subvocalized rehearsals were wasted. Call Not Accepted
blinked at him in malignant red letters, like a scrawl of blood
hovering over the vid plate. The voice-recognition program had been set
to screen him out.
* * *
Ekaterin had a splitting headache.
It
was all that wine last night, she decided. An appalling amount had been
served, including the sparkling wine in the library and the different
wines with each of the four courses of dinner. She had no idea how much
she'd actually drunk. Pym had assiduously topped up her glass whenever
the level had dropped below two-thirds. More than five glasses, anyway.
Seven? Ten? Her usual limit was two.
It was a
wonder she'd been able to stalk out of that overheated grand dining
room without falling over; but then, if she'd been stone sober, could
she ever have found the nerve—or was that, the ill-manners—to do so? Pot-valiant, were you?
She
ran her hands through her hair, rubbed her neck, opened her eyes, and
lifted her forehead again from the cool surface of her aunt's
comconsole. All the plans and notes for Lord Vorkosigan's Barrayaran
garden were now neatly and logically organized, and indexed.
Anyone—well, any gardener who knew what they were doing in the first
place—could follow them and complete the job in good order. The final
tally of all expenses was appended. The working credit account had been
balanced, closed, and signed off. She had only to hit the Send pad on
the comconsole for it all to be gone from her life forever.
She
groped for the exquisite little model Barrayar on its gold chain heaped
by the vid plate, held it up, and let it spin before her eyes. Leaning
back in the comconsole chair, she contemplated it, and all the memories
attached to it like invisible chains. Gold and lead, hope and fear,
triumph and pain . . . She squinted it to a blur.
She
remembered the day he'd bought it, on their absurd and ultimately very
wet shopping trip in the Komarran dome, his face alive with the humor
of it all. She remembered the day he'd given it to her, in her hospital
room on the transfer station, after the defeat of the conspirators. The Lord Auditor Vorkosigan Award for Making His Job Easier
, he'd dubbed it, his gray eyes glinting. He'd apologized that it was
not the real medal any soldier might have earned for doing rather less
than what she'd done that awful night-cycle. It wasn't a gift. Or if it
was, she'd been very wrong to accept it from his hand, because it was
much too expensive a bauble to be proper. Though he had grinned
like a fool, Aunt Vorthys, watching, hadn't batted an eye. It was,
therefore, a prize. She'd won it herself, paid for it with bruises and
terror and panicked action.
This is mine. I will not give it up.
With a frown, she drew the chain back over her head and tucked the
pendant planet inside her black blouse, trying not to feel like a
guilty child hiding a stolen cookie.
Her flaming
desire to return to Vorkosigan House and rip her skellytum rootling, so
carefully and proudly planted mere hours ago, back out of the ground,
had burned out sometime after midnight. For one thing, she would
certainly have run afoul of Vorkosigan House's security, if she'd gone
blundering about in its garden in the dark. Pym, or Roic, might have
stunned her, and been very upset, poor fellows. And then carried her
back inside, where . . . Her fury, her wine, and her over-wrought
imagination had all worn off near dawn, running out at last in secret,
muffled tears in her pillow, when the household was long quiet and she
could hope for a scrap of privacy.
Why should she even bother? Miles didn't care about the skellytum—he hadn't even gone out to look
at it last evening. She'd been lugging the awkward thing around in her
life for fifteen years, in one form or another, since inheriting the
seventy-year-old bonsai from her great-aunt. It had survived death,
marriage, a dozen moves, interstellar travel, being flung off a balcony
and shattered, more death, another five wormhole jumps, and two
subsequent transplantations. It had to be as exhausted as she was. Let
it sit there and rot, or dry up and blow away, or whatever its
neglected fate was to be. At least she had dragged it back to Barrayar
to finish dying. Enough. She was done with it. Forever.
She
called her garden instructions back up on the comconsole, and added an
appendix about the skellytum's rather tricky post-transplant watering
and feeding requirements.
"Mama!" Nikki's sharp, excited voice made her flinch.
"Don't . . . don't thump
so, dear." She turned in her station chair and smiled bleakly at her
son. She was inwardly grateful she hadn't dragged him along to last
night's debacle, though she could've pictured him enthusiastically
joining poor Enrique on the butter bug hunt. But if Nikki had been
present, she could not have left, and abandoned him. Nor yanked him
along with her, halfway through his dessert and doubtless protesting in
bewilderment. She'd have been mother-bound to her chair, there to
endure whatever ghastly, awkward social torment might have subsequently
played out.
He stood by her elbow, and bounced.
"Last night, did you work out with Lord Vorkosigan when he's gonna take
me down to Vorkosigan Surleau and learn to ride his horse? You said you
would."
She'd brought Nikki along to the garden
work-site several times, when neither her aunt nor uncle could be home
with him. Lord Vorkosigan had generously offered to let him have the
run of Vorkosigan House on such days, and they'd even hustled up Pym's
youngest boy Arthur from his nearby home for a playmate. Ma Kosti had
captured Nikki's stomach, heart, and slavish loyalty in very short
order, Armsman Roic had played games with him, and Kareen Koudelka had
let him help in the lab. Ekaterin had almost forgotten this off-hand
invitation, issued by Lord Vorkosigan when he'd turned Nikki back over
to her at the end of one workday. She'd made polite-doubtful noises at
the time. Miles had assured her the horse in question was very old and
gentle, which hadn't exactly been the doubt that had concerned her.
"I . . ." Ekaterin rubbed her temple, which seemed to anchor a lacework of shooting pain inside her head. Generously . . . ?
Or just more of Miles's campaign of subtle manipulation, now revealed?
"I really don't think we ought to impose on him like that. It's such a
long way down to his District. If you're really interested in horses,
I'm sure we can get you riding lessons somewhere much nearer Vorbarr
Sultana."
Nikki frowned in obvious disappointment.
"I dunno about horses. But he said he might let me try his lightflyer,
on the way down."
"Nikki, you're much too young to fly a lightflyer."
"Lord Vorkosigan said his father let him
fly when he was younger than me. He said his da said he needed to know
how to take over the controls in an emergency just as soon as he was
physically able. He said he sat him on his lap, and let him take off
and land all by himself and everything."
"You're much too big to sit on Lord Vorkosigan's lap!" So was she, she supposed. But if he and she were to—stop that .
"Well,"
Nikki considered this, and allowed, "anyway, he's too little. It'd look
goofy. But his lightflyer seat's just right! Pym let me sit in it, when
I was helping him polish the cars." Nikki bounced some more. "Can you
ask Lord Vorkosigan when you go to work?"
"No. I don't think so."
"Why not?" He looked at her, his brow wrinkling slightly. "Why didn't you go today?"
"I'm . . . not feeling very well."
"Oh. Tomorrow, then? Come on, Mama, please ?" He hung on her arm, and twisted himself up, and made big eyes at her, grinning.
She rested her throbbing forehead in her hand. "No, Nikki. I don't think so."
"Aw, why not ? You said
. Come on, it'll be so great. You don't have to come if you don't want,
I s'pose. Why not, why not, why not? Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow?"
"I'm not going to work tomorrow, either."
"Are you that sick? You don't look that sick." He stared at her in startled worry.
"No."
She hastened to address that worry, before he started making up dire
medical theories in his head. He'd lost one parent this year. "It's
just . . . I'm not going to be going back to Lord Vorkosigan's house. I
quit."
"Huh?" Now his stare grew entirely bewildered. "Why ? I thought you liked making that garden thing."
"I did."
"Then why'd you quit?"
"Lord Vorkosigan and I . . . had a falling-out. Over, over an ethical issue."
"What? What issue?" His voice was laced with confusion and disbelief. He twisted himself around the other way.
"I found he'd . . . lied to me about something." He promised he'd never lie to me
. He'd feigned that he was very interested in gardens. He'd arranged
her life by subterfuge—and then told everyone else in Vorbarr Sultana.
He'd pretended he didn't love her. He'd as much as promised he'd never
ask her to marry him. He'd lied . Try explaining that to a nine-year-old boy. Or to any other rational human being of any age or gender, her honesty added bitterly. Am I insane yet? Anyway, Miles hadn't actually said
he wasn't in love with her, he'd just . . . implied it. Avoided saying
much on the subject at all, in fact. Prevarication by misdirection.
"Oh," said Nikki, eyes wide, daunted at last.
The
Professora's blessed voice interrupted from the archway. "Now, Nikki,
don't be pestering your mother. She has a very bad hangover."
"A hang over?" Nikki clearly had trouble fitting the words mother and hangover into the same conceptual space. "She said she was sick."
"Wait
till you're older, dear. You'll doubtless discover the distinction, or
lack of it, for yourself. Run along now." His smiling great-aunt guided
him firmly away. "Out, out. Go see what your Uncle Vorthys is up to
downstairs. I heard some very odd noises a bit ago."
Nikki let himself be chivvied out, with a disturbed backward glance over his shoulder.
Ekaterin put her head back down on the comconsole, and shut her eyes.
A
clink by her head made her open them again; her aunt was setting down a
large glass of cool water and holding out two painkiller tablets.
"I had some of those this morning," said Ekaterin dully.
"They appear to have worn off. Drink all the water, now. You clearly need to rehydrate."
Dutifully,
Ekaterin did so. She set the glass down, and squeezed her eyes open and
shut a few times. "That really was the Count and Countess
Vorkosigan last night, wasn't it." It wasn't really a question, more a
plea for denial. After nearly stampeding over them in her desperate
flight out the door, she'd been halfway home in the auto-cab before her
belated realization of their identity had dawned so horribly. The great
and famous Viceroy and Vicereine of Sergyar. What business had they, to
look so like ordinary people at a moment like that? Ow, ow, ow.
"Yes. I'd never met them to speak to at any length before."
"Did
you . . . speak to them at length last night?" Her aunt and uncle had
been almost an hour behind her, arriving home.
"Yes, we had quite a nice chat. I was impressed. Miles's mother is a very sensible woman."
"Then why is her son such a . . . never mind." Ow.
"They must think I'm some sort of hysteric. How did I get the nerve to
just stand up and walk out of a formal dinner in front of all those . .
. and Lady Alys Vorpatril . . . and at Vorkosigan House . I can't believe I did that." After a brooding moment, she added, "I can't believe he did that."
Aunt Vorthys did not ask, What? , or Which he? She did purse her lips, and look quizzically at her niece. "Well, I don't suppose you had much choice."
"No."
"After all, if you hadn't left, you'd have had to answer Lord Vorkosigan's question."
"I . . . didn't . . . ?" Ekaterin blinked. Hadn't her actions been answer enough? "Under those circumstances? Are you mad?"
"He
knew it was a mistake the moment the words were out of his mouth, I
daresay, at least judging from that ghastly expression on his face. You
could see everything just drain right out of it. Extraordinary. But I
can't help wondering, dear—if you'd wanted to say no , why didn't you? It was the perfect opportunity to do so."
"I
. . . I . . ." Ekaterin tried to collect her wits, which seemed to be
scattering like sheep. "It wouldn't have been . . . polite ."
After a thoughtful pause, her aunt murmured, "You might have said, `No, thank you.' "
Ekaterin rubbed her numb face. "Aunt Vorthys," she sighed, "I love you dearly. But please go away now."
Her aunt smiled, and kissed her on the top of her head, and drifted out.
Ekaterin returned to her twice-interrupted brooding. Her aunt was right, she realized. Ekaterin hadn't answered Miles's question. And she hadn't even noticed she hadn't answered.
She
recognized this headache, and the knotted stomach that went with it,
and it had nothing to do with too much wine. Her arguments with her
late husband Tien had never involved physical violence directed against
her, though the walls had suffered from his clenched fists a few times.
The rows had always petered out into days of frozen, silent rage,
filled with unbearable tension and a sort of grief, of two people
trapped together in the same always-too-small space walking wide around
each other. She had almost always broken first, backed down,
apologized, placated, anything to make the pain stop. Heartsick , perhaps, was the name of the emotion.
I don't want to go back there again. Please don't ever make me go back there again.
Where am I, when I am at home in myself?
Not here, for all the increasing burden of her aunt and uncle's
charity. Not, certainly, with Tien. Not with her own father. With . . .
Miles? She had felt flashes of profound ease in his company, it was
true, brief perhaps, but calm like deep water. There had also been
moments when she'd wanted to whack him with a brick. Which was the real
Miles? Which was the real Ekaterin, for that matter?
The
answer hovered, and it scared her breathless. But she'd picked wrong
before. She had no judgment in these man-and-woman matters, she'd
proved that.
She turned back to the comconsole. A
note. She should write some sort of cover note to go with the returned
garden plans.
I think they will be self-explanatory, don't you?
She
pressed the Send pad on the comconsole, and stumbled back upstairs to
pull the curtains and lie down fully dressed on her bed until dinner.
* * *
Miles
slouched into the library of Vorkosigan House, a mug of weak tea
clutched in his faintly trembling hand. The light in here was still too
bright this evening. Perhaps he ought to seek refuge in a corner of the
garage instead. Or the cellar. Not the wine cellar—he shuddered at the
thought. But he'd grown entirely bored with his bed, covers pulled over
his head or not. A day of that was enough.
He
stopped abruptly, and lukewarm tea sloshed onto his hand. His father
was at the secured comconsole, and his mother was at the broad inlaid
table with three or four books and a mess of flimsies spread out before
her. They both looked up at him, and smiled in tentative greeting. It
would probably seem surly of him to back out and flee.
"G'evening,"
he managed, and shambled past them to find his favorite chair, and
lower himself carefully into it.
"Good evening,
Miles," his mother returned. His father put his console on hold, and
regarded him with bland interest.
"How was your trip home from Sergyar?" Miles went on, after about a minute of silence.
"Entirely without incident, happily enough," his mother said. "Till the very end."
"Ah," said Miles. "That." He brooded into his tea mug.
His
parents humanely ignored him for several minutes, but whatever they'd
been separately working on seemed to not hold their attention anymore.
Still, nobody left.
"We missed you at breakfast," the Countess said finally. "And lunch. And dinner."
"I was still throwing up at breakfast," said Miles. "I wouldn't have been much fun."
"So Pym reported," said the Count.
The Countess added astringently, "Are you done with that now?"
"Yeh.
It didn't help." Miles slumped a little further, and stretched his legs
out before him. "A life in ruins with vomiting is still a life in
ruins."
"Mm," said the Count in a judicious tone,
"though it does make it easy to be a recluse. If you're repulsive
enough, people spontaneously avoid you."
His wife twinkled at him. "Speaking from experience, love?"
"Naturally." His eyes grinned back at her.
More
silence fell. His parents did not decamp. Obviously, Miles concluded,
he wasn't repulsive enough. Perhaps he should emit a menacing belch.
He finally started, "Mother—you're a woman—"
She sat up, and gave him a bright, encouraging Betan smile. "Yes . . . ?"
"Never mind," he sighed. He slumped again.
The Count rubbed his lips and regarded him thoughtfully. "Do you have anything to do ? Any miscreants to go Imperially Audit, or anything?"
"Not at present," Miles replied. After a contemplative moment he added, "Fortunately for them."
"Hm."
The Count tamped down a smile. "Perhaps you are wise." He hesitated.
"Your Aunt Alys gave us a blow-by-blow account of your dinner party.
With editorials. She was particularly insistent that I tell you she trusts
," Miles could hear his aunt's cadences mimicked in his father's voice,
"you would not have fled the scene of any other losing battle the way
you deserted last night."
Ah. Yes. His parents had
been left with the mopping up, hadn't they. "But there was no hope of
being shot dead in the dining room if I stayed with the rear guard."
His father flicked up an eyebrow. "And so avoid the subsequent court martial?"
"Thus conscience doth make cowards of us all," Miles intoned.
"I
am sufficiently your partisan," said the Countess, "that the sight of a
pretty woman running screaming, or at least swearing, into the night
from your marriage proposal rather disturbs me. Though your Aunt Alys
says you scarcely left the young lady any other choice. It's hard to
say what else she could have done but walk out. Except squash you like a bug, I suppose."
Miles cringed at the word bug .
"Just how bad—" the Countess began.
"Did I offend her? Badly enough, it seems."
"Actually, I was about to ask, just how bad was Madame Vorsoisson's prior marriage?"
Miles
shrugged. "I only saw a little of it. I gather from the pattern of her
flinches that the late unlamented Tien Vorsoisson was one of those
subtle feral parasites who leave their mates scratching their heads and
asking, Am I crazy? Am Icrazy? " She wouldn't have those doubts if she married him , ha.
"Aah," said his mother, in a tone of much enlightenment. "One of those
. Yes. I know the type of old. They come in all gender-flavors, by the
way. It can take years to fight your way out of the mental mess they
leave in their wake."
"I don't have years," Miles protested. "I've never
had years." And then pressed his lips shut at the little flicker of
pain in his father's eyes. Well, who knew what Miles's second life
expectancy was, anyway. Maybe he'd started his clock all over, after
the cryorevival. Miles slumped lower. "The hell of it is, I knew
better. I'd had way too much to drink, I panicked when Simon . . . I
never meant to ambush Ekaterin like that. It was friendly fire . . ."
He
went on after a little, "I had this great plan, see. I thought it could
solve everything in one brilliant swoop. She has this real passion for
gardens, and her husband had left her effectively destitute. So I
figured, I could help her jump-start the career of her dreams, slip her
some financial support, and get an excuse to see her nearly every day,and
get in ahead of the competition. I had to practically wade through the
fellows panting after her in the Vorthys's parlor, the times I went
over there—"
"For the purpose of panting after her in her parlor, I take it?" his mother inquired sweetly.
"No!" said Miles, stung. "To consult about the garden I'd hired her to make in the lot next door."
"Is that
what that crater is," said his father. "In the dark, from the
groundcar, it looked as though someone tried to shell Vorkosigan House
and missed, and I'd wondered why no one had reported it to us."
"It is not a crater . It's a sunken garden. There's just . . . just no plants in it yet."
"It
has a very nice shape, Miles," his mother said soothingly. "I went out
and walked through it this afternoon. The little stream is very pretty
indeed. It reminds me of the mountains."
"That was the idea," said Miles, primly ignoring his father's mutter of. . . after a Cetagandan bombing raid on a guerilla position . . .
Then Miles sat bolt upright in sudden horror. Not quite no plants.
"Oh, God! I never went out to look at her skellytum! Lord Dono came in
with Ivan—did Aunt Alys explain to you about Lord Dono?—and I was
distracted, and then it was time for dinner, and I never had the chance
afterwards. Has anyone watered—? Oh, shit, no wonder she was angry. I'm
dead meat twice over—!" He melted back into his puddle of despair.
"So,
let me get this straight," said the Countess slowly, studying him
dispassionately. "You took this destitute widow, struggling to get on
her own feet for the first time in her life, and dangled a golden
career opportunity before her as bait, just to tie her to you and cut
her off from other romantic possibilities."
That seemed an uncharitably bald way of putting it. "Not . . . not just ," Miles choked. "I was trying to do her a good turn. I never imagined she'd quit—the garden was everything to her."
The
Countess sat back, and regarded him with a horribly thoughtful
expression, the one she acquired when you'd made the mistake of getting
her full, undivided attention. "Miles . . . do you remember that
unfortunate incident with Armsman Esterhazy and the game of cross-ball,
when you were about twelve years old?"
He hadn't
thought of it in years, but at her words, the memory came flooding
back, still tinged with shame and fury. The Armsmen used to play
cross-ball with him, and sometimes Elena and Ivan, in the back garden
of Vorkosigan House: a low-impact game, of minimum threat to his
then-fragile bones, but requiring quick reflexes and good timing. He'd
been elated the first time he'd won a match against an actual adult, in
this case Armsman Esterhazy. He'd been shaken with rage, when a
not-meant-to-be-overheard remark had revealed to him that the game had
been a setup. Forgotten. But not forgiven.
"Poor
Esterhazy had thought it would cheer you up, because you were depressed
at the time about some, I forget which, slight you'd suffered at
school," the Countess said. "I still remember how furious you were when
you figured out he'd let you win. Did you ever carry on about that one. We thought you'd do yourself a harm."
"He stole my victory from me," grated Miles, "as surely as if he'd cheated to win. And he poisoned every subsequent real victory with doubt. I had a right to be mad."
His mother sat quietly, expectantly.
The light dawned. Even with his eyes squeezed shut, the intensity of the glare hurt his head.
"Oh. Noooo," groaned Miles, muffled into the cushion he jammed over his face. "I did that to her ?"
His remorseless parent let him stew in it, a silence sharper-edged than words.
"I did that to her . . ." he moaned, pitifully.
Pity
did not seem to be forthcoming. He clutched the cushion to his chest.
"Oh. God. That's exactly what I did. She said it herself. She said the
garden could have been her gift. And I'd taken it away from
her. Too. Which made no sense, since it was she who'd just quit . . . I
thought she was starting to argue with me. I was so pleased, because I
thought, if only she would argue with me . . ."
"You could win?" the Count supplied dryly.
"Uh . . . yeah."
"Oh,
son." The Count shook his head. "Oh, poor son." Miles did not mistake
this for an expression of sympathy. "The only way you win that war is to start with unconditional surrender."
"That you is plural, note," the Countess put in.
"I tried
to surrender!" Miles protested frantically. "The woman was taking no
prisoners! I tried to get her to stomp me, but she wouldn't. She's too
dignified, too, oversocialized, too, too . . ."
"Too
smart to lower herself to your level?" the Countess suggested. "Dear
me. I think I'm beginning to like this Ekaterin. And I haven't even
finished being properly introduced to her yet. I'd like you to meet—she's getting away! seemed a little . . . truncated."
Miles
glared at her. But he couldn't keep it up. In a smaller voice, he said,
"She sent all the garden plans back to me this afternoon, on the
comconsole. Just like she'd said she would. I'd set it to code-buzz me
if any call originating from her came in. I damn near killed myself,
getting over to the machine. But it was just a data packet. Not even a
personal note. Die, you rat would have been better than this . . . this nothing ." After a fraught pause, he burst out, "What do I do now ?"
"Is
that a rhetorical question, for dramatic effect, or are you actually
asking my advice?" his mother inquired tartly. "Because I'm not going
to waste my breath on you unless you're finally paying attention."
He
opened his mouth for an angry reply, then closed it. He glanced for
support to his father. His father opened his hand blandly in the
direction of his mother. Miles wondered what it would be like, to be in
such practiced teamwork with someone that it was as though you
coordinated your one-two punches telepathically. I'll never get the chance to find out. Unless.
"I'm paying attention," he said humbly.
"The . . . the kindest word I can come up with for it is blunder —was yours. You owe the apology. Make it."
"How? She's made it abundantly clear she doesn't want to speak to me!"
"Not in person, good God, Miles. For one thing, I can't imagine you could resist the urge to babble, and blow yourself up. Again."
What is it about all my relatives, that they have so little faith in—
"Even
a live comconsole call is too invasive," she continued. "Going over to
the Vorthys's in person would be much too invasive."
"The way he's been going about it, certainly," murmured the Count. "General Romeo Vorkosigan, the one-man strike force."
The
Countess gave him a faintly quelling flick of her eyelash. "Something
rather more controlled, I think," she continued to Miles. "About all
you can do is write her a note, I suppose. A short, succinct note. I
realize you don't do abject very well, but I suggest you exert yourself."
"D'you think it would work?" Faint hope glimmered at the bottom of a deep, deep well.
"Working
is not what this is about. You can't still be plotting to make love and
war on the poor woman. You'll send an apology because you owe it, to
her and to your own honor. Period. Or else don't bother."
"Oh," said Miles, in a very small voice.
"Cross-ball," said his father. Reminiscently. "Huh."
"The
knife is in the target," sighed Miles. "To the hilt. You don't have to
twist." He glanced across at his mother. "Should the note be
handwritten? Or should I just send it on the comconsole?"
"I think your just just answered your own question. If your execrable handwriting has improved, it would perhaps be a nice touch."
"Proves
it wasn't dictated to your secretary, for one thing," put in the Count.
"Or worse, composed by him at your order."
"Haven't got a secretary yet." Miles sighed. "Gregor hasn't given me enough work to justify one."
"Since
work for an Auditor hinges on awkward crises arising in the Empire, I
can't very well wish more for you," the Count said. "But no doubt
things will pick up after the wedding. Which will have one less crisis
because of the good work you just did on Komarr, I might say."
He
glanced up, and his father gave him an understanding nod; yes, the
Viceroy and Vicereine of Sergyar were most definitely in the
need-to-know pool about the late events on Komarr. Gregor had
undoubtedly sent on a copy of Miles's eyes-only Auditor's report for
the Viceroy's perusal. "Well . . . yes. At the very least, if the
conspirators had maintained their original schedule, there'd have been
several thousand innocent people killed that day. It would have marred
the festivities, I think."
"Then you've earned some time off."
The
Countess looked momentarily introspective. "And what did Madame
Vorsoisson earn? We had her aunt give us her eyewitness description of
their involvement. It sounded like a frightening experience."
"The public gratitude of the Empire is what she should
have earned," said Miles, in reminded aggravation. "Instead, it's all
been buried deep-deep under the ImpSec security cap. No one will ever
know. All her courage, all her cool and clever moves, all her bloody heroism , dammit, was just . . . made to disappear. It's not fair."
"One does what one has to, in a crisis," said the Countess.
"No."
Miles glanced up at her. "Some people do. Others just fold. I've seen
them. I know the difference. Ekaterin—she'll never fold. She can go the
distance, she can find the speed. She'll . . . she'll do ."
"Leaving
aside whether we are discussing a woman or a horse," said the
Countess—dammit, Mark had said practically the same thing, what was with
all Miles's nearest and dearest?—"everyone has their folding-point,
Miles. Their mortal vulnerability. Some just keep it in a nonstandard
location."
The Count and Countess gave each other
one of those Telepathic Looks again. It was extremely annoying. Miles
squirmed with envy.
He drew the tattered shreds of
his dignity around him, and rose. "Excuse me. I have to go . . . water
a plant."
It took him thirty minutes of wandering
around the bare, crusted garden in the dark, with his hand-light
wavering and the water from his mug dribbling over his fingers, to even
find the blasted thing. In its pot, the skellytum rootling had
looked sturdy enough, but out here, it looked lost and lonely: a scrap
of life the size of his thumb in an acre of sterility. It also looked
disturbingly limp. Was it wilting? He emptied the cup over it; the
water made a dark spot in the reddish soil that began to evaporate and
fade all too quickly.
He tried to imagine the
plant full grown, five meters high, its central barrel the size, and
shape, of a sumo wrestler, its tendril-like branches gracing the space
with distinctive corkscrew curves. Then he tried to imagine himself
forty-five or fifty years old, which was the age to which he'd have to
survive to see that sight. Would he be a reclusive, gnarled bachelor,
eccentric, shrunken, invalidish, tended only by his bored Armsmen? Or a
proud, if stressed, paterfamilias with a serene, elegant, dark-haired
woman on his arm and half a dozen hyperactive progeny in tow? Maybe . .
. maybe the hyperactivity could be toned down in the gene-cleaning,
though he was sure his parents would accuse him of cheating. . . .
Abject.
He
went back inside Vorkosigan House to his study, where he sat himself
down to attempt, through a dozen drafts, the best damned abject anybody'd ever seen.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
Kareen leaned over the porch rail of Lord
Auditor Vorthys's house and stared worriedly at the close-curtained
windows in the bright tile front. "Maybe there's no one home."
"I
said we should have called before we came here," said Martya,
unhelpfully. But then came a rapid thump of steps from within—surely
not the Professora's—and the door burst open.
"Oh, hi, Kareen," said Nikki. "Hi, Martya."
"Hello, Nikki," said Martya. "Is your mama home?"
"Yeah, she's out back. You want to see her?"
"Yes, please. If she's not too busy."
"Naw,
she's only messing with the garden. Go on through." He gestured them
hospitably in the general direction of the back of the house, and
thumped back up the stairs.
Trying not to feel
like a trespasser, Kareen led her sister through the hall and kitchen
and out the back door. Ekaterin was on her knees on a pad by a raised
flower bed, grubbing out weeds. The discarded plants were laid out
beside her on the walk, roots and all, in rows like executed prisoners.
They shriveled in the westering sun. Her bare hand slapped another
green corpse down at the end of the row. It looked therapeutic. Kareen
wished she had something to kill right now. Besides Martya.
Ekaterin
glanced up at the sound of their footsteps, and a ghost of a smile
lightened her pale face. She jammed her trowel into the dirt, and rose
to her feet. "Oh, hello."
"Hi, Ekaterin." Not
wishing to plunge too baldly into the purpose of her visit, Kareen
added, with a wave of her arm, "This is pretty." Trees, and walls
draped with vines, made the little garden into a private bower in the
midst of the city.
Ekaterin followed her glance.
"It was a hobby-project of mine, when I lived here as a student, years
ago. Aunt Vorthys has kept it up, more or less. There are a few things
I'd do differently now . . . Anyway," she gestured at the graceful
wrought-iron table and chairs, "won't you sit down?"
Martya
took prompt advantage of the invitation, seating herself and resting
her chin on her hands with a put-upon sigh.
"Would you like anything to drink? Tea?"
"Thanks,"
said Kareen, also sitting. "Nothing to drink, thanks." This household
lacked servants to dispatch on such errands; Ekaterin would have to go
off and rummage in the kitchen with her own hands to supply her guests.
And the sisters would be put to it to guess whether to follow prole
rules, and all troop out to help, or impoverished-high-Vor rules, and
sit and wait and pretend they didn't notice there weren't any servants.
Besides, they'd just eaten, and her dinner still sat like a lump in
Kareen's stomach even though she'd barely picked at it.
Kareen
waited until Ekaterin was seated to venture cautiously, "I just stopped
by to find out—that is, I'd wondered if, if you'd heard anything from .
. . from Vorkosigan House?"
Ekaterin stiffened. "No. Should I have?"
"Oh."
What, Miles the monomaniacal hadn't made it all up to her by now?
Kareen had pictured him at Ekaterin's door the following morning,
spinning damage-control propaganda like mad. It wasn't that Miles was
so irresistible—she, for one, had always found him quite resistible, at
least in the romantic sense, not that he'd ever exactly turned his
attention on her—but he was certainly the most relentless human
being she'd ever met. What was the man doing all this time? Her anxiety
grew. "I'd thought—I was hoping—I'm awfully worried about Mark, you
see. It's been almost two days. I was hoping you might have . . . heard
something."
Ekaterin's face softened. "Oh, Mark. Of course. No. I'm sorry."
Nobody
cared enough about Mark. The fragilities and fault lines of his
hard-won personality were invisible to them all. They'd load him down
with impossible pressures and demands as though he were, well, Miles,
and assume he'd never break. . . . "My parents have forbidden me to
call anyone at Vorkosigan House, or go over there or anything," Kareen
explained, tight-voiced. "They insisted I give them my word before
they'd even let me out of the house. And then they stuck me with a snitch." She tossed her head in the direction of Martya, now slumping with almost equal surliness.
"It wasn't my idea to be your bodyguard," protested Martya. "Did I get a vote? No."
"Da
and Mama—especially Da—have gone all Time-of-Isolation over this. It's
just crazy. They're all the time telling you to grow up, and then when
you do, they try to make you stop. And shrink. It's like they want to
cryofreeze me at twelve forever. Or stick me back in the replicator and
lock down the lid." Kareen bit her lip. "And I don't fit in there
anymore, thank you."
"Well," said
Ekaterin, a shade of sympathetic amusement in her voice, "at least
you'd be safe there. I can understand the parental temptation of that."
"You're
making it worse for yourself, you know," said Martya to Kareen, with an
air of sisterly critique. "If you hadn't carried on like a madwoman
being locked in an attic, I bet they wouldn't have gone nearly so
rigid."
Kareen bared her teeth at Martya.
"There's
something to that in both directions," said Ekaterin mildly. "Nothing
is more guaranteed to make one start acting like a child than to be
treated like one. It's so infuriating. It took me the longest time to
figure out how to stop falling into that trap."
"Yes, exactly," said Kareen eagerly. "You understand! So—how did you make them stop?"
"You can't make them—whoever your particular them
is—do anything, really," said Ekaterin slowly. "Adulthood isn't an
award they'll give you for being a good child. You can waste . . .
years, trying to get someone to give that respect to you, as though it
were a sort of promotion or raise in pay. If only you do enough, if
only you are good enough . No. You have to just . . . take it. Give it to yourself, I suppose. Say, I'm sorry you feel like that
, and walk away. But that's hard." Ekaterin looked up from her lap
where her hands had been absently rubbing at the yard dirt smeared on
them, and remembered to smile. Kareen felt an odd chill. It wasn't just
her reserve that made Ekaterin daunting, sometimes. The woman went down
and down, like a well to the middle of the world. Kareen bet even Miles
couldn't shift her around at his will and whim.
How hard is it to walk away? "It's like they're that
close," she held up her thumb and finger a few millimeters apart, "to
telling me I have to choose between my family and my lover. And it
makes me scared, and it makes me furious. Why shouldn't I have both?
Would it be considered too much of a good thing, or what? Leaving aside
that it'd be a horrid guilt to lay on poor Mark—he knows how much my
family means to me. A family is something he didn't have, growing up,
and he romanticizes it, but still."
Her flattened
hands beat a frustrated tattoo on the garden tabletop. "It all comes
back to the damned money. If I were a real adult, I'd have my
own income. And I could walk away, and they'd know I could, and they'd
have to back off. They think they have me trapped."
"Ah," said Ekaterin faintly. "That one. Yes. That one is very real."
"Mama accused me
of only doing short-term thinking, but I'm not! The butter bug
project—it's like school all over again, short-term deprivation for a
really major pay-off down the line. I've studied the analyses Mark did
with Tsipis. It's not a get-rich-quick scheme. It's a get-rich-big
scheme. Da and Mama don't have a clue how big. They imagine I've spent
my time with Mark playing around, but I've been working my tail off,
and I know exactly why. Meanwhile I have over a month's salary tied up in shares in the basement of Vorkosigan House, and I don't know what's happening over there! " Her fingers were white where they gripped the table edge, and she had to stop for breath.
"I take it you haven't heard from Dr. Borgos, either?" said Martya cautiously to Ekaterin.
"Why . . . no."
"I
felt almost sorry for him. He was trying so hard to please. I hope
Miles hasn't really had all his bugs killed."
"Miles never threatened all his bugs," Kareen pointed out. "Just the escapees. As for me, I wish Miles had strangled him. I'm sorry you made him stop, Ekaterin."
"Me!" Ekaterin's lips twisted with bemusement.
"What,
Kareen," scoffed Martya, "just because the man revealed to everybody
that you were a practicing heterosexual? You know, you really didn't
play that one right, considering all the Betan possibilities. If only
you'd spent the last few weeks dropping the right kind of hints, you
could have had Mama and Da falling to their knees in thanks that you
were only messing around with Mark. Though I do wonder about your taste
in men."
What Martya doesn't know about my sampling of Betan possibilities , Kareen decided firmly, won't hurt me . "Or else they really would have locked me in the attic."
Martya
waved this away. "Dr. Borgos was terrorized enough. It's really unfair
to drop a normal person down in Vorkosigan House with the Chance
Brothers and expect him to just cope."
"Chance Brothers?" Ekaterin inquired.
Kareen, who had heard the jibe before, gave it the bare grimace it deserved.
"Um,"
Martya had the good grace to look embarrassed. "It was a joke that was
going around. Ivan passed it on to me." When Ekaterin continued to look
blankly at her, she added reluctantly. "You know—Slim and Fat."
"Oh."
Ekaterin didn't laugh, though she smiled briefly; she looked as though
she was digesting this tidbit, and wasn't sure if she liked the
aftertaste.
"You think Enrique is normal?" said Kareen to her sister, wrinkling her nose.
"Well
. . . at least he's a change from the sort of Lieutenant Lord
Vor-I'm-God's-Gift-to-Women we usually meet in Vorbarr Sultana. He
doesn't back you into a corner and gab on endlessly about military
history and ordnance. He backs you into a corner and gabs on endlessly
about biology, instead. Who knows? He might be good husband material."
"Yeah,
if his wife didn't mind dressing up as a butter bug to lure him to
bed," said Kareen tartly. She made antennae of her fingers, and
wriggled them at Martya.
Martya snickered, but
said, "I think he's the sort who needs a managing wife, so he can work
fourteen hours a day in his lab."
Kareen snorted.
"She'd better seize control immediately. Yeah, Enrique has biotech
ideas the way Zap the Cat has kittens, but it's a near-certainty that
whatever profit he gets from them, he'll lose."
"Too trusting, do you think? Would people take advantage of him?"
"No, just too absorbed. It would come to the same thing in the end, though."
Ekaterin sighed, a distant look in her eyes. "I wish I could work four hours at a stretch without chaos erupting."
"Oh,"
said Martya, "but you're another. One of those people who pulls amazing
things out of their ears, that is." She glanced around the tiny, serene
garden. "You're wasted in domestic management. You're definitely R and
D."
Ekaterin smiled crookedly. "Are you saying I don't need a husband, I need a wife? Well, at least that's a slight change from my sister-in-law's urgings."
"Try Beta Colony," Kareen advised, with a melancholy sigh.
The
conversation grounded for a stretch upon this beguiling thought. The
muted city street noises echoed over the walls and around the houses,
and the slanting sunlight crept off the grass, putting the table into
cool pre-evening shade.
"They really are utterly
revolting bugs," Martya said after a time. "No one in their right mind
will ever buy them."
Kareen hunched at this discouraging non-news. The bugs did too work. Bug butter was science's almost-perfect food. There ought to be a market for it. People were so prejudiced. . . .
A
slight smile turned Martya's lip, and she added, "Though the brown and
silver was just perfect. I thought Pym was going to pop."
"If
only I'd known what Enrique was up to," mourned Kareen, "I could have
stopped him. He'd been babbling on about his surprise, but I didn't pay
enough attention—I didn't know he could do that to the bugs."
Ekaterin
said, "I could have realized it, if I'd given it any thought. I scanned
his thesis. The real secret is in the suite of microbes." At Martya's
raised eyebrows, she explained, "It's the array of bioengineered
microorganisms in the bugs' guts that do the real work of breaking down
what the bugs eat and converting it into, well, whatever the designer
chooses. Enrique has dozens of ideas for future products beyond food,
including a wild application for environmental radiation cleanup that
might excite . . . well. Anyway, keeping the microbe ecology
balanced—tuned, Enrique calls it—is the most delicate part. The bugs
are just self-assembling and self-propelled packaging around the
microbe suite. Their shape is semi-arbitrary. Enrique just grabbed the
most efficient functional elements from a dozen insect species, with no
attention at all to the aesthetics."
"Most likely." Slowly, Kareen sat up. "Ekaterin . . . you do aesthetics."
Ekaterin made a throwaway gesture. "In a sense, I guess."
"Yes,
you do. Your hair is always right. Your clothes always look better than
anyone else's, and I don't think it's that you're spending more money
on them."
Ekaterin shook her head in rueful agreement.
"You have what Lady Alys calls unerring taste
, I think," Kareen continued, with rising energy. "I mean, look at this
garden. Mark, Mark does money, and deals. Miles does strategy and
tactics, and inveigling people into doing what he wants." Well, maybe
not always; Ekaterin's lips tightened at the mention of his name.
Kareen hurried on. "I still haven't figured out what I do. You—you do
beauty. I really envy that."
Ekaterin looked touched. "Thank you, Kareen. But it really isn't anything that—"
Kareen waved away the self-deprecation. "No, listen, this is important. Do you think you could make a pretty butter bug? Or rather, make butter bugs pretty?"
"I'm no geneticist—"
"I don't mean that part. I mean, could youdesign alterations to the bugs so's they don't make people want to lose their lunch when they see one. For Enrique to apply."
Ekaterin
sat back. Her brows sank down again, and an absorbed look grew in her
eyes. "Well . . . it's obviously possible to change the bugs' colors
and add surface designs. That has to be fairly trivial, judging from
the speed with which Enrique produced the . . . um . . . Vorkosigan
bugs. You'd have to stay away from fundamental structural modifications
in the gut and mandibles and so on, but the wings and wing carapaces
are already nonfunctional. Presumably they could be altered at will."
"Yes? Go on."
"Colors—you'd
want to look for colors found in nature, for biological appeal. Birds,
beasts, flowers . . . fire . . ."
"Can you think of something?"
"I
can think of a dozen ideas, offhand." Her mouth curved up. "It seems
too easy. Almost any change would be an improvement."
"Not just any change. Something glorious ."
"A
glorious butter bug." Her lips parted in faint delight, and her eyes
glinted with genuine cheer for the first time this visit. "Now, that's a challenge."
"Oh, would you, could you? Will you? Please? I'm a shareholder, I have as much authority to hire you as Mark or Enrique. Qualitatively, anyway."
"Heavens, Kareen, you don't have to pay me—"
"Never
," said Kareen with passion, "ever suggest they don't have to pay you.
What they pay for, they'll value. What they get for free, they'll take
for granted, and then demand as a right. Hold them up for all the
market will bear." She hesitated, then added anxiously, "You will take
shares, though, won't you? Ma Kosti did, for the product development
consultation she did for us."
"I must say, Ma
Kosti made the bug butter ice cream work," Martya admitted. "And that
bread spread wasn't bad either. It was all the garlic, I think. As long
as you didn't think about where the stuff came from."
"So
what, have you ever thought about where regular butter and ice cream
come from? And meat, and liver sausage, and—"
"I
can about guarantee you the beef filet the other night came from a
nice, clean vat. Tante Cordelia wouldn't have it any other way at
Vorkosigan House."
Kareen gestured this aside, irritably. "How long do you think it would take you, Ekaterin?" she asked.
"I
don't know—a day or two, I suppose, for preliminary designs. But surely
we'd have to meet with Enrique and Mark."
"I can't go to Vorkosigan House." Kareen slumped. She straightened again. "Could we meet here ?"
Ekaterin
glanced at Martya, and back to Kareen. "I can't be a party to
undercutting your parents, or going behind their backs. But this is
certainly legitimate business. We could all meet here if you'll get
their permission."
"Maybe," said Kareen. "Maybe.
If they have another day or so to calm down . . . As a last resort, you
could meet with Mark and Enrique alone. But I want to be here, if I
can. I know I can sell the idea to them, if only I have a chance." She
stuck out her hand to Ekaterin. "Deal?"
Ekaterin,
looking amused, rubbed the soil from her hand against the side of her
skirt, leaned across the table, and shook on the compact. "Very well."
Martya
objected, "You know Da and Mama will stick me with having to tag along,
if they think Mark will be here."
"So, you can persuade them you're not needed. You're kind of an insult anyway, you know."
Martya stuck out a sisterly tongue at this, but shrugged a certain grudging agreement.
The
sound of voices and footsteps wafted from the open kitchen window;
Kareen looked up, wondering if Ekaterin's aunt and uncle had returned.
And if maybe one of them had heard anything from Miles or Tante
Cordelia or . . . But to her surprise, ducking out the door after Nikki
came Armsman Pym, in full Vorkosigan House uniform, as neat and
glittery as though ready for the Count's inspection. Pym was saying,
"—I don't know about that, Nikki. But you know you're welcome to come
play with my son Arthur at our flat, any time. He was asking after you
just last night, in fact."
"Mama, Mama!" Nikki bounced to the garden table. "Look, Pym's here!"
Ekaterin's
expression closed as though shutters had fallen across her face. She
regarded Pym with extreme wariness. "Hello, Armsman," she said, in a
tone of utter neutrality. She glanced across at her son. "Thank you,
Nikki. Please go in now."
Nikki departed, with reluctant backward glances. Ekaterin waited.
Pym
cleared his throat, smiled diffidently at her, and gave her a sort of
half-salute. "Good evening, Madame Vorsoisson. I trust I find you
well." His gaze went on to take in the Koudelka sisters; he favored
them with a courteous, if curious, nod. "Hello, Miss Martya, Miss
Kareen. I . . . this is unexpected." He looked as though he was
riffling through revisions to some rehearsed speech.
Kareen
wondered frantically if she could pretend that her prohibition from
speaking with anyone from the Vorkosigan household was meant to apply
only to the immediate family, and not the Armsmen as well. She smiled
back with longing at Pym. Maybe he could talk to her .
Her parents hadn't—couldn't—enforce their paranoid rule on anyone else,
anyhow. But after his pause Pym only shook his head, and turned his
attention back to Ekaterin.
Pym drew a heavy
envelope from his tunic. Its thick cream paper was sealed with a stamp
bearing the Vorkosigan arms—just like on the back of a butter bug—and
addressed in ink in clear, square writing with only the words: Madame Vorsoisson
. "Ma'am. Lord Vorkosigan directs me to deliver this into your hand. He
says to say, he's sorry it took so long. It's on account of the drains,
you see. Well, m'lord didn't say that, but the accident did delay things all round." He studied her face anxiously for her response to this.
Ekaterin accepted the envelope and stared at it as if it might contain explosives.
Pym
stepped back, and gave her a very formal nod. When, after a moment, no
one said anything, he gave her another half-salute, and said, "Didn't
mean to intrude, ma'am. My apologies. I'll just be on my way now. Thank
you." He turned on his heel.
"Pym!" His name,
breaking from Kareen's lips, was almost a shriek; Pym jerked, and swung
back. "Don't you dare just go off like that! What's happening over there?"
"Isn't that breaking your word?" asked Martya, with clinical detachment.
"Fine! Fine! You ask him, then!"
"Oh,
very well." With a beleaguered sigh, Martya turned to Pym. "So tell me,
Pym, what did happen to the drains?"
"I don't care about the drains!" Kareen cried. "I care about Mark! And my shares."
"So? Mama and Da say you aren't allowed to talk to anyone from Vorkosigan House, so you're out of luck. I want to know about the drains."
Pym's
brows rose as he took this in, and his eyes glinted briefly. A sort of
pious innocence informed his voice. "I'm most sorry to hear that, Miss
Kareen. I trust the Commodore will see his way clear to lift our
quarantine very soon. Now, m'lord told me I was not to
hang about and distress Madame Vorsoisson with any ham-handed attempts
at making things up to her, nor pester her by offering to wait for a
reply, nor annoy her by watching her read his note. Very nearly his
exact words, those. He never ordered me not to talk with you young
ladies, however, not anticipating that you would be here."
"Ah,"
said Martya, in a voice dripping with, in Kareen's view, unsavory
delight. "So you can talk to me and Kareen, but not to Ekaterin. And
Kareen can talk to Ekaterin and me—"
"Not that I'd want to talk to you," Kareen muttered.
"—but not to you. That makes me the only person here who can talk to everybody. How . . . nice. Do tell me about the drains, dear Pym. Don't tell me they backed up again."
Ekaterin
slipped the envelope into the inside pocket of her bolero, leaned her
elbow on her chair arm and her chin on her hand, and sat listening with
her dark eyebrows crinkling.
Pym nodded. "I'm
afraid so, Miss Martya. Late last night, Dr. Borgos—" Pym's lips
compressed at the name "—being in a great hurry to return to the search
for his missing queen, took two days' harvest of bug butter—about forty
or fifty kilos, we estimated later—which was starting to overflow the
hutches on account of Miss Kareen not being there to take care of
things properly, and flushed it all down the laboratory drain. Where it
encountered some chemical conditions which caused it to . . . set. Like
soft plaster. Entirely blocking the main drain, which, in a household
with over fifty people in it—all the Viceroy and Vicereine's staff
having arrived yesterday, and my fellow Armsmen and their
families—caused a pretty immediate and pressing crisis."
Martya had the bad taste to giggle. Pym merely looked prim.
"Lord
Auditor Vorkosigan," Pym went on, with a bare glance under his
eyelashes at Ekaterin, "being of previous rich military experience with
drains, he informed us, responded at once and without hesitation to his
mother's piteous plea, and drafted and led a picked strike-force to the
subbasement to deal with the dilemma. Which was me and Armsman Roic, in
the event."
"Your courage and, um, utility, astound me," Martya intoned, staring at him with increasing fascination.
Pym
shrugged humbly. "The necessity of wading knee-deep in bug butter, tree
root bits, and, er, all the other things that go into drains, could not
be honorably refused when following a leader who had to wade, um,
knee-deeper. Being as how m'lord knew exactly what he was doing, it
didn't actually take us very long, and there was much rejoicing in the
household. But I was made later than intended for bringing Madame
Vorsoisson her letter on account of everyone getting a slow start, this
morning."
"What happened to Dr. Borgos?" asked
Martya, as Kareen gritted her teeth, clenched her hands, and bounced in
her chair.
"My suggestion that he be tied upside-down to the subbasement wall while the, um, liquid
level rose being most unfairly rejected, I believe the Countess had a
little talk with him, afterwards, about what kinds of materials could
and could not be safely committed to Vorkosigan House's drains." Pym
heaved a sigh. "Milady is quite too gentle and kindly."
The
story having apparently finally wound to its conclusion, Kareen punched
Martya on the shoulder and hissed, "Ask him how is Mark ."
A
little silence stretched, while Pym waited benignly for his translator,
and Kareen reflected that it probably would take someone with a
sense of humor as arcane as Pym's to get along so well with Miles as an
employer. At last, Martya broke down and said ungraciously, "So, how's
the fat one?"
"Lord Mark ," Pym replied
with faint emphasis, "having narrowly escaped injury in an attempt to
consume—" his mouth paused, open, while he changed course in
mid-sentence, "though quite visibly depressed by the unfortunate turn
of events night before last, has been kept busy in assisting Dr. Borgos
in his bug recovery."
Kareen decoded "visibly depressed" without difficulty. Gorge has got out. Probably Howl, as well. Oh, hell, and Mark had been doing so well in keeping the Black Gang subordinated. . . .
Pym
went on smoothly, "I think I may speak for the entire Vorkosigan
household when I say that we all wish Miss Kareen may return as soon as
possible and restore order. Lacking information on the events in the
Commodore's family, Lord Mark has been uncertain how to proceed, but
that should be remedied now." His eyelid shivered in a ghost of a wink
at Kareen. Ah yes, Pym was former ImpSec and proud of it; thinking
sideways in two directions simultaneously was no mystery to him.
Throwing her arms around his boots and screaming, Help, help! Tell Tante Cordelia I'm being held prisoner by insane parents! would be entirely redundant, she realized with satisfaction. Intelligence was about to flow.
"Also,"
Pym added in the same bland tone, "the piles of bug butter tubs lining
the basement hall are beginning to be a problem. They toppled on a maid
yesterday. The young lady was very upset."
Even
the silently listening Ekaterin's eyes widened at this image. Martya
snickered outright. Kareen suppressed a growl.
Martya glanced sideways at Ekaterin, and added somewhat daringly, "And so how's the skinny one?"
Pym
hesitated, followed her glance, and finally replied, "I'm afraid the
drain crisis brightened his life only temporarily."
He
sketched a bow at all three ladies, leaving them to construe the
stygian blackness of a soul that could find fifty kilos of bug butter
in the main drain an improvement in his gloomy world. "Miss
Martya, Miss Kareen, I hope we may see all the Koudelkas at Vorkosigan
House again soon. Madame Vorsoisson, allow me to excuse myself, and
apologize for any discomfort I may have inadvertently caused you.
Speaking only for my own house, and Arthur, may I ask if Nikki may
still be permitted to visit us?"
"Yes, of course," said Ekaterin faintly.
"Good
evening, then." He touched his forehead amiably, and trod off to let
himself out the garden gate in the narrow space between the houses.
Martya shook her head in amazement. "Wheredo the Vorkosigans find their people ?"
Kareen shrugged. "I suppose they get the cream of the Empire."
"So do a lot of high Vor, but they don't get a Pym . Or a Ma Kosti. Or a—"
"I heard Pym came personally recommended by Simon Illyan, when he was head of ImpSec," said Kareen.
"Oh, I see. They cheat . That accounts for it."
Ekaterin's
hand strayed to touch her bolero, beneath which that fascinating cream
envelope lay hidden, but to Kareen's intense disappointment, she didn't
take it out and break it open. She doubtless wouldn't read it in front
of her uninvited guests. It was, therefore, time to shove off.
Kareen got to her feet. "Ekaterin, thank you so much. You've been more help to me than anybody—" in my own family
, she managed to bite back. There was no point in deliberately ticking
off Martya, when she'd allowed this grudging and partial allegiance
against the parental opposition. "And I'm deadly serious about the bug
redesign. Call me as soon as you have something ready."
"I'll have something tomorrow, I promise." Ekaterin walked the sisters to the gate, and closed it behind them.
At
the end of the block, they were more or less ambushed by Pym, who
waited leaning against the parked armored groundcar.
"Did she read it?" he asked anxiously.
Kareen nudged Martya.
"Not in front of us , Pym," said Martya, rolling her eyes.
"Huh.
Damn." Pym stared up the block at the tile front of Lord Auditor
Vorthys's house, half concealed in the trees. "I was hoping—damn."
"How is Miles, really?" asked Martya, following his glance and then cocking her head.
Pym
absently scratched the back of his neck. "Well, he's over the vomiting
and moaning part. Now he's taken to wandering around the house
muttering to himself, when there's nothing to distract him. Starved for
action, I'd say. The way he took to the drain problem was right frightening. From my point of view, you understand."
Kareen
did. After all, wherever Miles bolted off to, Pym would be compelled to
follow. No wonder all Miles's household watched his courtship with
bated breath. She pictured the conversations belowstairs: For God's sake, can't somebody please get the little git laid, before he drives us all as crazy as he is?
Well, no, most of Miles's people were sufficiently under his spell,
they probably wouldn't put it in quite such harsh terms. But she bet it
came to about that.
Pym abandoned his futile
surveillance of Madame Vorsoisson's house and offered the sisters a
ride; Martya, possibly looking ahead to parental cross-examination
later, politely declined for them both. Pym drove off. Trailed by her
personal snitch, Kareen departed in the opposite direction.
* * *
Ekaterin
returned slowly to the garden table, and sat again. She pulled the
envelope from her left inner pocket, and turned it over, staring at it.
The cream-colored paper had impressive weight and density. The back
flap was indented in the pattern of the Vorkosigans' seal, pressed
deeply and a little off-center into the thick paper. Not machine
embossed; some hand had put it there. His hand. A thumb-smear
of reddish pigment filled the grooves and brought out the pattern, in
the highest of high Vor styles, more formal than a wax seal. She raised
the envelope to her nose, but if there was any scent of him lingering
from his touch, it was too faint to be certain of.
She
sighed in anticipated exhaustion, and carefully opened it. Like the
address, the sheet inside was handwritten.
Dear Madame Vorsoisson , it began. I am sorry .
This
is the eleventh draft of this letter. They've all started with those
three words, even the horrible version in rhyme, so I guess they stay.
Her
mind hiccuped to a stop. For a moment, all she could wonder was who
emptied his wastebasket, and if they could be bribed. Pym, probably,
and likely not. She shook the vision from her head, and read on.
You
once asked me never to lie to you. All right, so. I'll tell you the
truth now even if it isn't the best or cleverest thing, and not abject
enough either.
I tried to be the thief of
you, to ambush and take prisoner what I thought I could never earn or
be given. You were not a ship to be hijacked, but I couldn't think of
any other plan but subterfuge and surprise. Though not as much of a
surprise as what happened at dinner. The revolution started prematurely
because the idiot conspirator blew up his secret ammo dump and lit the
sky with his intentions. Sometimes those accidents end in new nations,
but more often they end badly, in hangings and beheadings. And people
running into the night. I can't be sorry I asked you to marry me,
because that was the one true part in all the smoke and rubble, but I'm
sick as hell I asked you so badly.
Even
though I'd kept my counsel from you, I should at least have done you
the courtesy to keep it from others as well, till you'd had the year of
grace and rest you'd asked for. But I became terrified you'd choose
another first.
What other did he
imagine her choosing, for God's sake? She'd wanted no one. Vormoncrief
was impossible. Byerly Vorrutyer didn't even pretend to be serious.
Enrique Borgos? Eep. Major Zamori, well, Zamori seemed kindly enough. But dull.
She wondered when not dull
had become her prime criterion for mate selection. About ten minutes
after she'd first met Miles Vorkosigan, perhaps? Damn the man, for
ruining her taste. And judgment. And . . . and . . .
She read on.
So
I used the garden as a ploy to get near to you. I deliberately and
consciously shaped your heart's desire into a trap. For this I am more
than sorry. I am ashamed.
You'd earned
every chance to grow. I'd like to pretend I didn't see it would be a
conflict of interest for me to be the one to give you some of those
chances, but that would be another lie. But it made me crazy to watch
you constrained to tiny steps, when you could be outrunning time. There
is only a brief moment of apogee to do that, in most lives .
I
love you. But I lust after and covet so much more than your body. I
wanted to possess the power of your eyes, the way they see form and
beauty that isn't even there yet and draw it up out of nothing into the
solid world. I wanted to own the honor of your heart, unbowed in the
vilest horrors of those bleak hours on Komarr. I wanted your courage
and your will, your caution and serenity. I wanted, I suppose, your
soul, and that was too much to want.
She put the letter down, shaken. After a few deep breaths, she took it up again.
I
wanted to give you a victory. But by their essential nature triumphs
can't be given. They must be taken, and the worse the odds and the
fiercer the resistance, the greater the honor. Victories can't be gifts.
But
gifts can be victories, can't they. It's what you said. The garden
could have been your gift, a dowry of talent, skill, and vision.
I know it's too late now, but I just wanted to say, it would have been a victory most worthy of our House.
Yours to command,
Miles Vorkosigan.
Ekaterin
rested her forehead in her hand, and closed her eyes. She regained
control of her breathing again in a few gulps.
She
sat up again, and reread the letter in the fading light. Twice. It
neither demanded nor requested nor seemed to anticipate reply. Good,
because she doubted she could string two coherent clauses together just
now. What did he expect her to make of this? Every sentence that didn't
start with I seemed to begin with But . It wasn't just honest, it was naked.
With
the back of her dirty hand, she swiped the water from her eyes across
her hot cheeks to cool and evaporate. She turned over the envelope and
stared again at the seal. In the Time of Isolation, such incised seals
had been smeared with blood, to signify a lord's most personal
protestation of loyalty. Subsequently, soft pigment sticks had been
invented for rubbing over the indentations, in a palette of colors of
various fashionable meanings. Wine red and purple had been popular for
love letters, pink and blue for announcements of births, black for
notifications of deaths. This seal-rubbing was the very most
conservative and traditional color, red-brown.
The reason for that, Ekaterin realized with a blurred blink, was that it was
blood. Conscious melodrama on Miles's part, or unthinking routine? She
had not the slightest doubt that he was perfectly capable of melodrama.
In fact, she was beginning to suspect he reveled in it, when he got the
chance. But the horrible conviction grew on her, staring at the smear
and imagining him pricking his thumb and applying it, that for him it
had been as natural and original as breathing. She bet he even owned
one of those daggers with the seal concealed in the hilt for the
purpose, which the high lords had used to wear. One could buy imitation
reproductions of them in antique and souvenir shops, with soft and
blunted metal blades because nobody ever actually nicked themselves
anymore to testify in blood. Genuine seal daggers with provenance from
the Time of Isolation, on the rare occasions when they appeared on the
market, were bid up to tens and hundreds of thousands of marks.
Miles probably used his for a letter opener, or to clean under his fingernails.
And
when and how had he ever hijacked a ship? She was unreasonably certain
he hadn't plucked that comparison out of the air.
A helpless puff of a laugh escaped her lips. If she ever saw him again, she would say, People who've been in Covert Ops shouldn't write letters while high on fast-penta .
Though if he really was suffering a virulent outbreak of truthfulness, what about that part that started, I love you
? She turned the letter over, and read that bit again. Four times. The
tense, square, distinctive letters seemed to waver before her eyes.
Something
was missing, though, she realized as she read the letter through one
more time. Confession was there in plenty, but nowhere was any plea for
forgiveness, absolution, penance, or any begging to call or see her
again. No entreaty that she respond in any way. It was very strange,
that stopping-short. What did it mean? If this was some sort of odd
ImpSec code, well, she didn't own the cipher.
Maybe
he didn't ask for forgiveness because he didn't expect it was possible
to receive it. That seemed a cold, dry place to be left standing. . . .
Or was he just too bleakly arrogant to beg? Pride, or despair? Which?
Though she supposed it could be both—On sale now , her mind supplied, this week only, two sins for the price of one! That . . . that sounded very Miles , somehow.
She
thought back over her old, bitter domestic arguments with Tien. How she
had hated that awful dance between break and rejoining, how many times
she had short-circuited it. If you were going to forgive each other
eventually, why not do it now and save days of stomach-churning
tension? Straight from sin to forgiveness, without going through any of
the middle steps of repentance and restitution. . . . Just go on, just
do it. But they hadn't gone on, much. They'd always seemed to circle
back to the start-point again. Maybe that was why the chaos had always
seemed to replay in an endless loop. Maybe they hadn't learned enough,
when they'd left out the hard middle parts.
When
you'd made a real mistake, how did you continue? How to go on rightly
from the bad place where you found yourself, on and not back again?
Because there was never really any going back. Time erased the path
behind your heels.
Anyway, she didn't want to go
back. Didn't want to know less, didn't want to be smaller. She didn't
wish these words unsaid—her hand clutched the letter spasmodically to
her chest, then carefully flattened out the creases against the
tabletop. She just wanted the pain to stop.
The
next time she saw him, did she have to answer his disastrous question?
Or at least, know what the answer was? Was there another way to say I forgive you short of Yes, forever , some third place to stand? She desperately wanted a third place to stand right now.
I can't answer this right away. I just can't.
Butter bugs. She could do butter bugs, anyway—
The
sound of her aunt's voice, calling her name, shattered the spinning
circle of Ekaterin's thoughts. Her uncle and aunt must be back from
their dinner out. Hastily, she stuffed the letter back in its envelope
and hid it again in her bolero, and scrubbed her hands over her eyes.
She tried to fit an expression, any expression, onto her face. They all
felt like masks.
"Coming, Aunt Vorthys," she
called, and rose to collect her trowel, carry the weeds to the compost,
and go into the house.
CHAPTER TWELVE
The door-chime to his apartment rang as Ivan was
alternating between slurping his first cup of coffee of the morning and
fastening his uniform shirtsleeves. Company, at this hour? His brows
rose in puzzlement and some curiosity, and he trod to the entryway to
answer its summons.
He was yawning behind his hand
as the door slid back to reveal Byerly Vorrutyer, and so he was too
slow to hit the Close pad again before By got his leg through. The
safety sensor, alas, brought the door to a halt rather than crushing
By's foot. Ivan was briefly sorry the door was edged with rounded
rubber instead of, say, a honed razor-steel flange.
"Good morning, Ivan," drawled By through the shoe-wide gap.
"What the hell are you doing up so early?" Ivan asked suspiciously.
"So late," said By, with a small smile.
Well,
that made a little more sense. Upon closer examination, By was looking
a bit seedy, with a beard shadow and red-rimmed eyes. Ivan said firmly,
"I don't want to hear any more about your cousin Dono. Go away."
"Actually, this is about your cousin Miles."
Ivan
eyed his ceremonial dress sword, sitting nearby in an umbrella canister
made from an old-fashioned artillery shell. He wondered if driving it
down on By's shod foot hard enough to make him recoil would allow
getting the door shut and locked again. But the canister was just out
of reach from the doorway. "I don't want to hear anything about my
cousin Miles, either."
"It's something I judge he needs to know."
"Fine. You go tell him, then."
"I . . . would really rather not, all things considered."
Ivan's
finely tuned shit-detectors began to blink red, in some corner of his
brain usually not active at this hour. "Oh? What things?"
"Oh, you know . . . delicacy . . . consideration . . . family feeling . . ."
Ivan made a rude noise through his lips.
" . . . the fact that he controls a valuable vote in the Council of Counts . . ." By went on serenely.
"It's
my Uncle Aral's vote Dono is after," Ivan pointed out. "Technically. He
arrived back in Vorbarr Sultana four nights ago. Go hustle him." If you dare.
By
bared his teeth in a pained smile. "Yes, Dono told me all about the
Viceroy's grand entrance, and the assorted grand exits. I don't know
how you managed to escape the wreckage unscathed."
"Had Armsman Roic let me out the back door," said Ivan shortly.
"Ah,
I see. Very prudent, no doubt. But in any case, Count Vorkosigan has
made it quite well known that he leaves his proxy to his son's
discretion in nine votes out of ten."
"That's his business. Not mine."
"Do you have any more of that coffee?" By eyed the cup in his hand longingly.
"No," Ivan lied.
"Then
perhaps you would be so kind as to make me some more. Come, Ivan, I
appeal to your common humanity. It's been a very long and tedious
night."
"I'm sure you can find someplace open in
Vorbarr Sultana to sell you coffee. On your way home." Maybe he
wouldn't leave the sword in its scabbard . . .
By
sighed, and leaned against the doorframe, crossing his arms as if for a
lengthy chat. His foot stayed planted. "Whathave you heard from your cousin the Lord Auditor in the last few days?"
"Nothing."
"And what do you think about that?"
"When Miles decides what I should think, I'm sure he'll tell me. He always does."
By's lip curled up, but he tamped it straight again. "Have you tried to talk to him?"
"Do
I look that stupid? You heard about the party. The man crashed and
burned. He'll be impossible for days. My Aunt Cordelia can hold his
head under water this time, thanks."
By raised his brows, perhaps taking this last remark for an amusing metaphor. "Now, now. Miles's little faux pas
wasn't irredeemable, according to Dono, whom I take to be a shrewder
judge of women than we are." By's face sobered, and his eyes grew oddly
hooded. "But it's about to become so, if nothing is done."
Ivan hesitated. "What do you mean?"
"Coffee, Ivan. And what I have to pass on to you is not, most definitely not, for the public hallway."
I'm going to regret this. Grudgingly, Ivan hit the Door-open pad and stood aside.
Ivan
handed By coffee and let him sit on his sofa. Probably a strategic
error. If By sipped slowly enough, he could spin out this visit
indefinitely. "I'm on my way to work, mind," Ivan said, lowering
himself into the one comfortable chair, across from the sofa.
By took a grateful sip. "I'll make it fast. Only my sense of Vorish duty keeps me from my bed even now."
In
the interests of speed and efficiency, Ivan let this one pass. He
gestured for By to proceed, preferably succinctly.
"I went to a little private dinner with Alexi Vormoncrief last night," By began.
"How exciting for you," growled Ivan.
By
waved his fingers. "It proved to have moments of interest. It was at
Vormoncrief House, hosted by Alexi's uncle Count Boriz. One of those
little behind-the-scenes love-fests that give party politics
its name, you know. It seems my complacent cousin Richars heard about
Lord Dono's return at last, and hurried up to town to investigate the
truth of the rumors. What he found alarmed him sufficiently to, ah,
begin to exert himself on behalf of his vote-bag in the upcoming
decision in the Council of Counts. As Count Boriz influences a
significant block of Conservative Party votes in the Council, Richars,
nothing if not efficient, started his campaign with him."
"Get
to the point, By," sighed Ivan. "What has all this to do with my cousin
Miles? It's got nothing to do with me ; serving officers are officially discouraged from playing politics, you know."
"Oh,
yes, I'm quite aware. Also present, incidentally, were Boriz's
son-in-law Sigur Vorbretten, and Count Tomas Vormuir, who apparently
had a little run-in with your cousin in his Auditorial capacity
recently."
"The lunatic with the baby factory that Miles shut down? Yeah, I heard about that."
"I
knew Vormuir slightly, before this. Lady Donna used to go
target-shooting with his Countess, in happier times. Quite the gossips,
those girls. At any rate, as expected, Richars opened his campaign with
the soup, and by the time the salad was served had settled upon a trade
with Count Boriz: a vote for Richars in exchange for allegiance to the
Conservatives. This left the rest of the dinner, from entrйe to dessert
through the wine, free to drift onto other topics. Count Vormuir
expanded much upon his dissatisfaction with his Imperial Audit, which
rather brought your cousin, as it were, onto the table."
Ivan
blinked. "Wait a minute. What were you doing hanging out with Richars?
I thought you were on the other side in this little war."
"Richars thinks I'm spying on Dono for him."
"And
are you?" If Byerly was playing both ends against the middle in this,
Ivan cordially hoped he'd get both hands burned.
A
sphinxlike smile lifted By's lips. "Mm, shall we say, I tell him what
he needs to know. Richars is quite proud of his cunning, for planting
me in Dono's camp."
"Doesn't he know about you
getting the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's Circle to block him from
taking possession of Vorrutyer House?"
"In a word, no. I managed to stay behind the curtain on that one."
Ivan
rubbed his temples, wondering which of his cousins By was actually
lying to. It wasn't his imagination; talking with the man was giving him a headache. He hoped By had a hangover. "Go on. Speed it up."
"Some
standard Conservative bitching was exchanged about the costs of the
proposed Komarran solar mirror repairs. Let the Komarrans pay for it,
they broke it, didn't they, and so on as usual."
"They will be paying for it. Don't they know how much of our tax revenues are based in Komarran trade?"
"You surprise me, Ivan. I didn't know you paid attention to things like that."
"I don't," Ivan denied hastily. "It's common knowledge."
"Discussion
of the Komarran incident brought up, again, our favorite little Lord
Auditor, and dear Alexi was moved to unburden himself of his personal
grievance. It seems the beautiful Widow Vorsoisson bounced his suit.
After much trouble and expense on his part, too. All those fees to the
Baba, you know."
"Oh." Ivan brightened. "Good for her." She was refusing everybody. Miles's domestic disaster was provably not Ivan's fault , yes!
"Sigur
Vorbretten, of all people, next offered up a garbled version of Miles's
recent dinner party, complete with a vivid description of Madame
Vorsoisson storming out in the middle of it after Miles's calamitous
public proposal of marriage." By tilted his head. "Even taking Dono's
version of the dialogue over Sigur's, whatever did possess the man,
anyway? I always thought Miles more reliably suave."
"Panic,"
said Ivan. "I believe. I was at the other end of the table." He brooded
briefly. "It can happen to the best of us." He frowned. "How the hell
did Sigur get hold of the story? I sure haven't been passing it out. Has Lord Dono been blabbing?"
"Only
to me, I trust. But Ivan, there were nineteen people at that party.
Plus the Armsmen and servants. It's all over town, and growing more
dramatic and delicious with each reiteration, I'm sure."
Ivan
could just picture it. Ivan could just picture it coming to Miles's
ears, and the smoke pouring back out of them. He winced deeply. "Miles
. . . Miles will be homicidal."
"Funny you should
say that." By took another sip of coffee, and regarded Ivan very
blandly. "Putting together Miles's investigation on Komarr,
Administrator Vorsoisson's death in the middle of it, Miles's
subsequent proposition of his widow, and her theatrical—in Sigur's
version, though Dono claims she was quite dignified, under the
circumstances—public rejection of it, plus five Conservative Vor
politicians with long-time grudges against Aral Vorkosigan and all his
works, and several bottles of fine Vormoncrief District wine, a
Theory was born. And evolved rapidly, in a sort of punctuated
equilibrium, to a full-grown Slander even as I watched. It was just
fascinating."
"Oh, shit," whispered Ivan.
By
gave him a sharp look. "You anticipate me? Goodness, Ivan. What
unexpected depths. You can imagine the conversation; I had to sit
through it. Alexi piping about the damned mutant daring to court the
Vor lady. Vormuir opining it was bloody convenient, say what, the
husband killed in some supposed-accident in the middle of Vorkosigan's
case. Sigur saying, But there weren't any charges, Count Boriz eyeing
him like the pitiful waif he is and rumbling, There wouldn't be—the
Vorkosigans have had ImpSec under their thumb for thirty years, the
only question is whether was it collusion between the wife and
Vorkosigan? Alexi leaping to the defense of his lady-love—the man just does not
take a hint—and declaring her innocent, unsuspecting till Vorkosigan's
crude proposal finally tipped his hand. Her storming out was Proof!
Proof!—actually, he said it three times, but he was pretty drunk by
then—that she, at least, now realized Miles had cleverly made away with
her beloved spouse to clear his way to her, and she ought to know, she
was there. And he bet she would be willing to reconsider his own
proposal now! Since Alexi is a known twit, his seniors were not
altogether convinced by his arguments, but willing to give the widow
the benefit of the doubt for the sake of family solidarity. And so on."
"Good God, By. Couldn't you stop them?"
"I
attempted to inject sanity to the limit available to me without, as you
military types say, blowing my cover. They were far too entranced with
their creation to pay me much heed."
"If they bring that murder charge against Miles, he'll wipe the floor with them all. I guarantee he will not suffer those fools gladly."
By
shrugged. "Not that Boriz Vormoncrief wouldn't be delighted to see an
indictment laid against Aral Vorkosigan's son, but as I pointed out to
them, they haven't enough proof for that, and for—whatever—reason,
aren't likely to get any, either. No. A charge can be disproved. A charge can be defended against. A charge proved false can draw legal retaliation. There won't be a charge."
Ivan was less sure. The mere hint of the idea had surely put the wind up Miles.
"But
a wink," By went on, "a whisper, a snicker, a joke, a deliciously
horrific anecdote . . . who can get a grip on such vapor? It would be
like trying to fight fog."
"You think the Conservatives will embark on a smear campaign using this?" said Ivan slowly, chilled.
"I
think . . . that if Lord Auditor Vorkosigan wishes to exert any kind of
damage control, he needs to mobilize his resources. Five swaggering
tongues are sleeping it off this morning. By tonight, they'll be
flapping again. I would not presume to suggest strategies to My Lord
Auditor. He's a big boy now. But as a, shall we say, courtesy, I
present him the advantage of early intelligence. What he does with it
is up to him."
"Isn't this more a matter for ImpSec?"
"Oh, ImpSec." By waved a dismissive hand. "I'm sure they'll be on top of it. But—is it a matter for ImpSec, y'see? Vapor, Ivan. Vapor."
This is slit your throat before reading stuff, and no horseshit, Miles had said, in a voice of terrifying conviction. Ivan shrugged, carefully. "How would I know?"
By's little smile didn't shift, but his eyes mocked. "How, indeed."
Ivan glanced at the time. Ye gods. "I have to report to work now, or my mother will bitch," he said hastily.
"Yes,
Lady Alys is doubtless at the Residence waiting for you already."
Taking the hint for a change, Byerly rose. "I don't suppose you can use
your influence upon her to get me issued a wedding invitation?"
"I
have no influence," said Ivan, edging By towards the door. "If Lord
Dono is Count Dono by then, maybe you can get him to take you along."
By
acknowledged this with a wave, and strolled off down the corridor,
yawning. Ivan stood for a moment after the door hissed shut, rubbing
his forehead. He pictured himself presenting By's news to Miles,
assuming his distraught cousin had sobered up by now. He pictured
himself ducking for cover. Better yet, he pictured himself deserting it
all, possibly for the life of a licensed male prostitute at Beta's Orb.
Betan male prostitutes did have female customers, yes? Miles had been
there, and told him not-quite-all about it. Fat Mark and Kareen had
even been there. But he'd never even once made it to the Orb, dammit. Life was unfair, that was what.
He
slouched to his comconsole, and punched in Miles's private code. But
all he stirred up was the answering program, a new one, all very
official announcing that the supplicant had reached Lord Auditor Vorkosigan , whoop-te-do. Except he hadn't. Ivan left a message for his cousin to call him on urgent private business, and cut the com.
Miles
probably wasn't even awake yet. Ivan dutifully promised his conscience
he'd try again later today, and if that still didn't draw a response,
drag himself over to Vorkosigan House to see Miles tonight. Maybe. He
sighed, and shoved off to don the tunic of his undress greens, and head
out for the Imperial Residence and the day's tasks.
* * *
Mark
rang the chime on the Vorthys's door, shifted from foot to foot, and
gritted his teeth in anxiety. Enrique, let out of Vorkosigan House for
the occasion, stared around in fascination. Tall, thin, and twitchy,
the ectomorphic Escobaran made Mark feel more like a squat toad than
ever. He should have given more thought to the ludicrous picture they
presented when together . . . ah. Ekaterin opened the door to them, and
smiled welcome.
"Lord Mark, Enrique. Do come in." She gestured them out of the afternoon glare into a cool tiled entry hall.
"Thank
you," said Mark fervently. "Thank you so much for this, Madame
Vorsoisson—Ekaterin—for setting this up. Thank you. Thank you. You
don't know how much this means to me."
"Goodness, don't thank me. It was Kareen's idea."
"Is she here?" Mark swiveled his head in search of her.
"Yes,
she and Martya were just a few minutes ahead of you both. This way . .
." Ekaterin led them to the right, into a book-crammed study.
Kareen
and her sister sat in spindly chairs ranged around a comconsole. Kareen
was beautiful and tight-lipped, her fists clenched in her lap. She
looked up as he entered, and her smile twisted bleakly upward. Mark
surged forward, stopped, stammered her name inaudibly, and seized her
rising hands. They exchanged a hard grip.
"I'm
allowed to talk to you now," Kareen told him, with an irritated toss of
her head, "but only about business. I don't know what they're so
paranoid about. If I wanted to elope, all I'd have to do is step out
the door and walk six blocks."
"I, I . . . I'd
better not say anything, then." Reluctantly, Mark released her hands,
and backed off a step. His eyes drank her in like water. She looked
tired and tense, but otherwise all right.
"Are you all right?" Her gaze searched him in turn.
"Yeah,
sure. For now." He returned her a wan smile, and looked vaguely at
Martya. "Hi, Martya. What are you doing here?"
"I'm
the duenna," she told him, with a grimace quite as annoyed as her
sister's. "It's the same principle as putting a guard on the picket
line after the horses are stolen. Now, if they'd sent me along to Beta
Colony, that might have been of some use. To me, at least."
Enrique folded himself into the chair next to Martya, and said in an aggrieved tone, "Did you know Lord Mark's mother was a Betan Survey captain ?"
"Tante Cordelia?" Martya shrugged. "Sure."
"A Betan Astronomical Survey captain . And nobody even thought to mention it! A Survey captain. And nobody eventold me."
Martya stared at him. "Is it important?"
"Is it important. Is it important! Holy saints, you people!"
"It
was thirty years ago, Enrique," Mark put in wearily. He'd been
listening to variations on this rant for two days. The Countess had
acquired another worshipper in Enrique. His conversion had doubtless
helped save his life from all his coreligionists in the household,
after the incident with the drains in the nighttime.
Enrique
clasped his hands together between his knees, and gazed up soulfully
into the air. "I gave her my dissertation to read."
Kareen, her eyes widening, asked, "Did she understand it?"
"Of course she did. She was a Betan Survey commander
, for God's sake! Do you have any idea how those people are chosen,
what they do? If I'd completed my postgraduate work with honors,
instead of all that stupid misunderstanding with the arrest, I could
have hoped, only hoped, to put in an application, and even then I
wouldn't have had a prayer of beating out all the Betan candidates, if
it weren't for their off-worlder quotas holding open some places
specifically for non-Betans." Enrique was breathless with the passion
of this speech. "She said she would recommend my work to the attention
of the Viceroy. And she said my sonnet was very ingenious. I composed a
sestina in her honor in my head while I was catching bugs, but I
haven't had time to get it down yet. Survey captain!"
"It's . . . not what Tante Cordelia is most famous for, on Barrayar," Martya offered after a moment.
"The woman is wasted here. All the women are wasted here." Enrique subsided grumpily. Martya turned half-around, and gave him an odd raised-brows look.
"How's the bug roundup going?" Kareen asked him anxiously.
"One
hundred twelve accounted for. The queen is still missing." Enrique
rubbed the side of his nose in reminded worry.
Ekaterin
put in, "Thank you, Enrique, for sending me the butter bug vid model so
promptly yesterday. It speeded up my design experiments vastly."
Enrique smiled at her. "My pleasure."
"Well.
Perhaps I ought to move along to my presentations," said Ekaterin. "It
won't take long, and then we can discuss them."
Mark
lowered his short bulk into the last spindly chair, and stared
mournfully across the gap at Kareen. Ekaterin sat in the comconsole
chair, and keyed up the first vid. It was a full-color
three-dimensional representation of a butter bug, blown up to a quarter
of a meter long. Everyone but Enrique and Ekaterin recoiled.
"Here,
of course, is our basic utility butter bug," Ekaterin began. "Now, I've
only run up four modifications so far, because Lord Mark indicated time
was of the essence, but I can certainly make more. Here's the first and
easiest."
The shit-brown-and-pus-white bug
vanished, to be replaced with a much classier model. This bug's legs
and body were patent-leather black, as shiny as a palace guardsman's
boots. A thin white racing stripe ran along the edges of the
now-elongated black wing carapaces, which hid the pale pulsing abdomen
from view. "Ooh," said Mark, surprised and impressed. How could such
small changes have made such a large difference? "Yeah!"
"Now here's something a little brighter."
The
second bug also had patent-black legs and body parts, but now the
carapaces were more rounded, like fans. A rainbow progression of colors
succeeded each other in curved stripes, from purple in the center
through blue-and-green-and-yellow-and-orange to red on the edge.
Martya sat up. "Oh, now that's better. That's actually pretty ."
"I
don't think this next one will quite be practical," Ekaterin went on,
"but I wanted to play with the range of possibilities."
At
first glance, Mark took it for a rose bud bursting into bloom. Now the
bug's body parts were a matte leaf-green faintly edged with a subtle
red. The carapaces looked like flower petals, in a delicate pale yellow
blushing with pink in multiple layers; the abdomen too was a matching
yellow, blending with the flower atop and receding from the eye's
notice. The spurs and angles of the bug's legs were exaggerated into
little blunt thorns.
"Oh, oh," said Kareen, her eyes widening. "I want that one! I vote for that one!"
Enrique looked quite stunned, his mouth slightly open. "Goodness. Yes, that could be done . . ."
"This
design might possibly work for—I suppose you'd call them—the farmed or
captive bugs," said Ekaterin. "I think the carapace petals might be a
little too delicate and awkward for the free-range bugs that were
expected to forage for their own food. They might get torn up and
damaged. But I was thinking, as I was working with these, that you
might have more than one design, later. Different packages, perhaps,
for different microbial synthesis suites."
"Certainly," said Enrique. "Certainly."
"Last one," said Ekaterin, and keyed the vid.
This
bug's legs and body parts were a deep, glimmering blue. The carapace
halves flared and then swept back in a teardrop shape. Their center was
a brilliant yellow, shading immediately to a deep red-orange, then to
light flame blue, then dark flame blue edged with flickering
iridescence. The abdomen, barely visible, was a rich dark red. The
creature looked like a flame, like a torch in the dusk, like a jewel
cast from a crown. Four people leaned forward so far they nearly fell
off their chairs. Martya's hand reached out. Ekaterin smiled demurely.
"Wow, wow, wow," husked Kareen. "Nowthat is a glorious bug!"
"I believe that was what you ordered, yes," murmured Ekaterin.
She
touched a vid control, and the static bug came to life momentarily. It
flicked its carapace, and a luminous lace of wing flashed out, like a
spray of red sparks from a fire. "If Enrique can figure out how to make
the wings bio-fluoresce at the right wavelength, they could twinkle in
the dark. A group of them might be quite spectacular."
Enrique leaned forward, staring avidly. "Nowthere's an idea. They'd be a lot
easier to catch in dim locations that way . . . There would be a
measurable bio-energy cost, though, which would come out of butter
production."
Mark tried to imagine an array of
these glorious bugs, gleaming and flashing and twinkling in the
twilight. It made his mind melt. "Think of it as their advertising
budget."
"Which one should we use?" asked Kareen. "I really liked the one that looked like a flower . . ."
"Take
a vote, I guess," said Mark. He wondered if he could persuade anyone
else to go for the slick black model. A veritable assassin-bug, that
one had looked. "A shareholder's vote," he added prudently.
"We've
hired a consultant for aesthetics," Enrique pointed out. "Perhaps we
should take her advice." He looked over to Ekaterin.
Ekaterin
opened her hands back to him. "The aesthetics were all I could supply.
I could only guess at how technically feasible they were, on the
bio-genetic level. There may be a trade-off between visual impact, and
the time needed to develop it."
"You made some
good guesses." Enrique hitched his chair over to the comconsole, and
ran through the series of bug vids again, his expression going absent.
"Time
is important," Kareen said. "Time is money, time is . . . time is
everything. Our first goal has to be to get some saleable product
launched, to start cycling in capital to get the basic business up,
running, and growing. Then play with the refinements."
"And
get it out of Vorkosigan House's basement," muttered Mark. "Maybe . . .
maybe the black one would be quickest?"
Kareen shook her head, and Martya said, "No, Mark." Ekaterin sat back in a posture of studied neutrality.
Enrique
stopped at the glorious bug, and sighed dreamily. "This one," he
stated. One corner of Ekaterin's mouth twitched up, and back down. Her
order of presentation hadn't been random, Mark decided.
Kareen glanced up. "Faster than the flower-bug, d'you think?"
"Yes," said Enrique.
"Second the motion."
"Are you sure you don't like that black one?" said Mark plaintively.
"You're outvoted, Mark," Kareen told him.
"Can't
be, I own fifty-one percent . . . oh." With the distribution of shares
to Kareen and to Miles's cook, he'd actually slipped below his
automatic majority. He intended to buy them back out, later . . .
"The
glorious bug it is," said Kareen. She added, "Ekaterin said she'd be
willing to be paid in shares, same as Ma Kosti."
"It wasn't that hard," Ekaterin began.
"Hush,"
Kareen told her firmly. "We're not paying you for hard. We're paying
you for good. Standard creative consultant fee. Pony up, Mark."
With
some reluctance—not that the workwoman was unworthy of her hire, but
merely covert regret for the additional smidge of control slipping
through his fingers—Mark went to the comconsole and made out a receipt
of shares paid for services rendered. He had Enrique and Kareen
countersign it, sent off a copy to Tsipis's office in Hassadar, and
formally presented it to Ekaterin.
She smiled a
little bemusedly, thanked him, and set the flimsy aside. Well, if she
took it for play-money, at least she hadn't supplied play-work. Like
Miles, maybe she was one of those people who was incapable of any
speeds but off and flat-out . All things done well for
the glory of God, as the Countess put it. Mark glanced again at the
glorious bug, which Enrique was now making cycle through its wing-flash
some more. Yeah.
"I suppose," said Mark with a
last longing look at Kareen, "we'd better be going." Time-the-essence
and all that. "The bug hunt has stopped everything in its tracks. R and
D is at a standstill . . . we're barely maintaining the bugs we have."
"Think of it as cleaning up your industrial spill," Martya advised unsympathetically. "Before it crawls away."
"Your parents let Kareen come here today. Do you think they'd at least let her come back to work?"
Kareen grimaced hopelessly.
Martya
screwed up her mouth, and shook her head. "They're coming down some,
but not that fast. Mama doesn't say much, but Da . . . Da has always
taken a lot of pride in being a good Da, you see. The Betan Orb and,
well, you, Mark, just weren't in his Barrayaran Da's instruction
manual. Maybe he's been in the military too long. Although truth to
tell, he's barely handling Delia's engagement without going all twitchy, and she is playing by all the old rules. As far as he knows."
Kareen raised an inquiring eyebrow at this, but Martya did not elaborate.
Martya
glanced aside to the comconsole, where the glorious bug sparked and
gleamed under Enrique's enraptured gaze. "On the other hand—the
guard-parents haven't forbidden me to go over to Vorkosigan House."
"Martya . . ." Kareen breathed. "Oh, could you? Would you?"
"Eh,
maybe." She glanced under her lashes at Mark. "I was thinking maybe I
could stand to get into some of this share-action myself."
Mark's
brows rose. Martya? Practical Martya? To take over the bug hunt and
send Enrique back to his genetic codes, without sestinas? Martya to
maintain the lab, to deal with supplies and suppliers, to not flush bug
butter down the sink? So what if she looked on him as a sort of
oversized repulsive fat butter bug that her sister had inexplicably
taken for a pet. He had not the least doubt Martya could make the
brains run on time. . . . "Enrique?"
"Hm?" Enrique murmured, not looking up.
Mark got his attention by reaching over and switching off the vid, and explained Martya's offer.
"Oh, yes, that would be lovely," the Escobaran agreed sunnily. He smiled hopefully at Martya.
The
deal was struck, though Kareen looked as if she might be having second
thoughts about sharing shares with her sister. Martya electing to
return to Vorkosigan House with them on the spot, Mark and Enrique rose
to make their farewells.
"Are you going to be all
right?" Mark asked Kareen quietly, while Ekaterin was busy getting her
bug designs downloaded for Enrique to carry off.
She nodded. "Yeah. You?"
"I'm hanging on. How long will it take, d'you suppose? Till this mess gets resolved?"
"It's
resolved already." Her expression was disturbingly fey. "I'm done
arguing, though I'm not sure they realize it yet. I've had it. While
I'm still living in my parents' house, I'll continue to hold myself
honor-bound to obey their rules, however ludicrous. The moment I've
figured out how to be somewhere else without compromising my long-range
goals, I'll walk away. Forever, if need be." Her mouth was grim and
determined. "I don't expect to be there much longer."
"Oh,"
said Mark. He wasn't exactly sure what she meant, or meant to do, but
it sounded . . . ominous. It terrified him to think that he might be
the cause of her losing her family. It had taken him a lifetime, and
dire effort, to win such a place of his own. The Commodore's clan had
looked to be such a golden refuge, to him . . . "It's . . . a lonely
place to be. On the outside like that."
She shrugged. "So be it."
The
business meeting broke up. Last chance . . . They were in the tiled
hallway, with Ekaterin ushering them out, before Mark worked up the
courage to blurt to her, "Are there any messages I can take for you? To
Vorkosigan House, I mean?" He was absolutely certain he would be
ambushed by his brother on his return, given the way Miles had briefed
him on his departure.
Renewed wariness closed down
the expression on Ekaterin's face. She looked away from him. Her hand
touched her bolero, over her heart; Mark detected a faint crackle of
expensive paper beneath the soft fabric. He wondered if it would have a
salutary humbling effect on Miles to learn where his literary effort
was being stored, or whether it would just make him annoyingly elated.
"Tell him," she said at last, and no need to specify which him , "I accept his apology. But I can't answer his question."
Mark
felt he had a brotherly duty to put in a good word for Miles, but the
woman's painful reserve unnerved him. He finally mumbled diffidently,
"He cares a lot, you know."
This wrenched a short
little nod from her, and a brief, bleak smile. "Yes. I know. Thank you,
Mark." That seemed to close the subject.
Kareen
turned right at the sidewalk, while the rest of them turned left to
head back to where the borrowed Armsman waited with the borrowed
groundcar. Mark walked backwards a moment, watching her retreat. She
strode on, head down, and didn't look back.
* * *
Miles,
who had left the door of his suite open for the purpose, heard Mark
returning in the late afternoon. He nipped out into the hall, and
leaned over the balcony with a predatory stare down into the
black-and-white paved entry foyer. All he could tell at a glance was
that Mark looked overheated, an inescapable result of wearing that much
black and fat in this weather.
Miles said urgently, "Did you see her?"
Mark
stared up at him, his brows rising in unwelcome irony. He clearly
sorted through a couple of tempting responses before deciding on a
simple and prudent, "Yes."
Miles's hands gripped the woodwork. "What did she say? Could you tell if she'd read my letter?"
"As
you may recall, you explicitly threatened me with death if I dared ask
her if she'd read your letter, or otherwise broached the subject in any
way."
Impatiently, Miles waved this off. "Directly . You know I meant not to ask directly . I just wondered if you could tell . . . anything."
"If I could tell what a woman was thinking just by looking at her, would I look like this ?" Mark made a sweeping gesture at his face, and glowered.
"How
the hell would I know? I can't tell what you're thinking just because
you look surly. You usually look surly."Last time, it was indigestion
. Although in Mark's case, stomach upset tended to be disturbingly
connected with his other difficult emotional states. Belatedly, Miles
remembered to ask, "So . . . how is Kareen? Is she all right?"
Mark grimaced. "Sort of. Yes. No. Maybe."
"Oh." After a moment Miles added, "Ouch. Sorry."
Mark
shrugged. He stared up at Miles, now pressed to the uprights, and shook
his head in exasperated pity. "In fact, Ekaterin did give me a message
for you."
Miles almost lurched over the balcony. "What,what ?"
"She
said to tell you she accepts your apology. Congratulations, dear
brother; you appear to have won the thousand-meter crawl. She must have
awarded you extra points for style, is all I can say."
"Yes! Yes!" Miles pounded his fist on the rail. "What else? Did she say anything else?"
"What else d'you expect?"
"I don't know. Anything. Yes, you may call on me , or No, never darken my doorstep again , or something . A clue, Mark!"
"Search me. You're going to have to go fish for your own clues."
"Can I? I mean, she didn't actually say I was not to bother her again?"
"She
said, she couldn't answer your question. Chew on it, crypto-man. I have
my own troubles." Shaking his head, Mark passed out of sight, heading
for the back of the house and the lift tube.
Miles
withdrew into his chambers, and flung himself down in the big chair in
the bay window overlooking the back garden. So, hope staggered upright
again, like a newly revived cryo-corpse dizzied and squinting in the
light. But not, Miles decided firmly, cryo-amnesiac. Not this time. He
lived, therefore he learned.
I can't answer your question did not sound like No to him. It didn't sound like Yes
either, of course. It sounded like . . . one more last chance. Through
a miracle of grace, it seemed he was to be permitted to begin again.
Scrape it all back to Square One and start over, right.
So, how to approach her? No more poetry, methinks. I was not born under a rhyming planet
. Judging from yesterday's effort, which he had prudently removed from
his wastebasket and burned this morning along with all the other
awkward drafts, any verse flowing from his pen was likely to be
ghastly. Worse: if by some chance he managed something good, she'd
likely want more, and then where would he be? He pictured Ekaterin, in
some future incarnation, crying angrily You're not the poet I married! No more false pretences. Scam just wouldn't do for the long haul.
Voices
drifted up from the entry hall. Pym was admitting a visitor. It wasn't
anyone Miles recognized at this muffled distance; male, so it was
likely a caller upon his father. Miles dismissed it from his attention,
and settled back down.
She accepts your apology. She accepts your apology . Life, hope, and all good things opened up before him.
The
unacknowledged panic which had gripped his throat for weeks seemed to
ease, as he stared out into the sunny scene below. Now that the secret
urgency driving him was gone, maybe he could even slow down enough to
make of himself something so plain and quiet as her friend. What would she like . . . ?
Maybe
he would ask her to go for a walk with him, somewhere pleasant.
Possibly not in a garden, quite yet, all things considered. A wood, a
beach . . . when talk lagged, there would be diversions for the eye.
Not that he expected to run short of words. When he could speak truth,
and was no longer constrained to concealment and lies, the
possibilities opened up startlingly. There was so much more to say . .
. Pym cleared his throat from the doorway. Miles swiveled his head.
"Lord Richars Vorrutyer is here to see you, Lord Vorkosigan," Pym announced.
"That's Lord Vorrutyer, if you please, Pym," Richars corrected him.
"Your
cousin, m'lord." Pym, with a bland nod, ushered Richars into Miles's
sitting room. Richars, perfectly alive to the nuance, shot a suspicious
look at the Armsman as he entered.
Miles hadn't
seen Richars for a year or so, but he hadn't altered much; he was
looking maybe a little older, what with the advance of his waistline
and the retreat of his hairline. He was wearing a piped and epauletted
suit in blue and gray, reminiscent of the Vorrutyer House colors. More
appropriate for day-wear than the imposing formality of the actual
uniform, it nonetheless managed to suggest, without overtly claiming a
right to, the garb of a Count's heir. Richars still looked permanently
peeved: no change there.
Richars stared around General Piotr's old chambers, frowning.
"You
have a sudden need of an Imperial Auditor, Richars?" Miles prodded
gently, not best pleased with the intrusion. He wanted to be composing
his next note to Ekaterin, not dealing with a Vorrutyer. Any Vorrutyer.
"What?
No, certainly not!" Richars looked indignant, then blinked at Miles as
though just now reminded of his new status. "I didn't come to see you
at all. I came to see your father about his upcoming vote in Council on
that lunatic suit of Lady Donna's." Richars shook his head. "He refused
to see me. Sent me on to you."
Miles raised his
brows at Pym. Pym intoned, "The Count and Countess, having heavy social
obligations tonight, are resting this afternoon, m'lord."
He'd
seen his parents at lunch; they hadn't seemed a bit tired. But his
father had told him last night that he meant to take Gregor's wedding
as a vacation from his duties as Viceroy, not a renewal of his duties
as Count, carry on boy, you're doing fine. His mother had endorsed this
plan emphatically. "I am still my father's voting deputy, yes, Richars."
"I
had thought, because he was back in town, he'd take over again. Ah,
well." Richars studied Miles dubiously, shrugged, and advanced toward
the bay window.
All mine, eh? "Um, do sit down." Miles gestured to the chair opposite him, across the low table. "Thank you, Pym, that will be all."
Pym
nodded, and withdrew. Miles did not suggest refreshments, or any other
impediment to speeding Richars through his pitch, whatever it was going
to be. Richars certainly hadn't dropped in for the pleasure of his
company, not that his company was worth much just now. Ekaterin, Ekaterin, Ekaterin . . .
Richars
settled himself, and offered in what was evidently meant as sympathy,
"I passed your fat clone in the hallway. He must be a great trial to
you all. Can't you do anything about him?"
It was
hard to tell from this if Richars found Mark's obesity or his existence
more offensive; on the other hand, Richars too was presently struggling
with a relative in an embarrassing choice of body. But Miles was also
reminded why, if he did not exactly go out of his way to avoid his
Vorrutyer cousin-not-removed-far-enough, he did not seek his company.
"Yes, well, he's our trial. What do you want, Richars?"
Richars
sat back, shaking the distraction of Mark from his head. "I came to
speak to Count Vorkosigan about . . . although come to think of it—I
understand you've actually met Lady Donna since she returned from Beta Colony?"
"Do you mean Lord Dono? Yes. Ivan . . . introduced us. Haven't you seen, ah, your cousin yet?"
"Not
yet." Richars smiled thinly. "I don't know who she imagines she's
fooling. Just not the real thing, our Donna."
Inspired
to a touch of malice, Miles let his brows climb. "Well, now, that
depends entirely on what you define as the real thing , doesn't
it? They do good work on Beta Colony. She went to a reputable clinic.
I'm not as familiar with the details as, perhaps, Ivan, but I don't
doubt the transformation was complete and real, biologically speaking.
And no one can deny Dono is true Vor, and a Count's legitimate eldest
surviving child. Two out of three, and for the rest, well, times
change."
"Good God, Vorkosigan, you're not serious ." Richars sat upright, and compressed his lips in disgust. "Nine generations of Vorrutyer service to the Imperium, to come to this ? This tasteless joke?"
Miles shrugged. "That's for the Council of Counts to decide, evidently."
"It's absurd. Donna cannot
inherit. Look at the consequences. One of the first duties of a Count
is to sire his heir. What woman in her right mind would ever marry her?"
"There's
someone for everyone, they say." A hopeful thought. Yes, and if even
Richars had managed matrimony, how hard could it be? "And
heir-production isn't exactly the only job requirement. Many Counts
have failed to spawn their own replacements, for one reason or another.
Look at poor Pierre, for example."
Richars shot
him an annoyed, wary look, which Miles elected not to notice. Miles
went on, "Dono seemed to be making a pretty good impression on the
ladies when I saw him."
"That's just the damned women sticking together, Vorkosigan." Richars hesitated, looking struck. "You say Ivan brought her?"
"Yes."
Just exactly how Dono had strong-armed Ivan into this was still unclear
to Miles, but he felt no impulse to share his speculations with Richars.
"He used to screw her, you know. So did half the men in Vorbarr Sultana."
"I'd heard . . . something." Go away, Richars. I don't want to deal with your smarmy notion of wit right now.
"I
wonder if he still . . . well! I'd never have thought Ivan Vorpatril
climbed into that side of the bunk, but live and learn!"
"Um,
Richars . . . you have a consistency problem, here," Miles felt
compelled to point out. "You cannot logically imply my cousin Ivan is a
homosexual for screwing Dono, not that I think he is doing so, unless
you simultaneously grant Dono is actually male. In which case, his suit
for the Vorrutyer Countship holds."
"I think," said Richars primly after a moment, "your cousin Ivan may be a very confused young man."
"Not about that, he's not," Miles sighed.
"This is irrelevant." Richars impatiently brushed away the question of Ivan's sexuality, of whatever mode.
"I must agree."
"Look,
Miles." Richars tented his hands in a gesture of reason. "I know you
Vorkosigans have backed the Progressives since Piotr's days ended, just
as we Vorrutyers have always been staunch Conservatives. But this prank
of Donna's attacks the basis of Vor power itself. If we Vor do not
stand together on certain core issues, the time will come when all Vor
will find ourselves with nothing left to stand upon. I assume I can count on your vote."
"I hadn't really given the suit much thought yet."
"Well, think about it now. It's coming up very soon."
All
right, all right, granted, the fact that Dono amused Miles considerably
more than Richars did was not, in and of itself, qualification for a
Countship. He was going to have to step back and evaluate this. Miles
sighed, and tried to force himself to attend more seriously to
Richars's presentation.
Richars probed, "Are there any matters you are pursuing in Council at the moment, especially?"
Richars
was angling for a vote-trade, or more properly, a trade in
vote-futures, since, unlike Miles's, his vote was vapor right now.
Miles thought it over. "Not at present. I have a personal interest in
the Komarran solar mirror repair, since I think it will be a good
investment for the Imperium, but Gregor seems to have his majority well
in hand on that one." In other words, you don't have anything I need, Richars. Not even in theory. But he added after a moment's further reflection, "By-the-by, what do you think of Renй Vorbretten's dilemma?"
Richars shrugged. "Unfortunate. Not Renй's fault, I suppose, the poor sod, but what's to be done?"
"Reconfirm Renй in his own right?" Miles suggested mildly.
"Impossible," said Richars with conviction. "He's Cetagandan ."
"I
am trying to think by what possible criteria anyone could sanely
describe Renй Vorbretten as a Cetagandan," said Miles.
"Blood,"
said Richars without hesitation. "Fortunately, there is an untainted
Vorbretten line of descent to draw on to take his place. I imagine
Sigur will grow into Renй's Countship well enough in time."
"Have you promised Sigur your vote?"
Richars cleared his throat. "Since you mention it, yes."
Therefore,
Richars now possessed the promise of Count Vormoncrief's support.
Nothing to be done for Renй with that tight little circle. Miles merely
smiled.
"This delay in my confirmation has been
maddening," Richars went on after a moment. "Three months wasted, while
the Vorrutyer's District drifts without a hand on the controls, and
Donna prances around having her sick little joke."
"Mm,
that sort of surgery is neither trivial nor painless." If there was one
techno-torture on which Miles was an expert, it was modern medicine.
"In a strange sense, Dono killed Donna for this chance. I think he's
deathly serious. And having sacrificed so much for it, I imagine he's
likely to value the prize."
"You're not—" Richars looked taken aback. "You're surely not thinking of voting for her, are you? You can't imagine your father endorsing that!"
"Plainly, if I do, he does. I am his Voice."
"Your grandfather," Richars looked around the sitting room, "would spin in his grave!"
Miles's
lips drew back on a humorless smile. "I don't know, Richars. Lord Dono
makes an excellent first impression. He may be received everywhere the
first time for curiosity, but I can well imagine him being invited back
on his own merits."
"Is that why you received her
at Vorkosigan House, for curiosity? I must say, you didn't help the
Vorrutyers with that. Pierre was strange—did he ever show you his
collection of hats lined with gold foil?—and his sister's no
improvement. The woman should be clapped in an attic for this whole
appalling escapade."
"You should get over your prejudices and meet Lord Dono." You can leave any time now, in fact. "He quite charmed Lady Alys."
"Lady Alys holds no vote in Council." Richars gave Miles a sharp frown. "Did he—she —charm you?"
Miles shrugged, compelled to honesty. "I wouldn't go that far. He wasn't my chief concern that night."
"Yes," said Richars grumpily, "I heard all about your problem."
What?
Abruptly, Miles found that Richars had finally riveted his full,
undivided attention. "And what problem would that be?" he inquired
softly.
Richar's lip turned up in a sour smile.
"Sometimes, you remind me of my cousin By. He's very practiced at the
suave pose, but he's not nearly as slick as he pretends to be. I'd have
thought you'd have had the tactical wits to seal the exits before
springing a trap like that." He conceded after a moment, "Though I do
think the better of Alexi's widow for standing up to you."
"Alexi's widow?" breathed Miles. "I didn't know Alexi was married, let alone deceased. Who's the lucky lady?"
Richars
gave him a don't-be-stupid look. His smile grew odder, as it penetrated
that he'd drawn Miles out of his irritating indifference at last. "It
was just a leetle obvious, don't you think, My Lord Auditor? Just a leetle obvious?" He leaned back in his chair, squinting through narrowed eyes.
"I'm
afraid you've lost me," said Miles, in an extremely neutral tone. As
automatically as breathing, Miles's face, posture, gestures slid into
Security mode, unrevealing, unobtrusive.
"Your
Administrator Vorsoisson's so-convenient death? Alexi thinks the widow
hadn't guessed earlier how—and why—her husband died. But judging from
her flaming exit from your proposal-party, all of Vorbarr Sultana
figures that she knows now."
Miles kept his
expression to no more than a faint, slight smile. "If you are talking
about Madame Vorsoisson's late husband Tien, he died in a breath mask
accident." He did not add I was there . It didn't sound . . . helpful.
"Breath
mask, eh? Easy enough to arrange. I can think of three or four ways to
do it without even exerting myself."
"Motivation alone does not a murder make. Or . . . since you're so quick at this—what did happen the night Pierre's fiancйe was killed?"
Richars's chin rose. "I was investigated and cleared. You
haven't been. Now, I don't know if the talk about you is true, nor do I
greatly care. But I doubt you'd care for the ordeal either way."
"No." Miles's smile remained fixed. "Enjoyed your part in that inquest, did you?"
"No,"
said Richars plainly. "Little officious guard bastards crawling all
over my personal affairs, none of which were any of their damned
business . . . drooling all over myself on fast-penta . . . The proles
love having a Vor in their sights, don't you know. They'd piss all over
themselves for a shot at someone of your rank. But you're
likely safe, in the Council up there above us all. It would take a
brave fool to lay the charge there, and what would he gain? No win for
anyone."
"No." Such a charge would be quashed, for
reasons of which Richars knew nothing—and Miles and Ekaterin would have
to endure the scurrilous speculation that would follow that quashing.
No win at all.
"Except possibly for young Alexi
and the widow Vorsoisson. On the other hand . . ." Richars eyed Miles
in growing conjecture, "There's a visible benefit to you if someone doesn't lay such a charge. I see a possible win-win scenario here."
"Do you."
"Come
on, Vorkosigan. We're both as Old Vor as it's possible to be. It's
stupid of us to be brangling when we should both be on the same side.
Our interests march together. It's a tradition. Don't pretend your
father and grandfather weren't top party horse-traders."
"My
grandfather . . . learned his political science from the Cetagandans.
Mad Emperor Yuri offered him postgraduate instruction after that. My
grandfather schooled my father." And both of them schooled me. This is the only warning you will receive, Richars.
"By the time I knew Piotr, Vorbarr Sultana party politics were just an
amusing pastime to him, to entertain him in his old age."
"Well, there you are, then. I believe we understand each other pretty well."
"Let's
just see. Do I gather you are offering not to lay a murder charge
against me, if I vote for you over Dono in the Council?"
"Those both seem like good things to me."
"What if someone else makes such an accusation?"
"First they'd have to care, then they'd have to dare. Not all that likely, eh?"
"It's hard to say. All of Vorbarr Sultana seems a suddenly enlarged audience to my quiet family dinner. For example, where did you encounter this . . . fabrication?"
"At a quiet family dinner." Richars smirked, obviously satisfied at Miles's dismay.
And what route had the information traveled? Ye gods, was
there a security rupture behind Richars's mouthings? The potential
implications ranged far beyond a District inheritance fight. ImpSec was
going to have a hell of a time tracking this.
All of Vorbarr Sultana. Ohshitohshitohshit.
Miles
sat back, looked up to meet Richars's eyes directly, and smiled. "You
know, Richars, I'm glad you came to see me. Before we had this little
talk, I had actually been undecided how I was going to vote on the
matter of the Vorrutyer's District."
Richars looked pleased, watching him fold so neatly. "I was sure we could see eye to eye."
The
attempted bribery or blackmail of an Imperial Auditor was treason. The
attempted bribery or blackmail of a District Count during wrestling for
votes was more in the nature of normal business practice; the Counts
traditionally expected their fellows to defend themselves in that game,
or be thought too stupid to live. Richars had come to see Miles in his
Voting Deputy hat, not his Imperial Auditor hat. Switching hats, and
the rules of the game, on him in midstream seemed unfair. Besides, I want the pleasure of destroying him myself.
Whatever ImpSec found in addition would be ImpSec's affair. And ImpSec
had no sense of humor. Did Richars have any idea what kind of lever he
was trying to pull? Miles manufactured a smile.
Richars
smiled back, and rose. "Well. I have other men to see this afternoon.
Thank you, Lord Vorkosigan, for your support." He stuck out his hand.
Miles took it without hesitation, shook it firmly, and smiled. He
smiled him to the door of his suite when Pym arrived to escort him out,
and smiled while the booted feet made their way down the stairs, and
smiled until he heard the front doors close.
The
smile transmuted to pure snarl. He stormed around the room three times
looking for something that wasn't an antique too valuable to break,
found nothing of that description, and settled for whipping his
grandfather's seal dagger from its sheath and hurling it quivering into
the doorframe to his bedroom. The satisfying vibrant hum faded all too
quickly. In a few minutes, he regained control of his breathing and
swearing, and schooled his face back to bland. Cold, maybe, but very
bland.
He went into his study and sat at his
comconsole. He brushed aside a repeat of this morning's message from
Ivan to call him marked urgent, and coded up the secured line.
A little to his surprise, he was put through to ImpSec Chief General
Guy Allegre on the first try.
"Good afternoon, my Lord Auditor," Allegre said. "How may I serve you?"
Roasted, apparently.
"Good afternoon, Guy." Miles hesitated, his stomach tightening in
distaste for the task ahead. No help for it. "An unpleasant development
stemming from the Komarr case—" no need to specify which Komarr
case—"has just been brought to my attention. It appears purely
personal, but it may have security ramifications. It seems I am being
accused in the court of capital gossip of having a direct hand in the
death of that idiot Tien Vorsoisson. The imputed motive being to woo
his widow." Miles swallowed. "The second half is unfortunately true. I
have been," how to put this , "attempting to court her. Not terribly . . . well, perhaps."
Allegre raised his brows. "Indeed. Something just crossed my desk on that."
Argh!What, for God's sake? "Really? That was quick." Or else it really is all over town . Yeah, it stood to reason Miles might not be the first to know.
"Anything connected with that case is red-flagged for my immediate attention."
Miles
waited a moment, but Allegre didn't volunteer anything more. "Well,
here's my bit for you. Richars Vorrutyer has just offered to nobly
refrain from laying a murder charge against me for Vorsoisson's death,
in exchange for my vote in the Council of Counts confirming him as
Count Vorrutyer."
"Mm. And how did you respond to this?"
"Shook his hand and sent him off thinking he had me."
"And does he?"
"Hell,
no. I'm going to vote for Dono and squash Richars like the roach he is.
But I would very much like to know whether this is a leak, or an
independent fabrication. It makes an enormous difference in my moves."
"For
what it's worth, our ImpSec informant's report didn't pinpoint anything
in the rumor that looks like a leak. No key details that aren't public
knowledge, for example. I have a picked analyst following up just that
question now."
"Good. Thank you."
"Miles
. . ." Allegre pressed his lips thoughtfully together. "I have no doubt
you find this galling. But I trust your response will not draw any more
attention to the Komarr matter than necessary."
"If it's a leak, it's your call. If it's pure slander . . ." What the hell am I going to do about it?
"If I may ask, what do you plan to do next?"
"Immediately?
Call Madame Vorsoisson, and let her know what's coming down." The
anticipation made him cold and sick. He could scarcely imagine anything
farther from the simple affection he'd ached to give her than this
nauseating news. "This concerns—this damages—her as much as it does me."
"Hm." Allegre rubbed his chin. "To avoid muddying already murky waters, I would request you put that off until my analyst has had a chance to evaluate her place in all this."
"Her place? Her place is innocent victim!"
"I
don't disagree," Allegre said soothingly. "I'm not so much concerned
with disloyalty as with possible carelessness."
ImpSec
had never been happy to have Ekaterin, an oath-free civilian not under
their control in any way, standing in the heart of the hottest secret
of the year, or maybe the century. Despite the fact that she'd
personally hand-delivered it to them, the ingrates. "She is not
careless. She is in fact extremely careful."
"In your observation."
"In my professional observation."
Allegre
gave him a placating nod. "Yes, m'lord. We would be pleased to prove
that. You don't, after all, want ImpSec to be . . . confused."
Miles blew out his breath in dry appreciation of this last dead-pan remark. "Yeah, yeah," he conceded.
"I'll have my analyst call you with clearance just as soon as possible," Allegre promised.
Miles's fist clenched in frustration, and unfolded reluctantly. Ekaterin didn't go about much; it might be several days before this came to her ears from other sources. "Very well. Keep me informed."
"Will do, my lord."
Miles cut the com.
The
queasy realization was dawning on him that, in his reflexive fear for
the secrets behind the disasters on Komarr, he'd handled Richars
Vorrutyer exactly backwards. Ten years of ImpSec habits, argh.
Miles judged Richars a bully, not a psychotic. If Miles had stood up to
him instantly, he might have folded, backed down, shied from
deliberately pissing off a potential vote.
Well,
it was way too late to go running after him now and try to replay the
conversation. Miles's vote against Richars would demonstrate the
futility of trying to blackmail a Vorkosigan.
And
leave each other permanent enemies in Council . . . Would calling his
bluff force Richars to make good his threat or be forsworn? Shit, he'll have to.
In
Ekaterin's eyes, Miles had barely climbed out of the last hole he'd
dug. He wanted to be thrown together with her, but not, dear God, at a
murder trial for the death of her late husband, however aborted. She
was just starting to leave the nightmare of her marriage behind her. A
formal charge and its aftermath, regardless of the ultimate verdict,
must drag her back through its traumas in the most hideous imaginable
manner, plunge her into a maelstrom of stress, distress, humiliation,
and exhaustion. A power struggle in the Council of Counts was not a
garden in which love was like to bloom.
Of course,
the entire ghastly vision could be neatly short-circuited if Richars
lost his bid for the Vorrutyer Countship.
But Dono hasn't got a chance.
Miles gritted his teeth. He does now.
A second later, he tapped in another code, and waited impatiently.
"Hello,
Dono," Miles purred, as a face formed over the vid plate. The somber,
if musty, splendor of one of Vorrutyer House's salons receded dimly in
the background. But the figure wavering into focus wasn't Dono; it was
Olivia Koudelka, who grinned cheerfully at him. She had a smudge of
dust on her cheek, and three rolled-up parchments under her arm.
"Oh—Olivia. Excuse me. Is, um, Lord Dono there?"
"Sure,
Miles. He's in conference with his lawyer. I'll get him." She bounced
out of range of the pickup; he could hear her voice calling Hey, Dono! Guess who's on the com! in the distance.
In
a moment, Dono's bearded face popped up; he cocked an inquiring eyebrow
at his caller. "Good afternoon, Lord Vorkosigan. What can I do for you?"
"Hello,
Lord Dono. It has just occurred to me that, for one reason and another,
we never finished our conversation the other night. I wanted to let you
know, in case there was any doubt, that your bid for the Vorrutyer
Countship has my full support, and the vote of my District."
"Why,
thank you, Lord Vorkosigan. I'm very pleased to hear that." Dono
hesitated. "Though . . . a little surprised. You gave me the impression
you preferred to remain above all this in-fighting."
"Preferred,
yes. But I've just had a visit from your cousin Richars. He managed to
bring me down to his level in astonishingly short order."
Dono
pursed his lips, then tried not to smile too broadly. "Richars does
have that effect on people sometimes."
"If I may,
I'd like to schedule a meeting with you and Renй Vorbretten. Here at
Vorkosigan House, or where you will. I think a little mutual
strategizing could be very beneficial to you both."
"I'd be delighted to have your counsel, Lord Vorkosigan. When?"
A
few minutes of schedule comparison and shifting, and a side-call to
Renй at Vorbretten House, resulted in a meeting set for the day after
tomorrow. Miles could have been happy with tonight, or instantly, but
had to admit this gave him time to study the problem in more rational
detail. He bid a tightly cordial good-bye to both his, he trusted,
future colleagues.
He reached for the next code on
his comconsole; then his hand hesitated and fell back. He'd hardly
known how to begin again before this mine had blown up in his
face. He could say nothing to Ekaterin now. If he called her to try to
talk of other things, ordinary kindly trivial things, while knowing
this and not speaking it, he'd be lying to her again. Hugely.
But what the hell was he going to say when Allegre had cleared him?
He rose and began to pace his chambers.
Ekaterin's
requested year of mourning would have served for more than the healing
of her own soul. At a year's distance, memory of Tien's mysterious
death would have been softened in the public mind; his widow might have
gracefully rejoined society without comment, and been gracefully
courted by a man she'd known a decent interval. But no. On fire with
impatience, sick with dread of losing his chance with her, he'd had to
push and push, till he'd pushed it right over the edge.
Yes,
and if he hadn't babbled his intentions all over town, Illyan would
never have been confused and blurted out his disastrous small-talk, and
the highly-misinterpretable incident at the dinner party would never
have occurred. I want a time machine, so's I can go back and shoot myself.
He
had to admit, the whole extended scenario lent itself beautifully to
political disinformation. In his covert ops days, he'd fallen with
chortles of joy on lesser slips by his enemies. If he were ambushing
himself, he'd regard it as a godsend.
You did ambush yourself, you idiot.
If
he'd only kept his mouth shut, he might have gotten away clean with
that elaborate half-lie about the garden, too. Ekaterin would still be
lucratively employed, and—he stopped, and contemplated this thought
with extremely mixed emotions. Cross-ball . Would a certain miserable period of his youth have been a shade less miserable if he'd never learned of that benign deceit? Would you rather feel a fool, or be one? He knew the answer he'd give for himself; was he to grant Ekaterin any less respect?
You did. Fool.
In
any case, the accusation seemed to have fallen on him alone. If Richars
spoke truth, hah, the back-splash had missed her altogether. And if you don't go after her again, it will stay that way.
He
stumbled to his chair, and sat heavily. How long would he have to stay
away from her, for this delicious whisper to be forgotten? A year?
Years and years? Forever?
Dammit, the only crime
he'd committed was to fall in love with a brave and beautiful lady. Was
that so wrong? He'd wanted to give her the world, or at least, as much
of it as was his to give. How had so much good intention turned into
this . . . tangle ?
He heard Pym down in
the foyer, and voices again. He heard a single pair of boots climbing
the stairs, and gathered himself to tell Pym that he was Not At Home to
any more visitors this afternoon. But it wasn't Pym who popped breezily
through the door to his suite, but Ivan. Miles groaned.
"Hi, coz," said Ivan cheerily. "God, you still looked wrecked."
"You're behind the times, Ivan. I'm wrecked all over again."
"Oh?"
Ivan looked at him inquiringly, but Miles waved it away. Ivan shrugged.
"So, what's on? Wine, beer? Ma Kosti snacks?"
Miles pointed to the recently-restocked credenza by the wall. "Help yourself."
Ivan poured himself wine, and asked, "What are you having?"
Let's not start that again. "Nothing. Thanks."
"Eh,
suit yourself." Ivan wandered back over to the bay window, swirling his
drink in his glass. "You didn't pick up my comconsole messages,
earlier?"
"Oh, yeah, I saw them. Sorry. It's been
a busy day." Miles scowled. "I'm afraid I'm not much company right now.
I've just been blindsided by Richars Vorrutyer, of all people. I'm
still digesting it."
"Ah. Hm." Ivan glanced at the
door, and took a gulp of wine. He cleared his throat. "If it was about
the murder rumor, well, if you'd answer your damned messages, you
wouldn't get blindsided. I tried."
Miles stared up at him, appalled. "Good God, not you too ? Does everybody in bloody Vorbarr Sultana know about this goddamn crap?"
Ivan
shrugged. "I don't know about everybody. M'mother hasn't mentioned it
yet, but she might think it was too crude to take notice of. Byerly
Vorrutyer passed it on to me to pass on to you. At dawn, note. He
adores gossip like this. Just too excited to keep it to himself, I
guess, unless he's stirring things up for his own amusement. Or else
he's playing some kind of sneaky underhanded game. I can't even begin
to guess which side he's on."
Miles massaged his forehead with the heels of his hands. "Gah."
"Anyway, the point is, it wasn't me who started this . You grasp?"
"Yeah." Miles sighed. "I suppose. Do me a favor, and quash it when you encounter it, eh?"
"As
if anyone would believe me? Everybody knows I've been your donkey since
forever. It's not like I was an eyewitness anyway. I don't know any
more than anyone else." He asserted after a moment's thought, "Less."
Miles
considered the alternatives. Death? Death would be much more peaceful,
and he wouldn't have this pounding headache. But there was always the
risk some misguided person would revive him again, in worse shape than
ever. Besides, he had to live at least long enough to cast his vote
against Richars. He studied his cousin thoughtfully. "Ivan . . ."
"It
wasn't my fault," Ivan recited promptly, "it's not my job, you can't
make me, and if you want any of my time you'll have to wrestle m'mother
for it. If you dare." He nodded satisfaction at this clincher.
Miles
sat back, and regarded Ivan for a long moment. "You're right," he said
at last. "I have abused your loyalty too many times. I'm sorry. Never
mind."
Ivan, caught with a mouthful of wine,
stared at him in shock, his brows drawing down. He finally managed to
swallow. "What do you mean, never mind ?"
"I
mean, never mind. There's no reason to draw you into this ugly mess,
and every reason not to." Miles doubted there'd be much honor for Ivan
to win in his vicinity this time, not even the sort that sparked so
briefly before being buried forever in ImpSec files. Besides, he
couldn't think offhand of anything Ivan could do for him.
"No need ? Never mind ? What are you up to?"
"Nothing,
I'm afraid. You can't help me on this one. Thanks for offering,
though," Miles added conscientiously.
"I didn't offer anything," Ivan pointed out. His eyes narrowed. "You're up to something."
"Not
up. Just down." Down to nothing but the certainty that the next weeks
were going to be unpleasant in ways he'd never experienced before.
"Thank you, Ivan. I'm sure you can find your own way out."
"Well
. . ." Ivan tilted up his glass, drained it, and set it down on the
table. "Yeah, sure. Call me if you . . . need anything."
Ivan
trod out, with a disgruntled backward look over his shoulder. Miles
heard his indignant mutter, fading down the stairs: "No need . Never mind . Who the hell does he think he is . . . ?"
Miles smiled crookedly, and slumped in his seat. He had a great deal to do. He was just too tired to move.
Ekaterin. . . .
Her name seemed to stream through his fingers, as impossible to hold as smoke whipped away by the wind.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
Ekaterin sat in the
midmorning sun at the table in her aunt's back garden, and tried to
rank the list of short-term jobs she'd pulled off the comconsole by
location and pay. Nothing close by seemed to have anything to do with
botany. Her stylus wandered to the margin of the flimsy and doodled yet
another idea for a pretty butter bug, then went on to sketch a revision
for her aunt's garden involving the use of more raised beds for easy
maintenance. The very early stages of congestive heart failure which
had been slowing Aunt Vorthys down were due to be cured this fall when
she received her scheduled transplant; on the other hand, she would
likely return thereafter to her full teaching load. A container-garden
of all native Barrayaran species . . . no. Ekaterin returned her
attention firmly to the job list.
Aunt Vorthys had
been bustling in and out of the house; Ekaterin therefore didn't look
up till her aunt said, in a decidedly odd tone, "Ekaterin, you have a
visitor."
Ekaterin glanced up, and stifled a
flinch of shock. Captain Simon Illyan stood at her aunt's elbow. All
right, so, she'd sat next to him through practically a whole dinner,
but that had been at Vorkosigan House, where anything seemed possible.
Towering legends weren't supposed to rise up and stand casually in
one's own garden in the broad morning as though some passing
person—probably Miles—had dropped a dragon's tooth in the grass.
Not that Captain Illyan towered
, exactly. He was much shorter and slighter than she'd pictured him.
He'd seldom appeared in news vids. He wore a modest civilian suit of
the sort any Vor with conservative tastes might choose for a morning or
business call. He smiled diffidently at her, and waved her back to her
seat as she started to scramble up. "No, no, please, Madame Vorsoisson
. . ."
"Won't . . . you sit down?" Ekaterin managed, sinking back.
"Thank
you." He pulled out a chair and seated himself a little stiffly, as if
not altogether comfortable. Maybe he bore old scars like Miles's. "I
wondered if I might have a private word with you. Madame Vorthys seems
to think it would be all right."
Her aunt's nod
confirmed this. "But Ekaterin, dear, I was just about to leave for
class. Do you wish me to stay a little?"
"That won't be necessary," Ekaterin said faintly. "What's Nikki up to?"
"Playing on my comconsole, just at present."
"That's fine."
Aunt Vorthys nodded, and went back into the house.
Illyan
cleared his throat, and began, "I've no wish to intrude on your privacy
or time, Madame Vorsoisson, but I did want to apologize to you for
embarrassing you the other night. I feel much at fault, and I'm very
much afraid I might have . . . done some damage I didn't intend."
She
frowned suspiciously, and her right hand fingered the braid on the left
edge of her bolero. "Did Miles send you?"
"Ah . .
. no. I'm an ambassador entirely without portfolio. This is on my own
recognizance. If I hadn't made that foolish remark . . . I did not
altogether understand the delicacy of the situation."
Ekaterin
sighed bitter agreement. "I think you and I must have been the only two
people in the room so poorly informed."
"I was
afraid I'd been told and forgotten, but it appears I just wasn't on the
need-to-know list. I'm not quite used to that yet." A tinge of anxiety
flickered in his eyes, giving lie to his smile.
"It was not your fault at all, sir. Somebody . . . overshot his own calculations."
"Hm."
Illyan's lips twisted in sympathy with her expression. He traced a
finger over the tabletop in a crosshatch pattern. "You know—speaking of
ambassadors—I began by thinking I ought to come to you and put in a
good word for Miles in the romance department. I figured I owed it to
him, for having put my foot down in the middle of things that way. But
the more I thought about it, the more I realized I have truly no idea
what kind of a husband he would make. I hardly dare recommend him to
you. He was a terrible subordinate."
Her brows flew up in surprise. "I'd thought his ImpSec career was successful."
Illyan shrugged. "His ImpSec missions
were consistently successful, frequently beyond my wildest dreams. Or
nightmares. . . . He seemed to regard any order worth obeying as worth
exceeding. If I could have installed one control device on him, it
would have been a rheostat. Power him down a turn or two . . .
maybe I could have made him last longer." Illyan gazed thoughtfully out
over the garden, but Ekaterin didn't think the garden was what he was
seeing, in his mind's eye. "Do you know all those old folk tales where
the count tries to get rid of his only daughter's unsuitable suitor by
giving him three impossible tasks?"
"Yes . . ."
"Don't ever try that with Miles. Just . . . don't."
She
tried to rub the involuntary smile from her lips, and failed. His
answering smile seemed to lighten his eyes.
"I
will say," he went on more confidently, "I've never found him a slow
learner. If you were to give him a second chance, well . . . he might
surprise you."
"Pleasantly?" she asked dryly.
It
was his turn to fail to suppress a smile. "Not necessarily." He looked
away from her again, and his smile faded from wry to pensive. "I've had
many subordinates over the years who've turned in impeccable careers.
Perfection takes no risks with itself, you see. Miles was many things,
but never perfect. It was a privilege and a terror to command him, and
I'm thankful and amazed we both got out alive. Ultimately . . . his
career ran aground in disaster. But before it ended, he changed worlds."
She
didn't think Illyan meant that for a figure of speech. He glanced back
at her, and made a little palm-open motion with his hands in his lap,
as if apologizing for having once held worlds there.
"Do you take him for a great man?" Ekaterin asked Illyan seriously. And does it take one to know one? "Like his father and grandfather?"
"I
think he is a great man . . . in an entirely different way than his
father and grandfather. Though I've often been afraid he'd break his
heart trying to be them."
Illyan's words reminded
her strangely of her Uncle Vorthys's evaluation of Miles, back when
they'd first met on Komarr. So if a genius thought Miles was a genius,
and a great man thought he was a great man . . . maybe she ought to get
him vetted by a really good husband.
Voices
carried faintly from the house through the open windows into the back
garden, too muffled to make out the words. One was a low-pitched male
rumble. The other was Nikki's. It didn't sound like the comconsole or
the vid. Was Uncle Vorthys home already? Ekaterin had thought he would
be out till dinnertime.
"I will say," Illyan went
on, waving a thoughtful finger in the air, "he did always have the most
remarkable knack for picking personnel. Either picking or making; I was
never quite sure which. If he said someone was the person for the job,
they proved to be so. One way or another. If he thinks you'd be a fine
Lady Vorkosigan, he's undoubtedly right. Although," his tone grew
slightly morose, "if you do throw in your lot with him, I can
personally guarantee you'll never be in control of what happens next
again. Not that one ever is, really."
Ekaterin nodded wry agreement. "When I was twenty, I chose my life. It wasn't this one."
Illyan
laughed painfully. "Oh, twenty. God. Yes. When I took oath at twenty to
Emperor Ezar, I had my military career all sketched out. Ship duty, eh,
and ship captain by thirty, and admiral by fifty, and retirement at
sixty, a twice-twenty-years man. I did allow for being killed, of
course. All very neat. My life began to diverge from the plan the
following day, when I was assigned to ImpSec instead. And diverged
again, when I found myself promoted to chief of ImpSec in the middle of
a war I'd never foreseen, serving a boy emperor who hadn't even existed
a decade earlier. My life has been one long chain of surprises. A year
ago, I could not have even imagined myself today. Or dreamed myself
happy. Of course, Lady Alys . . ." His face softened at the mention of
her name, and he paused, an odd smile playing on his lips. "Lately, I
have come to believe that the principal difference between heaven and
hell is the company you keep there."
Could one
judge a man by his company? Could she judge Miles that way? Ivan was
charming and funny, Lady Alys fine and formidable, Illyan, despite his
sinister history, strangely kind. Miles's clone brother Mark, for all
his bitter bite, seemed a brother in truth. Kareen Koudelka was pure
delight. The Vorbrettens, the rest of the Koudelka clan, Duv Galeni,
Tsipis, Ma Kosti, Pym, even Enrique . . . Miles seemed to collect
friends of wit and distinction and extraordinary ability around himself
as casually and unselfconsciously as a comet trailed its banner of
light.
Looking back, she realized how very few
friends Tien had ever made. He'd despised his coworkers, scorned his
scattered relations. She'd told herself that he hadn't the knack for
socializing, or was just too busy. Once past his school days, Tien had
never made a new good friend. She'd come to share his isolation; alone together was a perfect summation of their marriage.
"I think you are very right, sir."
From
the house, Nikki's voice rose suddenly in volume and pitch, yanking her
maternal ear: "No! No!" Was he defying his uncle over something?
Ekaterin raised her head, listening, and frowned uneasily.
"Um
. . . excuse me." She flashed a brief smile at Illyan. "I think I'd
better go check something out. I'll be right back . . ."
Illyan nodded understanding, and politely pretended to fix his attention on the surrounding garden.
Ekaterin
entered the kitchen, her eyes slow to adjust from the glare outside,
and quietly rounded the corner through the dining room to the parlor.
She stopped in the archway in surprise. The voice she'd heard was not
her uncle's; it was Alexi Vormoncrief's.
Nikki was
sitting scrunched up in Uncle Vorthys's big chair in the corner.
Vormoncrief loomed over him, his face tense, his hands anxiously
crooked.
"Back to these bandages you saw on Lord
Vorkosigan's wrists the day after your father was killed," Vormoncrief
was saying, in an urgent voice. "What kind were they? How big?"
"I dunno." Nikki gave a trapped shrug. "They were just bandages."
"What kind of wounds did they conceal, though?"
"Dunno."
"Well, sharp slashes? Burns, blisters, like from a plasma arc? Can you remember seeing them later?"
Nikki
shrugged again, his face stiff. "I dunno. They were raggedy, all the
way around, I guess. He still has the red marks." His voice was
constricted, on the verge of tears.
An arrested
look crossed Vormoncrief's face. "Hadn't noticed that. He's very
careful to wear long sleeves, isn't he? In high summer, huh. But did he
have any other marks, on his face perhaps? Bruises, scratches, maybe a
black eye?"
"Dunno . . ."
"Are you sure ?"
"Lieutenant
Vormoncrief!" Ekaterin interrupted this sharply. Vormoncrief jerked
upright, and lurched around. Nikki looked up, his lips parting in
relief. "What are you doing ?"
"Ah! Ekaterin, Madame Vorsoisson. I came to see you." He waved vaguely around the book-lined parlor.
"Then why didn't you come out to where I was?"
"I seized the chance to talk to Nikki, and I'm very glad I did."
"Mama," Nikki gulped from his chair-barricade, "he says Lord Vorkosigan killed Da!"
"What? " Ekaterin stared at Vormoncrief, for a moment almost too stunned to breathe.
Vormoncrief gestured helplessly, and gave her an earnest look. "The secret is out. The truth is known."
"What truth? By whom ?"
"It's
being whispered all over town, not that anyone dares—or cares—to do
anything about it. Gossips and cowards, the lot of them. But the
picture's getting plainer. Two men went out into the Komarran
wilderness. One returned, and with some pretty strange injuries,
apparently. Accident with a breath mask , indeed. But I
realized at once that you couldn't have suspected foul play, till
Vorkosigan dropped his guard and proposed to you at his dinner. No
wonder you ran out crying."
Ekaterin opened her mouth. Nightmare memories flashed. Your accusation is physically impossible, Alexi; I know. I found them, out in that wilderness, alive and dead both.
A cascade of security considerations poured through her head. It was a
direct chain of very few links from the details of Tien's death to the
persons and objects that no one dared mention. "It was not like that at
all." That sounded weaker than she'd intended. . . .
"I'll wager Vorkosigan was never questioned under fast-penta. Am I right?"
"He's ex-ImpSec. I doubt he could be."
"How convenient." Vormoncrief grimaced ironically.
"I was questioned under fast-penta."
"They cleared you of complicity, yes! I was sure of it!"
"What
. . . complicity?" The words caught in her throat. The embarrassing
details of the relentless interrogation under the truth drug she'd
endured on Komarr after Tien's death boiled up in her memory.
Vormoncrief was late with his lurid accusation. ImpSec had thought of
that scenario before Tien's body was cold. "Yes, I was asked all the
questions you'd expect a conscientious investigator to ask a close
relative in a mysterious death." And more . "So?"
"Mysterious
death, yes, you suspected something even then, I knew it!" With a wave
of his hand, he overrode her hasty attempt to interject an accidental in place of that ill-chosen mysterious.
"Believe me, I understand your hideous dilemma perfectly. You don't
dare accuse the all-powerful Vorkosigan, the mutie lord." Vormoncrief
scowled at the name. "God knows what retaliation he could inflict on
you. But Ekaterin, I have powerful relatives too! I came to offer
you—and Nikki—my protection. Take my hand—trust me—" he opened his
arms, reaching for her "—and together, I swear we can bring this little
monster to justice!"
Ekaterin sputtered,
momentarily beyond words, and looked around frantically for a weapon.
The only one that suggested itself was the fireplace poker, but whether
to whap it on his skull or jam it up his ass . . . ? Nikki was crying
openly now, thin strained sobs, and Vormoncrief stood between them. She
began to dodge around him; ill-advisedly, Vormoncrief tried to wrap her
lovingly in his arms.
"Ow!" he cried, as the heel
of her hand crunched into his nose, with all the strength of her arm
behind it. It didn't drive his nasal bone up into his brain and kill
him on the spot the way the books said—she hadn't really thought it
would—but at least his nose began to swell and bleed. He grabbed both
her wrists before she could muster aim and power for a second try. He
was forced to hold them tight, and apart, as she struggled against his
grip.
Her sputtering found words at last, shrieked at the top of her voice: "Let go of me, you blithering twit! "
He
stared at her in astonishment. Just as she gathered her balance to find
out if that knee-to-the-groin thing worked any better than that
blow-to-the-nose one, Illyan's voice interrupted from the archway
behind her, deadly dry.
"The lady asked you to unhand her, Lieutenant. She shouldn't have to ask twice. Or . . . once."
Vormoncrief
looked up, and his eyes widened with belated recognition of the former
ImpSec chief. His hands sprang open, his fingers wriggling a little as
if to shake off their guilt. His lips moved on one or two tries at
speech, before his mouth at last made it into motion. "Captain Illyan!
Sir!" His hand began to salute, the realization penetrated that Illyan
wore civvies, and the gesture was converted on the fly to a tender
exploration of his bunged and dripping nose. Vormoncrief stared at the
blood smear on his hand in surprise.
Ekaterin
swerved around him to slide into her uncle's armchair and gather up the
sniffling Nikki, hugging him tight. He was trembling. She buried her
nose in his clean boy-hair, then glared furiously over her shoulder.
"How dare you come in here uninvited and interrogate my son without my
permission! How dare you harass and frighten him like this! How dare
you!"
"A very good question, Lieutenant," said
Illyan. His eyes were hard and cold and not kindly at all. "Would you
care to answer it for both of our curiosities?"
"You see, you see, sir, I, I, I . . ."
"What I
saw," said Illyan, in that same arctic voice, "was that you entered the
home of an Imperial Auditor, uninvited and unannounced, while the
Auditor was not present, and offered physical violence to a member of
his family." A beat, while the dismayed Alexi clutched his nose as if
trying to hide the evidence. "Who is your commanding officer,
Lieutenant Vormoncrief?"
"But she hit—"
Vormoncrief swallowed; he abandoned his nose and came to attention, his
face faintly green. "Colonel Ushakov, sir. Ops."
In
a supremely sinister gesture, Illyan pulled an audiofiler from his
belt, and murmured this information into it, together with Alexi's full
name, the date, time, and location. Illyan returned the audiofiler to
its clip with a tiny snap, loud in the silence.
"Colonel Ushakov will be hearing from General Allegre. You are dismissed, Lieutenant."
Cowed,
Vormoncrief retreated, walking backwards. His hand rose toward Ekaterin
and Nikki in one last, futile gesture. "Ekaterin, please, let me help
you . . ."
"You lie ," she snarled, still gripping Nikki. "You lie vilely . Don't you ever come back here!"
Alexi's
sincere, if daunted, confusion was more infuriating than his anger or
defiance would have been. Did the man not understand a word she'd said?
Still looking stunned, he made it to the entry hall, and let himself
out. She set her teeth, listening to his bootsteps fade down the front
walk.
Illyan remained leaning against the archway, his arms folded, watching her curiously.
"How long were you standing there?" she asked him, when her breath had slowed a bit.
"I
came in on the part about the fast-penta interrogation. All those key
words—ImpSec, complicity . . . Vorkosigan. My apologies for
eavesdropping. Old habits die hard." His smile came back, though it
regained its warmth rather slowly.
"Well . . . thank you for getting rid of him. Military discipline is a wonderful thing."
"Yes.
I wonder how long it will take him to realize I don't command him, or
anyone else? Ah, well. So, just what was the obnoxious Alexi blithering
about?"
Ekaterin shook her head, and turned to Nikki. "Nikki, love, what happened? How long was that man here?"
Nikki
sniffed, but he was no longer trembling as badly. "He came to the door
right after Aunt Vorthys left. He asked me all kinds of questions about
when Lord Vorkosigan and Uncle Vorthys stayed with us on Komarr."
Illyan, his hands in his pockets, strolled nearer. "Can you remember some of them?"
Nikki's
face screwed up. "Was Lord Vorkosigan alone with Mama much—how would I
know? If they were alone, I wouldn't 'a been there! What did I
see Lord Vorkosigan do. Eat dinner, mostly. I told him about the aircar
ride . . . he asked me all about breath masks." He swallowed, and
looked wildly at Ekaterin, his hand clenching on her arm. "He said Lord
Vorkosigan did something to Da's breath mask! Mama, is it true ?"
"No,
Nikki." Her own grip around him tightened in turn. "That wasn't
possible. I found them, and I know." The physical evidence was plain,
but how much could she say to him without violating security? The fact
that Lord Vorkosigan had been chained to a rail by the wrists and
unable to do anything to anyone's breath mask including his own led
immediately to the question of who had chained him there and why. The
fact that there were a myriad of things about that nightmare night
Nikki didn't know led immediately to the question of how much more he
hadn't been told, why Mama, how Mama, what Mama, why, why, why . . .
"They
made it up," she said fiercely. "They made it all up, only because Lord
Vorkosigan asked me at his party to marry him, and I turned him down."
"Huh?" Nikki wriggled around and stared at her in astonishment. "He did ? Wow! But you'd be a Countess! All that money and stuff!" He hesitated. "You said no ? Why?" His brow wrinkled. "Is that when you quit your job too? Why were you so mad at him? What did he lie to you about?" Doubt rose in his eyes; she could feel him tense again. She wanted to scream.
"It
was nothing to do with Da," she said firmly. "This—what Alexi told
you—is just a slander against Lord Vorkosigan."
"What's a slander ?"
"It's
when somebody spreads lies about somebody, lies that damage their
honor." In the Time of Isolation, you could have fought a duel with the
two swords over something like this, if you'd been a man. The rationale
of dueling made sudden sense to her, for the first time in her life.
She was ready to kill someone right now, but for the problem of where
to aim. It's being whispered all over town . . .
"But
. . ." Nikki's face was taut, puzzled. "If Lord Vorkosigan was with Da,
why didn't he help him? In school on Komarr, they taught us how to
share breath masks in an emergency . . ."
She
could watch it in his face, as the questions began to twine. Nikki
needed facts, truth to combat his frightened imaginings. But the State
secrets were not hers to dispense.
Back on Komarr,
she and Miles had agreed between them that if Nikki's curiosity became
too much for Ekaterin to deal with, she would bring him to Lord Auditor
Vorkosigan, to be told from his Imperial authority that security issues
prevented discussing Tien's death until he was older. She had never
imagined that the subject would take this form, that the
Authority would himself be accused of Nikki's father's murder. Their
neat solution suddenly . . . wasn't. Her stomach knotted. I have to talk to Miles.
"Well, now," Illyan murmured. "Here's an ugly little bit of politicking. . . . Remarkably ill-timed."
"Is this the first you've heard of this? How long has this been going around?"
Illyan
frowned. "It's news to me. Lady Alys usually keeps me apprised of all
the interesting conversations circulating in the capital. Last night,
she had to give a reception for Laisa at the Residence, so my
intelligence is a day behind . . . internal evidence suggests this has
to have blown up since Miles's dinner party."
Ekaterin's horrified glance rose to his face. "HasMiles heard about this yet, do you think?"
"Ah . . . perhaps not. Who would tell him?"
"It's
all my fault. If I hadn't gone charging out of Vorkosigan House in a
huff . . ." Ekaterin bottled the remainder of this thought, as sudden
distress thinned Illyan's mouth; yes, he imagined he held a link in
this causal chain too.
"I need to go talk with some people," said Illyan.
"I need to go talk with Miles. I need to go talk with Miles right now ."
A
calculating look flashed across Illyan's face, to be succeeded by his
normal bland politeness. "I happen to have a car and driver waiting.
May I offer you a lift, Madame Vorsoisson?"
But
where to park poor Nikki? Aunt Vorthys wouldn't be back for a couple of
hours. Ekaterin could not have him present for this—oh, what the hell,
it was Vorkosigan House. There were half a dozen people she could send
him off to be with—Ma Kosti, Pym, even Enrique. Eep —she'd forgot, the Count and Countess were home now. All right, five dozen people. After another moment of frenzied hesitation, she said, "Yes ."
She
got shoes on Nikki, left a message for her aunt, locked up, and
followed Illyan to his car. Nikki was pale, and growing quieter and
quieter.
The drive was short. As they turned into
Vorkosigan House's street, Ekaterin realized she didn't even know if
Miles would be there. She should have called him on the comconsole, but
Illyan had been so prompt with his offer. . . . They passed the bare,
baking Barrayaran garden, sloping down from the sidewalk. On the far
side of the desert expanse, a small, lone figure sat on the curving
edge of a raised bed of dirt.
"Wait, stop!"
Illyan
followed her glance, and signaled his driver. Ekaterin had the canopy
popped and was climbing out almost before the vehicle had sighed to the
pavement.
"Is there anything else I can do for
you, Madame Vorsoisson?" Illyan called after her, as she stood aside to
let Nikki exit.
She leaned back toward him to breathe venomously, "Yes. Hang Vormoncrief."
He offered her a sincere salute. "I shall do my humble best, madame."
His
groundcar pulled away as, Nikki in tow, she turned to step over the low
chain blocking foot traffic from the site, and strode down into the
garden.
Soil was a living part of a garden, a
complex ecosystem of microorganisms, but this soil was going to be dead
in the sun and gone in the rains if no one got its proper ground cover
installed . . . Miles, she saw as she drew nearer, was sitting next to
the only plant in this whole blighted expanse, the little skellytum
rootling. It was hard to say which of them looked more desperate and
forlorn. An empty pitcher sat on the wall next to his knee, and he
stared in worry at the rootling and the spreading stain of water on the
soil around it. He glanced up at the sound of their approaching steps.
His lips parted; the most appalling thrilled look passed over his face,
to be suppressed almost instantly and replaced by an expression of wary
courtesy.
"Madame Vorsoisson," he managed. "What are you uh, doing . . . um, welcome. Welcome. Hello, Nikki . . ."
She
couldn't help it; the first words out of her mouth were nothing she'd
rehearsed in the groundcar, but rather, "You haven't been pouring water
over the barrel, have you?"
He glanced at it, and back to her. "Ah . . . shouldn't I?"
"Only around the roots. Didn't you read the instructions?"
He glanced guiltily again at the plant, as if expecting to find a tag he'd overlooked. "What instructions?"
"The
ones I sent you, the appendix—oh, never mind." She pressed her fingers
to her temples, clutching for coherence in her seething brain.
His
sleeves were rolled up in the heat; the ragged red scars ringing his
wrists were plainly visible in the bright sunlight, as were the fine
pale lines of the much older surgical scars running up his arms. Nikki
stared at them in worry. Miles's gaze finally tore itself from her
general hereness , and took in her agitated state.
His voice went flatter. "I gather gardening isn't what you came about."
"No." This was going to be hard—or maybe not. He knows. And he didn't tell me. "Have you heard about this . . . this monstrous accusation going around?"
"Yesterday," he answered bluntly.
"Why didn't you warn me?"
"General
Allegre asked me to wait on ImpSec's security evaluation. If this . . .
ugly rumor has security implications, I am not free to act purely on my
own behalf. If not . . . it's still a difficult business. An
accusation, I could fight. This is something subtler." He glanced
around. "However, since it's now come to you perforce, his request is
moot, and I shall consider myself relieved of it. I think perhaps we'd
better continue this inside."
She contemplated the desolate space, open to the sky and the city. "Yes."
"If
you will?" He gestured toward Vorkosigan House, but made no move to
touch her. Ekaterin took Nikki by the hand, and they accompanied him
silently up the path and around through the guarded front gate.
He
led them up to "his" floor, back to the cheerful sunny room in which
he'd fed her that memorable luncheon. When they reached the Yellow
Parlor, he seated her and Nikki on the delicate primrose sofa and
himself on a straight chair across from them. There were lines of
tension around his mouth she hadn't seen since Komarr. He leaned
forward with his hands clasped between his knees and asked her, "How
and when did it come to you?"
She gave a, to her
ears, barely coherent account of Vormoncrief's intrusion, corroborated
by occasional elaborations from Nikki. Miles listened gravely to
Nikki's stammering recital, attending to him with a serious respect
which seemed to steady the boy despite the horrifying nature of the
subject. Although he did have to suck a smile back off his lips when
Nikki got to a vivid description of how Vormoncrief acquired his bloody
nose—"And he got it all over his uniform, too!" Ekaterin blinked, taken
aback to find herself receiving exactly the same look of pleased
masculine admiration from both parties.
But the moment of enthusiasm passed.
Miles
rubbed his forehead. "If it were up to my judgment, I'd answer several
of Nikki's questions here and now. My judgment is unfortunately
suspect. Conflict of interest doesn't even begin to cover my
position in this." He sighed softly, and leaned back on the hard chair
in an unconvincing simulation of ease. "The first thing I would like to
point out is that at the moment, all the onus is on me. The backsplash
of this sewage appears to have missed you. I'd like to see it stay that
way. If we . . . don't see each other, no one will have pretext to
target you with further slander."
"But that would make you look worse," said Ekaterin. "It would make it look as if I believed Alexi's lies."
"The
alternative would make it look as if we had somehow colluded in Tien's
death. I don't see how to win this one. I do see how to cut the damage
in half."
Ekaterin frowned deeply. And leave you standing there to be pelted with this garbage all alone? After a moment she said, "Your proposed solution is unacceptable. Find another."
His eyes rose searchingly to her face. "As you wish . . ."
"What are you talking about?" Nikki demanded, his brows drawn down in confusion.
"Ah."
Miles touched his lips, and regarded the boy. "The reason, it seems,
that my political opponents have accused me of sabotaging your da's
breath mask, is that I want to court your mother."
Nikki's nose wrinkled, as he worked through this. "Did you really ask her to marry you?"
"Well,
yes. In a pretty clumsy way. I did." Was he actually reddening? He
spared her a quick glance, but she didn't know what he saw in her face.
Or what he made of it. "But now I'm afraid that if she and I continue
to go around together, people will say we must have plotted together
against your da. She's afraid that if we don't continue to go around
together, people will say that proves she thinks I did—I'm sorry if
this distresses you—murder him. It's called, damned if you do, damned
if you don't."
"Damn them all," said Ekaterin harshly. "I don't care what any of those ignorant idiots think, or say, or do. People can go choke on their vile gossip." Her hands clenched in her lap. "I do care what Nikki thinks." Rot Vormoncrief.
Vorkosigan
raised an eyebrow at her. "And you think this version wouldn't come
around to him too, the way the first one did?"
She
looked away from him. Nikki was scrunching up again, glancing
uncertainly from adult to adult. This was not, Ekaterin decided, the
moment to tell him to keep his feet off the good furniture.
"Right,"
Miles breathed. "All right, then." He gave her a ghost of a nod. She
was shaken by a weird inner vision of a knight drawing down his visor
before facing the tilt. He studied Nikki a moment, and moistened his
lips. "So—what do you think of it all so far, Nikki?"
"Dunno." Nikki, so briefly voluble, was drawing in again, not good.
"I
don't mean facts. No one has given you enough facts yet for you to make
much of. Try feelings. Worries. For example, are you afraid of me?"
"Naw,"
Nikki muttered, wrapping his arms around his knees and staring down at
his shoes rubbing on the fine yellow silk upholstery.
"Are you afraid it might be true?"
"It could not be," said Ekaterin fiercely. "It was physically impossible."
Nikki looked up. "But he was in ImpSec, Mama! ImpSec agents can do anything, and make it look like anything!"
"Thank
you for that . . . vote of confidence, Nikki," said Miles gravely. "I
think. In fact, Ekaterin, Nikki's right. I can imagine several
plausible scenarios that could have resulted in the physical evidence
you saw."
"Name one," she said scornfully.
"Most
simply, I might have had an unknown accomplice." Rather horribly, his
fingers made a tiny twisting gesture, as of someone venting a bound
man's oxygen supply. Nikki of course missed both the gesture and the
reference. "It elaborates from there. If I can generate them, so can
others, and I'm sure some won't hesitate to share their bright ideas
with you."
"You foresaw this?" she asked, a little numb.
"Ten years in ImpSec does things to your brain. Some of them aren't very nice."
The
tidal wave of anger that had hurled her here was receding, leaving her
standing on a very bare shore indeed. She had not intended to talk so
frankly in front of Nikki. But Vormoncrief had destroyed any chance of
continuing to protect him by ignorance. Maybe Miles was right. They
were going to have to deal with this. All three of them were going to
have to deal, and go on dealing, ready or not, old enough or not.
"Shuffling
facts only takes you so far anyway. Sooner or later, you come down to
bare trust. Or mistrust." He turned to Nikki, his eyes unreadable.
"Here's the truth. Nikki, I did not murder your father. He went
out-dome with a breath mask with nearly empty reservoirs, which he did
not check, and then got caught outside too long. I made two bad
mistakes that prevented me from being able to save him. I don't feel
very good about that, but I can't fix it now. The only thing I can do
to make up for it is to take care of—" He stopped abruptly, and eyed
Ekaterin with extreme wariness. "To see that his family is taken care
of, and doesn't lack for any need."
She eyed him
back. His family had been Tien's least concern, judging by his
performance while he was alive, or else he would not have left her
destitute, himself secretly dishonored, and Nikki untreated for a
serious genetic disease. Yet Tien's larger failures, time bombs though
they'd been for Nikki's future, had seldom impinged on the young boy.
In a pensive moment during the funeral she had asked Nikki what one of
his happy memories of his da was. He'd remembered Tien taking them for
a wonderful week at the seaside. Ekaterin, recalling that the monorail
tickets and reservations for that holiday had been slipped to her as a
charity by her brother Hugo, had kept silent. Even from the grave, she
thought bitterly, Tien's personal chaos still reached out to disrupt
her grasp for peace. Maybe Vorkosigan's bid to shoulder responsibility
was not a bad thing for Nikki to hear.
Nikki's
lips were tight, and his eyes a little blurry, as he digested Miles's
blunt words. "But," he began, and stalled.
"You
must be starting to think of a lot of questions," Miles said in a tone
of mild encouragement. "What are some of them? Or even just one or two
of them?"
Nikki looked down, then up. "But—but—why
didn't he check his breath mask?" He hesitated, then went on in a rush,
"Why couldn't you share yours? What were your two mistakes? What did
you lie to Mama about that got her so mad? Why couldn't you save him? How did
your wrists get all chewed up?" Nikki took a deep breath, gave Miles an
utterly daunted look, and almost wailed, "Am I supposed to kill you
like Captain Vortalon?"
Miles had been following
this spate with close attention, but at this last he looked taken
aback. "Excuse me. Who?"
Ekaterin, flummoxed,
supplied in an undervoice, "Captain Vortalon is Nikki's favorite
holovid hero. He's a jump pilot who has galactic adventures with Prince
Xav, smuggling arms to the Resistance during the Cetagandan invasion.
There was a whole long sequence about him chasing down some
collaborators who'd ambushed his da—Lord Vortalon—and avenging his
death on them one by one."
"I somehow missed that
one. Must have been off-world. You let him watch all that violence, at
his tender age?" Miles's eyes were suddenly alight.
Ekaterin set her teeth. "It was supposed to be educational, on account of the historical accuracy of the background."
"When
I was Nikki's age, my obsession was Lord Vorthalia the Bold, Legendary
Hero from the Time of Isolation." His reminiscent voice took on a
rather fruity narrator's cadence, delivering this last. "That started
with a holovid too, come to think of it, though before I was done I was
persuading my gran'da to take me to look up original Imperial archives.
Turned out Vorthalia wasn't as legendary as all that, though his real
adventures weren't all so heroic. I think I could still sing all nine
verses of the song that went with—"
"Please don't," she growled.
"Well, it could have been worse. I'm glad you didn't let him watch Hamlet ."
"What's Hamlet?" asked Nikki instantly. He was starting to uncoil a little.
"Another
great revenge drama on the same theme, except this one is an ancient
stage play from Old Earth. Prince Hamlet comes home from college—by the
way, how old was your Captain Vortalon?"
"Old," said Nikki. "Twenty."
"Ah,
well, there you go. Nobody expects you to carry out a really good
revenge till you're at least old enough to shave. You have several
years yet before you have to worry about it."
Ekaterin started to cry Lord Vorkosigan!
in outraged protest to this line of black humor, till she saw that
Nikki looked noticeably relieved. Where was Miles going with this? She
held her tongue, and nearly her breath, and let him run on.
"So
in the play, Prince Hamlet comes home for his father's funeral, to find
that his mother has married his uncle."
Nikki's eyes widened. "She married her brother ?"
"No, no! It's not that racy a play. His other uncle, his da's brother."
"Oh. That's all right, then."
"You'd
think so, but Hamlet gets a tip-off that his old man was murdered by
the uncle. Unfortunately, he can't tell if his informant is telling
truth or lies. So he spends the next five acts blundering around
getting nearly the whole cast killed while he dithers."
"That was stupid," said Nikki scornfully, uncoiling altogether. "Why didn't he just use fast-penta?"
"Hadn't been invented yet, alas. Or it would have been a much shorter play."
"Oh." Nikki frowned thoughtfully at Miles. "Can you use fast-penta? Lieutenant Vormoncrief . . . said you couldn't. And that it was very convenient ." Nikki precisely mimicked Vormoncrief's sneer in these last two words.
"On
myself, you mean? Ah, no. I have a screwy response to it that renders
it unreliable. Which was very handy in my ImpSec days, but isn't so
good right now. In fact, it's damned in convenient. But I
wouldn't be allowed to be publicly questioned and cleared about your
da's death even if it did work, because of certain security issues
involved. Nor privately, in front of you alone, for the same reason."
Nikki was silent for a little, then said abruptly, "Lieutenant Vormoncrief called you the mutie lord ."
"A lot of people do. Not to my face."
"He doesn't know I'm a mutie too. So was my da. Doesn't it make you mad when they call you that?"
"When
I was your age, it bothered me a lot. It doesn't seem very relevant
anymore. Now that there's good gene cleaning available, I wouldn't pass
on any problems to my children even if I were a dozen times more
damaged." His lips twisted, and he carefully didn't look at Ekaterin.
"Assuming I can ever persuade some daring woman to marry me."
"Lieutenant Vormoncrief wouldn't want us . . . wouldn't want Mama if he knew I was a mutie, I bet."
"In that case, I urge you to tell him right away," Vorkosigan shot back, deadpan.
Mirabile , this won a brief, sly grin from Nikki.
Was
this the trick of it? Secrets so dire as to be unspeakable, thoughts so
frightening as to make clear young voices mute, kicked out into the
open with blunt ironic humor. And suddenly the dire didn't loom so
darkly any more, and fear shrank, and anyone could say anything. And
the unbearable seemed a little easier to lift.
"Nikki, the security issues I mentioned make it impossible to tell you everything."
"Yeah, I know." Nikki hunched again. "It's 'cause I'm nine."
"Nine,
nineteen, or ninety wouldn't matter on this one. But I do think it's
possible to tell you a good deal more than you know now. I'd like to
have you talk to a man who does have authority to decide how many
details are proper and safe for you to hear. He also lost a father
under tragic circumstances at an early age, so he's been where you
stand now. If you're willing, I'll set up an appointment."
Who
did he mean? One of the high-ranking ImpSec men, it had to be. But
judging from her own unpleasant brushes with ImpSec on Komarr, Ekaterin
couldn't imagine any of them voluntarily parting with directions to the
Great Square, let alone this.
"All right . . ." said Nikki slowly.
"Good."
A little gleam of relief flickered in Miles's eyes, and faded again.
"In the meanwhile . . . I expect this slander may come round to you
again. Maybe from an adult, maybe from someone your own age who
overhears the adults talking about it. The story will likely get
garbled and changed around in a lot of strange ways. Do you know how
you are going to deal with it?"
Nikki looked briefly fierce. He made a swipe with his fist. "Punch 'em in the nose?"
Ekaterin winced in guilt; Miles caught her cringe.
"I
would hope for a more mature and reasoned response from you,"
Vorkosigan intoned piously to Nikki, one eye on her. Drat the man for
making her laugh at a moment like this! Possibly it had been too long
since anyone had punched him in the nose? Satisfaction twitched his lip at her choke.
He
went on more seriously, "May I suggest instead you simply tell whoever
it may be that the story isn't true, and refuse to discuss it further.
If they persist, tell them they have to talk with your mother, or your
uncle or aunt Vorthys. If they still persist, go get your
mother or uncle or aunt. You don't need me to tell you this is some
pretty ugly stuff, here. No thinking, honorable adult should be
dragging you into it, but unfortunately all that means is that you're
likely to find yourself badgered by unthinking adults."
Nikki
nodded slowly. "Like Lieutenant Vormoncrief." Ekaterin could almost see
the relief afforded Nikki by being presented with this conceptual slot
into which to tuck his late tormentor. United against a common enemy.
"To put it as politely as possible, yes."
Nikki
fell into a digestive silence. After letting him mull a little, Miles
suggested they all repair to the kitchen for a fortifying snack, adding
that the box of new kittens had just been moved to what was becoming
its traditional place next to the stove. The depth of his strategy was
revealed when, after Ma Kosti plied both Nikki and Ekaterin with
food-rewards that would produce positive conditioning in rocks, the
cook took the boy to the other end of the long room, leaving Miles and
Ekaterin an almost-private moment.
Ekaterin,
sitting on the stool next to Miles's, leaned her elbows on the counter
and stared down the kitchen. Over by the stove, Ma Kosti and the
fascinated Nikki were kneeling over the box of furry mewing bundles.
"Who is this man you think Nikki should see?" she asked quietly.
"Let
me make sure first he'll be willing to do what we need, and can make
the time available," Miles answered cautiously. "You and Nikki will go
in together, of course."
"I understand, but . . .
I was thinking, Nikki tends to withdraw around strangers. Make sure
this fellow grasps that just because Nikki goes monosyllabic doesn't
mean he's not desperately curious."
"I'll make sure he understands."
"Does he have much experience with children?"
"Not as far as I know." Miles gave her a rueful smile. "But perhaps he'll be grateful for the practice."
"Under the circumstances, I find that unlikely."
"Under the circumstances, I'm afraid you're right. But I trust his judgment."
The
myriad other questions which lay between them had to wait, as Nikki
came bouncing back with the news that all newborn kittens' eyes were
blue. The near-hysteria which had crumpled his face when they'd first
arrived was erased. This kitchen made a fair barometer of his internal
state; pleasantly distracted by food and pets, he was clearly much
calmer. That he now could be so diverted was telling, Ekaterin judged. I was right to come to Miles. How did Illyan know?
Ekaterin
let Nikki burble on till he ran down, then said, "We should go. My aunt
will be wondering what happened to us." The hasty note she'd penned had
told where they'd gone, but not why; Ekaterin had been far too upset at
the time to even try to include the details. She looked forward without
pleasure to explaining this whole hideous mess to her uncle and aunt,
but at least they knew the truth, and could be counted upon to share
her outrage.
"Pym can drive you," Miles offered immediately.
He made no attempt to trap her here this time, she noted with dark amusement. Not a slow learner, indeed?
Promising
to call her when he'd cleared Nikki's interview, Miles handed them
personally into the rear compartment of the groundcar, and watched them
out the gates. Nikki was quiet on this trip, too, but the silence was
much less fraught now.
After a little, he gave her
an odd, appraising look. "Mama . . . did you turn Lord Vorkosigan down
'cause he's a mutie?"
"No," she replied at once,
and firmly. His brows bent. If he didn't get a more explicit answer, he
would likely make up his own, she realized with an inward sigh. "You
see, when he hired me to make his garden, it wasn't because he wanted a
garden, or thought I was good at the work. He just thought it would
give him a chance to see me a lot."
"Well," said Nikki, "that makes sense. I mean, it did, didn't it?"
She
managed not to glower at him. Her work meant nothing to him—what did?
If you could say anything to anyone . . . "Would you like it, if
somebody promised to help you become a jump pilot, and you worked your
heart out studying, and then it turned out they were tricking you into
doing something else?"
"Oh." The light glimmered, dimly.
"I
was angry because he'd tried to manipulate me, and my situation, in a
way I found invasive and offensive." After a short, reflective pause,
she added helplessly, "It seems to be hisstyle ." Was it a style
she could learn to live with? Or was it a style he could bloody well
learn not to try on her? Live, or learn? Can we have some of both?
"So . . . d'you like him? Or not?"
Like
was surely not an adequate word for this hash of delight and anger and
longing, this profound respect laced with profound irritation, all
floating on a dark pool of old pain. The past and the future, at war in
her head. "I don't know. Some of the time I do, yes, very much."
Another long pause. "Are you in love with him?"
What
Nikki knew of adult love, he'd mostly garnered off the holovid. Part of
her mind readily translated this question as code for, Which way are you going to jump, and what will happen to me?
And yet . . . he could not share or even imagine the complexity of her
romantic hopes and fears, but he certainly knew how such stories were
supposed to Come Out Right.
"I don't know. Some of the time. I think."
He favored her with his Big People Are Crazy look. In all, she could only agree.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Miles had obtained copies of archives from the
Council of Counts covering all the contested succession debates from
the last two centuries. Together with a stack of gleanings from
Vorkosigan House's own document room, they spread themselves over two
tables and a desk in the library. He was deeply engrossed in a
hundred-and-fifty-year-old account of the fourth Count Vorlakial's
family tragedy when Armsman Jankowski appeared at the door from the
anteroom and announced, "Commodore Galeni, m'lord."
Miles
looked up in surprise. "Thank you, Jankowski." The Armsman gave him an
acknowledging nod, and withdrew, closing the double doors discreetly
behind himself.
Galeni trod across the great
library, and regarded the scattering of papers, parchments, and
flimsies with an ex-historian's alert eye. "Cramming, are you?" he
inquired.
"Yes. Now, you had that doctorate in
Barrayaran history. Do any really interesting District succession
squabbles spring to your memory?"
"Lord Midnight the horse," Galeni replied at once. "Who always voted `neigh.' "
"Got
that one already." Miles waved at the pile on the far end of the inlaid
table. "What brings you here, Duv?"
"Official
ImpSec business. Your requested analyst's report, My Lord Auditor,
regarding certain rumors about Madame Vorsoisson's late husband."
Miles
scowled, reminded. "ImpSec is late off the mark. This would have done a
lot more good yesterday. Not a hell of a lot of point to order me
to back off, and then let Ekaterin and Nikki be subjected to that
surprise harassment—in her own home, good God—by that idiot
Vormoncrief."
"Yes. Illyan told Allegre. Allegre told me. I wish I
had someone to tell . . . I was still pulling in informants' reports
and cross-checks as of midnight last night, thank you very much, my
lord. I wasn't able to calculate anything like a decent reliability
score till late yesterday."
"Oh. Oh, no, Allegre
didn't put you on this . . . slander matter personally, did he? Sit,
sit." Miles waved Galeni to a chair, which the Komarran pulled up
around the corner of the table from Miles.
"Of
course he did. I was an eyewitness to your ghastly dinner party, which
seems to have launched the whole thing, and more to the point, I'm
already in the need-to-know pool regarding the Komarr case." Galeni
seated himself with a tired grunt; his eye automatically began to scan
the documents sideways. "There was no way Allegre would add another man
to that pool if he could possibly avoid it."
"Mm, makes sense, I guess. But I'd hardly think you'd have time ."
"I
didn't," said Galeni bitterly. "I've been putting in an extra half
shift after dinner nearly every day since I was promoted to head of
Komarran Affairs. This came out of my sleep cycle. I'm
considering abandoning meals and just hanging a food tube over my desk,
which I could suck on now and then."
"I'd think Delia would put her foot down, after a while."
"Yes, and that's another thing," Galeni added, in an aggravated tone.
Miles
waited a beat, but Duv did not elaborate. Well, and did he really need
to? Miles sighed. "Sorry," he offered.
"Yes, well.
From ImpSec's point of view, I have excellent news. No evidence has yet
surfaced indicating any leak of the classified matters surrounding Tien
Vorsoisson's death. No names, no hints of . . . technical activities,
not even rumors of financial chicanery. There continues to be a
complete and most welcome absence of Komarran conspirators of any
stripe from any of the several scenarios of your murder of Vorsoisson."
"Several
scenarios—! How many versions are circulating—no, don't tell me. It
would just raise my blood pressure to no good purpose." Miles gritted
his teeth. "So, what, am I supposed to have made away with Vorsoisson—a
man twice my size—through some devilish ex-ImpSec trick?"
"Perhaps.
In the one version concocted so far where you were not pictured as
acting alone, the only henchmen posited were vile and corrupt ImpSec
personnel. In your pay."
"This could only have
been imagined by someone who never had to fill out one of Illyan's
arcane expenditure-and/or-income reports," Miles growled.
Galeni shrugged amused agreement.
"And were there—no, let me tell you," Miles said. "There were no leaks traced from the Vorthys's household."
"None," Galeni conceded.
Miles
grumbled a few satisfied swear words under his breath. He knew he
hadn't misestimated Ekaterin. "Do me a personal favor and be sure to
highlight that fact in the copy of this you send up to Allegre, eh?"
Galeni opened his hand in a carefully noncommittal gesture.
Miles
blew out his breath, slowly. No leaks, no treasons: just idle malice
and circumstance. And a touch of theoretical blackmail. Upsetting to
himself, to his parents when it came to them, as it soon must,
upsetting to the Vorthyses, to Nikki, to Ekaterin. They had dared
to upset Ekaterin with this . . . He carefully ignored his simmering
fury. Rage had no place in this. Calculation and implacable action did.
"So what, if anything, is ImpSec planning to do about it all?" Miles asked at last.
"At
present, as little as possible. It's not as though we don't have enough
other tasks on our plate. We will, of course, continue to monitor all
data for any key items that might lead public attention back to where
we don't want it. It's a poor second choice to no attention at all, but
this murder scenario does us one favor. For anyone who refuses to
accept Tien Vorsoisson's death as a mere accident, it presents a
plausible cover story, which entirely accounts for no further
investigation being permitted."
"Oh, entirely," snarled Miles. I see where this is going . He sat back, and folded his arms mulishly. "Does this mean I'm on my own?"
"Ah . . ." said Galeni. He drew it out for a rather long time. Eventually, he ran out of ah and was forced to speak. "Not exactly."
Miles bared his set teeth, and waited for Galeni, who waited for him.
Miles broke first. "Dammit, Duv, am I supposed to just stand here and eat this shit raw?"
"Come
on, Miles, you've done coverups before. I thought you covert ops
fellows lived and breathed this sort of thing."
"Never
in my own sandbox. Never where I had to live in it. My Dendarii
missions were hit and run. We always left the stink far behind."
Galeni's
shrug lacked sympathy. "I must also point out, these are first results.
Just because there are no leaks yet doesn't mean none will be . . .
siphoned out into the open later on."
Miles
exhaled slowly. "All right. Tell Allegre he has his goat. Baaah." He
added after a moment, "But I draw the line at pretending to guilt. It
was a breath mask accident. Period."
Galeni waved a hand in acceptance of this. "ImpSec won't complain."
It was good
, Miles reminded himself, that there was no security rupture in the
Komarr case. But this also killed his faint, unvoiced hope that he
could leave Richars and his cronies to the untender mercies of ImpSec
to be disposed of. "As long as this is all gas, so be it. But you can
let Allegre know, that if it goes to a formal murder charge against me
in the Council . . ." Then what?
Galeni's eyes narrowed. "Do you have reason to think someone will charge you there? Who?"
"Richars Vorrutyer. I have a sort of . . . personal promise from him."
"He can't, though. Not unless he gets a member to lay it for him."
"He can if he beats out Lord Dono and is confirmed Count Vorrutyer." And my colleagues are like to choke on Lord Dono.
"Miles . . . ImpSec can't release the evidence surrounding Vorsoisson's death. Not even to the Council of Counts."
By the look on Galeni's face, Miles read that as Especially not to the Council of Counts. Knowing that erratic body, he sympathized. "Yes. I know."
Galeni said uneasily, "What are you planning to do?"
Miles
had more compelling reasons than the strain on ImpSec's nerves to wish
to sidestep this whole scenario. Two of them, mother and son. If he
worked it right, none of this looming juridical mess need ever touch
Ekaterin and her Nikki. "Nothing more—nor less—than my job. A little
politicking. Barrayaran style."
Galeni eyed him
dubiously. "Well . . . if you really intend to project innocence, you
need to do a more convincing job. You . . . twitch ."
Miles
. . . twitched. "There's guilt and there's guilt. I am not guilty of
willful murder. I am guilty of screwing up. Now, I'm not alone—this one
took a full committee. Headed by that fool Vorsoisson himself. If only
he'd—dammit, every time you step off the downside shuttle into a
Komarran dome they sit you down and make you watch that vid on breath
mask procedures. He'd been living there nearly a year. He'd been told ." He fell silent a moment. "Not that I didn't know better than to go out-dome without informing my contacts."
"As it happens, no one is accusing you of negligence."
Miles's mouth twisted bitterly. "They flatter me, Duv. They flatter me."
"I can't help you with that one," said Galeni. "I have enough unquiet ghosts of my own."
"Check." Miles sighed.
Galeni regarded him for a long moment, then said abruptly, "About your clone."
"Brother."
"Yes, him. Do you know . . . do you understand . . . what the devil does he intend , with respect to Kareen Koudelka?"
"Is this ImpSec asking, or Duv Galeni?"
"Duv
Galeni." Galeni paused for a rather longer time. "After the . . .
ambiguous favor he did me when we first encountered each other on
Earth, I was content to see him survive and escape. I wasn't even too
shocked when I learned he'd popped up here, nor—now I've met your
mother—that your family took him in. I'd even reconciled myself to the
likelihood that we would meet, from time to time." His level voice
cracked a trifle. "I wasn't expecting him to mutate into my
brother-in-law!"
Miles sat back, his brows rising
in partial sympathy. He refrained from doing anything so rude as, say,
cackling. "I would point out, that in an exceedingly weird sense, you
are related already. He's your foster brother. Your father had him
made; by some interpretations of the galactic laws on clones, that
makes him Mark's father too."
"This concept makes
my head spin. Painfully." He stared at Miles in sudden consternation.
"Mark doesn't think of himself as my foster brother, does he?"
"I have not so far directed his attention to that legal wrinkle. But think, Duv, how much easier
it will be if you only have to explain him as your brother-in-law. I
mean, lots of people have embarrassing in-laws; it's one of life's
lotteries. You'll have all their sympathy."
Galeni gave him a look of Very Limited Amusement.
"He'll
be Uncle Mark," Miles pointed out with a slow, unholy smile. "You'll be
Uncle Duv. I suppose, by some loose extension, I'll be Uncle Miles. And
here I never thought I'd be anybody's uncle—an only child and all that."
Come to think of it . . . if Ekaterin ever accepted him, Miles would become an instant uncle, acquiring three
brothers-in-law simultaneously, all with attached wives, and a pack of
nieces and nephews already in place. Not to mention the father-in-law
and the stepmother-in-law. He wondered if any of them would be
embarrassing. Or—a new and unnerving thought—if he was going to be the appalling brother-in-law . . .
"Do you think they'll marry?" asked Galeni seriously.
"I
. . . am not certain what cultural format their bonding will ultimately
take. I am certain you could not pry Mark away from Kareen with a
crowbar. And while Kareen has good reasons to take it slowly, I don't
think any of the Koudelkas know how to betray a trust."
That
won a little eyebrow-flick from Galeni, and the slight mellowing that
any reminder of Delia invariably produced in him.
"I'm afraid you're going to have to resign yourself to Mark as a permanent fixture," Miles concluded.
"Eh,"
said Galeni. It was hard to tell if this sound represented resignation,
or stomach cramp. In any case, he climbed to his feet and took his
leave.
* * *
Mark, entering
the black-and-white tiled entry foyer from the back hallway to the lift
tubes, encountered his mother descending the front staircase.
"Oh,
Mark," Countess Vorkosigan said, in a just-the-man-I-want-to-see voice.
Obediently, he paused and waited for her. She eyed his neat attire, his
favorite black suit modified by what he trusted was an unthreatening
dark green shirt. "Are you on your way out?"
"Shortly.
I was just about to hunt up Pym and ask him to assign me an
Armsman-driver. I have an interview set up with a friend of Lord
Vorsmythe's, a food service fellow who's promised to explain Barrayar's
distribution system to me. He may be a future customer—I thought it
might look well to arrive in the groundcar, all Vorkosiganly."
"Very likely."
Her
further comment was interrupted by two half-grown boys rounding the
corner: Pym's son Arthur, carrying a smelly fiber-tipped stick, and
Jankowski's boy Denys, lugging an optimistically large jar. They
clattered up the stairs past her with a breathless greeting of, "Hello,
milady!"
She wheeled to watch them pass, her
eyebrows rising in amusement. "New recruits for science?" she asked
Mark as they thumped out of sight, giggling.
"For
enterprise. Martya had a flash of genius. She put a bounty on escaped
butter bugs, and set all the Armsmen's spare children to rounding them
up. A mark apiece, and a ten-mark bonus for the queen. Enrique is back
to work splicing genes full-time, the lab is caught up again, and I
can return my attention to financial planning. We're getting bugs back
at the rate of two or three an hour; it should be all over by tomorrow
or the next day. At least, none of the children seem yet to have hit on
the idea of sneaking into the lab and freeing Vorkosigan bugs, to renew
their economic resource. I may devise a lock for that hutch."
The Countess laughed. "Come now, Lord Mark, you insult their honor. These are our Armsmen's offspring."
"I would have thought of that, at their age."
"If
it weren't their liege-lord's bugs, they might have." She smiled, but
her smile faded. "Speaking of insults . . . I wanted to ask you if
you'd heard any of this vile talk going around about Miles and his
Madame Vorsoisson."
"I've been head-down in the
lab for the last several days. Miles doesn't come back there much, for
some reason. What vile talk?"
She narrowed her
eyes, slipped her hand through his arm, and strolled with him toward
the antechamber to the library. "Illyan and Alys took me aside at the
Vorinnis's dinner party last night, and gave me an earful. I'm
extremely glad they got to me first. I was then cornered by two other
people in the course of the evening and given garbled alternate
versions . . . actually, one of them was trolling for confirmation. The
other appeared to hope I'd pass it on to Aral, as he didn't dare repeat
it to his face, the spineless little snipe. It seems rumors have begun
to circulate through the capital that Miles somehow made away with
Ekaterin's late husband while on Komarr."
"Well," said Mark reasonably, "you know more about that than I do. Did he?"
Her eyebrows went up. "Do you care?"
"Not
especially. From everything I've been able to gather—between the lines,
mostly, Ekaterin doesn't talk about him much—Tien Vorsoisson was a
pretty complete waste of food, water, oxygen, and time."
"Has
Miles said anything to you that . . . that leaves you in doubt about
Vorsoisson's death?" she asked, seating herself beside the huge antique
mirror gracing the side wall.
"Well, no," Mark
admitted, taking a chair across from her. "Though I gather he fancies
himself guilty of some carelessness. I think it would have been a much
more interesting romance if he had assassinated the lout for her."
She
sighed, looking bemused. "Sometimes, Mark, despite all your Betan
therapist has done, I'm afraid your Jacksonian upbringing still leaks
out."
He shrugged, unrepentantly. "Sorry."
"I am moved by your insincerity. Just don't repeat those no doubt honest sentiments in front of Nikki."
"I may be Jacksonian, ma'am, but I'm not a complete loss."
She
nodded, evidently reassured. She began to speak again, but was
interrupted by the double doors to the library swinging wide, and Miles
escorting Commodore Duv Galeni out through the anteroom.
Seeing
them, the Commodore paused to give the Countess a civil good-day. The
greeting he gave to Mark was just as civil, but much warier, as though
Mark had lately erupted in a hideous skin disease but Galeni was too
polite to comment on it. Mark returned the greeting in kind.
Galeni did not linger. Miles saw his visitor out the front door, and retraced his steps toward the library.
"Miles!"
said the Countess, rising and following him in with an expression of
sudden concentration. Mark trailed in after them, uncertain if she'd
finished with him or not. She cornered Miles against one of the sofas
flanking the fireplace. "I understand from Pym that your Madame
Vorsoisson was here yesterday, while Aral and I were out. She was here , and I missed her!"
"It
was not exactly a social call," Miles said. Trapped, he gave up and sat
down. "And I could hardly have delayed her departure till you and
Father returned at midnight."
"Reasonable enough,"
his mother said, completing her capture by plunking down on the
matching sofa across from him. Gingerly, Mark seated himself next to
her. "But when are we to be permitted to meet her?"
He
eyed her warily. "Not . . . just now. If you don't mind. Things are in
a rather delicate, um, situation between us just at the moment."
"Delicate," echoed the Countess. "Isn't that a distinct improvement over a life in ruins with vomiting?"
A brief hopeful look glimmered in his eye, but he shook his head. "Just now, it's pretty hard to say."
"I
quite understand. But only because Simon and Alys explained it to us
last night. Might I ask why we had to hear about this nasty slander
from them, and not from you?"
"Oh. Sorry." He
sketched her an apologetic bow. "I only first heard about it day before
yesterday myself. We've been running on separate tracks the past few
days, what with your social whirl."
"You've been
sitting on this for two days? I should have wondered at your sudden
fascination with Chaos Colony during our last two meals together."
"Well, I was interested in hearing about your life on Sergyar. But more critically, I was waiting on the ImpSec analysis."
The
Countess glanced toward the door Commodore Galeni had lately exited.
"Ah," she said, in a tone of enlightenment. "Hence Duv."
"Hence
Duv." Miles nodded. "If there had been a security leak involved, well,
it would have been a whole different matter."
"And there was not?"
"Apparently
not. It seems to be an entirely politically motivated fiction, made up
out of altogether circumstantial . . . circumstances. By a small group
of Conservative Counts and their hangers-on whom I have lately
offended. And vice versa. I've decided to deal with it . . .
politically." His face set in a grim look. "In my own way. In fact,
Dono Vorrutyer and Renй Vorbretten will be here shortly to consult."
"Ah. Allies. Good." Her eyes narrowed in satisfaction.
He shrugged. "That's what politics is about, in part. Or so I take it."
"That's
your department now. I leave you to it, and it to you. But what about
you and your Ekaterin? Are you two going to be able to weather this?"
His expression grew distant. "We three. Don't leave out Nikki. I don't know yet."
"I've
been thinking," said the Countess, watching him closely, "that I should
invite Ekaterin and Kareen to tea. Just us ladies."
A look of alarm, if not outright panic, crossed Miles's face. "I . . . I . . . not yet. Just . . . not yet."
"No?" said the Countess, in a tone of disappointment. "When, then?"
"Her
parents wouldn't let Kareen come, would they?" Mark put in. "I mean . .
. I thought they'd cut the connection." A thirty-year friendship,
destroyed by him. Good work, Mark. What shall we do for an encore? Accidentally burn down Vorkosigan House? At least that would get rid of the butter bug infestation. . . .
"Kou and Drou?" said the Countess. "Well, of course they've been avoiding me! I'm sure they don't dare look me in the eye, after that performance the night we came back."
Mark wasn't sure what to make of that, though Miles snorted wryly.
"I miss her," said Mark, his hand clenching helplessly along his trouser seam. "I need
her. We're supposed to start presenting bug butter products to
potential major accounts in a few days. I was counting on having Kareen
along. I . . . I can't do sales very well. I've tried. The people I
pitch to all seem to end up huddled on the far end of the room with
lots of furniture between us. And Martya is too . . . forthright. But
Kareen is brilliant. She could sell anything to anyone. Especially
Barrayaran men. They sort of lie down and roll over, waving their paws
in the air and wagging their tails—it's just amazing. And, and . . . I
can stay calm, when she's with me, no matter how much other people
irritate me. Oh, I want herback . . ." These last words escaped him in a muffled wail.
Miles
looked at his mother, and at Mark, and shook his head in bemused
exasperation. "You're not making proper use of your Barrayaran
resources, Mark. Here you have, in-house, the most high-powered
potential Baba on the planet, and you haven't even brought her into
play!"
"But . . . what could she do? Under the circumstances?"
"To
Kou and Drou? I hate to think." Miles rubbed his chin. "Butter, meet
laser-beam. Laser-beam, butter. Oops."
His mother smiled, but then crossed her arms and stared thoughtfully around the great library.
"But, ma'am . . ." Mark stammered, "could you? Would you? I didn't presume to ask, after all the things . . . people said to one another that night, but I'm getting desperate." Desperately desperate.
"I
didn't presume to intrude, without a direct invitation," the Countess
told him. She waited, favoring him with a bright, expectant smile.
Mark
thought it over. His mouth shaped the unfamiliar word twice, for
practice, before he licked his lips, took a breath, and launched it
into unsupported air. "Help . . . ? "
"Why, gladly
, Mark!" Her smile sharpened. "I think what we need to do is to sit
down together, the five of us—you and me and Kareen and Kou and
Drou—right here, oh, yes, right here in this library, and talk it all over."
The
vision filled him with inchoate terror, but he grasped his knees and
nodded. "Yes. That is—you'll talk, right?"
"It will be just fine," she assured him.
"But how will you even get them to come here?"
"I think you can confidently leave that to me."
Mark glanced at his brother, who was smiling dryly. He did not look in the least dubious of her statement.
Armsman Pym appeared at the library door. "Sorry to interrupt, m'lady. M'lord, Count Vorbretten is arriving."
"Ah,
good." Miles jumped to his feet, and hastened around to the long table,
where he began gathering up stacks of flimsies, papers, and notes.
"Bring him straight up to my suite, and tell Ma Kosti to start things
rolling."
Mark seized the opportunity. "Oh, Pym,
I'm going to need the car and a driver in about," he glanced at his
chrono, "ten minutes."
"I'll see to it, m'lord."
Pym
set off about his duties; Miles, a determined look on his face and a
pile of documentation under his arm, charged out after his Armsman.
Mark looked doubtfully at the Countess.
"Run
along to your meeting," she told him comfortably. "Stop up to my study
when you get back, and tell me all about it."
She actually sounded interested. "Do you think you might like to invest?" he offered in a burst of optimism.
"We'll
talk about it." She smiled at him with genuine pleasure, surely one of
the few people in the universe to do so. Secretly heartened, he took
himself off in Miles's wake.
* * *
The
ImpSec gate guard passed Ivan through to Vorkosigan House's grounds,
then returned to his kiosk at a beep from his comm link. Ivan had to
step aside while the iron gates swung wide and the gleaming armored
groundcar lumbered out into the street. A brief hope flared in Ivan's
breast that he had missed Miles, but the blurred shape that waved at
him through the half-mirroring of the rear canopy was much too round.
It was Mark who was off somewhere. When Pym ushered him into Miles's
suite, Ivan found his leaner cousin sitting by the bay window with
Count Renй Vorbretten.
"Oh, sorry," said Ivan. "Didn't know you were enga—occupied."
But
it was too late to back out; Miles, turning toward him in surprise,
controlled a wince, sighed, and waved him to enter. "Hello, Ivan. What
brings you here?"
"M'mother sent me with this
note. Why she couldn't just call you on the comconsole I don't know,
but I wasn't going to argue with a chance to escape." Ivan proffered
the heavy envelope, Residence stationery sealed with Lady Alys's
personal crest.
"Escape?" asked Renй, looking
amused. "It sounded to me as though you have one of the cushiest jobs
of any officer in Vorbarr Sultana this season."
"Hah,"
said Ivan darkly. "You want it? It's like working in an office with an
entire boatload of mothers-in-law-to-be with pre-wedding nerves, every
one of them a flaming control freak. I don't know where Mama found
that many Vor dragons. You usually only meet them one at a time,
surrounded by an entire family to terrorize. Having them all in a bunch
teamed up together is just wrong ." He pulled up a chair
between Miles and Renй, and sat down in a pointedly temporary posture.
"My chain of command is built upside down; there are twenty-three
commanders, and only one enlisted. Me. I want to go back to Ops, where
my officers don't preface every insane demand with a menacing trill of,
`Ivan , dear, won't you be a sweetheart and—' What I wouldn't give to hear a nice, deep, straightforward masculine bellow of `Vorpatril! ' . . . From someone other than Countess Vorinnis, that is."
Miles,
grinning, started to open the envelope, but then paused and listened to
the sound of more persons being admitted into the hall by Pym. "Ah," he
said. "Good. Right on time."
To Ivan's dismay, the
visitors Pym next gated into his lord's chambers were Lord Dono and
Byerly Vorrutyer, and Armsman Szabo. All of them greeted Ivan with
repulsive cheer; Lord Dono shook Count Renй's hand with firm
cordiality, and seated himself around the low table from Miles. By
draped himself over the back of Dono's armchair and looked on. Szabo
took a straight chair like Ivan's a little back from the principals and
folded his arms.
"Excuse me," said Miles, and
finished opening the envelope. He pulled out Lady Alys's note, glanced
down it, and smiled. "So, gentlemen. My aunt Alys writes: Dear Miles , the usual elegant courtesies, and then—Tell
your friends Countess Vorsmythe reports Renй may be sure of her
husband's vote. Dono will need a little more push there, but the topic
of his future as a straight Progressive Party voter may bear fruit.
Lady Mary Vorville also reports comfortable tidings to Renй due to some
fondly remembered military connection between his late father and her
father Count Vorville. I had thought it indelicate to lobby Countess
Vorpinski regarding a vote for Lord Dono, but she surprised me by her
quite enthusiastic approval of Lady Donna's transformation. "
Lord Dono muffled a laugh, and Miles paused to raise an inquiring eyebrow.
"Count—then
Lord—Vorpinski and I were quite good friends for a little while," Dono
explained, with a small smirk. "After your time, Ivan; I believe you
were off to Earth for that stint of embassy duty."
To
Ivan's relief, Miles did not ask for further details, but merely nodded
understanding and read on, his voice picking up the precise cadences of
Lady Alys's diction. "A personal visit by Dono to the Countess, to assure her of the reality of the change and the unlikelihood —unlikelihood is underscored—of its reversal in the event of Lord Dono obtaining his Countship, may do some good in that quarter .
"Lady Vortugalov reports not much hope for either Renй or Dono from her father-in-law. However, —hah, get this—she
has shifted the birthdate of the Count's first grandson two days
forward, so it just happens to coincide with the day the votes are
scheduled, and has invited the Count to be present when the replicator
is opened. Lord Vortugalov of course will also be there. Lady
Vortugalov also mentions the Count's voting deputy's wife pines for a
wedding invitation. I shall release one of the spares to Lady VorT. to
pass along at her discretion. The Count's alternate will not vote
against his lord's wishes, but it may chance he will be very late to
that morning's session, or even miss it altogether. This is not a plus
for you, but may prove an unexpected minus for Richars and Sigur. "
Renй and Dono were starting to scribble notes.
"Old
Vorhalas has a deal of personal sympathy for Renй, but will not vote
against Conservative Party interests in the matter. Since Vorhalas's
rigid honesty is matched by his other rigid habits of mind, I'm afraid
Dono's case is quite hopeless there .
"Vortaine
is also hopeless; save your energy. However, I am reliably informed his
lawsuit over his District's boundary waters with his neighbor Count
Vorvolynkin continues unresolved, with undiminished acrimony, to the
mortification of both families. I would not normally consider it
possible to detach Count Vorvolynkin from the Conservatives, but a
whisper in his ear from his daughter-in-law Lady Louisa, upon whom he
dotes, that votes for Dono and Renй would seriously annoy , underscored, his adversary has borne startling results. You may reliably add him to your accounting ."
"Now, that's an unexpected boon," said Renй happily, scribbling harder.
Miles turned the page over and read on, "Simon has described to me the appalling behavior of , well, that's not pertinent, hum de hum, heh, extremely poor taste , underscored, thank you Aunt Alys, here we go, Finally,
my dear Countess Vorinnis has assured me that the vote of Vorinnis's
District may also be counted upon for both your friends. Your Loving
Aunt Alys.
"P.S. There is no excuse for
this to be done in a scrambling way at the last minute. This Office
wishes the prompt settlement of the confusion, so that invitations may
be issued to the proper persons in a punctual and graceful manner. In
the interest of a timely resolution to these matters, feel free to set
Ivan to any little task upon which you may find him useful ."
"What?"
said Ivan. "You made that up! Let me see . . ." With an unpleasant
smirk, Miles tilted the paper toward Ivan, who leaned over his shoulder
to read the postscript. It was his mother's impeccable handwriting, all
right. Damn.
"Richars Vorrutyer sat right there,"
said Miles, pointing to Renй's chair, "and informed me that Lady Alys
held no vote in Council. The fact that she has spent more years in the
Vorbarr Sultana political scene than all of us here put together seemed
to escape him. Too bad." His smile broadened.
He
turned to look half over his shoulder as Pym re-entered the sitting
room trundling a tea cart. "Ah. May I offer you gentlemen some
refreshments?"
Ivan perked up, but to his
disappointment, the tea cart held tea. Well, and coffee, and a tray of
Ma Kosti delectables resembling a decorative food-mosaic. "Wine?" he
suggested hopefully to his cousin, as Pym began to pour. "Beer, even?"
"At this hour?" said Renй.
"For me, it's been a long day already," Ivan assured him. "Really."
Pym handed him a cup of coffee. "This will buck you up, m'lord."
Ivan took it reluctantly.
"When
my grandfather held political conferences in these chambers, I could
always tell if he was scheming with allies, or negotiating with
adversaries," Miles informed them all. "When he was working with
friends, he served coffee and tea and the like, and everyone was
expected to stay on his toes. When he was working over the other sort,
there was always a startling abundance of alcoholic beverages of every
description. He always began with the good stuff, too. Later in the
session the quality would drop, but by that time his visitors were in
no shape to discriminate. I always snuck in when his man brought the
wine cart, because if I stayed quiet enough, people were less likely to
notice me and run me out."
Ivan pulled his
straight chair closer to the tray of snacks. By took a chair equally
strategically positioned on the other side of the cart. The other
guests accepted cups from Pym and sipped. Miles smoothed a
hand-scribbled agenda out on his knee.
"Item the
first," he began. "Renй, Dono, has the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's
Circle set the time and order in which the votes on your two suits go
down?"
"Back to back," replied Renй. "Mine is
first. I confess, I was grateful to know I'd be getting it over with as
soon as possible."
"That's perfect, but not for
the reason you think," Miles replied. "Renй, when your suit is called,
you should yield the Circle to Lord Dono. Who, when his vote is over,
should yield it back to you. You see why, of course?"
"Oh. Yes," said Renй. "Sorry, Miles, I wasn't thinking."
"Not . . . entirely," said Lord Dono.
Miles
ticked the alternatives off on his fingers. "If you are made Count
Vorrutyer, Dono, you may then immediately turn around and cast the vote
of the Vorrutyer's District for Renй, thus increasing his vote bag by
one. But if Renй goes first, the seat of the Vorrutyer's District will
still be empty and will only cast a blank tally. And if Renй
subsequently loses—by, let us say, one vote—you would also lose the
Vorbretten vote on your round."
"Ah," said Dono,
in a tone of enlightenment. "And you expect our opponents will also be
making this calculation? Hence the value of the last-minute switch."
"Just so," said Miles.
"Will they anticipate the alteration?" asked Dono anxiously.
"They are not, as far as I know, quite aware of your alliance," By replied, with a slightly mocking semibow.
Ivan
frowned at him. "And how long till they are? How do we know you won't
just pipeline everything you see here to Richars?"
"He won't," said Dono.
"Yeah? You may be sure which side By's on, but I'm not."
By smirked. "Let us hope Richars shares your confusion."
Ivan
shook his head, and snabbled a flaky shrimp puff which seemed to melt
in his mouth, and chased it with coffee.
Miles
reached under his chair and pulled out a stack of large transparent
flimsies. He peeled off the top two, and handed one each to Dono and
Renй across the low table. "I've always wanted to try this," he said
happily. "I pulled these out of the attic last night. They were one of
my grandfather's old tactical aids; I believe he had the trick from his
father. I suppose I could devise a comconsole program to do the same
thing. They're seating plans of the Council chamber."
Lord
Dono held one up to the light. Two rows of blank squares arced in a
semicircle across the page. Dono said, "The seats aren't labeled."
"If
you need to use this, you're supposed to know," Miles explained. He
thumbed off an extra and handed it across. "Take it home, fill it out,
and memorize it, eh?"
"Excellent," said Dono.
"Theory
is, you use 'em to compare two related close votes. Color code each
District's desk—say, red for no, green for yes, blank for unknown or
undecided—and put one atop the other." Miles dropped a handful of
bright flow pens onto the table. "Where you end up with two reds or two
greens, ignore that Count. You've either no need, or no leverage. Where
you have blanks, a blank and a color, or a red and a green, look to
those men as the ones to concentrate your lobbying on."
"Ah,"
said Renй, taking up two pens, leaning over the table, and starting to
color. "How elegantly simple. I always tried to do this in my head."
"Once you start talking maybe three or five related votes, times sixty men, nobody's head can hold it all."
Dono,
lips pursed thoughtfully, filled out some dozen or so squares, then
moved around next to Renй to crib the rest of the names versus
locations. Renй, Ivan noticed, colored very meticulously, neatly
filling each square. Dono scribbled bold, quick splashes. When they'd
finished, they laid the two flimsies a little askew atop one another.
"My word," said Dono. "They do just jump out at you, don't they?"
Their
voices fell to murmurs, as they began to develop their list of men to
go tag-team. Ivan brushed shrimp puff crumbs off his uniform trousers.
Byerly bestirred himself to gently suggest one or two slight
corrections to the distribution of marks and blanks, based upon
impressions he'd, oh quite casually to be sure, garnered during his
sojourns in Richars's company.
Ivan craned his
neck, counting up greens and double-greens. "You're not there yet," he
said. "Regardless of how few votes Richars and Sigur obtain, no matter
how many of their supporters get diverted that day, you each have to
have a positive majority of thirty-one votes, or you don't get your
Districts."
"We're working on it, Ivan," said Miles.
From
his sparkling eye and dangerously cheerful expression, Ivan recognized
his cousin in full forward momentum mode. Miles was reveling in this.
Ivan wondered if Illyan and Gregor would ever rue the day they'd
dragged him off his beloved galactic covert ops and stuck him home.
Scratch that—how soon they would rue the day.
To
Ivan's dismay, his cousin's thumb descended forcefully on a pair of
blank squares Ivan had hoped he would overlook.
"Count Vorpatril," said Miles. "Ah, ha." He smiled up at Ivan.
"Why
are you looking at me?" asked Ivan. "It's not as though Falco Vorpatril
and I are drinking buddies. In fact, the last time I saw the old man he
told me I was a hopeless floater, and the despair of my mother,
himself, and all other geezer-class Vorpatrils. Well, he didn't say geezer-class , he said right-thinking . Comes to the same thing."
"Oh,
Falco is tolerably amused by you," Miles ruthlessly contradicted Ivan's
personal experience. "More to the point, you'll have no trouble getting
Dono in to see him. And while you're there, you can both put in good
words for Renй."
I knew it would come to this, sooner or later.
"I'd have had to swallow chaff enough if I'd presented Lady Donna to
him as a fiancйe. He's never had the time of day for Vorrutyers
generally. Presenting Lord Dono to him as a future colleague . . ."
Ivan shuddered, and stared at the bearded man, who stared back with a
peculiar lift to his lip.
"Fiancйe, Ivan?" inquired Dono. "I didn't know you cared."
"Well, and I've missed my chance now, haven't I?" Ivan said grumpily.
"Yes,
now and any time these past five years while I was cooling my heels
down in the District. I was there. Where were you?" Dono dismissed
Ivan's plaint with a jerk of his chin; the tiny flash of bitterness in
his brown eyes made Ivan squirm inside. Dono saw his discomfort, and
smiled slowly, and rather evilly. "Indeed, Ivan, clearly this entire
episode is all your fault , for being so slow off the mark."
Ivan flinched. Dammit, that woman—man—person, knows me too bloody well . . .
"Anyway,"
Dono went on, "since the choice is between Richars and me, Falco's
stuck with a Vorrutyer whatever the case. The only question is which
one."
"And I'm sure you can point out all the disadvantages of Richars," Miles interposed smoothly.
"Somebody
else can. Not me," said Ivan. "Serving officers are not supposed to
involve themselves with party politics anyway, so there." He folded his
arms and stood, or at any rate, sat, precariously on his dignity.
Miles
tapped Ivan's mother's letter. "But you have a lawful order from your
assigned superior. In writing, no less."
"Miles,
if you don't burn that damned letter after this meeting, you're out of
your mind! It's so hot I'm surprised it hasn't burst into flame all on
its own!" Hand-written, hand-delivered, no copy electronic or otherwise
anywhere—the destroy-after-reading directive was inherent.
Miles's teeth bared in a small smile. "Teaching me my business, Ivan?"
Ivan
glowered. "I flat refuse to go a step farther in this. I told Dono that
taking him to your dinner party was the last favor I'd do for him, and
I'm standing on my word."
Miles eyed him. Ivan
shifted uneasily. He hoped Miles wouldn't think to call the Residence
for a reiteration. Standing up to his mother seemed safer in
absentia than in person. He fixed a surly look on his face, hunkered in
his chair, and waited—somewhat curiously—for whatever creative
blackmail or bribery or strong-arm tactic Miles would next evolve to
twist him to his will. Escorting Dono to Falco Vorpatril was going to
be so damned embarrassing. He was planning just how to present
himself to Falco as a thoroughly disinterested bystander, when Miles
said, "Very well. Moving right along—"
"I said no!" Ivan cried desperately.
Miles
glanced up at him in faint surprise. "I heard you. Very well: you're
off the hook. I shall ask nothing further of you. You can relax."
Ivan sat back in profound relief.
Not, he assured himself, profound disappointment. And most certainly not profound alarm. But . . . but . . . but . . . the obnoxious little git needs me, to pull his nuts out of the fire . . .
"Moving right along now," Miles continued, "we come to the subject of dirty tricks."
Ivan stared at him in horror. Ten years as Illyan's top agent in ImpSec coverts ops . . . "Don't do it, Miles!"
"Don't do what?" Miles inquired mildly.
"Whatever you're thinking of. Just don't. I don't want anything to do with it."
"What I was about to say," said Miles, giving him an extremely dry look, "was that we
, being on the side of truth and justice, need not stoop to such
chicanery as, say, bribery, assassination or milder forms of physical
diversion, or—heh!—blackmail. Besides, those sorts of things tend to .
. . backfire." His eye glinted. "We do need to keep a sharp lookout for
any such moves on the part of our adversaries. Beginning with the
obvious—put everyone's full duty roster of Armsmen on high-alert
status, make sure your vehicles are guarded from tampering and
that you have alternate modes and routes for reaching Vorhartung Castle
the morning of the vote. Also, detach whatever trusted and resourceful
men you can spare to be certain that nothing untoward happens to impede
the arrival of your supporters."
"If we're not
stooping, what do you call that shell game with the Vortugalovs and the
uterine replicator?" Ivan demanded indignantly.
"A piece of wholly unexpected good fortune. None of us here had anything to do with it," Miles replied tranquilly.
"So it's not a dirty trick if it's untraceable?"
"Correct, Ivan. You learn fast. Grandfather would have been . . . surprised."
Lord
Dono looked very thoughtful at this, leaning back and gently stroking
his beard. His faint smile gave Ivan chills.
"Byerly."
Miles looked across to the other Vorrutyer, who was nibbling gently on
a canapй and either listening or dozing, depending on what those
half-closed eyes signified. By opened his eyes fully, and smiled. Miles
went on, "Have you overheard anything we ought to know on this last
head from Richars or the Vormoncrief party?"
"So
far, they appear to have limited themselves to ordinary canvassing. I
believe they have not yet realized you're closing on them."
Renй
Vorbretten regarded By doubtfully. "Are we? Not by my tally. And when
and if they do realize—and I'll bet Boriz Vormoncrief will catch on to
it eventually—how d'you think they'll jump?"
By
held out his hand, and tilted it back and forth in a balancing gesture.
"Count Vormoncrief is a staid old stick. However things fall out, he'll
live to vote another day. And another, and another. He's far from
indifferent to Sigur's fate, but I don't think he'll cross the line for
him. Richars . . . well, this vote is everything to Richars, now, isn't
it? He started out in a fury at being forced to exert himself for it at
all. Richars is a loose cannon, getting looser." This image did not
appear to disturb By; in fact, he seemed to draw some private pleasure
from it.
"Well, keep us informed if anything changes in that quarter," said Miles.
Byerly made a little salute of spreading his hand over his heart. "I live to serve."
Miles
raised his eyes and gave By a penetrating look; Ivan wondered if this
sardonic cooption of the old ImpSec tag-line perhaps did not sit too
well with one who'd laid down so much blood and bone in Imperial
service. He cringed in anticipation of the exchange if Miles sought to
censure By for this minor witticism, but to Ivan's relief Miles let it
pass. After a few more minutes spent apportioning target Counts, the
meeting broke up.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Ekaterin waited on the sidewalk, holding Nikki's
hand, while Uncle Vorthys hugged his wife good-bye and his chauffeur
loaded his valise into the back of his groundcar. Uncle Vorthys would
be going straight from this upcoming morning meeting to the shuttleport
and an Imperial fast courier to Komarr, there to deal with what he'd
described to Ekaterin as a few technical matters . The trip was
the culmination, she supposed, of the long hours he'd been spending
lately closeted at the Imperial Science Institute; in any case, it
hadn't seemed to take the Professora by surprise.
Ekaterin
reflected on Miles's penchant for understatement. She'd felt ready to
faint, last night, when Uncle Vorthys had sat her and Nikki down and
informed them who Miles's "man with authority" was, the fellow
he thought could talk with understanding to Nikki because he too had
lost a father young. Emperor-to-be Gregor had been not yet five years
old when the gallant Crown Prince Serg had been blown to bits in
Escobar orbit during the retreat from that ill-advised military
adventure. In all, she was glad no one had told her till the audience
was confirmed, or she would have worked herself into an even worse
state of nerves. She was uncomfortably aware that her hand gripping
Nikki's was a little too moist, a little too chill. He would take his
cue from the adults; she must appear calm, for his sake.
They
all piled into the rear compartment at last, waved to the Professora,
and pulled away. Her eye was becoming more educated, Ekaterin decided.
The first time she'd ridden in the courtesy car that the Imperium
provided her uncle on permanent loan, she hadn't known to interpret its
odd smooth handling as a cue to its level of armoring, nor the
attentive young driver as ImpSec to the bone. For all her uncle's
deceptive failure to deck himself out in high Vor mode, he moved in the
same rarefied circles Miles inhabited with equal ease—Miles because
he'd lived there all his life, her uncle because his engineer's eye
gauged men by other criteria.
Uncle Vorthys smiled
fondly down at Nikki, and patted him on the hand. "Don't look so
scared, Nikki," he rumbled comfortably. "Gregor is a good fellow.
You'll be fine, and we'll be with you."
Nikki
nodded dubiously. It was his black suit that made him look so pale,
Ekaterin told herself. His only really good suit; he'd last worn it at
his father's funeral, a piece of unpleasant irony Ekaterin schooled
herself to ignore. She'd drawn the line at donning her own funeral
dress. Her everyday black-and-gray outfit was getting a trifle shabby,
but it would have to do. At least it was clean and pressed. Her hair
was pulled back with neat severity, braided into a knot at the back of
her neck. She touched the lump of the little Barrayar pendant, hidden
beneath her high-necked black blouse, for secret reassurance.
"Don't you look so scared either," Uncle Vorthys added to her.
She smiled wanly.
It
was a short drive from the University district to the Imperial
Residence. The guards scanned them and passed them smoothly through the
high iron gates. The Residence was a vast stone building several times
the size of Vorkosigan House, four stories high and built, over a
couple of centuries and radical changes of architectural styles, in the
form of a somewhat irregular hollow square. They drew up under a
secondary portico on the east end.
Some sort of
high household officer in Vorbarra livery met them, and guided them
down two very long and echoing corridors to the north wing. Nikki and
Ekaterin both stared around, Nikki openly, Ekaterin covertly. Uncle
Vorthys seemed indifferent to the museum-quality dйcor; he'd trod this
corridor dozens of times to deliver his personal reports to the ruler
of three worlds. Miles had lived here till he was six, he'd said. Had
he been oppressed by the somber weight of this history, or had he
regarded it all as his personal play set? One guess.
The
liveried man ushered them into a sleekly-appointed office the size of
most of one floor of the Professor's house. On the near end, a
half-familiar figure leaned against a huge comconsole desk, his arms
folded. Emperor Gregor Vorbarra was grave, lean, dark, good-looking in
a narrow-faced, cerebral fashion. The holovid did not flatter him,
Ekaterin decided instantly. He wore a dark blue suit, with only the
barest hint of military decoration in the thin side-piping on the
trousers and the high-necked tunic. Miles stood across from him dressed
in his usual impeccable gray, rendered somewhat less impeccable by his
feet-apart posture and his hands stuffed in his trouser pockets. He
broke off in midsentence; his eyes rose anxiously to Ekaterin's face as
she entered, and his lips parted. He gave his fellow Auditor a jerky
little encouraging nod.
The Professor did not need
the cue. "Sire, may I present my niece, Madame Ekaterin Vorsoisson, and
her son, Nikolai Vorsoisson."
Ekaterin was spared
an awkward attempt at a curtsey when Gregor stepped forward, took her
hand, and shook it firmly, as though she were one of the equals he was
first among. "Madame, I am honored." He turned to Nikki, and shook his
hand in turn. "Welcome, Nikki. I'm sorry our first meeting should be
occasioned by such a difficult matter, but I trust it will be followed
by many happier ones." His tone was neither stiff nor patronizing, but
perfectly straightforward. Nikki managed an adult handshake, and only
goggled a little.
Ekaterin had met a few powerful
men before; they had mostly looked through her, or past her, or at her
with the sort of vague aesthetic appreciation she'd bestowed on the
knickknacks in the corridor outside. Gregor looked her directly in the
eye as if he saw all the way through to the back of her skull. It was
at once unnervingly uncomfortable and strangely heartening. He gestured
them all toward a square arrangement of leather-covered couches and
armchairs at the far end of the room, and said softly, "Won't you
please be seated?"
The tall windows overlooked a
garden of descending terraces, brilliant with full summer growth.
Ekaterin sank down with her back to it, Nikki beside her; the cool
northern light fell on their Imperial host's face, as he took an
armchair opposite them. Uncle Vorthys sat between; Miles pulled up a
straight chair and sat a little apart from them all. He appeared arms
crossed and at his ease. She wasn't quite sure how she came to read him
as tense and nervous and miserable. And masked. A glass mask . . .
Gregor
leaned forward. "Lord Vorkosigan asked me to meet with you, Nikki,
because of the unpleasant rumors which have sprung up surrounding your
father's death. Under the circumstances, your mother and your
great-uncle agreed it was needful."
"Mind you,"
Uncle Vorthys put in, "I wouldn't have chosen to drag the poor little
fellow further into it if it weren't for those gabbling fools."
Gregor
nodded understanding. "Before I begin, some caveats—words of warning.
You may not be aware of it, Nikki, but in your uncle's household you
have been living under a certain degree of security monitoring. At his
request, it is usually as limited and unobtrusive as possible. It's
only gone to a higher and more visible level twice in the last three
years, during some unusually difficult cases of his."
"Aunt Vorthys showed us the outside vid pickups," Nikki offered tentatively.
"Those
are part of it," Uncle Vorthys said. The least part, according to the
thorough briefing a polite ImpSec officer in plainclothes had given
Ekaterin the day after she and Nikki had moved in.
"All
the comconsoles are also either secured or monitored," Gregor
elaborated. "Both his vehicles are kept in guarded locations. Any
unauthorized intruder should bring down an ImpSec response in under two
minutes."
Nikki's eyes widened.
"One wonders how Vormoncrief got in," Ekaterin couldn't help darkly muttering.
Gregor
smiled apologetically. "Your uncle doesn't choose to have ImpSec shake
down his every casual visitor. And Vormoncrief was on the Known list
due to his previous visits." He looked again at Nikki. "But if we
continue this conversation today, you will perforce step over an
invisible line, from a lower level of security monitoring to a rather
higher one. While you live in your uncle's household, or if . . . you
should ever go to live in Lord Vorkosigan's household, you wouldn't
notice the difference. But any extensive travel on Barrayar will have
to be cleared with a certain security officer, and your potential
off-planet travel restricted. The list of schools you may attend will
become suddenly much shorter, more exclusive, and, I'm sorry, more
expensive. On the bright side, you won't have to worry much about
encounters with casual criminals. On the dark side, any," he spared a
nod for Ekaterin, "hypothetical kidnappers who did get through would have to be assumed to be highly professional and extremely dangerous."
Ekaterin caught her breath. "Miles didn't mention that part."
"I
daresay Miles didn't even think about it. He's lived under exactly this
sort of security screen most of his life. Does a fish think about
water?"
Ekaterin darted a glance at Miles. He had
a very odd look on his face, as though he'd just bounced off a force
wall he hadn't known was there.
"Off-planet
travel." Nikki seized on the one item in this intimidating list of
importance to him. "But . . . I want to be a jump pilot."
"By
the time you are old enough to study for a jump pilot, I expect the
situation will have changed," said Gregor. "This applies mainly to the
next few years. Do you still want to go on?"
He hadn't asked her. He'd asked Nikki. She held her breath, resisting the urge to prompt him.
Nikki licked his lips. "Yes," he said. "I want to know."
"Second
warning," said Gregor. "You will not walk out of here with fewer
questions than you have now. You will just trade one set for another.
Everything I tell you will be true, but it will not be complete. And
when I come to the end, you will be at the absolute limit of what you
may presently know, both for your own safety and that of the Imperium.
Do you still want to go on?"
Nikki nodded dumbly. He was transfixed by this intense man. So was Ekaterin.
"Third
and last. Our Vor duties come upon us at a too-early age, sometimes.
What I am about to tell you will impose a burden of silence upon you
that would be hard for an adult to bear." He glanced at Miles and
Ekaterin, and at Uncle Vorthys. "Though you will have your mother and
aunt and uncle to share it with. But for what may be the first time,
you must give your name's word in all seriousness. Can you?"
"Yes," Nikki whispered.
"Say it."
"I swear by my word as Vorsoisson . . ." Nikki hesitated, searching Gregor's face anxiously.
"To hold this conversation in confidence."
"To hold this conversation in confidence."
"Very
well." Gregor sat back, apparently fully satisfied. "I'm going to make
this as plain as possible. When Lord Vorkosigan went out-dome with your
father that night to the experiment station, they surprised some
thieves. And vice versa. Both your father and Lord Vorkosigan were hit
with stunner fire. The thieves fled, leaving both men chained by the
wrists to a railing on the outside of the station. Neither of them were
strong enough to break the chains, though both tried."
Nikki
sneaked a look at Miles, half the size of Tien, little bigger than
Nikki himself. Ekaterin thought she could see the wheels turning in his
head. If his father, so much bigger and stronger, had been unable to
free himself, could Miles be blamed for likewise failing?
"The
thieves did not mean for your father to die. They didn't know his
breath-mask reservoirs were low. Nobody did. That was confirmed by
fast-penta interrogation later. The technical name for this sort of
accidental killing is not murder, but manslaughter, by the way."
Nikki
was pale, but not yet on the verge of tears. He ventured, "And Lord
Vorkosigan . . . couldn't share his mask because he was tied up . . . ?"
"We
were about a meter apart," said Miles in a flat tone. "Neither of us
could reach the other." He spread his hands a certain distance out to
the sides. At the motion, his sleeves pulled back from his wrists; the
ropy pink scars where the chains had cut to the bone edged into view.
Could Nikki see that he'd nearly ripped his hands off, trying, Ekaterin
wondered bleakly? Self-consciously, Miles pulled his cuffs back down,
and put his hands on his knees.
"Now for the hard
part," said Gregor, gathering Nikki back in by eye. It had to feel to
Nikki as though they were the only two people in the universe.
He's going to go on? No—no, stop there . . . She wasn't sure what apprehension showed in her face, but Gregor spared it an acknowledging nod.
"This is the part your mother would never tell you. The reason
your da took Lord Vorkosigan out to the station was because your da had
let himself be bribed by the thieves. But he had changed his mind, and
wanted Lord Vorkosigan to declare him an Imperial Witness. The thieves
were angry at this betrayal. They chained him to the rail in that cruel
way to punish his attempt to retrieve his honor. They left a data disc
with documentation of his involvement taped to his back for his
rescuers to find, to be certain of disgracing him, and then called your
mama to come get him. But—not knowing about the low reservoirs—they
called her too late."
Now Nikki was looking stunned and small. Oh, poor son. I would not have tarnished Tien's honor in your eyes; surely in your eyes is where all our honor is kept. . . .
"Due
to further facts about the thieves that no one can discuss with you,
all of this is a State secret. As far as the rest of the world knows,
your da and Lord Vorkosigan went out alone, met no one, became
separated while on foot in the dark, and Lord Vorkosigan found your da
too late. If anyone thinks Lord Vorkosigan had something to do with
your da's death, we are not going to argue with them. You may state
that it's not true and that you don't wish to discuss it. But don't let
yourself be drawn into disputes."
"But . . ." said Nikki, "but that's not fair!"
"It's
hard," said Gregor, "but it's necessary. Fair has nothing to do with
it. To spare you the hardest part, your mama and uncle and Lord
Vorkosigan told you the cover story, and not the real one. I can't say
they were wrong to do so."
His eye and Miles's
caught each other in a steady gaze; Miles's eyebrows inched up in a
quizzical look, to which Gregor returned a tiny ironic nod. The
Emperor's lips thinned in something that was not quite a smile.
"All
the thieves are in Imperial custody, in a top-security prison. None of
them will be leaving soon. All the justice that could be done, has been
done; there's nothing left to finish there. If your father had lived,
he would be in prison now too. Death wipes out all debts of honor. In
my eyes, he has redeemed his crime and his name. He cannot do more."
It
was all much, much tougher than anything Ekaterin had pictured, had
dared to imagine Gregor or anyone forcing Nikki to confront. Uncle
Vorthys looked very grim, and even Miles looked daunted.
No: this was
the softened version. Tien had not been trying to retrieve his honor;
he'd merely learned that his crime had been discovered and was
scrambling to evade the consequences. But if Nikki were to cry out, I don't care about honor! I want my da back! could she say he was wrong? A little of that cry flickered in his eyes, she imagined.
Nikki looked across at Miles. "What were your two mistakes?"
He
replied steadily, with what effort Ekaterin could not guess, "First, I
failed to inform my security backup when I left the dome. When Tien
took me out to the station we were both anticipating a cooperative
confession, not a hostile confrontation. Then, when we surprised the .
. . thieves, I was a second too slow drawing my own stunner. They fired
first. A diplomatic hesitation. A second's delay. The greatest regrets
are the tiniest."
"I want to see your wrists."
Miles pushed back his cuffs, and held out his hands, palm down and then palm up, for Nikki's close inspection.
Nikki's brow wrinkled. "Was your breath mask running out too?"
"No. Mine was fine. I'd checked it when I'd put it on."
"Oh." Nikki sat back, looking extremely subdued and pensive.
Everyone waited. After a minute, Gregor asked gently, "Do you have any more questions at this time?"
Mutely, Nikki shook his head.
Frowning
thoughtfully, Gregor glanced at his chrono and rose, with a hand-down
gesture that kept everyone else from popping to their feet. He strode
to his desk, rummaged in a drawer, and returned to his seat. Leaning
across the table he held out a code-card to Nikki. "Here, Nikki. This
is for you to keep. Don't lose it."
The card had no markings at all. Nikki turned it over curiously, and looked his inquiry at Gregor.
"This
card will code you in to my personal comconsole channel. A very few
friends and relatives of mine have this access. When you put it in the
read-slot of your comconsole, a man will appear and identify you and,
if I am available, pass you through to the comconsole nearest to me.
You don't have to tell him anything about your business. If you think
of more questions later—as you may, I gave you a lot to absorb in a
very short time—or if you simply need someone to talk to about this
matter, you may use it to call me."
"Oh," said Nikki. Gingerly, after turning it over again, he tucked the card into his tunic's breast pocket.
By
the slight easing of Gregor's posture, and of Uncle Vorthys's, Ekaterin
concluded the audience was over. She shifted, preparing to catch the
cue to rise, but then Miles lifted a hand—did he always seize the last
word?
"Gregor—while I appreciate your gesture of confidence in refusing my resignation—"
Uncle
Vorthys's brows shot up. "Surely you didn't offer to resign your
Auditorship over this miserable gibble-gabble, Miles!"
Miles
shrugged. "I thought it was traditional for an Imperial Auditor not
only to be honest, but to appear so. Moral authority and all that."
"Not
always," said Gregor mildly. "I inherited a couple of damned shifty old
sticks from my grandfather Ezar. And for all that he's called Dorca the
Just, I believe my great-grandfather's main criterion for his Auditors
was their ability to convincingly terrorize a pretty tough crew of
liegemen. Can you imagine the nerve it would have taken one of Dorca's
Voices to stand up to, say, Count Pierre Le Sanguinaire?"
Miles
smiled at this vision. "Given the enthusiastic awe with which my
grandfather recalled old Pierre . . . the mind boggles."
"If
public confidence in your worth as an Auditor is that damaged, my
Counts and Ministers will have to indict you themselves. Without my
assistance."
"Unlikely," growled Uncle Vorthys. "It's a smarmy business, my boy, but I doubt it will come to that pass."
Miles looked less certain.
"You've now danced through all the proper forms," said Gregor. "Leave it, Miles."
Miles
nodded what seemed to Ekaterin reluctant, if relieved, acceptance.
"Thank you, Sire. But I wanted to add, I was also thinking of the
personal ramifications. Which are going to get worse before they bottom
out and die away. Are you quite sure you want me standing on your
wedding circle, while this uproar persists?"
Gregor
gave him a direct, and slightly pained, look. "You will not escape your
social duty that easily. If General Alys does not request I remove you,
there you will stand."
"I wasn't trying to escape—! . . . anything." He ran down a trifle, in the face of Gregor's grim amusement.
"Delegation
is a wonderful thing, in my line of work. You may let it be known that
anyone who objects to the presence of my foster-brother in my wedding
circle may take their complaints to Lady Alys, and suggest whatever
major last-minute dislocations in her arrangements they . . . dare."
Miles
could not quite keep the malicious smile off his lips, though he tried
valiantly. Fairly valiantly. Some. "I would pay money to watch." His
smile faded again. "But it's going to keep coming up as long as—"
"Miles."
Gregor's raised hand interrupted him. His eyes were alight with
something between amusement and exasperation. "You have, in-house,
possibly the greatest living source of Barrayaran political expertise
in this century. Your father's been dealing with uglier Party
in-fighting than this, with and without weapons, since before you were
born. Go tell him your troubles. Tell him I said to give you
that lecture on honor versus reputation he gave me that time. In fact .
. . tell him I request and require it." His hand-wave, as he rose from
his armchair, put an emphatic end to the topic. Everyone rustled to
their feet.
"Lord Auditor Vorthys, a word before
you depart. Madame Vorsoisson—" he took Ekaterin's hand again "—we'll
talk more when I am less pressed for time. Security concerns have
deferred public recognition, but I hope you realize you've earned a
personal account of honor with the Imperium of great depth, which you
may draw upon at need and at will."
Ekaterin
blinked, startled almost to protest. Surely it was for Miles's sake
that Gregor had wedged open this slice of his schedule? But this was
all the oblique reference to the further events on Komarr they
dared to make in front of Nikki. She managed a short nod, and a murmur
of thanks for the Imperial time and concern. Nikki, modeling himself a
little awkwardly upon her, did likewise.
Uncle
Vorthys bid her and Nikki good-bye, and lingered for whatever word his
Imperial master wanted before he took ship. Miles escorted them into
the corridor, where he told the waiting liveried man, "I'll see them
out, Gerard. Call for Madame Vorsoisson's car, please."
They
began the long walk around the building. Ekaterin glanced back over her
shoulder toward the Emperor's private office.
"That
was . . . that was more than I'd expected." She looked down at Nikki,
walking between them. His face was set, but not crumpled. "Stronger." Harsher.
"Yes,"
said Miles. "Be careful what you ask for. . . . There are special
reasons I trust Gregor's judgment in this above anyone else's. But . .
. I think perhaps I'm not the only fish who doesn't think about water.
Gregor is routinely expected to endure daily pressures that would
drive, well, me, to drink, madness, or downright lethal irritability.
In return, he overestimates us, and we . . . scramble not to disappoint
him."
"He told me the truth," said Nikki. He marched on in silence for a moment more. "I'm glad."
Ekaterin held her peace, satisfied.
* * *
Miles found his father in the library.
Count
Vorkosigan was seated on one of the sofas flanking the fireplace,
perusing a hand-reader. By his semiformal garb, a dark green tunic and
trousers reminiscent of the uniforms he'd worn most of his life, Miles
deduced he was on his way out soon, doubtless to one of the many
official meals the Viceroy and Vicereine seemed obliged to munch their
way through before Gregor's wedding. Miles was reminded of the
intimidating list of engagements that Lady Alys had handed him, coming
up soon. But whether he dared try to mitigate their social and culinary
rigors by having Ekaterin accompany him was now a very dubious question.
Miles
flung himself onto the sofa opposite his father; the Count looked up
and regarded him with cautious interest.
"Hello. You look a trifle wrung."
"Yes.
I've just come from one of the more difficult interviews of my
Auditorial career." Miles rubbed the back of his neck, still achingly
tense. The Count lifted politely inquiring eyebrows. Miles continued,
"I asked Gregor to straighten out Nikki Vorsoisson on this slander mess
to the limit he judged wise. He set the limit a lot further out than
Ekaterin or I would have."
The Count sat back, and laid his reader aside. "Do you feel he compromised security?"
"No,
actually," Miles admitted. "Any enemy snatching Nikki for questioning
would already know more than he does. They could empty him out in ten
minutes on fast-penta, and no harm done. Maybe they'd even bring him
back. Or not . . . He's no more a security risk than before. And no
more nor less at risk, as a lever on Ekaterin." Or on me . "The real conspiracy was very closely held even among the principals. That's not the problem."
"And the problem is—?"
Miles
leaned his elbows on his knees, and stared at his dim distorted
reflections in the toes of his half-boots. "I thought, because of Crown
Prince Serg, Gregor would know how—or whether—someone ought to be
apprised that his da was a criminal. If you can call Prince Serg that,
for his secret vices."
"I can," breathed the
Count. "Criminal, and halfway to raving mad, by the time of his death."
Then-Admiral Vorkosigan had been an eyewitness to the Escobaran
invasion disaster on the highest levels, Miles reflected. He sat up;
his father looked him full in the face, and smiled somberly. "That
Escobaran ship's lucky shot was the best piece of political good
fortune ever to befall Barrayar. In hindsight, though, I regret that we
handled Gregor so poorly on the matter. I take it that he did better?"
"I
think he handled Nikki . . . well. At any rate, Nikki won't experience
that sort of late shock to his world. Of course, compared to Serg, Tien
wasn't much worse than foolish and venal. But it was hard to watch. No
nine-year-old should have to deal with something this vile, this close
to his heart. What will it make him?"
"Eventually
. . . ten," the Count said. "You do what you have to do. You grow or go
under. You have to believe he will grow."
Miles
drummed his fingers on the sofa's padded arm. "Gregor's subtlety is
still dawning on me. By admitting Tien's peculation, he's pulled Nikki
to the inside with us. Nikki too now has a vested interest in
maintaining the cover story, to protect his late da's reputation.
Strange. Which is what brings me to you, by the way. Gregor
asks—requests and requires, no less!—you give me the lecture you gave
him on honor versus reputation. It must have been memorable."
The
Count's brow wrinkled. "Lecture? Oh. Yes." He smiled briefly. "So that
stuck in his mind, good. You wonder sometimes, with young people, if
anything you say goes in, or if you're just throwing your words on the
wind."
Miles stirred uncomfortably, wondering if any of that last remark was to his address. All right, how much of that remark. "Mm?" he prompted.
"I
wouldn't have called it a lecture. Just a useful distinction, to
clarify thought." He spread his hand, palm up, in a gesture of balance.
"Reputation is what other people know about you. Honor is what you know
about yourself."
"Hm."
"The
friction tends to arise when the two are not the same. In the matter of
Vorsoisson's death, how do you stand with yourself?"
How does he strike to the center in one cut like that? "I'm not sure. Do impure thoughts count?"
"No," said the Count firmly. "Only acts of will."
"What about acts of ineptitude?"
"A gray area, and don't tell me you haven't lived in that twilight before."
"Most
of my life, sir. Not that I haven't leaped up into the blinding light
of competence now and then. It's sustaining the altitude that defeats
me."
The Count raised his brows, and smiled
crookedly, but charitably refrained from agreeing. "So. Then it seems
to me your immediate problems lie more in the realm of reputation."
Miles
sighed. "I feel like I'm being gnawed all over by rats. Little
corrosive rats, flicking away too fast for me to turn and whap them on
the head."
The Count studied his fingernails. "It
could be worse. There is no more hollow feeling than to stand with your
honor shattered at your feet while soaring public reputation wraps you
in rewards. That's soul-destroying. The other way around is merely very, very irritating."
"Very," said Miles bitterly.
"Heh. All right. Can I offer you some consoling reflections?"
"Please do, sir."
"First,
this too shall pass. Despite the undoubted charms of sex, murder,
conspiracy, and more sex, people will eventually grow bored with the
tale, and some other poor fellow will make some other ghastly public
mistake, and their attention will go haring off after the new game."
"What sex?" Miles muttered in exasperation. "There hasn't been any sex. Dammit. Or this would all seem a great deal more worthwhile. I haven't even gotten to kiss the woman yet!"
The Count's lips twitched. "My condolences. Secondly, given this accusation, no charge against you that's less exciting will ruffle anyone's sensibilities in the future. The near future, anyway."
"Oh, great. Does this mean I'm free to run riot from now on, as long as I stop short of premeditated murder?"
"You'd
be amazed." A little of the humor died in the Count's eyes, at what
memory Miles could not guess, but then his lips tweaked up again.
"Third, there is no thought control—or I'd certainly have put it to use
before this. Trying to shape, or respond to, what every idiot on the
street believes—on the basis of little logic and less information—would
only serve to drive you mad."
"Some people's opinions do matter."
"Yes, sometimes. Have you identified whose, in this case?"
"Ekaterin's. Nikki's. Gregor's." Miles hesitated. "That's all."
"What, your poor aging parents aren't on that short list?"
"I
should be sorry to lose your good opinion," said Miles slowly. "But in
this case, you're not the ones . . . I'm not sure how to put this. To
use Mother's terminology—you are not the ones sinned against. So your
forgiveness is moot."
"Hm," said the Count,
rubbing his lips and regarding Miles with cool approval. "Interesting.
Well. For your fourth consoling thought, I would point out that in this
venue," a wave of his finger took in Vorbarr Sultana, and by extension
Barrayar, "acquiring a reputation as a slick and dangerous man, who
would kill without compunction to obtain and protect his own, is not all bad. In fact, you might even find it useful."
"Useful! Have you found the name of the Butcher of Komarr a handy prop, then, sir?" Miles said indignantly.
His
father's eyes narrowed, partly in grim amusement, partly in
appreciation. "I've found it a mixed . . . damnation. But yes, I have
used the weight of that reputation, from time to time, to lean on
certain susceptible men. Why not, I paid for it. Simon says he's
experienced the same phenomenon. After inheriting ImpSec from Negri the
Great, he claimed all he had to do in order to unnerve his opponents
was stand there and keep his mouth shut."
"I worked with Simon. He damned well was unnerving. And it wasn't just because of his memory chip, or
Negri's lingering ghost." Miles shook his head. Only his father could,
with perfect sincerity, regard Simon Illyan as an ordinary, everyday
sort of subordinate. "Anyway, people may have seen Simon as sinister,
but never as corrupt. He wouldn't have been half as scary if he hadn't
been able to convincingly project that implacable indifference to,
well, any human appetite." He paused in contemplation of his former
commander-and-mentor's quelling management style. "But dammit, if . . .
if my enemies won't allow me minimal moral sense, I wish they'd at
least give me credit for competence in my vices! If I were going to
murder someone, I'd have done a much smoother job than that hideous
mess. No one would even guess a murder had occurred, ha!"
"I believe you," soothed the Count. He cocked his head in sudden curiosity. "Ah . . . have you ever?"
Miles
burrowed back into the sofa, and scratched his cheek. "There was one
mission for Illyan . . . I don't want to talk about it. It was close,
unpleasant work, but we brought it off." His eyes fixed broodingly on
the carpet.
"Really. I had asked him not to use you for assassinations."
"Why? Afraid I'd pick up bad habits? Anyway, it was a lot more complicated than a simple assassination."
"It generally is."
Miles
stared away for a minute into the middle distance. "So what you're
telling me boils down to the same thing Galeni said. I have to stand
here and eat this, and smile."
"No," said his
father, "you don't have to smile. But if you're really asking for
advice from my accumulated experience, I'm saying, Guard your honor.
Let your reputation fall where it will. And outlive the bastards."
Miles's
gaze flicked up curiously to his father's face. He'd never known him
when his hair wasn't gray; it was nearly all white now. "I know you've
been up and down over the years. The first time your reputation took
serious damage—how did you get through it?"
"Oh,
the first time . . . that was a long time ago." The Count leaned
forward, and tapped his thumbnail pensively on his lips. "It suddenly
occurs to me, that among observers above a certain age—the few
survivors of that generation—the dim memory of that episode may not be
helping your cause. Like father, like son?" The Count regarded him with
a concerned frown. "That's certainly a consequence I could never
have foreseen. You see . . . after the suicide of my first wife, I was
widely rumored to have killed her. For infidelity."
Miles
blinked. He'd heard disjointed bits of this old tale, but not that last
wrinkle. "And, um . . . was she? Unfaithful?"
"Oh,
yes. We had a grotesque blowup about it. I was hurt, confused—which
emerged as a sort of awkward, self-conscious rage—and severely
handicapped by my cultural conditioning. A point in my life when I
could definitely have used a Betan therapist, instead of the bad
Barrayaran advice we got from . . . never mind. I didn't know—couldn't
imagine such alternatives existed. It was a darker, older time. Men
still dueled, you know, though it was illegal by then."
"But did you . . . um, you didn't really, um . . ."
"Murder
her? No. Or only with words." It was the Count's turn to look away, his
eyes narrowing. "Though I was never one hundred percent sure your
grandfather hadn't. He'd arranged the marriage; I know he felt
responsible."
Miles's brows rose, as he considered
this. "Remembering Gran'da, that does seem faintly and horribly
possible. Did you ever ask him?"
"No." The Count sighed. "What, after all, would I have done if he'd said yes?"
Aral Vorkosigan had been what, twenty-two at the time? Over half a century ago. He was far younger then than I am now. Hell, he was just a kid.
Dizzily, Miles's world seemed to spin slowly around and click into some
new and tilted axis, with altered perspectives. "So . . . how did you
survive?"
"I had the luck of fools and madmen, I believe. I was certainly both. I
didn't give a damn. Vile gossip? I would prove it an understatement,
and give them twice the tale to chew upon. I think I stunned them into
silence. Picture a suicidal loon with nothing to lose, staggering
around in a drunken, hostile haze. Armed. Eventually, I got as sick of
myself as everyone else must have been of me by that time, and pulled
out of it."
That anguished boy was gone now,
leaving this grave old man to sit in merciful judgment upon him. It did
explain why, old-Barrayaran though he was in parts, his father had
never so much as breathed the suggestion of an arranged marriage to
Miles as a solution to his romantic difficulties, nor murmured the
least criticism of his few affairs. Miles jerked up his chin, and
favored his father with a tilted smile. "Your strategy does not appeal
to me, sir. Drink makes me sick. I'm not feeling a bit suicidal. And I
have everything to lose."
"I wasn't
recommending it," the Count said mildly. He sat back. "Later—much
later—when I also had too much to lose, I had acquired your mother. Her
good opinion was the only one I needed."
"Yes? And what if it had been her good opinion that had been at risk? How would you have stood then?" Ekaterin . . .
"On my hands and knees, belike." The Count shook his head, and smiled slowly. "So, ah . . . when are
we going to be permitted to meet this woman who has had such an
invigorating effect on you? Her and her Nikki. Perhaps you might invite
them to dinner here soon?"
Miles cringed. "Not . . . not another dinner. Not soon."
"My
glimpse of her was so frustratingly brief. What little I could see was
very attractive, I thought. Not too thin. She squished well, bouncing
off me." Count Vorkosigan grinned briefly, at this memory. Miles's
father shared an archaic Barrayaran ideal of feminine beauty that
included the capacity to survive minor famines; Miles admitted a
susceptibility to that style himself. "Reasonably athletic, too.
Clearly, she could outrun you. I would therefore suggest blandishments,
rather than direct pursuit, next time."
"I've been trying ," sighed Miles.
The
Count regarded his son, half amused, half serious. "This parade of
females of yours is very confusing to your mother and me, you know. We
can't tell whether we're supposed to start bonding to them, or not."
"What parade?" said Miles indignantly. "I brought home one galactic girlfriend. One . It wasn't my fault things didn't work out."
"Plus the several, um, extraordinary ladies decorating Illyan's reports who didn't make it this far."
Miles
thought he could feel his eyes cross. "But how could he—Illyan never
knew—he never told you about—no. Don't tell me. I don't want to know.
But I swear the next time I see him—" He glowered at the Count, who was
laughing at him with a perfectly straight face. "I suppose Simon won't
remember. Or he'll pretend he doesn't. Damned convenient, that optional
amnesia he's developed." He added, "Anyway, I've mentioned all the
important ones to Ekaterin already, so there."
"Oh? Were you confessing, or bragging?"
"Clearing the decks. Honesty . . . is the only way, with her."
"Honesty
is the only way with anyone, when you'll be so close as to be living
inside each other's skins. So . . . is this Ekaterin another passing fancy?" The Count hesitated, his eyes crinkling. "Or is she the one who will
love my son forever and fiercely—hold his household and estates with
integrity—stand beside him through danger, and dearth, and death—and
guide my grandchildren's hands when they light my funeral offering?"
Miles paused in momentary admiration of his father's ability to deliver
lines like that. It put him in mind of the way a combat drop shuttle
delivered pinpoint incendiaries. "That would be . . . that would be
Column B, sir. All of the above." He swallowed. "I hope. If I don't
fumble it again."
"So when do we get to meet her?" the Count repeated reasonably.
"Things
are still very unsettled." Miles climbed to his feet, sensing that his
moment to retreat with dignity was slipping away rapidly. "I'll let you
know."
But the Count did not pursue his erratic
line of humor. Instead he looked at his son with eyes gone serious,
though still warm. "I am glad she came to you when you were old enough
to know your own mind."
Miles favored him with an
analyst's salute, a vague wave of two fingers in the general vicinity
of his forehead. "So am I, sir."
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
Ekaterin sat at her aunt's comconsole,
attempting to compose a rйsumй that would conceal her lack of
experience from the supervisor of an urban plant nursery that supplied
the city's public gardens. She was not, drat it, going to name Lord Auditor Vorkosigan
as a reference. Aunt Vorthys had left for her morning class, and Nikki
for an outing with Arthur Pym under the aegis of Arthur's elder sister;
when the door chime's second ring tore her attention from her task,
Ekaterin was abruptly aware that she was alone in the house. Would
enemy agents bent on kidnapping come to the front door? Miles would
know. She pictured Pym, at Vorkosigan House, frostily informing the
intruders that they would have to go round back to the spies'
entrance . . . which would be sprinkled with appropriate high-tech
caltrops, no doubt. Controlling her new paranoia, she rose and went to
the front hall.
To her relief and delight, instead
of Cetagandan infiltrators, her brother Hugo Vorvayne stood on the
front stoop, along with a pleasant-featured fellow she recognized after
an uncertain blink as Vassily Vorsoisson, Tien's closest cousin. She
had seen him exactly once before in her life, at Tien's funeral, where
they had met long enough for him to officially sign over Nikki's
guardianship to her. Lieutenant Vorsoisson held a post in traffic
control at the big military shuttleport in Vorbretten's District; when
she'd first and last seen him, he'd worn Service dress greens as suited
the somber formality of the occasion, but today he'd changed to more
casual civvies.
"Hugo, Vassily! This is a
surprise—come in, come in!" She gestured them both into the
Professora's front parlor. Vassily gave her a polite, acknowledging
nod, and refused an offer of tea or coffee, they'd had some at the
monorail station, thank you. Hugo gave her hands a brief squeeze, and
smiled at her in a worried way before taking a seat. He was in his
mid-forties; the combination of his desk work in the Imperial Bureau of
Mines and his wife Rosalie's care was broadening him a trifle. On him,
it looked wonderfully solid and reassuring. But alarm tightened
Ekaterin's throat at the tension in his face. "Is everything all right?"
"We're all fine," he said with peculiar emphasis.
A chill flushed through her. "Da—?"
"Yes,
yes, he's fine too." Impatiently, he gestured away her anxiety. "The
only member of the family who seems to be a source of concern at the
moment is you, Kat."
Ekaterin stared at him,
baffled. "Me? I'm all right." She sank down into her uncle's big chair
in the corner. Vassily pulled up one of the spindly chairs, and perched
a little awkwardly upon it.
Hugo conveyed
greetings from the family, Rosalie and Edie and the boys, then looked
around vaguely and asked, "Are Uncle and Aunt Vorthys here?"
"No, neither one. Aunt will be back from class in a while, though."
Hugo frowned. "I was hoping we could see Uncle Vorthys, really. When will he be back?"
"Oh,
he's gone to Komarr. To clear up some last technical bits about the
solar mirror disaster, you know. He doesn't expect to be back till just
before Gregor's wedding."
"Whose wedding?" said Vassily.
Gah, now Miles had her doing it. She wasnot on a first-name basis with Grego—with the Emperor, she was not . "Emperor Gregor's wedding. As an Imperial Auditor, Uncle Vorthys will of course attend."
Vassily's lips formed a little O of enlightenment, that Gregor.
"No chance of any of us getting near it, I suppose," Hugo sighed. "Of course, I
have no interest in such things, but Rosalie and her lady friends have
all gone quite silly over it." After a short hesitation, he added
inconsistently, "Is it true that the Horse Guards will parade in squads
of all the uniforms they've worn through history, from the Time of
Isolation through Ezar's day?"
"Yes," said Ekaterin. "And there will be massive fireworks displays over the river every night." A faintly envious look crept into Hugo's eyes at this news.
Vassily cleared his throat, and asked, "Is Nikki here?"
"No
. . . he went out with a friend to see the pole-barge regatta on the
river this morning. They have it every year; it commemorates the relief
of the city by Vlad Vorbarra's forces during the Ten-Years' War. I
understand they're doing a bang-up job of it this summer—new costumes,
and a reenactment of the assault on the Old Star Bridge. The boys were
very excited." She did not add that they expected to have an especially
fine view from the balconies of Vorbretten House, courtesy of a
Vorbretten Armsman friend of Pym's.
Vassily
stirred uncomfortably. "Perhaps it's just as well. Madame
Vorsoisson—Ekaterin—we actually came down here today for a particular
reason, a very serious matter. I should like to talk with you frankly."
"That's . . . generally best, when one is going to talk," Ekaterin responded. She glanced in query at Hugo.
"Vassily came to me . . ." Hugo began, and trailed off. "Well, you explain it, Vassily."
Vassily
leaned forward with his hands clasped between his knees and said
heavily, "You see, it's this. I received a most disturbing
communication from an informant here in Vorbarr Sultana about what has
been happening—what has recently come to light—some very disturbing
information about you, my late cousin, and Lord Auditor Vorkosigan."
"Oh,"
she said flatly. So, the circuit of the Old Walls, what remained of
them, did not limit the slander to the capital; the slime-trail even
stretched to provincial District towns. She had somehow thought this
vicious game an exclusively High Vor pastime. She sat back and frowned.
"Because
it seemed to concern both our families very nearly—and, of course,
because something of this peculiar nature must be cross-checked—I
brought it to Hugo, for his advice, hoping that he could allay my
fears. The corroborations your sister-in-law Rosalie supplied served to
increase them instead."
Corroborations of what? She could probably make a few shrewd guesses, but she declined to lead the witnesses. "I don't understand."
"I
was told," Vassily stopped to lick his lips nervously, "it's become
common knowledge among his high Vor set that Lord Auditor Vorkosigan
was responsible for sabotaging Tien's breath mask, the night he died on
Komarr."
She could demolish this quickly enough.
"You are told lies. That story was made up by a nasty little cabal of
Lord Vorkosigan's political enemies, who wished to embarrass him during
some District inheritance in-fighting presently going on here in the
Council of Counts. Tien sabotaged himself; he was always careless about
cleaning and checking his equipment. It's just whispering. No such
actual charge has been made."
"Well, how could it
be?" said Vassily reasonably. But her confidence that she'd brought him
swiftly to his senses died as he went on, "As it was explained to me,
any charge would have to be laid in the Council, before and by his
peers. His father may be retired to Sergyar, but you may be sure his
Centrist coalition remains powerful enough to suppress any such move."
"I
would hope so." It might be suppressed, oh yes, but not for the reason
Vassily thought. Lips thinning, she stared coldly at him.
Hugo
put in anxiously, "But you see, Ekaterin, the same person informed
Vassily that Lord Vorkosigan attempted to force you to accept a
proposal of marriage from him."
She sighed in exasperation. "Force? No, certainly not."
"Ah." Hugo brightened.
"He did ask me to marry him. Very . . . awkwardly."
"My God, that was really true
?" Hugo looked momentarily stunned. He sounded a deal more appalled at
this than at the murder charge—doubly unflattering, Ekaterin decided.
"You refused, of course!"
She touched the left
side of her bolero, tracing the now not-so-stiff shape of the paper she
kept folded there. Miles's letter was not the sort of thing she cared
to leave lying around for anyone to pick up and read, and besides . . .
she wanted to reread it herself now and then. From time to time. Six or
twelve times a day . . . "Not exactly."
Hugo's brow wrinkled. "What do you mean bynot exactly ? I thought that was a yes-or-no sort of question."
"It's
. . . difficult to explain." She hesitated. Detailing in front of
Tien's closest cousin how a decade of Tien's private chaos had worn out
her soul was just not on her list, she decided. "And rather personal."
Vassily offered helpfully, "The letter said that you seemed confused and distraught."
Ekaterin's eyes narrowed. "Just what busybody did you have this—communication —from, anyway?"
Vassily replied, "A friend of yours—he claimed—who is gravely concerned for your safety."
A
friend? The Professora was her friend. Kareen, Mark . . . Miles, but he
would hardly traduce himself, now . . . Enrique? Tsipis ? "I cannot imagine any friend of mine doing or saying any such thing."
Hugo's
frown of worry deepened. "The letter also said Lord Vorkosigan has been
putting all sorts of pressure on you. That he has some strange hold on
your mind."
No. Only on my heart, I think .
Her mind was perfectly clear. It was the rest of her that seemed to be
in rebellion. "He's a very attractive man," she admitted.
Hugo
exchanged a baffled look with Vassily. Both men had met Miles at Tien's
funeral; of course, Miles had been very closed and formal there, and
still grayly fatigued from his case. They'd had no opportunity to see
what he was like when he opened up—the elusive smile, the bright,
particular eyes, the wit and the words and the passion . . . the
confounded look on his face when confronted by Vorkosigan liveried
butter bugs . . . she smiled helplessly in memory.
"Kat," said Hugo in a disconcerted tone, "the man's a mutie. He barely comes up to your shoulder. He's distinctly hunched—I don't know why that wasn't surgically corrected. He's just odd ."
"Oh,
he's had dozens of surgeries. His original damage was far, far more
severe. You can still see these faint old scars running all over his
body from the corrections."
Hugo stared at her. "All over his body?"
"Um. I assume so. As much of it as I've seen, anyway." She stopped her tongue barely short of adding, The top half
. A perfectly unnecessary vision of Miles entirely naked, gift-wrapped
in sheets and blankets in bed, and her with him, slowly exploring his
intricacies all the way down, distracted her imagination momentarily.
She blinked it away, hoping her eyes weren't crossing. "You have to
concede, he has a good face. His eyes are . . . very alive."
"His head's too big."
"No,
his body's just a little undersized for it." How had she ended up
arguing Miles's anatomy with Hugo, anyway? He wasn't some spavined
horse she was considering purchasing against veterinary advice, drat
it. "Anyway, this is none of it our business."
"It
is if he—if you—" Hugo sucked his lip. "Kat . . . if you're under some
kind of threat, or blackmail or some strange thing, you don't stand
alone. I know we can get help. You may have abandoned your family, but
we haven't abandoned you."
More's the pity . "Thank you for that estimate of my character," she said tartly. "And do you imagine our Uncle Lord Auditor Vorthys is incapable of protecting me, if it should come to that? And Aunt Vorthys, too?"
Vassily
said uneasily, "I'm sure your uncle and aunt are very kind—after all,
they took you and Nikki in—but I'm given to understand they are both
rather unworldly intellectuals. Possibly they do not understand the
dangers. My informant says they haven't been guarding you at all.
They've permitted you to go where you will, when you will, in a
completely unregulated fashion, and come in contact with all sorts of
dubious persons."
Their unworldly aunt was
one of Barrayar's foremost experts on every gory detail of the
political history of the Time of Isolation, spoke and read four
languages flawlessly, could sift through documentation with an eye
worthy of an ImpSec analyst—a line of work several of her former
graduate students were now in—and had thirty years of experience
dealing with young people and their self-inflicted troubles. And as for
Uncle Vorthys—"Engineering failure analysis does not strike me as an
especially unworldly discipline. Not when it includes expertise on
sabotage." She inhaled, preparing to enlarge on this.
Vassily's
lips tightened. "The capital has a reputation as an unsavory milieu.
Too many wealthy, powerful men—and their women—with too few restraints
on their appetites and vices. That's a dangerous world for a young boy
to be exposed to, especially through his mother's . . . love affairs."
Ekaterin was still mentally sputtering over this one when Vassily's
voice dropped to a tone of hushed horror, and he added, "I've even
heard—they say—that there's a high Vor lord here in Vorbarr Sultana who
used to be a woman , who had her brain transplanted to a man'sbody ."
Ekaterin
blinked. "Oh. Yes, that would be Lord Dono Vorrutyer. I've met him. It
wasn't a brain transplant—ick! what a horrid misrepresentation—it was
just a perfectly ordinary Betan body mod."
Both men boggled at her. "You encountered this creature?" said Hugo. "Where?"
"Um
. . . Vorkosigan House. Actually. Dono seemed a very bright fellow. I
think he'll do very well for Vorrutyer's District, if the Council
grants him his late brother's Countship." She added after a moment of
bitter consideration, "All things considered, I quite hope he gets it. That would give Richars and his slandering cronies one in the eye!"
Hugo,
who had absorbed this exchange with growing dismay, put in, "I have to
agree with Vassily, I'm a little uneasy myself about having you down
here in the capital. The family so wishes to see you safe ,
Kat. I grant you're no girl anymore. You should have your own
household, watched over by a steady husband who can be trusted to guard
your welfare and Nikki's."
You could get your wish. Yet . . . she had stood up to armed terrorists, and survived. And won . Her definition of safe was . . . not so very narrow as that, anymore.
"A man of your own class," Hugo went on persuasively. "Someone who's right for you."
I
think I've found him. He comes with a house where I don't hit the walls
each time I stretch, either. Not even if I stretched out forever. She cocked her head. "Just what do you think my class is, Hugo?"
He looked nonplused. "Our class. Solid, honest, loyal Vor. On the women's side, modest, proper, upright. . . ."
She
was suddenly on fire with a desire to be immodest, improper, and above
all . . . not upright. Quite gloriously horizontal, in fact. It
occurred to her that a certain disparity of height would be immaterial,
when one—or two—were lying down . . . "You think I should have a house?"
"Yes, certainly."
"Not a planet?"
Hugo looked taken aback. "What? Of course not!"
"You know, Hugo, I never realized it before, but your vision lacks . . . scope." Miles thought she should have a planet. She paused, and a slow smile stole over her lips. After all, his mother had one. It was all in what you were used to, she supposed. No point in saying this aloud; they wouldn't get the joke.
And
how had her big brother, admired and generous if more than a little
distant due to their disparity of age, grown so small-minded of late?
No . . . Hugo hadn't changed. The logical conclusion shook her.
Hugo said, "Damn, Kat. I thought that part of the letter was twaddle at first, but this mutie lord has turned your head around in some strange way."
"And
if it's true . . . he has frightening allies," said Vassily. "The
letter claimed that Vorkosigan had Simon Illyan himself riding point
for him, herding you into his trap." His lips twisted dubiously. "That
was the part that most made me wonder if I was being made a game of, to
tell you the truth."
"I've met Simon," Ekaterin conceded. "I found him rather . . . sweet."
A dazed silence greeted this declaration.
She
added a little awkwardly, "Of course, I understand he's relaxed quite a
lot since his medical retirement from ImpSec. One can see that would be
a great burden off his mind." Belatedly, the internal evidence slotted
into place. "Wait a minute—who did you say sent you this hash of hearsay and lies?"
"It was in the strictest confidence," said Vassily warily.
"It
was that blithering idiot Alexi Vormoncrief, wasn't it? Ah!" The light
dawned, furiously, like the glare from an atomic fireball. But
screaming, swearing, and throwing things would be counterproductive.
She gripped the chair arms, so that the men could not see her hands
shake. "Vassily, Hugo should have told you—I turned down a proposal of
marriage from Alexi. It seems he's found a way to revenge his outraged
vanity." Vile twit!
"Kat," said Hugo
slowly, "I did consider that interpretation. I grant you the fellow's a
trifle, um, idealistic, and if you've taken against him I won't try to
argue his suit—though he seemed perfectly unobjectionable to me—but I
saw his letter. I judged it quite sincerely concerned for you. A little
over the top, yes, but what do you expect from a man in love?"
"Alexi
Vormoncrief is not in love with me. He can't see far enough past the
end of his own Vor nose to even know who or what I am. If you stuffed
my clothes with straw and put a wig on top, he'd scarcely notice the
change. He's just going through the motions supplied by his cultural
programming." Well, all right, and his more fundamental biological
programming, and he wasn't the only one suffering from that, now was
he? She would concede Alexi a ration of sincere sex drive, but she was
certain its object was arbitrary. Her hand strayed to her bolero, over
her heart, and Miles's memorized words echoed, cutting through the
uproar between her ears: I wanted to possess the power of your eyes . . .
Vassily
waved an impatient hand. "All this is beside the point, for me if not
for your brother. You're not a dowered maiden anymore, for your father
to hoard up with his other treasures. I, however, have a clear family
duty to see to Nikki's safety, if I have reason to believe it is
threatened."
Ekaterin froze.
Vassily
had granted her custody of Nikki with his word. He could take it back
again as easily. It was she who'd have to take suit to court—his
District court—not only to prove herself worthy, but also to prove him
unworthy and unfit to have charge of the child. Vassily was no
convicted criminal, nor habitual drunkard, nor spendthrift nor
berserker; he was just a bachelor officer, a conscientious, duty-minded
orbital traffic controller, an ordinary honest man. She hadn't a prayer
of winning against him. If only Nikki had been her daughter, those
rights would be reversed. . . .
"You would find a
nine-year-old boy an awkward burden on a military base, I should
think," she said neutrally at last.
Vassily looked startled. "Well, I hope it won't come to that . In the worst scenario, I'd planned to leave him with his Grandmother Vorsoisson, until things were straightened out."
Ekaterin
held her teeth together for a moment, then said, "Nikki is of course
welcome to visit Tien's mother any time she invites him. At the funeral
she gave me to understand she was too unwell to receive visitors this
summer." She moistened her lips. "Please define the term worst scenario for me. And just what exactly do you mean by straightened out ?"
"Well,"
Vassily shrugged apologetically, "coming down here and finding you
actually betrothed to the man who murdered Nikki's father would have
been pretty bad, don't you agree?"
Had he been
prepared to take Nikki away this very day, in that case? "I told you.
Tien's death was accidental, and that accusation is pure slander." His
disregard of her words reminded her horribly of Tien, for a moment; was
obliviousness a Vorsoisson family trait? Despite the danger of
offending him, she glowered. "Do you think I'm lying, or do you think
I'm just stupid?" She fought for control of her breathing. She had
faced far more frightening men than the earnest, misguided, Vassily
Vorsoisson. But never one who could cost me Nikki with a word .
She stood on the edge of a deep, dark pit. If she fell now, the
struggle to get out again would be as filthy and painful as anything
she could imagine. Vassily must not be pushed into taking Nikki. Trying to take Nikki . And she could stop him—how? She was legally overmatched before she even began. So don't begin .
She chose her words with utmost caution. "So what do you mean by straightened out?"
Hugo and Vassily looked at each other uncertainly. Vassily ventured, "I beg your pardon?"
"I cannot know if I have toed your line unless you show me where you've drawn it."
Hugo protested, "That's not very kindly put, Kat. We have your interests at heart."
"You
don't even know what my interests are." Not true, Vassily had his thumb
right down on the most mortal one. Nikki.Eat rage, woman. She had used to be expert at swallowing herself, during her marriage. Somehow she'd lost the taste for it.
Vassily
groped, "Well . . . I'd certainly wish to be assured Nikki was not
being exposed to persons of undesirable character."
She
granted him a thin smile. "No problem. I shall be more than happy to
entirely avoid Alexi Vormoncrief in the future."
He
gave her a pained look. "I was referring to Lord Vorkosigan. And his
political and personal set. At least—at least until this very dark
cloud is cleared from his reputation. After all, the man is accused of murdering my cousin ."
Vassily's
outrage was dutiful clan loyalty, not personal grief, Ekaterin reminded
herself. If he and Tien had met more than three times in their lives it
was news to her. "Excuse me," she said steadily. "If Miles is not to be
charged—and I can't think he will be, on this—how may he be cleared, in
your view? What has to happen?"
Vassily appeared momentarily baffled.
Hugo put in tentatively, "I don't want you exposed to corruption, either, Kat."
"You
know, Hugo, it's the strangest thing," Ekaterin said genially to him,
"but somehow Lord Vorkosigan has overlooked sending me invitations to any
of his orgies. I'm quite put out. Do you suppose it's not the orgy
season in Vorbarr Sultana yet?" She bit back further words. Sarcasm was
not a luxury she—or Nikki—could afford.
Hugo
rewarded this sally with a flat-lipped frown. He and Vassily gave one
another a long look, each so obviously trying to divest the dirty work
onto his companion that Ekaterin would have laughed, if it hadn't been
so painful. Vassily finally muttered weakly, "She's your sister . . ."
Hugo took a breath. He was a Vorvayne; he knew his duty, by God. All
us Vorvaynes know our duty. And we'll keep on doing it till we die. No
matter how stupid or painful or counterproductive it is, yes! After
all, look at me. I kept oath for eleven years to Tien. . . .
"Ekaterin,
I think the burden falls on me to say this. Till this murder rumor
business is settled, I'm flat requesting you not to encourage or, or
see this Miles Vorkosigan fellow again. Or I will have to agree Vassily
is completely justified in removing Nikki from the situation."
Removing Nikki from his mother and her paramour, you mean.
Nikki had lost one parent this year, and lost all his friends in the
move back to Barrayar. He was just starting to find the city he'd been
dropped into less strange, to begin to unfold in tentative new
friendships, to lose that wooden caution that had marred his smile for
a while. She imagined him ripped away again, denied the chance to see
her—for it would come down to that, wouldn't it? it was she, not the
capital, Vassily suspected of corruption—plopped down in the third
strange place in a year among unknown adults who regarded him not as a
child to be delighted in, but as a duty to be discharged . . . no. No.
"Excuse
me. I am willing to cooperate. I just haven't been able to compel
either of you to say what I'm supposed to be cooperating with. I
perfectly see what you are worried about, but how is it to be settled ? Define settled
. If it's till Miles's enemies stop saying nasty things about him, it
could be a long wait. His line of work routinely pits him against the
powerful. And he's not the sort to back down from any counterattack."
Hugo said, a bit more feebly, "Avoid him for a time, anyway."
"A time. Good. Now we're getting somewhere. How long exactly?"
"I . . . can hardly say."
"A week?"
Vassily, sounding a bit offended, put in, "Certainly more than that!"
"A month?"
Hugo rolled his hands in a frustrated gesture. "I don't know, Kat! Till you forget these odd notions you have about him, I suppose."
"Ah.
Till the end of time. Hm. I can't quite decide if that's specific
enough, or not. I think not." She took a breath, and said reluctantly,
because it was such a long time and yet likely to sound so plausible to
them, "To the end of my mourning year?"
Vassily said, "At the very minimum!"
"Very
well." Her eyes narrowed, and she smiled, because smiling would do more
good than howling. "I shall take you at your name's word, Vassily
Vorsoisson."
"I, I, uh . . ." said Vassily,
unexpectedly cornered. "Well . . . something should be settled by then.
Surely."
I gave up too much, too soon. I should have tried for Winterfair. She added in sudden afterthought, "I reserve the right to tell him—and tell him why—myself, however. In person."
"Is that wise, Kat?" asked Hugo. "Better to call him on the comconsole."
"Anything less would be cowardly."
"Can't you send him a note?"
"Absolutely not. Not with this . . . news." What a vile return that would be, for Miles's own declaration sealed in his heart's blood.
At her defiant stare, Hugo weakened. "One visit, then. A brief one."
Vassily shrugged reluctant acquiescence.
An
uncomfortable silence fell, after this. Ekaterin realized she ought to
invite the pair of them to lunch, except that she didn't feel like
inviting them to continue breathing. Yes, and she should exert herself
to charm and soothe Vassily. She rubbed her temples, which were
throbbing. When Vassily made a feeble motion toward escape from the
Professora's parlor by mumbling about things to do , she did not impede them.
She
locked the front door on their retreating forms, and returned to curl
up in her uncle's chair, unable to decide whether to go lie down, or
pace, or weed. Anyway, the garden was still stripped of weeds from her
last upset about Miles. It would be an hour yet before Aunt Vorthys
returned from her class, and Ekaterin could pour out her fury and panic
into her ear. Or her lap.
To Hugo's credit, she
reflected, he hadn't seemed enticed by the promise of a Countess's
place for his little sister at any price, nor had he suggested that was
the prize that motivated her. Vorvaynes were above that sort of
material ambition.
Once, she had bought Nikki a
rather expensive robopet, which he'd played with for a few days and
then neglected. It had been forgotten on a shelf until, attempting to
clean, she'd tried to give it away. Nikki's sudden frantic protests and
heartbroken carryings-on had shaken the roof.
The
parallel was embarrassing. Was Miles a toy she hadn't wanted till
they'd tried to take him from her? Deep down in her chest, someone was
screaming and sobbing. You're not in charge here. I'm the adult, dammit. Yet Nikki had kept his robopet . . .
She
would deliver the bad news about Vassily's interdict to Miles's face.
But not yet, oh, not quite yet. Because unless this smear upon his
reputation was suddenly and spectacularly settled , that might be her last look at him for a very long time.
* * *
Kareen
watched her father sink into the soft upholstery of the groundcar that
Tante Cordelia had sent for them, and hitch around restlessly, placing
his swordstick first on his lap and then at his side. Somehow, she
didn't think his discomfort was all from his old war wounds.
"We're
going to regret this, I know we are," he said querulously to Mama, for
about the sixth time, as she settled in beside him. The rear canopy
closed over the three of them, blocking the bright afternoon sun, and
the groundcar started up smoothly and quietly. "Once that woman gets
her hands on us, you know she'll have our heads turned inside out in
ten minutes, and we'll be sitting there nodding away like fools,
agreeing with every insane thing she says."
Oh, I hope so, I hope so!
Kareen clamped her lips shut, and sat very still. She wasn't safe yet.
The Commodore could still order Tante Cordelia's driver to turn the car
around and take them back home.
"Now, Kou," said
Mama, "we can't go on like this. Cordelia's right. It's time things
were arranged more sensibly."
"Ah! There's that word—sensible . One of her favorites. I feel like I already have a plasma arc targeter spot right there ." He pointed to the middle of his chest, as though a red dot wavered across his green uniform.
"It's been very uncomfortable," said Mama, "and I for one am getting tired of it. I want to see our old friends, and hear all about Sergyar. We can't stop all our lives over this."
Yeah, just mine. Kareen's teeth clenched a little harder.
"Well, I
do not want that fat little weird clone—" he hesitated, judging by the
ripple of his lips editing his word choice at least twice "—making up
to my daughter. Explain to me why he needs two years of Betan therapy
if he isn't half mad, eh? Eh?"
Don't say it, girl, don't say it. She gnawed on her knuckles instead. Fortunately, the drive was very short.
Armsman
Pym met them at the door to Vorkosigan House. He favored her father
with one of those formal nods that evoked a salute. "Good afternoon
Commodore, Madame Koudelka. Welcome, Miss Kareen. Milady will receive
you in the library. This way, please . . ." Kareen could almost swear,
as he turned to escort them, that his eyelid shivered at her in a wink,
but he was playing the Bland Servitor to the hilt today, and he gave
her no more clues.
Pym ushered them through the
double doors, and announced them with formality. He withdrew discreetly
but with a—knowing Pym—deliberate air of abandoning them to a deserved
fate.
In the library, part of the furniture had
been rearranged. Tante Cordelia waited in a large wing chair perhaps
accidentally reminiscent of a throne. At her right and left hands, two
smaller armchairs faced one another. Mark sat in one of them, wearing
his best black suit, shaved and slick as he'd been for Miles's
ill-fated party. He popped to his feet and stood at a sort of awkward
attention as the Koudelkas entered, clearly unable to decide whether it
would be worse to nod cordially or do nothing. He compromised by
standing there looking stuffed.
Across from Tante Cordelia, an entirely new piece of furniture had been placed. Well, new
was a misnomer; it was an elderly, shabby couch which had lived for at
least the past fifteen years up in one of Vorkosigan House's attics.
Kareen remembered it dimly from the old hide-and-seek days. Last she'd
seen it, it had been piled high with dusty boxes.
"Ah,
and there you all are," said Tante Cordelia cheerfully. She waved at
the second armchair. "Kareen, why don't you sit right here." Kareen
scooted in as directed, clutching the arms. Mark seated himself again
on the edge of his own chair, and watched her anxiously. Tante
Cordelia's index finger rose like a target seeker, and pointed first to
Kareen's parents, then to the old sofa. "Kou and Drou, you sit down—there ."
Both of them stared with inexplicable dismay at the harmless piece of old furniture.
"Oh,"
breathed the Commodore. "Oh, Cordelia, this is fighting dirty . . ." He
started to swing around and head for the exit, but was brought up short
by his wife's hand closing like a vise on his arm.
The Countess's gaze sharpened. In a voice Kareen had rarely heard her use before, she repeated, "Sit. Down
." It wasn't even her Countess Vorkosigan voice; it was something
older, firmer, even more appallingly confident. It was her old Ship
Captain's voice, Kareen realized; and her parents had both lived under
military authority for decades.
Her parents sank as though folded.
"There." The Countess sat back with a satisfied smile on her lips.
A
long silence followed. Kareen could hear the old-fashioned mechanical
clock ticking on the wall in the antechamber next door. Mark gave her a
beseeching stare, Do you know what the hell is going on here? She returned it in kind, No, don't you?
Her
father rearranged the position of his swordstick three times, dropped
it on the carpet, and finally scooted it back toward himself with the
heel of his boot and left it there. She could see the muscle jump in
his jaw as he gritted his teeth. Her mother crossed and uncrossed her
legs, frowned, stared down the room out the glass doors, and then back
at her hands twisting in her lap. They looked like nothing so much as
two guilty teenagers caught . . . hm. Like two guilty teenagers caught
screwing on the living room couch, actually. Clues seemed to float
soundlessly down like feathers, in Kareen's mind, falling all around. You don't suppose . . .
"But
Cordelia," Mama burst out suddenly, for all the world as though
continuing aloud a conversation just now going on telepathically, "we
want our children to do better than we did. To not make the same mistakes!"
Ooh. Ooh. Oooh!
Check, and did she ever want the story behind this one . . . ! Her
father had underestimated the Countess, Kareen realized. That hadn't
taken any more than three minutes.
"Well,
Drou," said Tante Cordelia reasonably, "it seems to me that you have
your wish. Kareen has most certainly done better. Her choices and
actions have been considered and rational in every way. And as far as I
can tell, she hasn't made any mistakes at all."
Her father shook a finger at Mark, and sputtered, "That . . . that is a mistake."
Mark
hunched, and wrapped his arms protectively around his belly. The
Countess frowned faintly; the Commodore's jaw tightened.
The
Countess said coolly, "We'll discuss Mark presently. Right now, allow
me to draw your attention to how intelligent and informed your daughter
is. Granted, she had not your disadvantage of trying to construct her
life in the emotional isolation and chaos of a civil war. You both
bought her a better, brighter chance than that, and I doubt you're
sorry for it."
The Commodore shrugged grudging
agreement. Mama sighed in something like negative nostalgia, not
longing for the remembered past but relief at having escaped it.
"Just
to pick one example not at random," the Countess went on, "Kareen,
didn't you obtain your contraceptive implant before you began physical
experimentation?"
Tante Cordelia was so bloody
Betan . . . she just belted out things like that in casual
conversation. Kareen and her chin rose to the challenge. "Of course,"
she said steadily. "And I had my hymen cut and did the programmed
learning course the clinic gave on related anatomy and physiology
issues, and Gran-tante Naismith bought me my first pair of earrings,
and we went out for dessert."
Da rubbed his reddening face. Mama looked . . . envious.
"And
I daresay," Tante Cordelia went on, "you wouldn't describe your first
steps into claiming your adult sexuality as a mad secret scramble in
the dark, full of confusion, fear and pain, either?"
Mama's negative-nostalgia look deepened. So did Mark's.
"Of course not!" Kareen drew the line at discussing those
details with Mama and Da, although she was dying for a comfortable
gossip with Tante Cordelia about it all. She'd been too shy to start
with an actual man , so she'd hired a hermaphrodite Licensed
Practical Sexuality Therapist whom Mark's counselor had recommended.
The L.P.S.T. had explained to her kindly that hermaphrodites were
extremely popular with young persons taking the introductory practical
course for just that reason. It had all worked out really really
well. Mark, anxiously hovering by his comconsole for her post-coital
report, had been so pleased for her. Of course, his introduction to his
own sexuality had included such ghastly trauma and tortures, it was
only natural he be worried sick. She smiled reassuringly at him now.
"If that's Barrayar, I'll take Beta!"
Tante
Cordelia said thoughtfully, "It's not entirely that simple. Both
societies seek to solve the same fundamental problem—to assure that all
children arriving will be cared for. Betans make the choice to do it
directly, technologically, by mandating a biochemical padlock on
everyone's gonads. Sexual behavior seems open at the price of absolute
social control on its reproductive consequences. Has it never crossed
your mind to wonder how that is enforced? It should. Now, Beta can
control one's ovaries; Barrayar, especially during the Time of
Isolation, was forced to try to control the entire woman attached to
them. Throw in Barrayar's need to increase its population to survive,
at least as pressing as Beta's to limit its to the same end, and your peculiar gender-biased inheritance laws, and, well, here we all are."
"Scrambling in the dark," growled Kareen. "No thank you."
"We should never have sent her there. Withhim ," Da grumbled.
Tante
Cordelia observed, "Kareen was committed to her student year on Beta
before she ever met Mark. Who knows? If Mark hadn't been there to, ah,
insulate her, she might have met a nice Betan and stayed with him."
"Or it," Kareen murmured. "Or her."
Da's lips tightened.
"These
trips can be more one-way than you expect. I haven't seen my own mother
face-to-face more than three times in the last thirty years. At least
if she sticks with Mark, you may be certain Kareen will return to
Barrayar frequently."
Mama appeared very struck by this. She eyed Mark in new speculation. He essayed a hopeful, helpful smile.
Da said, "I want Kareen to be safe. Well. Happy. Financially secure. Is that so wrong?"
Tante
Cordelia's lips twisted up with sympathy. "Safe? Well? That's what I
wanted for my boys, too. Didn't always get it, but here we are anyway.
As for happiness . . . I don't think you can give that to anyone, if they don't have it in them. However, it's certainly possible to give un –happiness—as you are finding."
Da's
frown deepened in a somewhat surly manner, quelling Kareen's impulse to
loudly cheer on this line of reasoning. Better let the Baba handle this
. . .
The Countess continued, "As for that last .
. . hm. Has anyone discussed Mark's financial status with you? Kareen,
or Mark . . . or Aral?"
Da shook his head. "I
thought he was broke. I assumed the family made him an allowance, like
any other Vor scion. And that he ran through it—like any other Vor
scion."
"I'm not broke ," Mark objected
strenuously. "It's a temporary cash-flow problem. When I budgeted for
this period, I wasn't expecting to be starting up a new business in the
middle of it."
"In other words, you're broke," said Da.
"Actually,"
Tante Cordelia said, "Mark is completely self-supporting. He made his
first million on Jackson's Whole."
Da opened his
mouth, but then shut it again. He gave his hostess a disbelieving
stare. Kareen hoped it would not occur to him to inquire closely into
Mark's method for winning this fortune.
"Mark has
invested it in an interesting variety of more and less speculative
enterprises," Tante Cordelia went on kindly. "The family backs
him—I've just bought some shares in his butter bug scheme myself—and
we'll always be here for emergencies, but Mark doesn't need an
allowance."
Mark looked both grateful and awed to
be so maternally defended, as if . . . well . . . just so. As if no one
had ever done so before.
"If he's so rich, why is he paying my daughter in IOUs?" demanded Da. "Why can't he just draw something out?"
"Before the end of the period?" said Mark, in a voice of real abhorrence. "And lose all that interest ?"
"And they're not IOUs," said Kareen. "They're shares!"
"Mark
doesn't need money," said Tante Cordelia. "He needs what he knows money
can't buy. Happiness, for example."
Mark, puzzled but pliable, offered, "So . . . do they want me to pay for Kareen? Like a dowry? How much? I will —"
"No, you twit!" cried Kareen in horror. "This isn't Jackson's Whole—you can't buy and sell people . Anyway, dowries were what the girl's family gave the fellow, not the other way around."
"That seems very wrong," said Mark, lowering his brows and pinching his chin. "Backwards. Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"I don't care if the boy has a million marks," Da began, sturdily and, Kareen suspected, not quite truthfully.
"Betan dollars," Tante Cordelia corrected absently. "Jacksonians do insist on hard currencies."
"The
galactic exchange rates on the Barrayaran Imperial mark have been
improving steadily since the War of the Hegen Hub," Mark started to
explain. He'd written a paper on the subject last term; Kareen had
helped proofread it. He could probably talk for a couple of hours about
it. Fortunately, Tante Cordelia's raised finger staunched this
threatened flow of nervous erudition.
Da and Mama appeared lost in a brief calculation of their own.
"All right," Da began again, a little less sturdily. "I don't care if the boy has four million marks. I care about Kareen."
Tante
Cordelia tented her fingers thoughtfully. "So what is it that you want
from Mark, Kou? Do you wish him to offer to marry Kareen?"
"Er," said Da, caught out. What he wanted
, near as Kareen could tell, was for Mark to be carried off by
predators, possibly even along with his four million marks in nonliquid
investments, but he could hardly say so to Mark's mother.
"Yes, of course I'll offer, if she wants," Mark said. "I just didn't think she wanted to, yet. Did you?"
"No,"
said Kareen firmly. "Not . . . not yet, anyway. It's like I've just
started to find myself, to figure out who I really am, to grow. I don't
want to stop ."
Tante Cordelia's brows rose. "Is that how you see marriage? As the end and abolition of yourself?"
Kareen
realized belatedly that her remark might be construed as a slur on
certain parties here present. "It is for some people. Why else do all
the stories end when the Count's daughter gets married? Hasn't
that ever struck you as a bit sinister? I mean, have you ever read a
folk tale where the Princess's mother gets to do anything but die
young? I've never been able to figure out if that's supposed to be a
warning, or an instruction."
Tante Cordelia pressed her finger to her lips to hide a smile, but Mama looked rather worried.
"You
grow in different ways, afterward," Mama said tentatively. "Not like a
fairy tale. Happily ever after doesn't cover it."
Da's brows drew down; he said, in an odd, suddenly uncertain voice, "I thought we were doing all right . . ."
Mama patted his hand reassuringly. "Of course, love."
Mark
said valiantly, "If Kareen wants me to marry her, I will. If she
doesn't, I won't. If she wants me to go away, I'll go—" This last was
accompanied by a covertly terrified glance her way.
"No!" cried Kareen.
"If she wants me to walk downtown backwards on my hands, I'll try. Whatever she wants," Mark finished up.
The
thoughtful expression on Mama's face suggested that at least she liked
his attitude. . . . "Is it that you wish to just be betrothed?" she
asked Kareen.
"That's almost the same as marriage, here," said Kareen. "You give these oaths."
"You
take those oaths seriously, I gather?" said Tante Cordelia, with a
flick of her eyebrow toward the occupants of the mystery couch.
"Of course ."
"I think it's down to you, Kareen," said Tante Cordelia with a small smile. "What do you want?"
Mark's
hands clenched on his knees. Mama sat breathless. Da looked as if he
was still worrying about the implications of that happily-ever-after
remark.
This was Tante Cordelia. That wasn't a
rhetorical question. Kareen sat silent, struggling for truth in
confusion. Nothing less or else than truth would do. Yet where were the
words for it? What she wanted was simply not a traditional Barrayaran
option . . . ah. Yes. She sat up, and looked Tante Cordelia, and then
Mama and Da, and then Mark in the eye.
"Not a betrothal. What I want . . . what I want—is an option on Mark."
Mark sat up, brightening. Now she was speaking a language they both understood.
"That's not Betan," said Mama, sounding confused.
"This isn't some weird Jacksonian practice, is it?" Da demanded suspiciously.
"No. It's a new Kareen custom. I just now made it up. But it fits." Her chin lifted.
Tante
Cordelia's lips twitched up in amusement. "Hm. Interesting. Well.
Speaking as Mark's, ah, agent in the matter, I would point out that a
good option is not infinitely open-ended, nor all one-way. They have
time limits. Renewal clauses. Compensation."
"Mutual," Mark broke in breathlessly. "Mutual option!"
"That would appear to cover the problem of compensation, yes. What about time limits?"
"I
want a year," said Kareen. "To next Midsummer. I want at least a year,
to see what we can do. I don't want anything from anybody," she glared
at her parents, "but to back off !"
Mark nodded eagerly. "Agreed, agreed!"
Da jerked his thumb at Mark. "He'd agree to anything!"
"No,"
said Tante Cordelia judiciously. "I think you'll find he won't agree to
anything that would make Kareen unhappy. Or smaller. Or unsafe."
Da's frown took on a serious edge. "Is that so? And what about her safety from him? All that Betan therapy wasn't for no reason!"
"Indeed
not," agreed Tante Cordelia. Her nod acknowledged that seriousness.
"But I believe it has been effective—Mark?"
"Yes,
ma'am!" He sat there trying desperately to look Cured. He couldn't
quite bring it off, but the effort was clearly sincere.
The
Countess added quietly, "Mark is as much a veteran of our wars as any
Barrayaran I know, Kou. He was conscripted earlier, is all. In his own
strange and lonely way, he fought as hard, and risked as much. And lost
as much. Surely you can grant him as much time to heal as you needed?"
The Commodore looked away, his face grown still.
"Kou, I wouldn't have encouraged this relationship if I thought it was unsafe for either of our children."
He looked back. "You? I know you! You trust beyond reason."
She met his eyes steadily. "Yes. It's how I get results beyond hope. As you may recall."
He
pursed his lips, unhappily, and toed his swordstick a little. He had no
reply for this one. But a funny little smile turned Mama's mouth, as
she watched him.
"Well," said Tante Cordelia
cheerfully into the lengthening silence, "I do believe we've achieved a
meeting of the minds. Kareen to have an option upon Mark, and vice
versa, until next Midsummer, when perhaps we should all meet again and
evaluate the results, and consider negotiating an extension."
"What,
are we supposed to just stand back while those two just—carry on?"
cried Da, in a last fading attempt at indignation.
"Yes.
Both to have the same freedom of action that, ah, you two," she nodded
at Kareen's parents, "had at the same phase of your lives. I admit,
carrying on was made easier for you, Kou, by the fact that all your
fiancйe's relatives lived in other towns."
"I
remember you were terrified of my brothers," Mama recalled, the funny
little smile spreading a bit. Mark's eyes widened thoughtfully.
Kareen
marveled at this inexplicable bit of history; her Droushnakovi uncles
all had hearts of butter, in her experience. Da set his teeth, except
that when he looked at Mama his eyes softened.
"Agreed," said Kareen firmly.
"Agreed," echoed Mark at once.
"Agreed," said Tante Cordelia, and raised her brows at the couple on the couch.
Mama said, "Agreed." That quizzical, quirky smile in her eyes, she waited for Da.
He gave her a long, appalled, You, too?! stare. "You've gone over to their side!"
"Yes,
I believe so. Won't you join us?" Her smile broadened further. "I know
we don't have Sergeant Bothari to knock you on the jaw and help kidnap
you along against your better judgment this time. But it would've been
dreadfully unlucky for us to have tried to go collect the Pretender's
head without you." Her grip on his hand tightened.
After
a long moment, Da turned from her and frowned fiercely at Mark. "You
understand, if you hurt her, I'll hunt you down myself!"
Mark nodded anxiously.
"Your codicil is accepted," murmured Tante Cordelia, her eyes alight.
"Agreed,
then!" Da snapped. He sat back grumpily, with a
See-what-I-do-for-you-people look on his face. But he didn't let go of
Mama's hand.
Mark was staring at Kareen with a
smothered elation. She could almost picture the entire Black Gang,
jumping up and down in the back of his head, cheering, and Lord Mark
hushing them lest they draw attention to themselves.
Kareen
took a breath, for courage, dipped her hand into her bolero pocket, and
drew out her Betan earrings, the pair that declaimed her implant and
her adult status. With a little push, she slipped one into each
earlobe. It was not, she thought, a declaration of independence, for
she still lived in a web of dependencies. It was more of a declaration
of Kareen. I am who I am. Now, let's see how much I can do.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Armsman Pym, a little out of breath, admitted
Ekaterin to the front hall of Vorkosigan House. He tugged his tunic's
high collar into adjustment, and smiled his usual welcome.
"Good
afternoon, Pym," Ekaterin said. She was satisfied that she was able to
keep any tremor out of her voice. "I need to see Lord Vorkosigan."
"Yes, ma'am."
That Yes, milady!
in this hall the night of the dinner party had been a revealing slip of
his tongue, Ekaterin realized belatedly. She hadn't noticed it at the
time.
Pym keyed his wrist com. "M'lord? Where are you?"
A faint thump sounded from the com link, and Miles's muted voice: "North wing attic. Why?"
"Madame Vorsoisson is here to see you."
"I'll be right down—no, wait." A brief pause. "Bring her up. She'll like to see this, I bet."
"Yes,
m'lord." Pym gestured toward the back entry. "This way." As she
followed him to the lift tube, he added, "Little Nikki not with you
today, ma'am?"
"No." Her heart failed her at the prospect of explaining why. She left it at that.
They
exited the tube at the fifth level, a floor she hadn't penetrated on
that first, memorable tour. She followed him down an uncarpeted hallway
and through a pair of double doors into an enormous low-ceilinged room
that extended from one side of the wing to the other. Roof beams
hand-sawn from great trees crossed it overhead, with yellowing plaster
between. Utilitarian lighting fixtures hung from them along a pair of
center aisles created by the high-piled stowage.
Part
of it was normal attic detritus: shabby furniture and lamps rejected
even from the servants' quarters, picture frames that had lost their
contents, spotted mirrors, wrapped squares and rectangles that might be
some of the paintings, rolled tapestries. Still older oil lamps and
candelabras. Mysterious crates and cartons and cracking leather-bound
cases and scarred wooden trunks with long-dead people's initials burned
in below their latches.
From there it grew more
remarkable. A bundle of rusty cavalry javelins with wrinkled, faded
brown-and-silver pennons wrapped about them wedged up against a
hand-sawn post. Racks of faded Armsmen's uniforms bunched tightly
together, brown and silver. Quantities of horse gear: saddles and
bridles and harnesses with rusty bells, with unraveling tassels, with
tarnished silver facings, with clacking beads all battered with their
bright paint flaking off; hand-embroidered hangings and saddle
blankets, with the Vorkosigans' VK and variations of their crest
elaborated in thread. Dozens of swords and daggers, thrust randomly
into barrels like steel bouquets.
Miles, in
shirtsleeves, sat in the debris in the middle of one aisle about
two-thirds of the way down the long room, surrounded by three open
trunks and several half-sorted piles of papers and flimsies. One of the
trunks, apparently just unlocked, was full to the brim with a
miscellaneous cache of obsolete energy weapons, their power cartridges,
Ekaterin trusted, long gone. A second, smaller case seemed to be the
source of some of the papers. He glanced up and gave her an exhilarated
grin.
"I told you the attics were something to see. Thank you, Pym."
Pym
nodded and withdrew, giving his lord what Ekaterin's eye was now able
to decode as a little good-luck salute.
"You weren't exaggerating," Ekaterin agreed. What kind of stuffed bird was that, hung upside down in the corner, glaring down at them through malignant glass eyes?
"The
one time I had Duv Galeni up here, he nearly had a gibbering fit. He
reverted right in front of my eyes back into Doctor Professor Galeni,
and raved at me for hours—days—about the fact that we haven't cataloged
all this junk. He's still on about it, if I make the mistake of
reminding him. I should have thought that my father installing that
climate-controlled document room would have been enough." He waved her
to a seat on a long polished walnut chest.
She
sat, and smiled mutely at him. She should tell him her bad news, and
leave. But he was so clearly in an expansive mood, she hated to derail
him. When had his voice become a caress upon her ears? Let him babble
on just a little longer . . .
"Anyway, what I ran
across that I thought might interest you—" His hand started for a lump
covered with a heavy white cloth, then wavered over the trunk of
weapons. "Actually, this is pretty interesting, too, though it
might be more in Nikki's line. Does he appreciate the grotesque? I'd
have thought it a fabulous find when I was his age. I don't know how I
missed it—oh, of course, Gran'da would have held the keys." He held up
a coarse brown cloth bag, and poked a little dubiously into its
contents. "I believe this is a sack of Cetagandan scalps. Want to see?"
"See, maybe. Touch, no."
Obligingly,
he held it open for her inspection. The dried yellowing parchmentlike
scraps with bits of hair clinging, or in some cases, falling off,
indeed looked like human scalps to her. "Eeuw," she said
appreciatively. "Did your grandfather take them himself?"
"Mm,
possibly, though it seems rather a lot for one man, even General Piotr.
I think it's more likely they were collected and brought to him as
trophies by his guerillas. All fine, but then what could he do with
'em? Can't throw 'em away, they're presents ."
"What are you going to do with them?"
He
shrugged, and laid the bag back in the trunk. "If Gregor needed to send
a subtle diplomatic insult to the Cetagandan Empire, which he doesn't
just now, I suppose we could return them with elaborate apologies.
Can't think of any other use offhand."
He shut the
trunk, sorted through a variety of mechanical keys in the little pile
at his knee, and locked it again. He rose to his knees, upended a crate
in front of her, hoisted the shrouded object onto it, and pulled back
the covering for her inspection.
It was a
beautiful old saddle, similar to the old-fashioned cavalry style but
more lightly built, for a lady. Its dark leather was elaborately carved
and stamped in leaf, fern and flower patterns. The green velvet of its
padded and stitched seat was worn half-bald, dried and split, the
stuffing peeking out. Maple and olive leaves, carved and delicately
tinted in the leather, surrounded a V flanked by a smaller B and K all
closed in an oval. More embroidery, its colors surprisingly bright,
echoed the botanical pattern in a blanket pad.
"There ought
to be a matching bridle, but I haven't found it yet," Miles said, his
fingers tracing over the initials. "It's one of my paternal
grandmother's saddles. General Piotr's wife, Princess-and-Countess
Olivia Vorbarra Vorkosigan. She obviously used this one quite a bit. My
mother could never be persuaded to take up riding—I never was able to
figure out why not—and it wasn't one of my father's passions. So it was
left to Gran'da to try to teach me to keep the tradition alive. But I
didn't have time to keep it up once I was an adult. Didn't you say you
ride?"
"Not since I was a child. My great-aunt
kept a pony for me—though I suspect it was as much for the manure for
her garden. My parents had no room in town. He was a fat, ill-tempered
beast, but I adored him." Ekaterin smiled in memory. "Saddles were a
bit optional."
"I was thinking, maybe we could get this repaired and reconditioned, and put it back into use."
"Use?
Surely that belongs in a museum! Hand-made—absolutely
unique—historically significant—I can't even imagine what it would
fetch at auction!"
"Ah—I had this same argument
with Duv. It wasn't just hand-made, it was custom-made, especially for
the Princess. Probably a gift from my grandfather. Imagine the fellow,
not just a worker but an artist, selecting the leather, piecing and
stitching and carving. I picture him hand-rubbing in the oil, thinking
of his work used by his Countess, envied and admired by her
friends, being part of this—this whole work of art that was her life."
His finger traced the leaves around the initials.
Her guess of its value kept ratcheting up in time to his words. "For heaven's sake get it appraised first!"
"Why?
To loan to a museum? Don't need to set a price on my grandmother for
that. To sell to some collector to hoard like money? Let him hoard
money, that's all that sort wants anyway. The only collector who'd be
worthy of it would be someone who was personally obsessed with the
Princess-and-Countess, one of those men who fall hopelessly in love
across time. No. I owe it to its maker to put it to its proper use, the use he intended."
The
weary straitened housewife in her—Tien's pinchmark spouse—was
horrified. The secret soul of her rang like a bell in resonance to
Miles's words. Yes. That was how it should be. This saddle belonged
under a fine lady, not under a glass cover. Gardens were meant to be
seen, smelled, walked through, grubbed in. A hundred objective
measurements didn't sum the worth of a garden; only the delight of its
users did that. Only the use made it mean something. How had Miles learned that? For this alone I could love you . . .
"Now."
He grinned in response to her smile, and drew breath. "God knows I need
to start doing something for exercise, or all this culinary diplomacy I
do nowadays will defeat Mark's attempt to differentiate himself from
me. There are several parks here in town with hacking paths. But it's
not much fun to ride by myself. Think you'd be willing to keep me
company?" He blinked a trifle ingenuously.
"I
would love to," she said honestly, "but I can't." She could see in his
eyes a dozen counterarguments springing up, ready to charge into the
breach. She held up a hand to stop him bursting into speech. She must
bring this little self-indulgent ration of pretend-happiness to a
close, before her will broke. Her forced agreement with Vassily only
permitted her a taste of Miles, not a meal. Not a banquet . . . Back to
harsh reality. "Something new has come up. Yesterday, Vassily
Vorsoisson and my brother Hugo came to see me. Set on, apparently, by a
nasty letter from Alexi Vormoncrief."
Tersely, she
detailed their visit. Miles sat back on his heels, his face setting,
listening closely. For once, he didn't interrupt.
"You set them straight?" he said slowly, when she paused for breath.
"I tried
. It was infuriating to watch them just . . . dismiss my word, in favor
of all those sordid insinuations from that fool Alexi, of all men. Hugo
was genuinely worried about me, I suppose, but Vassily is all wound up
in this misconstrued family duty and some inflated ideas about the
depraved decadence of the capital."
"Ah," said Miles thinly. "A romantic, I see."
"Miles,
they were ready to take Nikki away right then! And I have no legal way
to fight for custody. Even if I took Vassily to the Vorbretten District
magistrate's court, I couldn't prove him grossly unfit—he's not. He's
just grossly gullible. But I thought—too late, last night—about Nikki's
security classification. Would ImpSec do something to stop Vassily?"
Miles
frowned, his brows drawing down. "Possibly . . . not. It's not as if he
wanted to take Nikki off-world. ImpSec could have no objection to Nikki
going to live on a military base—in fact, they'd probably consider it a
better safe-zone than your uncle's or Vorkosigan House either one. More
anonymous. I can't think they'd be too keen about a lawsuit drawing
more public attention to the Komarran affair, either."
"Would they quash it? In whose favor?"
He
hissed thoughtfully through his teeth. "Yours, if I asked them to, but
it would be just like them to do so in a way that provides maximum
support to the cover story—which is how they've classified this
murder-slander in their little one-track minds this week. I hardly dare
touch it; I'd only make things worse. I wonder if somebody . . . I
wonder if somebody anticipated that?"
"I know
Alexi's pulling Vassily's strings. Do you think someone's pulling
Alexi's strings, trying to bait you into making some ruinous public
move?" That would make her the last link in a chain by which
his hidden enemy sought to yank Miles into an untenable position. A
chilling realization. But only if she—and Miles—did what that enemy
anticipated.
"I . . . hm. Possibly." His frown
deepened. "Better by far that your uncle straighten things out, anyway,
privately, inside the family. Is he still due back from Komarr before
the wedding?"
"Yes, but that's only if his so-called few little technical matters don't get more complicated than he anticipates."
Miles
grimaced in sympathetic understanding. "No guarantees then, right." He
paused. "Vorbretten's District, eh? If push came to shove, I could
quietly call in a favor from Renй Vorbretten, and have him, ah, arrange
things. You could jump over the magistrate's court and take it to him
on direct appeal. I wouldn't have to involve ImpSec or appear in the
matter at all. That wouldn't work if Sigur holds Countship of the
Vorbretten's District by then, though."
"I don't
want push to come to shove. I don't want Nikki troubled more at all.
It's been ghastly enough for him." She sat tight and trembling, whether
with fear or anger or a venomous combination she could hardly say.
Miles
scrambled up off his heels, and came round and sat rather tentatively
next to her on the walnut chest, and gave her a searching look. "One
way or another, we can make it come round right in the end. In two
days, both these District inheritance votes come due in the Council of
Counts. Once the vote's over, the political motivation to stir up
trouble with this accusation against me evaporates, and the whole thing
will start to fade." That would have sounded very comfortable, if he
hadn't added, "I hope."
"I shouldn't have
suggested putting you in quarantine till my mourning year was over. I
should have tried Vassily on Winterfair first. I thought of that too
late. But I can't risk Nikki, I just can't. Not when we've come so far,
survived so much."
"Sh, now. I think your
instincts are right. My grandfather had an old cavalry saying: `You
should get over heavy ground as lightly as you can.' We'll just lie low
for a little while here so as not to rile poor Vassily. And when your
uncle gets back, he'll straighten the fellow out." He glanced up at
her, sideways. "Or, of course, you could simply not see me for a year,
eh?"
"I should dislike that exceedingly," she admitted.
"Ah." One corner of his mouth curled up. After a little pause, he said, "Well, we can't have that, then."
"But Miles, I gave my word. I didn't want to, but I did."
"Stampeded
into it. A tactical retreat is not a bad response to a surprise
assault, you know. First you survive. Then you choose your own ground. Then you counterattack."
Somehow,
not her doing, his thigh lay by hers, not quite touching but warm and
solid even through two layers of cloth, gray and black. She couldn't
exactly lay her head on his shoulder for comfort, but she might sneak
her arm around his waist, and lean her cheek on the top of his head. It
would be a pleasant sensation, easing to the heart. I shouldn't do that.
Yes, I should. Now and always . . . No.
Miles
sighed. "Bitten by my reputation. Here I thought the only opinions that
mattered were yours, Nikki's, and Gregor's. I forgot Vassily's."
"So did I."
"My
da gave me this definition: he told me reputation was what other people
knew about you, but honor was what you knew about yourself."
"Was that what Gregor meant, when he told you to talk to him? Your da sounds wise. I'd like to meet him."
"He
wants to meet you, too. Of course, he immediately followed this up by
asking me how I stood with myself. He has this . . . this eye ."
"I
think . . . I know what he means." She might curl her fingers around
his hand, lying loosely on his thigh so close to hers. Surely it would
lie warm and reassuring in her palm . . . You've betrayed yourself before, in starvation for touch. Don't.
"The day Tien died, I went from being the kind of person who made, and
kept, a life-oath, to one who broke it in two and walked away. My oath
had mattered the world to me, or at least . . . I'd traded the world
for it. I still don't know if I was forsworn for nothing or not. I
don't suppose Tien would have gone charging out in that stupid way that
night if I hadn't shocked him by telling him I was leaving." She fell
silent for a little. The room was very still. The thick old stone walls
kept out the city noises. "I am not who I was. I can't go back. I don't
quite like who I have become. Yet I still . . . stand. But I hardly
know how to go on from here. No one ever gave me a map for this road."
"Ah,"
said Miles. "Ah. That one." His voice was not in the least puzzled; he
spoke in a tone of firm recognition.
"Towards the
end, my oath was the only piece of me left that hadn't been ground
down. When I tried to talk about this to Aunt Vorthys, she tried to
reassure me that it was all right because everyone else thought Tien
was an ass. You see . . . it has nothing to do with Tien, saint or monster. It was me, and my word."
He shrugged. "What's hard to see about that? It's blazingly obvious to me ."
She
turned her head, and looked down at his face, which looked up at her in
patient curiosity. Yes, he perfectly understood—yet did not seek to
comfort her by dismissing her distress, or trying to convince her it
didn't matter. The sensation was like opening the door to what she'd
thought was a closet, and stepping through into another country,
rolling out before her widening eyes. Oh.
"In my experience," he said, "the trouble with oaths of the form, death before dishonor
, is that eventually, given enough time and abrasion, they separate the
world into just two sorts of people: the dead, and the forsworn. It's a
survivor's problem, this one."
"Yes," she agreed quietly. He knows. He knows it all, right down to that bitter muck of regret at the bottom of the soul's well. How does he know?
"Death
before dishonor. Well, at least no one can complain I got them out of
order . . . You know . . ." He started to look away, but then looked
back, to hold her eye directly. His face was a little pale. "I wasn't
exactly medically discharged from ImpSec. Illyan fired me. For
falsifying a report about my seizures."
"Oh," she said. "I didn't know that."
"I
know you didn't. I don't exactly go round advertising the fact, for
pretty obvious reasons. I was trying so hard to hang on to my
career—Admiral Naismith was everything to me, life and honor and most
of my identity by then—I broke it instead. Not that I didn't set myself
up for it. Admiral Naismith began as a lie, one I redeemed by making
him come true later. And it worked really well, for a while; the little
Admiral brought me everything I ever thought I wanted. After a while I
began to think all sins could be redeemed like that. Lie now, fix it
later. Same as I tried to do with you. Even love is not as strong as
habit, eh?"
Now she did dare to tighten her arm
around him. No reason for them both to starve. . . . For a moment, he
went as breathless as a man laying food before a wild animal, trying to
coax it to his hand. Abashed, she drew back.
She inhaled, and ventured, "Habits. Yes. I feel as if I'm half-crippled with old reflexes." Old scars of mind. "Tien . . . seems never more than a thought away from me. Will his death ever fade, do you suppose?"
Now
he didn't look at her. Didn't dare? "I can't answer for you. My own
ghosts just seem to ride along, mostly unconsulted, always there. Their
density gradually thins, or I grow used to them." He stared around the
attic, blew out his breath, and added elliptically, "Did I ever tell
you how I came to kill my grandfather? The great general who survived
it all, Cetagandans, Mad Yuri, everything this century could throw at
him?"
She declined to be baited into whatever
shocked response he thought this dramatic statement deserved, but
merely raised her brows.
"I disappointed him to
death, eh, the day I blew my Academy entrance exams, and lost my first
chance at a military career. He died that night."
"Of
course," she said dryly, "you were the cause. It couldn't possibly have
had anything to do with his being nearly a hundred years old."
"Yeah,
sure, I know." Miles shrugged, and gave her a sharp look up from under
his dark brows. "The same way you know Tien's death was an accident."
"Miles," she said, after a long, thoughtful pause, "are you trying to one-up my dead?"
Taken
aback, his lips began to form an indignant denial, which weakened to
an, "Oh." He gently thumped his forehead on her shoulder as if beating
his head against a wall. When he spoke again, his ragging tone did not
quite muffle real anguish. "How can you stand me? I can't even stand me!"
I think that was the true confession. We are surely come to the end of one another. "Sh. Sh."
Now
he did take her hand, his fingers tightening around it as warmly as any
embrace. She did not jerk back in startlement, though an odd shiver ran
through her. Isn't starving yourself a betrayal too, self against self?
"To
use Kareen's Betan psychology terminology," she said a little
breathlessly, "I have this Thing about oaths. When you became an
Imperial Auditor, you took oath again. Even though you were forsworn
once. How could you bear to?"
"Oh," he said,
looking around a little vaguely. "What, when they issued you your
honor, didn't they give you the model with the reset button? Mine's
right here." He pointed to the general vicinity of his navel.
She
couldn't help it; her black laughter pealed out, echoing off the beams.
Something inside her, wrapped tight to the breaking-point, loosened at
that laugh. When he made her laugh like that, it was like light and air
let in upon wounds too dark and painful to touch, and so a chance at
healing. "Is that what that's for? I never knew."
He
smiled, recapturing her hand. "A very wise woman once told me—you just
go on. I've never encountered any good advice that didn't boil down to
that, in the end. Not even my father's."
I want to be with you always, so you can make me laugh myself well
. He stared down at her palm in his as though he wanted to kiss it. He
was close enough that she could feel their every breath, matching
rhythms. The silence lengthened. She had come to give him up, not get
into a necking session . . . if this went on, she'd end up kissing him.
The scent of him filled her nose, her mouth, seemed rushed by her blood
to every cell of her body. Intimacy of the flesh seemed easy, after the
far more terrifying intimacy of the mind.
Finally,
with enormous effort, she sat up straight. With perhaps equal effort,
he released her hand. Her heart was thumping as though she'd been
running. Trying for an ordinary voice, she said, "Then your considered
opinion is, we should wait for my uncle to take on Vassily. Do you
really think this nonsense is meant as a trap?"
"It has that smell. I can't quite tell yet how many levels down the stench is coming from. It might only be Alexi trying to cut me out."
"But
then one considers who Alexi's friends are. I see." She attempted a
brisk tone. "So, are you going to nail Richars and the Vormoncrief
party, in the Council day after tomorrow?"
"Ah,"
he said. "There's something I need to tell you about that." He looked
away, tapped his lips, looked back. He was still smiling, but his eyes
had gone serious, almost bleak. "I believe I've made a strategic error.
You, ah, know Richars Vorrutyer seized on this slander as a lever to
try and force a vote from me?"
She said
hesitantly, "I'd gathered something of a sort was going on, behind the
scenes. I didn't realize it was quite so overt."
"Crude.
Actually." He grimaced. "Since blackmail wasn't a behavior I wished to
reward, my answer was to put all my clout, such as it is, behind Dono."
"Good!"
He
smiled briefly, but shook his head. "Richars and I now stand at an
impasse. If he wins the Countship, my open opposition almost forces him
to go on to make his threat good. At that point, he'll have the right
and the power. He won't move immediately—I expect it will take him some
weeks to collect allies and marshal resources. And if he has any
tactical wits, he'll wait till after Gregor's wedding. But you see what
comes next."
Her stomach tightened. She could see all too well, but . . . "Can he get rid of you by charging you with Tien's murder? I thought any such charge would be quashed."
"Well,
if wiser heads can't talk Richars out of it . . . the practicalities
become peculiar. In fact, the more I think about it, the messier it
looks." He spread his fingers on his gray-trousered knee, and counted
down the list. "Assassination is out." By his grimace, that was meant
as a joke. Almost. "Gregor wouldn't authorize it for anything less than
overt treason, and Richars is embarrassingly loyal to the Imperium. For
all I know, he really does believe I murdered Tien, which makes
him an honest man, of sorts. Taking Richars quietly aside and telling
him the truth about Komarr is right out. I'd expect a lot of
maneuvering around the lack of evidence, and a verdict of Not Proven.
Well, ImpSec might manufacture some evidence, but I'm getting pretty
queasy wondering what kind. Neither my reputation nor yours will be
their top priority. And you're bound to be sucked into it at some
point, and I . . . won't be in control of all that happens."
She
found her teeth were pressed together. She ran her tongue over her
lips, to loosen the taut muscles of her jaw. "Endurance used to be my
specialty. In the old days."
"I was hoping to bring you some new days."
She scarcely knew what to say to this, so merely shrugged.
"There is another choice. Another way I can divert this . . . sewer."
"Oh?"
"I
can fold. Stop campaigning. Cast the Vorkosigan's District vote as an
abstention . . . no, that likely wouldn't be enough to repair the
damages. Cast it for Richars, then. Publicly back down."
She drew in her breath. No! "Has Gregor asked you to do this? Or ImpSec?"
"No. Not yet, anyway. But I was wondering if . . . you would wish it so."
She
looked away from him, for three long breaths. When she looked back, she
said levelly, "I think we'd both have to use that reset button of
yours, after that."
He took this in with almost no
change of expression, but for a weird little quirk at the corner of his
mouth. "Dono doesn't have enough votes."
"As long as he has yours . . . I should be satisfied."
"As long as you understand what's likely coming down."
"I understand."
He vented a long, covert exhalation.
Was
there nothing she could do to help his cause? Well, Miles's hidden
enemies wouldn't be jerking so many strings if they didn't want to
produce some ill-considered motions. Stillness, then, and silence—not
of the prey that cowered, but of the hunter who waited. She regarded
Miles searchingly. His face was its usual cheerful mask, but
nerve-stretched underneath . . . "Just out of curiosity, when was the
last time you used your seizure stimulator?"
He
didn't quite meet her eye. "It's . . . been a while. I've been too
busy. You know it knocks me on my ass for a day."
"As
opposed to falling on your ass in the Council chamber on the day of
reckoning? No. I believe you have a couple of votes to cast. You use it
tonight. Promise me!"
"Yes, ma'am," he said
humbly. From the odd little gleam in his eye, he was not so crushed as
his briefly hang-dog look suggested. "I promise."
Promises. "I have to go."
He
rose without argument. "I'll walk you out." They strolled arm in arm,
picking their way down the aisle through the hazards of discarded
history. "How did you get here?"
"Autocab."
"Can I have Pym give you a lift home?"
"Sure."
In
the end, he rode with her, in the back of the vast old armored
groundcar. They talked only of little things, as if they had all the
time in the world. The drive was short. They did not touch each other,
when he let her off. The car pulled away. The silvered canopy hid . . .
everything.
* * *
Ivan's
smile muscles were giving out. Vorhartung Castle was brilliantly
appointed tonight for the Council of Counts' reception for the newly
arrived Komarran delegation to Gregor's wedding, which the Komarrans
persisted in calling Laisa's wedding. Lights and flowers decorated the
main entry hall, the grand staircase to the Council Chamber gallery,
and the great salon where dinner had been held. The party did dual
duty, also celebrating the augmented solar mirror array voted by, or
rammed through, depending on one's political view, the Council last
week. It was an Imperial bride-gift of truly planetary scope.
The
feast had been followed by speeches and a holovid presentation
displaying plans not only for the mirror array, vital to Komarr's
ongoing terraforming, but unveiling designs for a new jump-point
station to be built by a joint Barrayaran-Komarran consortium including
Toscane Industries and Vorsmythe Ltd. His mother had assigned Ivan a
Komarran heiress to squire about this intimate little soiree of five
hundred persons; alas that she was sixty-plus years old, married, and
the empress-to-be's aunt.
Unintimidated by her
high Vor surroundings, this cheerful gray-haired lady was serene in her
possession of a large chunk of Toscane Industries, a couple of thousand
Komarran planetary voting shares, and an unmarried granddaughter upon
whom she plainly doted. Ivan, admiring the vid pix, agreed that the
girl was charming, beautiful, and clearly vastly intelligent. But since
she was also only seven years old, she'd been left at home. After
dutifully conducting Aunt Anna and her immediate hangers-on about the
castle and pointing out its most salient architectural and historical
features, Ivan managed to wedge the whole party back into the crowd of
Komarrans around Gregor and Laisa, and plotted his escape. As Aunt
Anna, in a voice raised to pierce the hubbub, informed Ivan's mother
that he was a very cute boy , he faded backwards through the mob, angling toward the servitors stationed by the side walls handing out after-dinner drinks.
He
almost bounced off a young couple making their way down the side aisle,
who were looking at each other instead of where they were going. Lord
William Vortashpula, Count Vortashpula's heir, had lately announced his
engagement to Lady Cassia Vorgorov. Cassie was in wonderful looks: eyes
bright, face becomingly flushed, low-cut gown—dammit, had she
done something to augment her bustline, or had she simply matured a bit
over the past couple of years? Ivan was still trying to decide when she
caught his gaze; she tossed her head, making the flowers wound in her
smooth brown hair bounce, smirked, gripped her fiancй's arm more
tightly, and stalked past him. Lord Vortashpula twittered a brief
distracted greeting to Ivan before he was towed off.
"Pretty
girl," said a gruff voice at Ivan's elbow, making him flinch. Ivan
turned to find his cousin-several-times-removed Count Falco Vorpatril
watching him from under fiercely bushy gray eyebrows. "Too bad you
missed your chance with her, Ivan. Dumped you for a better berth, did
she?"
"I was not dumped by Cassie Vorgorov," said Ivan a little hotly. "I was never even courting her."
Falco's
deep chuckle was unpleasantly disbelieving. "Your mother told me Cassie
had quite a crush on you, at one time. She seems to have recovered
nicely. Cassie, not your mother, poor woman. Although Lady Alys seems
to have got over all her disappointments in your ill-fated love
matches, too." He glanced across the room toward the group around the
Emperor, where Illyan attended upon Lady Alys with his usual quiet
panache.
"None of my love matches were ill-fated,
sir," said Ivan stiffly. "They were all brought to mutually agreeable
conclusions. I choose to play the field."
Falco
merely smiled. Ivan, disdaining to be baited further, made a polite bow
to the aged but upright Count Vorhalas, who had come up to his old
colleague Falco. Falco was either a progressive Conservative, or a
conservative Progressive, a notorious fence-sitter courted by both
sides. Vorhalas had been key man in the Conservative opposition to the
Vorkosigan-led Centrist machine for as long as Ivan could remember. He
was not a Party leader, but his reputation for iron integrity made him
the man to whom all others looked to set the standard.
Ivan's
cousin Miles came strolling down the aisle just then, smiling slightly,
his hands in the pockets of his brown-and-silver Vorkosigan House
uniform. Ivan tensed to duck out of the line of fire, should Miles be
looking for volunteers for whatever ungodly scheme he might be pursuing
at the moment, but Miles merely gave him a half-salute. He murmured
greetings to the two Counts, and gave Vorhalas a respectful nod, which,
after a moment, the old man returned.
"Where away,
Vorkosigan?" Falco inquired easily. "Are you going to that reception at
Vorsmythe House after this?"
"No, the rest of the
team will be covering that one. I'll be joining Gregor's party." He
hesitated, then smiled invitingly. "Unless, perhaps, you two gentlemen
would be willing to reconsider Lord Dono's suit, and would like to go
somewhere and discuss it?"
Vorhalas just shook his
head, but Falco grunted a laugh. "Give over, Miles, do. That one's
hopeless. God knows you've been giving it your all—at least, I know I've
tripped over you everywhere I've been for the past week—but I'm afraid
the Progressives are going to have to be satisfied with this soletta
gift victory."
Miles glanced around at the
dwindling crowd, and gave a judicious shrug. He'd done a good bit of
tearing around on Gregor's behalf to bring this vote off, Ivan knew, in
addition to his intense campaigning for Dono and Renй. Little wonder he
looked drained. "We have all done a good turn for our future, here. I
think this mirror augmentation will be bearing fruit for the Imperium
long before the terraforming is complete."
"Mm,"
said Vorhalas neutrally. His had been an abstaining vote on the mirror
matter, but Gregor's majority had made it of no moment.
"I wish Ekaterin might have been here tonight to see this," Miles added wistfully.
"Yeah,
why didn't you bring her?" asked Ivan. He didn't understand Miles's
strategy on this one; he thought the beleaguered couple would be far
better served openly defying public opinion, and so forcing it to bend
around them, than cravenly bowing to it. Bravado would be much more
Miles's style, too.
"We'll see. After tomorrow." He added under his breath, "I wish the damn vote was over."
Ivan
grinned, and lowered his tone in response. "What, and you so Betan?
Half-Betan. I thought you approved of democracy, Miles. Don't you like
it after all?"
Miles smiled thinly, and declined
to be baited. He bade his seniors a cordial good-night, and walked off
a bit stiffly.
"Aral's boy doesn't look well," Vorhalas observed, staring after him.
"Well,
he did have that medical discharge from the Service," Falco allowed.
"It was a wonder he was able to serve as long as he did. I suppose his
old troubles caught up with him."
This was true,
Ivan reflected, but not in the sense Falco meant. Vorhalas looked a bit
grim, possibly thinking about Miles's prenatal soltoxin damage, and the
painful Vorhalas family history that went with it. Ivan, taking pity on
the old man, put in, "No, sir. He was injured on duty." In fact, that
gray skin tone and hampered motion strongly suggested Miles had
undergone one of his seizures lately.
Count
Vorhalas frowned thoughtfully at him. "So, Ivan. You know him about as
well as anyone. What do you make of this ugly tale going around about
him and that Vorsoisson woman's late husband?"
"I think it is a complete fabrication, sir."
"Alys says the same," Falco noted. "I'd say she's in a position to know the truth if anyone is."
"That,
I grant you." Vorhalas glanced at the Emperor's entourage, across the
glittering and crowded salon. "I also think she is entirely loyal to
the Vorkosigans, and would lie without hesitation to protect their
interests."
"You are half right, sir," said Ivan testily. "She is entirely loyal."
Vorhalas
made a placating gesture. "Don't bite me, boy. I suppose we'll never
really know. One learns to live with such uncertainties, as one grows
older."
Ivan choked back an irritable reply. Count
Vorhalas's was the sixth such more or less oblique inquiry into his
cousin's affairs Ivan had endured tonight. If Miles was putting up with
half this, it was no wonder he looked exhausted. Although, Ivan
reflected morosely, it was probable that very few men dared asked him
such questions to his face—which meant that Ivan was drawing all the fire meant for Miles. Typical, just typical.
Falco
said to Vorhalas, "If you're not going on to Vorsmythe's, why don't you
come back with me to Vorpatril House? Where we can at least drink
sitting down. I've been meaning to have a quiet talk with you about
that watershed project."
"Thank you, Falco. That
sounds considerably more restful. Nothing like the prospect of vast
sums of money changing hands to generate rather wearing excitement
among our colleagues."
From which Ivan concluded
that the industries in Vorhalas's District had largely missed the boat
on this new Komarran economic opportunity. The glazed numbness creeping
over him had nothing to do with too much to drink; in fact, it
suggested he'd had far too little. He was about to continue his trip to
the bar when an even better diversion crossed his vision.
Olivia
Koudelka. She was wearing a white-and-beige lace confection that
somehow emphasized her blond shyness. And she was alone. At least temporarily.
"Ah.
Excuse me, gentlemen. I see a friend in need." Ivan escaped the
grayhairs, and bore down on his quarry, a smile lighting his face and
his brain going into overdrive. Gentle Olivia had always been eclipsed
on Ivan's scanner by her older and bolder sisters Delia and Martya. But
Delia had chosen Duv Galeni, and Martya had bounced Ivan's suit in no
uncertain terms. Maybe . . . maybe he'd stopped working his way down
the Koudelka family tree a tad too soon.
"Good
evening, Olivia. What a pretty frock." Yes, women spent so much time on
their clothes, it was always a good opening move to notice the effort.
"Enjoying yourself?"
"Oh, hi, Ivan. Yes, certainly."
"I didn't see you earlier. Mama put me to work buttering up Komarrans."
"We were rather late arriving. This is our fourth stop this evening."
We? "The rest of your family here? I saw Delia with Duv, of course. They're caught over there in that cluster around Gregor."
"Are they? Oh, good. We'll have to say hi before we go."
"What are you doing after this?"
"Going on to that squeeze at Vorsmythe House. It's potentially extremely valuable."
While
Ivan was trying to decode this last cryptic remark, Olivia looked up,
her gaze caught by someone. Her lips parted and her eyes lit, reminding
Ivan for a dizzy moment of Cassie Vorgorov. Alarmed, he followed the
line of her glance. But there was no one in it except Lord Dono
Vorrutyer, apparently just parting company with his/her old friend
Countess Vormuir. The Countess, svelte in a red dress that strikingly
complemented Dono's sober black, patted Dono on the arm, laughed, and
strolled away. Countess Vormuir was still estranged from her husband,
as far as Ivan knew; he wondered what kind of time Dono might be making
with her. The concept made his brain cramp.
"Vorsmythe House, eh?" said Ivan. "Maybe I'll go along. I can about guarantee they'll be trotting out the good wine, for this. How are you getting there?"
"Groundcar. Would you like a lift?"
Perfect.
"Why, yes, thank you. I would." He'd ridden here with his mother and
Illyan, from his point of view to avoid risking his speedster's enamel
in the parking cram, from hers so that she could be sure he'd show up
for duty as ordered. He hadn't anticipated that the absence of his own
car would prove a tactical aid. He smiled brilliantly down upon Olivia.
Dono
strode over to them, smiling in a peculiarly satisfied manner that put
Ivan disquietingly in mind of the lost Lady Donna. Dono was not a
person with whom Ivan cared to be quite so publicly paired. Perhaps he
could keep Olivia's hellos brief, and then whisk her off.
"Things
look like they're breaking up," said Dono to Olivia. He gave Ivan a nod
of greeting. "Shall I call Szabo to bring round the car?"
"We
ought to see Delia and Duv first. Then we can go. Oh, I offered Ivan a
ride along with us to Vorsmythe's. I think there'll be room."
"Certainly." Dono smiled cheerful welcome.
"Did
she take the packet?" Olivia asked Dono, with a glance up at the flash
of red now vanishing into the crowd.
Dono's smile broadened briefly to a remarkably evil grin. "Yep."
While
Ivan was still trying, and failing, to calculate how to get rid of the
person providing the transportation, Byerly Vorrutyer made his way
around some tables and descended upon them. Damn. Worse and worse.
"Ah, Dono," By greeted his cousin. "Are you still planning on Vorsmythe's for your last stop of the night?"
"Yes. Do you need a ride too?"
"Not from here to there. I have other arrangements. I'd appreciate if you could drop me home after, though."
"Of course."
"What a long talk you had with Countess Vormuir, out there on the balcony. Chewing over old times, were you?"
"Oh, yes." Dono smiled vaguely. "This and that, you know."
By
gave him a penetrating look, but Dono declined to elaborate. By asked,
"Did you manage to get in to see Count Vorpinski this afternoon?"
"Yes,
finally, and a couple of others too. Vortaine was no help, but at least
with Olivia along he was forced to stay polite. Vorfolse, Vorhalas, and
Vorpatril all declined to hear my pitch, unfortunately." Dono shot Ivan
a somewhat ambiguous look from under his black brows. "Well, I'm not
sure about Vorfolse. No one answered the door; he might really have not
been home. It was hard to tell."
"So how's the vote tally doing?" By asked.
"Close,
By. Closer than I'd ever dared to dream, to tell you the truth. The
uncertainty is now making me quite sick to my stomach."
"You'll get through it. Ah . . . close on which side?" By inquired.
"The wrong one. Unfortunately. Well . . ." Dono sighed, "it will have been a great try."
Olivia
said sturdily, "You're going to make history." Dono pressed her hand to
his arm, and smiled gratefully at her.
Byerly
shrugged, which by his standards qualified as a consoling gesture. "Who
knows what might happen to turn things around?"
"Between now and tomorrow morning? Not much, I'm afraid. The die is pretty much cast."
"Chin
up. There're still a couple of hours to work on the men at Vorsmythe
House. Just stay sharp. I'll help. See you over there. . . ."
And
so Ivan found himself not with a private opportunity to make time with
Olivia, but rather, trapped with her, Dono, Szabo, and two other
Vorrutyer Armsmen in the back of the late Count Pierre's official car.
Pierre's was one of the few vehicles Ivan had ever encountered that
could beat Miles's Regency relic for both fusty luxury and a paranoid
armoring that made its best progress a sort of lumbering wallow. Not
that it wasn't comfortable ; Ivan had slept in space station
hostel rooms that were smaller than this rear compartment. But Olivia
had somehow ended up seated between Dono and Szabo, while Ivan shared
body heat with a couple of Armsmen.
They were
two-thirds of the way to Vorsmythe House when Dono, who had been
staring out the canopy with little vertical lines scored between his
brows, suddenly leaned forward and spoke into the intercom to his
driver. "Joris, swing around by Count Vorfolse's again. We'll give him
one more try."
The car lumbered around the next
corner, and began to backtrack. In a couple of minutes, the apartment
building containing Vorfolse's flat loomed into view.
The
Vorfolse family had a remarkable record for picking the losers in every
Barrayaran war of the last century, including choosing to collaborate
with the Cetagandans and backing the wrong side in Vordarian's
Pretendership. The somewhat morose present heir, oppressed by his
ancestors' many defeats, eked out his life in the capital by renting
the drafty old Vorfolse clan mansion to an enterprising prole with
grandiose ambitions, and living entirely off the proceeds. Instead of
the permitted squad of twenty, he kept only a single Armsman, an
equally depressed and rather elderly fellow who doubled as every
servant the Count had. Still, Vorfolse's apprehensive refusal to align
himself with any faction or party or project, no matter how benign it
appeared, at least meant he wasn't an automatic yes for Richars. And a vote was a vote, Ivan supposed, no matter how eccentric.
A
narrow, multilevel parking garage attached to the building provided
spaces for the prole residents to house their vehicles, at a stiff
surcharge Ivan had no doubt. Parking space in the capital was normally
leased by the square meter. Joris oozed Pierre's groundcar into the
meager clearances, then suffered a check when he discovered all the
ground-floor visitor parking to be taken.
Ivan,
planning to stay in the comfy car with Olivia, revised his plan when
Olivia jumped out to accompany Dono. Dono left Joris waiting for a
space to open up, and, flanked by Olivia and his security outriders,
strode out through the street-level pedestrian access and around toward
the apartment building's front entrance. Torn between curiosity and
caution, Ivan trailed along. With a short gesture, Szabo left one of
his men to take station by the outer door, and the second by the lift
tube exit on the third floor, so that by the time they arrived at
Vorfolse's flat they were a not-too-intimidating party of four.
A discreet brass tag was screwed a little crookedly to the door above the apartment's number; it read Vorfolse House
in a script that was meant to be imposing, but, in context, succeeded
mainly in being rather pathetic. Ivan was reminded of his Aunt
Cordelia's frequent assertion that governments were mental constructs.
Lord Dono touched the chime-pad.
After a couple of
minutes, a querulous voice issued from the intercom. The little square
of its vid viewer stayed blank. "What do you want?"
Dono glanced at Szabo, and whispered, "That Vorfolse?"
"Sounds like," Szabo murmured back. "It's not quavery enough to be his old Armsman."
"Good
evening, Count Vorfolse," Dono said smoothly into the com. "I'm Lord
Dono Vorrutyer." He gestured at his companions. "I believe you know
Ivan Vorpatril, and my senior Armsman, Szabo. Miss Olivia Koudelka. I
stopped by to talk to you about tomorrow's vote on my District's
Countship."
"It's too late," said the voice.
Szabo rolled his eyes.
"I have no wish to disturb your rest," Dono pressed on.
"Good. Go away."
Dono
sighed. "Certainly, sir. But before we depart, may I at least be
permitted to know how you intend to vote on the issue tomorrow?"
"I don't care which Vorrutyer gets the District. The whole family's deranged. A plague on both your parties."
Dono
took a breath, and kept smiling. "Yes, sir, but consider the
consequences. If you abstain, and the vote falls short of a decision,
it will simply have to be done over again. And over and over, until a
majority is finally reached. I would also point out that you would find
my cousin Richars a most unrestful colleague—short-tempered, and much
given to factionalism and strife."
Such a long silence issued from the intercom, Ivan began to wonder if Vorfolse had gone off to bed.
Olivia
leaned into the scan pickup to say brightly, "Count Vorfolse, sir, if
you vote for Lord Dono, you won't regret it. He'll give diligent
service to both the Vorrutyer's District and to the Imperium."
The
voice replied after a moment, "Eh, you're one of Commodore Koudelka's
girls, aren't you? Does Aral Vorkosigan support this nonsense, then?"
"Lord Miles Vorkosigan, who is acting as his father's voting deputy, supports me fully," Dono returned.
"Unrestful. Eh! There's unrestful for you."
"No doubt," said Dono agreeably. "I have noticed that myself. But how do you intend to vote?"
Another pause. "I don't know. I'll think about it."
"Thank
you, sir." Dono motioned them all to decamp; his little retinue
followed him back toward the lift tubes.
"That wasn't too conclusive," said Ivan.
"Do you have any idea how positive I'll think about it
seems, in light of some of the responses I've gotten?" said Dono
ruefully. "Compared to certain of his colleagues, Count Vorfolse is a
fountain of liberality." They collected the Armsman, and descended the
lift tube. Dono added as they reached the ground foyer, "You have to
give Vorfolse credit for integrity. There are a number of dubious ways
he could be stripping his District of funds to support a more opulent
lifestyle here, but he doesn't choose 'em."
"Huh," said Szabo. "If I were one of his liege people, I'd damn well encourage him to steal something. It would be better than this miserable miserly farce. It's just not proper Vor. It's not good show ."
They
exited the building with Szabo in the lead, Dono and Olivia somehow
walking side by side, and Ivan following, trailed by the two other
Armsmen. As they passed through the pedestrian entry to the dim garage,
Szabo stopped short and said, "Where the hell's the car?" He lifted his
wrist comm to his lips. "Joris?"
Olivia said
uneasily, "If somebody else had come in, he'd have had to take the car
all the way up, back down, and around the block to let them past. No
room to turn that car in here."
"Not
without—" Szabo began. He was interrupted by a quiet buzz, seemingly
out of nowhere, a sound familiar enough to Ivan's ears. Szabo fell like
a tree.
"Stunner tag!" bellowed Ivan, and jumped
behind the nearest pillar to his right. He looked around for Olivia,
but she had dodged the other way, with Dono. Two more well-aimed
stunner shots took out the other two Armsmen as they broke right and
left, though one got off a wild shot with his own weapon before he went
down.
Ivan, crouching between the pillar and a
dilapidated groundcar, cursed his unarmed state and tried to see where
the shots had come from. Pillars, cars, inadequate lighting, shadows .
. . further up the ramp, a dim shape flitted from the shadow of a pier
and vanished among the tightly packed vehicles.
Stunner
combat rules were simple. Drop everything that moved, and sort them out
later, hoping that no one harbored a bad heart condition. Dono's
unconscious Armsman could supply Ivan with a stunner, if he could reach
it without getting himself zapped. . . .
A voice from up the ramp whispered hoarsely, "Which way did he go?"
"Down toward the entry. Goff'll get him. Drop that damned officer as soon as you get a clear shot."
At least three assailants, then. Assume one more. At least
one more. Cursing the tight clearances, Ivan retreated backward on his
hands and knees from his stunner-bolt-stopping pillar and tried to work
his way between the row of cars and the wall, edging toward the entry
again. If he could make it out onto the street—
This
had to be a snatch. If it had been an assassination, their attackers
would have picked a much deadlier weapon, and the whole party would be
well-mixed hamburger on the walls by now. In a slice of vision between
two cars, away down the descending ramp to his left, a white shape
moved: Olivia's party dress. A meaty thunk came from behind a pillar
there, followed by a nauseating noise like a pumpkin hitting concrete.
"Good one!" Dono's voice jerked out.
Olivia's mother, Ivan reminded himself, had been the boy-Emperor's personal
bodyguard. He tried to imagine the cozy mother-daughter instruction
rituals in the Koudelka household. He was pretty sure they hadn't been
limited to baking cakes together.
A black-clad shape darted.
"There he goes! Get him! No, no—he's supposed to stay conscious !"
Running
footsteps, scuffling and breathing, a thunk, a strangled yelp—praying
everyone's attention would be diverted, Ivan dove for the Armsman's
stunner, snatched it up, and ducked again for cover. From the ascending
ramp to the right came the whuff of a vehicle backing rapidly
and illegally down toward them. Ivan risked a peek over a car. The back
doors of the battered lift van swung wildly open, as it jerked to a
halt at the curve. Two men hustled Dono toward it. Dono was
open-mouthed, stumbling, a look of astonished agony on his face.
"Where's
Goff?" barked the driver, swinging out to look at his two comrades and
their prize. "Goff!" he shouted.
"Where's the girl?" asked one of them.
The
other said, "Never mind the girl. Here, help me bend him back. We'll do
the job, dump him, and get out of here before she can run for help.
Malka, circle around and get that big officer. He wasn't supposed to be
in this picture." They pulled Dono into the van—no, only half into the
van. One man pulled a bottle from his pocket, flipped off its cap, and
placed it ready-to-hand on the edge of the van floor. What the hell . .
. ? This isn't a kidnapping.
"Goff?" the
man detailed to hunt down Ivan called uncertainly into the shadows, as
he crouched and skittered past the cars.
The, under the circumstances, extremely
unpleasant hum of a vibra knife sounded from the hand of the man
bending over Dono. Risking everything, Ivan popped to his feet and
fired.
He scored a direct hit on the fellow
seeking Goff; the man spasmed, fell, and failed to move thereafter.
Dono's men carried heavy stunners, and not without cause,
apparently. Ivan only managed to wing one of the others. They both
abandoned Dono and dashed behind the van. Dono fell to the pavement,
and curled up around himself; with all this stunner fire flashing
around, probably no worse a move than trying to run for it, but Ivan
had a gruesome vision of what would happen if the van backed up.
From further up the ramp, on the far side of the van, two more stunner bolts snapped out in quick succession.
Silence.
After a moment, Ivan called cautiously, "Olivia?"
She responded from higher up the ramp in a breathless sort of little-girl voice, "Ivan? Dono?"
Dono spasmed on the pavement, and vented a moan.
Warily,
Ivan stood up and started for the van. After a couple of seconds,
probably to see if he would draw any more fire, Olivia rose from her
cover and ran lightly down the ramp to join him.
"Where'd
you get the stunner?" he inquired, as she popped around the vehicle's
side. She was barefoot, and her party dress was tucked up around her
hips.
"Goff." Somewhat absently, she jerked her
skirts back down with her free hand. "Dono! Oh, no!" She jammed the
stunner into her cleavage and knelt by the black-clad man. She raised a
hand covered, sickeningly, with blood.
"Only," gasped Dono, "a cut on my leg. He missed. Oh, God! Ow, ow!"
"You're
bleeding all over the place. Lie still, love!" Olivia commanded. She
looked around a little frantically, jumped up and peered into the dark
cavernous emptiness of the van's freight compartment, then determinedly
ripped off the beige lace overskirt of her party dress. More quick
ripping sounds, as she hastily fashioned a pad and some strips. She
began to bind the pad tightly to the long shallow slash along Dono's
thigh, to staunch the bleeding.
Ivan circled the
van, collected Olivia's two victims, and dragged them back to deposit
in a heap where he could keep an eye on them. Olivia now had Dono half
sitting up, his head cradled between her breasts as she anxiously
stroked his dark hair. Dono was pale and shaking, his breathing
disrupted.
"Take a punch in the solar plexus, did you?" Ivan inquired.
"No.
Further down," Dono wheezed. "Ivan . . . do you remember, whenever one
of you fellows got kicked in the nuts and went over, doing sports or
whatever, how I laughed? I'm sorry. I never knew. I'm sorry . . ."
"Sh," Olivia soothed him.
Ivan
knelt down for a closer look. Olivia's first aid was doing its job; the
beige lace was soaked with bright gore, but the bleeding had definitely
slowed. Dono wasn't going to exsanguinate here. His assailant had
sliced Dono's trousers open; the vibra-knife lay abandoned on the
pavement nearby. Ivan rose, and examined the bottle. His head jerked
back at the sharp scent of liquid bandage. He considered offering it to
Olivia for Dono, but there was no telling what nasty additives it might
be spiked with. Carefully, he recapped it, and stared around at the
scene. "It seems," he said shakily, "someone was aiming to reverse your
Betan surgery, Dono. Disqualify you just before the vote."
"I'd figured that out, yeah," Dono mumbled.
"Without
anesthetic. I think the liquid bandage was to stop the bleeding, after.
To be sure you'd live through it."
Olivia cried out in revolted horror. "That'sawful !"
"That's," Dono sighed, "Richars, in all probability. I didn't think he'd go this far. . . ."
"That's—"
said Ivan, and stopped. He scowled at the vibra knife, and stirred it
with the toe of his boot. "Now, I'm not saying I approve of what you
did, Dono, or of what you're trying to do. But that's just wrong ."
Dono's
hands wandered protectively to his groin. "Hell," he said in a faint
voice. "I hadn't even got to try it out yet. I was saving myself. For once in my life, I wanted to be a virgin on my wedding night . . ."
"Can you stand up?"
"Are you joking?"
"No." Ivan glanced around uneasily. "Where'd you leave Goff, Olivia?"
She pointed. "Over by that third pillar."
"Right."
Ivan went to collect him, seriously wondering where Pierre's car had
gone. The thug Goff was still unconscious too, although of a subtly
more disturbing limpness than the stunner victims. It was the greenish
skin tone, Ivan decided, and the weird spongy lump on his head. He
paused along the route, in dragging Goff to join the others, to check
Szabo's wrist comm for Joris. No answer, though Szabo's pulse seemed to
be bumping along all right.
Dono was stirring, but still not ready to stand. Ivan frowned, stared around, then jogged up the ramp.
Just
around the next curve, Ivan found Pierre's groundcar sitting skewed a
little sideways across the concrete. Ivan didn't know by what trick
they'd lured Joris out of it, but the young Armsman lay in a stunned
heap in front of the car. Ivan sighed, and dragged him around to dump
in the rear compartment, and backed the car carefully down to the van.
Dono's color was coming back, and he was now sitting up only a little bent over.
"We have to get Dono medical attention," Olivia told Ivan anxiously.
"Yep.
We're going to need all kinds of drugs," Ivan agreed. "Synergine for
some," he craned his neck toward Szabo, who twitched and moaned but
didn't quite claw back to consciousness, "fast-penta for others." He
frowned at the heap of thugs. "You recognize any of these goons, Dono?"
Dono squinted. "Never seen 'em in my life."
"Hirelings,
I suppose. Contracted through who knows how many middlemen. Could be
days before the municipal guard, or ImpSec if they take an interest,
get to the bottom of it all."
"The vote," sighed Dono, "will be over by then."
I don't want anything to do with this. This isn't my job. It's not my fault. But really, this was a political precedent nobody was going to favor. This was damned offensive . This was just . . . really wrong .
"Olivia," Ivan said abruptly, "can you drive Dono's car?"
"I think so . . ."
"Good. Help me get the troops loaded up."
With
Olivia's assistance, Ivan managed to get the three stunned Vorrutyer
Armsmen laid into the rear compartment with the unfortunate Joris, and
the disarmed thugs hoisted rather less carefully into the back of their
own van. He locked the doors firmly from the outside, and took charge
of the vibra knife, the armload of illegal stunners, and the bottle of
liquid bandage. Tenderly, Olivia helped Dono limp over to his car, and
settled him into the front seat with his leg out. Ivan, watching the
pair, blond head bent over dark, sighed deeply, and shook his head.
"Where to?" called Olivia, punching controls to lower the canopies.
Ivan swung up into the van's cab, and shouted over his shoulder, "Vorpatril House!"
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
The great Chamber of the Council of Counts had a
hushed, cool air, despite the bright dapple of colored light falling
through the stained glass windows high in the east wall onto the oak
flooring. Miles had thought he was early, but he spotted Renй at the
Vorbretten's District desk, arrived even before him. Miles laid out his
flimsies and checklists on his own desk in the front row, and circled
around the benches to Renй's place, second row right.
Renй
looked trim enough in his Vorbretten House uniform of dark green piped
with bittersweet orange, but his face was wan.
"Well," said Miles, feigning cheer for the sake of his colleague's morale. "This is it, then."
Renй
managed a thin smile. "It's too close. We're not going to make it,
Miles." He tapped a finger nervously on his checklist, twin to the one
on Miles's desk.
Miles put a brown-booted foot up
on Renй's bench, leaned forward with a deliberately casual air, and
glanced at his papers. "It's tighter than I'd hoped it would be," he
admitted. "Don't take our precount as a done deal, though. You never
know who's going to change his mind at the last second and bolt."
"Unfortunately, that cuts both ways," Renй pointed out ruefully.
Miles
shrugged, not disagreeing. He would plan for a hell of a lot more
redundancy in future votes, he decided. Democracy, faugh . He
felt a twinge of his old familiar adrenaline-pumped prebattle nerves,
without the promised catharsis of being able to shoot at someone later
if things went really badly. On the other hand, he was unlikely to be
shot at here, either. Count your blessings .
"Did you make any more progress last night, after you went off with Gregor?" Renй asked him.
"I
think so. I was up till two in the morning, pretending to drink and
arguing with Henri Vorvolk's friends. I believe I nailed Vorgarin for
you after all. Dono . . . was a harder sell. How did things go last
night at Vorsmythe's? Were you and Dono able to make your list of
last-minutes contacts?"
"I did," said Renй, "but I never saw Dono. He didn't show."
Miles
frowned. "Oh? I'd understood he was going on to the party. I figured
between the two of you, you'd have it in hand."
"You
couldn't be in two places at once." Renй hesitated. "Dono's cousin
Byerly was hunting all over for him. He finally went off to look for
him, and didn't come back."
"Huh." If . . . no,
dammit. If Dono had been, say, assassinated in the night, the chamber
would be abuzz with the news by now. The Vorbarr Sultana Armsmen's
grapevine would have passed it on, ImpSec would have called, something.
Miles would have to have heard. Wouldn't he?
"Tatya's
here." Renй sighed. "She said she couldn't stand to wait at home, not
knowing . . . if it was still going to be home by tonight."
"It will be all right."
Miles
walked out onto the floor of the chamber and gazed up at the in-curving
crescent of the gallery, with its ornately carved wooden balustrade.
The gallery was beginning to fill also, with interested Vor relatives
and other people with the right or the pull to gain admittance. Tatya
Vorbretten was there, hiding in the back row, looking even more wan
than Renй, supported by one of Renй's sisters. Miles gave her an
optimistic thumb's-up he was by no means feeling.
More
men filtered into the chamber. Boriz Vormoncrief's crowd arrived,
including young Sigur Vorbretten, who exchanged a polite, wary nod with
his cousin Renй. Sigur did not attempt to stake a claim to Renй's
bench, but sat close under his father-in-law's protective wing. Sigur
was neutrally dressed in conservative day-wear, not quite daring a
Vorbretten House uniform. He looked nervous, which would have cheered
Miles up more if he hadn't known it was Sigur's habitual look. Miles
went to his desk and assuaged his own nerves by checking off arrivals.
Renй wandered over. "Where is Dono? I can't hand off the circle to him as planned if he's late."
"Don't
panic. The Conservatives will drag their feet for all of us, trying to
delay things till they have all their men in. Some of whom won't be
coming. I'll stand up and gabble if I have to, but meanwhile, let them filibuster."
"Right,"
said Renй, and returned to his seat. He laced his hands on top of his
desk as if to keep them from twitching.
Blast it, Dono had twenty good Armsmen of his own. He couldn't
have gone missing with no one to notice. A potential Count should be
able to find his way to the Chamber on his own. He shouldn't need Miles
to take him by the hand and lead him in. Lady Donna was famous for
being fashionably late, and making dramatic entrances; Miles thought
she should have dumped those habits with the rest of her baggage back
on Beta Colony. He drummed his fingers on his desk, turned a little
away from Renй's line of sight, and tapped his wrist com.
"Pym?" he murmured into it.
"Yes,
m'lord?" Pym replied promptly from his station out in the parking area,
guarding Miles's groundcar and, no doubt, chatting with all his
opposite number Armsmen doing the same duty. Well, not quite all: Count
Vorfolse always arrived alone by autocab. Except that he hadn't, yet.
"I
want you to call Vorrutyer House for me and find out if Lord Dono is on
his way. If there's anything holding him up, take care of it, and speed
him along. All due assistance, eh? Then report back to me."
"Understood, m'lord." The tiny activation light winked out.
Richars
Vorrutyer marched into the chamber, looking pugnacious in a neat
Vorrutyer House uniform that already claimed his status as a Count. He
arranged his notes on the Vorrutyer's District desk in the second row
center, looked around the chamber, and sauntered over to Miles. The
blue-and-gray fit him well enough, but, as he approached Miles's desk,
Miles saw to his secret delight that the side seams showed signs of
having been let out recently. Just how many years had Richars kept it
hanging in his closet, awaiting this moment? Miles greeted him with a
slight smile, concealing rage.
"They say," Richars
growled to him in an undervoice, not concealing rage quite so well,
Miles fancied, "that an honest politician is one who stays bought. It
seems you don't qualify, Vorkosigan."
"You should choose your enemies more wisely," Miles breathed back.
Richars
grunted. "So should you. I don't bluff. As you'll find out before this
day is over." He stalked away to confer with the group of men now
clustered around Vormoncrief's desk.
Miles
controlled his irritation. At least they had Richars worried; he
wouldn't be going out of his way to be such an ass otherwise. Where the
hell was Dono ? Miles made doodles of mercenary hand weapons in
the margin of his check-list, and reflected on just how much he didn't
want Richars Vorrutyer sitting back there in his blind spot for the
next forty years.
The chamber was filling now,
getting warmer and noisier, coming alive. Miles rose and made a circuit
of the room, checking in with his Progressive allies, pausing to add a
few urgent words in support of Renй and Dono to men he still had listed
as undecided. Gregor arrived, with a minute to spare, entering from the
little door to his private conference chamber in back of his dais. He
took his traditional seat on his plain military camp stool, facing all
his Counts, and exchanged a nod with the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's
Circle. Miles broke off his last conversation, and slid onto his own
bench. At the precise hour, the Lord Guardian called the room to order.
Still
no sign of Dono, dammit! But the other team was short of men, too. As
Miles had predicted to Renй, a string of Conservative Party Counts
called in their two-minute speaking rights, and began handing the
Circle off to one another, with lots of long, paper-shuffling pauses
between speakers. All the Counts, experienced in this drill, checked
chronos, counted heads, and settled in comfortably. Gregor watched
impassively, allowing no sign of impatience or, indeed, any other
emotion to show on his cool, narrow face.
Miles
bit his lip, as his heartbeat intensified. Very like a battle, yes,
this moment of commitment. Whatever he'd left undone, it was too late
to fix it now. Go. Go. Go.
* * *
A
rush of anxiety clogged Ekaterin's throat when she answered the door
chime and discovered Vassily and Hugo waiting on her aunt's porch. It
was followed by a rush of anger at them both for so destroying her
former pleasure in seeing her family. She kept herself, barely, from
leaping into a gabble of protests that she had too followed their rules.At least wait till you're accused . She controlled her exploding emotions, and said uninvitingly, "Yes? What do you two want now?"
They looked at each other. Hugo said, "May we come in?"
"Why?"
Vassily's
hands clenched; he rubbed one damp-looking palm on his trouser seam. He
had chosen his lieutenant's uniform today. "It's extremely urgent."
Vassily
was wearing his nervous, Help-I-Am-In-The-Corrupt-Capital look again.
Ekaterin was strongly tempted to shut the door on them both, leaving
Vassily to be killed and eaten by whatever cannibals he imagined
populated Vorbarr Sultana's alleyways—or drawing rooms. But Hugo added,
"Please, Ekaterin. It really is most urgent."
Grudgingly, she gave way, and motioned them into her aunt's parlor.
They did not sit. "Is Nikki here?" Vassily asked at once.
"Yes. Why?"
"I want you to get him ready to travel immediately. I want to get him out of the capital as soon as possible."
"What? " Ekaterin almost shrieked. "Why? Now what lies have you been swallowing down whole? Ihave not
seen or spoken with Lord Vorkosigan except for one short visit day
before yesterday to tell him I was exiled. And you agreed to that! Hugo
is my witness!"
Vassily waved his hands. "It's not that. I have a new and even more disturbing piece of information."
"If it's from the same source, you're a bigger fool than I thought possible, Vassily Vorsoisson."
"I
checked it by calling Lord Richars himself. I've learned a lot more
about this volatile situation in the last two days. As soon as Richars
Vorrutyer is voted into the Countship of the Vorrutyer's District this
morning, he intends to lay a murder charge in the Council of Counts
against Lord Auditor Vorkosigan for the death of my cousin. At that
point, I believe the blood will hit the walls."
Ekaterin's stomach knotted. "Oh, no! The fool . . . !"
Aunt
Vorthys, attracted by the raised voices, rounded the corner from the
kitchen in time to hear this. Nikki, trailing her, muted his
enthusiastic cry of Uncle Hugo! at the sight of the adults' strained faces.
"Why,
hello, Hugo," said Aunt Vorthys. She added uncertainly, "And, um . . .
Vassily Vorsoisson, yes?" Ekaterin had given her and Nikki only the
barest outline of their previous visit; Nikki had been indignant and a
little frightened. Aunt Vorthys had endorsed Miles's opinion that it
would be best to wait for Uncle Vorthys's return to attempt to adjust
the misunderstanding.
Hugo gave her a respectful
nod of greeting, and continued heavily, "I have to agree with Ekaterin,
but it only supports Vassily's worries. I can't imagine what has
possessed Vorrutyer to make such a move while Aral Vorkosigan himself is in town. You'd think he'd at least have the sense wait till the Viceroy returned to Sergyar before attacking his heir."
"Aral Vorkosigan!" cried Ekaterin. "Do you really think Gregor
will blithely accept this assault on one of his chosen Voices? Not to
mention look forgivingly on someone trying to start a huge public
scandal two weeks before his wedding . . . ! Richars isn't a fool, he's
mad ." Or acting in some kind of blind panic, but what did Richars have to be panicked about?
"For
all I know, he is mad," said Vassily. "He's a Vorrutyer, after all. If
this comes down to the sort of internecine street fighting among the
high Vor we've seen in the past, no one in the capital is safe. And
especially no one they've managed to draw into their orbits. I want to
have Nikki well on his way before that vote comes down. The monorail
lines could be cut, you know. They were during the Pretendership." He
gestured to Aunt Vorthys for confirmation of this fact.
"Well,
that's true," she admitted. "But even the open warfare of the
Pretendership didn't lay waste to the whole of the capital. The
fighting was quite focused, all in all."
"But there was fighting around the University," he flashed back.
"Some, yes."
"Did you see it?" asked Nikki, his interest immediately diverted.
"We only located it so as to go round, dear," she told him.
Vassily
added a little grudgingly, "You are welcome to accompany us too,
Ekaterin—and you too, of course, Madame Vorthys—or better still, take
refuge with your brother." He gestured at Hugo. "It's possible, given
that it's widely known you've drawn Lord Vorkosigan's attention, that
you could become a target yourself."
"And hasn't
it crossed your mind yet that you are being aimed by Miles's enemies at
just that target? That you've let yourself be manipulated, used as
their tool?" Ekaterin took a deep, calming breath. "Has it occurred to
either of you that Richars Vorrutyer may not be voted the Countship? That it could go to Lord Dono instead?"
"That crazy woman?" said Vassily in astonishment. "Impossible!"
"Neither
crazy nor a woman," said Ekaterin. "And if he becomes Count Vorrutyer,
this entire exercise of yours comes to nothing."
"Not
a chance I propose to bet my life—or Nikki's—on, madame," said Vassily
stiffly. "If you choose to stay here and bear the risks, well, I shall
not argue with you. I have an absolute obligation to protect Nikki,
however."
"So do I," said Ekaterin levelly.
"But Mama," said Nikki, clearly trying to unravel this rapid debate, "Lord Vorkosigan didn't murder Da."
Vassily
bent slightly, and gave him a pained, sympathetic smile. "But how do
you know, Nikki?" he asked gently. "How does anyone know? That's the
trouble."
Nikki closed his lips abruptly, and
stared uncertainly at Ekaterin. She realized that he didn't know just
how private his private interview with the Emperor was supposed to
remain—and neither did she.
She had to admit,
Vassily's anxiety was contagious. Hugo had clearly taken a fever of it.
And while it had been a long time since strife among the Counts had
seriously threatened the stability of the Imperium, that wouldn't make
you any less dead if you had the bad luck to be caught in a cross-fire
before Imperial troops arrived to shut it down. "Vassily, this close to
Gregor's wedding, the capital is crawling with Security. Anyone—of any
rank—who made the least move toward public disorder at the moment would
find himself slapped down so fast he wouldn't know what hit him. Your
fears are . . . exaggerated." She'd wanted to say, groundless .
But what if Richars did win his Countship, and its concomitant right to
lay criminal charges against his new peers in the Council?
Vassily shook his head. "Lord Vorkosigan has made a dangerous enemy."
"Lord Vorkosigan is a dangerous enemy!" She bit her tongue, too late.
Vassily
stared at her a moment, shook his head, and turned to Nikki. "Nikki,
get your things. I'm taking you away."
Nikki looked at Ekaterin. "Mama?" he said uncertainly.
What
was it Miles had said about being ambushed by your habits? Time and
again, she'd yielded to Tien's wishes over matters pertaining to Nikki,
even when she'd disagreed with him, because he was Nikki's father,
because he had a right, but most of all because to force Nikki to
choose between his two parents seemed a cruelty little short of ripping
him apart. Nikki had always been off-limits as a pawn in their
conflicts. That Nikki had been Tien's hostage in the peculiar gender
bias of Barrayar's custody laws had been a secondary consideration,
though it was a wall she'd felt press against her back more than once.
But
dammit, she'd never taken an oath of honor to Vassily Vorsoisson. He
didn't hold half of Nikki's heart. What if, instead of player and pawn,
she and Nikki were suddenly allies, beleaguered equals? What then was
possible?
She folded her arms and said nothing.
Vassily
reached for Nikki's hand. Nikki dodged around Ekaterin, and cried,
"Mama, I don't have to go, do I? I was supposed to go to Arthur's
tonight! I don't want to go with Vassily!" His voice was edged with
sharp distress.
Vassily inhaled, and attempted to recover his balance and his dignity. "Madame, control your child!"
She
stared at him for a long moment. "Why, Vassily," she said at last, her
voice silky, "I thought you were revoking my authority over Nikki. You
certainly don't seem to trust my judgment for his safety and
well-being. How shall I control him, then?"
Aunt
Vorthys, catching the nuance, winced; Hugo, father of three, also got
it. She had just given Nikki tacit permission to go to his limit.
Bachelor Vassily missed the curve.
Aunt Vorthys began faintly, "Vassily, do you really think this is wise—"
Vassily
held out a hand, more sternly. "Nikki. Come along. We must catch the
eleven-oh-five train out of North Gate Station!"
Nikki put his hands behind his back, and said valiantly, "No."
Vassily said in a tone of final warning, "If I have to pick you up and carry you, I will!"
Nikki returned breathlessly, "I'll scream. I'll tell everybody you're kidnapping me. I'll tell them you're not my father. And it'll all be true!"
Hugo
looked increasingly alarmed. "For God's sake, don't drive the boy into
hysterics, Vassily. They can keep it up for hours . And
everybody stares at you as if you were the reincarnation of Pierre Le
Sanguinaire. Little old ladies come up and threaten you—"
"Like this one," Aunt Vorthys interrupted. "Gentlemen, let me dissuade you—"
The
harassed and reddening Vassily made another grab, but Nikki was
quicker, dodging around the Professora this time. "I'll tell them
you're kidnapping me for `moral purposes' !" he declaimed from behind this ample barrier.
Vassily asked Hugo in a shocked voice, "How does he know about that sort of thing?"
Hugo waved this away. "He probably just heard the phrase. Children repeat things like that, you know."
Vassily clearly didn't. A poor memory, perhaps?
"Nikki,
look," said Hugo, in a voice of reason, bending a little to peer at the
boy in his refuge behind the seething Professora. "If you don't want to
go with Vassily, suppose you come and visit me and Aunt Rosalie, and
Edie and the boys, for a little while instead?"
Nikki
hesitated. So did Ekaterin. This ploy might have been made to work,
with another push, but Vassily took advantage of the momentary
distraction to make another grab at Nikki's arm.
"Ha! Got you!"
"Ow! Ow! Ow!" screamed Nikki.
Perhaps
it was because Vassily didn't have the trained parental ear that could
instantly distinguish between real pain and noise for effect, but when
Ekaterin started grimly forward, he flinched back, his grip
unconsciously loosening. Nikki broke away, and ran for the hall stairs.
"I'm
not going!" Nikki yelled over his shoulder, scrambling up the stairs.
"I'm not, I won't! You can't make me. Mama doesn't want me to
go!" At the top he whirled to fling frantically back, as Vassily,
baited into chasing him, reached the bottom, "You'll be sorry you made
my mama unhappy!"
Hugo, ten years older and vastly
more experienced, shook his head in exasperation and followed more
slowly. Aunt Vorthys, looking very distressed and a little gray,
brought up the rear. From above, a door slammed.
Ekaterin
arrived, her heart hammering, in the upper hallway as Vassily bent over
the door to her uncle's study and rattled the knob.
"Nikki!
Open this door! Unlock it at once, do you hear me?" Vassily turned to
look beseechingly at Ekaterin. "Do something!"
Ekaterin
leaned her back against the opposite wall, folded her arms again, and
smiled slowly. "I only know one man who was ever able to talk Nikki out
of a locked room. And he isn't here."
"Order him out!"
"If
you are indeed insisting on taking custody of him, Vassily, this is
your problem," Ekaterin told him coolly. She let The first of many stand implied.
Hugo,
stumping breathlessly up the stairs, offered, "Eventually, they do calm
down and come out. Sooner if there's no food in there."
"Nikki," said Aunt Vorthys distantly, "knows where the Professor hides his cookies."
Vassily
stood up, and stared at the heavy wood and old iron hardware. "We could
break it down, I suppose," he said hesitantly.
"Not in my house, Vassily Vorsoisson!" Aunt Vorthys said.
Vassily gestured at Ekaterin. "Fetch me a screwdriver, then!"
She didn't move. "Find it yourself." She didn't add, you blundering nitwit aloud, quite, but it seemed to be understood.
Vassily flushed angrily, but bent again. "What's he doing in there? I hear voices."
Hugo bent too. "He's using the comconsole, I think."
Aunt
Vorthys glanced briefly down the hallway toward her bedroom door. From
which there was a door to the bath, from which there was another door
into the Professor's study. Well, if Aunt Vorthys wasn't going to point
out this alternate and unguarded route to the two men now pressing
their ears to the door, why should Ekaterin?
"I
hear two voices. Who in the world could he be calling on the
comconsole?" asked Vassily, in a dismissive tone that didn't invite an
answer.
Suddenly, Ekaterin thought she knew. Her breath caught. "Oh," she said faintly, "dear ." Aunt Vorthys stared at her.
For
a hysterical moment, Ekaterin considered dashing around and diving
through the alternate doors, to shut down the comconsole before it was
too late. But the echo of a laughing voice drifted through her mind . .
. Let's see what happens.
Yes. Let's.
* * *
One
of Boriz Vormoncrief's allied Counts droned on in the Speaker's Circle.
Miles wondered how much longer these delaying tactics could continue.
Gregor was starting to look mighty bored.
The
Emperor's personal Armsman appeared from the little conference chamber,
mounted the dais, and murmured something into his master's ear. Gregor
looked briefly surprised, returned a few words, and motioned the man
off. He made a small gesture to the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's
Circle, who trod over to him. Miles tensed, expecting Gregor was about
to call a halt to the filibuster and command the voting to begin, but
instead the Lord Guardian merely nodded, and returned to his bench.
Gregor rose, and ducked through the door behind the dais. The speaking
Count glanced aside at this motion, hesitated, then carried on. It
might not be significant, Miles told himself; even Emperors had to go
to the bathroom now and then.
Miles seized the moment to key his wristcom again. "Pym? What's up with Dono?"
"Just
got a confirmation from Vorrutyer House," Pym returned after a moment.
"Dono's on his way. Captain Vorpatril is escorting him."
"Only now ?"
"He apparently only arrived home less than an hour ago."
"What
was he doing all night?" Surely Dono hadn't picked the night before the
vote to go tomcatting with Ivan—on the other hand, maybe he'd wanted to
prove something. . . . "Never mind. Just be sure he gets here all
right."
"We're on it, m'lord."
Gregor
indeed returned in about the amount of time it would have taken him to
take a leak. He settled back in his seat without interfering with the
Speaker's Circle, but he cast an odd, exasperated, faintly bemused
glance in Miles's direction. Miles sat up and stared back, but Gregor
gave him no further clue, returning instead to his usual impassive
expression that could conceal anything from terminal boredom to fury.
Miles
would not give his adversaries the satisfaction of seeing him bite his
nails. The Conservatives were going to run out of speakers very soon,
unless more of their men arrived. Miles did another head count, or
rather, survey of empty desks. The turnout was high today, for this
important vote. Vortugalov and his deputy remained absent, as Lady Alys
had promised. Also missing, more inexplicably, were Vorhalas,
Vorpatril, Vorfolse, and Vormuir. Since three and possibly all four of
these were votes secured and counted on by the Conservative faction,
this was no loss. He began doodling a winding garland of knives,
swords, and small explosions down the other margin of his flimsy, and
waited some more.
* * *
" . .
. one hundred eighty-nine, one-hundred-ninety, one-hundred ninety-one,"
Enrique counted, in a tone of great satisfaction.
Kareen
paused in her task at the laboratory comconsole, and leaned around the
display to watch the Escobaran scientist. Assisted by Martya, he was
finishing the final inventory of recovered Vorkosigan liveried butter
bugs, simultaneously reintroducing them into their newly cleaned
stainless steel hutch propped open on the lab bench.
"Only
nine individuals still missing," Enrique went on happily. "Less than
five percent attrition; an acceptable loss for an accident of this
unfortunate nature, I think. As long as I have you , my darling."
He
turned to Martya, and reached past her to lift the jar containing the
queen Vorkosigan butter bug, which had been brought in only last night
by Armsman Jankowski's triumphant younger daughter. He tipped the jar
and coaxed the bug out onto his waiting palm. The queen had grown some
two centimeters longer during the rigors of her escape, according to
Enrique's measurements, and now filled his hand and hung out over the
sides. He held her up to his face, and made encouraging little kissing
noises at her, and stroked her stubby wing carapaces with his
fingertip. She clung on tightly with her claws, drawing blood, and
hissed back at him.
"They make that noise when they're happy," Enrique informed Martya, in response to her doubtful stare.
"Oh," said Martya.
"Would you like to pet her?" He held out the giant bug invitingly.
"Well
. . . why not?" Martya, too, attempted the experiment, and was rewarded
by another hiss, as the bug arched her back. Martya smiled crookedly.
Privately,
Kareen thought any man whose idea of a good time was to feed, pet, and
care for a creature that mainly responded to his worship with hostile
noises was going to get along great with Martya. Enrique, after a few
more heartening chirps, tipped the queen into the steel hutch to be
swarmed over, groomed, cosseted, and fed by her worker-progeny.
Kareen
vented a mellow sigh, and returned her attention to deciphering Mark's
scrawled notes on the cost-price analysis of their top five proposed
food products. Naming them all was going to be a challenge.
Mark's ideas tended to the bland, and there was no point in asking
Miles, whose embittered suggestions all ran to things like Vomit Vanilla and Cockroach Crunch.
Vorkosigan
House was very quiet this morning. Any Armsmen that Miles hadn't
borrowed had gone off with the Viceroy and Vicereine to some fancy
political breakfast being held in honor of the Empress-to-be. Most of
the staff had been granted the morning off. Mark had seized the
opportunity—and Ma Kosti, who was becoming their permanent product
development consultant—and left to look at a small dairy packaging
plant in operation. Tsipis had found a similar packager in Hassadar
that was moving to a larger location, and had drawn Mark's attention to
their abandoned facility as a possible venue for the pilot plant for
bug butter products.
Kareen's morning commute to
work had been short. Last night, she'd claimed her first sleepover at
Vorkosigan House. To her secret joy, she and Mark had been treated
neither as children nor criminals nor idiots, but with the same respect
as any other pair of adults. They'd closed Mark's bedroom door on what
was no one's business but their own. Mark had gone off to his tasks
whistling this morning—off-key, as he apparently shared his
progenitor-brother's total lack of musical talent. Kareen hummed under
her breath rather more melodically.
She broke off
at a tentative knock on the laboratory doorframe. One of the
maidservants stood there, looking worried. In general, Vorkosigan
House's service staff avoided the laboratory corridor. Some were afraid
of the butter bugs. More were afraid of the teetering stacks of
one-liter bug butter tubs, now lining the hallway to over head-height
on both sides. All had learned that to venture down here invited being
dragged into the laboratory to taste test new bug butter products. This
last hazard had certainly cut down on the noise and interruptions. This
young lady, as Kareen recalled, shared all three aversions.
"Miss Koudelka, Miss Koudelka . . . Dr. Borgos, you have visitors."
The
maid stepped aside to admit two men to the laboratory. One was thin,
and the other was . . . big. They both wore travel-rumpled suits in
what Kareen recognized from life with Enrique as the Escobaran style.
The thin man, youngish-middle-aged or young with middle-aged
mannerisms, it was hard to tell, clutched a folder stuffed with
flimsies. The big one merely hulked.
The thin man stepped forward, and addressed Enrique. "Are you Dr. Enrique Borgos?"
Enrique
perked up at the Escobaran accent, a breath of home no doubt after his
long, lonely exile among Barrayarans. "Yes?"
The thin man flung up his free hand in a gesture of rejoicing. "At last!"
Enrique smiled with shy eagerness. "Oh, you have heard of my work? Are you, by chance . . . investors?"
"Hardly."
The thin man grinned fiercely. "I am Parole Officer Oscar Gustioz—this
is my assistant, Sergeant Muno. Dr. Borgos—" Officer Gustioz placed a
formal hand upon Enrique's shoulder, "you are under arrest by order of
the Cortes Planetaris de Escobar for fraud, grand theft, failure to
appear in court, and forfeiture of posted bond."
"But," sputtered Enrique, "this is Barrayar! You can't arrest me here!"
"Oh,
yes I can," said Officer Gustioz grimly. He flopped down the file
folder on the lab stool Martya had just vacated, and flipped it open.
"I have here, in order, the official arrest order from the Cortes," he
began to turn over flimsies, all stamped and creased and scrawled upon,
"the preliminary consent for extradition from the Barrayaran Embassy on
Escobar, with the three intermediate applications, approved, the final
consent from the Imperial Office here in Vorbarr Sultana, the
preliminary and final orders from the Vorbarra District Count's office,
eighteen separate permissions to transport a prisoner from the
Barrayaran Imperial jump-point stations between here and home, and last
but not least, the clearance from the Vorbarr Sultana Municipal Guard,
signed by Lord Vorbohn himself. It took me over a month to fight my way
through all this bureaucratic obstruction, and I am not spending
another hour on this benighted world. You may pack one bag, Dr. Borgos."
"But," cried Kareen, "but Mark paid Enrique's bail! We bought him—he's ours now!"
"Forfeiture
of bond does not erase criminal charges, Miss," the Escobaran officer
informed her stiffly. "It adds to them."
"But—why
arrest Enrique and not Mark?" asked Martya, puzzling through all this.
She stared down at the stack of flimsies.
"Don't make suggestions," Kareen huffed at her under her breath.
"If
you are referring to the dangerous lunatic known as Lord Mark Pierre
Vorkosigan, Miss, I tried. Believe me, I tried. I spent a week and a
half trying to get the documentation. He carries a Class III Diplomatic
Immunity that covers him for nearly everything short of outright
murder. In addition, I found I had only to pronounce his last name
correctly to produce the most damn-all stone wall obtuseness from every
Barrayaran clerk, secretary, embassy officer and bureaucrat I
encountered. For a while, I thought I was going mad. At last, I became
reconciled to my despair."
"The medications helped, too, I thought, sir," Muno observed amiably. Gustioz glowered at him.
"But you are not escaping me," Gustioz continued to Enrique. "One bag. Now."
"You can't just barge in here and take him away, with no warning or anything!" Kareen protested.
"Do you have any idea the effort and attention I had to expend to assure that he was not warned?" said Gustioz.
"But we need Enrique! He's everything
to our new company! He's our entire research and development
department. Without Enrique, there will never be any
Barrayaran-vegetation-eating butter bugs!"
Without
Enrique, they would have no nascent bug butter industry—her shares
would be worth nothing. All her summer's work, all Mark's frantic
organizational efforts, would be flushed down the drain. No profits—no
income—no adult independence—no hot slippery fun sex with Mark—nothing
but debts, and dishonor, and a bunch of smug family members all lining
up to say I told you so . . . "You can't take him!"
"On the contrary, miss," said Officer Gustioz, gathering up his stack of flimsies, "I can and I will."
"But what will happen to Enrique on Escobar?" asked Martya.
"Trial,"
said Gustioz in a voice of ghoulish satisfaction, "followed by jail, I
devoutly pray. For a long, long time. I hope they append court costs.
The comptroller is going to scream when I turn in my travel vouchers.
It will be like a vacation, my supervisor said. You'll be back in two
weeks, she said. I haven't seen my wife and family in two months . . ."
"But
that's utterly wasteful," said Martya indignantly. "Why shut him up in
a box on Escobar, when he could be doing humanity some real good here ?" She was calculating the rapidly dwindling value of her shares too, Kareen guessed.
"That is between Dr. Borgos and his irate creditors," Gustioz told her. "I'm just doing my job. Finally."
Enrique
looked terribly distressed. "But who will take care of all my poor
little girls? You don't understand!"
Gustioz
hesitated, and said in a disturbed tone, "There was no reference to any
dependents in my orders." He stared in confusion at Kareen and Martya.
Martya said, "How did you get in here, anyway? How did you get past the ImpSec gate guard?"
Gustioz brandished his rumpled folder. "Page by page. It took forty minutes."
"He insisted on checking every one," Sergeant Muno explained.
Martya said urgently to the maid, "Where's Pym?"
"Gone with Lord Vorkosigan, miss."
"Jankowski?"
"Him, too."
"Anyone?"
"All the rest are gone with m'lord and m'lady."
"Damn! What about Roic?"
"He's sleeping, Miss."
"Fetch him down here."
"He won't like being waked up off-duty, miss . . ." the maid said nervously.
"Fetch him!"
Reluctantly, the maid started to drag herself out.
"Muno," said Gustioz, who'd watched this by-play with growing unease, "now." He gestured at Enrique.
"Yes, sir." Muno gripped Enrique by the elbow.
Martya grabbed Enrique's other arm. "No! Wait! You can't take him!"
Gustioz frowned at the retreating maid. "Let's go, Muno."
Muno
pulled. Martya pulled back. Enrique cried, "Ow!" Kareen grabbed the
first weaponlike object that came to her hand, a metal meter stick, and
circled in. Gustioz tucked his folder of flimsies up under his arm and
reached to detach Martya.
"Hurry!" Kareen
screeched at the maid, and tried to trip Muno by thrusting the meter
stick between his knees. The whole mob was circling around the
stretching Enrique as the pivot-point, and she succeeded. Muno released
Enrique, who fell toward Martya and Gustioz. In a wild attempt to
regain his balance, Muno's hand came down hard on the corner of the bug
hutch peeping over the lab bench.
The stainless
steel box flipped into the air. One-hundred-ninety-two astonished
brown-and-silver butter bugs were launched in a vast chittering madly
fluttering trajectory out over the lab. Since butter bugs had the
aerodynamic capacity of tiny bricks, they rained down upon the
struggling humans, and crunch-squished underfoot. The hutch clanged to
the floor, along with Muno. Gustioz, attempting to shield himself from
this unexpected air assault, lost his grip on his folder;
colorfully-stamped documents joined butter bugs in fluttering flight.
Enrique howled like a man possessed. Muno just screamed, frantically
batted bugs off himself, and tried to climb up on the lab stool.
"Now
see what you've done!" Kareen yelled at the Escobaran officers.
"Vandalism! Assault! Destruction of property! Destruction of a Vor lord's property, on Barrayar itself! Are you in trouble now!"
"Ack!"
cried Enrique, trying to stand on tiptoe to reduce the carnage below.
"My girls! My poor girls! Watch where you put your feet , you mindless murderers!"
The queen, who due to her weight had had a shorter trajectory, scuttled away under the lab bench.
"What are those horrible things?" yipped Muno, from his perch on the teetering stool.
"Poison
bugs," Martya informed him venomously. "New Barrayaran secret weapon.
Everywhere they touch you, your flesh will swell up, turn black, and
fall off." She made a valiant attempt to introduce a chittering bug
down Muno's trousers or collar, but he fended her off.
"They are not!" Enrique denied indignantly, from tiptoe.
Gustioz
was down on the floor furiously gathering up flimsies and trying not to
touch or be touched by the scattering butter bugs. When he rose, his
face was scarlet. "Sergeant!" he bellowed. "Get down from there! Seize
the prisoner! We leave at once ."
Muno,
overcoming his startlement and a little sheepish to be discovered in
high retreat by his comrade, stepped carefully off the stool and
grabbed Enrique in a more professional come-along style. He bundled
Enrique out the lab door as Gustioz scooped up the last of his flimsies
and jammed them back any-which-way into his folder.
"What about my one bag?" wailed Enrique, as Muno began to march him down the hall.
"I
will buy you a damned toothbrush at the shuttleport," panted Gustioz,
scrambling after. "And a change of underwear. I will buy them from my
own pocket. Anything, but out, out!"
Kareen and
her sister both hit the door at once, and had to sort themselves out.
They stumbled into the corridor as their future biotech fortune was
dragged away down it, still protesting that butter bugs were harmless
and beneficial symbiotes. "We can't let him get away!" cried Martya.
A
stack of bug butter tubs tumbled over on Kareen as she regained her
balance, thumping off her head and shoulders and thudding to the floor.
"Ow!" She caught a couple of the kilogram-plus cartons, and stared
after the retreating men. She zeroed in on the back of Gustioz's head,
hoisted a tub in her right hand, and drew back. Martya, fending off
cascading tubs from the other wall, stared at her with widening eyes,
nodded understanding, and took a similar grip on a missile of her own.
"Ready," gasped Kareen, "Aim—"
CHAPTER NINETEEN
It didn't take ImpSec less than two minutes to
arrive at Lord Auditor Vorthys's residence; it took them almost four
minutes. Ekaterin, who'd heard the front door open, wondered if it
would be considered rude of her to point this out to the stern-featured
young captain who mounted the stairs, followed by a husky and
humorless-looking sergeant. No matter: Vassily, watched by an
increasingly irritated Hugo, was still calling blandishments and
imprecations in vain through the locked door. A long silence had fallen
in the room beyond.
Both men turned and stared in shock at these new arrivals. "Who did he call ?" muttered Vassily.
The
ImpSec officer ignored them both, and turned to give a polite salute to
Aunt Vorthys, whose eyes widened only briefly. "Madame Professora
Vorthys." He extended his nod to Ekaterin. "Madame Vorsoisson. Please
forgive this intrusion. I was informed there was an altercation here.
My Imperial master requests and requires me to detain all present."
"I believe I understand, Captain, ah, Sphaleros, isn't it?" said Aunt Vorthys faintly.
"Yes, ma'am." He ducked his head at her, and turned to Hugo and Vassily. "Identify yourselves, please."
Hugo
found his voice first. "My name is Hugo Vorvayne. I'm this lady's elder
brother." He gestured at Ekaterin.
Vassily came
automatically to attention, his gaze riveted to the ImpSec Horus eyes
on the captain's collar. "Lieutenant Vassily Vorsoisson. Presently
assigned to OrbTrafCon, Fort Kithera River. I am Nikki Vorsoisson's
guardian. Captain, I'm very sorry, but I'm afraid you've had some sort
of false alarm."
Hugo put in uneasily, "It was
very wrong of him, I'm sure, but it was only a nine-year-old boy, sir,
who was upset about a domestic matter. Not a real emergency. We'll make
him apologize."
"That's not my affair, sir. I have
my orders." He turned to the door, pulled a small slip of flimsy from
his sleeve, glanced at a hastily scrawled note thereupon, tucked it
away, and rapped smartly on the wood. "Master Nikolai Vorsoisson?"
Nikki's voice returned, "Who is it?"
"Ground-Captain Sphaleros, ImpSec. You are requested to accompany me."
The
lock scraped; the door swung open. Nikki, looking both triumphant and
terrified, stared up at the officer, and down at the lethal weapons
holstered at his hip. "Yessir," he croaked.
"Please come this way." He gestured down the stairs; the sergeant stepped aside.
Vassily almost wailed, "Why am I being arrested? I haven't done anything wrong!"
"You
are not being arrested, sir," the ground-captain explained patiently.
"You are being detained for questioning." He turned to Aunt Vorthys and
added, "You , of course, are not detained, ma'am. But my Imperial Master earnestly invites you to accompany your niece."
Aunt Vorthys touched her lips, her eyes alight with curiosity. "I believe I shall, Captain. Thank you."
The
captain nodded sharply to the sergeant, who hastened to offer Aunt
Vorthys his arm down the stairs. Nikki slipped around Vassily, and
grabbed Ekaterin's hand in a painfully tight grip.
"But," said Hugo, "but, but, why ?"
"I
was not told why, sir," said the captain, in a tone devoid of either
apology or concern. He unbent just enough to add, "You'll have to ask
when you get there, I suppose."
Ekaterin and Nikki
followed Aunt Vorthys and the sergeant; Hugo and Vassily perforce
joined the parade. At the bottom of the stairs Ekaterin glanced down at
Nikki's bare feet and yipped, "Shoes! Nikki, where are your shoes?" A
brief delay followed while she galloped rapidly around the downstairs
and found one under her aunt's comconsole and the other by the kitchen
door. Ekaterin clutched them both in her hand as they exited the front
door.
A large, unmarked, shiny black aircar sat
impressively wedged into a narrow area on the sidewalk, one corner
crushing a small bed of marigolds, the other barely missing a sycamore
tree. The sergeant helped both ladies and Nikki to seats in the rear
compartment, and stood aside to oversee Hugo and Vassily climb in. The
captain joined them. The sergeant slid into the front compartment with
the driver, and the vehicle lurched abruptly into the air, scattering a
few leaves and twigs and bark shreds from the sycamore. The car spun
away at high speed at an altitude reserved for emergency vehicles,
passing a lot closer to the tops of buildings than Ekaterin was used to
flying.
Before Vassily had overcome his hyperventilation enough to even form the question, Where are you taking us?
, and just as Ekaterin managed to get Nikki's feet stuffed into his
shoes and the catch-strips firmly fastened, they arrived over
Vorhartung Castle. The gardens around it were colorful and luxuriant
with high summer growth; the river gleamed and burbled in the steep
valley below. Counts' banners, indicating the Council was in session,
snapped in bright rows on the battlements. Ekaterin found herself
searching eagerly over Nikki's head for a brown-and-silver flag.
Heavens, there it was, the silver leaf-and-mountain pattern shimmering
in the sun. The parking lots and circles were all jammed. Armsmen in
half a hundred different District liveries, brilliant as great birds,
sat or leaned chatting among their vehicles. The ImpSec aircar came
down neatly in a large, miraculously open space right by a side door.
A
familiar middle-aged man in Gregor Vorbarra's own livery stood waiting.
A tech waved a security scanner over each of them, even Nikki. With the
captain bringing up the rear, the liveried man whisked them through two
narrow corridors and past a number of guards whose arms and armor owed
nothing to history and everything to technology. He ushered them into a
small paneled room containing a holovid-conference table, a comconsole,
a coffee machine, and very little else.
The
liveried man circled the table, directing the visitors to stand behind
chairs: "You, sir, you, sir, you young sir, you ma'am." He held out a
chair only for Aunt Vorthys, murmuring, "If you would be pleased to
sit, Madame Professora Vorthys." He glanced over his arrangements,
nodded satisfaction, and ducked out a smaller door in the other wall.
"Where are we?" Ekaterin whispered to her aunt.
"I've never actually been in this room before, but I believe we are directly behind the Emperor's dais in the Counts' Chamber," she whispered back.
"He said ," Nikki mumbled in a faintly guilty tone, "that this all sounded too complicated for him to sort out over the comconsole."
"Who said that, Nikki?" asked Hugo nervously.
Ekaterin
glanced past him as the smaller door opened again. Emperor Gregor, also
wearing his own Vorbarra House livery today, stepped through, smiled
gravely at her, and nodded at Nikki. "Pray do not get up, Professora,"
he added in a soft voice, as she made to rise. Vassily and Hugo, both
looking utterly pole-axed, came to military attention. He added aside,
"Thank you, Captain Sphaleros. You may return to your duty station now."
The
captain saluted and withdrew. Ekaterin wondered if he would ever find
out why this bizarre transport duty had fallen upon him, or if the
day's events would forever be a mystery to him.
Gregor's
liveried man, who had followed him in, held out the chair at the head
of the table for his master, who remarked, "Please be seated," to his
guests as he sank down.
"My apologies," Gregor
addressed them generally, "for your rather abrupt translocation, but I
really can't absent myself from these proceedings just now. They may
stop dragging their feet out there at any moment. I hope." He tented
his hands on the table before him. "Now, if someone will please explain
to me why Nikki thought he was being kidnapped against his mother's
will?"
"Entirely against my will," Ekaterin stated, for the record.
Gregor
raised his brows at Vassily. Vassily appeared paralyzed. Gregor added
encouragingly, "Succinctly, if you please, Lieutenant."
His
military discipline rescued Vassily from his stasis. "Yes, Sire," he
stammered out. "I was told—Lieutenant Alexi Vormoncrief called me early
this morning to tell me that if Lord Richars Vorrutyer obtained his
Countship today, he was going to lay a charge of murder in Council
against Lord Miles Vorkosigan for the death of my cousin Tien. Alexi
said—Alexi feared that some considerable disruption in the capital
would follow. I was afraid for Nikki's safety, and came to remove him
to a safer location till things . . . things settled down."
Gregor tapped his lips. "And was this your own idea, or did Alexi suggest it?"
"I . . ." Vassily hesitated, and frowned. "Actually, Alexi did suggest it."
"I
see." Gregor glanced up at his liveried man, standing waiting by the
wall, and said in a crisper tone, "Gerard, take a note. This is the
third time this month that the busy Lieutenant Vormoncrief has come to
my negative attention in matters touching political concerns. Remind Us
to find him a post somewhere in the Empire where he may be less busy."
"Yes,
Sire," murmured Gerard. He didn't write anything down, but Ekaterin
doubted he needed to. It didn't take a memory chip to remember the
things that Gregor said; you just did .
"Lieutenant
Vorsoisson," said Gregor briskly, "I'm afraid that gossip and rumor are
staples of the capital scene. Sorting truth from lies supplies
full-time and steady work for a surprising number of my ImpSec
personnel. I believe they do it well. My ImpSec analysts are of the
professional opinion that the slander against Lord Vorkosigan grew not
from the events on Komarr—of which I am fully apprised—but was a later
invention of a group of, hm, disaffected is too strong a term,
disgruntled men sharing a certain political agenda that they believed
would be served by his embarrassment."
Gregor let Vassily and Hugo digest this for a moment, and continued, "Your panic is premature. Even I
don't know which way today's vote is going to fall out. But you may
rest assured, Lieutenant, that my hand is held in protection over your
relatives. No harm will be permitted to befall the members of Lord
Auditor Vorthys's household. Your concern is laudable but not
necessary." His voice grew a shade cooler. "Your gullibility is less
laudable. Correct it, please."
"Yes, Sire,"
squeaked Vassily. He was bug-eyed by now. Nikki grinned shyly at
Gregor. Gregor acknowledged him with nothing so broad as a wink, merely
a slight widening of his eyes. Nikki hunkered down in satisfaction in
his chair.
Ekaterin jumped as a knock sounded from
the door to the hallway. The liveried man went to answer it. After a
low conversation, he stepped aside to admit another ImpSec officer,
this time a major in undress greens. Gregor looked up, and gestured him
to his side. The man glanced around at Gregor's odd guests, and bent to
murmur in the Emperor's ear.
"All right," said
Gregor, and "All right," and then, "It's about time. Good. Bring him
directly here." The officer nodded and hurried back out.
Gregor
smiled around at them all. The Professora smiled back sunnily, and
Ekaterin shyly. Hugo smiled too, helplessly, but he looked dazed.
Gregor did have that effect on people meeting him for the first time,
Ekaterin was reminded.
"I'm afraid," said Gregor,
"that I am about to be rather busy for a time. Nikki, I assure you that
no one is going to carry you off from your mother today." His eyes
flicked to Ekaterin as he said this, and he added a tiny nod just for
her. "I should be pleased to hear your further concerns after this
Council session. Armsman Gerard will find you places to watch from the
gallery; Nikki may find it educational." Ekaterin wasn't sure if this
was an invitation or a command, but it was certainly irresistible. He
turned a hand palm up. They all scrambled to their feet, except for
Aunt Vorthys who was decorously assisted by the Armsman. Gerard
gestured them courteously toward the door.
Gregor
leaned over and added in a lower voice to Vassily, just before he
turned to go, "Madame Vorsoisson has my full trust, Lieutenant; I
recommend you give her yours."
Vassily managed something that sounded like urkSire!
They shuffled out into the hallway. Hugo could not have stared at his
sister in greater astonishment if she'd sprouted a second head.
Partway
down the narrow hall, they had to go single file as they met the major
coming back. Ekaterin was startled to see he was escorting a
desperately strung-out looking Byerly Vorrutyer. By was unshaven, and
his expensive-looking evening garb rumpled and stained. His eyes were
puffy and bloodshot, but his brows quirked with recognition as he
passed her, and he managed an ironic little half-bow at her, his hand
spread over his heart, without breaking stride.
Hugo's head turned, and he stared at By's lanky, retreating form. "You know that odd fellow?" he asked.
"One
of my suitors," Ekaterin replied instantly, deciding to turn the
opportunity to good account. "Byerly Vorrutyer. Cousin to both Dono and
Richars. Impoverished, imprudent, and impervious to put-downs, but very
witty . . . if you care for a certain nasty type of humor."
Leaving
Hugo to unravel the hint that there might be worse hazards to befall an
unprotected widow than the regard of a certain undersized Count's heir,
she followed the Armsman into what was evidently a private lift-tube.
It carried the party to the second floor and another narrow hallway,
which ended in a discreet door to the gallery. An ImpSec guard stood by
it; another occupied a matching cross-fire position at the back of the
gallery's far side.
The gallery overlooking the
Council chamber was about three-quarters full, rumbling with low-voiced
conversations among the well-dressed women and the men in green Service
uniforms or neat suits. Ekaterin felt suddenly shabby and conspicuous
in her mourning black, particularly when Gregor's Armsman cleared
spaces in the center of the front row for them by politely, but without
explanation, requesting five young gentlemen there to shift. None
offered a protest to a man in that livery. She smiled
apologetically at them as they filed out past her; they regarded her
curiously in turn. She placed Nikki securely between herself and Aunt
Vorthys. Hugo and Vassily sat on her right.
"Have you ever been here before?" Vassily whispered, staring around as wide-eyed as Nikki was.
"No," said Ekaterin.
"I was here once on a school tour, years ago," confessed Hugo. "The Council wasn't in session, of course."
Only
Aunt Vorthys appeared undaunted by their surroundings, but then, she'd
visited Vorhartung Castle's archives fairly frequently in her capacity
as a historian even before Uncle Vorthys had been appointed an Imperial
Auditor.
Eagerly, Ekaterin scanned the Council
floor, spread out below her like a stage. In full session, the scene
was colorful in the extreme, with all the Counts in the most elegant
versions of their House liveries. She searched the rainbow-cacophony
for a small figure in a uniform of, by comparison with some, subdued
and tasteful brown and silver . . . there! Miles was just getting up
from his desk, in the front row on the curve to Ekaterin's right. She
gripped the balcony rail, her lips parting, but he did not look up.
It
was unthinkable to call out to him, even though no one occupied the
Speaker's Circle just now; interjections from the gallery were not
permitted while the Council was in session, nor were anyone but the
Counts and whatever witnesses they might call allowed onto the floor.
Miles moved easily among his powerful colleagues, walking over to Renй
Vorbretten's desk for some conference. However tricky it had been for
Aral Vorkosigan to thrust his damaged heir into this assembly, all
those years ago, they'd evidently grown used to him by now. Change was possible.
Renй,
glancing up at the gallery, saw her first, and drew Miles's attention
upward. Miles's face lifted toward her, and his eyes widened in a
mixture of delight, confusion, and, as he took in Hugo and Vassily,
concern. Ekaterin dared a reassuring wave, just a little spread of her
open hand in front of her chest, quickly refolded in her lap. Miles
returned her the odd lazy salute that he used to convey an astonishing
array of editorial comment; in this case, a wary irony atop a deep
respect. His gaze swept on to meet Aunt Vorthys's; his brows rose in
hopeful inquiry, and he gave her a nod of greeting, which she returned.
His lips turned up.
Richars Vorrutyer, talking to
a Count in the front row of desks, saw Miles's salute of greeting and
followed it up to the gallery. Richars was already wearing the
blue-and-gray garb of his House, a Count's full livery, taking a lot
for granted, Ekaterin thought with sharp disapproval. After a moment,
recognition dawned in his eyes, and he frowned malevolently up at her.
She frowned back coldly at this coauthor, at the very least, of her
current crisis. I know your type. I'm not afraid of you.
Gregor
had not yet returned to his dais from his private conference room; what
were he and Byerly talking about back there? Dono, she realized as her
eye inventoried the men below, was not here yet. That energetic figure
would stand out in any crowd, even this one. Was there a secret reason
for Richars's obnoxious confidence?
But just as a
knot of alarm began to grow in her chest, dozens of faces below
swiveled around toward the doors to the chamber. Directly beneath her,
a party of men walked out onto the council floor. Even from this angle
of view, she recognized the bearded Lord Dono. He wore a blue-and-gray
Vorrutyer House cadet's uniform, near-twin to the one Richars wore, but
more nicely calculated, its fittings and decorations those of a Count's
heir. Disturbingly, Lord Dono was limping, moving stiffly as though in
some lingering pain. To her surprise, Ivan Vorpatril strode in with
them. She was less certain of the other four men, though she recognized
some of their liveries.
"Aunt Vorthys!" she whispered. "Who are all the Counts with Dono?"
Aunt
Vorthys was sitting up with a surprised and puzzled look on her face.
"The one with the mane of white hair in the blue and gold is Falco
Vorpatril. The younger one is Vorfolse, that very odd fellow from the
South Coast, you know. The elderly gentleman with the cane is, good
heavens, Count Vorhalas himself. The other one is Count Vorkalloner.
Next to Vorhalas, he's considered the stiffest old stick in the
Conservative Party. I expect they are the votes everyone was waiting
for. Things ought to start to move now."
Ekaterin
searched for Miles's response. His relief at the appearance of Lord
Dono plainly warred with dismay at the arrival of Richars's most
powerful supporters, in force. Ivan Vorpatril detached himself from the
group and sauntered over to Renй's desk, the most peculiar smirk on his
face. Ekaterin sat back, her heart thumping anxiously, trying
desperately to decode the interplay below even though only a few words
of the low-voiced buzz around the desks floated up intelligibly to her
ear.
* * *
Ivan took a moment
to savor the look of complete crogglement on his cousin the
Imperial-Auditor-I'm-In-Charge-Here's face. Yes, I bet you're having trouble figuring this one out.
He ought, he supposed, to feel guilty for not taking a moment in the
frantic runnings-around early this morning to give Miles a quick
comconsole call and let him know what was coming down, but really, it
had been too late by then for Miles to make a difference anyway. For a
few seconds more, Ivan was one step ahead of Miles in his own game. Enjoy. Renй Vorbretten was looking equally confused, however, and Ivan had no score to settle with him. Enough.
Miles looked up at his cousin with an expression of mixed delight and fury. "Ivan you idi—" he began.
"Don't
. . . say it." Ivan raised a hand to cut him off before his rant was
fairly launched. "I just saved your ass, again. And what thanks do I
get, again? None. Nothing but abuse and scorn. My humble lot in life."
"Pym
reported you were bringing in Dono. For which I do thank you," said
Miles through set teeth. "But what the hell did you bring them for?" He jerked his head at the four Conservative Counts, now filing across the chamber toward Boriz Vormoncrief's desk.
"Watch," murmured Ivan.
As
Count Vorhalas came even with Richars's desk, Richars sat up and smiled
at him. "About time, sir! Am I glad to see you!"
Richars
smile faded as Vorhalas walked past him without so much as turning his
head in Richars's direction; Richars might have been invisible, for all
the note Vorhalas took of this greeting. Vorkalloner, following close
on the heels of his senior, at least gave Richars a frown, recognition
of sorts.
Ivan held his breath in happy anticipation.
Richars tried again, as the snowy-haired Falco Vorpatril stumped by. "Glad you made it, sir . . . ?"
Falco
stopped, and stared coldly down at him. In a voice which, while pitched
low, penetrated perfectly well to the far ends of the floor, Falco
said, "Not for long, you won't be. There is an unwritten rule among us,
Richars; if you attempt any ploy on the far side of ethical, you'd
damned well better be good enough at your game not to get caught.
You're not good enough." With a snort, he followed his fellows.
Vorfolse, passing last, hissed furiously at Richars, "How dare you try to draw me into your schemes by using my
premises to mount your attack? I'll see you taken apart for this." He
marched on after Falco, distancing himself from Richars in every way.
Miles's
eyes were wide, his lips parted in growing appreciation. "Busy night,
was it, Ivan?" he breathed, taking in Dono's limp.
"You would not believe."
"Try me."
In
a rapid undervoice, Ivan filled in both Miles and the startled Renй.
"The short version is, a gang of paid thugs tried to reverse Dono's
Betan surgery with a vibra knife. Jumped us coming out of Vorfolse's
place. They had a nice plan for taking out Dono's Armsmen, but Olivia
Koudelka and I weren't on their list. We took them instead, and I
delivered them and the evidence to Falco and old Vorhalas, and let them
take it from there. No one, of course, bothered to inform Richars; we
left him in a news blackout. Richars may wish he had that vibra knife
to use on his own throat before today is done."
Miles
pursed his lips. "Proof? Richars has to have worked through multiple
layers of middlemen for something like this. If he really had practice
on Pierre's fiancйe, he's damned sly. Laying the trail to his door
won't be easy."
Renй added more urgently, "How fast can we get our hands on evidence?"
"It
would have been weeks, but Richars's stirrup-man has turned Imperial
Witness." Ivan inhaled, at the top of his triumph.
Miles tilted his head. "Richars's stirrup-man?"
"Byerly
Vorrutyer. He apparently helped Richars set it all up. But things went
wrong. Richars's hired goons were tailing Dono, supposed to jump him
when he arrived at Vorsmythe House, but they saw what they thought was
a better opportunity at Vorfolse's. By was having foaming fits when he
finally caught up with me, just before dawn. Didn't know where all his
pawns had gone, poor hysterical mastermind. I'd captured 'em.
First time I've ever seen By Vorrutyer at a loss for words." Ivan
grinned in satisfaction. "Then ImpSec arrived and took him away."
"How . . . unexpected. That's not how I'd placed Byerly in this game at all." Miles's brow furrowed.
"I
thought you were too damned trusting. There was something about By that
didn't add up for me from the beginning, but I just couldn't put my
finger on it—"
Vorhalas and his cronies were now
clustered around Boriz Vormoncrief's desk. Vorfolse seemed to be the
most emphatic, gesturing angrily, with occasional glances over his
shoulder at Richars, who was watching the scene with alarm.
Vormoncrief's jaw set, and he frowned deeply. He shook his head twice.
Young Sigur looked horrified; unconsciously, his hands closed
protectively in his lap and his legs squeezed closed.
All the sotto voce
debates ended when Emperor Gregor stepped out of the small doorway
behind the dais, and mounted it to take his seat again. He motioned to
the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's Circle, who hurried over to him.
They conferred briefly. The Lord Guardian's gaze swept the room; he
walked over to Ivan.
"Lord Vorpatril." He nodded
politely. "Time to clear the floor. Gregor's about to call the vote.
Unless you are to be called as a witness, you must take a seat in the
gallery now."
"Right-ho," Ivan said genially.
Miles exchanged a thumb's-up with Renй, and hurried back to his desk;
Ivan turned for the door.
Ivan walked slowly past
the Vorrutyer's District desk, where Dono was saying cheerfully to
Richars, "Move over, sport. Your thugs missed, last night. Lord
Vorbohn's municipal guardsmen will be waiting for you by the door with
open arms when this vote is over."
With extreme
reluctance, Richars shifted to the far end of the bench. Dono plopped
down and crossed his booted legs—at the ankles, Ivan noted—and spread
his elbows comfortably.
Richars snarled under his
breath, "So you may wish. But Vorbohn will have no jurisdiction over me
when I take the Countship. And Vorkosigan's party will be so convulsed
over his crimes, they'll have no chance to throw stones at me."
"Stones,
Richars, darling?" Dono purred back. "You should be so lucky. I foresee
a landslide—with you under it."
Leaving the
Vorrutyer family reunion behind, Ivan made for the double doors, which
the guards opened for him. A job well done, by God. He glanced over his
shoulder as he reached them, to find Gregor staring at him. The Emperor
favored him with a faint smile, and the barest hint of a nod.
It didn't make him feel gratified. It made him feel naked
. Too late, he recalled Miles's dictum that the reward for a job well
done was usually a harder job. For a moment, in the hall beyond the
chamber, he considered an impulse to turn right for the exit to the
gardens instead of left for the stairs to the gallery. But he wouldn't
miss this denouement for worlds. He climbed the stairs.
* * *
"Fire!" cried Kareen.
Two bug butter tubs sailed in high trajectories down the hallway. Kareen expected them to go thud
on their targets, like rocks only a little more resilient. But all the
tubs on the tops of the stacks were Mark's new bargain supply, bought on sale
somewhere. The cheaper, thinner plastic didn't have the structural
integrity of the earlier tubs. They didn't hit like rocks; they hit
like grenades.
Upon impact with Muno's shoulders
and the back of Gustioz's head, the rupturing tubs spewed bug butter on
the walls, ceiling, floor, and incidentally the targets. Since the
second barrage was already in the air before the first one landed, the
surprised Escobarans turned around just in time to take the next bug
butter bombs full in the chest. Muno's reflexes were quick enough to
fend off a third tub, which burst on the floor, kneecapping the entire
party with white, dripping bug butter.
Martya,
wildly excited, was now keening in a sort of berserker howl, firing
more tubs down the corridor as fast as she could grab them. The tubs
didn't all rupture; some hit with quite satisfying thunks. Muno,
swearing, batted down a couple more, but was baited into releasing
Enrique long enough to snatch a couple of tubs from the stacks on their
end of the corridor and heave them back at the Koudelka sisters. Martya
ducked the tub aimed at her; the second exploded at Kareen's feet.
Muno's attempt to lay down a covering fire for his party's retreat
backfired when Enrique dropped to his knees and scrambled away down the
hall toward his screaming Valkyriesque protectors.
"Back in the lab," cried Kareen, "and lock the door! We can call for help from there!"
The
door at the far end of the corridor, beyond the Escobaran invaders,
banged open. Kareen's heart lifted, momentarily, as Armsman Roic
staggered through. Reinforcements! Roic was fetchingly attired in
boots, briefs, and a stunner holster on backwards. "What t' hell—?" he
began, but was interrupted as a last unfortunate round of friendly
fire, launched unaimed by Martya, burst on his chest.
"Oh, sorry!" she called through cupped hands.
"What the hell
is going on down here?" Roic bellowed, scrabbling for his stunner on
the wrong side of his holster with hands slippery from their coating of
bug butter. "You woke me up! 'S the third time somebody's woke me up this morning! I'd just got to sleep . 'Swore I'd kill the next sonuvabitch who woke me up—!"
Kareen
and Martya clung together for a moment of pure aesthetic appreciation
of the height, the breadth of shoulder, the bass reverberation, the
generous serving of athletic young male Roic presented; Martya sighed.
The Escobarans, naturally, had no idea who this giant naked screaming
barbarian was who'd appeared between them and the only exit route they
knew. They retreated a few steps backward.
Kareen cried urgently, "Roic, they're trying to kidnap Enrique!"
"Yeah? Good." Roic squinted blearily at her. "Make sure they pack all his devil bugs along with him . . ."
The
panicked Gustioz tried to lunge past Roic toward the door, but caromed
off him instead. They both slipped in the bug butter and went down in
an arcing flurry of highly official documentation. Roic's trained, if
sleep-deprived, reflexes cut in, and he attempted to pin his accidental
assailant to the floor, not easy given that they were both now coated
with quantities of lubricant. The faithful Muno, in a crouching
scramble, braved another barrage of bug butter tubs to grab again for
Enrique, making contact with a flailing arm trying to bat him away.
They both skidded and went down on the treacherous footing. But Muno
got a good grip on one of Enrique's ankles, and began sliding him back
up the corridor.
"You can't stop us!" panted Gustioz, half under Roic. "I have a proper warrant!"
"Mister, I don't want to stop you!" yelled Roic.
Kareen
and Martya dove to grab Enrique's arms, and pulled in the other
direction. Since nobody had any traction, the contest was momentarily
inconclusive. Kareen risked letting go of an arm, and hopped around
Enrique to place a well-aimed kick to Muno's wrist; he howled and
recoiled. The two women and the scientist scrambled over each other and
back through the laboratory door. Martya got it jammed shut and locked
just before Muno's shoulder banged into it from the other side.
"Comconsole!" she gasped over her shoulder to her sister. "Call Lord Mark! Call somebody !"
Kareen
knuckled bug butter from her eyes, dove for the station chair, and
began tapping in Mark's personal code.
* * *
Miles
twisted his head around and watched, hopelessly out of earshot, as Ivan
arrived in the front row of the gallery and ruthlessly evicted an
unfortunate ensign. The younger officer, outranked and outweighed,
reluctantly gave up his prime spot and went off searching for standing
room in the back. Ivan slid in beside Professora Vorthys and Ekaterin.
A low-voiced conversation ensued; from Ivan's expansive gestures and
self-satisfied smirk, Miles guessed he was favoring the ladies with an
account of his last night's heroic adventures.
Dammit, if I had been there, I could have saved Lord Dono just as well . . . Or maybe not.
Miles
had recognized Ekaterin's brother Hugo and Vassily Vorsoisson, flanking
her on the other side, from their brief encounter at Tien's funeral.
Had they arrived in town to harass Ekaterin about Nikki again? Now,
listening to Ivan, they looked thoroughly taken aback. Ekaterin said
something fierce. Ivan laughed uneasily, then turned around to wave at
Olivia Koudelka, just taking a seat in the back row. It wasn't fair for
someone who'd been up all night to look that fresh. She'd changed
clothes, from last night's party dress into a loose silk suit featuring
fashionable Komarran-style trousers. Judging from her wave and smile,
at least she hadn't been injured in the fight. Nikki asked an excited
question, which the Professora answered; she stared down coolly and
without approval at the back of Richars Vorrutyer's head.
What
the devil was Ekaterin's whole family doing up there with her? How had
she persuaded Hugo and Vassily to cooperate with this visit? And what
hand did Gregor have in it? Miles swore he'd seen a Vorbarra Armsman,
turning away after escorting them to their seats. . . . On the floor of
the Council, the Lord Guardian of the Speaker's Circle banged the butt
of a cavalry spear bearing the Vorbarra pennon onto the wooden plaque
set in the floor for that purpose. The clack-clack echoed
through the chamber. No time now to dash up to the gallery and find out
what was going on. Miles tore his attention from Ekaterin, and prepared
to tend to business. The business that would decide if they were both
to be plunged into dream or nightmare. . . . The Lord Guardian called
out, "My Imperial Master recognizes Count Vormoncrief. Come forward and
make your petition, my lord."
Count Boriz
Vormoncrief stood up, patted his son-in-law on the shoulder, and strode
forward to take his place in the Speaker's Circle under the colorful
windows, facing the semi-circle of his fellow Counts. He made a short,
formal plea for the recognition of Sigur as the rightful heir to the
Vorbretten's District, with reference to Renй's gene scan evidence,
already circulated among his colleagues well before this vote. He made
no comment on Richars's case, waiting in the queue. A shift from
alliance to distancing, yes by God! Richars's face, as he listened, was
set and stolid. Boriz stood down.
The Lord
Guardian banged the spear butt again. "My Imperial Master recognizes
Count Vorbretten. Come forward and claim your right of rebuttal to this
petition, my lord."
Renй stood up at his desk. "My
Lord Guardian, I yield the Circle temporarily to Lord Dono Vorrutyer."
He sat again.
A little murmur of commentary rose
from the floor. Everyone followed the swap and its logic; to Miles's
deep and concealed satisfaction, Richars seemed taken by surprise. Dono
stood, limped forward into the Speaker's Circle, and turned to confront
the assembled Counts of Barrayar. A brief white grin flashed in his
beard. Miles followed his glance up into the gallery just in time to
see Olivia standing on her seat and making a sweeping thumb's-up
gesture.
"Sire, My Lord Guardian, my lords." Dono
moistened his lips, and launched into the formal wording of his
petition for the Countship of the Vorrutyer's District. He reminded all
present that they had received certified copies of his complete medical
report and the witnessed affidavits to his new gender. Briefly, he
reiterated his arguments of right by male primogeniture, Count's
Choice, and his prior experience assisting his late brother Pierre in
the administration of the Vorrutyer's District.
Lord
Dono stood legs apart, hands clasped behind the small of his back in an
assertive stance, and raised his chin. "As some of you know by now,
last night someone attempted to take this decision from you. To decide
the future of Barrayar not in this Council Chamber, but in the back
streets. I was attacked; luckily, I escaped serious injury. My
assailants are now in the hands of Lord Vorbohn's guard, and a witness
has given evidence sufficient for the arrest of my cousin Richars for
suspicion of conspiracy to commit this mutilation. Vorbohn's men await
him outside. Richars will depart this chamber either into their
arresting arms, or placed by you above their jurisdiction—in which
case, judgment of the crime will fall upon you later.
"Government
by thugs in the Bloody Centuries gave Barrayar many colorful historical
incidents, suitable for high drama. I don't think it's a drama we wish
to return to in real life. I stand before you ready and willing to
serve my Emperor, the Imperium, my District, and its people. I also
stand for the rule of law." He gave a grave nod toward Count Vorhalas,
who nodded back. "Gentlemen, over to you." Dono stood down.
Years
ago—before Miles was born—one of Count Vorhalas's sons had been
executed for dueling. The Count had chosen not to raise his banner in
rebellion over it, and had made it clear ever since that he expected
like loyalty to the law from his peers. It was a kind of moral suasion
with sharp teeth; nobody dared oppose Vorhalas on ethical
issues. If the Conservative Party had a backbone that kept it standing
upright, it was old Vorhalas. And Dono, it appeared, had just put
Vorhalas in his back pocket. Or Richars had put him there for him . . .
Miles hissed through his teeth in suppressed excitement. Good pitch, Dono, good, good. Superb.
The
Lord Guardian banged his spear again, and called Richars up for his
answer to Dono's petition. Richars looked shaken and angry. He strode
forward to take his place in the Speaker's Circle with his lips already
moving. He turned to face the chamber, took a deep breath, and launched
into the formal preambles of his rebuttal.
Miles's
attention was diverted by some rustling up in the gallery: more
latecomers arriving. He glanced up, and his eyes widened to see his
mother and father, in the row directly behind Ekaterin and the
Professora, murmuring a negotiation for seats together and apologies
and thanks to a startled Vor couple who instantly made way for the
Viceroy and Vicereine. They'd evidently got away from their breakfast
meeting in time to attend this vote, and were still formally dressed,
Count Aral in the same brown-and-silver House uniform Miles wore, the
Countess in a fancy embroidered beige ensemble, her red-roan hair in
elaborate braids wreathing her head. Ivan craned around, looked
surprised, nodded a greeting, and muttered something under his breath.
The Professora, intent on hearing Richars's words, shushed him.
Ekaterin hadn't looked behind her; she gripped the balcony rail and
stared intently down at Richars as though willing him to pop an artery
in the speech centers of his brain. But he droned on, coming to the
summation of his arguments.
"That I have always
been Pierre's heir is inherent in his lack of acknowledgement of any
other in that place. I grant there was no love lost between us, which I
always considered unfortunate, but as many of you have reason to know,
Pierre was a, ah, difficult personality. But even he realized he could have no other successor but me.
"Dono
is a sick joke of Lady Donna's, which we here have tolerated for too
long. She is the very essence of the sort of galactic corruption," his
glance, and his hand, flicked to mutie-Miles, as though to suggest his
enemy's body was an outward and visible form of an inward and invisible
poison, "against which we must fight, yes, I say fight, and I say it
boldly and aloud, for our native purity. She is a breathing threat to
our wives, daughters, sisters. She is an incitement to rebellion
against our deepest and most fundamental order. She is an insult to the
honor of the Imperium. I beg you will finish her strutting charade with
the finality it deserves."
Richars glanced around,
anxiously seeking signs of approval from his dauntingly impassive
listeners, and continued, "With respect to Lady Donna's feeble threat
to bring her claimed attack—which might in fact have come from any
quarter sufficiently outraged by her posturing—onto the floor of this
chamber for judgment. I say, bring it on. And who would be her stalking
horse, to lay the case before you, in that event?" He made a broad
gesture at Miles, sitting at his desk with his booted feet out and
listening with as little expression as he could maintain. "One who
stands accused of far worse crimes himself, even up to premeditated
murder."
Richars was rattled; he was trying to set off his smokescreen way too early. It was a smoke Miles choked on all the same. Damn you, Richars. He could not let this pass unchallenged here, not for an instant.
"A
point of order, my Lord Guardian." Not changing his posture, Miles
pitched his drawl to carry across the chamber. "I am not accused; I am
slandered. There is an unsubtle legal distinction between the two."
"It will be an ironic day when you try to lay down a criminal accusation here," Richars parried, stung, Miles hoped, by the implied threat of countersuit.
Count
Vorhalas called out from his place in the back row, "In the event,
Sire, my Lord Guardian, my lords, having viewed the evidence and
listened to the preliminary interrogations, I should be pleased to lay
the charge against Lord Richars myself."
The Lord
Guardian frowned, and tapped his spear suggestively. Historically,
permitting men to start speaking out of turn had quickly led to
shouting matches, fist fights, and, in prior eras when weapons scanners
hadn't been available, famous melees and duels to the death. But
Emperor Gregor, listening with very little expression himself, made no
move to intervene.
Richars was growing yet more
off balance; Miles could see it in his reddening face and heavy
breathing. To Miles's shock, he gestured up at Ekaterin. "It's a bold
villain who can stand unashamed while his victim's own wife looks down
at him—though I suppose she could hardly look up at him, eh?"
Faces
turned toward the pale black-clad woman in the gallery. She looked
chilled and frightened, jerked out of her safe observer's invisibility
by Richars's unwelcome attention. Beside her, Nikki stiffened. Miles
sat upright; it was all he could do to keep himself from launching
himself across the chamber at Richars's throat and attempting to
throttle him on the spot. That wouldn't work anyway. He was compelled
to other means of combat, slower, but, he swore, more effective in the
end. How dare Richars turn on Ekaterin in this public venue,
invade her most private concerns, attempt to manipulate her most
intimate relationships just to serve his power-grab?
Miles's
anticipated nightmare of defense was here, now. Already he would be
forced to turn his attention not just to truth but to appearances, to
check every word out his mouth for its effect on the listeners who
could become his future judges. Richars had put himself one-down
through his botched attack on Dono; could he scramble back up over
Miles's and Ekaterin's bodies? It seemed he was about to try.
Ekaterin's
face was utterly still, but white around the lips. Some prudent back
part of Miles's brain couldn't help making a note of what she looked
like when she was really angry, for future reference. "You are mistaken, Lord Richars," she snapped down at him. "Not your first mistake, apparently."
"Am
I?" Richars shot back. "Why else, then, did you flee in horror from his
public proposal, if not your belated realization of his hand in your
late husband's death?"
"That's no business of yours!"
"One
wonders what pressures he has brought to bear since to gain your
compliance . . ." His smarmy sneer invited the listeners to imagine the
worst.
"Only if one is a damned fool!"
"Proof is where you find it, madame."
"That's your idea of proof?" Ekaterin snarled. "Fine. Your legal theory is easily demolished—"
The Lord Guardian banged his spear. "Interjections from the gallery are not permitted," he began, staring up at her.
Behind
Ekaterin, the Viceroy of Sergyar stared down at the Lord Guardian,
tapped his index finger suggestively against the side of his nose, and
made a small two-fingered sweeping gesture taking in Richars below: No; let him hang himself
. Ivan, glancing over his shoulder, grinned abruptly and swiveled back.
The Lord Guardian's eyes flicked to Gregor, whose face bore only the
faintest smile and little other cue. The Lord Guardian continued more
weakly, "But direct questions from the Speaker's Circle may be
answered."
Richars's questions had been more
rhetorical, for effect, than direct, Miles judged. Assuming Ekaterin
would be safely silenced by her position in the gallery, he hadn't
expected to have to deal with direct answers. The look on Richars's
face made Miles think of a man tormenting a leopardess suddenly
discovering that the creature had no leash. Which way would she pounce?
Miles held his breath.
Ekaterin leaned forward,
gripping the railing with her knuckles going pale. "Let's finish this.
Lord Vorkosigan!"
Miles jerked in his seat, taken
by surprise. "Madame?" He made a little half-bow gesture. "Yours to
command . . ."
"Good. Will you marry me?"
A
kind of roaring, like the sea, filled Miles's head; for a moment, there
were only two people in this chamber, not two hundred. If this was a
ploy to impress his colleagues with his innocence, would it work? Who cares? Seize the moment! Seize the woman! Don't let her get away again! One side of his lip curled up, then the other; then a broad grin took over his face. He tilted toward her. "Why, yes , madame. Certainly. Now?"
She
looked a little taken aback at the vision this perhaps conjured of his
abandoning the chamber instantly, to take her up on her offer this very
hour, before she could change her mind. Well, he was ready if she was.
. . . She waved him down. "We'll discuss that later. Settle this
business."
"My pleasure." He grinned fiercely at Richars, who was now gaping like a fish. Then he just grinned. Two hundred witnesses. She can't back out now. . . .
"So much for that
line of reasoning, Lord Richars," Ekaterin finished. She sat back with
a hand-dusting gesture, and added, by no means under her breath, "Twit ."
Emperor
Gregor looked decidedly amused. Nikki, beside Ekaterin, was jittering
with enthusiasm, mumbling something that looked like go-go-mama
. The gallery had broken into half-choked titters. Ivan just rubbed his
mouth with the back of his hand, though his eyes were narrowed with
laughter. He glanced again behind Ekaterin, where the Vicereine looked
as though she was choking, and the Viceroy turned a bark of laughter
into a discreet cough. In a sudden flush of self-consciousness,
Ekaterin shrank in her seat, hardly daring even to look at her brother
Hugo or Vassily. She looked down at Miles, though, and her lips
softened with a helpless smile.
Miles grinned back
like a loon; Richars's blackest glare in his direction slid off him as
though deflected by a force field. Gregor made a brief gesture to the
Lord Guardian to move things along.
Richars had
entirely lost the thread of his argument by now, as well as the
momentum, center stage, and the sympathy of his audience. Anyone's
attention that wasn't fixed on Ekaterin was aimed at Miles, with an
amusement grown impatient with Richars's ugly drama. Richars finished
weakly and incoherently, and left the Circle.
The Lord Guardian called the voice vote to begin. Gregor, who fell early in the roll as Count Vorbarra, voted Pass
rather than an abstention, reserving the right to cast his ballot at
the end, should a deciding vote be required, an Imperial privilege he
didn't often invoke. Miles started to track the vote, but by the time
the roll came around to him, had taken to jotting repeated iterations
of Lady Ekaterin Nile Vorkosigan intertwined with Lord Miles Naismith Vorkosigan
in his fanciest handwriting down the margins of his flimsy. Renй
Vorbretten, grinning, had to prompt him to the correct response, which
got another muffled laugh from the gallery.
No
matter: Miles could tell when the magic majority of thirty-one had
passed by the rustling that grew on floor and gallery, as others
keeping the tally concluded that Dono was in. Richars was left with a
poor showing of some dozen votes, as several of his counted-upon
Conservative supporters called abstentions in the wake of Count
Vorhalas's sturdy vote for Lord Dono. Dono's final total was
thirty-two, not exactly an overwhelming victory, but with a vote to
spare above the minimum for binding decision. Gregor, with obvious
satisfaction, cast the Vorbarra vote as an abstention, affecting the
outcome not at all.
A stunned-looking Richars
climbed to his feet at the Vorrutyer's District desk, and cried
desperately, "Sire, I appeal this decision!" Really, he had no other
choice; tying the case up for another round was the only move that
could now save him from the municipal guard lying patiently in wait for
him outside the chamber.
"Lord Richars," Gregor
responded formally, "I decline to hear your appeal. My Counts have
spoken; their decision stands." He nodded to the Lord Guardian, who had
the chamber's sergeants-at-arms swiftly escort Richars out the doors to
his waiting fate before he could recover from his shock sufficiently to
burst into futile protests or physical resistance. Miles's teeth
clenched in savage contentment. Cross me, will you, Richars? You're done.
Well
. . . really, Richars had done himself, when he'd struck at Dono in the
middle of the night and missed. Thanks were due to Ivan, to Olivia,
and, in a backhanded way Miles supposed, to Richars's secret supporter
Byerly. With friends like By, who needed enemies? And yet . . . there
was something about Ivan's version of last night's events that just
didn't add up right. Later. If an Imperial Auditor can't get to the bottom of that one, no one can.
He'd start by interrogating Byerly, now presumably safely in custody of
ImpSec. Or better still, maybe with . . . Miles's eyes narrowed, but he
had to give over the line of thought as Dono rose again to his feet.
Count
Dono Vorrutyer entered the Speaker's Circle to give calm thanks to his
new colleagues, and to formally return the speaker's right to Renй
Vorbretten. With a small, very satisfied smile, he returned to the
Vorrutyer's District desk and took sole and undisputed possession.
Miles was trying very hard not to crank his head over his shoulder and
stare up into the gallery, but he did keep stealing little glances up
Ekaterin's way. So it was he caught the moment when his mother finally
leaned forward between Ekaterin and Nikki to convey her first greetings
of the morning.
Ekaterin swiveled, and turned
pale. Both her future parents-in-law smiled at her in perfect delight,
and exchanged, Miles trusted, suitably enthusiastic welcomes.
The
Professora turned too, and made some exclamation of surprise; she,
however, followed it up by a handshake with the Vicereine exhibiting
all the air of some secret sisterhood revealed. Miles was slightly
unnerved by the older ladies' attitude of cheerful maternal conspiracy.
Had intelligence been flowing in a hidden channel between their two
households all this time? What has my mother been saying about me? He thought about trying to debrief the Vicereine later. Then he thought better of the idea.
Viceroy
Vorkosigan too extended his hand, somewhat awkwardly, over Ekaterin's
shoulder, and gripped her hand warmly. He glanced down past her at
Miles, smiled, and made some comment that Miles was just as glad he
couldn't hear. Ekaterin rose gracefully to the challenge, naturally,
and introduced her brother and a nicely stunned-looking Vassily all
round. Miles made the instant decision that if Vassily tried to give
Ekaterin any more trouble about Nikki, Miles would throw him ruthlessly
and without compunction to the Vicereine for a dose of Betan therapy
that would make his head spin.
The riveting
pantomime was alas interrupted when Renй Vorbretten rose to take his
place in the Speaker's Circle. The occupants of the gallery turned
their attention back to the floor of the Council. With Ekaterin's warm
eyes upon him, Miles sat up and tried to look busy and effective, or at
least attentive. He was sure he didn't fool his father, who knew damned
well that at this point in a normal Council vote it was all over but
the posturing.
Renй made a valiant attempt to pull
his speech together, not easy after the previous rousing events. He
stood by his record of ten years' faithful service in his Countship,
and his grandfather's before him, and drew his colleagues' attention to
his late father's military career and death in battle in the War of the
Hegen Hub. He made a dignified plea for his reconfirmation, and stood
down, his smile strained.
Again, the Lord Guardian
called the roll, and again, Gregor passed rather than abstaining. This
time, Miles managed to follow the tally. In a firm voice, Count Dono
cast his very first vote ever in the name of the Vorrutyer's District.
Sigur
did better than Richars's debacle, but not quite good enough; Renй's
count hit thirty-one at almost the very end of the call. There it
stood. Gregor abstained, having a deliberately null effect on the
outcome. Count Vormoncrief rather perfunctorily called his appeal, and
to no one's wonder, Gregor declined to hear it. Vormoncrief and a
surprisingly relieved-looking Sigur rose to a much better showing in
defeat than Richars had, going up to shake Renй's hand. Renй took the
Circle again to briefly thank his colleagues, and returned it to the
Lord Guardian. The Lord Guardian tapped his spear on the plank, and
declared the session closed. Chamber and gallery broke into a swirl of
motion and noise.
Miles restrained himself from
leaping across tables and chairs and over the backs of his crowd of
colleagues to get up to the gallery only because the family party there
rose themselves, and began to make their way up the stairs toward the
back doors. Surely his mother and father could be relied upon to pilot
Ekaterin down here to him? He found himself trapped anyway in a crowd
of Counts offering him a barrage of congratulations, comments, and
jokes. He barely heard, processing them all with an automatic Thank you . . . thank you, occasionally entirely at odds with what had actually been said to him.
At
last, he heard his father call his name. Miles's head snapped around;
such was the Viceroy's aura that the crowd seemed to melt away between
them. Ekaterin peered shyly into the mob of uniformed men from between
her formidable outriders. Miles strode over to her, and gripped her
hands painfully hard, searching her face, Is it true, is it real?
She grinned back, idiotically, beautifully, Yes, oh, yes .
"You want a leg up?" Ivan offered him.
"Shut
up, Ivan," Miles said over his shoulder. He glanced around at the
nearest bench. "D'you mind?" he whispered to her.
"I believe it is customary . . ."
His
grin broadened, and he jumped up on it, wrapped her in his arms, and
gave her a blatantly possessive kiss. She embraced him back, just as
hard, shaking a little.
"Mine to me. Yes," she whispered fiercely in his ear.
He hopped back down, but did not release her hand.
Nikki, almost eye to eye with him, stared at Miles measuringly. "You are going to make my mama happy , aren't you?"
"I'll
surely try, Nikki." He returned Nikki a serious nod, with all his
heart. Gravely, Nikki nodded back, as if to say, It's a deal.
Olivia,
Tatya, and Renй's sister arrived, fighting their way through the
departing crowd, to pounce on Renй and Dono. Panting in their wake came
a man in Count's livery of carmine and green. He stopped short and
stared around the chamber in dismay, and moaned, "Too late!"
"Who's that?" Ekaterin whispered to Miles.
"Count Vormuir. He seems to have missed the session."
Count
Vormuir staggered off toward his desk on the far side of the chamber.
Count Dono watched him go by with a little smile.
Ivan drifted up to Dono, and said in an undervoice, "All right, I have to know. How'd you sidetrack Vormuir?"
"I?
I had nothing to do with it. However, if you must know, I believe he
spent the morning having a reconciliation with his Countess."
"All morning? At his age?"
"Well,
she had some assistance from a nice little Betan aphrodisiac. I believe
it can extend a man's attention span for hours . No nasty side effects, either. Now you're getting older, Ivan, you might wish to check it out."
"Got any more?"
"Not I. Talk with Helga Vormuir."
Miles
turned to Hugo and Vassily, his smile stiffening just a shade. Ekaterin
gripped his hand harder, and he returned a reassuring squeeze. "Good
morning, gentlemen. I'm glad you could make this historic Council
session. Would you be pleased to join us all for lunch at Vorkosigan
House? I feel sure we have some matters to discuss more privately."
Vassily seemed well on his way to permanently stunned, but he managed a nod and a mumbled thank you
. Hugo eyed the grip between Miles and Ekaterin, and his lips twisted
up in a bemused acquiescence. "Perhaps that would be a good idea, Lord
Vorkosigan. Seeing as how we are to, um, become related. I believe that
betrothal had enough witnesses to be binding. . . ."
Miles tucked Ekaterin's hand in his arm, and pulled her close. "So I trust."
The
Lord Guardian of the Speaker's Circle made his way over to their group.
"Miles. Gregor wishes to see you, and this lady, before you go." He
gave Ekaterin a smiling nod. "He said something about a task in your
Auditor's capacity . . ."
"Ah." Not loosening his
grip on her hand, Miles towed Ekaterin through the thinning crowd to
the dais, where Gregor was dealing with several men who were seizing
the moment to present concerns to his Imperial attention. He fended
them off and turned to Miles and Ekaterin, stepping down over the dais.
"Madame
Vorsoisson." He nodded to her. "Do you think you will require any
further assistance in dealing with your, er, domestic trouble?"
She
smiled gratefully at him. "No, Sire. I think Miles and I can handle it
from here, now that the unfortunate political aspect has been removed."
"I
had that impression. Congratulations to you both." His mouth was
solemn, but his eyes danced. "Ah." He beckoned to a secretary, who drew
an official-looking document, two pages of calligraphy all stamped and
sealed, from an envelope. "Here, Miles . . . I see Vormuir finally made
it. I'll let you hand this off to him."
Miles glanced over the pages, and grinned. "As discussed. My pleasure, Sire."
Gregor flashed a rare smile at them both, and escaped his courtiers by ducking back through his private door.
Miles reordered the pages, and sauntered over to Vormuir's desk.
"Something
for you, Count. My Imperial Master has considered your petition for the
confirmation of your guardianship of all your lovely daughters. It is
herewith granted."
"Ha!" said Vormuir
triumphantly, fairly snatching the documents from Miles. "What did I
say! Even the Imperial lawyers had to knuckle under to ties of blood,
eh? Good! Good!"
"Enjoy." Miles smiled, and drew Ekaterin rapidly away.
"But
Miles," she whispered, "does that mean Vormuir wins? He gets to carry
on that dreadful child-assembly-line of his?"
"Under
certain conditions. Step along—we really want to be out of the chamber
before he gets to page two . . ."
Miles gestured
his lunch guests out into the great hall, murmuring rapid instructions
into his wristcom to have Pym bring up the car. The Viceroy and
Vicereine excused themselves, saying they would be along later after
they had a short chat with Gregor.
All paused, startled, as from the chamber, a voice echoed in a sudden howl of anguish.
"Dowries! Dowries! A hundred and eighteen dowries . . ."
* * *
"Roic," said Mark ominously, "why are these trespassers still alive ?"
"We can't go round just shooting casual visitors, m'lord," Roic attempted to excuse himself.
"Why not?"
"This
isn't the Time of Isolation! Besides, m'lord," Roic nodded toward the
bedraggled Escobarans, "they do seem to have a proper warrant."
The
smaller Escobaran, who'd said his name was Parole Officer Gustioz, held
up a wad of sticky flimsies as evidence, and shook it meaningfully,
spattering a few last white drops. Mark stepped back, and carefully
flicked the stray spot from the front of his good black suit. All three
men appeared to have been recently dipped headfirst into a vat of
yogurt. Studying Roic, Mark was put dimly in mind of the legend of
Achilles, except that his bug butter marinade seemed to extend to both
heels.
"We'll see." If they had hurt Kareen . . .
Mark turned, and knocked on the locked laboratory door. "Kareen?
Martya? Are you all right in there?"
"Mark? Is that you?" Martya's voice came back though the door. "At last!"
Mark
studied the dents in the wood, and frowned, narrow-eyed, at the two
Escobarans. Gustioz recoiled slightly, and Muno inhaled and tensed.
Scraping noises, as of large objects being dragged back from the
entryway, emanated from the lab. After another moment, the lock
tweetled, and the door stuck, then was yanked open. Martya poked her
head through. "Thank heavens!"
Anxiously, Mark
pressed past her to find Kareen. She almost fell into his offered
embrace, then they both thought better of it. Though not as well-coated
as the men, her hair, vest, shirt and trousers were liberally
splattered with bug butter. She bent, carefully, to greet him with a
reassuring kiss instead. "Did they hurt you, love?" Mark demanded.
"No,"
she said a bit breathlessly. "We're all right. But Mark, they're trying
to take Enrique away! The whole business will go down the toilet
without him!"
Enrique, very disheveled and gummy, nodded frightened confirmation.
"Sh, sh. I'll straighten things out." Somehow . . .
She
ran a hand through her hair, half her blond curls standing wildly
upright from the bug butter mousse, her chest rising and falling with
her breathing. Mark had spent most of the morning finding the most
remarkably obscene associations triggered in his mind by dairy
packaging equipment. He'd kept his mind on his task only by promising
himself an afternoon nap, not alone, when he'd got home. He'd had it
all planned out. The romantic scenario hadn't included Escobarans.
Dammit, if he had Kareen and a dozen tubs of bug butter, he
would find more interesting things to do than rub it in her hair. . . .
And so he did, and so he might, but first he had to get rid of these
bloody unwelcome Escobaran skip-tracers.
He walked
back out into the corridor, and said to them, "Well, you can't take
him. In the first place, I paid his bail."
"Lord Vorkosigan—" began the irate Gustioz.
"Lord Mark," Mark corrected instantly.
"Whatever.
The Escobaran Cortes does not, as you seem to think, engage itself in
the slave trade. However it's done on this benighted planet, on Escobar
a bond is a guarantee of court appearance, not some kind of human meat
market transaction."
"It is where I come from," Mark muttered.
"He's Jacksonian," Martya explained. "Not Barrayaran. Don't be alarmed. He's getting over it, mostly."
Possession
was nine-tenths of . . . something. Until he was certain he could get
Enrique back, Mark was loath to let him out of his sight. There had to
be some way to legally block this extradition. Miles would
likely know, but . . . Miles had made no secret of how he felt about
butter bugs. Not a good choice of advisors. But the Countess had bought
shares . . . "Mother!" said Mark. "Yes. I want you to at least wait
till my mother gets home and can talk to you."
"The
Vicereine is a very famous lady," said Gustioz warily, "and I would be
honored to be presented to her, some other time. We have an orbital
shuttle to catch."
"They go every hour. You can
get the next one." Mark just bet the Escobarans would prefer not to
encounter the Viceroy and Vicereine. And how long had they been
watching Vorkosigan House, to seize this unpopulated moment to make
their snatch?
Somehow—probably because Gustioz and
Muno were good at their job—Mark found that the whole conversation was
moving gently and inexorably down the hallway. They left a sort of
slime trail behind them, as if a herd of monstrous snails were
migrating through Vorkosigan House. "I must certainly examine your
documentation."
"My documentation is entirely in
order," Gustioz declared, clutching what looked like a giant spit-wad
of flimsies to his glutinous chest as he began to climb the stairs.
"And in any case, it has nothing whatever to do with you !"
"The hell it doesn't. I posted Dr. Borgos's bond; I have to have some legal interest. I paid for it!"
They
reached the dining room; Muno had somehow wrapped a ham hand around
Enrique's upper arm. Martya, frowning at him, took preemptive
possession of the scientist's other arm. Enrique's look of alarm
doubled.
The argument continued, at rising volume,
through several antechambers. In the black-and-white tiled entry hall,
Mark dug in his heels. He nipped around in front of the pack and stood
between Enrique and the door, spread-legged and bulldoggish, and
snarled, "If you've been after Enrique for two bloody months, Gustioz,
another half hour can make no difference to you. You will wait!"
"If
you dare to impede me in the legal discharge of my duties, I will find
some way to charge you, I guarantee it!" Gustioz snarled back. "I don't
care who you're related to!"
"You start a brawl in Vorkosigan House, and you'll damned well find it matters very much who I'm related to!"
"You tell him, Mark!" Kareen cried.
Enrique
and Martya added their voices to the uproar. Muno took a tighter grip
on his prisoner, and eyed Roic warily, but Kareen and Martya more
warily. As long as the reddening Gustioz was still bellowing, Mark
reasoned, he had him blocked; when he took a deep breath and switched
to forward motion, it would then descend to the physical, and then Mark
was not at all sure who would be in control anymore. Somewhere in the
back of Mark's head, Killer whined and scratched like an impatient wolf.
Gustioz
took a deep breath, but suddenly stopped yelling. Mark tensed, dizzy
with the loss of center/self/safety as the Other started to surge forward.
Everybody
else stopped yammering, too. In fact, the noise died away as though
someone had cut the power line. A breath of warm summer air stirred the
hairs on the back of Mark's neck as the double doors, behind him, swung
wide. He wheeled.
Framed in the doorway, a large
party of persons paused in astonishment. Miles, resplendent in full
Vorkosigan House livery, stood in the center with Ekaterin Vorsoisson
on his arm. Nikki and Professora Vorthys flanked the couple on one
side. On the other, two men Mark didn't know, one in lieutenant's
undress greens and the other a stoutish fellow in civvies, goggled at
the butter-beslimed arguers. Pym stared over Miles's head.
"Who is that?" whispered Gustioz uneasily. And there just wasn't any question which who he referred to.
Kareen snapped back under her breath, "Lord Miles Vorkosigan. Imperial Auditor Lord Vorkosigan! Now you've done it!"
Miles's
gaze traveled slowly over the assembled multitude: Mark, Kareen and
Martya, the stranger-Escobarans, Enrique—he winced a little—and up and
down the considerable length of Armsman Roic. After a long, long
moment, Miles's teeth unclenched.
"Armsman Roic, you appear to be out of uniform."
Roic stood to attention, and swallowed. "I'm . . . I was off-duty. M'lord."
Miles
stepped forward; Mark wished to hell he knew how Miles did it, but
Gustioz and Muno automatically braced too. Muno didn't let go of
Enrique, though.
Miles gestured at Mark. "This is
my brother, Lord Mark. And Kareen Koudelka, and her sister Martya. Dr.
Enrique Borgos, from Escobar, my brother's, um, houseguest." He
indicated the group of people who'd trailed him in. "Lieutenant Vassily
Vorsiosson. Hugo Vorvayne," he nodded at the stoutish man, "Ekaterin's brother ." His emphasis supplied the undertext, This had better not be the sort of screwup it looks like . Kareen winced.
"Everyone
else, you know. I'm afraid I haven't met these other two gentlemen. Are
your visitors, by chance, on their way out, Mark?" Miles suggested
gently.
The dam broke; half a dozen people
simultaneously began to explain, complain, excuse, plea, demand,
accuse, and defend. Miles listened for a couple of minutes—Mark was
uncomfortably reminded of how appallingly smoothly his
progenitor-brother handled the multitracking inputs of a combat command
helmet—then, at last, flung up a hand. Miraculously, he got silence,
barring a few trailing words from Martya.
"Let me
see if I have this straight," he murmured. "You two gentlemen," he
nodded at the slowly drying Escobarans, "wish to take Dr. Borgos away
and lock him up? Forever?"
Mark cringed at the hopeful tone in Miles's voice.
"Not
forever," Parole Officer Gustioz admitted regretfully. "But certainly
for a good long time." He paused, and held out his wad of flimsies. "I
have all the proper orders and warrants, sir!"
"Ah,"
said Miles, eyeing the sticky jumble. "Indeed." He hesitated. "You
will, of course, permit me to examine them."
He
excused himself to the mob of people who'd accompanied him, gave a
squeeze to Ekaterin's hand—wait a minute, hadn't they been not talking
to each other? Miles had walked around all day yesterday in a dark
cloud of negative energy like a black hole in motion; just looking at
him had given Mark a headache. Now, beneath that heavy layer of irony,
he frigging glowed . What the hell was happening here? Kareen, too, eyed the pair with growing surmise.
Mark
abandoned this puzzle temporarily as Miles beckoned Gustioz to a side
table beneath a mirror. He plucked the flower arrangement from it and
handed it off to Roic, who scrambled to receive it, and had Gustioz lay
down his extradition documents in a pile.
Slowly,
and Mark had not the least doubt Miles was using every theatrical trick
to buy time to think, he leafed gingerly through them. The entire
audience in the entry hall watched him in utter silence, as if
enspelled. He carefully touched the documents only with his fingertips,
with an occasional glance up at Gustioz that had the Escobaran
squirming in very short order. Every once in a while he had to pick up
a couple of flimsies and gently peel them apart. "Mm-hm," he said, and
"Mm-hm," and "All eighteen, yes, very good."
He
came to the end, and stood thoughtfully a moment, his fingers just
touching the pile, not releasing them back to the hovering Gustioz. He
glanced up questioningly under his eyebrows at Ekaterin. She gazed
rather anxiously back at him, and smiled wryly.
"Mark," he said slowly. "You did pay Ekaterin for her design work in shares, not cash, as I understand?"
"Yes," said Mark. "And Ma Kosti too," he hastened to point out.
"And me!" Kareen put in.
"And me!" added Martya.
"The company's been a little cash-strapped," Mark offered cautiously.
"Ma Kosti too. Hm. Oh, dear." Miles stared off into space a moment, then turned and smiled at Gustioz.
"Parole Officer Gustioz."
Gustioz stood upright, as if to attention.
"All the documents you have here do indeed appear to be legal and in order."
Miles
picked the stack up between thumb and forefinger, and returned them to
the officer's grasp. Gustioz accepted them, smiled, and inhaled.
"However,"
Miles continued, "you are missing one jurisdiction. Quite a critical
one: the Imp Sec gate guard should not have let you in here without it.
Well, the boys are soldiers, not lawyers; I don't think the poor
corporal should be reprimanded. I will have to tell General Allegre to
make sure it's part of their briefing in future, though."
Gustioz
stared at him in horror and disbelief. "I have permissions from the
Empire—the planetary local space—the Vorbarra District—and the City of
Vorbarr Sultana. What other jurisdiction is there?"
"Vorkosigan
House is the official residence of the Count of the Vorkosigan's
District," Miles explained to him in a kindly tone. "As such, its
grounds are considered Vorkosigan District soil, very like an
embassy's. To take this man from Vorkosigan House , in the city
of Vorbarr Sultana, in the Vorbarra District, on Barrayar, in the
Imperium, you need all those," he waved at the tacky pile, "and also an
extradition authorization, an order in the Count's Voice—just like this
one you have here for the Vorbarra's District—from the Vorkosigan's
District."
Gustioz was trembling. "And where," he
said hoarsely, "can I find the nearest Vorkosigan's District Count's
Voice?"
"The nearest?" said Miles cheerily. "Why, that would be me."
The
Parole Officer stared at him for a long moment. He swallowed. "Very
good, sir," he said humbly, his voice cracking. "May I please have an
order of extradition for Dr. Enrique Borgos from, the, the Count's
Voice?"
Miles looked across at Mark. Mark stared back, his lips twisting. You son of a bitch, you're enjoying every second of this. . . .
Miles
vented a long, rather regretful sigh—the entire audience swayed with
it—and said briskly, "No. Your application is denied. Pym, please
escort these gentlemen off my premises, then inform Ma Kosti that we
will be sitting, um," his gaze swept the entry hall, "ten for lunch, as
soon as possible. Fortunately, she likes a challenge. Armsman Roic . .
." He stared at the young man, still clutching the flowers, who stared
back in pitiful panic. Miles just shook his head, "Go get a bath ."
Pym,
tall, sternly middle-aged, and in full uniform, advanced intimidatingly
upon the Escobarans, who broke before him, and weakly let themselves be
cowed out the doors.
"He'll have to leave this
house sometime, dammit!" Gustioz shouted over his shoulder. "He can't
hole up in here forever!"
"We'll fly him down to the District in the Count's official aircar," Miles called back in cheery codicil.
Gustoiz's inarticulate cry was cut off by the doors swinging shut.
"The
butter bug project is really very fascinating," said Ekaterin brightly
to the two men who'd come in with her and Miles. "You should see the
lab."
Kareen signaled a frantic negative. "Not now, Ekaterin!"
Miles
passed a grimly warning eye over Mark, and gestured his party in the
opposite direction. "In the meantime, perhaps you would enjoy seeing
Vorkosigan House's library. Professora, would you be so kind as to
point out some of its interesting historical aspects to Hugo and
Vassily, while I take care of a few things? Go with your aunt, Nikki.
Thank you so much . . ." He held onto Ekaterin's hand, keeping her by
him, as the rest of the party shuffled off.
"Lord Vorkosigan," cried Enrique, his voice quavering with relief, "I don't know how I can ever repay you!"
Miles held up a hand, dryly, to cut him off in midlaunch. "I'll think of something."
Martya,
a little more alive to Miles's nuances than Enrique, smiled acerbically
and took the Escobaran by the hand. "Come on, Enrique. I think maybe
we'd better start working off your debt of gratitude by going down and
cleaning up the lab, don't you?"
"Oh! Yes, of
course . . ." Firmly, she hauled him off. His voice drifted back, "Do
you think he'll like the butter bugs Ekaterin designed . . . ?"
Ekaterin smiled down fondly at Miles. "Well played, love."
"Yes,"
said Mark gruffly. He found himself staring at his boots. "I know how
you feel about this whole project. Um . . . thanks, eh?"
Miles
reddened slightly. "Well . . . I couldn't risk offending my cook,
y'know. She seems to have adopted the man. It's the enthusiastic way he
eats my food, I suppose."
Mark's brows lowered in sudden suspicion. "Is it true that a Count's Residence is legally a part of his District? Or did you just make that up on the spot?"
Miles
grinned briefly. "Look it up. Now if you two will excuse us, I think
I'd better go spend some time calming the fears of my in-laws-to-be.
It's been a trying morning for them. As a personal favor, dear brother,
could you please refrain from springing any more crises upon me, just for the rest of today?"
"In-laws-to
. . . ?" Kareen's lips parted in thrilled delight. "Oh, Ekaterin, good!
Miles, you—you rat! When did this happen?"
Miles
grinned, a real grin this time, not playing to the house. "She asked
me, and I said yes." He glanced up more slyly at Ekaterin, and went on,
"I had to set her a good example, after all. You see, Ekaterin, that's
how a proposal should be answered—forthright, decisive, and above all, positive!"
"I'll
keep it in mind," she told him. She was poker-faced, but her eyes were
laughing as he led her off toward the library.
Kareen,
watching them go, sighed in romantic satisfaction, and leaned into
Mark. All right, so this stuff was contagious. This was a problem?
Screw the black suit. He slipped an arm around her waist.
Kareen ran a hand through her hair. "I want a shower."
"You can use mine," Mark offered instantly. "I'll scrub your back . . ."
"You can rub everything," she promised him. "I think I pulled some muscles in the tug-of-Enrique."
By damn, he might salvage this afternoon yet. Smiling fondly, he turned with her toward the staircase.
At
their feet, the queen Vorkosigan-liveried butter bug scuttled out of a
shadow and waddled quickly across the black-and-white tiles. Kareen
yipped, and Mark dove after the huge bug. He skidded to a halt on his
stomach under the side table by the wall just in time to see the silver
flash of her rear end slide out of sight between the baseboard and a
loose paving stone. "God damn but those things can flatten out!
Maybe we ought to get Enrique to make them, like, taller or something."
Dusting his jacket, he climbed back to his feet. "She went into the
wall." Back to her nest in the walls somewhere, he feared.
Kareen peered doubtfully under the table. "Should we tell Miles?"
"No," said Mark decisively, and took her hand to mount the stairs.
EPILOGUE
From Miles's point of view, the two weeks to the
Imperial wedding sped past, though he suspected that Gregor and Laisa
were running on a skewed relativistic time-distortion in which time
went slower but one aged faster. He manufactured appropriate
sympathetic noises whenever he encountered Gregor, agreeing that this
social ordeal was a terrible burden, but, truly, one that everyone must
bear, a commonality of the human condition, chin up, soldier on. Inside
his own head, a continuous counterpoint ran in little popping bubbles, Look! I'm engaged! Isn't she pretty? She asked me. She's smart, too. She's going to marry me. Mine, mine, all mine. I'm engaged! To be married! To this woman! an effervescence that emerged, he trusted, only as a cool, suave smile.
He
did arrange to dine over at the Vorthys's three times, and have
Ekaterin and Nikki to meals at Vorkosigan House twice, before the
wedding week hit and all his meals—even breakfasts, good God—were
bespoken. Still, his timetable was not as onerous as Gregor's and
Laisa's, which Lady Alys and ImpSec between them had laid out in
one-minute increments. Miles invited Ekaterin to accompany him to all
his social obligations. She raised her brows at him, and accepted a
sensible and dignified three. It was only later that Kareen pointed out
that there were limits to the number of times a lady wanted to be seen
in the same dress, a problem which, had he but realized it existed, he
would gladly have set out to solve. It was perhaps just as well. He
wanted Ekaterin to share his pleasure, not his exhaustion.
The
cloud of amused congratulation that surrounded them for their
spectacular betrothal was marred only once, at a dinner in honor of the
Vorbarr Sultana Fire Watch which had included handing out awards for
men exhibiting notable bravery or quick thinking in the past year.
Exiting with Ekaterin on his arm, Miles found the door half blocked by
the somewhat drunken Lord Vormurtos, one of Richars's defeated
supporters. The room had mostly emptied by that time, with only a few
earnestly chatting groups of people left. Already the servers were
moving in to clean up. Vormurtos leaned on the frame with his arms
crossed, and failed to move aside.
At Miles's polite, "Excuse us, please," Vormurtos pursed his lips in exaggerated irony.
"Why not? Everyone else has. It seems if you are Vorkosigan enough, you can even get away with murder."
Ekaterin
stiffened unhappily. Miles hesitated a fractional moment, considering
responses: explanation, outrage, protest? Argument in a hallway with a
half-potted fool? No. I am Aral Vorkosigan's son, after all. Instead, he stared up unblinkingly, and breathed, "So if you truly believe that, why are you standing in my way? "
Vormurtos's
inebriated sneer drained away, to be replaced by a belated wariness.
With an effort at insouciance that he did not quite bring off, he
unfolded himself, and opened his hand to wave the couple past. When
Miles bared his teeth in an edged smile, he backed up an extra and
involuntary step. Miles shifted Ekaterin to his other side and strode
past without looking back.
Ekaterin glanced over
her shoulder once, as they made their way down the corridor. In a tone
of dispassionate observation, she murmured, "He's melted. You know,
your sense of humor is going to get you into deep trouble someday."
"Belike," Miles sighed.
* * *
The Emperor's wedding, Miles decided, was very like a combat drop mission, except that, wonderfully, he
wasn't in command. It was Lady Alys's and Colonel Lord Vortala the
Younger's turn for nervous breakdowns. Miles got to be a grunt. All he
had to do was keep smiling and follow orders, and eventually it would
all be over.
It was fortunate that it was a
Midsummer event, because the only site large enough for all the circles
of witnesses (barring the stunningly ugly municipal stadium) was the
former parade ground, now a grassy sward, just to the south of the
Residence. The ballroom was the backup venue in the event of rain, in
Miles's view a terrorist plan that courted death by overheating and
oxygen deprivation for most of the government of the Imperium. To match
the blizzard that had made the Winterfair betrothal so memorable, they
ought to have had summer tornadoes, but to everyone's relief the day
dawned fair.
The morning began with yet another
formal breakfast, this time with Gregor and his groom's party at the
Residence. Gregor looked a little frayed, but determined.
"How are you holding up?" Miles asked him in an undervoice.
"I'll make it through dinner," Gregor assured him. "Then we drown our pursuers in a lake of wine and escape."
Even
Miles didn't know what refuge Gregor and Laisa had chosen for their
wedding night, whether one of the several Vorbarra properties or the
country estate of a friend or maybe aboard a battle cruiser in orbit.
He was sure there wasn't going to be any sort of unscheduled
Imperial shivaree. Gregor had chosen all his most frighteningly
humorless ImpSec personnel to guard his getaway.
Miles
returned to Vorkosigan House to change into his very best House
uniform, ornamented with a careful selection of his old military
decorations that he otherwise never wore. Ekaterin would be watching
him from the third circle of witnesses, in company with her uncle and
aunt and the rest of his Imperial Auditor colleagues. He likely
wouldn't see her till the vows were over, a thought that gave him a
taste of what Gregor's anxiety must be.
The
Residence's grounds were filling when he arrived back. He joined his
father, Gregor, Drou and Kou, Count Henri Vorvolk and his wife, and the
rest of the first circle in their assigned staging area, one of the
Residence's public rooms. The Vicereine was off somewhere in support of
Lady Alys. Both women and Ivan arrived with moments to spare. As the
light of the summer evening gilded the air, Gregor's horse, a
gloriously glossy black beast in gleaming cavalry regalia, was led to
the west entrance. A Vorbarra Armsman followed with an equally lovely
white mare fitted out for Laisa. Gregor mounted, looking in his parade
red-and-blues both impressively Imperial and endearingly nervous.
Surrounded by his party on foot, he proceeded decorously across the
grounds through an aisle of people to the former barracks, now
remodeled as guest quarters, where the Komarran delegation was housed.
It
was then Miles's job to pound on the door and demand in formal phrases
that the bride be brought forth. He was watched by a bevy of giggling
Komarran women from the wide-flung flower-decked windows overhead. He
stepped back as Laisa and her parents emerged. The bride's dress, he
noted in the certainty that there would be a quiz later, included a
white silk jacket with fascinating glittery stuff over various other
layers, a heavy white silk split skirt and white leather boots, and a
headdress with garlands of flowers all cascading down. Several tensely
smiling Vorbarra Armsmen made sure the whole ensemble got loaded
without incident aboard the notably placid mare—Miles suspected equine
tranquilizers. Gregor shifted his horse around to lean across and grip
Laisa's hand briefly; they smiled at each other in mutual amazement.
Laisa's father, a short, round Komarran oligarch who had never been
near a horse in his life before he'd had to practice for this,
valiantly took the lead line, and the cavalcade wound its stately way
back through the aisles of well-wishers to the south lawn.
The
marriage pattern was laid on the ground in little ridges of colored
groats, hundreds of kilos of them altogether, Miles had been given to
understand. The small central circle awaited the couple, surrounded by
a six-pointed star for the principal witnesses, and a series of
concentric rings for guests. First close family and friends—then Counts
and their Countesses—then high government officials, military officers,
and Imperial Auditors—then diplomatic delegations; after that, people
packed to the limit of the Residence's walls, and more in the street
beyond. The cavalcade split, bride and groom dismounting and entering
the circle each from opposite sides. The horses were led away, and
Laisa's female Second and Miles were handed the official bags of groats
to pour upon the ground and close the couple in, which they managed to
do without either dropping the bags, or getting too many groats down
their respective footwear.
Miles took his place
upon his assigned star point, his parents and Laisa's parents on either
hand, Laisa's Komarran female friend and Second opposite. Since he
didn't have to remember Gregor's lines for him, he occupied the time as
the couple repeated their promises—in four languages—by studying the
pleasure on the Viceroy and Vicereine's faces. He didn't think he'd
ever seen his father cry in public before. All right, so some of it was
the sloppy sentiment overflowing everywhere today, but some of it had
to be tears of sheer political relief. That was why he had to rub water
from his eyes, certainly. Damned effective public theater, this ceremony. . . .
Swallowing,
Miles stepped forward to kick the groats aside and open the circle to
let the married couple out. He seized his privilege and position to be
the first to grab Gregor's hand in congratulations, and to stand on
tiptoe to kiss the bride's flushed cheek. And then, by damn, it was
party time, he was done and off the hook, and he could go and hunt for
Ekaterin in all this mob. He made his way past people scooping up
handfuls of groats and tucking them away for souvenirs, craning his
neck for a glimpse of an elegant woman in a gray silk gown.
* * *
Kareen gripped Mark's arm and sighed in satisfaction. The maple ambrosia was a hit .
It
was rather clever, Kareen thought, how Gregor had shared out the
astronomical cost of his wedding reception among his Counts. Each
District had been invited to contribute an outdoor kiosk, scattered
about the Residence grounds, to offer whatever local food and drink
(vetted, of course, by Lady Alys and ImpSec) they'd cared to display to
the strolling guests. The effect was a little like a District Fair, or
rather, a Fair of Districts, but the competition had certainly brought
out the best of Barrayar. The Vorkosigan's District kiosk had a prime
location, at the northwest corner of the Residence just at the top of a
path that went down into the sunken gardens. Count Aral had donated a
thousand liters of his District wine, a traditional and very popular
choice.
And at a side table next to the wine bar,
Lord Mark Vorkosigan and MPVK Enterprises offered to the guests—tah
dah!—their first food product. Ma Kosti and Enrique, wearing Staff
badges, directed a team of Vorkosigan House servitors scooping out
generous portions of maple ambrosia to the high Vor as fast as they
could hand them across the table. At the end of the table, framed by
flowers, a wire cage exhibited a couple of dozen bright new Glorious
Bugs, glowing in blue-red-gold, together with a brief explanation,
rewritten by Kareen to remove both Enrique's technicalities and Mark's
blatant commercialism, of how they made their ambrosia. All right, so
none of the renamed bug butter being distributed had actually been made
by the new bugs, but that was a mere packaging detail.
Miles
and Ekaterin came strolling through the crowd, along with Ivan. Miles
spotted Kareen's eager wave, and angled toward them. Miles was wearing
that same blitzed, deliriously pleased look he'd been sporting for two
weeks; Ekaterin, at this her first Imperial Residence party, looked a
trifle awed. Kareen darted aside and grabbed a cup of ambrosia, and
brandished it as the trio came up.
"Ekaterin, they
love the Glorious Bugs! At least half a dozen women have tried to steal
them to wear as hair ornaments with their flowers—Enrique had to lock
down the cage before we lost any more. He said, they are supposed to be
a demonstration , not free samples ."
Ekaterin laughed. "I'm glad I was able to cure your customer resistance!"
"Oh,
my, yes. And with a debut at the Emperor's wedding, everyone will want
it! Here, have you had the maple ambrosia yet? Miles?"
"I've tried it before, thank you," said Miles neutrally.
"Ivan! You've got to taste this!"
Ivan's
lips twisted dubiously, but with amiable grace he lifted the spoon to
his mouth. His expression changed. "Wow, what did you lace this with?
It's got a notable kick to it." He resisted Kareen's attempt to wrest
back the cup.
"Maple mead," said Kareen happily. "It was Ma Kosti's inspiration. It really works!"
Ivan
swallowed, and paused. "Maple mead? The most disgusting,
gut-destroying, guerilla attack-beverage ever brewed by man?"
"It's an acquired taste," murmured Miles.
Ivan
took another bite. "Combined with the most revolting food product ever
invented . . . How did she make it come out like this ?" He
scraped up the last of the soft golden paste, and eyed the cup as
though considering licking it out with his tongue. "Impressively
efficient, that. Get fed and drunk simultaneously . . . no wonder they're lining up!"
Mark,
smiling smugly, broke in. "I just had a nice little private chat with
Lord Vorsmythe. Without going into the details, I can say that our
startup money shortage looks to be solved one way or another. Ekaterin!
I am now in a position to redeem the shares I gave you for the bug
design. What would you say to an offer of twice their face value back?"
Ekaterin looked thrilled. "That's wonderful, Mark! And so timely. That's more than I ever expected—"
"What you say," Kareen broke in firmly, "is, no, thank you.
You hang on to those shares, Ekaterin! What you do if you need cash is
set them as collateral against a loan. Then, next year when the stock
has split I don't know how many times, sell some of the shares,
pay back the loan, and keep the rest as a growth investment. By the
time Nikki's ready, you might well be able to put him through
jump-pilot school with it."
"You don't have to do it that way—" Mark began.
"That's
what I'm doing with mine. It's going to pay my way back to Beta
Colony!" She wasn't going to have to beg so much as a tenth-mark from
her parents, news they'd found a little more surprising than was quite
flattering. They'd then tried to press the offer of a living allowance
on her, just to regain their balance, Kareen thought, or possibly the
upper hand. She'd taken enormous pleasure in sweetly refusing. "I told
Ma Kosti not to sell, either."
Ekaterin's eyes
crinkled. "I see, Kareen. In that case . . . thank you, Lord Mark. I
will think about your offer for a little while."
Foiled,
Mark grumbled under his breath, but, with his brother's sardonic eye
upon him, didn't continue his attempted hustle.
Kareen
flitted back happily to the serving table, where Ma Kosti was just
hoisting up another five-liter tub of maple ambrosia and breaking the
seal.
"How are we doing?" Kareen asked.
"They're
going to clean us out in another hour, at this rate," the cook
reported. She was wearing a lace apron over her very best dress. A
large and exquisite fresh orchid necklace, which she'd said Miles had
given her, fought for space on her breast with her Staff badge. There
was more than one way to get in to the Emperor's wedding, by golly. . .
.
"The maple mead bug butter was a great idea of
yours for soothing down Miles about this," Kareen told her. "He's one
of the few people I know who actually drinks the stuff."
"Oh, that wasn't my
idea, Kareen lovie," Ma Kosti told her. "It was Lord Vorkosigan's. He
owns the meadery, you know. . . . He's got an eye to channeling more
money to all those poor people back in the Dendarii Mountains, I think."
Kareen's grin broadened. "I see
." She stole a glance at Miles, standing benignly with his lady on his
arm and feigning indifference to his clone-brother's project.
In
the gathering dusk, little colored lights began to gleam all through
the Residence's garden and grounds, fair and festive. In their cage,
the Glorious Bugs began to flip their wing carapaces and twinkle back
as if in answer.
* * *
Mark
watched Kareen, all blonde and ivory and raspberry gauzy and entirely
edible, returning from their bug butter table, and sighed in pleasure.
His hands, stuffed in his pockets, encountered the gritty grains she
had insisted he store there for her when the wedding circle had broken
up. He shook them from his fingers, and held out his hand to her,
asking, "What are we supposed to do with all these groats, Kareen?
Plant them or something?"
"Oh, no," she said, as
he pulled her in close. "They're just for remembrance. Most people will
put them up in little sachets, and try to press them on their
grandchildren someday. I was at the Old Emperor's wedding, I was ."
"It's
miracle grain, you know," Miles put in. "It multiplies. By tomorrow—or
later tonight—people will be selling little bags of supposedly-wedding
groats to the gullible all over Vorbarr Sultana. Tons and tons."
"Really."
Mark considered this. "You know, you could actually do that
legitimately, with a little ingenuity. Take your handful of wedding
groats, mix 'em with a bushel of filler-groats, repackage 'em . . . the
customer would still get genuine Imperial wedding groats, in a sense, but they'd go a lot farther . . ."
"Kareen,"
said Miles, "do me a favor. Check his pockets before he gets out of
here tonight, and confiscate any groats you find."
"I wasn't saying I
was going to!" said Mark indignantly. Miles grinned at him, and he
realized he'd just been Scored On. He smiled back sheepishly, too
elated by it all tonight to sustain any emotion downwards of mellow.
Kareen
glanced up, and Mark followed her gaze to see the Commodore in his
parade red-and-blues, and Madame Koudelka in something green and
flowing like the Queen of Summer, making their way toward them. The
Commodore swung his swordstick jauntily enough, but he had a curiously
introspective look on his face. Kareen broke away to cadge more
ambrosia samples to press on them.
"How are you two holding up?" Miles greeted the couple.
The Commodore replied abstractedly, "I'm a little, um. A little . . . um . . ."
Miles cocked an eyebrow. "A little um?"
"Olivia," said Madame Koudelka, "has just announced her engagement."
"I thought this was awfully contagious," said Miles, grinning slyly up at Ekaterin.
Ekaterin returned him a melting smile, then said to the Koudelkas, "Congratulations. Who's the lucky fellow?"
"That's . . . um . . . the part it's going to take some getting used to," the Commodore sighed.
Madame Koudelka said, "Count Dono Vorrutyer."
Kareen
arrived back with an armload of ambrosia cups in time to hear this; she
bounced and squealed delight. Mark glanced aside at Ivan, who merely
shook his head and reached for another ambrosia. Of all the party, his
was the one voice that didn't break into some murmur of surprise. He
looked glum, yes. Surprised, no.
Miles, after a brief digestive pause, said, "I always did think one of your girls would catch a Count."
"Yes," said the Commodore, "but . . ."
"I'm quite certain Dono will know how to make her happy," Ekaterin offered.
"Um."
"She wants a big wedding," said Madame Koudelka.
"So
does Delia," said the Commodore. "I left them arm wrestling over who
gets the earlier date. And the first shot at my poor budget." He stared
around at the Residence grounds, and all the increasingly happy
revelers. As it was still early in the evening, they were almost all
still vertical. "This is giving them both grandiose ideas."
In a rapt voice, Miles said, "Ooh. I must talk to Duv."
Commodore
Koudelka edged closer to Mark, and lowered his voice. "Mark, I, ah . .
. feel I owe you an apology. Didn't mean to be so stiff-necked about it
all."
"That's all right, sir," said Mark, surprised and touched.
The
Commodore added, "So, you're going back to Beta in the fall—good. No
need to be in a rush to settle things at your age, after all."
"That's
what we thought, sir." Mark hesitated. "I know I'm not very good at
family yet. But I mean to learn how."
The Commodore gave him a little nod, and a crooked smile. "You're doing fine, son. Just keep on."
Kareen's
hand squeezed his. Mark cleared his suddenly inexplicably tight throat,
and considered the novel thought that not only could you have a family,
you might even have more than one. A wealth of relations . . . "Thank
you, sir. I'll try."
Olivia and Dono themselves
rounded the corner of the Residence then, arm in arm, Olivia in her
favorite primrose yellow, Dono soberly splendid in his Vorrutyer House
blue and gray. The dark-haired Dono was actually a little shorter than
his intended bride, Mark noticed for the first time. All the Koudelka
girls ran to tall. But the force of Dono's personality was such that
one hardly noticed the height differential.
They
arrived at the group, explaining that they'd been told by five separate
people to go try the maple ambrosia before it was gone. They lingered,
while Kareen collected another armload of samples, to accept
congratulations from all assembled. Even Ivan rose to this social duty.
When
Kareen returned, Olivia told her, "I was just talking to Tatya
Vorbretten. She was so happy—she and Renй have started their little
boy! The blastocyst just got transferred to the uterine replicator this
morning. All healthy so far."
Kareen, her mother,
Olivia, and Dono all put their heads together, and that end of the
conversation became appallingly obstetrical for a short time. Ivan
backed away.
"It's getting worse and worse," he
confided to Mark in a hollow voice. "I used to only lose old
girlfriends to matrimony one at a time. Now they're going in pairs ."
Mark shrugged. "Can't help you, old fellow. But if you want my advice—"
"You're giving me advice on how to run my love life?" Ivan interjected indignantly.
"You get what you give. Even I figured that one out, eventually." Mark grinned up at him.
Ivan
growled, and made to slope off, but then paused to stare, startled, as
Count Dono hailed his cousin Byerly Vorrutyer, just passing by on the
walk leading to the Residence. "What's he doing here?" Ivan muttered.
Dono
and Olivia excused themselves and left, presumably to share their
announcement with this new quarry. Ivan, after a short silence, handed
his empty cup to Kareen and trailed after them.
The
Commodore, scraping the last of his ambrosia out of his cup with the
little spoon provided, stared glumly after Olivia clinging joyfully to
her new fiancй. "Countess Olivia Vorrutyer," he muttered under his
breath, obviously trying to get both his mouth and his mind around the
novel concept. "My son-in-law, the Count . . . dammit, the fellow's
almost old enough to be Olivia's father himself."
"Mother, surely," murmured Mark.
The
Commodore gave him an acerbic look. "You understand," he added after a
moment, "just on principles of propinquity, I always figured my girls
would go for the bright young officers. I expected I'd end up owning
the general staff, in my old age. Though there is Duv, I suppose, for
consolation. Not young either, but bright enough to be downright scary.
Well, maybe Martya will find us a future general."
At
the bug butter table, Martya in a mint-green gown had stopped by to
check on the success of the operation, but stayed to help dish out
ambrosia. She and Enrique bent together to lift another tub, and the
Escobaran laughed heartily at something she said. When Mark and Kareen
returned to Beta Colony, they had agreed Martya would take over as
business manager, going down to the District to oversee the startup of
the operations. Mark suspected she would end up with a controlling
share of the company, eventually. No matter. This was only his first
essay in entrepreneurship. I can make more . Enrique would bury
himself in his development laboratory. He and Martya would both, no
doubt, learn a lot, working together. Propinquity . . .
Mark tested the idea on the tip of his tongue, And this is my brother-in-law, Dr. Enrique Borgos . . .
Mark moved so as to place the Commodore's back to the table, where
Enrique was regarding Martya with open admiration and spilling a lot of
ambrosia on his fingers. Gawky young intellectual types were noted for
aging well, Kareen had told him. So if one Koudelka had chosen the
military, and another the political, and another the economic, it would
complete the set for one to select the scientific . . . It wasn't just
the general staff Kou looked to own in his old age, it was the world.
Charitably, Mark decided to keep this observation to himself.
If
he was doing well enough by Winterfair, maybe he'd give Kou and Drou a
week's all-expenses-paid trip to the Orb, just to encourage the
Commodore's heartening trend toward social liberality. That it would
also allow them to travel out to Beta Colony and see Kareen would be an
irresistible bribe, he rather thought. . . .
* * *
Ivan
stood and watched as Dono finished his cordial conversation with his
cousin By. Dono and Olivia then entered the Residence through the
wide-flung glass doors from which light spilled onto the stone-paved
promenade. Byerly collected a glass of wine from a passing servitor's
tray, sipped, and went to lean pensively on the balustrade overlooking
the descending garden paths.
Ivan joined him. "Hello, Byerly," he said affably. "Why aren't you in jail?"
By
looked around, and smiled. "Why, Ivan. I'm turned Imperial Witness,
don't you know. My secret testimony has put dear Richars into cold
storage. All is forgiven."
"Dono forgave what you tried?"
"It
was Richars's idea, not mine. He's always fancied himself a man of
action. It didn't take much encouragement at all to lure him past the
point of no return."
Ivan smiled tightly, and took Byerly by the arm. "Let's take a little walk."
"Where to?" asked By uneasily.
"Someplace more private."
The
first private place they came to down the path, a stone bench in a
bush-shrouded nook, was occupied by a couple. As it happened, the young
fellow was a Vorish ensign Ivan knew from Ops HQ. It took him about
fifteen captainly seconds to evict the pair. Byerly watched with
feigned admiration. "Such a man of authority you're turning into these
days, Ivan."
"Sit down, By. And cut the horseshit. If you can."
Smiling,
but with watchful eyes, By seated himself comfortably, and crossed his
legs. Ivan positioned himself between By and the exit.
"Why are you here , By? Gregor invite you?"
"Dono got me in."
"Good of him. Unbelievably good. I—for example—don't believe it for a second."
By shrugged. "S'true."
"What was really going on the night Dono was jumped?"
"Goodness, Ivan. Your persistence begins to remind me horribly of your short cousin."
"You've lied and you're lying, but I can't tell about what . You make my head hurt. I'm about to share the sensation."
"Now,
now . . ." By's eyes glinted in the colored lights, though his face was
half shadowed. "It's really quite simple. I told Dono that I was an agent provocateur
. Granted, I helped set up the attack. What I neglected to mention—to
Richars—was that I'd also engaged a squad of municipal guardsmen to
provide a timely interruption. To be followed, in the script, by Dono
staggering into Vorsmythe House, very shaken up, in front of half the
Council of Counts. A grand public spectacle guaranteed to cinch a
substantial sympathy vote."
"You convinced Dono of this?"
"Yes. Fortunately, I was able to offer up the guardsmen as witnesses to my good intentions. Aren't I clever?" By smirked.
"So—I reflect—is Dono. Did he set this up with you, to trip Richars?"
"No.
In fact. I meant it to be a surprise, although not quite as much of a
surprise as, ah, it turned out. I wished to be certain Dono's response
was absolutely convincing. The attack had to actually start—and be
witnessed—to incriminate Richars, and eliminate the `I was only joking'
defense. It would not have had the proper tone at all if Richars
himself had been merely—and provably—the victim of an entrapment by his
political rival."
"I'll swear you weren't faking being distraught as hell that night when you caught up with me."
"Oh,
I was. A most painful memory. All my beautiful choreography was just
ruined. Though, thanks to you and Olivia, the outcome was saved. I
should be grateful to you, I suppose. My life would be . . . most
uncomfortable right now if those nasty brutal thugs had succeeded."
Just exactly how uncomfortable, By? Ivan paused for a moment, then inquired softly, "Did Gregor order this?"
"Are
you having romantic visions of plausible deniability, Ivan? Goodness
me. No. I went to some trouble to keep ImpSec out of the affair. This
impending wedding made them all so distressingly rigid. They would,
boringly, have wanted to arrest the conspirators immediately. Not nearly as politically effective."
If
By was lying . . . Ivan didn't want to know. "You play games like that
with the big boys, you'd better make damn sure you win, Miles says.
Rule One. And there is no Rule Two."
Byerly sighed. "So he pointed out to me."
Ivan hesitated. "Miles talked to you about this?"
"Ten days ago. Has anyone ever explained the meaning of the term dйjа vu to you, Ivan?"
"Reprimanded you, did he?"
"I have my own sources for mere reprimand. It was worse. He . . . he critiqued
me." Byerly shuddered, delicately. "From a covert ops standpoint, don't
you know. An experience I trust I may never repeat." He sipped his wine.
Ivan
was almost lured into sympathetic agreement. But not quite. He pursed
his lips. "So, By . . . who's your blind drop?"
By blinked at him. "My what?"
"Every
deep cover informer has a blind drop. It wouldn't do for you to be seen
tripping in and out of ImpSec HQ by the very men you might, perhaps, be
ratting on tomorrow. How long have you had this job, By?"
"What job?"
Ivan sat silent, and frowned. Humorlessly.
By sighed. "About eight years."
Ivan
raised a brow. "Domestic Affairs . . . counterintelligence . . .
civilian contract employee . . . what's your rating? IS-6?"
By's lip twitched. "IS-8."
"Ooh. Very good."
"Well, I am. Of course, it was
IS-9. I'm sure it will be again, someday. I'll just have to be boring
and follow the rules for a while. For example, I will have to report
this conversation."
"Feel free." Finally, it all
added up, in neat columns with no messy remainders. So, Byerly
Vorrutyer was one of Illyan's dirty angels . . . one of Allegre's, now,
Ivan supposed. Doing a little personal moonlighting on the side, it
appeared. By must certainly have received a reprimand over all his
sleight-of-hand on Dono's behalf. But his career would survive. If
Byerly was a bit of a loose screw, just as certainly, down in the
bowels of ImpSec HQ, there was a very bright man with a screwdriver. A
Galeni-caliber officer, if ImpSec was lucky enough. He might even drop
in to visit Ivan, after this. The acquaintance was bound to prove
interesting. Best of all, Byerly Vorrutyer was his problem. Ivan smiled relief, and rose.
Byerly stretched, picked up his half-empty wineglass, and prepared to accompany Ivan back up the path.
Ivan's
brain kept picking at the scenario, despite his stern order to it to
stop now. A glass of wine of his own ought to do the trick. But he
couldn't help asking again, "So who is your blind drop? It ought to be someone I know, dammit."
"Why, Ivan. I'd think you'd have enough clues to figure it out for yourself by now."
"Well
. . . it has to be someone in the high Vor social milieu, because
that's clearly your specialty. Someone you encounter frequently, but
not a constant companion. Someone who also has daily contact with
ImpSec, but in an unremarkable way. Someone no one would notice. An
unobserved channel, a disregarded conduit. Hidden in plain sight. Who?"
They reached the top of the path. By smiled. "That
would be telling." He drifted away. Ivan wheeled to catch a servitor
with a tray of wineglasses. He turned back to watch By, doing an
excellent imitation of a half-drunk town clown not least because he was
a half-drunk town clown, pause to give one of his little By-bows to
Lady Alys and Simon Illyan, just exiting the Residence together for a
breath of air on the promenade. Lady Alys returned him a cool nod.
Ivan choked on his wine.
* * *
Miles
had been hauled away to pose with the rest of the wedding party for
vids. Ekaterin tried not to be too nervous, left in Kareen and Mark's
good company, but she felt a twinge of relief when she saw Miles again
making his way down the steps from the Residence's north promenade
toward her. The Imperial Residence was vast and old and beautiful and
intimidating and crammed with history, and she doubted she'd ever
emulate the way Miles seemed to pop in and out of side doors as though
he owned the place. And yet . . . moving in this amazing space was
easier this time, and she had no doubt would be still easier the next
visit. Either the world was not so huge and frightening a place as
she'd once been led to believe, or else . . . she was not so small and
helpless as she'd once been encouraged to imagine herself. If power was
an illusion, wasn't weakness necessarily one also?
Miles was grinning. As he took her hand and gripped it to his arm again, he vented a sinister chuckle.
"That is the most villainous laugh, love . . ."
"It's
too good, it's just too good. I had to find you and share it at once."
He led her a little away from the Vorkosigans' wine kiosk, crowded with
revelers, around some trees to where a wide brick path climbed up out
of Old Emperor Ezar's north garden. "I just found out what Alexi
Vormoncrief's new posting is."
"I hope it's the ninth circle of hell!" she said vengefully. "That nitwit very nearly succeeded in having Nikki taken from me."
"Just
as good. Almost the same thing, actually. He's been sent to Kyril
Island. I was hoping they'd make him weather officer, but he's only the
new laundry officer. Well, one can't have everything." He rocked on his
heels with incomprehensible glee.
Ekaterin frowned in doubt. "That hardly seems punishment enough . . ."
"You
don't understand. Kyril Island—they call it Camp Permafrost—is the
worst military post in the Empire. Winter training base. It's an arctic
island, five hundred kilometers from anywhere and anyone, including the
nearest women. You can't even swim to escape, because the water would
freeze you in minutes. The bogs will eat you alive. Blizzards. Freezing
fog. Winds that can blow away groundcars. Cold, dark, drunken, deadly .
. . I spent an eternity there, a few months once. The trainees, they
come and go, but the permanent staff is stuck. Oh. Oh. Justice is good. . . ."
Impressed by his evident enthusiasm, she said, "Is it really that bad?"
"Yes,
oh, yes. Ha! I'll have to send him a case of good brandy, in honor of
the Emperor's wedding, just to start him off right. Or—no, better. I'll
send him a case of bad brandy. After a while, no one there can tell the difference anyway."
Accepting
his assurances for the present and future discomfort of her recent
nemesis, she sauntered contentedly with him along the edge of the
sunken garden. All the principal guests, including Miles, would be
called in for the formal dinner soon, and they would be separated for a
time, he to the high table to sit between Empress Laisa and her
Komarran Second, she to join Lord Auditor Vorthys and her aunt again.
There would be tedious speeches, but Miles laid firm plans for
reconnecting with her right after dessert.
"So
what do you think?" he asked, staring speculatively around at the
party, which seemed to be gaining momentum in the dusk. "Would you like
a big wedding?"
She now recognized the incipient
theatrical gleam in his eye. But Countess Cordelia had primed her on
how to handle this one. She swept her lashes down. "It just wouldn't
feel appropriate in my mourning year. But if you didn't mind waiting
till next spring, it could be as large as you like."
"Ah," he said, "ah. Fall is a nice time for weddings, too . . ."
"A quiet family wedding in the fall? I would like that."
He
would find some way to make it memorable, she had no fear. And, she
suspected, it might be better not to leave him time for over-planning.
"Maybe
in the garden at Vorkosigan Surleau?" he said. "You haven't seen that
yet. Or else the garden at Vorkosigan House." He eyed her sidelong.
"Certainly,"
she said amiably. "Outdoor weddings are going to be the rage for the
next few years. Lord and Lady Vorkosigan will be all in the mode."
He grinned at that. His—her—their
—Barrayaran garden would still be a bit bare by fall. But full of
sprouts and hope and life waiting underground for the spring rains.
They
both paused, and Ekaterin stared in fascination at the Cetagandan
diplomatic delegation just climbing the brick steps that wound up from
the reflecting pools. The regular ambassador and his tall and glamorous
wife were accompanied not only by the haut governor of Rho Ceta,
Barrayar's nearest neighbor planet of the empire, but also by an actual
haut woman from the Imperial capital. Despite the fact that haut ladies
were said never to travel, she had been sent as the personal delegate
of Emperor the haut Fletchir Giaja and his Empresses. She was escorted
by a ghem-general of the highest rank. No one knew what she looked
like, as she traveled always in a personal force bubble, tonight tinted
an iridescent rose color for festivity. The ghem-general, tall and
distinguished, wore the formal blood-red uniform of the Cetagandan
emperor's personal guard, which ought to have clashed horribly with the
bubble, but didn't.
The ambassador glanced at
Miles, waved polite greeting, and said something to the ghem-general,
who nodded. To Ekaterin's surprise, the ghem-general and the pink
bubble left their party and strolled/floated over to them.
"Ghem-general
Benin," said Miles, suddenly on-stage in his most flowing Imperial
Auditor's style. His eyes were alight with curiosity and, oddly,
pleasure. He swept a sincere bow at the bubble. "And haut Pel. So good
to see you—so to speak—once more. I hope your unaccustomed travel has
not proved too wearing?"
"Indeed not, Lord Auditor
Vorkosigan. I have found it quite stimulating." Her voice came from a
transmitter in her bubble. To Ekaterin's astonishment, her bubble grew
almost transparent for a moment. Seated in her float chair behind the
pearly sheen, a tall blonde woman of uncertain age in a flowing
rose-pink gown appeared momentarily. She was staggeringly beautiful,
but something about her ironic smile did not suggest youth. The
concealing screen clouded up once more.
"We are
honored by your presence, haut Pel," Miles said formally, while
Ekaterin blinked, feeling temporarily blinded. And suddenly horribly
dowdy. But all the admiration in Miles's eyes burned for her, not for
the pink vision. "May I introduce my fiancйe, Madame Ekaterin Nile
Vorvayne Vorsoisson."
The distinguished officer
murmured polite greetings. He then turned his thoughtful gaze upon
Miles, and touched his lips in an oddly ceremonious gesture before
speaking.
"My Imperial Master the haut Fletchir
Giaja had asked me, in the event that I should encounter you, Lord
Vorkosigan, to extend his personal condolences for the death of your close friend, Admiral Naismith."
Miles paused, his smile for a moment a little frozen. "Indeed. His death was a great blow to me."
"My Imperial Master adds that he trusts that he will remain deceased."
Miles glanced up at the tall Benin, his eyes suddenly sparkling. "Tell your Imperial Master from me—I trust his resurrection will not be required."
The
ghem-general smiled austerely, and favored Miles with an inclination of
his head. "I shall convey your words exactly, my lord." He nodded
cordially at them both, and he and the pink bubble drifted back to
their delegation.
Ekaterin, still awed by the blonde, murmured to Miles, "What was that all about?"
Miles
sucked on his lower lip. "Not news, I'm afraid, though I'll pass it on
to General Allegre. Benin just confirms something Illyan had suspected
over a year ago. My covert ops identity was come to the end of its
usefulness, at least as far as its being a secret from the Cetagandans
was concerned. Well, Admiral Naismith and his various clones, real and
imagined, kept 'em confused for longer than I'd have believed possible."
He
gave a short nod, not dissatisfied, she thought, despite his little
flash of regret. He took a firmer grip on her.
Regret
. . . And what if she and Miles had met at twenty, instead of she and
Tien? It had been possible; she'd been a student at the Vorbarra
District University, he'd been a newly minted officer in and out of the
capital. If their paths had crossed, might she have won a less bitter
life?
No. We were two other people, then .
Traveling in different directions: their intersection must have been
brief, and indifferent, and unknowing. And she could not unwish Nikki,
or all that she had learned, not even realizing she was learning,
during her dark eclipse. Roots grow deep in the dark .
She could only have arrived here by the path she'd taken, and here, with Miles, this Miles, seemed a very good place to be indeed. If I am his consolation, he is most surely mine as well
. She acknowledged her years lost, but there was nothing in that decade
she needed to circle back for, not even regret; Nikki, and the
learning, traveled with her. Time to move on.
"Ah,"
said Miles, looking up as a Residence servitor approached them,
smiling. "They must be rounding up the strays for dinner. Shall we go
in, milady?"