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<P>SPES LUCIS AETERNAE.</P>
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<P> The La&s;t and HEAVENLY SPEECHES, AND GLORIOUS DEPARTURE OF John Vi&s;count Kenmuir.</P>
<P><HI>EDINBURGH,</HI> Printed by <HI>Evan Tyler,</HI> Printer to the Kings mo&s;t Excellent Maje&s;ty, 1649.</P>
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<HEAD>For the whole Nobility of <HI>Scotland,</HI> and others having voice in Parliament, or Committees.</HEAD>
<P>_WHereas the Te&s;timony of a dying Nobleman, deeply wounded in Spirit is the &s;urest and mo&s;t un&s;u&s;pected Argument of the Truth, I have thought fit to make known to all the l<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter">ve<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter">s of GOD, and the work of his right hand, The heavy pangs of con&s;cience and tor|ment of minde, wherewith a Nobleman not long &s;ince was exerci&s;ed with, upon his death bed, for not coun|tenancing the Cau&s;e of GOD when he was publickly called thereunto in Parliament; and to di&s;cover the fountain of tho&s;e terrours and griefs that others may learn by his example, not to di&s;plea&s;e our dreadfull Lord <HI>Je&s;us Chri&s;t,</HI> either by un&s;ound dealing, or withdrawing them&s;elves from his work; and &s;eeing it was that late Nobleman his earne&s;t de&s;ire that all &s;hould be di&s;covered and laid open to you (Right Honourable) It &s;hall not be impertinent (e&s;pecially in this condition of time) to acquaint you with this following relation.</P>
<P><HI>John</HI> late Vi&s;count <HI>Kenmuir,</HI> having come to the Parliament holden at <HI>Edinburgh</HI> June 1633. was pre&s;ent the fir&s;t day, did &s;tay but &s;ome few days, thereafter, not having courage to glorifie God by his pre&s;ence when his Cau&s;e was in hand, de&s;erted the Parliament, under pretence that his Lady was &s;ick, went home to his own dwelling hou&s;e of <HI>Kenmuir</HI> in <HI>Galloway,</HI> and as <HI>Jonas</HI> or <HI>David,</HI> &s;lept &s;ecurely in his &s;in, about the &s;pace of one year without any check of con&s;cience, till about the begin|ning of <HI>Augu&s;t 1634.</HI> his affairs occa&s;ioned his return to <HI>Edinburgh,</HI> where he remained &s;ome few days, not knowing that with the ending of his affairs he was to end his life, he returned home with &s;ome alterations
<PB REF="3"> of bodily health, and from day to day &s;ickened, till the 12. of <HI>September</HI> next en&s;uing which was to him fat all, and the day of his death. But the Lord had other thoughts then that this Nobleman &s;hould &s;lip out of this world unob&s;erved, and therefore would not have him to die without &s;ome &s;en&s;e of his &s;in, therefore it plea&s;ed the Lord to afflict his body with &s;ick|ne&s;&s;e, to &s;hake his &s;oul with fears, to drop in bitterne&s;s in his &s;pirit, and make him altogether &s;en&s;ible of the power of eternall wrath for his own good, and the good of others in after ages who may be warned by his ex|ample never to be wanting to the cau&s;e of God, when they have any op|portunity, and never to wrong their con&s;cience, which is a tender piece and mu&s;t not be touched.</P>
<P>So as <HI>Nahaz</HI> King of the Ammonites would make no accomodation with the Inhabitants of <HI>Jabe&s;h-Gilead, 1</HI> Sam. 11. but upon that con|dition, that fir&s;t he &s;hould thru&s;t out the right eye to every one of them: So Satan makes him&s;elf never ma&s;ter of men till fir&s;t he thru&s;t out the right eye of their under&s;tanding. Hence is it that the fal&s;e hopes of carnall men, blinde and deceive their mindes, many times to their eter|nall di&s;tructions, making them to &s;ee things in fal&s;e gla&s;&s;es, &s;hewing them either the profit, plea&s;ures, or preferment, with the fair flouri&s;hes of fooli&s;h expectations or deluding promi&s;es, but under this bait Satan hides the sting and torment of con&s;cience, not &s;uffering them to &s;ee how bitter a thing it is to be any ways wanting to a glorious and dreadfull Lord for any by-re&s;pect; This is the way how Satan hath en&s;nared many Mighty, Wi&s;e, and Noblemen, making them to nibble at the golden baite, and wor&s;hip that gold in the coyne, that they would have abhorred in a Molten Image, and &s;o catching the wi&s;e in their craftine&s;s: and as the Apo&s;tle &s;peaks, <HI>2 Tim. 3. 13.</HI> when they are deceiving they con&s;ider not that they are deceived them&s;elves, and are &s;o blinded that they become confident of the con&s;tancy of &s;ublunary things, not &s;o much as thinking, how un&s;table is the foundation of that hou&s;e, honour or pre|ferment, that is laid upon the ruins of GODS&punc; Hou&s;e, wanting illumi|nation to &s;ee, or hope any thing beyond time or death, which is &s;o &s;trict a porter that it will not &s;uffer any to come in, or go out of this world but &s;tript and naked.</P>
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<P>But now (Right Honourable) when I am to Repre&s;ent to you, how fearfully the Spirit of this Nobleman was wounded (whereof the Writer hereof was an eye witne&s;s) I &s;hall not think that any will &s;o con&s;truct it, as to have been a fit of madne&s;s or melancholy; I know that their be many mockers, who will not believe that their is any &s;uch thing, as the unexpre&s;&s;able trouble of a troubled &s;pirit, Though <HI>Job</HI> and <HI>Jeremiah, David, Hezekiah,</HI> and Gods eternall Word have given very many expre&s;sions to the contrary, as the&s;e, <HI>Hath God forgotten to be mer|cifull,</HI> and <HI>Solomon,</HI> Prov. 18. 14. <HI>But a wounded Spirit who can bear it:</HI> Some have chattered as Cranes, and mourned as Doves, others ca&s;ting out fearfull cryes, as oules in the de&s;ert, others &s;creeking as the Pelican, and as this Nobleman &s;aid when his con&s;cience was upon the rack, <HI>My &s;oul hath raged and roared.</HI></P>
<P>I &s;hall further de&s;ire you earne&s;tly to con&s;ider, that the trouble and tempe&s;t of this Noblemans minde, was not for voicing again&s;t, but one|ly de&s;erting the Cau&s;e of GOD, which is &s;carcely counted a fault in the&s;e times, this may teach every man to tremble, rather then to be any ways wanting to the cau&s;e of GOD, but &s;till to &s;tand to it with cou|rage for the truth, the peace of con&s;cience being &s;uch an ine&s;teemable trea|&s;ure. So the wound of a wounded &s;pirit is a mo&s;t unexpre&s;&s;able terror, nor none can de&s;cribe it, but he who hath ta&s;ted &amp; tryed the &s;ame: It impareth the health, dryeth up the blood, wa&s;teth away the marrow, pineth away the fle&s;h, con&s;umeth away the bones, maketh plea&s;ure painfull, and &s;hor|teneth life, no wi&s;dom can coun&s;ell it, no coun&s;ell can advi&s;e it, no ad|vi&s;e can per&s;wade it, no a&s;swagement can cure it, no eloquence can move it, no power can overcome it, no &s;cepter can affray it, no Inchanter can charme it: Who dareth meet with the wrath of the&s;e? O holy Lord of Ho&s;ts, who can put to &s;ilence the voice of de&s;peration? It breeds &s;uch hurly-burlyes in the minde of him that laboureth under it, that when it is day he wi&s;heth for night, &amp; when it is night he would have day again, his meat doth not nouri&s;h him, his dreams are filled with fears, his &s;leep for&s;akes him, all outward comforts are uncomfortable; Then con&s;ider that if in this life, the torments of the &s;oul be &s;o fearfull; How much more terrible &s;hall it be to &s;ustain the torments of Hell, where that which
<PB REF="4"> is here finite, is there infinite; where that which is here mea&s;urable, is their unmea&s;urable; How great is that ocean of &s;orrow, whereof this is but a drop, how hot is the flame of that fire, whereof this is le&s;&s;e then a &s;parke: What will then avail <HI>Balaams</HI> wages, or <HI>Naboths</HI> Vineyard, or <HI>Achans</HI> wedge of gold, or <HI>Gehezies</HI> bribe, or the lu&s;t broker <HI>Iona|dabs</HI> credit with a Kings Son, or <HI>Iudas</HI> his 30. pieces of &s;ilver, what will avail the rich rewards of many treacherous murtherous emi&s;&s;aries, or the mighty promi&s;es made to many night-plotting birds, who writ in ob&s;cure characters, who work wi&s;ely, and plot in darkne&s;s again&s;t the ho|ly Covenant and tho&s;e who are dearest to the Lord, the Innocents of the earth, and apple of God his own eye; what will pen&s;ions and promoti|ons to high dignities avail them, who are lifted up for betraying the Cau&s;e of GOD, Church or State, when not onely the blood of <HI>Ie&s;us Chri&s;t,</HI> his Apo&s;tles and Di&s;ciples &s;hall be required at their hand, but all the blood from <HI>Abel</HI> to <HI>Zechariah,</HI> from <HI>Zechariah</HI> to <HI>Ie&s;us Chri&s;t</HI> and his di&s;ciples from them to the la&s;t Martyr that &s;uffered under the ten cruell Emperours, and all the Popes, from them to the poor <HI>Walden|&s;es,</HI> from them to the holy Martyrs that &s;uffered under Queen <HI>Mary</HI> of <HI>England,</HI> and all the Martyrs of the ma&s;&s;acre of <HI>Paris,</HI> &amp; all the cruell ro&s;ted Martyrs of the Spani&s;h Inqui&s;ition, from them to that incompa|rable murther of the Martyrs and holy ones of <HI>Ireland;</HI> When all that blood, I &s;ay, &s;hall be required at their hand, Who is able to &s;tand before thee, O holy Lord of hosts! when thou &s;halt once begin to &s;peak a word in thy wrath, and vex wicked men in thy &s;ore di&s;plea&s;ure?</P>
<P>Rememher therefore that con&s;cience is placed in the &s;oul as GODS own deputy, and GODS notary, there is nothing pa&s;&s;es in our life good or evil which con&s;cience notes not down with an indeleble character, con&s;cience writes all mens iniquities as the &s;in of <HI>Judah</HI> was written, Jer. 17. 1. With a pen of iron, and with the point of a diamond, con&s;cience doth in this our pilgrimage, as travellers upon a journey, it keeps a daily Diary of every thing that occurs in the whole cour&s;e of our life, and then con|&s;cience is as a thou&s;and witne&s;&s;es, its an eye witne&s;s, and a pen witne&s;s, bringing te&s;timony from the authentique Regi&s;ters and Records of the Court of Con&s;cience, ble&s;&s;ed is the man who followeth the injunctions,
<PB REF="5"> dictates, prohibitions and determinations of a good and right informed con&s;cience, and hearkens to all the incitements thereof: Oh that every man would remember how dangerous a thing it is to re&s;i&s;t the checks of con&s;cience, for in &s;o doing we fight not only again&s;t our own light, but again&s;t the light of the holy Spirit, and grow to &s;uch a &s;otti&s;hne&s;s and in|duration in &s;in, that no admonition is able to forwarn us, neither can any puni&s;hment work upon us when once we have &s;uffered our &s;elves to be har|dened by degrees, the &s;malle&s;t means will provoke us, but the greatest cannot revoke us from &s;in and impiety.</P>
<P>Con&s;cience is of the nature of the eye, the lea&s;t mote, the lea&s;t touch is offen&s;ive to it, and yet the learned Phy&s;itians affirm, that although of all the parts of the body it be the mo&s;t tender, yet if that web which is cal|led (&s;hirrus oculi) come once upon it, of the mo&s;t tender and &s;en&s;ible member, it becomes the mo&s;t in&s;en&s;ible of all the body; this &s;hould in|&s;truct all men to fear the Lord greatly, and tremble at his Word, to be ex|act and &s;trict in watchfulne&s;s, fervent and frequent in prayer, lea&s;t through long cu&s;tom in &s;in, the con&s;cience come to a palpable induration, and &s;o as the Apo&s;tle &s;peaks, <HI>Eph. 4. 19. Pa&s;t all feeling.</HI></P>
<P><HI>David</HI> P&s;al. 37. 37. De&s;ires that we &s;hould ob&s;erve, and we &s;hall finde that the upright man &s;hall have peace at la&s;t, which followeth the war|fare of this life, and bringeth glory and immortality with unwithering Crowns, yet there be many &s;o fooli&s;h to get the fir&s;t peace, that they loo&s;e the &s;econd, <HI>Saul</HI> would have peace with men, but lo&s;t his peace with God him&s;elf and his crown. The Jews refu&s;ed Peace with <HI>Je&s;us Chri&s;t</HI> to have peace with the Romans, and when they had killed <HI>Je&s;us Chri&s;t,</HI> they lo&s;t their peace both with GOD and the Romanes: Look back to for|mer times and it &s;hall appear, that it never went well with them, who to plea&s;e men offended GOD, or for the faults of men would di&s;cord with God; This way of impiety never had, nor &s;hall have good &s;ucce&s;s; &s;o that there is no delight to the delight of a good con&s;cience, let that bird in the brea&s;t be alwayes kept &s;inging.</P>
<P>The many manife&s;t te&s;timonies (be&s;ide this dying Lord) that other dy|ing per&s;ons both in this Kingdom and <HI>England</HI> have given to this pre|&s;ent Cau&s;e, the Covenant, and Work of Reformation, are not to be pa&s;&s;ed
<PB REF="5"> in &s;ilence, for both the Servant, of GOD in the Ministry, as Mr. <HI>Alex|ander Hender&s;on,</HI> and Mr. <HI>George Gille&s;pie,</HI> and many others of younger years, have to the death incouraged all they left behinde them to be con&s;tant therein, and have expre&s;&s;ed their hope and confidence, the Lord &s;hould yet build a glorious Hou&s;e for him&s;elf in this I&s;land, not to &s;peak of the Printed Te&s;timonies of the man of God and Martyr Mr. <HI>Geo: Wi&s;|hard,</HI> &amp; that heavenly man in our times, Mr. <HI>Iohn Welch,</HI> &amp; then tho&s;e who have oppo&s;ed the Cau&s;e, or have been mi&s;led by evil coun&s;el, as the L. <HI>Boyd,</HI> who was &s;haken with terrours (as this Nobleman) and others who have expre&s;&s;ed much terrour of con&s;cience, and their deep &s;orrow in coun|terworking the work of the right Arm of the Lord, many &s;uch have been both in <HI>Scotland</HI> and <HI>England:</HI> all this I lay before your eyes (Right Honourable) that as you would be ble&s;&s;ed with the ble&s;sing of the right hand, and likewi&s;e have your hou&s;es built upon earth, That you would exalt the holy Covenant, which notwith&s;tanding of all the wi&s;dom, un|der&s;tanding, or coun&s;ell that is again&s;t it, yet &s;hall it be as oyl among the liquors, have no intelligence with them that for&s;ake it: Be not again&s;t it in your hearts, and as it is &s;aid, <HI>Dan. 11. 30.</HI> have no indignation against the holy Covenant.</P>
<P>It was the la&s;t and mo&s;t earne&s;t de&s;ire of this (Nobleman) Right Honou|rable, That being warned by his example, you might not &s;plit upon that rock, nor &s;tumble upon that &s;tone whereupon he had &s;tumbled, when he was very weak, the&s;e were his words, tell them, <HI>As they are now, &s;o I have been, and ere it be long they will all follow me;</HI> Remember there|fore that God hath &s;et you (Noblemen) as &s;tars in the firmament of ho|nour, upon your influence, depends the whole cour&s;e of the inferiour world, The offence of great ones keeps off many, the piety of great ones brings in many, It &s;hould make your hearts to tremble, when it is &s;aid, that few are &s;aved; But when &s;alvation is &s;traitened in a more narrow compa&s;s, and GODS Word, <HI>1 Cor. 1. 26.</HI> hath &s;aid of Noblemen, that <HI>few are &s;aved;</HI> this &s;hould stir up all men, but principally Noblemen to tremble at GODS Word, and endeavour with heart and minde, and might to <HI>make their calling and their election &s;ure, 2</HI> Pet. 1. 10. There is no|thing &s;o ba&s;e under the Suns circuit, as to &s;ee tho&s;e who are lifted up
<PB REF="6"> through civil Nobility to be under the power of their lu&s;ts. <HI>Iohn Chry|&s;o&s;tom</HI> compares &s;uch men to a King taken pri&s;oner, who is forced to &s;erve with his Crown upon his head, and his royall apparell upon him: Let therefore Spiritual Nobility be &s;uperadded to Civil, and then to your Coronets you &s;hall adde a Crown of life, and a Crown of glory to your costly garments: Vitious great men are as <HI>Uzziah,</HI> they carry their le|pro&s;ie upon their brow, the faults of great men are like ecclip&s;es of the Sun, most eminent to all the world.</P>
<P>Its not the antiquity of your Families, nor the long di&s;cent of an ancient pedigree through many Noble or Princely Branches that can make you Noble, true Nobility con&s;i&s;ts in that adoption, by which you are made the &s;ons of GOD, children of the King of kings, and Brethren of the eternal Son of GOD; the titles of this Nobility are not written in old rotten or moulded parchments, but are more ancient then the heavens: labour therefore to be the Sons of GOD by Regeneration, which is the ornament of blood, and the fir&s;t flower of the Guarland: Fooles may be lifted up, and think what they plea&s;e of Civill Nobility, but <HI>the mo&s;t Royall blood is in the mo&s;t Religious heart.</HI></P>
<P>If therefore (Right Honourable) you be among men as mountains over valleys, be as tho&s;e mountains of which <HI>Solomon</HI> maketh mention, <HI>Cant. 4. 6.</HI> be mountains of myrrhe and hils of frankincen&s;e, and not as tho&s;e mountains of the Prophet, <HI>O&s;ee 4. 13.</HI> who had nothing but incen&s;e and Idols upon their tops, and &s;o cau&s;ing the people to erre, become their &s;nares and &s;tumbling blocks, if you be elevated in the world as clifts a|bove the &s;ea, be as watch-Towers, not as mi&s;-placed Beacons, or lowring rocks: If you be &s;tars, be &s;uns to be chariots of light and life, and not prodigious Comets, to pour out malignity upon the four quarters of the World; and re&s;t a&s;&s;ured, that how much more you are with GOD, and uni|ted to his Maje&s;ty, &s;o much the greater &s;hall you be; The more conform|able you are to the Lord of glory, &s;o much the more &s;hall you behold the earth in contempt under your feet, and Heaven in Crowns over your heads.</P>
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<HEAD>The la&s;t and Heavenly Speeches, and glorious Departure of <HI>John</HI> Vi&s;count <HI>Kenmuir.</HI></HEAD>
<P>_UPon the la&s;t of <HI>Augu&s;t</HI> 1634. which was the Sabbath of the Lord, when this Noblemans body was much weakened, he was vi&s;ited with a Religious and Learned Pa&s;tor; who then lived in <HI>Galloway,</HI> not far di&s;tant from my Lord <HI>Ken|muir</HI> his hou&s;e: he rejoyced at the coming of this Pa&s;tor to his hou&s;e, and ob&s;erved and &s;pake of a directing and all Ruling Providence, who had &s;ent to him &s;uch a man, who had been abroad from <HI>Gal|loway</HI> for other occa&s;ions, and had returned &s;ooner then his own expectations was, or his bu&s;ine&s;&s;e could permit: after &s;upper about eleven hours at night my Lord drew on a confe|rence with the &s;aid Pa&s;tor, &s;aying, I am heavily weighted and af|frighted in &s;oul with two great burdens, The one is fear of death, the other extream and vehement bodily pain; but the former is heavier then the latter, for I never dreamed that death had &s;uch a &s;owre and au&s;tere, gloomie, and &s;uch a terrible, and grim-like countenance; I dare not die, howbeit I know I mu&s;t die, what &s;hall I do for I dare not venter in grips with death, becau&s;e I find my &s;ins &s;o grievous and &s;o many, that I fear my accompts be ragged, and out of order, and not &s;o as becometh a dying man.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered, My Lord, there is a piece of nature in all men (the Believers not excepted) whereby to them the fir&s;t look upon death is terrible and fearfull, but my Lord, believe in
<PB N="2" REF="7"> him who died for you, and look the &s;econd and third time upon deaths face, and if you be in Chri&s;t, you &s;hall &s;ee Ie&s;us hath put a white mask upon death; and I dare &s;ay if this be the time of your di&s;&s;olution, I tru&s;t in God you &s;hall both change your minde and words, for if you have a good &s;econd in the combate (&s;uch as is onely Chri&s;t) your Lord will po&s;sibly let your con&s;cience wre&s;tle with the fears of death, yet he is beholding fair play, and I hope Chri&s;t Ie&s;us &s;hall not be a naked beholder, and &s;ay (deal it betwixt you) as he doth in the death of Reprobates, but &s;hall lend you help, for borrowed &s;trength is all your &s;trength here; yea I hope Ie&s;us Chri&s;t &s;hal give death the reading &s;troke; But my Lord, I fear more the ground of your fear of death, which is (as you &s;ay) the con&s;cience of your &s;ins, for there can be no plea betwixt you and your Lord, if your &s;ins be taken a way in Chri&s;t, for then death loo&s;eth its action of Law again&s;t you, you being in Chri&s;t and therefore make that &s;ure work and fear not.</P>
<P>My Lord an&s;wered, I have been too late in coming to God, and have deferred the time of my making my Accompts &s;o long, that I fear that I have but the fooli&s;h Vitgins part of it, who come and knocked at the door of the Bridegroom too late, and &s;o got never in.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, I have gathered by experiences, and ob&s;erved in &s;undry, and e&s;pecially in your Father, that when they were plunged over head and ears in the world, and had ca&s;t down old Barnes, and built up new again, God come in a moneths &s;pace and le&s;&s;e, and plucked them from their deceiving hopes, before ever they got half a wombfull, yea or a lucky mouthfull of the world, and this my Lord, looketh like your care, for you know how deep your &s;elf hath been in the world, in Building, Planting, Parking, &s;eeking Honours, and now belike your &s;ummons are to a &s;hort day.</P>
<P>My Lord an&s;wered, its true, I have been bu&s;ie that way, but my intentions were hone&s;t, and only to free my &s;elf of burdens and bu&s;ine&s;&s;e.</P>
<PB N="3" REF="7">
<P>The Pa&s;tor not being content with &s;uch a naked an&s;wer in &s;uch a weighty propo&s;ition, drew the conference about again to his fear of death, and to a reckoning with his Lord; and &s;aid, my Lord, you know that it is one of the weightie&s;t bu&s;ine&s;&s;es that ever you put your hand to (to die) elpecially &s;eeing judgement is at deaths back; faults in your life are mendable by repentance, but one wrong foot&s;tep in death is conjoyned with eternal lo&s;&s;e; for there is neither time nor place to r<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="3 letters">ate of evil and bad dying; therefore I intreat you my Lord by the mercies of God, by your appearance before Chri&s;t your Iudge, and by the &s;alvation of your &s;oul, that you would here look ere you leap, and venter not into eternity without a te&s;tificate under Ie&s;us Chri&s;t his hand, becau&s;e it is the cur&s;e of the hypocrite, <HI>Job 20. 11. He lyeth down in the grave, and his bones full of the &s;ins of his youth.</HI></P>
<P>My Lord replied, when I begin to look upon my life, I think all is wrong in it, and the latene&s;&s;e of my reckoning affrighteth me, therefore &s;tay with me, and &s;hew me the marks of a childe of God, for you mu&s;t be my &s;econd in this combat, and wait upon me: His Lady an&s;wered, my heart, you mu&s;t have Ie&s;us Chri&s;t to be your &s;econd, unto the which he &s;aid heartily, Amen.</P>
<P>Then &s;aid my Lord, but how &s;hall I know that I am in the &s;tate of grace? for while I be re&s;olved, my fears will &s;till overbur|den me.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, hardly or never doth a ca&s;t away anxiou&s;ly and carefully ask the que&s;tion, whether he be the childe of God or not.</P>
<P>Then my Lord out of de&s;ire to be per&s;waded of his &s;alvation, excepted again&s;t that mark, and &s;aid I do not think, that there is any Reprobate in Hell, but he would with all his heart have the Kingdom of Heaven.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor having differenced to him, what &s;ort of de&s;ires of &s;alvation falleth in Reprobates: My Lord &s;aid, you never did &s;ee in me any tokens of true grace, and that is my great and only fear.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, I was &s;orry to &s;ee you carried &s;o fearfully away with temptations, and you know whether by word
<PB N="4" REF="8"> or writ I did give you warning that it would come to this that you &s;ee this night: I would wi&s;h your &s;oul were deeply humbled for &s;in; but to your demand, I &s;ay, I thought you had ever a love to the Saints&punc; and even to the poore&s;t and &s;illye&s;t who carried Chri&s;ts Image, howbeit they could never &s;erve nor plea&s;ure you in any way, and <HI>John</HI> &s;aith, 1 <HI>Joh. 3. 14. By this we know we are tran&s;lated from death to life, becau&s;e we love the Brethren:</HI> with that mark he was after &s;ome obj<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="2 letters">tions convinced.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor asked him, my Lord, dare you now quit your part of Chri&s;t, and &s;ub&s;cribe an ab&s;olute Re&s;ignation of Je&s;us Chri&s;t?</P>
<P>My Lord &s;aid, O Sir, that is too hard, I hope He and I have more to do together then &s;o, I will be advi&s;ed ere I do that.</P>
<P>Then my Lord asked, what mark is it, to have judgement to di&s;cerna Mini&s;ter called and &s;ent of God, and an Hireling; The Pa&s;tor allowed it as a good mark al&s;o, and cited to him <HI>John 10. 4. My &s;heep know my voice.</HI></P>
<P>At the &s;econd conference, the Pa&s;tor urged a nece&s;sity of a deep humiliation, and &s;aid my Lord, you know Chri&s;t mu&s;t have &s;uch &s;ouls to work upon, and not the whole: My Lord &s;aid, God knoweth, but that is a needfull (mu&s;t) oh if I could get him, but &s;in cau&s;eth me to be jealous of his love, to &s;uch a man as I have been.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, be jealous of your &s;elf my Lord, but not of Ie&s;us Chri&s;t, and know that there is no meeting betwixt Chri&s;t and you, except you <HI>be weary and laden,</HI> for his Commi&s;sion from the Father, <HI>I&s;a.</HI> 61. 1, 2, 3. Is onely to the <HI>broken hearted, to the cap|tives, to the pri&s;oners, and to the mourners in Zion.</HI></P>
<P>Whereupon my Lord &s;aid with a deep &s;igh, and with tears God &s;end me that, and thereafter reckoned out a number of &s;ins, which &s;aid he, are as Serpents and Crocodiles before my eyes: thereafter my Lord &s;aid, but this hath been a &s;udden warning that God hath given me, what &s;hall I do, I am afraid to die, and I can neither win through death, nor about it.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, death and you are &s;trangers, you
<PB N="5" REF="8"> have not made your acquaintance yet with death, I hope you will tell another tail of death, ere all the play be ended, and you &s;hall think death a &s;weet me&s;&s;enger, who is coming to fetch you up to your Fathers hou&s;e.</P>
<P>Upon this he &s;aid with tears, God make it &s;o, and de&s;ired the Pa&s;tor to pray.</P>
<P>At the third conference my Lord &s;aid death bindeth me &s;trait; O how &s;weet a thing it is to &s;eek God in health, and in time of pro|&s;perity to make our Accompts; for now through bodily pain, I am &s;o di&s;tempered, that I cannot get my heart framed to think up|on my Accompts, and the life to come.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, its a part of your battell to fight again&s;t &s;ickne&s;s and pain, no le&s;s then again&s;t &s;in and death, &s;eeing &s;ickne&s;&s;e is a temptation.</P>
<P>My Lord &s;aid, I have taken the play very long, God hath given me five and thirty years to repent (and alas I have mi&s;pent it,) and now I &s;ee an ugly &s;ight, then he covered his face with a linnen cloth, and bur&s;ted into tears and weeped &s;ore.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, they be far behinde who may not follow, think not your time &s;o late, Chri&s;t his door is yet half open, you have time to throng in, and your time is not all &s;pent as yet, its I grant far after noon, and the back of the day is now, yea the edge of your evening, but run fa&s;t that ye lie not in the fields, and mi&s;s your lodging.</P>
<P>Upon that my Lord &s;aid with his eyes lifted up to heaven: Lord, how can I run, <HI>Lord draw me and I &s;hall run,</HI> Cant. 1. The Pa&s;tor hearing that, de&s;ired him to pray, but he an&s;wered nothing, but within one hour after, he called for the Pa&s;tor, and in the hearing of his Lady and him, he prayed divinely and gratiou&s;ly, with tears; The contents of his prayer, was a bemoaning to God of his weak e&s;tate, both inward and outward; for &s;aid he, Lord I am oppre&s;&s;ed with pain without, &s;orrow and fear within, I dare not knock at thy door, I lie at it but &s;craping as I may, till thou come out and take me in; I dare not &s;peak, I look up to thee and wait on
<PB N="6" REF="9"> <HI>for a &s;matk and ki&s;s of Chri&s;ts fair face</HI>) O! when wilt thou come?</P>
<P>At the fourth conference, he calling for the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, I charge you go to a &s;ecret place to God, and pray for me, and take help of others with you, and do it not for the fa&s;hion; I know Prayer, will pull Chri&s;t out of heaven.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, what &s;hall we &s;eek from God to you, give us a commi&s;sion from your own mouth.</P>
<P>My Lord an&s;wered, <HI>I charge you to tell my beloved that I am &s;ick of love.</HI></P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, &s;hall we &s;eek life and recovery to you? He an|&s;wered, yea if it be Gods good plea&s;ure, for I finde my fear of death now le&s;s, and I think God is loo&s;ing the roots of this deep grown tree of my &s;oul &s;o &s;trongly fa&s;tened to this life.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, My Lord, you mu&s;t &s;wear a Covenant to God, that if he re&s;tore you to this life again, you &s;hall renew your obe|dience to God, and that Ie&s;us Chri&s;t &s;hall be dearer to your &s;oul, then your Honours, Plea&s;ures, Credit, Place, Baronies, and Lands and all that you have: he &s;aid ere the Pa&s;tor had ended (I tro &s;o) and all to little for him; and by Gods grace I binde my &s;elf under the pain of everla&s;ting wrath to bide by that Covenant, if the Lord &s;hould re&s;tore me.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, our hearts are deceitfull above all things, See that you be hone&s;t and &s;tedfa&s;t to Ie&s;us Chri&s;t in your Covenant; then he read to him the 78. P&s;al. 36. of a fal&s;e Cove|nant, that men often make under heavy troubles, and ver&s;e 34. <HI>when he &s;lew them, then they &s;ought him, and they returued, and en|quired early after God,</HI> and ver. 35. <HI>and they remembred that God was their rock and the high God their Redeemer,</HI> and ver. 36. <HI>Neverthe|le&s;s they did flatter him with their mouth, and they lyed unto him with their tongues,</HI> and ver. 37. <HI>For their heart was not right with him, nei|ther were they &s;tedfa&s;t in his Covenant:</HI> My Lord &s;aid, when he heard this read, in de&s;pight of the devil thats not my Covenant: my Lord took the Bible, and &s;aid mark other Scriptures for me to
<PB N="7" REF="9"> read, and he marked to him the 2 <HI>Cor. 5. Rev. 21. Rev. 22. I&s;a. 38. P&s;al. 38. John</HI> 14. The&s;e places he turned over, and cryed fre|quently, Lord for one of thy love-blinks, O Son of God, one &s;ight of thy face.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, your prayers and your tears are come up before God, and Chri&s;t hath obtained a Pardon for you: my Lord took the Pa&s;tor by the hand, and drew him to him, and &s;aid with a &s;igh and tears, <HI>good news indeed;</HI> thereafter he called the Pa&s;tor and conveened &s;uch as went with him to pray for him, and &s;aid have you gotten any heavenly liberty and acce&s;s to God in Chri&s;t for my &s;oul, they &s;aid they had, and he rejoyced, and &s;aid then I will believe and wait on: I cannot think but my beloved is coming leaping over the mountains, and skipping over the hills: When any friends or others come to vi&s;it him, whom he knew to fear God, he &s;aid at the fir&s;t, go try your power with God for me, go and pray; he &s;ent two of them at their fir&s;t coming to him to the wood of the <HI>Kenmuir,</HI> expre&s;ly to pray for him; after &s;ome cool of a Feaver (as was thought) he &s;aid to a Gentle woman who was a good Chri&s;tian, who at his own de&s;ire, attended him conti|nually <HI>Marion,</HI> I de&s;ire one word of the Pa&s;tor, who being cal|led, came, to whom he &s;aid &s;miling, joy now, for he is come, Oh! if I had a tongue to tell the world what Ie&s;us Chri&s;t hath done to my &s;oul.</P>
<P>But after this, my Lord conceiving hope of recovery became exceeding carele&s;s, remi&s;s, and dead, and &s;eldom called for the Pa&s;tor, for the &s;pace of two days he continued &s;o, hoping to re|cover, howbeit upon no terms he would not perm it the Pa&s;tor to go home to his Kirk and flock till the Lords day was pa&s;&s;ed, this coldne&s;&s;e gave occa&s;ion (to my Lady and the Pa&s;tor and other his friends and lovers) of heavine&s;s, &s;eeing his care for his &s;oul &s;o exceedingly &s;lacked, this made the Pa&s;tor go to the Phy&s;ition, and asked his judgement for his life, who an&s;wered plainly that there was nothing for him but death, which would be certain if his flux returned, which in effect did return; this made the Pa&s;tor go in to
<PB N="8" REF="10"> him, and &s;ay my Lord, I have a nece&s;&s;ary bu&s;inene to impart unto you, and he &s;aid, &s;ay on.</P>
<P>My Lord, you are not aware of a deep and fearfull temptation of the Devil, by the which your &s;oul is dangerou&s;ly en&s;nared, you have conceived hope to return back again to this life, but I tell you my Lord, ere it be long, you &s;hall be pre&s;ented before the Iudge of quick and dead, to receive doom and &s;entence according to your works, I have warrant for me to &s;ay this, therefore I be|&s;eech you my Lord, as you tender your own &s;ouls &s;alvation, be not deceived ere it be long, time will be no more with you eternity is drawing on, your gla&s;s is &s;horter then you are aware of, <HI>Satan</HI> would be glad to &s;teal your &s;oul out of this life &s;leeping.</P>
<P>The Phy&s;itian likewi&s;e &s;econded the&s;e &s;peeches, and faithfully gave him warning of the danger of his di&s;ea&s;e, and told him for the &s;alvation of his &s;oul, it was his wi&s;dom to be prepared, and told him plainly, that he thought his time &s;hould not be long; af|ter the&s;e words, he took the Pa&s;tor by the hand, and &s;aid that he found faithfull and plain dealing, this man and I will not &s;under till death &s;under us; now I will &s;et a&s;ide all things, I know one thing is needfull; it was but the folly of my deceiving heart, to look back over my &s;houlder to this life, when I was fairly on once in my journey towards heaven, and therefore he cau&s;ed all men to go out of the chamber &s;ave only the Pa&s;tor, and cau&s;ed him clo&s;e the doors and confer with him anent the &s;tate of his &s;oul.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor after prayer, &s;aid my Lord, I perceive I have been deceived and your Lord&s;hip al&s;o, for your joy I fear hath not been wel rooted, neither your humiliation &s;o deep as need were, we mu&s;t dig deeper again, and &s;eek a lower foundation, for when I bethink me of your coldne&s;s in devotion, and your untimous relenting in the nece&s;&s;ary work of making your reckoning with your Judge, upon vain conceived hope of recovery of health, I &s;ee certainly the work is not &s;ure, one pin is loo&s;e: Your Lord&s;hip knoweth this Church and Countrey hath been grievou&s;ly offended at many gro&s;s and open &s;ins in you, both again&s;t the fir&s;t and &s;econd table
<PB N="9" REF="10"> of the Law, and upon this the Pa&s;tor burthened him with &s;undry particulars, and told him plainly and &s;aid, my Lord, my mi&s;take of the ca&s;e of your &s;oul, hath been from hence, that you have never cleared your &s;elf of many predominants and bo&s;om &s;ins, whereof I both &s;pake and writ to you, and you may remember how male-content you were, at a &s;harp Letter of many particulars that I writ to your Lord&s;hip, and how at your hou&s;e of <HI>Ru&s;co</HI> you made half a challenge of it to me; for I found you always wittie to &s;hift, and cover any thing, whereof you were rebuked, howbeit, at my fir&s;t co|ming to this Countrey, when you fided too much with a Gentleman of your name who killed a man vildely, you promi&s;ed willingly to receive and take in good part, what I freely told your Lord&s;hip was ami&s;&s;e.</P>
<P>Whereupon my Lord rec<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 span">ed out a number of fearfull &s;ins, which becau&s;e Ie&s;us <GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 word"> hath covered, The Pa&s;tor will never di&s;cover, but among&s;t all, he ingeniou&s;ly, and free|ly confe&s;&s;ed his &s;in in de&s;erting the la&s;t Parliament, and &s;aid, God knoweth I did it with the fearfull wre&s;tlings of my con|&s;cience, my light paying me home within, when I &s;eemed to be glad and joyfull before men, yet I did for fear of incurring the indignation of my Prince, and the lo&s;s of farther honour, which I certainly expected, but wo, wo be to honours or any thing el&s;e bought with the lo&s;s of peace of con&s;cience and Gods favour.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor being &s;trucken with fear and a&s;toni&s;hment, at the reckoning of tho&s;e fearfull &s;ins, which my Lord had keep|ed clo&s;e, notwith&s;tanding of &s;uch fair appearance of a &s;ound mark of grace in his &s;oul, as he had conceived, did then &s;tand up, and read unto him, the fir&s;t eight ver&s;es of the 6 to the <HI>Hebrews,</HI> and di&s;cour&s;ed to him of the far on-going of Repro|bates in the way of Heaven, and of their ta&s;te of the good Word of God, and of the vertues of the life to come, and yet are but Reprobates; and cited al&s;o <HI>Rev.</HI> 21. but the fearfull and unbelievers, and the abominable murtherers, whoremongers,
<PB N="10" REF="11"> &amp;c. &s;hall have their part in the lake that burneth with fire and brim&s;tone, which is the &s;econd death, and told him what everla&s;ting burning was; and with that the Pa&s;tor turned his back upon him, and &s;aid now my Lord, I have not one word of mercie, from my LORD to &s;ay to you, God hath &s;ealed up my lips that I dare &s;peak nothing to you but one thing, the wrath and ire of God Almighty.</P>
<P>My Lord hearing this, with tears cried out &s;o, that they heard him in the with drawing Room and in all the hou&s;es a|bout, Then he &s;aid, <HI>God armed in wrath is coming again&s;t me, to beat out my brains; I would die, I would not die, I dare not live, O what a burden is the hand of an angry God? Oh! what &s;hall I do? Is there no hope of mercy.</HI> Thus in a fearfull agony he lay a long time weeping, &s;o that tho&s;e who attended brake in, and &s;aid the Pa&s;tor had no skill, he w<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="3 letters">d kill him, and others &s;aid I pray you be ware, you will <GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 span">il to thru&s;t him in de&s;pair: The Pa&s;tor not content with tho&s;e &s;peeches did bear with them, and went to a quiet part, and &s;ought from God his &s;al|vation, and words from God to &s;peak to this patient, and &s;ome &s;aid that the Pa&s;tor was a mi&s;erable comforter.</P>
<P>After this another Pa&s;tor came to vi&s;it my Lord, to whom my Lord &s;aid, <HI>he hath &s;lain me,</HI> and before the Pa&s;tor could &s;peak for him&s;elf, my Lord &s;aid, <HI>not he hath &s;lain me, but the &s;pirit of God in him:</HI> The Pa&s;tor &s;aid not I, but the Law hath &s;lain you; and my Lord I &s;ay yet again, the God of heaven hath a terrible proce&s;s again&s;t your fathers hou&s;e, and a deep and a bloody controver&s;ie, with the &s;tones and the timber of the hou&s;e of <HI>Kenmuir,</HI> and my Lord your name is in the pro|<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="2 letters">&s;s, &s;ee how you can free your &s;elf, God is not mocked.</P>
<P>The other brother read to him the hi&s;tory of <HI>Mana&s;&s;es</HI> his mo&s;t wicked life, and how the Lord was intreated of him, and gave him mercy, but the former Pa&s;tor went &s;till upon wrath, and asked of him, &s;aying, my Lord, you are extreamly pained, I know now both in body and minde, what think you
<PB N="11" REF="11"> of the lake of fire and Brim&s;tone, of everla&s;ting burnings, and of utter darkne&s;&s;e with the Devil and his Angels.</P>
<P>My Lord &s;aid w<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter"> is me, what can I think of it, I think if I &s;hould &s;uffer my thoughts to dwell upon it any &s;pace, it were enought to cau&s;e me go out of my wits, but I pray you man what &s;hall my &s;oul do? The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered, my Lord, I am where I was, God knoweth I di&s;&s;emble not, I have not one word of mercy to &s;peak to you; only I know Chri&s;t hath not given out the doom again&s;t you, the &s;entence is yet &s;u&s;pended, therefore mourn and &s;orrow for the offending of your God.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid what (my Lord) if Chri&s;t had given out a &s;entence of condemnation, and come to your bed-&s;ide and told you of it, would you not &s;till love him, and tru&s;t in him and hang upon him.</P>
<P>My Lord &s;aid, God knoweth I dur&s;t not challenge him, yea howbeit he &s;hould not love me, yet I will &s;till love him, yea though the Lord &s;hould &s;tay me, yet I will tru&s;t in him, I will lie down at Gods feet; let him trample upon me, I will die if I die at Chri&s;ts feet.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor finding my Lord claiming kindne&s;&s;e to Chri&s;t, and hearing him cry often O Son of God! where art thou, when wilt thou come to me? Oh for a love look!</P>
<P>Then the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, is it po&s;&s;ible my Lord, that you can love and long for Chri&s;t, and he not love and long for you, or can love and kindne&s;&s;e &s;tand only upon your &s;ide? Is your poor fectle&s;s unworthie love, greater then infinite love; &s;eeing he hath &s;aid, <HI>I&s;a. 49. 15. Can a woman forget her &s;ucking childe that &s;he &s;hould not have compa&s;sion on the &s;on of her womb; yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee,</HI> ver. 16. <HI>Behold I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands,</HI> &amp;c. and therefore your loving and longing for Chri&s;t, is a fire of Gods kindling, my Lord, per&s;wade your &s;elf, you are graven on the palmes of Gods hands.</P>
<P>Upon this my Lord with a hearty &s;mile, looked about to a
<PB N="12" REF="12"> Gentleman a good Chri&s;tian, whom he had commanded to attend his body, till his dying hour: <HI>Man,</HI> &s;aith my Lord, <HI>I am written upon the palms of Chri&s;ts hands, he will not forget me, Is not this brave talking.</HI> The Pa&s;tor finding him weaker, &s;aid my Lord, the marriage day is drawing near, make ready the marriage Robes, &s;et a&s;ide all care of your e&s;tate and the world, and give your &s;elf to Meditation, Prayer, and Spiri|tuall Conference.</P>
<P>He was ob&s;erved after that to be always upon that exerci&s;e, and when none was near him he was overheard praying, and many times when to our &s;en&s;e, he was &s;ound &s;leeping, he was at prayer. After a &s;leep he called for the Pa&s;tor, and &s;aid I haven been troubled in my &s;leep with this, that being at peace with God, I am not al&s;o at peace with men, and therefore &s;end for &s;uch a kin&s;man (with whom I am not reconciled) as al&s;o for a Mini&s;ter that had before offended me, that I may friend with them, which was done quickly.</P>
<P>When the Preacher came, he &s;aid I have ground of offence again&s;t you as a naturall man, and now I do to you, that all men breathing could not have moved me to do, but now be|cau&s;e the holy Spirit commands me, I mu&s;t obey, and there|fore I freely forgive you, as I would wi&s;h you to forgive me; you are in an eminent place, walk before God and be faithfull in your calling, and take heed to your &s;teps, walk in the right road, hold your eye right, for all the world, decline not from holine&s;s, and take example by me.</P>
<P>To his Cou&s;in, he &s;aid &s;erve the Lord, and follow not the foot&s;teps of your Father in Law (he had married the Bi&s;hop of <HI>Galloway</HI> his daughter) learn to know that you have a &s;oul, for I &s;ay to you the thou&s;and part of the world knoweth not they have a &s;oul, the world liveth without any &s;en&s;e of God.</P>
<P>He willed the Pa&s;tor to &s;leep in a bed made upon the ground be&s;ide him&s;elf within the chamber, and urged him again&s;t his will to lie down and &s;leep, and &s;aid you and I have a far jour|ney
<PB N="13" REF="12"> to go, make you for it: &s;ome four nights before his death he would drink a cup of wine to the Pa&s;tor, who an&s;wered, I receive it my Lord, in hope you &s;hall drink of the pure river of water of life, proceeding from the throne of God, and from the Lamb; and when the cup was in his hand, with a &s;miling countenance he &s;aid, I think I have good cau&s;e to drink with a good will to you.</P>
<P>After &s;ome heavine&s;s, the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, I come with news to you, he an&s;wered, what be they; The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered be not afraid of Death and Judgement, becau&s;e the Proce&s;s that your Judge had again&s;t you is cancelled and rent in pieces, and Je&s;us Chri&s;t hath trampled it under his feet, your Dittay is burnt; My Lord &s;aid very pithily with a &s;mile, <HI>O that is a luckie tail, I will then believe and rejoyce, for &s;ure I am that Je&s;us Chri&s;t and I once met, and will he not come again:</HI> The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, you have gotten the fir&s;t fruits of the Spirit, the earne&s;t, and Chri&s;t will not loo&s;e his earne&s;t, there|fore the bargain betwixt Chri&s;t and your &s;oul holdeth.</P>
<P>He asked the Pa&s;tor, what is Chri&s;t like that I may know him? The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered, He is like love, and altogether lovely, <HI>Cant.</HI> 5. 6. Love cannot but be known where&s;o|ever it is.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, if you had the man Chri&s;t in your arms very now, would you not thru&s;t him to your heart, howbeit your brea&s;ts and &s;ide be pained with a &s;titch: He an|&s;wered, God knoweth I would forget my pain&punc; and thru&s;t him into my heart, yea if I had my heart in the palm of my hand, I would give it him, and think it too unworthy a gift for him.</P>
<P>He complained of Je&s;us Chri&s;t his going and coming, I finde, &s;aid he, my &s;oul drowned with heavine&s;s, when the Lord cometh he &s;tayeth not long.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid, woers dwell not together, but married folks take up hou&s;e together and &s;undereth not, Je&s;us Chri&s;t
<PB N="14" REF="13"> is now wooing, and therefore he fedeeth his own with hun|ger, which is as growing meat, as the &s;en&s;e of his pre&s;ence.</P>
<P>He &s;aid often, Son of God, when wilt thou come, God is not as man that he &s;hould change, or as the &s;on of manthat he &s;hould repent; tho&s;e that come to Chri&s;t, he ca&s;teth not away, but rai&s;eth them up at the la&s;t day.</P>
<P>Still after peace and full a&s;&s;urance of reconciliation, he ca&s;t back his eyes to his &s;ins and mourned.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor di&s;cour&s;ed to him of the new <HI>Jern&s;alem,</HI> and the glory of our Fathers hou&s;e up above, and &s;aid what will you think, my Lord, when Chri&s;t &s;hall dry your watery eyes, and wipe all tears from your face, and lay your head upon his brea&s;t, and embrace you in his armes, and ki&s;s you with the ki&s;&s;es of his mouth.</P>
<P>He &s;aid I want words to &s;ay what I think, but I know Hea|ven is above the commendation of all earthly men, howbelt they had the tongues of angels.</P>
<P>He was heard to &s;ay in his &s;leep, <HI>my wel beloved is mine, and I am his,</HI> being asked if he had been &s;leeping, he &s;aid he was a&s;leep, but he remembred he was giving a claim to Chri&s;t in his &s;leep.</P>
<P>Another time after &s;leep he wakened with exceeding great joy not long before his death, &s;aying I have felt an extream &s;weetne&s;&s;e, which did ari&s;e from the lower parts of my body and come up to my heart as &s;weet perfume, and &s;o filled it that I was not able to contain the &s;ame, but as a pretious per|fume, it diffu&s;ed it &s;elf through the whole rooms about me with a mo&s;t delicate and odoriferous &s;mell.</P>
<P>The Doctor of Phy&s;ick de&s;ired him to &s;ay over the words again, which he did, and &s;aid he felt joy un&s;peakable and glorious.</P>
<P>After a &s;ound &s;leep in the dawning, the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, where lay Chri&s;t all night, did not your wel beloved lye as a bundle of myrrhe betwixt your brea&s;ts, he an&s;wered, nay
<PB N="15" REF="13"> not berwixt my brea&s;ts, but within my brea&s;ts locked in my heart.</P>
<P>He asked when will my heart be loo&s;ed and my tongue un|tied, that I may expre&s;s the &s;weetne&s;s of the Law of God to my own &s;oul, and before the Pa&s;tor an&s;vvered any thing, he an&s;wered him&s;elf, <HI>even when the winde bloweth.</HI></P>
<P>Being asked by the Pa&s;tor, if ever he had benefited by the word of God in publick, which he had heard preached the&s;e many years, he an&s;wered, I never come to your Communion, but I was filled with the &s;en&s;e of God, and Chri&s;t was power|fully born in upon my &s;oul, that do my be&s;t I vvas not able to hold him out, but in would he be, vvhether I vvould or not, but oh, oh I my vvofull out-breakings, for the Saints I vvas inclined to; the Devil and temptations took me at &s;uch a nick, as I could not win by unhurt, but oh! &s;trong, &s;trong Je&s;us, O the deep of his love that vvould not vvant me.</P>
<P>Being asked vvhat vvas his judgement, anent the Ceremo|nies now entred in the Kirk of God, an&s;vvered I think and am per&s;vvaded in my con&s;cience, they are Super&s;titious, Idola|trous and Antichri&s;tian, and come from Hell, and I repute it a mercy, that my eyes &s;hall not &s;ee the de&s;olation that &s;hall come upon this poor Church; Its plain Popery thats coming among you, God help you, God forgive the Nobility, for they are either key-cold, or ready to welcome Poperie, where|as they &s;hould re&s;i&s;t, and vvo be to a dead time-&s;erving, and prophant Mini&s;terie, they are but a companie of dumb dogs.</P>
<P>He called his Lady, and a Gentleman who vvas a friend to his Lady, and had come from the Ea&s;t Countrey a good vvay to vi&s;it him vvith the Pa&s;tor, cau&s;ed &s;hut the chamber door upon all others, and from his bed directed his &s;peech to the Gentleman, &s;aying, I ever did finde you kinde and hone&s;t to me all the time of my life, therefore I mu&s;t novv give you a charge, vvhich you &s;hall deliver to all the Noblemen you knovv, and with whom you are acquainted, go through them,
<PB N="16" REF="14"> and tell them all, hovv heavie I have found the vveight of the Lords hand upon me, for not giving te&s;timony for the Lord my God, vvhen I had occa&s;ion once in my life at the la&s;t Par|liament, for this foul fault how fierce have I felt the wrath of the Lord my God; <HI>My &s;oul hath raged and roared, I have been ript up to the heart,</HI> tell them that they will be as I am now, en|courage others that &s;tood for the Lord, tell them that failed, that as ever they would wi&s;h to have mercy when they are as I am now, that they would repent, and crave mercy from God; would to God I had &s;uch an occa&s;ion again to te&s;tifie my love to the Lord, for all the earth &s;hould I not do as I have done, tell them.</P>
<P>To a Gentleman a kin&s;man of his, he &s;aid I love your &s;oul and I love your body; you are a ble&s;&s;ed man if you under&s;tand it, becau&s;e ye may have the ble&s;&s;ed means of the word preach|ed be&s;ide you, and &s;eeing you are but a tender man of body, I would not have you to drown your &s;elf &s;o much with try|&s;ting and fa&s;heries of this world (as I did) who knowes but you may be the fir&s;t man may follow me, my greate&s;t grief is that I had not the occa&s;ion of good means as you have, and if you your &s;elf make not the right u&s;e of the occa&s;ion of your means, one day they &s;hall be a witne&s;&s;e again&s;t you; <HI>Alas take example by me, I was a fool and lifted up with folly, and now when I was at the very top, I was taken by the Lord, when I expect|ed lea&s;t:</HI> The Lord hath &s;mitten me, therefore take example by me, and leave the world and the fa&s;heries of friends ti|mou&s;ly, tender your &s;oul, and tender your worn bodie; if I were to live in the world again, I &s;hould not vex and fa&s;h my &s;elf &s;o much as I did, but &s;hould dwell at the <HI>Ru&s;co</HI> the mo&s;t part of my life, that I might have the happine&s;s of the ex|erci&s;e of hearing Gods word preached, as you have, good Cou&s;in u&s;e the coun&s;ell of your Pa&s;tor.</P>
<P>To a Lord that was his brother in law, mock not at my coun&s;ell my Lord, in ca&s;e you follow the cour&s;e you are in,
<PB N="17" REF="14"> you &s;hall never &s;ee the face of le&s;us Chri&s;t, you are deceived with the merchandi&s;e of the Whore that makes the world drunk out of the cup of her fornications, your &s;oul is build|ed upon a &s;andy foundation; when you come to my e&s;tate, you will finde no comfort in your Religion, you know not what wre&s;tlings I have had, before I come to this e&s;tate of comfort: The Kingdom of Heaven is not gotten with a skip or leap, but with much &s;eeking, thrumbling and thru&s;ting. My Lord <HI>Herreis</HI> not liking this di&s;cour&s;e, did pre&s;s to break it off, by the&s;e words, &s;aying, my Lord, I thank you kindely, I am content to &s;ee your Lord&s;hip &s;o re&s;olved, if I had known of your Lord&s;hips &s;ickne&s;&s;e, I had &s;een you &s;ooner; my Lord <HI>Kenmuir</HI> an&s;wered, I pray God give you grace to make good u&s;e of your coming; &s;eeing you are now come, contemn not good coun&s;ell, for I have intere&s;t in your Lord&s;hip, and loves your &s;oul, and I mu&s;t exoner my &s;elf as I will be an&s;wer|able to God.</P>
<P>To a Lady that was his own &s;i&s;ter, who knowes &s;i&s;ter if the words of a dying brother may prevail with a living &s;i&s;ter, alas! you incline to arotten Religion, fie, ca&s;t away this rot|ten dregs, they will not avail you when you are brought to this ca&s;e as I am, the half of the world is ignorant and goeth to Hell, and knoweth not that they have a &s;oul; its a wonder to &s;ee any to know that they have a &s;oul; read the Scriptures, they are plain Scotti&s;h Language, to all who de&s;ire wi&s;dom from God, and to be led to Heaven.</P>
<P>To a Gentleman his neighbour, your &s;oul is in a dangerous ca&s;e, but you &s;ee it not, and as long as you are in the ca&s;e you are in, you will never &s;ee it; I pray you as you love the &s;al|vation of your &s;oul leave the&s;e cour&s;es: you mu&s;t &s;eek out another way to Heaven then you are in, el&s;e look to land at Hell; there are &s;mall means of in&s;truction t<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter"> be had, becau&s;e
<PB N="18" REF="15"> the mo&s;t part of the Mini&s;tery are prophane and ignorant, &s;earch Gods Word for the good old way, and &s;earch and finde all your own ways.</P>
<P>To a Gentleman his Cou&s;in he &s;aid, you are a young man, and knoweth not well vvhat you are doing: &s;eek Gods di|rection for vvi&s;dom in your affairs, and you &s;hall pro&s;per, and learn to know you have need of God to be your friend.</P>
<P>To another Cou&s;in, <HI>David,</HI> you are an aged man, and you know not vvell vvhat an accompt you have to make, and if you were in the ca&s;e I am in, you vvould count more of your ac|compts then you do. I know you better then you believe, for you wor&s;hip God according to mans devices, ye believe lies of God, your &s;oul is in a fearfull ca&s;e, and while ye know the truth you &s;hall never &s;ee your own vvay aright.</P>
<P>To a young man his neighbour, becau&s;e you are but a young man beware of temptations and &s;nares, and above all, be care|full to keep your &s;elf in the u&s;e of means, re&s;ort to good com|panie, and hovvbeit you be nicknamed a Puritan and mocked, yet care not for that but rejoyce and be glad, that they who are &s;corned and &s;coffed by this godle&s;s and vain world, and nick-named Puritans, vvould admit you to their &s;ocietie, for I mu&s;t tell you when I am at this point as you &s;ee me, I get no comfort to my &s;oul by no &s;econd means under Heaven, but from the&s;e who are nick named Puritans; They are the men that can give a word of comfort to a wearied &s;oul in due &s;ea|&s;on, and that I have found by experience &s;ince I did lie down here.</P>
<P>To one of his naturall Si&s;ters, my dove thou art young, and alas ignorant of God, I knovv thy breeding and thy upbring|ing well enough, &s;eek the Spirit of Regeneration: Oh! if thou knevv it, and felt the povver of that Spirit as I do novv, think not all is gone becau&s;e your brother is dead, tru&s;t in
<PB N="19" REF="15"> God, and your father liveth, &amp; beware of the follies of youth, give your &s;elf to reading and praying, and carefull hearing of Gods vvord, and take heed vvhom you hear, and how you hear; God be with you.</P>
<P>To another Pa&s;tor, Mr. <HI>James,</HI> its not holine&s;s enough to be a Mini&s;ter, for you Mini&s;ters have your ovvn faults, and tho&s;e more hainous then other, I pray you be more painfull in your calling, and take good heed to the flock of God, and know that every &s;oul that peri&s;heth by your negligence &s;hall be counted to you &s;oul-murtherers before God, think not but &s;uch a man as I may at this time give a wi&s;e man Coun&s;ell, take heed in the&s;e dangerous dayes how you lead the people of God, and take heed to your Mini&s;try.</P>
<P>To his Chaplain who then was Mr. <HI>George Gille&s;pie,</HI> you have carried your &s;elf di&s;creetly to me, &s;o that I cannot blame you, I hope you &s;hall prove an hone&s;t man; If I have been at any times har&s;h to you, forgive me; I would I had taken better heed to many of your words, I might have gotten good by the means that God gave me, but I made no u&s;e of them: Now I &s;ee it was God &s;ent this Pa&s;tor unto me, becau&s;e he re|&s;olved to &s;tay longer at <HI>Irwing;</HI> The Lord hath now let me &s;ee my wayes, my &s;oul hath been troubled for them, but my God hath given me comfort, and hath begun to loo&s;e my tongue, God be thanked for that which I have gotten, I look for more, great is the work of mercy that is &s;hewn to me now the love of God is made known to my &s;oul, and I am grieved for my ingratitude again&s;t my loving Lord, and that I &s;hould have &s;inned again&s;t him, who came down from the Heaven to the earth for my cau&s;e, to die for my &s;ins; The &s;en&s;e of this love born in upon my heart, hath a reflex making me love my Saviour, and grip to him back again, The
<PB N="20" REF="16"> &s;parks and &s;laughens of this love, &s;hall &s;lic up and down this bed, &s;o long as I lie into it.</P>
<P>To another kin&s;man he &s;aid, learne to u&s;e your pretious time well: Oh! alas the Mini&s;terie in this Countrey is dead, God help you, ye are not right led, ye had need to be bu&s;ie among your &s;elves, and the knowledge God hath given you, u&s;e it and practi&s;e it, men are as carele&s;s in the practi&s;e of of godline&s;s, as if godline&s;s were nothing but fa&s;hious words, &s;ighes and &s;hewes, but all the&s;e will not do the turn: O! but I finde it now hard, to take heaven by violence and to thru&s;t in at.</P>
<P>To two Gentlemen neighbours, Its not ri&s;ing &s;oon in the morning, and running out to the Park and &s;tone-ditch, that will bring peace to the con&s;cience when it comes to this part of the play: you know not, how I have been be|guiled with the world, I would coun&s;ell you to &s;eek that one think that is nece&s;&s;ary, even the &s;alvation of your &s;oul, be continually ca&s;ting your Accompts, let not your reckonings be behinde as mine was, but count with your own &s;ouls eve|ry day and every night.</P>
<P>To a Cou&s;in, Bailie of <HI>Air, Robert,</HI> I know you have light and under&s;tanding, and though you have no need to be in&s;tructed by me, yet have you need to be incite<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter"> care not over much for the world, but make u&s;e of the goo<GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 letter"> occa&s;ions, and means you have in your Countrey, for here is a pack of dumb dogs, that cannot bark, they tell over a cla&s;h of terrour, and a clatter of comfort, without any &s;en&s;e or life.</P>
<P>To a yong Cou&s;in, and another young Gentleman that was his friend, Sirs ye are young men, and ye have far to go, and it may be &s;ome of you have not far to go, and if it fall out that your jovrney be &s;hort how&s;oever its dangerous, now are
<PB N="21" REF="16"> you happie, becau&s;e you have time to lay your Accompts with Je&s;us Chri&s;t: Sir, therefore that your reckoning be made dailie, lea&s;t you be taken (as I am) to make your Accompts, and to have all your &s;en&s;es to &s;eek about you, &s;uffer not there|fore this example, that you &s;ee of me to &s;lip unob&s;erved, but make your be&s;t u&s;e of it, I intreat you to give your youth to Je&s;us Chri&s;t, for it is the mo&s;t precious offer and acceptable gift you can give him, give not your youth to the Devill and your Lu&s;ts, and then re&s;erve nothing to Ie&s;us Chri&s;t, but your old rotten bones; It is to be feared, that then he will not accept you, learn therefore to watch and take example by me.</P>
<P>He called Bi&s;hop <HI>Lamb,</HI> who was then Bi&s;hop of <HI>Galloway,</HI> commanding all who were within the Chamber to remove, and had with him a long conference; exhorted him mo&s;t earne&s;tly, not to mole&s;t or remove the Lords Servants, and not to enforce or enthrall their Con&s;ciences to receive the five Articles of <HI>Pearth,</HI> nor to do any thing again&s;t their Con&s;ciences, but to behave him&s;elf meekly toward them as he would wi&s;h to have mercie from God. The Bi&s;hop an|&s;wered, my Lord, our Ceremonies are of their own nature but things indifferent, and we impo&s;e them for decency and order in Gods Kirk, they need not to &s;tand &s;crupulou&s;ly up|on them as matters of Con&s;cience in Gods Wor&s;hip: My Lord <HI>Kenmuir</HI> replyed, I am not to di&s;pute with you, but one thing I know, and can tell you out of dear experience, that the&s;e things indeed are matters of con&s;cience, and not indifferent, and &s;o I have found them, for &s;ince I did lie down in this bed, the &s;in that lyeth heavie&s;t upon my &s;oul and hath burdened my con&s;cience mo&s;t, was my withdrawing of my &s;elf from the Parliament, and not giving my voice for the truth again&s;t the&s;e things that they call indifferent, for in
<PB N="22" REF="17"> &s;o doing I have denied the Lord my God.</P>
<P>When the Bi&s;hop began to commend and encourage him for his well led life, and did put him in hope of health, and prai&s;ed him for his civill carriage, and legall behaviour, &s;ay|ing, he was not an oppre&s;&s;our, and without any known vice, he an&s;wered, my Lord, thats no matter, a man may be a good civill neighbour, and yet go to Hell: The Bi&s;hop an&s;wered, I confe&s;s my Lord we have all our own faults, and thereafter in&s;i&s;ted in long di&s;cour&s;e, that my Lord thought impertinent, this made him interrupt the Bi&s;hop, &s;aying, what &s;hould more, I have gotten a gripe of Ie&s;us Chri&s;t, and Chri&s;t of me, God be with your Lord&s;hip.</P>
<P>On the morrow, the Bi&s;hop come to vi&s;it him, and &s;aid my Lord how do you, my Lord an&s;wered, I thank God as well as a &s;aved man ha&s;tening to heaven can do; after that he had given the Clerk of <HI>Kirkcudbright</HI> a mo&s;t Divine and grave coun&s;ell anent his Chri&s;tian carriage, and how he &s;hould walk in his particular calling, he cau&s;ed him hold up his hand and &s;wear by the LORD that he &s;hould never con&s;ent, but to oppo&s;e to the election of a corrupt Mini&s;ter or Magi&s;trate.</P>
<P>He &s;aid to his Coach-man, you will novv go to any man, that wil give you mo&s;t hire, but do not &s;o, go where ye may get be&s;t company, though you get le&s;s wages, yet wil you get the more grace; (he made him hold up his hand and promi&s;e before God to do &s;o) becau&s;e your calling is &s;ubject to drunken|ne&s;s and company.</P>
<P>To two yong Serving-men that came to him weeping to get his la&s;t ble&s;&s;ing, he &s;aid, content not your &s;elves to be like old wives with a &s;uperficial &s;hew of Religion, to make a &s;hew of ble&s;&s;ing your &s;elves in the morning for the fa&s;hion onlie, yea, although you would pray both morning and evening, yet that wil not avail you, except likewi&s;e you make your account every
<PB N="23" REF="17"> day: Oh! ye will finde few to direct or coun&s;ell you, but I will tell you what to do, fir&s;t pray the Lord fer|ventlie to enlighten the eyes of your minde, then &s;eek grace to rule your affections, ye will finde the good of this when you are as I am, he took their oath to &s;trive to do &s;o; and as he coun&s;elled them, he made many Di|vine and powerfull Exhortations &s;o many &s;undry per|&s;ons, that all might be hardlie written for length; he cau|&s;ed everie man to hold up their hands, and &s;ware in his pre|&s;ence that by Gods grace, they &s;hould forbear their former &s;ins, and follow his coun&s;ell.</P>
<P>After that he had exhorted many Friends and Ser|vants, as they were going out of the Chamber he &s;aid to them &s;tay (Sirs) I have &s;omewhat yet to &s;ay, be not deceived with the World, for me I have played the fool and brought the hou&s;e of <HI>Kenmuir</HI> to the perfection of a compleat Fabrique, as it was never before, and bu|&s;ied my &s;ell exceedingly, and when I came to the top of my hopes, and thought to enjoy them, the LORD came and plucked me from my hopes, thereafter I did &s;ee my own folly, and this al&s;o I ob&s;erved in my Father, take example by me, and be not en&s;nared with the World. There be &s;ome who &s;eek the world too carefullie, and &s;ome too greedily, &amp; many unlawfullie, and men have it &s;o much in their minde, that they are upon the World in the morning, ere they come out of their bed, &amp; before ever they &s;eek God: Sirs, &s;et your hearts to give pains in &s;ad earne&s;t for the Kingdom of Heaven, I will tell you, the Heaven|lie Kingdom is not gotten with a skip or a leap: I finde it now, there mu&s;t be thru&s;ting and thronging and climbing to enter in; It is a &s;trait and narrow way; his omi&s;&s;ion of prayer in the morning time, through needle&s;s foyles and
<PB N="24" REF="18"> di&s;tractions touched his con&s;cience, this he confe&s;&s;ed with regrate.</P>
<P>He was giving a Divine coun&s;ell to a Friend, and re&s;ted in the mid&s;t of it, and looked up to Heaven, and prayed for a loo&s;ed heart and tongue to expre&s;s the goodne&s;s of God to men, and thereafter went on in his coun&s;ell, not unlike to <HI>Jacob, Gen.</HI> 49. 18. Who in the mid&s;t of a Pro|pheticall Te&s;tament re&s;teth a little and &s;aith, <HI>Lord I have waited for thy &s;alvation.</HI></P>
<P>He gave his Lady divers times, and that openly, an ho|nourable and ample te&s;timony of holine&s;&s;e and goodne&s;s, and all re&s;pective kindne&s;s to her husband, and craved her forgivene&s;&s;e earne&s;tly, where he had offended her, and de&s;ired her to make the LORD her com&s;orter, and &s;aid he was but gone before, and it was but 15. or 16. years up or down.</P>
<P>He &s;pake ordinarily to all the Boys of the Hou&s;e, Servants, Butlers, Cooks, omitting none, &s;aying, learn to &s;erve and fear the LORD, and u&s;e the means of your Salvations carefully, that you put not your Accompts to the hinder end of the day as I did fooli&s;hly, I know what is ordinarily your Religion, yea go to the Kirk, and when ye hear the Devill or Hell named in the prea|ching, ye &s;igh and make a noi&s;e, and it is forgot with you before you come home, and then ye are holy enough, but I can now tell you the Kingdom of Heaven is not got|ten &s;o ea&s;ily; then your Pa&s;tors and guides mi&s;leadeth you, They are but a pack of dumb Dogs, u&s;e the means your &s;elf and win to &s;ome &s;en&s;e of God, and pray as you can morning and evening; if you be ignorant of the way to heaven, God forgive you, for I di&s;charge my &s;elf in that point toward you, and appointed a man to teach you, your
<PB N="25" REF="18"> blood be upon your &s;elves; The little knowledge that you have, if you would u&s;e it carefully, and with a good Con&s;cience, the Lord would lead you on farther, and teach you his wayes, but your form is to aske for that Ma&s;ter who will give you mo&s;t hire, and little care you to live in good Company, where you may finde the means of Salvation, and &s;o ye &s;pend the time all over in the ignorance of GOD; he took an Oath of his Servants, that they &s;hould follow his advice; he had a Speech &s;everal|ly to every one of them; he was &s;o far humbled that he &s;aid to every one of them (the meane&s;t no excepted) if I have been rough to thee, or offende thee, I Pray thee for Gods &s;ake forgive me, and among others, one to whom he had been rough, &s;aid, your Lord&s;hip did me never wrong, I will never get &s;uch a ma&s;ter again, yet my Lord urged the boy to &s;ay, My Lord, I forgive you, howbeit the boy was hardly brought to utter the&s;e words.</P>
<P>He &s;aid to all the beholders about him, Sirs, behold how low the Lord hath laid me.</P>
<P>To a gentleman burdened in his e&s;tate, Sir, I coun|&s;ell you to ca&s;t your burdens upon the Lord your GOD.</P>
<P>A worthy and Religious Gentleman of his name come to vi&s;it him four dayes before his death; he be|holding him afar off, &s;aid, <HI>Robert,</HI> come to me, leave me not till I die; thereafter being much comforted with the Gentlemans words, he would have him to wa upon his body, and being more and more comforte with his &s;peeches, he &s;aid, <HI>Robert,</HI> you are a friend bot to my &s;oul and to my body; this Gentleman asked hin
<PB N="25" REF="19"> &s;aying, my Lord, what comfort hath your &s;oul in your love towards the Saints; he an&s;wered, I rejoyce at it; then he asked what comfort have you in bringing this Pa&s;tor who attends you to <HI>Galloway;</HI> he an&s;wered, GOD knoweth that I rejoyce that ever GOD did put it in my heart &s;o to do, and now becau&s;e I aimed at Gods glory in it, the Lord hath made me to finde comfort, to my &s;oul; in the end, I would coun&s;ell all men that think|eth to die, to lay up many good works again&s;t the time of departure: the Mini&s;ters of <HI>Galloway</HI> murthered my Fathers &s;oul, and if this man had not come they had murthered mine al&s;o.</P>
<P>In the hearing of my Lady <HI>Herreis</HI> his &s;i&s;ter, a Papi&s;t, he te&s;tified how willing he was to leave the world, that he could not command his &s;oul to look back again to this life, he did &s;o long (as he &s;aid) for his &s;oul-full of the well of life, that Papi&s;ts may &s;ee that the&s;e who dieth in this Religion, &s;eeth and knoweth well whi|ther they go, and that we are by death fully loo&s;ed from the love of this world, for the hope of our own Fa|thers hou&s;e.</P>
<P>It was told him, that Letters were come from &s;ome of his friends to him, he cau&s;ed deliver them to his Lady, &s;aying, I have nothing to do with them, I had rather hear of news from Heaven concerning my eternall &s;alvation.</P>
<P>It was ob&s;erved, when any came to him anent worldly bu&s;ine&s;s, that before they were out at the doors, he returned unto praying, conference, medi|tation, or &s;ome Spirituall exerci&s;e, and was exceeding &s;hort in di&s;patching all earthly bu&s;ine&s;s; yet &s;o as he took the pains to &s;igne all needfull Writs when he was
<PB N="27" REF="19"> required, likewi&s;e he recommended the ca&s;e of the poor to his friends.</P>
<P>When he was wearing weaker, he fell in a &s;wound, and being awaked, he &s;aid with &s;miling, and &s;ignes of joy to all about him, I would not exchange my life with you all, nay not with you who are Mini&s;ters, I feel the &s;mell of the place where I am going to.</P>
<P>Upon the <HI>Fryday</HI> in the morning 12. <HI>September,</HI> which was the day of his departure, he &s;aid to the Pa&s;tor, this night mu&s;t I &s;up with Je&s;us Chri&s;t in Paradice: The Pa|&s;tor red to him, 2 <HI>Cor. 5. Rev.</HI> 22. and made &s;ome &s;hort notes upon &s;uch places as concerned his e&s;tate: After Prayer he &s;aid I conceive good hope, that God look|eth upon me when he gives his &s;ervants &s;uch liberty as to pray for me: Is it po&s;&s;ible that Je&s;us Chri&s;t can loo&s;e his grips of me, neither may my &s;oul get it &s;elf plucked from Je&s;us Chri&s;t.</P>
<P>He earne&s;tly de&s;ired &s;en&s;e of Gods pre&s;ence, and the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, What, my Lord, if that be &s;u&s;pended till you come to your own home, and be before the throne clothed in white, and get your harp in your hand to &s;ing &s;alvation to the Lamb, and to him that &s;itteth on the throne, for that is heaven, and who dare promi&s;e you upon earth, There is a piece of nature in de&s;iring a &s;en&s;e of Gods love, it being an apple that the Lords children delight to play with; but, my Lord, if you would have it onely, as a pledge of your &s;alvation, we &s;hall &s;eek it from the Lord to you, and you may lawfully pray for it, earne&s;t prayers were made for him, and my Lord te&s;ti|fied that he was filled with the &s;en&s;e of his Lords love.</P>
<P>Being asked what he thought of the world, he an&s;we|red, <HI>Its bitterer then gall or wormwood.</HI> Being demanded
<PB N="28" REF="20"> if now he feared death, he an&s;wered, I have ta&s;ted death now; Its not a whit bitter, welcome the Me&s;&s;en|ger of <HI>Je&s;us Chri&s;t;</HI> he never left off to mourn for his &s;ins, e&s;pecially his de&s;erting of the Parliament.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor &s;aid to him, My Lord, their is a proce&s;s betwixt the Lord and your fathers hou&s;e, but your name is taken out of the Proce&s;s, dear and how dear was hea|ven bought for you by your Saviour <HI>Je&s;us Chri&s;t,</HI> I know there is wrath again&s;t my Fathers hou&s;e, but I &s;hall get my &s;oul for a prey, which words he had frequently in his mouth, oft times al&s;o he would &s;ay is not this a &s;weet word that God &s;aith, <HI>As I live I delight not in the death of &s;inners;</HI> he &s;aid often I will not let go the grip that I have gotten of Chri&s;t, though he &s;hould &s;lay me I will tru&s;t in him, and lie at his feet and die there, and lie at his door like a begger waiting on, and if I may not knock, I &s;hall &s;crape; another word was ordinary to him, <HI>O Son of God, one love-blink, one &s;mack, one ki&s;&s;e of thy mouth, one &s;mile.</HI></P>
<P>When he had been deep in a meditation of his change of life, he made this que&s;tion, what will Je&s;us Chri&s;t be like when he cometh? it was an&s;wered, <HI>all lovely.</HI></P>
<P>The day of his change being <HI>Friday 12. September</HI> he was heard pray divinely, on which day he &s;aid to the Doctor, I thought to have been di&s;&s;olved ere now; The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered, my Lord, weary not off the Lords yoke, Ie&s;us Chri&s;t is po&s;ting fa&s;t to be at you, he is with|in few miles; he an&s;wered mildely, this is my infirmity, I will wait on, he is worthy the on-waiting, though he be long in coming, yet I dare &s;ay he is coming, leaping, over the mountains, and skipping over the hills, if he were once come, we &s;hould not &s;under.</P>
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<P>The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered, &s;ome have gotten in this &s;ame life their full of Chri&s;t, howbeit Chri&s;t is oft under a mask to his own in this life, and will have them ki&s;sing him through a mask, yet even his be&s;t Saints <HI>Job, David, Jeremiah</HI> were under de&s;ertions.</P>
<P>My Lord an&s;wered, what are their examples to me, I am not in holine&s;&s;e near to <HI>Job, David,</HI> or <HI>Jeremiah,</HI> The Pa&s;tor an&s;wered its true my Lord, you cannot take &s;uch wide &s;teps as they did, but you are in the &s;ame way with them, a young childe followeth his father at the back, though he cannot take &s;uch wide &s;teps as he, yet this hin|dereth him not to be in the &s;ame way with him; my Lord your hunger overcometh your Faith, only but be|lieve his Word, you are longing for Chri&s;t, onely be|lieve Ie&s;us Chri&s;t is faithfull, and will come quickly.</P>
<P>To this my Lord an&s;wered, <HI>I think it time Lord Je&s;us come?</HI> Then the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, my Lord, our nature is in trou|ble to be wholly upon our own deliverance whereas God &s;eeketh fir&s;t to be Glorified in our Faith and Patience and Hope, and then it is time enough that we be deli|vered, he an&s;wered, Good rea&s;on, my Lord be fir&s;t &s;er|ved, <HI>Lord give me to wait on, onlie Lord burn me not to dro&s;se.</HI></P>
<P>Another &s;aid, ca&s;t back your eyes, my Lord, upon that which you have received and be thankful, at the hearing whereof he pre&s;ently brake forth in prai&s;ing of God, and finding him&s;elf weak, and his &s;peech failing, &s;ome more then an hour before death, he de&s;ired the Pa&s;tor to pray, which he did; after Prayer the Pa&s;tor cryed in his ear, my Lord, may you now &s;under with Chri&s;t; he &s;aid nothing, nor was it expected he &s;hould &s;peak any more, yet a little after, the Pa&s;tor aske <GAP DESC="illegible" RESP="MURP" EXTENT="1 span"> ye any &s;en&s;e of
<PB N="30" REF="21"> the Lords love, he an&s;wered, <HI>I have &s;en&s;e,</HI> The Pa&s;tor &s;aid do you not enjoy, he an&s;wered, <HI>I do enjoy,</HI> thereafter the Pa&s;tor &s;aid, will ye not &s;under with Chri&s;t, he an|&s;wered, <HI>by no means,</HI> This was the la&s;t word, not being able to &s;peak any more.</P>
<P>The Pa&s;tor asked if he &s;hould pray, he turned his eye towards the Pa&s;tor; in the time of that la&s;t Prayer he was ob&s;erved joyfully &s;miling, and looking up with glo|rious looks, as was ob&s;erved by the beholders, and with a certain beauty, his vi&s;age was beautified, as beautifull as ever he was in his life; he expired with loud and &s;trong &s;etches and &s;obs, being &s;trong of heart and body, of the age of five and thirty yeers: The expiring of his breath, the cea&s;ing of the motion of his pul&s;e (which the Phy&s;itian was &s;till gripping) try&s;ed all preci&s;ely with the <HI>Amen</HI> of his Prayer, and &s;o died he &s;weetly, and holily, and his end was Peace; he departed about the &s;etting of the Sun, <HI>September</HI> 12. 1634.</P>
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